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arachine · 1 year

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u asked so I shall deliver :3

but imagine whiny n fucked out Dave Lizewski omfffhhhgggggg, his hair is a mess n his glasses are falling off, they're all dirty too bc he's handsy! Ik he is! and he tries to grab anything he can on u but u just tut him and tell him to keep his hands to himself, so nowwww he's whining even more, he's begging too atp, all glossy eyes and jutted out lips. I KNOW he's a pretty crier, so why shouldn't u mess with him a lil yk?

moral of the story, Dave. Just Dave.

nghhhhh rina i’m gonna scream SO loud.

warnings: unprotected sex, dacryphilia (i think? cba to check if i included it), whiny dave (like down bad, pussydrunk dave) + so rushed i’m sorry but i need to fr study lol :3

can just imagine him begging to touch you. at first, he tries to bargain with you. asks if he can just ‘hold your hips for a bit’, so you don’t ‘fall off’—as he puts it. but you’re ruthless. all bite and no bark.

“good boys keep their hands to themselves,” you tsk, swatting away his wandering appendage. the admonishment forces a whine from his throat, and he retracts his hand quickly like a child scolded for getting into the cookie jar. “don’t you wanna be a good boy for me, baby?”

“yes—fuck—god, yes. j’st let me touch you, let me h-hold you,” he pleads, and it’s so cute. the knot between his brows, the erythro in his cheeks—the crystalline droplets cascading down his face. it doesn’t take much persuasion to get you to acquiesce; not when he’s beneath you like this. looking up at you like you just hung the stars in the sky. “ok, go ahead, baby. touch me.”

and as soon as you give him the okay, he’s flipping you over onto your back, all muscles and eagerness. grabs the weight of his cock and bullies it into your little hole, unconcerned by your protests and light-hearted pleas for him to slow down.

“easy, ‘m not going anywhere,” you giggle, but it falls on deaf ears because he’s concentrated. focused—on one thing and one thing only—or maybe two things—or a few things: your skin, the rivulets of sweat between your breasts, your eyes—the perfect little ‘o’ shape your mouth makes when he hits that spot just right. yeah, he’s focused.

“babybabybaby, i’m close,” he says in your ear, a mixture of a whine and cry, “please, lemme do it inside. can i? i’ll get you the pill, swear i will, s-swear it!”

and at the nod of your approval, he’s pistoning into you like a rabid thing. all mumbles and whimpers, expletives and grunts. telling you how sweet you are to him, and how lucky he is to have a girlfriend who let’s him finish inside her.

says he’ll, “never fuck another girl again,” while the weight of his hand rests firmly against your jaw, and his lithe fingers maneuver your head to meet his lips. and you know he’s telling the truth—because his eyes are all hazy and glossy. they get like that when he’s close; and they got like that when he declared his love for you some time ago. a tell-tale sign.

“so close, baby. use me, you can do it,” you caress his cheek, clenching once, twice, three times around him in an effort to get him to finish. and it works. he manages a few more lazy thrusts before he’s plopping down onto you with a strangled moan and a sigh.

“about that pill…” he starts, “i only have $10 in my account. don’t think we’re ready to be parents.”

gasping, you raise a hand to yank him back by the hair, “lizewski, get off of me right now.” the brunet chuckles but it only coaxes you to pull tighter at the scalp.

“ow, okay, okay. i was just kidding,” he admits, grabbing at the hand holding his hair by the root, “let me go and i’ll go pick it up.”

“alright, go,” you release him, “but seriously, get off of me. you’re heavy.”

#dave lizewski x reader #dave lizewski x reader smut #dave lizewski #tangerine x reader #tangerine x reader smut #aaron taylor johnson #:: — rina bina fo fina 🎀 !#‹ ଘ(੭*ˊᵕˋ)੭*♡‧₊˚𝐛𝐚𝐛𝐲 𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐡𝐧𝐢𝐝𝐬 ᥫ᭡ .ᐟ ›#:: — LEXI WRITES !

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httpiastri · 2 months

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okay so i started writing on a boyfriend!paul blurb for after the race today, but then i deleted it and wrote this instead: a short snippet of a future chapter of the "the way i loved you" fic 😋 pretty short but it's all i can produce rn lol. will likely have some changes when i post the actual chapter. aiming to post the first things from the fic soon !!! hope u enjoy 😚

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paul is beaming when you see him stroll back to the paddock after his media duties. his cap is perched on top of his head – the right cap, finally – and his fingers are still tightly wrapped around the neck of his champagne bottle. when he notices you leaning against the doorframe leading into the f2 hospitality, his smile grows even bigger.

you meet him halfway, arms wrapping around his shoulders easily, just like they have so many times before. one of his arms drapes around your waist and he holds you close, a hum vibrating from his chest. "congrats, paul," you tell him. "that was amazing. you were amazing."

"thank you," he says before pausing. then, he lets out a chuckle. "to be honest, i wasn't sure if you would care."

you frown at him when you pull slightly away from him, just enough to look into his eyes. is that what he really thought? that you wouldn't care about his driving? "oh, please. you still mean a lot to me, okay?" your hand moves down to his upper arm, giving it a soft squeeze. "i still consider you to be one of my closest friends."

friends. the word stings like a knife in his heart. it's been months since you broke up, and yet, it still feels like a raw wound.

paul forces a smile. he understands that despite how painful it is, there's something good in it. there's still a place for him in your heart, even if he's forced to share it with someone else.

he pulls you in again, and the hug is even tighter now than before. it's a comforting feeling; you're both at peace, with a good weekend behind you, in the arms of someone so close to you. after everything you've gone through together, but especially everything he has gone through these last few months with the mercedes academy and so on, you're finally through to the other side. "it all worked out in the end, huh?" you ask after a few moments of silence.

"i guess it did." you part from each other to leave that oh-so-familiar gap between you yet again. "will you be celebrating with us tonight? i think pepe had something planned. you know how he is."

you snort. "yeah, i do know. maybe i will." you shift uncomfortably, crossing your arms over your chest as your eyes dart to the ground. "but, um... i'll have to check with..."

you don't even say his name – you don't have to. ollie didn't just have a bad race today; the entire weekend has been so far from everyone's expectations. and if you know him correctly, he will not be in the mood for celebrations tonight.

paul just nods slowly, pressing his lips into a thin line. "right."

the silence that follows is so awkward you can't help but chew on your bottom lip, a tiny sigh escaping through your mouth. he must be hating this, you think – today is supposed to be only a good day for him, he shouldn't have his ex's new relationship pushed up in his face.

"well, i have a debrief to get to," you make up, flashing him a quick smile. "congrats again, paul."

"thank you." he gives you another nod, before turning away and making his way towards the paddock. "pepe will text you!"

and just like that, he's off, and your mind wanders to the thought of actually going out to celebrate. ollie will definitely not join you, though you're not sure why you don't want to go without him. is it because you'd rather stay and comfort him?

or is it because you're scared of what you'll do, or feel, when you're alone with paul for the first time since you broke up?

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banquetwriter · 19 days

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Please do a part 2 to the Johnnie fix u just posted !

୨୧ Cinnamon pt:2 ୨୧

pairing: Johnnie Guilbert ♡︎ Reader

warnings: ୭̥⋆*｡

summary: ʚ A part two to cinnamon ɞ

Words: 1034

An: this was in reference to: cinnamon go check it out since this is part two! This turned out so bad I'm so sorry. I never wanted to make a part two to this so I'm a lil upset lol

It was the day after the party, you weren't too hungover by any means, just a little sick feeling in the morning but that had passed hours ago. You had also left the party early deciding it wasn't fair to torture yourself with Johnnie all night long.

You were taking a slow sip of your drink and scrolling around Pinterest when an Instagram DM from Johnnie popped up on your phone. Your eyebrow shot up tapping the notification.

J: ‘Hey, you left that party quickly last night. Sure you're doing ok?’

You smiled briefly at his message. You set your drink down while sitting up to reply.

‘Haha yeah I’m all good just got a little overwhelmed that's all :)’

You sent your message and decided to put your phone down. You didn't want to wait around for his reply, that was only going to cause you to get even more attached to someone who didn't like you. You turned the TV on and put on one of your favorite shows.

You say most of an episode is for caving and checking for a text back. Sure enough, that was a notification from the world's favorite emo boy. You tap on it unlocking your phone.

J: ‘oh ok. I'm always here if you need to talk or anything like that. Can I ask what made you so overwhelmed?’ he asked. You felt that familiar heartbeat increase as you re-read his message over and over again.

‘It was just someone I didn't wanna be around for that long. It wasn't in a bad way, I just needed a break from someone.’ you replied. You Weren't sure why you couldn't just lie to him but you couldn't.

You hoped he would take your words and leave you be, but as fate would have it… he doesn't. J: ‘Was it me?’ he asks. You're not sure how to respond, you suppose it would be time to talk this out as the opportunity presented itself.

‘We can talk sometime in person, ok? Are you free at all this week?’ you sent back, anxiety creeping its way through your whole body in waves. This wasn't right. We shouldn't meet.

Was there a possibility that Johnnie actually liked you? No. Right? You Weren't sure at this point. People who like someone check in on them. Maybe he DID like you just not how you want him to.

Your heart nearly exploded when you heard another text go through. J: ‘Im free today’ your heart was pounding so fast. Would you even have the courage to meet today in the first place.

It's better to get the bandage ripped off sooner than later. ‘Works for me lets get dinner?’ you sent the message feeling like you were going to vomit. You wanted to get all ready for him, look your best.

But you knew you shouldn't do that. He needed this from you at your most true self. Sweatpants and all. He agreed and you both arranged plans to meet in only four hours.

