#which is SO UNTRUE

[senseearly]

One thing that I always think about post-dungeon recovery Mithrun who got home is that people were probably used to talking about him while he was still in the room.

Misiril's squad used to that when he was still in their care. Questions towards him were quickly redirected to others when he wouldn't (couldn't) answer their questions -- where was the rest of his squad? what happened to the demon? how did he even end up like this? Asking or talking to Mithrun is a pointless effort. So they stopped doing that.

And Mithrun, he's gotten used to this set-up, not like he could bring himself to care.

When his caretakers and visiting family started doing it, he continued to be apathetic to them (although, the numbness from this large, gaping hole in his chest makes him think that he used to care).

The caretakers would do their duties, but behind his back, they would probably gossip about Mithrun's chances of recovery. Others think there is still hope, a lot of them think this is going to be permanent. Which is good, at least to their business, because Mithrun's brother pays a lot to make sure he is alive. And Mithrun...is not in the state to do that himself. They at least try to whisper when they're around Mithrun, keep their voices low or mention him under an alias or a codename. But Mithrun knows they are talking about him. He is the elephant in the room.

His visiting family is less nice. They take one look at him and weep -- not out of worry, or pity, or sadness -- but of shame. There is no way they can show him to others anymore, they bemoan. There is no way he can represent himself as a member of the House of Kerensil, they cry. He's just like his brother! And, once upon a time, that comment would've hurt Mithrun, a stab right into his heart. But all he feels is a gaping numbness that cannot be filled (It used to be full, he can't help but think).

I wish he had died, someone from his family said while he was within earshot. And Mithrun, barely alive but still breathing, cannot bring himself to care.

The only person that I think would be delighted to see him alive, at least, is his brother. I can see him visiting Mithrun whenever he can (at least in elf time terms). Talking to him as if he can respond, asking him about things when Mithrun can't bring himself to answer. At some point, Mithrun's brother stopped talking to him when he visits; instead, he would just sit next to Mithrun and watch the birds and the flowers. He would drink tea and Mithrun would do nothing.

But once in a while, Mithrun's brother would tell him, I'm glad you came home, I'm glad you're still alive.

#and then when mithrun ends up going back to the canaries #mithrun #mithrun dungeon meshi #mithrun of the house of kerensil #one thing that i always think about is how mithrun's brother is one of the few people in mithrun's recovery support group #lke where tf was his parents #his friends?? #not to like villanize mithrun's family but the way they treat their eldest and not appear in mithrun's recovery scenes are telling #they honestly would be that type of person whod look at their own son who is disabled and think oh its so much better if he died #because they think being disabled means being unable to live #which is SO UNTRUE #mithrun's brother while not being physically there is so important to mithrun's recovery #not just financially but by just showing that he cares #evetually mithrun's support group would grow to include canaries + melini people but #i just keep thinking about mithrun's quote that they're lucky there are people who love them #it is so true #and it matters to me that he knows/realized that #dungeon meshi #dungeon meshi spoilers

[fierceawakening]

So my dash is doing a thing talking about how there are all kinds of studies showing weight loss is unsuccessful but not actually linking them

Is there actually something more recent than that one study from the 1950s saying 90some% of diets fail? I’ve gone looking for something more recent in the past and not found it.

Also iirc that 1950s study really didn’t define a diet clearly and carefully, though I’m not looking at the criticisms of it this second.

A lot of people use “diet” in different ways. Some people mean “any intended change in habits, such as smaller portions of desserts,” and some people mean “things called ‘diets,’ which prescribe specific patterns of eating, usually involving limiting, excising, or focusing on particular foods.”

Those seem different to me, though I’m open to examining something post 1960 that gives evidence they should be considered statistically identical and would gladly eat crow if it was unambiguous that these are the same.

#so much of fat liberation sounds to me like it says ‘once someone habitually does a thing it’s fixed for life’ #which seems obviously untrue #I can think of several people who I know who quit smoking cold turkey for example

[iknowwhereyousnoozeatnight]

lawlight get wet for that one meme! (in a funny way tho if you’re up for that)

oh nooooo someone moved that wet floor sign

still of the last frame bc it makes me compress files for gifs and that makes me mad >:(

#death note #light yagami #l lawliet #lawlight #ryuk #animation #kinda. it’s like if i spend 5 minutes making it animated. which is untrue because i spent like 20 minutes so take that #gif #eyestrain #bright colors #flashing images #just in case #i had this mostly done for weeks i just couldn’t get myself to finish it til now but it is done now yippee #sorry for the colors i’m just really feeling colors today

[tomkeirblyth]

I just can’t get over how we finally get a teen rom com type show that includes a girl having a crush on another girl, and there’s people who are calling it forced and unnecessary. As if being a bisexual teenager isn’t confusing and often times out of nowhere!! Get with the program. Xo Kitty actually went there and didn’t back out! They said our main character has a crush on a girl and it’s not for a split second. It’s happening! It’s real! It wasn’t a plot device for the sake of it. And she still has boy love interests too.

