#why cant people get that I dont understand? bruh.

[woomycritiques543]

If I see someone drawing a character (not just hazbin, anything) with a "stick waist" while being suppoesedly "thicc" I SWEAR- Some characters ive seen legit look like they can be snapped in two with only someone's bare hands. It genuinely gets so bad at times that there's literally no waist just a extremely small tube connecting the body. It's such a pet peeve of mine- there's nothing wrong with bellies it's 2023 why is this still a thing?

#hazbin hotel #helluva boss #animation #art style #pet peeve #but also a legitmate criticism I have. #its not a art style thats just bad anatomy #an art style is the style they're drawn. (rubber hose etc.) #the anatomy is how they're shaped #why cant people get that I dont understand? bruh.

[abyssalpriest]

if i disappear after saying that ive been assassinated no jokes aside if i take that down its not bc i disagree with it, you can still pin it on me as a belief that i think that shit should be said and ill put my whole ass behind it, but saying shit like that has consequences lmfao. also theres a time and a place to bring that up

#ive already. dealt. with enough fucking propagandising royal family members on my fucking ASS this lifetime to last. the rest of #this universe's incarnation. sometimes its better to not get involved which i KNOW is a big part of why the propaganda is rampant #among people who work with ''demons'' but like. no. no race is more superior than other races. hot take i know sorry #ramblings // #honestly tho. im so sick of dealing with the topics of ascending and (''demon'') racial supremacy and fighting jxdaism under the guise #of ''we hate chrxstians tho and thats good!'' bc ''(JEWISH NAME FOR GOD????) is a horrible person he wiped out half his angels!!!!'' #listen i do not care how uncomfortable you are w your species' and peoples' histories you are. leave innocent fucking people and their #concept of the Creator that you dont even understand alone. whats the point in pride in your people if youre only proud of how #your people are Better than another set of people. like. bruh. are you proud of being a (demon) or are you so insecure your only source of #literally describing said propagandising family members lord almighty im gonna stop myself there. #WOW. I DSFJKHDFH. IVE NEVERRRRR SUDDENLY GOTTEN THE URGE TO TALK SHIT ABOUT WAR /AND/ SPILL THINGS PEOPLE #WANT SECRET /AND/ TALK SHIT ABOUT TWISTING KNOWLEDGE TO MAKE YOURSELF LOOK GOOD /AND/ HAD IT DEVOLVE INTO #''even tho im (practically) hindu jxdaism is too fucking important to my family for me to not have OPINIONS about shit'' BEFORE HMM #WEIRD WEIRD unincarnated selves just fucking going AT it. i mean. spilling opinions. cant say they havent gone at it in other #ways too wow no wonder Ardhanarishvara (God as half man half woman) and Shiva and Shakti are super important to me - #NO WONDER THIS CAME AFTER TALKING ABOUT CONSCIOUSNESS AND MIND WHO I SEE AS SHIVA AND SHAKTI #anyway the first post had nothing to do w jxdaism and this topic itself has nothing to do w it i just finally had it click why Certain Peop #calling the things the kings they worship did atrocities of (name) was bothering me SO much. i mean i knew why the rest of it was bothering #me - i mean the NAME bit clicked

[sloppy-disc]

How do I...how do I make it any more clear to someone that I have (A)uditory (P)rocessing (D)isorder. So when you just start to randomly talk at me, I can't pay attention to the words being said to me and then magically know what was just said.

If my name isn't called beforehand I am not going to be able to hone in on what you're about to say. Calling my name first let's me know I have to focus on what's going to be said after, not just "out of the blue" words being said and then act like I was supposed to know what someone said the first time around.

JUST PLEASE STOP >:"((((

#this is also why i like having subtitles on things when i watch them #otherwise i cant catch everything that people are saying on screen #its worse when the other person is in another room entirely and speaking at a normal tone #SPEAK UP PLEASE OR SLOW DOWN #i can catch bits and pieces but not the whole thing at times #it just gets frusturating #my sib jokes about it and says 'damn bruh clean your ears or somethin' but it gets on my nerves some days #i feel bad when i have to ask someone to repeat themselves #but if you want me to be a part of the convo im gonna need all the pieces #even with some videos i cant understand what people are saying #even with my earbuds in #subtitles are a godsend but dear god do i hate when people mess with them and put inaccurate ones or their own personal opinions for a vid #I JUST WANNA HEAR THE VIDEO #STOP FUCKING WITH THE SUBTITLES- #but thats another issue for another day #its sometimes funny when my hearing lags and my brain finally catches up to a thing someone said #person: hey can you grab (object) for me? me: hm? person: i said can you- me: oh yeah i can hang on #sometimes its silly! but when its not it just..isnt #rant #dont rb

[thatdeadaquarius]

I found one of your sagau posts about language and got me thinking xD

Reader who knows a lot of languages which gets people confused. Are they speaking in their godly language? Are they really that mad that they switched to another language? Why are they smirking like that--- (Aether/Lumine who understood everything trying so hard not to laugh at people's reactions)