Four hours is a lot of time to wait for something but it felt even longer as you checked the clock every five minutes to see if it was time or not. But after all your waiting it was finally time to leave.

You pulled up to this place and Johnnie was already standing outside. You both shuffle around each other awkwardly for a moment before you tell him to sit down. You choose a spot outside and sit down.

The wind blows on both of you as it chills you to the bone. “So I did leave because of you but, that sounds so scary and mean.” you start. He just stared at you for a moment “ok.” was all he said, his voice wavering.

“It's because I really like you. And I know this sounds immature and silly but when you didn't talk to me at the party I felt so alone. I thought you might have liked me too and I don't know. I just needed to leave after you gave me water.” you confessed to him.

It all felt so silly now. Leaving a party because a boy didn't like you. He doesn't say anything and again your instinct is to just run, as fast and as far as you can. Johnnie doesn't let that happen this time.

As soon as you stand up his arm reaches out for you. You stop at his contact. “Y/n I definitely like you, don't worry,” he said as you slowly sat back down. You hold his eyes before eventually feeling the feeling of shame creep back in.

“Sorry,” you mumble slowly. “I thought you left because I made you uncomfortable or something,” he said, the wind blowing again. Your heart was soaring at his words. “No, I was just high and overwhelmed,” you said looking down at his hand that was still holding your arm.

“Oh right. Well, I definitely like you, I don't talk to people I don't like this much,” he said, causing both of you to giggle slightly. “I'm sorry for the way I reacted. I just got so scared,” you said through a pitiful laugh.

“It's ok we all get scared of something. I just can't ever imagine someone like you liking someone like me,” he said rubbing the back of his neck. “What do you mean? You're so fucking funny and nice Johnnie of course I like you,” you say with a smile.

“Thanks but I don't believe you. It's just that you're so funny, smart, and… pretty. I don't know how I can compare.” he said looking down. “Johnnie, that's how I feel about you,” you said leaning towards him.

“We should hang out sometime,” he said, unfortunately removing his hand from your arm to fix his hair. “We’re hanging out right now,” you said, tilting your head slightly. “No, I mean like on a date?” he says looking up at you through his hair. “You wanna take me on a date?” you whisper leaning further towards him.

“Y-yes we should go on a date,” he said again, adjusting his hair. “Ok let's go on a date then.”

“OK?”

“Ok.”

#johnnie x you #johnnie #johnnie guilbert angst #jake and johnnie #johnnie x reader #johnnie guilbert fluff #johnnie guilbert x you #johnnie guilbert x reader #johnnie guilbert

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worriedvision · 1 year

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maybe some angst with Alhaitham?

reader has a not so subtle crush on Alhaitham & always does little things for him but finally gives up one day after overhearing him talk about how exasperating reader is (but really this man just doesn’t understand these new feelings he has towards reader),, reader starts to ignore him/brush him off when he finally starts to initiate interaction & realizes he misses reader - possibly ending in fluff?? :))

also sorry if this is too specific but ofc do whatever u want with it!

Hehehehe, no promises this is gonna be a happy ending ;), gender neutral reader. Decided to make the reader Tighnari's sibling lol, I like the idea of Tighnari being protective.

Alhaitham had this ick in his life that didn't seem to get any hints he tried to give off. This ick of his kept nagging at him day after day.

This ick was you.

You were supposed to only help him with a case he was working on. He needed information, and you were smart enough to at least get the good stuff without too much prompting. You helped with it, and he thanked you.

You, however, kept giving him evidence he didn't know he needed. At first he found it beneficial, but over time he started to grow nervous whenever you showed up with it. That smile on your face whenever he accepted your efforts, and the way you always asked him if he wanted to 'hang out' later on.

Thing is, Kaveh saw you both interacting one day, and he knew the 'nervousness' his roommate was complaining of when he was asking Kaveh about the best way to get you out of his life permanently.

One night, you were heading over to Alhaithams place with a book you knew he would love. It was a book that was highly confidential, a book Alhaitham kept voicing an interest in when talking to people (and admittedly yourself). Your brother had the book back when he was a student, a book he wasn't supposed to have. You'd rather not think of the argument you had with Tighnari when you asked him for the book, the end of the argument with Tighnari telling you that there was no use getting caught with a book you shouldn't even know about for a man.

Of course, you still took it anyway. Your brother doesn't report it, knowing he would get into trouble for knowing of the book as well. He did hope you would do the correct thing and do this more for yourself than a man.

You were about to knock on the door, only to hear two bickering voices.

"I think it's really quite sweet of them. I believe your heart is slowly growing soft for them, and it's quite romantic of them to go out of their way for you." You hear an unfamiliar voice purr.

"Oh, shut it." Alhaitham brushes off the mans words. "I find it embarrassing. They can't take the obvious hints I have no interest in them, nor have I voiced a need for any of the items they keep bringing me. They ought to find some self respect and get a life." He continues, and you can hear him roll his eyes. "They are wasting my time."

Your ears droop, your heart sinking as you hear those words. The way you feel like you could turn to dust, it was painful for you.

Tighnari hears your footsteps, and he didn't need a pair of eyes to know you were hurt. He expects you to need a first aid kit, and he turns to scold you, only to see you hugging the book close to your chest.

"I should have listened to you." You whine, pouting as you rest your chin on the book.

"What did he say?" Tighnari asks, sitting you down as he thinks about his next actions. He doesn't get a reply, and he shakes his head. "I won't kick you while you're down." He finishes, holding back the obvious 'I told you so'. "Yoink!" He calls out, taking the book back from you before you could make your mind up to give the book to the ungrateful man again. You yell out a 'hey' in protest, Tighnari smirking before getting the idea to get you to chase him for a while before he finally puts the book away.

Alhaitham hadn't seen you, and he didn't get why he wasn't happy about it. He didn't even feel relieved in the least, and it wasn't purely because you provided the good stuff for him. It's only after he doesn't see you for a few weeks that he finally realises his roommate was - for once - correct.

He was catching feelings for you.

When he asks his roommate for help with finding you and confessing his feelings, Kaveh can't help but laugh.

"Oh, I wish I had a kamera on me! The look of concern on your face, I don't believe I have ever seen it. I wonder how much I could get from it..." Kaveh trails off, placing a hand on his chin.

"It would help with rent. Something you don't always pay." Alhaitham coldly stops him.

"Fine, fine." He brushes off. "I suppose you don't want my romantic advice then..."

"Oh? Is that an eviction letter I'm sensing coming up with your name on it?" Alhaitham responds, Kaveh finally getting back to the topic.

"Who is this person, if you don't mind me asking?" Kaveh asks. Alhaitham states your name, and Kaveh can't stop himself from smirking knowingly.

"What?" Alhaitham asks, crossing his arms.

"You'll need to go through their brother first. If you want to know where he is, head off towards Gandarva Ville." Kaveh states.

At first Alhaitham thought it was a joke, but after he finds nothing with his own search, he follows Kaveh's directions.

Alhaitham didn't expect your brother to be this...intimidating. At this point, he didn't even think you heard his conversation with Kaveh about his uncertainty about you. Here he was, trying to figure out how to get out of this discussion with a way of finding you.

"Uncross your arms when I'm talking to you." Tighnari states. Alhaitham does as he requests, apologising to him. "It's 'Master Tighnari' to you."

Where did this man get his confidence? Alhaitham felt like he was the size of an ant with how he was being talked down to.

"Did you take in anything I just said?" Tighnari asks, raising a brow. Alhaitham does not respond, not knowing how to. "You lummox, I'm telling you to stay away from my sibling."

"And if I don't?" Alhaitham asks.

"Who are you talking to?" Tighnari asks, refusing to respond until he was addressed.

"And what if I don't, Master Tighnari?" Alhaitham rolls his eyes, crossing his arms.

"Are your arms compensating for a lack of basic respect?" Tighnari asks. "I have already told you once to stop crossing your arms, and here you are defying my orders."

Alhaitham refuses this time, Tighnari huffing before grabbing the book you took to give to Alhaitham. Tighnari tosses the book at Alhaitham, it avoiding his face by millimetres.

"Get yourself a better plan, and talk to me then." Tighnari states. "You are dismissed."

On that walk back to his apartment, it slowly dawns on him that Tighnari had effectively put him below him. It was impressive that a man of his ego was knocked down, but then again this was with your brother. Anyone who had common sense could tell your brother was protective of you, and the intelligence Tighnari had did not make things easier in this case.

Problem was, Alhaitham still didn't understand why you were distant.

#alhaitham #tighnari #kaveh #alhaitham x gender neutral reader #alhaitham x reader #gender neutral reader

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shinycollarboneapologist · 1 year

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calling bbf matty after a date because the guy couldn’t get you off 😭🤲

u guys are so sick. (i love it)

but a great opportunity for sneaky phone sex with bbf matty. you're in your apartment, completely dissatisfied and you know theres one guy out there who can talk you into a mindnumbing, body shaking climax. he's already a little peeved that you even went out with someone that wasn't him, but you both have to keep up the charade and keep george (esp) none the wiser. when you call him, he picks up on the first ring, barely even letting the ringtone play out. and he's chuffed, asking you about the date and you're vague at first because you can't really think straight and you think he's just going to be in a piss-poor attitude the whole entire phone call. just as you're about to hang up, you blearily hear him ask a question, and when you don't answer he repeats it, firmer tone "i asked if he made you cum." and you're mind goes blank because that's a little invasive lol, but you're too turned on by just the sheer tone of his voice that you murmur out a meek "no" and he groans, "this is why i told you not to go out with those silly little boys, baby" (he's only like 2-4 years your senior tho, so it does garner an eye roll from you) and you're whimpering an apology, and probably already started touching yourself lbr. and when he hears a gasp from the other end its all over for you, because on top of calling you a baby, he's talking you through it, telling you all of the things he would do to you if he was there and in that knobheads spot. (because if he was, you would not have left until you've cum like three times) and you're barely just barely holding on when he tells you to stop and you just blink because what. but you hear an engine start and he puffs out "i'm on my way." and then he comes over and proves to you why you shouldn't be wasting your time with anyone else but him :D

#ask.#answered.#anon.#bbf!matty #this one is dedicated to u all

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modernchillthings · 1 year

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I know I just did a little rant about Sooho so let me just talk about Sieun and why he is the way he is (or why I THINK so)

It's pretty obvious his parents neglect him, probably as early as childhood based on that flashback scene. I don't remember which parent said it but one of them most likely did not want to have a child and that outlook can definitely affect the way you raise your kid.

