#why TF did i know that would happen

[atomicqueer]

whyyyyy did i say yes to go on a date with that guy

#i was flustered!!! idk!! i feel like i should give him a chance tho :/ idk tho #literally the weirdest timing tho. BUT I PREDICTED IT #why TF did i know that would happen #predictable ass man smh #anyway. guess ill be stringing along TWO tall long haired bi men. i sure know how to find them (pure coincidence) #despite the timing being weird and predictable its hilarious to me because i have no issues with dating a coworker #so to follow me out to the parking lot on my last day and go ''you dont work here anymore right? when can i take you out?'' is like... #dude i was not like. waiting. for us to nit be coworkers. or anything. if i had wanted to ask u out sooner i wouldve i promise #hes not even the coworker i wanted to sleep with 😔

[necessarymeanstoanend]

spade represents the tip of a pike; an implement for killing

alex’s

white void of doom

sketch and background element/scribble that isn’t really visible but i’m sharing just in case anybody did notice it.

other details

#now i have to draw one for alex *sobs* #how tf do you guys come up with backgrounds for EVERY DRAWING?! oh my god. i’m not creative enough for this bullshit #two things i discovered with this drawing: 1) birds are hard af to draw. 2) wet black hair is hard af to draw #you guys have no idea how many purple hues are actually in this art piece #this is like if dream and jessamy happened to have met under way worse circumstances #anyway let me know if you guys have any ideas for alex’s (i have no idea when exactly i’ll actually get around to it but still) #bones and shit #a majority of this one was inspired by The Locked Tomb fanart and symbolism #6 hours and 34 minutes but i’m gonna guess that roughly an hour and a half of that was me trying to figure out a background #tom sturridge #like minds #murderous intent #like minds 2006 #nigel colbie #art #fanart #drawing #digital art #nigel colbie fanart #artist of tumblr #like minds art #nigel colby #<- including the old tag bc why not #somebody get this movie out of my brain #scoop it out along with all the other useless shit i keep in there #i was thinking maybe alex’s should be the complete opposite of this #like instead of his head being turned down it would be turned upwards #maybe he should be wearing the clothes he did when we first saw him with sally rowe (or maybe his school uniform) #i ​definitely want both of them to be side profiles and the theme is going to have to be somewhat consistent as well #<<‹ these tags are mostly so i remember my own thought process but feel free to leave your two cents

[happy-emmdings]

OUAT be like ‘True love is the rarest magic of all’ and then they expect me to believe that fucking Brennan Jones fell in love in his sleep and a nurse fell in love with him without ever having a reciprocated conversation with him or ever getting to personally know him and it was actual True Love™ that managed to break a sleeping curse. And now suddenly he’s completely reformed and such a good guy because the woman ✨fixed him✨ And they expect me to accept this in the same episode where they show him selling his children without showing the slightest hint of remorse. Okay. Umm, what the fuck?

Also him telling Killian that if he had known the nurse back then he never would have done that and everything would have been different must have been an extra punch in the gut to Killian because if he was at all close to his mother when he was little, it must have felt like Brennan was absolutely dismissing her. As if Brennan was saying he needed a woman to make him a good person but Killian’s mother wasn’t good enough. What an asshole.

#the jones family #killian jones #brennan jones #i don’t buy his ‘change’ #and i definitely don’t buy his true love story #it goes against every attempt ouat made to subvert the true love’s kiss trope #from a storytelling point of view brennan being cursed and awoken by a true love’s kiss is such a lazy explanation #they just needed him to be alive 200 years later because they specifically wanted regina to be involved #which was also a retcon #how tf did she even know anything about killian’s father in the first place? #and why would she bother finding out so much personal information about someone she just wanted to hire as an assassin? #if they really wanted killian to commit patricide they could have easily let it happen within a reasonable timeline #wait i expected a reasonable timeline on ouat? my bad #anything but the true love explanation would have worked #ouat criticism #hating on brennan jones again

[lady-shadow-and-darkness]

Whenever I see people saying that Dazai's an asshole and doesn't care about anyone I laugh. Guess he did a good job of fooling you buddy.