Why did I imagine that after a flowery speech Reader delivers a response so blunt the vine boom sfx can be heard---

Reader trying out flowery speech and failing, while the rest of the people in the background are either A.) Trying to convince you that its alright to talk simply (oh now you turn the tables--) or B.) Some of them fainting in devotion/cuteness because their god looks at them so eagerly for feedback

I heard somewhere that Mondstadt is based on Germany and another post about Snezhnaya (bruh whats the spelling 🤣💀) based on Russia, so I thought that while they speak english they also throw in a couple words of their respective language (or in some drunk cases, full out native language). Cue reader just.... 🧍‍♂️🧍‍♀️

Bilingual reader who uses full advantage of their knowledge into making puns and jokes to Cyno----

WE CAUGHT ANOTHER ONE BOYS

YES YES THE PSPSPSPSS NEVER FAILSSS🛐🛐🛐

(subliminalmessagingpspspspsscometomeaskscomepspspspspssubliminalmessaging)

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DUDE ive thought abt just making it where Aether/Lumine are the only ones who understand English/ur language and like, while u can (or maybe cant for shenanigans) speak Teyvatian (ew theres gotta be a better word for that?) Theres NOTHING as amazing as the bilingual experience of pranking bitches

Eula gives like a whole poetry book of a speech to you guys to be more responsible abt gliding in the city (its cute <3 shes actually very concerned bc you know you would do sm that would worry her, i mean i know im just flinging myself off of every surface all the time, esp in Mondstadt im not using no stairs💀)

And you just... turn to Aether/Lumine and say smth in English and they bust out laughing

(Or worse, u two are giggling like little shits✨️)

Dont feel too bad Eula, they do this to everyone

(Paimon's constantly on ya'lls case abt it)

Like u didnt even say anything rude (probably), as u explained to Eula, but its like this all the time, sm ppl even find themsleves jealous of this bond you two have got, tho whether they are jealous of Aether/Lumine or you is still still hard to tell,,)

♧

IM SO GLAD ONE PERSON OUT THERE GOT THE FLOWERY SPEECH -> YOU REPLY -> VINE BOOM 🤝🤝🤝 THING I WAS TRYING TO CONVEY

Thats deadass like how i imagine half the time it would be like talking to ppl, esp if ur critizing smth that person was doing lmao (like roasting them)

Its even funnier if like, u didnt hear the vine boom so to speak, like u got ur back to the rest of the characters/npcs while ur talking to this one person and u dont even know u just said smth that's got like one person crying laughing

(KAEYA, aether/lumine, hu tao, KAVEH, Venti, childe, Yae Miko, SCARAMOUCHE/WANDERER, beidou, off the top of my head)

♡

Another one is just standing there in shock, when will they unfreeze? Only time can tell

(Zhongli, jean, eula, keqing, ayaka, ganyu, kuki shinobu, once again off the top of my head theres so many characters at this point in genshin help)

♡

They're just like,, processing still, theyre probably overthinking everything u say bc to them you give so little information 💀 i can see the like transparent images of their thinking faces floating around them now LMAO

(Alhaitham, zhongli again rip, DILUC, kaeya's also laughing at him not just you his stomach hurts help him, Ei, XIAO, ALBEDO, Ayato but he'd also be muffling a laugh, Kazuha maybe i can also see him just giggling n shit, Kokomi, CYNO, Tighnari but also he'll react like its the funniest joke ever while he's trying to actually think abt it, so he just ends up standing there, thinking outloud, then cracking up over and over again lol)

♤

Oh Cyno u sweet summer child, as soon as u started making puns it was over for him, no one can stop you, even if Tighnari can't understand ur language rn he can definitely just sense there's bad jokes being made, esp if Cyno gets it and his lip like, twitches upward or even worse, he chuckles.

(Tighnari's totally getting onto him for corrupting you)

☆

pLEASE US ACTUALLY TRYING TO SPEAK LIKE THEM 😭😭😭

What a cute image, just some of them reassuring us and some of them thinking its cute for trying, and we look around the room when we try for feedback i know i would 😭😭

If i actually got close tho they better give me a headpat or smth

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Anyway THANK YOU for the ask!! (subliminalmessingpspspspspscometomeaskscomepspsps)

That was a BEAUTIFUL✨️ thing to read, got my heart doin backflips and shit 😳😊🥰

God this is so long im so sorry everyone

Cheers,

🌒🌊🌧Aquarius♒️🌌🌘

#my asks #ask box open #please send asks #genshin sagau #not really #im gonna still label it that but its really #genshin isekai #genshin imagines #genshin sagau ideas #genshin impact #im not putting character tags suffer #genshin god reader

[rzyraffek]

Fallout characters with shy!reader scared to ask for nuka-cola in bar

(Fallout3 4 and new vegas)(swf) (imagine s/o telling them that they are scared to ask for nukacola and if *insert character* can do it for them)

Fallout New Vegas

Benny:"so you telling me that u went all over mojave just to find me and you are scared to ask bartender for nukacola?" He will tease you for it, and be confused, like??? Curier is so strong and smart why are they so shy??? But Beni boi likes to talk so no problem he can easly talk to people if Coureir cant.