Based on that flashback, they were so unprepared with the thought of Sieun ever getting hurt (he had a broken arm I think?) I get being worried, but that was not worry to me tbh, it was more like they didn't expect raising kids to be so troublesome which is such a ridiculous notion! They get hurt, they get sick and you can't just expect a child to raise themselves no matter how smart or good they are. They need guidance! They need love!

And I don't remember what ep it was but when the dad asked Sieun if he still fell asleep in class or something like that and Sieun responded 'I don't do that anymore'. Idk that made me think that Sieun had like a chronic sleeping thing that he probably managed on his own just so he wouldn't trouble his parents. And the way Sieun at that age, understood how much 'trouble' he seemed to cause his parents, I think that's what started his very 'cold' and 'unfeeling' nature.

And from then on out, Sieun decided not to be a bother to his parents at all. That also made me think...okay, if he didn't want to bother them...then did he want to make them proud of him instead to show that he wasn't gonna be their problem?

And I get it, he's so me lol. Because I try so hard not to be a bother to not just my parents, but honestly any adult authority figure in my life. But the diff is, I kind of strive for that validation whereas Sieun...doesnt seem like he does, or at least not as much as he thought it would. Like what are his goals? Did he even want to go to a big college and be a big time 'something'? I don't even think we learned much about him and his motivations because it's true that he's so studious and gets so many awards and good grades and yes his parents praise him...but Sieun doesn't even look like he wants or cares about those praises anymore.

On the first ep. when he got that award and showed his dad, his dad seemed like he was genuinely proud of him but his reaction was just...😐 perhaps Sieun knows that his purpose in his parents eyes is to generate good grades and be a good kid so he just does that. Like 'ok I've done my purpose, on to the next task' and honestly that's so fucked up.

Anyways, yeah. I feel like he lost any sense of purpose. Maybe back then getting good grades and validation from his parents meant he wasn't being a bother to them and he prolly liked it but after a while, it kind of just burnt him out. Also maybe after his mother left and his dad started being away more often for work, it just didn't seem like it mattered to him but he still keeps going because it's the only thing that will grab his parents' attention. But again, at the same time, idk if he still even wants their attention. He doesn't even want to try anymore

When he was eating with his mom, you could tell the mom was distracted and Sieun must have felt so discouraged because he must have felt like a task to her, like something on her to do list to check off because how easily she pushes aside Sieun's presence and assumes he was done eating. Like she was already standing up, like she was waiting for an interruption. Sure, Sieun never said anything or expressed his needs but only because his parents never tried to understand him in the first place and idk...be an ACTUAL PRESENT ADULT FIGURE IN HIS LIFE!!

Sieun is such a complicated and interesting character and my only wish was for him to snap at his parents at least once. He almost did it with his dad at the hospital but he held back which he shouldn't have!! Yell at them! They deserve it! (hopefully we'll see that in s2)

I never really knew I would be so attached to him. Usually I get drawn towards the Sooho-type (and dont get me wrong, I love him too) but something about Sieun just makes me want to wrap him in a blanket and never let him go and give him the proper love and care and attention he deserves!

#plus park jihoon is such a brilliant actor #he just elevates the character #this was another long one #it's just mostly stream of consciousness bc like I said before #this show has occupied my brain and I want to get it out of my system!!#weak hero #weak hero class #weak hero class 1 #yeon sieun #park jihoon

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retro-rezz-the-est · 1 year

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ok perfect ummmmm would you write hangman/reader where reader is starting college (teehee) and they feel really stressed out about it and hangman comforts them (in whatever way he thinks is best)?????

I see what you did there lol 😉 lemme see what I can do for this lol

also I kinda used this as an outlet to voice my own school frustrations so I hope that’s okay lmao 😂

word count: 2,342

rating: pg-13 (cursing and whatnot). reader is also gender-neutral.

You feel like hell.

You feel like actual, definite, indescribable hell, and you can tell that it's all over your face.

The bags under your eyes, the tension straining your neck, the burning sensation of holding back tears stinging the backs of your eyes....you couldn't take it anymore.

"Fuck!" you scream, slamming your front door and sliding down it to the floor, tossing your bag aside and curling your knees to your chest.

You could feel the incoming rush of tears before they even made themselves known, that familiar burning stinging your eyes coming back as you pressed your palms against them.

You hate it here, you hate it here and it shows.....you knew that going to university - especially beginning your journey as late as you have - would be stressful but damn, did you underestimate yourself.

Even before you got to the damn place to begin with, you were already having second thoughts and started to doubt yourself.

The second that you got your acceptance letter and the very second that all of the congratulations started to come in, the anxiety began to settle in.

You felt nervous, shaky, and anxiety ran rampant through your system but you tried, you tried so hard to keep it from showing.

So you took all of the pictures, you took all the videos, you smiled and hugged your family and close friends as they offered their praise and congratulations to you. You posed with your acceptance letter, laughed with your mother as you went shopping for supplies, sat with your father and smiled as he cried about how proud of you he was that you were going to such a prestigious school and how well you would do amongst others like you.

You let everyone parade you around like the trophy that they see you as, you let your parents show you off to their friends and to all of their coworkers as "their darling little scholar" who got accepted to one of the best schools in the country....

....you stood and you laughed and you sat and you smiled and you felt - you feel - like hell.

Your worst thoughts begin to swarm in your head as you peel yourself from the floor, feeling hot tears streak down your face as you kicked off your shoes and stormed over to your couch, flopping face first onto it.

Maybe this is all a mistake...maybe you weren't cut out for all of this. Maybe you shouldn't have picked this school; hell, maybe you shouldn't have even chosen to go to university in the first place. How were you gonna manage your heavy class load with your job when you can barely handle working on its own?

The heft of everyone's expectations and hopes weighed heavy on your shoulders but now even more so, seeming to press you further and further into the couch and smothering you.

How would your family react if they saw you like this, stressing yourself out and practically banging yourself against a wall with anxiety? Your friends? Would they still be proud of you? Would they still hold you highly and support you even if you were letting them all down?

Would they take away their praise and berate you for being so selfish, for wasting your parents' money and time as well as the school's just because you were having a lapse in your judgement?

How would they even react to seeing you like this?

You scrubbed at your face with the back of your hand; god, you feel like such a fucking failure. How the hell do you even face them now that you feel like turning back, when you're so close to it all?

You didn't - well, more like couldn't - hear the footsteps approaching your front door and the soft jingle of keys as they unlocked it, the jangling of the your roommate's belt doing nothing to pull you from your emotional stupor.

Hangman called out your name, slipping off his boots and placing the next to your own. "Hey, I'm back! I got the stuff you asked for...I don't know why, though, 'cause you usually only ask for this when you're-"

He paused, his ear perking up at the sound of a loud sob and a sniffle that sent a bolt straight through his chest. Turning his head towards the couch, he then spots you, your feel dangling off the side and your face buried in your arms as you lay flat on the cushions.

"Oh no..." he sighs, striding over towards where you lay with his long legs and places the small plastic bag in his hands aside at the foot of the couch, kneeling in front of you with a worried look on his own face. "Shit, what happened? Is everything alright? Does someone need their nose smashed in?"

You don't respond to his questions and you barely even more when he places his hand at your back, gently running his hand over it as your sobs grow, your entire body trembling.

The two of you sit there for quite some time, with your eyes burning from your tears and your heart beating rapidly from all the emotion and Hangman kneeling at your side, saying nothing but offering everything that he possibly can non-verbally. His presence is a warm one, a familiar one, and one that you're too stubborn to say that you needed.

"Please," he whispers, not wanting to irritate you further, "just tell me what's wrong. Things won't get better if you just keep it in, sweetheart. We're friends, remember? We promised each other to tell each other anything that was bothering us."

At long last does your body finally begin to rise, your legs swinging out in front of you so that you're finally sitting upright. Your hands still cover your face as you hunch over, the dam finally bursting the second you feel his hand, warm and soft yet calloused and roughened, place itself on your knee, his thumb brushing against it lightly.

You let everything out: how you feel, all of the struggles that you know you're going to face in finally going to university, the fear of letting down those closest to you and losing their love and trust, how fractured your mental state has become due to the weight of their expectations....all of it.

And throughout it all, Hangman says nothing, only thumbing your knee occasionally as he listens to you spiel and your choked up sobs fill his ears.

How long has this been going on? How long have you been feeling this way? he thinks. You had looked so jovial the second that acceptance letter came in, so much so that he was the very first person that you told as soon as you opened it.

But now....now, look at you. How could he have missed this?

"Look at me, sweetheart. Just look at me, okay?"

His voice is as soft as ever in your ear, tugging at your heartstring indefinitely but you refuse to look at him....not when you look like this, not when you feel like this. His hands move from your knee to squeezing your shoulders gently, the move somewhat comforting your nerves.