This is the bisexual experience. If you don’t like it then maybe look within yourself and ask why a girl crushing on a girl bothers you so much. Especially when she’s also still very much interested in boys. Idk why fandoms and tv viewers can’t actually grasp the concept of a bisexual. So many people use it as a stepping stone of wanting their character to be gay, but needing an excuse as to why they used to date a gender different to their own.

Newsflash. A girl can like a girl and like boys too. Contrary to popular belief bisexuality isn’t a step you take on your journey to being gay. It is its own sexuality and includes liking more than one gender. Kitty likes boys and girls your f/m ship isn’t obsolete just because she currently has a crush on a girl? It’s not a threat. You’re still allowed to ship her with the cute boy you want her with.

#xo kitty #I am tired of both media and viewers who think bisexuality isn’t a whole sexuality on its own #I think it’s a mixture of writing and fandoms who see a bisexual character end up with one gender so that means they can never like another #one ever again which is stupid and entirely untrue #stop erasing us!!!

[sprucewoodmpreg]

really funny that clethubs has gotten way more popular this season considering bdubs has been WAY more of a petty bitch than usual 😭

#said with love. im a big fan drama and lying. etc #it's still so fucking funny though. he regifts half the stuff etho n cleo give to him. constantly talks abt how awful they are to him #<- the latter of which is blatantly untrue. which cleo TELLS HIM. and he can't even think of anything to defend himself 😭😭😭😭 #the one season in which he's actively being invited to an alliance and he's like FUCKKKKKKKK. #mfw i commit myself to a new alliance for once and then when i'm offered a chance to return to old loyalties i respond with hostility 🤦‍♀️ #because god forbid. god forbid

[coquelicoq]

post-canon every single member of kimcom likes to spoon kim dokja. nonsexually. it's just nice to know he's alive and there and feel his chest rise and fall within the circle of your arms. try to do something stupid now asshole. oh you can't? because of my octopus impression? that's right. take THAT. however i will make one exception for yoo joonghyuk. yoo joonghyuk may want to spoon kim dokja, but he never gets the opportunity because kim dokja wants to spoon him more. so the sleeping arrangement is yjh>kdj>all other kimcom members on rotation. actually i take it back there's one other household member who doesn't want to spoon kim dokja and it's yoo mia, but that's fine because she's one of the only people (besides kim dokja) who yoo joonghyuk would be comfortable spooning. so there's probably times when it's yma>yjh>kdj>today's lucky winner.

incidentally this is also the order for the doing-each-other's-hair train because while yoo mia WILL allow other people to do her hair, no one wants to because she always compares their skills unfavorably to her brother's. and she's really articulate about it. just utterly scathing. one time her criticism was so devastatingly, accurately incisive that she made lee hyunsung cry. yoo joonghyuk spooned him that night to cheer him up and yoo mia was so mad about it that lee hyunsung had to leave the country for a couple weeks. the household learned a valuable lesson that day. it's best not to disturb the delicate spooning/hair-train balance.

#i love how often the webtoon shows people giving their injured teammates piggyback rides #like yeah that is way easier than a bridal carry. good weight distribution #but also it means when they go into Spoon Mode they're like. hey this is familiar! #anyway kimcom totally has a schedule for who gets to spoon kim dokja because otherwise shin yoosung and lee gilyoung would #resort to murder #also han sooyoung was hogging him and pretending it didn't count because it was her clones doing it #(classic excuse. it wasn't me. it was my clone! my clone stole the cookie from the cookie jar! my clone ate my homework!!) #kim dokja figures out that there's a schedule but he thinks it's like. a chore for them instead of something they're fighting over #because he is an idiot 😎👍 #the other sleeping arrangement is kim dokja lying on his back and one person on each side cuddling up to him #that's the default when yjh isn't around for kdj to spoon. which doesn't happen very often #if anyone asks no i did NOT start crying the last time someone spooned me because i was incredibly touch-starved. utter lies #totally untrue and also completely irrelevant to the matter at hand #orv #omniscient reader's viewpoint #my posts #f #kdj #orv spoilers #i guess?? #kimcom in the situation room trying to strategize how to turn him back into a squid so they can all have a tentacle to cuddle #kim dokja only has two hands and like ten people who want to clutch him to their bosom...but what if he had MORE than two hands? #he has before and he can again. as god is their witness