Arcade:"uhh sure?okay?" I feel like He was shy too when he was younger so he can relate. He probably still sometimes stresses before Talking to somone for first time, but its not that bad. He will probably think that Courier is scared of people due to past or something so he wont bring this topic up(even if they are just shy without reason)

Vuples:"if you are too scared to order a drink how are you going bring pride to Legion" if Courier gives him puppy eyes/accualy feel sad, he will loudly sign and order the drink for them. After that he will try to "train them out of this behiviour" (thats vulpes, dont expect anything wholesome) but if it really upsets Courier he will just silently hate it, but wont bring it into conversations

Raul:"yeah sure boss" he had younger sister okay, he knows how to behave like normal human being. He completly understands the idea of being too shy to do something. He will give them good words and support, but if somestuff really stressed them out hes not going to try to convince them. He would feel bad

Boone: "honey please its not that difficult" he will do it if Courier pays him in hugs later. In NCR military theres no people as shy as them. But its good becasue it makes Courier unique. Also how did Courier survive for such long time out in Mojave???(you'll never find out boone >:3)

Ulysses:"bruh you literally bombed whole City wym bestie"(for context when I played his dlc first time my English wasnt the best and I didnt completly understood what Ulysses was saing and I though that Courier bombed the Devide and Ulysses was his ex bf/Ex friend. And I know that Courier didnt really bomb anything but I stick to it because i found it funny lol). I feel like bartender would be spooked and give nukacola for free Just to get rid of Ulysses. He will say stuff like 'theese days you cant act like that, someone will use it aginst you' but thats all, he wont do anything about it really. Tbh he enjoys Courier looking like sad little puppy everytime they have to talk to anyone. (I need to do special post for my first theories/expirience with fnv its very funny)

Joshua:"sure love" this men will buy it in seconds. Hes impressed that after all this stuff Courier been thrue they are still smol shy bean.(but He will try to convert you to join his religon)

Fallout3

Butch:"loozer" he will make fun of Lone but He will order the drink for them. He will be like "soo is my little nerd too spooked to order some drinks??", he has Policy 'i can bully them but anyone else cant😎' so at least they have only one asshole that bullies other assholes

Charon:"okay" this men still has this weird mindset that he has to do everything Lone says to him:((( even if Lone is clearly treating him as normal human being. Give him some time his life was tough. He will probably find it cute that Lone is too shy to ask somone for drink even after all bs they been thrue. They still have this cute vibe from valut(at least thats what Charon says not me)

Fallout4

Paladin Danse:"soldier why you even want to drink that? Its full of sugar" hes more concerned about Sole drinking this fuild sugar than anything. I mean yeah sure He will help them but please drink water. :( (shut up dance nuka-cola good) Danse will find it silly how Sole is ready for anything but asking bartender for drink is too much

Preston:"sure thing babe! You want anything extra or only that?" So casual about that, doesnt even notice that Lone is shy. He notice only if Sole asks him that often. Wont do anything about it really, Lone wants to be shy and ask him for help? Then let be it, he is more than happy to help them out (he is the sweetest)

MacCready:"aww of course sweetie"just like Preston exept that this one is a big simp. And will do anything Sole asks him to do. And he will be very happy that they ask him for help💖💖💖makes him feel special and important

Gage:"uhh??sure okay?? But boss you have to act tought unless you want other gangs to make fun of ya" he finds it cute, but its sometimes annoying(hes lazy). But its not like He has choice here😈 Sole is his boss afterall. He will try to teach Sole how to be less shy but only because he doenst want other gangs to make fun of them lol (I swear gage is just nuka-cola world babysitter)

Mason:"awww bunny, you are afraid of some bartender??awwww" he is going to tease them, but please dont change, he is fulled with pride every time Sole asks him for help. Like from anyone they can ask for help, they choose him? How cute.

Request open!!

#fallout new vegas #fnv #fnv courier #courier six #fallout 4 #vulpes inculta #arcade gannon #fallout 4 x reader #paladin danse #x6 88 #fnv arcade #courier x arcade #maccready #fallout charon #raul tejada #fnv raul #benny gecko x reader #fnv benny #benny gecko #boone x courier #fnv boone #craig boone #fnv ulysses #joshua graham #fallout butch #butch deloria

[smolsammichowo]

I think my feelings on people arguing over if AEW or WWE is better is that one scene from the mickey mouse cartoon where Minnie Mouse finds a hat that is just the same hat she's wearing on her head & the group with her is like "oh I dont know maybe you should try it on..." & stuff ,

meanwhile Donald Duck, is like "ITS THE SAME HAT." over & over.

I'm Donald. except instead of hats, its pro wrestling. Its the SAME stuff. Its different companies & different styles of showing off stuff & different people but ITS PRO WRESTLING. ITS THE SAME OVER THE TOP VIOLENT SPORTS THEATER.