Your hands finally slide down your face and into your lap, your tear-stained cheeks and red eyes now on full display. You look a right mess but Hangman doesn't comment on it, still gazing at you with those bright blue eyes full of concern for your well-being. You ball your hands into fists, digging your nails into your palms and you feel your heart race in your chest.

This was a mistake, this was all a mistake. Tears begin to burn at the corners of your eyes again, another wave of emotion threatening to swallow you whole. You're already too deep within your own head and nothing he can say or do will be able to pull you out of it-

A soft warmth envelopes your face, tilting your head upwards before you hear Hangman speak. "I said, look at me, sweetheart."

And reluctantly, you do, slowly opening up your eyes and blinking away your tears to reveal Hangman before you, a comforting smile on his face and both of his hands cupping your cheeks, forcing you to look directly at him. His hold is gentle, but firm; you're not walking away anytime soon.

Your entire body shakes as the silence grows between you two, the sounds of your shuddering breath filling the air. His gaze is...concerned, but loving. You could only imagine what seeing you like this does to him.

"First of all, I need you to breathe for me, okay? Take a deep breath for me and relax those shoulders."

You do as he asks and he smiles, watching as your body visibly relaxed and some of the lines creasing your forehead disappear. In and out, in and out, over and over again until he's satisfied.

"I know I'm not the best with these kinds of things....hell, I can barely be true with the ones closest to me. But, I've been your friend long enough to know that you'll be fine."

Your brows furrow. "Fine? Did you literally hear anything that I just said? I feel like shit, Adam, actual shit and nothing is gonna-"

You feel him smush your cheeks together in protest, cutting you off as your eyes widen at the motion.

"Excuse me? I was talking, damn it! What gives you the right to say that I'll be fine when I haven't been in months?! You're not listening-"

You try your best to yell at him, to scream out and voice even more of your frustrations but all that comes out is a muffled mess of congealed letters and noises, your lips puffing out and Hangman's smile breaking out into a larger one.

"Are you gonna let me finish now?" he asks, raising a brow the second you move to speak again, only moving his hands when you nod.

"Like I was saying....you are one of the smartest people I know. You've managed to get this far on your own two feet, and that's fucking impressive, if you ask me."

Your brows furrow again but you don't interrupt him this time, letting him continue.

"Everyone always talks about how strong you are, how smart you are, how you appear and seem...but you're breaking, and 'm sorry that I didn't see that - see this - before."

"But you didn't need to, I could've handled this on my own and by myself-"

"Yeah, but you didn't have to. Look at you," he says your name softly, "you're tearing at your own hair and beating yourself up over this."

He pauses before continuing. "If you're not ready, then that's okay. If you are ready but you don't know where to start, then that's okay too. Because you have all of the resources you could possibly need at your disposal...like me, for starters."

Your lips crack into a smile at that one, but you let him finish. "And you have your parents, and you have your friends, and everyone else who cares about you and will be proud of you no matter what you choose to do. And no matter what you do, they will be here to support you, we still be here to support you."

"You mean that?" you ask him.

Hangman nods. "Of course I do. I would never lie to you, not now and not ever. You don't have to stress about shit like that, not like this. If there's anything that's troubling you, let me know so that this-" he squeezes your hands gently, "-doesn't keep happening. You're gonna run yourself ragged at this rate, sweetheart."

A silence passes, then another, and then another before he speaks again. "Just take things one step at a time for me, okay? Handle one thing at a time and whatever happens, happens. You can't control everything at once, so don't."

"And whatever happens, whatever you need, whenever you feel like this...I'll be here. I'll always be here because I care about you. We all care about you," Hangman tells you. "No one'll be disappointed or upset with you about making decisions that you believe are right for you."

And when he calls your name again, dropping his hands from your face and slipping them into your own, pulling yours apart and smoothing away the marks your nails made, your eyes begin to well up for a different reason.

You nod again, slipping a hand from his to wipe your eyes clear again. Your heart thuds in your chest at a more reasonable pace; Adam truly is the best at things like this, despite what he says, and you can't be thankful enough for it.

The afternoon sun that filters in through the window behind him shrouds him in light, making him look akin to an angel, a savior of sorts.

He looks....beautiful.

He grunts when he finally stands to his feet, his other hand slipping from yours as he puts his hands on his hips. That cowboy smile of his is on full display, radiating more light and warmth than the sun behind him.

"Now, I do believe that you need take your mind off things. At least, for a few hours."

"And what do you suggest?"

"Well, I was going to say we could head outside and get drunk off our asses....but I don't want the ice cream you demanded that I get to go to waste." Hangman leans back down to pick up the plastic bag at your feet, pulling out the large tub with his free hand.

"You better not tell anyone about this, either, or else that cowboy ass is grass," you tell him before finally standing from the couch yourself, feeling a bit light-headed before he's immediately at your side, helping you stand with a hand at your hip. Heavens forbid he opens his mouth and gets praise for helping calm you down....his head'll grow bigger than it already is.