#I mean it was an account which presumably liked Akutagawa #So I can TOTALLY see why this happened. I get it. Your fav was abused by this character and he's in general an asshole to a lot of people. #But also he isn't a complete monster and that's crucial to understanding his character. #I used to hate Mori and that made me make him ooc SO many times. #And I know it's not exactly the same but for your own sake : if you're biased towards a character please stop telling people they're wrong #about said character. Because your bias is probably preventing you from seeing Dazai in a caring light and that SHOWS. #“Dazai left chuuya behind in the woods” dude. Chuuya was his enemy. They were in war. He needed to take Q back. #Did people seriously think Dazai would be able to carry both a grown man and a kid on his back all the way to an extraction point? #And he literally took Chuuya back in stormbringer after the first time chuuya used corruption. #and he waited until chuuya woke up before leaving in dead apple and stayed beside him so that chuuya wouldn't be affected by the fog. #I think people overestimate Dazai's abilities sometimes. where tf was he supposed to take chuuya in dead apple? #there was still a battle going on. #There's nothing I hate more than dazai haters trying to make him look bad in every situation. #“oh he spent Kunikidas money that's asshole behav-” THEY'RE FRIENDS ASSHOLE!!! #If Kunikida wanted he could've kicked Dazai's ass to the sun and told him to never touch his wallet again. #he didn't. BECAUSE THEY'RE FRIENDSSSS (maybe something else too to the kndz shippers) #like shut up and leave ♡ #also “this os MY post on MY blog” how do you feel about me uno reversing you sweetie <3 #bungou stray dogs

[hauntingblue]

BACK TO ONE PIECE LETSGOOOOO

#nami put luffy in a cage.... dont let sanji see that.... again nami demonstrating how she is the strongest ever..... #why is franky the boat akshaksjskqjqk ROBIN NEARLY 1000 MILLION YEAAAAAHHHHH #sanji exploded </3 rip the smoking got to him..... luffys snapshot in the cage beaten up akdhsksjsk #jinbes theme is a banger.... buggy lmaoo chacho means president??? that is so funny... CHACHOOOO!!! also buggy owning croc money... banger #these two divas sitting cross legged on the couch bullying buggy.... ajhdkajsa buggys bounty akdhsksjsks #this whole episode was so funny lmao buggy.... #talking tag #watching one piece #episode 1086 #luffy wanted yamato to join the crew omg....... i mean of course but he was maaaad.... i kew yamato was a nakama for sure #marco telling luffy ace would be proud of him and smiling.... didnt that happen before and he got sad??? development #SERAPHIM?? THE NEW PACIFISTAS?? why tf does she look like hancock??? OMG MARGARET!!! FUCKING BLACKBEARD??? IN AMAZON LILY??? #baby angel mihawk too??? what is this.... KILL BLACKBEARD YES!!!! THROW HIM INTO THE SEA!!! LET THE SEA RECLAIM HIM!!! #so pretty sure what garp was talking about were the seraphim pacifistas..... just keep making things worse old man sure #koby is gay confirmed see.... helmeppo got got... the downsides of being bisexual... #BLACKBEARD GOT HER!!! GET YOUR FUCKING HANDS OFF HER!!!! #episode 1087 #hancock lying on rayleighs legs omg... those are her parents ALSO SHAKKY EX KUJA CAPTAIN AND EX EX EMPERESS??? RAYLEIGH????? #why does amazon lily have a giant portrait of luffy on the palace facade akdhaksjaka i mean i DO know why..... #who tf is wang zhi and what did koby do.... and blackbeard is NASTY!!!! RAYLEIGH GET HIM!!! this reminds me of shanks in marineford... a lo #koby kidnapped by blackbeard?? omg kuma....... he is alright.... why the cherry blossom petals in between them ajdjsksjwk #see how sabo is alive.... but why does koala have blue eyes and orange hair now.... luffy having a crisis #i was thinking is carobou om that fucking barrel and YES why us brook crying akdhsk what do you know #zoro using luffy's words against him.... but i dont think ace is a good example of this.... zoro and sanji fighting about who is on top.... #luffy asking robin for news.... BUT ROBIN I WANT TO KNOW!!!! omg this ending???? WHAT DID LUFFY SAY???? that was beautiful............. #he said he wants to give everyone freedom i know it... and he needs to be pirate king for that.... he knew since he was a child..... #omg....... the one piece is freedom for everyone and for some reason roger couldnt do it he wanted his son to do it..... #back on my theories grind.... #episode 1088 #LUFFY!!!! THE MAN THAT YOU ARE!!!!