And I may say "Oh I perfer this stuff in AEW" or "I like this person in WWE" or "My favorite pro wrestler of all time is in AEW" or "Oh my gosh that match in wwe was the coolest ever!" but I just like them both in the end because they're both pro wrestling. Its more pro wrestling for me to enjoy. Same with other companies like NJPW, Impact/TNA (so happy more cool stuff is coming soon for them!) , Dragon Gate, ROH, and so much more !

I'm not saying "Oh! You dont like that company? Well you're bad!" You're fine to not like it, I'm just refering to the people who are like "Oh this guy who is super big star is signed with this comapny now! This company is trash now! Its gonna fail & die out! Haha!" & people who always focus on view counts and say "LOOK! This airing got a lot of people more watching than this show! They are failing!"

I wouldn't say that's failing. I would say all of that is pro wrestling is doing wonderful !

In the end for me, I just love pro wrestling & I'm just happy that I'm a pro wrestling fan in this age as there is so much content to watch (though a bit TOO much because I cant keep up with the fun madness AAAAA ) And I just find it silly that some people instead of enjoying it are just wishing the downfall of stuff! I

Also one more thing Im happier that tumblr has longer posts than twitter so i could talk about this!

Anyway heres a rant down below because here's a reason why I havent talked about pro wrestling a lot on twitter

I only mentioned on twitter that I dont talk about it much anymore given on twitter the fanbase there is a nightmare and people are scary (seriously compared to ANY fanbase Ive ever been in , sports fanbases especially pro wrestling where people REAAALLLY dont understand the "entertainment" part a lot of the time can be nuts. Especailly a shame given sometimes I really do want to talk about pro wrestling given its one of my all time favorite things & then I got people who just call me things just because my favorite wrestler either hasn't done much, isnt a champion, or isnt in their "favorite company"

Like bruh . If it makes you that miserable to just randomly comment on someones post talking about their favorite person like that why ya a fan . I used to be a huge fan of overwatch , still love the characters (after all i have two characters, one being one of my main online personas ) & such but I dropped the game because it made me miserable & that wasnt good for my mental health which then effect my physical. same with tiktok. I had 55k+ followers on there, that was my biggest following count on any social media site, but I dropped that shit because I was getting physically in pain from headaches from stress & being upset from that place & deleted that app & my account that had that many on there.

Aannnndd this just is exactly why I dont tallk about pro wrestling as much as I used to anymore. That above me happens. I just go off like I did lol . I apologize for that. But yea, I do still wanna do fanart for wrestlers in the future of course! After all they are a huge reason why I got back into art in a really fucked up time when I was younger in the first place .

#AEW #WWE #ROH #NJPW #Dragon Gate #Impact #TNA #All elite wrestling #New japan pro wrestling #Ring of honor #World wrestling entertainment #I LOVE PRO WRESTLING :D !!! #I can talk about it longer here compared to twitter because longer posts yippie!!

[void-chara]

one of my irl friends just said "[dream] can get his ears pierced but he can’t stop pretending to like men" like bro do you even hear yourself right now?? you are literally accusing a queer man of faking his sexuality just because you dont like him! what! you yourself are trans and gay(umbrella term, cant remember its specific label), SURELY you should know better than this??? like i understand you dont like him due to his past, thats fine, and its annoying how you dont think people are capable of change but whatever its not my problem, but like. hate him as much as you want, why are you resorting to literal queerphobia?????? bruh

#sorrryyy im. a bit annoyed. and sure i COULD just talk to the friend about it however im pretty sure most of the people in this friendgroup #would probably tell me to kill myself if i ever said anything even slightly not negative about dream. so. yep #also ruby if u see this i know ur also friends with these people and in the discord where this was said. pleas dont snitch thanks. please #dreamwastaken #venting #SO sorry to the peop[le scrolling thu the maintags. i need my blog organized or i die. also im pretty sure some of my followers have #everything dreamrelated blacklisted and i must look out for them.

[convxction]

ooc. hi guys. its a me. i haz cometh. anyway. until we get the art concepts and lines i will .... RANT ABOUT THE CHOICE OF ENG AND JP INTRO LINES.

ok the first video i saw was the english and immediately something was wrong. it just didnt feel right hearing a dead man announce his name and idk 'exalt of these fall forces' is just ..too edgy and how can i explain it bro???? it feels like he is ...proud??? bruh.

hear me out, the line in japanese (my crappy translation) goes like "nanimo .... mamorinai ... ore wa ..." [I couldn't protect anyone/none .... I ..." bruh. like i cant stress how the introduction of English 'Fell Exalt' is so 'cocky and edgy' and the japanese one like you could tell he is still Chrom but ...depresso and dead u KNWOW LIKE IDK WHAT CAN I SAY MORE ABOUT IT AND JUST CRY ABOUT IT EVERYIME !!!