"No promises, sweetheart. No promises."

~~~~~~~~~~~

a/n: ngl i kinda needed to hear all of this when i first started university lmao, i feel like i'd be much better off with a hangy in my corner XD. also i wrote this in about 4-5 hours with no edits so.....yeah.

#hangman page x reader #hangman page fanfic #hangman page fic #hangman adam page x reader #hangman adam page imagine #aew x reader #aew fanfiction #aew fic #rezz writes some bullshit

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the-last-f2p · 1 year

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Yandere promts day 11

Featuring: Yandere Platonic dark era Dazai and Chuuya x child reader. (Idk I had an idea trust me)

11. “I really can’t take it when you cry like that… smile for me, alright? You’re so pretty when you smile.”

TW: Swearing,bullying, suicide mentions , murder

Y/N is 11.

13:00

"HEYYYYYYYY Y/NNNNN !!" Someone screamed from somewhere behind I, I quickly turn around around and realize it was Yumeno Qyusaku. Wait what was he doing here?!

"Q?" I ask scream

"YA?!"

"COME OVER HERE!" I scream again my voice getting slighty tired. The chaotic boy then runs toward me.

"Do you wanna play?" Qyusaku asks me. Was this the reason he came to my school??? Doesn't he have a job or something? Couldn't he wait for a few more hours?

"Q... You know I'm at school right?"

"School... Wait... That reminds me! I'm not supposed to be here! Gottagobyeeee!" Qyusaku then runs off while I just stare into space thinking how the hell did he sneak in here?!

"Hey weirdo who was that other guy?" I roll my eyes immidetaly realize who it was. Haru the meanest guy in school.

"Was he your weirdo friend? Thought you couldn't get any friends. Maybe you should that shit ability of yours and force someone to be your friend." You started to feel a bit... Weird again. It happened everytime Haru said somehting about your abilty or about your friends. It stared as a pit in your stomach then evenutally transfered to the building up of tears in your eyes. Yes you ecepted that your ability was pretty messed up. '1984' it allowed anyone who hurt you to do a task for you ranging from making you toast or killing someone the only way to deactivate your ability is if

1: They die

2: The task you asked them to do is complete

3: Dazai

"Actually why are you still here? You have no friends. You skip class loads and everyone hates you. I think it would be better if you just died. No one would miss you." Thats when I broke I can't do that thats Dazai's thing right? I-I - Um Chuuya! He would miss me and Q OH and Kyoka ! Thats at least 4 people. But would they.. They are my friend right? Chad then left as tears started to well up in my eyes...

Maybe I should just go home....

13:30

Dazai Onii-San

I'm coming home early

Why?

Just am can you tell Chuuya please

Tell me first :)

I'll just text him myself

Chuuya Onii-San

I'm coming home early

Is the door unlocked

Idk

We'll see lol bye

bye

13:35

Dazai POV

Y/N just texted me a few minutes ago saying that they were coming from school early. Thats not like them, they usally say things like I love school :). I asked them why but they won't tell me. But thanks to the amazing Osamu Dazai I have narroed it down for two reasons.

A kid

A teacher

Either way whoever or whatever made Y/N skip school is going to die.

Your POV

I had finally made it home and opened the door. I let out a sigh of relief. Should've probably kept that in...

"Y/N. Do you by any chance want to tell me why you came hom early?" I immidetely knew that I had 2 choices

Tell Dazai

Leg it to your room.

But I were 11 so.... I literally ran so fast that I smacked my face to the door.

"HOLY SHIT THAT HURT!" I probably shouldn't have said that..

"1. Y/N you can't say that 2. tell me what happened right now orrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...." Well now I actually only have 1 choice Dazai was pretty persisntent and scary if I didn't do what he said.

"fine... Someone was being mean to me at school." "Who and what?"

"Haru Hinomori he's a year older than me. And-and he-he said that I should die and no one would miss me" I couldn't finish the rest as I started to cry and ran into my room.

Dazai POV

Hmmmm Haru Hinomori should probably write that down... Well no Chuuya should write that down!

Hat weirdo

Chuuyaaaaaaaaa

Tf do u want

Can u come over here

Just come over here

were????

My apartment :)

"Chuuuyaaaaa!!!" I threw my hands around the short hat man.

"GET OFF ME BITCH!" Chuuya then punched me. -Ow... Get to the point Dazai.

"Y/N is crying ."

"WHERE?!"

"their room."

Chuuya then ran up to Y/N room.

Your POV

13:50

I heard a knock on the door I'm pretty sure it was Dazai so I said

"go away Dazai" I sniffle.

"its Chuuya." I don't care just don't come in.

"I'm coming in." He then opened the door.

Chuuya POV

"I'm coming in." I opened the door gently and was greeted with them slumped in the corner of the room crying.

"hey its ok..." I sit down next to them and try and comfort them trying to comfort them keyword trying I'm pretty sure they started to cry harder...

"“I really can’t take it when you cry like that… smile for me, alright? " They tried to do a small smile I don't know how but I managed to laugh. “You’re so pretty when you smile.” I gave them a headpat and left.

If me and Dazai knew anything it would be that....

Someone's going to die tonight

#yandere chuuya #yandere chuuya nakahra #yandere dazai #yandere dazai osamu #yandere osamu dazai #yandere nakahara chuuya #yandere promts #fyp #-sybilliya

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fairycosmos · 11 months

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(I’m sending it again just once in case u didn’t see it before. I won’t send anymore just in case you don’t want to answer 💘)

Do you have any tips for having fun alone out of the house? I’ve been going on walks but because I’ve struggled with agoraphobia in the past I p much always go to the same park instead of trying to find new places close by. I kind of need to know where I’m going so I feel at ease, which maybe kills them whimsy of a walk lol I’ve been thinking of going to watch a movie on my own, which I’ve never done, and maybe visiting public libraries and bookshops I haven’t been to yet. Anyway, only thing I probably wouldn’t do is go out to eat cause I hate eating in public (unless it’s a lil snack, that would be fine), but other than that I’m very open! Thank u angel 💫💗🪸

hi sorry i didn't see this the first time! very proud of ya for getting out there and taking these steps, it's not easy but it's always sooooooo worth it. i cant remember taking a walk/trip i've ever regretted, especially when i'm just hanging on my own. i think the movies, library and bookshops are all wonderful ideas!! you know what i do sometimes, i just look on google maps for things to do in my vicinity and then i plan a short excursion around it, like i super low pressure and low key, i just dip in to check it out. coffee shops, parks, local classes and community centers, museums are a good one, nature trails, shopping centers, you could go and get your hair done, maybe see some local live music. hell even a gym, just to get used to being around people again, and to get out there. i felt so silly when i started doing this at first, like some sort of robot trying to participate in regular human activities, often i still do. and it takes a lot of energy out of me, i can't manage it often tbh. but getting out of my head is so fucking important for my mental health it's insane. moving through the world and seeing that it's much much much muchhh bigger than me and my worries and just being a person and not a pair of eyes sleeping or crying or looking at a screen. it can feel like a lot of pressure, but once you've done it a few times it kinda becomes something to look forward to. and if i'm not in the mood i just tell myself i will stay for 10 minutes and then head home, like i'm always aiming to be super flexible and gentle with myself so i don't get discouraged from trying at all. something else that helps me get out of the house is taking headphones for the walk, and also taking my phone/camera to take pretty pics on my way along. just makes it feel a little easier and more fun because sometimes just leaving the house at all exhausts me. but honestly i have no hang ups on doing things alone and you shouldn't either - time spent with yourself is still time spent with the world etc etc. any effort you make is absolutely going to pay off, sometimes just in a short term way, sometimes in a long term way, and sometimes both! much love, i hope you're able to find a routine that works for you. <3

#anon

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poewritesgayshit · 5 months

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Only God knows if you're still taking requests-- but how do you feel about a Fyolai+Sigma where Nikolai convinces Sigma that they should Noncon Fyodor? It can start as Noncon and end with all parties really into it, lol. I leave it to your creative genius, Poe. I just want to see Fyodor bottoming for both of them and hating how much he is enjoying it for a change lol. Mindbreak is also a cute detail if you want. Hope you consider it! 💖💖

↪ ⋆ ▫ ∙ we're what killed the dinosaurs | fyosiglai request 🎉 ∙ ▫ ⋆ ↩

word count: 1.4 k. mostly pwp

description:

Sigma is tired of Nikolai's games, even if the point of this one is to make everyone get along. But he'll play fair. After all, this is the first time Nikolai's used this type of method. (An aphrodisiac that works as a slow-acting poison? Is he serious?) Yeah... Sigma knows everyone can survive this one. So he'll do what he can, even if it means doing something he really shouldn't do.

contains: most of the above and also

fuck or die

fyodor is in a non-speaking role; he is completely restrained and subdued. i wasn't sure how to write sigma being in the more dominant role without nikolai having a very heavy hand in things

trans masc sigma, also trans masc sigma taking dick without protection and getting creampied

notes: hey nonnie thank u for the request! this was actually my first one, can you believe it? and i hope this wasnt too long of a wait! my whole family had covid and i was running a fever. ill crosspost to ao3 once i stop fucking around on discord and get around to it 👉👈 hope u like it

edit: ao3 link is here! https://archiveofourown.org/works/52099318

The last thing Sigma saw before he passed out was the spine of the library book he'd just checked out toppling to the floor next to him. The first thing he saw when he woke up was Nikolai's face.

"Welcome, Sigma! Welcome! Want to play a game?" Nikolai was glowing. Sigma resisted the urge to sock him square in the jaw because he was in survival mode now, and survival mode meant he needed to keep all his fingers.

"I'm not at the library," Sigma said, phrasing it as a statement instead of a question, and Nikolai's face lit up.

"Ding ding ding! Cor-rect! Now, for ten additional points, guess where you are!"

Sigma was not playing his game.

"Probably some warehouse in Yokohama somewhere," Sigma said, because the lights were off, and he couldn't really see, and he was so lightheaded that what he could see wasn't helping much. But after letting his eyes adjust, he realized that the lights wouldn't help. Nikolai had covered every surface with dark green fabric, fabric so thick that he couldn't tell one surface from another.

"That is…" Nikolai paused. "In-correct! Want to buy a vowel?" He ripped the fabric off of what appeared to be a large chalkboard, where the partially-written words 'L - - - H - - - -' were spelled in permanent marker, along with a half-drawn hangman figure.

Sigma was about to tell Nikolai off for being childish, but then, it hit him all at once, and he stood up… then fell over again, after realizing how weak he really was.

"Nikolai, am I in a love hotel?"

"Whoa! You're pretty smart, Sigma!" Nikolai fanned himself with a paper fan that he'd pulled out of nowhere, and then snapped it shut, tilting Sigma's chin up with its edge. "But you weren't able to figure out that we aren't the only ones in this room."

With a flourish, he ripped the green velvet off of a loveseat in the middle of the room, to reveal Fyodor Dostoevsky. He was bound and gagged, naked, with his legs tied apart. He was covered with a fine sheen of sweat, as if he was feverish, and he looked just as weak as Sigma felt.