[allbuthuman]

I've seen a lot of analysis of Chuuya's character focusing on being used or controlled, and I think I see it a bit differenly than most of what I've read, so here's some of my thoughts.

Control and lack thereof is, of course, a major theme in his arc. He was made how he is against his will, had his past taken away from him, and was being used for his strength by the Sheep, before getting blackmailed to join the mafia. However, in present time, and, in my opinion, from Stormbringer and onwards, Chuuya is essentially only being controlled by his own self (excluding the vampirism, of course). Let me explain.

Chuuya, likely because of his need to cling onto his humanity, has always been people-oriented. He knows that he holds more power than most, and is therefore obligated to protect others with it. Shirase and the Sheep don't need to tell him that, even though they do. He knows and believes it himself regardless. We can see that because he acts the same even around people who don't rely on him (the Flags).

Before Stormbringer, he might have acted this way because it was instilled into him by others. Through the events of Stormbringer, Chuuya becomes more confident in his own nature. He understands Verlaine and how he ended up the way that he is, and decides that's not gonna be him. He sees Dazai trying to discard his humanity, and decides that's not gonna be him. He is gonna be his own person, and his own person is someone who puts others before himself. He describes this process himself to Verlaine, saying that even if he wanted to kill N, which he probably did, he can't do that, because he is obligated to find the truth for the sake of his dead friends. That's a decision that's focused on others, but he is the one making it, and it's important to him that he is the one making it.

From that point on, he continues to make similar choices. First of all at the end of Stormbringer, when he immediately decides on saving Yokohama from destruction instead of learning the truth about himself, and the fact that he is the one making the choice is emphasised. Dazai gives him another choice, and he doesn't even need two minutes to consider it, because, by that point, he's only staying true to who he is. The same is true for Dead Apple, when he doesn't hesitate to use corruption without knowing if Dazai is alive.

I think that if we were to pinpoint a specific point in time where this solidified in his mind, it would be right after he was tortured by N. His hallucinations fed him his own doubts and fears, and, by the point he snapped out of them and decided to fight Verlaine instead of N, he knew that, human or not, he is his own person with his own emotions and he will stay true to that. It's likely that he didn't exactly put all of this into words in his mind, but it becomes very clear when he says that Verlaine "is just an ordinary human. He gets mad, he worries... That doesn't seem to be enough for him, though". He's confused when Adam implies so, but what his words mean is that it is, in fact, enough for Chuuya.

My point is that yes, Chuuya has always used his power way more often for the sake of others than himself, but the reason he does so, the reason he allows it, is simply the fact that he is Chuuya. If he's unable to stop acting that way, which he admits that he is, it's not because others are controlling him. It's because he is who he is. Whether or not that means he is free or not is beyond the point of this post, because it's sort of a circular process, where his own will is to act for the sake of others. But I do think, for example, that he wouldn't see himself the way a good chunk of the fandom sees him.

(also this is kind of a continuation of this post, or at least related to it, so check here for more chuuya ponderings)

#chuuya would not complain about being a second choice or being left behind #not because these things are untrue but because that's neither the lens through which he sees himself nor where his arc focuses #the stormbringer reread is taking me so long because i stop and analyse everything (wouldn't have it any other way) #next up another dazai post because i had sort of a moment where thoughts fell into place #or verlaine/rimbaud post because they make me ill #bungou stray dogs #bsd #bsd stormbringer #chuuya nakahara #nakahara chuuya #bsd analysis

[squea]

most of the time her new eye looks like garbage but when it looks good it looks... so good

#ive noticed this game always shows the right side of ur characters face more than the left which SUCKs when the eye on ur right is ur ugly 1 #i could swap it and pretend volo replaced the other eye instead BUT it feels untrue to myself to do it so im just trying to force it #i did however change it from the glowing blue orange to a glowing white/yellow bc it looks better <3 #bg3 #bg3 tav #shrimp