[shirtlessradfahrer]

hi sorry I disappeared for like two weeks but I was overwhelmed with the news that there's a significant chance I may be on the autism spectrum (and possibly have a nice side helping of adhd) which if true has a fuckton of implications for how poorly many, many things throughout my life have played out, so needless to say I am not doing very well

(and by that I mean I was mostly crying on and off for days, and then cried some more when I realized it will cost thousands if I want to get a proper assessment done and I'm not confident my insurance would cover all of it, and also depending on how much my hours continue to be cut this month I may not even have said insurance for much longer at all hahahaha)

#i'm so angry #thinking of how many adults complained about me and my behaviour growing up but couldn't help me at all #how long have i suffered for no reason #because i wasn't a completely nonverbal boy who liked trains or some shit #...actually i did really like trains but it didn't matter apparently #but learning about all the signs and symptoms in girls/women has felt like getting punched in the gut over and over #and all the absolute worst of my childhood and teenage years has rushed back to me with new context #and i'm so fucking angry and sad and upset #and now my mom is angry af too because she took me to a psychologist in complete desperation when i was like five #because i couldn't control my emotions for shit once i was home from school #i would just flip tf out and throw stuff around my room and be incapable of saying anything until i had completely calmed down #and this was happening on a regular basis and she didn't know what tf to do #and while at school i couldn't make eye contact or advocate for myself and again i just shut down completely if i was too stressed or upset #and several other things #and the psychologist was basically like lol idk what's wrong with her but you probably just need to be a better mother :) #just slightly more professionally #NO ONE ever mentioned the possibility of autism to her #and i feel like some of these things have...worsened when i'm at work but i couldn't figure out why i was having so much difficulty #and why i felt so drained after even a short shift #but then reading about masking hit me like a fucking freight train #and apparently my brother’s girlfriend-who was officially diagnosed a few years ago-suspected it when she first met me?? #but idk what to do now bc i have an doctor's appointment next week #and i feel like i should bring it up because i hate just self-diagnosing #but even if i somehow managed to pay for an assessment (lmao) i don't feel like my doctor's going to take it seriously #considering he's been our family doctor since my birth #and apparently couldn't be bothered to take my mom's concerns that seriously back then either #jfc I’m rambling again don’t look at me

[musical-chick-13]

Cannot BELIEVE I had to have a conversation with someone where, after I complained about people Not Wanting To Write About Women, I then had to explain that yes, I DO write about men sometimes, actually; no I don't hate men; yes I write from the POV of the men in numerous cases and also analyze them.

#I know this person's comments were not meant maliciously but like. still. wild. #no I am in fact not on some weird gender essentialist bullshit because I want to complain about how a bunch of people don't seem to #care about women in stories. 'well how many times do YOU write about men' YOU'D APPARENTLY BE SURPRISED ACTUALLY!!!!! #MORE OF THIS CURRENT PROJECT IS FROM THE MALE CHARACTER'S POV THAN THE FEMALE CHARACTER'S POV #(granted I couldn't like. TALK about said current project to this person because why tf would I do that to myself when the subject matter #is what it is and I need to retain some sense of self-preservation but like. still.) #(like I think I actually have a pretty even mix of things I write from a man's pov versus a woman's pov. it depends on what concept #I'm trying to write about and which character I think would best serve that end. why is this. a surprise to you.) #(I even thought about genderbending a m/m wip before deciding it really did work better as a m/m story based on what I was Trying To Say) #the reason that 'not all men' was so disparaged is not because we inherently hate men. it's because people were trying to take a #discussion about things that DISPROPORTIONATELY HAPPEN TO WOMEN and making it about not hurting the feelings of men who #are not involved in this. and I shouldn't even have to fucking explain this because SOMETIMES THINGS ARE JUST!! NOT ABOUT YOU!!!!!!!

[simscastaway]

There’s a solid chance I have a doctors appointment today or at least sometimes soon but fuck knows because I don’t know where the letter is.

#why the fuck would you give me an appointment letter 5 month in advance mate I dont have a clue what happened to it #tbh actually I think I made the smart choice of leaving it on the fridge so I’d know where it is but my family have tossed it out if I did #I don’t even know what number I would have to call to figure out when tf this appointment is 💀

[ambergrief]

this girl was like hacking and wheezing in the bathroom at work and it suddenly started sounding really bad so i was like "ARE YOU CHOKING" and she nodded her head so i immediately tried doing the heimlich but she was tall and fat and my arms are short and fat so i dont think it was working so i stopped after like 3 tries and yelled at aomeone outside to call 911 but then she started coughing and gasping told me that she was choking on her spit. and she said she was ok. and she was catching her breath and so i was like "oh... ok hahaha........hahahaha" and like i was embarrassed and i think she was embarrassed too and no one outside had called 911 like they were just acting like nothing happened and she walked away and then i walked away to finish my 15 minute break