"The aphrodisiac I administered to both of you is also a slow-acting poison. 'The effects can be delayed by sexual release…' at least that's what it says here on the bottle." Nikolai tossed a glass bottle over his shoulder. "I have enough antidote for both of you, but first, I want you to compete in another game with me~"

"I've had enough of your games," Sigma said, the furious words dropping from his lips before he could hold his tongue.

"But, Sigma, dear, don't you want to live?" Nikolai asked, and then, he kissed him.

It was true. Sigma wanted to live.

Nikolai's lips didn't feel repulsive—at least, Sigma didn't want to instinctively jerk away when Nikolai wrapped his hand around the back of his neck and held him still. Maybe it was the fact that the aphrodisiac had already taken effect, or the fact that he was scared of him. But Sigma didn't want to move.

From across the room, Fyodor watched them with sharp eyes.

"You know, I was so relieved when you both made it out okay. I thought I might have been broken, because I wasn't supposed to feel that way. When I'm no longer tied to anyone or anything, I truly have free will—or at least, that's what I thought. You see, I've grown attached to you, too, Sigma. I was grieving for you, too. And when I found out you were also okay, I ran as quickly as I could to see you. So, I thought, 'why don't we all celebrate? Instead of killing each other… why don't we all try to survive instead? By showing each other some love… isn't that right?' " Nikolai said.

Sigma felt ill. "So you want to watch me and Fyodor fucking? Is that what you're trying to say?"

"Oh, no no no, you don't need to use that kind of language~ But if you insist~ you might want to do it soon. He's been waiting here for a long time, you know. In ten minutes, he'll pass out~ Thirty minutes until organ failure will start, and in forty-five minutes, he'll become incontinent. Within two hours, if I don't forcibly administer the antidote, he'll die, and even if I do, he won't be able to stand without mobility aids. Should I go on?" Nikolai continued to monologue. He clearly had this all planned out.

Sigma stared at Dostoevsky, tied up in his chair. Fyodor looked pathetic. He was a sobbing wreck—he must be in immense pain, too. Sigma blinked, and Nikolai must have removed all of the cloth that was covering the tables in that split second, because they lay bare, covered with BDSM paraphernalia, vibrators, condoms and lube, even knives and scissors.

Sigma, without thinking, stood up and approached Fyodor.

Once he got there, his knees gave way, and he just… collapsed on top of him. And Sigma stayed there, his head buried in the crook of his neck, rutting his arousal against Fyodor's.

Fyodor was smaller than he was, but Sigma didn't think he was going to crush him. Sigma realized that he'd been undressed in his sleep—this feels like a dream, Sigma thought, listening to Fyodor's pathetic whines as he rubbed his clit up against the head of his cock. He realized, without acknowledging it fully, that he was making just as much noise as Fyodor was, and that somehow, he was so wet that he could just… slide Fyodor right inside of him. And he did just that, acting on impulse and sinking all the way down so Fyodor's cockhead could nudge against his cervix.

What happens if he cums in me?

This thought felt like it was happening in a distant memory as Sigma fucked himself hard on Fyodor's shaft. Fyodor screamed through his gag and he figured the other man might have already finished… but he must have thought too soon. A glance over his shoulder revealed that Nikolai had his cape draped over his lap and was playing with something in between his thighs. It didn't take a genius to figure out what he had buried in that cape, and where it had ended up. Sure enough, Fyodor's sobs of overstimulation were because Nikolai had buried himself up to the root and was painfully teasing his prostate.

Sigma, feeling a little bit bad for him, cupped Fyodor's face and kissed along his jaw as he struggled in his grip. Fyodor looked like he was close to an orgasm, but Sigma hadn't gotten anywhere near his own. Sure enough, he shuddered in Sigma's arms, and Sigma felt him release inside. The morning after pill wasn't easy to acquire, and he was already trying to figure out if he'd have better luck just going to Yosano—but suddenly, as he was dismounting, something stopped his train of thought.

When Sigma tried to get up, Nikolai blocked his way. He was behind him, holding him still. He wrapped a hand around his neck, and that was when Sigma screamed. But Nikolai wasn't trying to kill him. He removed his hand as soon as Sigma relaxed and slid back down, filling himself once again. Then, he... grabbed his hips, lifting him and slamming him down. Nikolai went one step further than that, wrapping one hand underneath each of his thighs and using all his strength to pick him up. picking him up. He was manhandling him and sliding him up and down on Fyodor's cock—It felt unbelievably good, better than anything Sigma could do on his own. He then pressed something into Sigma's hand, then guided his hand down and against his cunt. It was a vibrator, something Sigma had never bought or used before. And when he switched it on, the stimulation plus whatever Nikolai was doing to him made him want to cry. Sigma sobbed, burying his head in Fyodor's shoulder as Nikolai helped his friend use his body as a living fleshlight. He didn't even realize that he was having an orgasm until three minutes into his second one. The buildup was just as intense as the climax itself, and his body just kept going, spasming, sandwiched in between Fyodor and Nikolai for what seemed like hours.

Sigma was only aware that he had passed out when he woke up. Nikolai must have done something while he was distracted; because this wasn't a normal occurrence for him, not in the slightest.

"The antidote," he managed, his mouth dry. Nikolai, lying in bed next to him, perked up when he heard him say it.

"Oh, the antidote~ It's all done! I gave it to you while you slept!" Nikolai said, with the same cadence as if he was telling Sigma he had a birthday present he hadn't given to him yet.

"...Where's Fyodor?" Sigma asked, then, the words crowding behind his lips before he said them as if he didn't want to set them free.

"He's in the other room. He asked for you. Do you want to see him again?" Nikolai said, and he was all sparkles and hearts and glitter and fire.

Sigma was smoke, he was dust, he was ash. He felt like he would blow away in the wind.

"I don't."

#bsd fanfiction #bungo stray dogs fanfiction #fyolai #fyosig #siglai #fyosiglai #fyodor bsd #nikolai bsd #sigma bsd #dubious consent #noncon cw #dubcon cw #dead dove do not eat

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hi 🥰🥰 I really hope you’re still doing skz astrological compatibility reading bc I’ve asked multiple blogs and never got an answer and I’m really looking forward to it haha (I’m assuming bc they got too many asks which is totally okay!!)

I want the reading for minho, but I was also wondering if you can tell me which members would be a great ‘match’ for me from an astrological perspective (you don’t need to write anything about then!! just their names lol)

my placements are:

Sun in 28°31' Pisces

Moon in 26°6' Taurus

Mercury in I1° 41' Pisces

Venus in 13°58'Aries

Mars in 12°27' Taurus

Jupiter in 6°7' Cancer

Saturn in 9°26' Gemini

Uranus in 26° 4l' Aquarius

Neptune in 10°10' Aquarius

Pluto in 17°37' Sagittarius

North Node in 22°15' Gemini (6)

Chiron in 8°32' Capricorn

ASC Ascendant in 11° 43' Gemini

MC in 14°16' Aquarius

thank you!! 💗

here u goooo <3

ascendant in gemini:

with this ascendant, i see minho's first impression of you as being someone that's hard to get. and he lovessss the chase. like he honestly needs it. he will also probably find you intelligent and good with people. BUT he may also see you as someone more open than he is, which he thinks is cute. i think overall, he'd have a good first impression of you, as long as he feels like he could eventually pin you down.

sun in pisces:

this is perfffff. i'm also a sun in pisces and i love this pairing. pisces is the mutable water sign, meaning you're easily adaptable, but especially in conjunction with other water signs. you're just more likely to understand others' personalities. with minho, he lovessss this. he probably feels like you both express yourself in similar ways, but that he could actually "mold" you into a good fit. that sounds possessive of him bc it is lol. he'd love the way that you fit yourself into his life, as it makes it ideal for him to thrive. i do think you'd balance him pretty well tho tbh since he can be quite intense at times and you'd be able to take that edge off. i just feel super confident that this is a good pairing.

(wanted to note that this doesn't mean you'll "lose yourself" to him- bc let's be honest, pisces values individualism... but what this does mean is that you'll start to mimic or express parts of yourself that fit perfectly to minho, which he loves)

moon in taurus:

i think this match could work. your moon in taurus means that your emotions tend to be more rooted in steadfastness and seeing beauty in most things in life. you probably really value loyalty and making others feel cared for. it probably also takes a lot for you to change your mind on issues of emotion- so for example, it may take you a long time to work through negative emotions.

this isn't quite like his moon in sag, which tends to be more changing and fervent when it comes to emotional expression. he probably feels very intense emotions, and may not like to feel that you are imposing on him.

i don't see this being too big of a problem though, and is something you could both work through, as indicated by your mercury signs.

mercury in pisces:

this is a great match for his mercury in scorp. i think the ways in which you both think abstractly is the same. you're both able to figure people out quite well and notice patterns in the other person. i think you both would know how to communicate with each other effectively as well.

the one thing i will say though is that scorp is known to kind of twist your words or your narrative, which can be especially hard for pisces to deal with. if minho is in a good version of his scorp, then this shouldn't be a problem too much. one other thing is that you would both probably expect the other person to just pick up on your feelings/emotions with your water signs, so if they don't, you'll need to work on communication in that aspect.

venus in aries:

okay so i have a hot take on this one. lee know's venus is in scorp & normally people are like "oh no a fore and water sign", but i actually disagree completely. i LOVE the scorpio/aries match up here. both are some of the most intense lovers out there. i think there's a super strong romantic passion here that neither can ignore and they LOVE how much adoration their s/o puts into the relationship. i think sex between these two is super intense and has a good mix of emotions and just pure rough lust. like sexually, i think this is one of the most balancing, ideal matches (i understand how this is a hot take tho tbh)

HOWEVER, aries venuses do NOT like to be controlled. you would probably want to more so "integrate" lee know into your life instead of him becoming your whole life. you want to still remain true to yourself and not base your entire sense of meaning and purpose on him alone... but he can try to rope you in to the opposite. i do think that his mars in taurus placement would help him SOMEWHAT with this, but i do def think he'd try to be a bit controlling of you, esp with this placement and his sun and mercury in scorp as well.

mars in taurus:

this is actually a good pairing with his virgo mars. both tend to be realistic and devoted to helping the other when it comes to practicality in decision making and in fights. i do think you come from a more loving perspective, whereas he can try to resolve problems out of anxiety. but nonetheless, if fighting about trivial things, you wouldn't have a hard time making up.

who's the best match?

i do think minho is a good one. other than him, i think you'd have a really good relationship with han or seungmin. just the overall compatibility <333

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6irlpet · 1 year