YOU DONT HAVE TO MAKE HIM TOO EDGY TO BE LIKED!!!! CHROM IS LIKEABLE IF YOU WOULD LET HIS JP CHARACTERIZATION BE SIMILAR!!! MAN IS LOST--HE IS DEAD, IS SEEING HIS DEAD FRIENDS AND COMRADES AND CANT 'CONTROL HIS BODY' THE LAST THING HE WILL SAY IS 'YOOO IM THE EXALT OF THIS FALL ARMY LES GOOOOOO'

like listen, this line in english could be used in the castle thingy talk i will understand it, but to use it as intro is ...weird. like what they did with jp chrom mentioning emmeryn and the english one is like *side eyes*

i can never stress how my chrom portrayal is a heavy mix of both eng/jp perhaps leans to jp mean because honestly his characterization there makes more sense for his role etc etc. u can disagree with me, and thats cool(you are wrong duh) i love reading people's interpretation of the same muse i have. if u think i hold a grudge ask wars, we rped the same muse for years and i learned stuff from her about my muse and we are like so chill (holds knife against her dont u dare say otherwise). i dont understand why people need to be at each other throats for having different interpretations. unless if you know, it is clearly just for the shock factor and 'forcing a way for a ship to happen' then let me be the first one to roll my eyes. your muses, your ocs are yours fam. have fun writing ...

i...you know. i will go take my milk nesquik and drink it outside then come back. i need a moment. perhaps we can get, magically the art. i wanna have a closer look at that shiny injury mwahaha grima's lighting bolt still stuck at chrom bwahwhahahahaha

#ooc.|| faty speaks #[god it is ...so stressful to watch them force the 'silly&edgy' category on chrom #[it is sad that less ppl are familiar or wanna research a bit the differences between eng and jp ... #[dont get me wrong eng is fine on its own but when you suddenly know that a character was not that bad/ it had a decent personality #[and it is just someone who couldn't translate it well into another language makes you ....fffffffffffffffffffffff #[anyway cash me on d/iscord if you wanna rant he ho mabufu

[viadama0-0]

PET PEEVES AND WHY

not reading my messages or replying late for no reason. Reason - who the fuck you think you are

Not accepting anyone's opinion and only think they are right. Again, bitch who the fuck you think you are.

Those red notification icons on the corner of some apps. Reason - doesn't look clean and seems messy

Books with people's name as title. Girl do i even need to explain.

Hair in my food or hands while its wet.

Smelly people

Tiktokers who tries to make music to be famous and the music sound like actual shit. Im a hater before im a lover plus im a very realistic person. boo please improve bfr posting that shit.

Silent treatment. TALK ABOUT UR FEELINGS PLEASE IF YOU ARE MAD. We going nowhere with silence istg.

People who judge my music taste. Atleast i have taste. Those are the same type of people who find new music through YouTube compilation.

Pretentious and materialistic people. Bruh you are only twenty , there aint no way you making that much money with zero hardwork. Plus i dont mind if you bought it with your parents money or wtv. You do you. But dont compare what you have with others. Everyone's situation is different. Be respectful.

People who cant EVEN TO SAVE HIS LIFE be alone for one second. Reason - please i understand you but life isnt always nice to us and we need to know how to stand up for ourself okay bb.love u no hate just advice.

People who curse A LOT LIKE LOTSSSSSS NON STOP. reason why, you curse for no fucking reason. I mean i do curse BUT THAT IS JUST MAKING CURSING YOUR PERSONALITY.not cool get a new one.

People pleaser. ( I am one, sorry. Wait am i actually . Idk) Reason - you deserve better honey.

[ Edited ] kay so apparently my friends says im not a people pleaser thats good

This one TW, im not saying im better but people who talk about boys ALL THE TIME. Yeah sure i like talking about them too sometimes its funny and cute to like someone. BUT WHY YOU WANT ME TO DESCRIBE ALL THE BOYS IN OUR BATCH LIKE TF I AINT GOT TIME FOR THAT.

I hate people who cut or repeat what other people says. Like im the one talking you dont need to be my explainer. If you wanna talk , talk loudly DONT FUCKING WHISPER.

People who ask for movies suggestion but when we actually watch the movie,they be playing their phone or calling other people.LIKE THE AUDACITY, do you have a single idea how hard it is to pick a movie that all of us would enjoy AND you dont even have the effort to even pretend to like it. Do you know how disrepectful that is to me. I LOVE MOVIEs MORE THAN ANYTHING. This goes out to everyone that ill meet in the future

[pussystigmata]

autism is so much fun like everyone speaks to you in words that sound like english but everytime u think u understand what theyve said theyve apparently said something Completely Different and its like being in a world where u speak an entirely different language to everyone else but its similar enough that people get mad that you cant understand them. but you dont realise theyre mad until youve made them really mad and you have no idea why. maybe im just literally insane. every day i encounter information that turns my understanding of the world upside down and im constantly disorientated. and people think im the strange one that makes no sense..bruh youre all confusing me.

[imnotreal-png]

>:( -- Entri 4

im not a writer. like im not creative or mysterious with it. it's kinda aids bc then i feel like a try hard when i write my lyrics.