#like to be fair they didnt call 911 becauss immediately after i yelled that she started gasping and i loudly was like 'YOURE OK? OK YOURE O #but like why didnt anyone like look up when we ledt the bathroom like #it happened so fast like within a minute it was over #why was i so embarrassed #when she was like catching her breath i was like 'haha sorry...' #like why tf did i apologize #and why do i know that i would be even #more embarrassed if i was choking #its painful to be alive

[softly-and-suddenly]

We need to start bullying people who organize their bookshelves by color actually

#I’m tired of ‘let people enjoy things’ it looks bad and how do you find anything #I feel myself entering my grumpy old bitch time of life but seriously the thought #of putting my red Agatha Christie book on the other end of my shelf from my blue Agatha Christie book makes my skin crawl #and for what?? it doesn’t even look good #bookshelves painstakingly put into rainbow order and then covered with fairy lights and funko pops? like do you read those books or what #I don’t want to get too deep here but there’s a connection between having ‘pretty’ bookshelves and reading books for ‘the vibes’ #or whatever the fuck booktok’s always on about #I cannot tell you how many videos I’ve seen hyping up books by just saying ‘this one has a dark academia aesthetic with enemies to lovers’ #and everyone in the comments goes ‘Omg adding to my tbr!!!’ uhhh and what is the book about? pls and thenk you? #I once saw a tiktok that said ‘I want to live in these movies/novels so bad’ #and one of them was Anna Karenina (w/ pics from the Kiera Knightley movie) #and I commented why tf would you want to live in Anna Karenina do you know what happens in that book #and the person responded ‘ummm obviously I was just talking about the aesthetic 🙄’ #the aesthetic of the inability to attain happiness within the confines of Imperial Russian society and marital infedelity?? #or did you just like the pretty dresses?? what is the draw here

[daydreaming-in-daisies]

my professor still hasn't graded our finals and graduation is tomorrow. she said she'd be finished grading by thursday and it's almost saturday. im still not sure if i passed or not, like should i even go??? bc if i go but i didn't pass, then i won't be allowed to walk again (my school only lets you walk once, which is fucking ridiculous). but if i don't go and i find out i passed, i'm gonna be mad at the missed opportunity.

#words #personal #yeah idk what im gonna do #i might just go anyway tbh despite not knowing #which isn't ideal #bc im exhausted and i just dont wanna do anything school related #i have the grad cap and gown so maybe i should anyway #but it would feel undeserved #fr fuck my cell bio professor for not grading this shit on time #you literally had one job #i really can't stand these fucking science professors at my school #why tf does my university even have a rule about only being able to walk once #do they not realize that sometimes grading delays happen and people dont know how they did until later????

[justhereforwritingthings]

the part of being an exchange student that no one tells you about is when another exchange student arrives late and then their host parents just Decide that you are the person they should be asking questions to such as why their exchange student is sick and i just....

#zorrotalks #they have my phone number somehow and idk how that happened #that's the part that pissed me off #also why should i know what your exchange student ate last night #we did go to a bday party together but i was unaware that i was supposed to be Paying Attention To What She Ate To Tell You Later #i did not tell the host parents because that would be fucking weird #like tf #and just to clarify if they were normalish questions like how do we help with culture shock i would be slightly irritated but fine with it #but no it's fucking why is my child sick #how should i know i'm 17 #exchange student #exchange student things #why me

[wikipediabr0wn]

my school had a lockdown drill bc of the shooting last week and now i'm having a panic attack 😃👍

#and i didn't even know ab it until the lady came around and was like 'why aren't you hiding? didn't u get the email we're having a drill?' #like?? tf? #you think an active shooter is gonna send an email prior too? #and once we did get in the room i just tucked myself into a corner and tried not to freak the fuck out #and the lady was like 'are you okay??' #NO #i'm not Fucking Okay #someone i knew and joked around w just shot and killed two fucking people and i still haven't processed it #and now ur making me simulate that experience and proving that if it WERE to happen here #it would be so so much worse #i'm just sick of thinking about it #and of everybody asking about it #my boss tried to talk to me about it the other day too #like 'oooh did you know him??? did you know the teacher that died' #and the news asking for interviews at the memorials #like pls shut the fuck up #these are real people #anyway #tw school shooting #shut up lara