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Mm im a virgin and im nervous about my first time can u give me some tips

hmmmmmm ok ok ok ill try

first of all its normal to be shy/nervous but anyone who's worthy as a partner isnt gonna make u feel weird or bad about that. if they do they r not the one!

be safe 😑 similarly anyone who doesnt respect your wishes for things like... condoms, lube, or what u dont want to do, etc etc is not the one!!! never Ever not just for first times!!!! it is OK to not be comfortable with certain things!!!! i know this sounds like elementary advice but a lot of people think they know it, then freeze up in the actual situation :(

wear s/t that makes u feel cute and confident (doesnt have to be crazy lingerie just like. favorite pair of underwear ukno!) and i like to Always shower day of + wash downstairs like 5 mins before sex bc its (1) clean (2) less anxiety on my part

tbh dont build it up in ur head as something that HAS to be perfect and romantic or whatever....... maybe i'm just not a very romantic person (yes) but virginity is not a big deal imo? u wouldnt expect to be good at any hobby with your first attempt, your goal should just be to have fun. and its practice! u get better lol. like unless its the only time you're planning on having sex ever in your whole life it's ok if the planets didn't align or whatever, just learn what worked/what didnt and carry it with u for a better next time!

Have Fun!!!! even when i have someone tied up i love talking/teasing, laughing with them, etc etc... esp since i'm not very dominant and just top 4 friends, i try not to get frozen in my head about what i ~should~ be acting like. i'll go with what feels natural (it all comes easier than you'd think in the moment honestly) and try to channel a bit of what i know they like. but if ur sexy character breaks or whatever , its ok... have fun with it... just be urself fr... i know that sounds corny but its true!! just have fun and anyone who is worth it is gonna giggle along with u. sex is FUN its a connection with someone, an interaction between bodies, making e/o feel good, let it be natural.

dont be afraid to mention if something doesnt feel good? so many of my friends have told me like, "i didnt like when my parter did this / it turned me off or hurt" and i was appalled, like... tell them??? u can move someones hand elsewhere, u can Communicate. when im topping i like to ask 'is that ok? that feel good? can i touch u here?' etc. u can make it sexy by saying it teasingly, but it gives a real window for someone to say if its not.

this isnt possible for every situation but i think it is worth it to have your first experiences b with someone you trust. it doesn't have to be romantic but i think you're a lot more relaxed if you are comfortable with the person. a lot of my firsts were forced/not rly fun, my first Sex was while intoxicated w/ a guy i'd only known a few days + first kink experiences were also random rushed unsafe stuff. i dont exactly regret but i do feel weird about it sometimes and so i've only recently started to be ok with hooking up with people again. via doing so with FWBs i trust and it's been a vastly different experience!!! idk how to describe it, but like knowing we're good and that it's ok and safe and fun and that they're not judging body or whatever, it's given me more confidence in playing + communicating. i used to freeze up if anyone touched me and now im getting open enough to where im considering letting myself sub again, and ok with more physical contact. ofc not everyone has friends who are dtf but no matter who it is, being comfortable with them is everything!!

nothing should hurt or bleed and i'll die on that hill. with plenty of foreplay/arousal and lube and slowly working up a stretch (if ur being penetrated) it shouldn't hurt. example: i hadn't been penetrated with more than 2-3 fingers for months, when i got home recently i tried dildo and couldn't get it in, i just relaxed + worked up with a smaller toy + knew i could go for lube if i needed (i didnt bc i have a faucet pussy but it does make it easier) similarly with anal, u just gotta work up and relax

in line with #7..... theres nothing wrong with using lube. and foreplay IS essential bc when you get aroused your muscles will relax and you'll feel better and more receptive to every aspect of sex not just penetration. i also don't think there's anything wrong with using toys????? a straight girl im friends with said her boyf can't get her off and i told her to tell him to use a vibe and she was like "i don't think we're close enough for that" like girl what the fuck he's had his tongue in your vagina i think it's okay to use a toy 😭 people historically would have gone nuts for the availability of sex toys we have now fuckin shake it up and have some fun!! it's not weird!!!! god straight people and their sex hangups. anyway.

i hope that helps????? tbh i think a lot of these are aimed @ cishet men being awful in bed for the most part but! they can still apply to keep in mind! summary: dont let anyone make u feel weird or bad for wanting things / not wanting things and u should feel comfortable and good and dont be afraid to communicate what u like (give encouragement vocalize that u feel good!) + what ur not feeling (share if s/t hurts or if u want them to go faster/harder or move up a bit or whatever)! literally HAVE FUN AND BE YOURSELF

#sorry this got long i am passionate about sex ed and communication and consent #fr talk to ur partner!!!! the stories i hear bc (1) all my friends r comfortable talking about sex to me & (2) straight people r insane omf #ask

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starlightkun · 4 months

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hello! do you perhaps have any tips/advice for those starting their first writing blog?

my tips r mostly gonna b mindset/writing tips rather than like "hacking the tumblr algorithm" type stuff so if that's what ur into then read on:

first up, let's get the few "notes/numbers" tips i can give u out of the way:

from what i can tell, most readers read from the tags rather than their dashboard, so pay attention to what tags people actually use for fics (throwing your tags in the general tags for groups/idols generally isn't as helpful for getting people to actually READ them than putting them in the actual fic tags bc people go into the general tags more for visual content [pictures/gifs] or updates from my experience. when people want to read fic, they go into those fic tags)

this is just a courtesy thing: please tag your stuff correctly! if your fic is, for example, a reader x taeyong fic, only use taeyong, nct, nct 127, or nct u-derivative tags, do not use any other unit (wayv, dream) or any other member tags, even if those other units or members are mentioned or have substantial roles! (a proper love triangle is different, u can include both legs of the love triangle). i assure you, if you spam tag, and put your stuff in places it doesn't belong (god forbid in completely unrelated fandoms or groups), the people who went in those tags looking for content actually about that thing, are just going to be annoyed at best, and pissed off and block u at worst so they don't have to see ur work in their tags ever again. some ppl use the block button very liberally (as is their right. spam tagging fics is annoying as hell)

also, try to keep up with what tags readers are actually going in to read. i've been reading & writing fic for 10+ years now, and have seen the evolution of language in fandom and around fic writing, primarily on tumblr and i've had to uh, keep up with the times to make sure my fics were following wherever the readers were. this shouldn't be hard if you're an active reader yourself but it was something that caught me off-guard when i realized we stopped using "imagine" at some point (dont even get me started on the change from lemon to smut)

post formatting! figure out how you want to format your actual fics on tumblr and stick with it! (trust me....it's exhausting changing ur formatting across dozens of posts.............. but if u rlly hate it after a while just commit and change it lol);; take inspo (dont just copy and paste bc that's tacky) from some of ur favorite writers, figure out what u like to see in a fic (heading text of the title, picture header, indentation, small text, word count, genre tags, content warnings, pairing info, preview, summary, dividers, etc.), and decide what u want to include in urs!

finally for this part: THERE IS NO TUMBLR ALGORITHM. EVERYONE CURATES THEIR OWN DASHBOARD EXPERIENCE AND ITS BEAUTIFUL AND MORE PEOPLE NEED TO PUT IN THE EFFORT TO DO THAT AND FOLLOW THE WRITERS THAT THEY ENJOY READING IN THE TAGS SO THEY CAN KEEP UP WITH THEM AND CONTINUE TO LIKE AND INTERACT AND ACTUALLY GROW AND DEVELOP A CONNECTION AND COMMUNITY

and now my more "mindset/writing" tips:

this is literally in my pinned: i write for fun and for free. i write things that i like, and because i enjoy doing it, and i post them on the internet for free. it is not my job, and coming online should not be stressing me out. and i've been able to keep that up for a year now since my comeback after an unexpected hiatus, and it's honestly been one of my best years of writing as an author.

i think that figuring out a way to write in a way that's sustainable and fun for you is the most important part. people will stick around if you can find that. i've been able to create a community around my works no matter what fandom i was in, for 10 years, and that includes 10 years ago when i was literally like 12, 13, 14 years old writing things that 12, 13, 14 year olds write. and i do think it's because i was always having fun, and interacting with the people who stuck around. and when i stopped having fun, i was done. nct has officially been the longest fandom i've written in, even discounting my year hiatus, which is crazy to think about btw

when you get someone who follows and interacts and is a recurring reader/reblogger/asker/commenter, i'm sure u will already be like '!!!!!' bc that's what my brain does anyway, but make them feel welcome. don't just focus on the tags and the numbers and the notes. what really makes me feel good at the end of the day is seeing the same few people come back and talking to them and knowing that they like my stuff so much they wanna read more. to me, the tags are a means to an end. the tags are a way to hopefully get a few more people like that to find my blog and follow and stick around for more in the future.

small blog org tip: make your blog easy to navigate for people who are checking it out for the first time from finding a fic in the tag or from someone else rbing it or smth! i always link my masterlist at the end of every fic, it's in my pinned and description, and i just try to make it very easy for people to find more fics of mine if they want to :)

i think that compared to other social medias, you'll find that it's slow but steady growth on tumblr (or at least, that's been my experience), but as long as you're writing what you like, it'll make the rocky start feel a little less rocky (i know it sucks when ur not getting any notes. i know. i promise. it's like bringing a cake to a party and nobody eats it. but sometimes u just have to have a piece of ur own cake and go home and bake another one bc u like baking and hope maybe next time everyone will see it)

and just remember that this is your blog! post stuff you like! don't be afraid to let people see the personality of the person posting all these fics that they're reading. most people like knowing that kind of stuff, even outside of stuff like ur bias or fave unit or wtv. i make all my unhinged posts (which, admittedly, have ended up costing me some followers but if u can't handle me at my unhinged perfume jungwoo posts then u don't deserve me at my buzzer beater sungchan) and post pictures of bread and complain abt work or whatever in addition to all my stuff about my wips and then the final fics. i think treating ur blog like an actual blog does a lot to make it feel like there's a real person behind the acct

#i hope that literally any of this was helpful #as always i just ramble :)#if u wanted specifically writing tips lmk and like be specific as to what kind bc thats very broad #answered #anonymous #talk #text #mine #writing tag

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cerealmonster15 · 5 months

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HELLO. YOU KNOW WHAT TIME IT IS !! IT IS GAME TIME !!!