I doubt anyone who listens to my music even pays attention to my lyrics, judging from their other music choices,,,,,but its not for them

i can barely upload a song if im not happy with the lyrics. if i think they sound dumb even in the slightest way, it doesnt matter how long ive worked on the mix and master, its get vaulted forever. i just cant do it

even tho i wud like to be alot better with my creative writing, im glad i can still be content with all the songs i have uploaded. i am happy with them. i can only grow from it anyways, so why complain.

with time

some of my songs are stories ive made up. some are stories that represent actual experiences or points in my life but in a story telling way (???) idk i dont wanna write too much about me and my misery bc i dont want people to be under the impression that im miserable cuz i dont like people knowing those things >:( so i try to write abt shit in a very monotone way or in the pov of the narrator. but i also wrote a song in the pov of an incel so they'll nvr know whats real >:)

its a rainy day 2day.

i failed my ethnic studies exam. i knew i didnt do good but i rlly didnt think i did THAT bad. i was confused bc like 6 of the questions were abt systemic,industrial, and structural racism, which i thought were relatively the same thing..? apparently NOT. I couldnt even understand what the rest of the questions were asking me. my professor knows im not dumb, im like the biggest yapper in that class. i b knowing shit but wtf were those dumbass questions? what the flip, man?

i b eating boiled eggs like a snack lol. so yum. i wonder if they have protein...gnna google

ok they do. cool cuz i def dont eat enuf meat lol so this makes up for the loss of protein. i eat like 3 eggs a day and its only getting higher

devouring these chocolates that my frend bought me from London. european chocolate is always soo much better.

bruh its almost 5pm and my sister still asleep. cringe.

ttyl ~

#dear diary #journal #digital diary

[tinseltina]

i dont mind bad cinema, but there's something infuriating about people thinking bad cinema is GOOD (as in well written, well acted, well directed, well paced) just because they enjoy it.

bruh this movie is straight up GARBAGE. it's like someone's student project that wasnt actually edited.

i usually enjoy little indie animation projects, theykre short and sweet and get to their points. but jack and the cuckoo clock heart? this is like someone took their student film and was given an hour and half extra runtime and filled the time with things that didnt need to be there and forgot to actually build a world and story.

its scenes are somehow rushed, with lines coming out way too fast and scenes speeding through drama and jokes and montages are everywhere, but the movie itself also drags on somehow? im bored.

the characters are beyond petty and stupid, in the kind of way that they're overeeactionary towards unimportant things, but also completely let violence and mistreatment wash over them like they have no escape. in jack's case, he's horrifically bullied by his schoolmates, which although we know he cannt react in case his heart malfunctions, but why is he still in school? his mother warned him not to go, was against it, and isn't forcing him to continue. was it for miss acacia? she wasn't coming back it was easy to understand that after a year.

good grief and the music...i cant with the music i'm going to assume its a goth band and thats why it sounds the way it does.

also the script needs REWORKING. holy crap they did next to no work adapting the script from the original french into something an american audience can understand. none of the jokes land, the compliments are weird, the innuendos are also so uncomfortable when you remember they start when they characters are 10 years old and keep going on until they're 14 and still virgins. it's odd. jack MAYBE gets a pass bc prostitutes hang out at his house (his mother is a midwife/backdoor doctor that performs abortions and unorthodox surgeries and repairs) so he may have heard things while growing up.

still the script makes no rational sense (i dont meant this in the cinema sins way. i think there's something genuinely wrong when you have to intuit the PLOT and goals of your MAIN characters) and it's not even entertaining.

i think this movie had potential but no one put in the work and time for it.

#tina reviews #jack and the cuckoo clock heart

[dear-happypills]

me: here it is.

_______O_______

happypills: here is what?

me: here is you, all of who you are, packaged here. all enclosed and wrapped -- perfectly -- in this pill.

happypills: eh.... idk. dont think its very accurate.

me: okay, okay maybe its not like perfectly wrapped. but, like decently you know?

happypills: -_-;; NO. i meant like idk about you reducing my entire identity to that!

me: well,... like bruh....

you are a pill....

happypills: UGH. how dare you. i am.... i am sooohh much more than that.

im an artist. a philosopher. a poet. a civic model.... for the most part. and my essence, pwuh, is sooooh much more than justapill....

ya bitch.

i am like.... a symbol.... of what hedonism and desire, mistaken for happiness is; i am a chemical interaction: a stimulant that brings about endorphine and dopamine, that quite LITERALLY changes people.

but, but. like. i go out of the pill because i am a statement on the neoliberal society built upon a … a… fa… a… veneer of capitalism -- when .. when though its ultimately ruled by plutocrats...

me: okayyy you lost me. what...

happypills: that.... that.. there is no freedom... within this cage and.. shit. you know. stuff like that.

me: okay, okay... .... ... you are most definitely not a civic model.

happypills: ugh. i cant believe thats your take away. after YEARS of KNOWING MEHHH.

me: no, no. you dont get to say that.

only i am mehhhhh.

happypills: *imitates me ehhhh, i am only mehhh. well, PILL you. you hear me? PILL YOU IN THE BUTT.

me: Oh my gawsh. ... hahahhaha sheeesh. didnt mean to touch your nerve there. i was just trying to help you understand your identity.

happypills: Ohhhh okay. so for me to help you reduce your identity, i should just bring in another meat bag with a pewee and say that that's you.