[bo0zey]

i am the stupidest dumbest bafoonist bitch alive. send tweet

#tw self pitying tw crying victim tw victim complex tw waste of space wasting internet gigbites idk #my anxiety abt taking the nclex in 4 days is so bad i literally cannot stop crying if i think abt it too much #i don’t know jack fucking shit i hate crmaming i’m so useless i can’t fail it’s not an option i can’t do it i can’t do anything #whyyyyyyy did i have to live past 18 and 22 i didn’t want this fuck!!!!’nnnn #im so scared i can’t believe i’m crying lol i NEVERRRR got test anxiety during college n i would literally cram studying 7hrs before ?? #before the literal exam like #and now just thinking abt the test i start crying n my chest tightens idk what’s happening #im so scared to live im so scared i won’t pass and everyone will be mad at me i need to do well oh my god #oooo loook who’s crying right now lol it’s MEENDJFJHD DUMB FUCKIGN STUPID BITCH!!!! ISIOT!!!! #why tf r u crying instead of studying u stupid dumbass god get a flckgn hold of urself set ur properties straight #i wish i had my mom to tell me i’ll be okay im so stressed and alone and scared i feel like a 6 yr old lost in a mall #i feel so small i don’t think anyone rlly understands or sees how small and fragile i am right now #but it’s my fault i don’t let them i play the big girl grown up loud unbothered act but inside im nothing #this is ?? the biggest exam of my life ?? pass fail?????? #ok gonna go study more ig bc im just wasting time crying for no reason lol #ramblings

[unidentifiedfuckingthing]

i think actually theres transformers who are trans and normal about it. including the canon trans characters. not including the one who only exists because of simon furmans incredible hate boner against women existing in any media. but im partial to people who seem like they would have really severe gender issues

#thats the backstory to the post i made a couple days ago btw #theres a like token female character thats existed in tf forever since the original cartoon and in the comics simon furman wrote in that she #was a male transformer who was kidnapped and evilly experimented on to turn into a woman (in a society of all men. unclear why you would #even want or know how to make a person in a single gendered race a New gender.) #and it turned her into like a crazed murder obsessed she demon #so like INCREDIBLY bad all around. they still regularly hire that guy to write on things btw. #OH and that comic wasnt like. old. the series only started in 2005. that was between 2005-2012 that that happened #in the MUCH OLDER comic he wrote for in the 80s or 90s he similarly gave the same character a fucked up backstory #that time that human feminists were outraged that all the transformers were men (which like. again. this is a conservative idiot but it just #does not hold up that a single gendered alien species is necessarily male) #and FORCED the transformers to create a new transformer that was a woman #oh but even WHEN they did the human women were outraged about it because she was too feminine and not feminine enough #because feminists are evil and want to ruin every ounce of fun men have for no reason i guess

[iloveyouitisruiningmylife]

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#my dad: how did u do so well in the first exam and so bad in all the rest #and then he thought about it for a minute #and said #oh i know what happened #him: accha so 15-18 ke beech mein ghar pe ladai chal rahi thi na bc of anniversary on 18th #me (internally) : OMG when did u become so smart and so correct im impressed and shocked #him: so party ka haan na ho raha tha na that's why ghar walo ki nazar lag gayi #me: 😐 #like sure i mean whatever u say dude #it's good only for me it's taking the blame off me so i won't complain #tho i understand ig why parents are like this #adulting is already so hard at 19 so imagine what it would be like at like 48 #maybe it's nice to think that i failed bc of some external unknowable force wishing bad upon me #takes off some of the suffocating responsibility #these days i feel amazed like wow how tf did i waste 9+ months aise hi like wtf was that #and yes they were def a waste study pov but like ive def learned few things abt myself #1. talking to new people isn't hard at all actually it's the part that comes after the first meeting #it's the how do i make them stay how do i keep them interested #which ive realised is not a skill i possess so like idk ive made peace with the fact that im not gonna date someone for a long time now #it's good i can finally read fics without feeling disgustingly overwhelmingly lonely #2. healing requires a ridiculous amount of consistency and determination like u can't heal unless you aren't doing something to heal yourse #every fucking day #and that u need to put yourself out there and be in crowds even if it makes u feel lonely to see happy deep friendships #bc that's the only way to form them #3. time doesn't heal it just makes u forget and u learn to distract yourself better as time passes #cause tbh i simultaneously feel at the same place that i was last year and also so far away from it all #mes