[imjustavenuxwithaboomerang]

i very heavily recommend

there for you (a duet)

over til it's over (a group song but he has a small solo, a duet part, and he leads the male group parts)

it's my time (a group song but he has a duet part, and you can hear him on the first chanty part)

from the lodge to any dbd fans (who haven't seen it already) who want to hear jayden's singing/rapping voice

time stamps under the cut for the last two if you need them

(these are from the soundtrack version btw but the scenes line up i'm pretty sure)

over til it's over: 0:19 - 0:23 (solo part), 0:40 - 0: 53 (group part 1), 1:05 - 1:09 (group part 2), 1:14 - 1:17 (duet part), 1:28 - 1:40 (group part 3), 1:52 - 1:55 (group part 4), 2:10 - 2:21 (group part 5), 2:33 - 2:36 (group part 6), 2:48 - 2:53 (group part 7)

it's my time: 0:01 - 0:14 (chant part), 1:39 - 1:55 (duet part)

#all from season 2 cause the only season 1 you can hear him in is never let you go #which i myself only like the chorus of but he still sounds fantastic on the chorus so can't complain that much ig #and you barely hear him on the season 1 song believe that but he dances in the music video and looks adorable in his outfit #<- okay that's semi untrue he does an adlib at 1:02-1:04 #and he's definitely on the chorus but he goes in and out so take this with a grain of salt #warning: he literally looks so young in season 1 (cause he was) it through me for a loop while rewatching believe that #okay hopefully those timestamps are good but again they're just there if you need help picking out his voice #<- no shame in that #dead boy detectives #charles rowland #the lodge #disney the lodge #the lodge disney #noah potts #jayden revri #the lodge uk #the only season 1 song***

[teeth-draws]

Hhhhighschool au bus ride with trouble from @shepherds-of-haven ;;;; haha

#shepherds of haven #trouble alder #halle beren #if you were wondering why red and the others had such different styles it’s bc this is the missing link #thought I’d try and paint aka no lines! and a background! wild! #anyway in a hs au where their respective single parents are alive #trouble is supported and thriving as the king of social butterflies #she is less feral but also less confident and she pines for him night and day #she is positive he can’t be that thick and he just wants to be friends - every time she tries to ask him out he invites a group #hang in there girl #this will all come to a head where she swears off her feelings for him and finally starts dating the guy from her smart girl class #and trouble who has always kinda liked that tall redhead or whatever suddenly wants to crack his head in the door #-what’s he got that I don’t got?- but all the girls just laugh at him so he sulks #what do you mean you’re going to the library with him what about our Tuesday night taco tradition??? bruh #the vibe as always is energetic extrovert x introverted baddie #teenage trouble punches walls and that’s a shame but also can’t be untrue #here ig he’s like 17 and she’s 18?? they both live in the poorer district of the city and she uses his mum’s laundromat #it’s a fixture in the community and part of the reason he’s so nosy and earnestly involved with everyone #her ears are pierced so much to mimic THE halek prince of whom she has a picture of in her locker #she is overthinking which music to play on their shared earphones even though he’s off with the fairies #this is why AirPods suck like the intimacy of earphones is unparalleled it’s all about the lean #anyway no doubt years of on and off infatuation vs his obliviousness culminates in dating someone else and avoidance #until either his dad shows up out of nowhere and he bangs on her door in the rain OR like her dad does something extra depresso #and she goes to him straight away #then there is a dramatic confession at the school festival or something #or his mum whacks him over the head ig and makes him walk her home when it’s still awkward between them and he can’t stand the weird mood #also they were going to be wearing their school bags but I got tired lmao so they’re on the ground while they commute it’s fine #he ate her up though tbh lmao #as usual the tags are nonsensical there is so much moisturiser in my eyes I’ve been writing reports for hours and have met so many weirdos #her phone is the shiny drampa that rotted my brain enough for me to create her in it’s image when I was shiny hunting

[calware]

the more i think about jake's character the more i realize how little justice he was given at the end of the comic

#it's like... there is no resolution!!!! his character arc ends abruptly before its conclusion!!! #he's in the ''maybe i should just be alone :)'' state of mind #which is Untrue. but he never Progresses past this mindset #normally he would experience events that would lead to growing as a person and realizing that he just needs to establish boundaries and #learn to communicate and such #as part of maturing #fitting in with the whole coming of age theme...... #it's character development!!! BUT IT NEVER HAPPENS #it just. ends!!!! #and then the audience just takes that at face value and think he really is just better off alone and would be happy like that! #when in reality if you look at his pre scratch iteration that is clearly not the case! he is so dysfunctional when disconnected! #and that's only part of it #sighs. i am so sorry jake fans. you are all so strong #this isn't a vaguepost btw #in case anybody was worried #homestuck #📺