me: ..... well it depends on how big this guys pewee is....

happypills: -_-;;

me: pwahahaha. jeez im joking. obviously, noone can match mine. PWAHAHAHAHA.

happypills: -_-;;;; can i like... move on to the next segment please... or like do you need to keep being gay with the dick jokes???

me: hahahha move on sir.

happypills: ... as i was saying.................. like. do you agree if i brought just another meat bag and say its, "you"????

me: ... eh. idk. more or less? i dont think the nature of humanity is much different from individual to individual. because, i think were all deviants from what is righteous, our intentions -- namely our heart -- isnt that far from one another.

happypills: yea, but how about the individual?? the parts vs whole.

the quantum vs general.

the grace vs law.

the experience vs knowledge.

... the endless paradoxes that defines.... order from chaos.

me: idk... ........ ............

i dont really like thinking of mehh all that much...

happypills: uhhhhh... welll. yeauuH. I KNOW.

why do you think i can never leave you???...

..

.

me: oh, dontgivemethat shit.. i NEVER kept you in the bottle. always let you out, running around evvverryyywhere.

always saying, "oh, im bored. oh wow, this world kinda suckss. oh jeez, what am i?"

happypills: eh. WHATEVER.. WHATEVAHHHH>>>>>>>>

SO, here it is... hmmmm?? flippin the existential to me when i ... oh, i most definitely, and at the least, have my shit together.

me: *GASP.. how dare you. oh, iiiiiiiiiii most definitely do have my shit together.

happypills: OKAY> OKAY.

HERE IT IS,

WHAT are you?

.............

.........

........

........

....

um.............. yea. im waiting.

me: oh JEEEZ! give me a damn second.

happypills: ohohohoh booiiii. did i just touch a nerve??? PWAHAHAHA.

me: -_- .............i.... um.

i think .... i... or...

...

i....

....

. i dunno.

.

/............................... ... it.... doesnt matter so much as to what i am.

when there is...

i am -- אֶהְיֶה

a burning bush, that never ends...

right besides me.

its the most beautiful, memerizing, profound, and yet terrible -- terrible in the sense that it strikes a quake of fear, reverberating across my consciousness -- it is supernatural, and yet intelligeble. it is warm, and yet it burns; it constant, yet always working.

...

..

.

it transforms me -- a cycle of life and death -- though i am finite: enclosed. packaged.

all... right here.

and sometimes.. i dont need to say anything to tell you what i am.

i just need to sit here.

happypills: ...... aaooooh............................ okay. ilikethat.

*happypills comes and sits by me

- happypills

#happypills

[teeto-peteto]

Okay, so basic rundown: Arcane is now canon. I think Riot is moving away from short stories to explore other mediums. Don’t quote me on this, I just know the broad strokes and I’m sure someone can explain better.

mkay im dumb i always thought that Arcane was canon? like it was nonsensical once you put it together with the league of legends lines but HAHA im ringing my 'im stupid' bell. see this is why you shouldnt listen to anything i say i have no motives-

they are moving away from the short stories??? woah thats... a pity, actually. Im not the type of person that reads a lot of them but i normally do of characters i like and care about. I know Milio is not that recent anymore, but his short story felt heartwarming and very nice to read. It also had some illustrations.

I dont understand why would they do that. I assume that by other mediums they probably mean audiovisuals like teasers or something like that, maybe audio stories like Legends of Bilgewater or whatever the name was, i cant remember correctly. Wich it isnt bad its just... dissapointing they would say that they want to move away. If there's going to be comics like then i would be uttterly dissapointed but hey, at least i would be happy they're giving a job to writers and artists, they very much deserve and need it.

its saddening i just dont undertsand why they would take down a feature most people like about the characters they are interested on...? bruh

dont worry i wont quote you on this one but i will say that if all of this turns out to be just like that, i wouldnt be not even a bit surprised. Its no secret Riot has been ruining and pissing over their own characters re writting them and fixing shit that never needed to be repaired by starters and making the whole lore more confusing and nonsensical with a bunch of plot holes, wich i assume is going to happen if they make Arcane canon. This has been like this for almost 5 or more years, the lore keeps getting worse and worse and the only things that mattered to fandom will dissapear if all this turns true.

the whole 'guys but look we got a new CEO and we SWEAR he's amazing!' its getting hard to read at this point because a macro company is trying to sell us that this guy is going to improve everything with just a finger, like if thats going to stop or even reconsider the oversexualization of female characters, objetification and the plainest of characters coming out of their hands getting worse and worse as the lore is tearing apart and the community is a fire pit with the worst incel playerbase i have ever seen.