This quiz is very simple :) you shouldn't have any problems with it :) it's just their names after all !!!! Tell me which character each name is 😊

Admittedly though, taking this chance to study up on them myself bc even though I play on the JP server, I only recognize a couple of these 😭

カリム・アルアジーム

ルーク・ハント

ジャック・ハウル

ジャミル・バイパー

フロイド・リーチ

リリア・ヴァンルージュ

ジェイド・リーチ

ラギー・ブッチ

リドル・ローズハート

トレイ・クローバー

アズール・アーシェングロット

エース・トラッポラ

シルバー

マレウス・ドラコニア

オルト・シュラウド

エペル・フェルミエ

デュース・スペード

ケイト・ダイヤモンド

イデア・シュラウド

セベク・ジグボルト

レオナ・キングスカラー

ヴィル・シェーンハイト

excuse me. Oh my god.

see if you had asked me these back in like, late 2020/early 2021 i maybe wouldve done slightly better than im about to do bc the only way i could ever find twst fanart back then was by constantly copy pasting their names into pixiv bc there wasnt much of an english fanbase at the time... virtually none on tumblr... but i havent done it much recently- i did a few days ago [from when u initially sent this LOL] but it's nothing compared to when i did it like, DAILY jklfdsjklfds

at least. at least silver is a freebie LOL

umm. Ok this one both first and last name end in ム but I don’t know what ム is 🤔 I think this is gonna be Kalim or ruggie. The ム is probably either -im or -ie bc they’re the only ones left that have names that have that pattern… going with KALIM bc I have another guess later for ruggie

uhh. god i remember the dashes in some of these names specifically tripping me up when i was learning how ship names worked LOL. Mmmm I think it’s either gonna be rook or vil bc the name is short and snappy and written similar to Ace (I think. Maybe I got fucked on the Ace guess bddbcbfbf) but the last name seems shorter which makes me wanna think it’s rook? The last names both end in the T/-to sound…. ト you are Everywhere…. OH but I think it’s ROOK HUNT bc the next one I said is Jack howl and both of the last names for those two start with ハ so maybe that’s a hhhhhh sound??? Rook bb is that you???

Backwards process of elimination from 7 and 4, I think this one is JACK HOWL

i think this one might be azul or jamil but idr which LOL. i mean it looks too long to be either of them BUT im almost positive that triple line thing was in there when i looked up azujami LOL and i dont see it anywhere else so umm. idk jamil maybe??? unless i recognize that one for a different name and remember wrong sfjdsklfjd. Ok yes I think it’s Jamil bc of my same reasoning for #7

leech. Floyd?

Liiiilia? Going off ア at the end of probably idia matching here. Lilia please do not bamboozle me AGAIN

leech. Jade? I was back and forth for a while but since three characters start with the Ja- sound and there are three names with that same character at the start… I think this is Jade.

Ummm. R-ruggie. Maybe. Going on yet another limb bc it ends in チ and the only other names that end in that are leech, so maybe bucci’s ch sound matches??

A bit of a stretch guess but I’m gonna say riddle? For the same ド reasoning i say in 17; riddle has that -do sound near the end of his name but I feel like there’s an extra sound thing after it. Specifically when trey screams his name in book 1 but I can’t really remember LOL. But the last name also has ト… -to… rosehearts… rosehear-to….

trey or cater. i think trey.

Doing another stretch guess and saying azul, bc he’s the only one with same letter for both his initials and this one has a same character at the start of both. I am hesitant bc az and ash I would think might be different? But I can’t think of anyone else that would have a similar start 🤔 and the length of names looks possible. And by that logic, ト at the end might be the -to sound, which does line up with the to- for like trey’s name. Idk how it’s actually spelled but when I mumble it to myself that’s what it sounds like hdjfjfngng

Ace I think, with the ト in tr- appola to match tr-ey and ashengrot-to… which I mean in English maybe doesn’t match but I think I’m Japanese spelling/pronunciation they are??? Also this one looked familiar from my pixiv days and I couldn’t place it, but I think the A for a-deuce is what I’m remembering LOL

SILVER

Malleus? The ア at the end of maybe draconia matches the -ia for maybe idia and lilia

idia or ortho. I think ortho once again bc of the ト -to sound??

PROCESS OF ELIMINATION YOU WERE THE LAST ONE LEFT. EPEL???

Deuce? Bc names like Jade, Floyd, Diamond, and shroud all have the ド at the end, and spade should have one too I think 🤔 beloved juice spade please don’t fail me now 🙏

cater or trey. i think cater.

idia or ortho. Going with idia bc I decided the other is ortho probably….. ooh and his and lilia’s names mmmmmaybe would end the same? Possibly???

Ok this one and 22 last names both end in ト, that -to sound, and all I have left are Leona vil Epel and sebek, so this one has to be either Schoenheit or Zigvolt… I’m going to completely guess and say this one is SEBEK. bc of the two this name looks less familiar to me and I k ow I used to look up several vil ships on pixiv LOL. also the last name looks shorter. So I think sebek

Ok down to Epel or Leona. I’m going with Leona tho bc it’s Slightly Longer than #16 AND bc silver and Probably Viper both end in the same dash and I think phonetically they sound more like -ar??

Reasoning for 20, I’m saying vil 🤔

LAYS FACE DOWN ON THE GROUND. DO UR WORST WHATS MY GRADE ☠️

#asks #felix-The-lemon-king #OH BOY PUZZLES!!!!

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squarebracketsmileyface · 5 months

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do u still want songs bc.. don't blame me by james marriott is kina a sorry its locked song

I'm always in need of songs, and oh my GOD how did I not already put this one in the playlist holy shit. It's so fucking perfect, like wtf how did I not think of it myself, you're a genius.

And now I begin a too long analysis of the lyrics in relation to Sorry It's Locked, because I can't help myself and it's the only way I can explain how perfect this song is for Jay and Alex in that damn fic.

You touch me too softly And I know what that means That you don't really love me As morose as it seems

Jay knows, deep down, that Alex being all sweet to him, kissing him on the cheek and the top of the head and cuddling him and all that, doesn't actually mean that Alex loves him. He's hopeful, he wants to believe it, but he knows deep down that Alex doesn't really love him and that it's all either to make him feel better, or to build him up so that Alex can tear him down all over again.

Alex rarely ever touches him softly, that's not their thing, so the sudden change (outside of, like, aftercare after scenes) is super noticeable and instead of being like "Oh maybe he likes me" it just highlights to Jay how Alex doesn't really love him.

When I leave I'll pull on the last of our strings And you'll see That there's always the next thing There's always the next thing

This bit feels more like Alex's thoughts about the whole thing, he's pulling on all the strings of Jay's love and affection so that he can break his heart and "save him" from everything by making him hate him enough to finally actually leave for good and stop trying to help. "There's always the next thing" is Alex trying to force Jay to move on. Obviously that doesn't happen, Jay's completely infatuated and no matter how badly Alex hurts him he'll always want to come back and help him.

From Alex's perspective he's doing something good, breaking Jay's heart by getting his hopes up and then dashing them is for the greater good, it's to save Jay from the Operator. He's giving Jay the chance to live, to move on and find "the next thing".

I'm cutting our ties That's all I can do (Don't blame me) Don't act surprised It's only for you (Don't blame me)

This bit is very Sorry It's Locked, like, this perfectly explains Alex's fucked up thought process about everything he's doing (literally, this explains it better than I did in the Alex pov fic I wrote to try and explain Alex's thinking lmao (in my defence tho, I wrote it to try and fix my procrastination so it was never gonna be great))

The best of our times were the worst of your life Tell me who you're lying to Cover your eyes but peer through the lines 'Cause when I cry, it's only for you

Ouch "The best of our times were the worst of your life" literally just the perfect explanation of Jay and Alex's relationship. Jay's lying only to himself when he tries to act like there was anything good about that relationship and like it wasn't something they both should have called off way before they did (or shouldn't have started in the first place)

All I did was agree To mask all the missteps for our chemistry Was it all you had dreamed? Was I all you hate but you knew that I'd be

This whole bit honestly feels like they'd be sung by both of them (why is this suddenly a duet? Why are they suddenly in a musical? God knows, it's the only way I can explain how this song fits them lol) Like, they both hid how their relationship wasn't healthy, mostly by just not talking about it and acting like they were just friends when they were with their other friends.

"Was it all you had dreamed?" Again, both of them. They knew neither of them were going to change. Jay realised early on that he wasn't going to get anything real with Alex, but he stayed anyway and that kinda made him hate Alex (just in a way that even Jay himself doesn't really realise it's resentment). Alex realised too late that Jay wasn't going to change, that he wasn't going to hate him no matter how much he tries, but he keeps trying to make him hate him anyway.

They were both exactly what they knew they'd be to each other, and they hated it but there was nothing they could do to change it.

I'm cutting our ties That's all I can do (Don't blame me) Don't act surprised It's only for you (Don't blame me)

The best of our times were the worst of your life Tell me who you're lying to Cover your eyes but peer through the lines 'Cause when I cry, it's only for you

Same as above.

No, this path never stops And I'm already sick of the next mountain top No, this high couldn't last In a moment it'll move on and stay in the past

Jay. JAY.

Even back in uni he was so sick of the way his not-relationship with Alex made him feel. They fucked -> he felt amazing -> they went their separate ways -> Jay felt like absolute shit because he knew it'd never mean to Alex what it meant to him. He was just on a constant rollercoaster of the highest highs plummeting into the lowest lows, but the adrenaline of the climb and the drop was so exhilarating (and all that he knew) that it just kept him on the rollercoaster indefinitely.

Then Alex moved away, and uni ended, and for Jay everything was finally gonna be in the past and he could move on. Except he didn't move on because he was unfortunately still infatuated with Alex, hence why all the relationships he tried to have after Alex just didn't work and were only ever about sex.

I have now decided that Jay never kissed any of the people he had relationships with after Alex.

We were never in love So when we were fucking who were you thinking of? No, I'm never enough And I'll fall from your hands straight into your gloves

Again. JAY.

They were never in love and he knew and knows that, but god if he doesn't wish that wasn't true.

Second line... ow. We know exactly who Alex was supposedly thinking of: Amy. (he wasn't thinking of Amy, he just said that to hurt Jay. Dude practically forgot that Amy existed once he had Jay back)

"No, I'm never enough" Jay Jay Jay Jay Jay Jay Jay Jay Jay Jay Jay Jay Jay Jay Jay Jay Jay Jay Jay Jay Jay Jay Jay J

My poor baby and his absolutely dogshit self confidence.

No, this path never stops And I'm already sick of the next mountain top No, this high couldn't last In a moment it'll move on and stay in the past

We were never in love So when we were fucking who were you thinking of? No, I'm never enough And I'll fall from your hands straight into your gloves

Same as above :]

#this song is so fucking perfect for these two though. Like i'm actually going insane its so THEM and it hurtssssssssssssss.#Whoever you are. you're a genius #thank you so much i will be listening to this song on loop for the next 5 business days while crying over my babygirls #jay merrick #alex kralie #jaylex #marble hornets #marble hornets fanfic #song analysis I guess #ask #MH sorry its locked

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