[littencloud9]

//

#cont thoughts of my last rb but. i think ppl are so quick to say that teruko is a badly written character bc of her role in the story?? #idk how to explain it but. yeah bsd isnt the best at writing female characters and theres hints of misogyny here and there #but ppl always say teruko's entire character is a product of misogyny and that is just. not true. #prob bc people focus too much on the fact that shes a rare female character idk #yeah shes extremely dedicated to the hunting dogs and fukuchi. her LEADER. i dont think thats misogyny #people dont say that about chuuya being extremely loyal to the mafia 😭😭 #'her having to give the credit to fukuzawa for killing fukuchi is so misogynistic!!!' except youre ignoring what that scene is really about #it's about two kinds of people. how fukuzawa couldnt kill out of love vs how teruko killed because of it #it's about the fact that SHE can do it. shes strong enough to. SHE understands whats necessary. SHE pushed her feelings aside. #which i thought was amazing. it really solidified her role as a SOLDIER which was how she was introduced. shes VICE CAPTAIN of the hd i fee #like people always forget that. #it's also rare to see a female character act on smth that isnt emotional cause it's always male characters pushing aside their grief for th #better. i loved that we were shown how fukuzawa who is stone cold and an ex assassin CLDNT do it while teruko who is explosive and emotiona #could!! it was an interesting side to both their characters #thats not to say teruko isnt a victim of misogyny. cause people do hate her for traits they love in other characters (shes very similar to #ranpo and chuuya and jouno off the top of my head) #but to say that her entire self is a result of misogyny is doing a disservice to her character #and shows that you cant look past her relationships with male characters idk #saying she doesnt have anything outside male characters is so untrue i cant stand that argument. bc SHE DOES. youre the one not seeing it #her role during the skyfall arc was amazing how do we forget that #anyway sorry. to each their own ofc im not defending bsd's occasional bad writing #but teruko get behind me djhfjhd

[anglerflsh]

and so my library keeps growing

#[.txt] #self #untrue because I have a good edition of the Orlando Furioso from I believe the beginning of the 1900s that I promised I'd give away #so we have one (1) exception. Two if you count that french poetry book #which was from? 1960s? I think #but I keep on buying things and telling myself it's all gifts. And then it isn't

[styxnbones]

throwing this out into the void here mostly just to test how i feel abt seeing it in words, but im starting to think the 100% aroace label is perhaps not serving me quite the way i want it to and maybe harper's Unlabeled Swag (As A Freak With Proximity To The Acespec) was me projecting just tiny bit

#personal bullshit #recent revelations have alerted me to the fact that there are some people i want #i just want them in ways that are Complicated #and in many cases would require a paramedic on standby #but also idk if like formally establishing this would actually make my life any easier #or more effectively communicate what people actually need to know about me #bc to the overwhelming majority of people i meet i might as well be aroace as far as theyre concerned #and the problem with labeling yourself as Unlabeled is that then people just assume that youre bi but a coward about it #which is even more untrue than the assumptions people make about me when i say im aroace #so like idfk man theres no winning here i dont think #or who knows maybe ive just lost the plot bc i havent slept in like 30 hours #so im having untrustworthy 3am thoughts at 1:42 in the afternoon

[chiropteracupola]

a bright future!

#em draws stuff #slightly belated summer of sutcliff #the eagle of the ninth #Look! Em Has Stayed Up Too Late Lovingly Rendering Wolf Fur Again! #was feeling Things in the lecture on roman womanhood the other day and had to draw cottia on account of it. I Love Her So Dearly. #and then while I was finishing up inks during the guest lecture on graffiti I was hoping the whole time that the lecturer would not see #have a terrible fear that I will lose Academia Points for enjoying historical fiction (which is a weird and untrue thought. but still.) #but despite the fact that he was less than a foot away from me (and SHOUTING) he did not say anything to me about it‚ which was lovely

[hermit-scribe-vibe]

i think about ace... a normal amount.

#i do realize this makes it look like i only draw fem ace which is UNTRUE #i am sitting on. so many ace drawings lmao #one piece #portgas d. ace #art #fanart #j.art #opart