The way they phrased one of the tweets about this new CEO in the past being the backbone of the Pride events made me wheeze cause the way it was written made me imagine the guy entering the meeting like 'hey guys you know homosexuals exists? we should do something about it' as if it was a medal to have a pride event when its the leastest shit you can do for a game at this point. At least make good lgtbq+ stories instead of selling the exact same icons for years and sweeping trans taliyah under the rug. God i hate this company and its writing.

see? things where better when institute of war was there. they are just a bunch of guys hanging out in empty space. fuck it that rocks

[r34listic]

updateee

so ik noone is reading this but i cant sleep so ima update yall. So i was talking about kira and tessa and stuff. Last week some shii happened. So yk Tessa. Tessa was with me and jenny alright. Turns out Tessa and Kira had some beef going on and they became more seperated. I was suprised cuz you guys were almost kissing yesterday??? So me and jenny were confused as heck. So the group was partened. One part is jenny and tessa, and one part is Kira and livia.

I was just there and walked with Tessa and Jenny, since i cant let go of jenny. She is just such a good friend, and i dont wanna lose her. The thing with Tessa wasnt rlly much of a problem to me. So tessa was venting to jenny and i asked if i can listen too since i dont know if she feels uncomfortable.

They ofcouse let me walk and talk with them and we listened to tessa. And she was rlly talking some shii... im not accusing her of lying but yk what i mean???

So basically she exposed Kira the heckkk. Like she was telling lies and gossiped about us behind our backs which is actually typical for her. She used to do that in 5th grade.

Tessa told us very much what happened between them but i mostly forgot it since my brain is slow as heck. But Tessa told us that Kira had some jealousy issues and stuff and something with that she did wrong...

Many girlies asked her what was going on since Tessa and kira were unstoppable. She told them and they said that Kira should apologize. I honestly cant remember any shii but like yeah.

Me and Tessa are close again like in the beginning, just that jenny is also with us. Honestly i enjoy the time. Im not sure about Tessa but jenny is a very adorable person who is a great example for us. She never gossips, has great energy and is very caring.

I try to match with jenny so Tessa doesnt get the idea of gossiping with me. Like, its a sin anyway so no thanks.

But what i have to mention is, that Tessa says many suspicious things. Like "Yeah and Kira talked shii about yall and just gossiped with me". I was just thinking "youre telling me this but also try to stand there as the victim?"

Like gurl you literally gossiped with her. That is so obv like, youre telling me that she told lies and stuff. And you were just standing there like "mhm yeah". (She said that she agreed with that stuff bruh)

So i understand that right? While kira was talking shii about me, you didnt defend me... nah man you even AGREEED???

I honestly know why this all is like that. Cuz i asked Allah to remove the false people out of my life with a very strong dua. And yeah here we are...

And to be honest, i always knew how fake kira was. I mean, she is fake in person. She was talking the worst things about livia but now she has nobody else to hangout with so she is with livia... embarrassinggg

#storytime

[anxiouslyextroverted]

vent that idk where to put so

honestly this is random of me to say but getting diagnosed with autism at 6 was so bad for me, like not only did it cause years and years of bullying because my mum made this huge deal about me having it to everyone, and embarassed me, and friends and family a like yelled at me for any autistic trait i showed. But it also is the reason my social skills are even more sht cuz young me (who for whatever reason was allowed to have a computer and be online at as young as 7) was like 'let me google how to not be autistic' and then now i cant even relate to other autistic people anymore because me at 7-17 had trained constantly to be aware of every autistic trait I had and now I dont even know what autistic traits I have anymore. I went to multiple autistic youth camps and I related to no one. none of my therapists ever thought I have autism, my recent therapist wants to see proof that I have it like bruh

I know it sucks to have it diagnosed later in life of course it does but I just feel liek I don't know being diagnosed with autism at a young as age can be really horrible too, it was for me at least. trained myself so much to not have any autistic traits that I accidentaly trained a way a huge part of my personality lmao. like I must sound like an asshole rn but I geneuinl find it so difficult to relate to both nt and nd people, cuz like everything most nd people I've seen do now days was stuff I did at 7-16, like all the questons and all the research. and all the stuff they are already knew is stuff I never learnt until now. and im still treated like as if i know nothing about autism ect... even though I was diagnosed with that shit at 6 like not to complain about autism culture? whatever it is i dont even know, but I feel weird when people tell me I don't know anything about autism or that I'm not autistic just because I said "I have autism" rather than "I'm autistic" like, I don't get that. I am just doing what I'm used too.

I kind of feel similar with lgbt too cuz I was like nonbinary when I was 3 tbh like Ig you could call it that because at that age I denied femininity and she/her pronouns and even being called a girl and just wanted to be called my name, and that carried on until 17 where for the first time ever I worked out the difference between girl and boy, but nowdays now everyone is being like "oh wow look a guy in a dress super cool" but I just kinda thought that was already a normal thing? like I never got the separation of male and female ever, when young me saw feminism and gender equality online, I took it litterally and believed it was girl and boy are exactly the same, so now I'm seeing twitter and tumblr talking about all this like "oh let a guy wear make up cmon its 2023" but I thought that was normal already and don't get why its a big deal and never did. like its hard to explain how I feel not saying its a bad thing though but stuff like that always confuses me. But Ig thats what happens when you're exposed it at a young age, you don't really see the culture or become apart of the culture, or understand the separation to begin with.

#just ignroe this i just needed to vent about my #autism #somewhere #probably will show this to my therapist or something