#yeah he's my closest friend

[n-fblog]

so i heard some ppl like hiorin

#hiori's LN is so funny bc it just makes the tabiori dynamic like.... karasu's doing his best to NOT make it happen and hiori is like #yeah he's my closest friend #i know nothing abt hiorin content but their dynamic is probably funny #the kaisaginess thing could've been SO MANY OTHER THINGS I COULDN'T PICK #blue lock #bllk #bllk textpost #isagi yoichi #bachira meguru #mikage reo #nagi seishirou #nagireo #michael kaiser #alexis ness #hiori yo #itoshi rin #marc snuffy #don lorenzo #bachisagi #karasu tabito

[lovegrowsart]

no matter whether ppl are trying to make zk's canon relationship out to be sibling coded or associative friends or whatever else ppl make up i feel it all comes from this place of people that don't ship it being unable to handle zuko and katara's canonically deep and intimate friendship at the end of show without (whether subconsciously or not) perceiving it as some kind of threat to whatever katara or zuko ship they DO ship (usually either k/a or z/s or m/z)

they don't know how to acknowledge/write zk (and i don't think them being a m/f ship is divorced from this) having their canonically close friendship alongside whatever they ship because that closeness, no matter how platonic, can't supersede the romance of their own ship. so they just lazily write it off as "siblings" or convince themselves they weren't ever that close in the first place or that katara still secretly hates zuko or something in order to get out of the bind of allowing them to be close friends even if you ship them with other people 🤷‍♀️

#holly talks bs #zutara #atla fandom critical #hot take maybe but i do genuinely believe zk have one of if not THE mutually closest relationship in the gaang #because it's not about screentime spent together it's about the depth of what those scenes communicate about the characters and #their relationship #katara is the only one zuko ever marginally opened up to about his scar and his banishment and what he thinks and feels about it #zuko is the only one in the gaang katara talks about her mother in depth to #yes she's acknowledged the loss before and uses it to connect with ppl like haru and jet #but zuko is the person katara tells the whole story to #in fact zuko is the person who hears all three perspectives of kya's murder #and is yknow the person that actually GOES WITH HER on her journey to the centre of her deepest and most defining trauma #and then there's just the whole finale where they's essentially attached at the hip and he jumps in front of fucking lightning for her #brb just gonna jump in front of lightning for my associative friend #no big deal or anything we can barely talk to each other without someone else in the room #even tho zk have several scenes alone together while yeah they're not making out but they ARE usually talking about something #deep meaningful and personal #they spill their guts out to each other at the first sign they've found someone who might actually understand them

[fear-ze-queer]

genuine question: where in the monty cutscene thing (with all the cardboard cutouts & everything) does it reveal that monty became the band's bass player because he killed bonnie?

i've heard a lot of people saying "bonnie giving monty his guitar and retiring is a cover up for what actually happened" and that's totally understandable!!! but that on its own doesn't say it was monty who got rid of him, just that he took bonnie's place in the band. it doesn't tell you what actually *did* happen.

i've seen so many people saying that scene revealed that it really was monty's fault, but i genuinely don't understand why?? if anybody has an answer please let me know i'm so confused

#i'm on team 'monty looks up to bonnie and was honored to take his position in the band when bonnie disappeared but monty didn't cause it' #at least that's my takeaway from it #we don't ever really get confirmation that monty dislikes bonnie in the first place!! all we know is bonnie disappeared in gator golf and+ #monty just so happened to end up the bass player bc he wasn't already playing an instrument #and ppl say 'but monty has the claws' yeah the ones he doesn't get until he BECOMES BASS PLAYER???? aka AFTER bonnie disappears? #i don't think the claws could've been enough to decommission bonnie anyway. these animatronics are fucking RESILIENT #and another argument is 'he hates freddy so he went after his closest friend' but. why wouldn't he simply go after freddy??? #fnaf security breach #security breach ruin #fnaf ruin #security breach ruin spoilers #fnaf ruin spoilers #ruin spoilers #glamrock bonnie #monty gator #montgomery gator #security breach monty #idk if this comes off as passive aggressive or not but i AM genuinely asking

[good-beanswrites]

I can't stop thinking of Kyanako's Order of Attack au... there's something so moving to me about how things getting so much worse could be what finally causes Amane to get better -- seeing Fuuta dying may be the final straw of getting her to rethink her rejection of medicine. Been a while since I've attempted something whump-y, this was fun to work with.

Tw for mentions/contemplation of death. I don't go into detail about the cult but the doctrines are implied through it all.

Fuuta was not a big fan of dying.

When he imagined his own death, he always pictured it as something dramatic and fast. Action heroes going out in a show of explosions and gunfire. Fantasy characters meeting the shining end of a blade. Even when he accepted his place in Milgram, it filled his mind with images of gallows and electric chairs. 

Whatever this slow, lengthy fever was, it was pissing him off. 

He’d lost all sense of time. He could no longer tell which hour the prison bells were marking -- morning and night blended together. Dreaming and waking blended together. His head injury and broken leg and broken bones blended together. It was all just pain at the end of the day. He had nonstop visitors that kept him awake and asked him too many questions and prodded his injuries and made his head spin. Somehow, he was simultaneously alone every time he rolled over to talk to someone. Painfully, suffocatingly alone. 

If Kotoko was going to kill him with those ridiculous emo boots of hers, she should have just done it. He was losing his mind here: devoid of all energy, suffering through broken bones and a cracked head, and boiling in an increasingly fiery fever. Maybe that was the reason he stopped commenting when he watched Amane pocket the medicine Shidou had left him. Maybe that was why he’d stopped following Shidou’s instructions himself. Even after losing an eye and taking a beating herself, Amane always looked at peace. He was tired of dealing with all of this. He wanted a bit of that peace.

Regardless of why, it was working. His fever had quickly gone from the biggest pain in his ass to the very thing that dulled his racing thoughts. 

He awoke suddenly, or maybe he’d already been awake. He couldn’t feel anything in his limbs. There was only a breathless heat around him. He raised himself into a sitting position, looking for a drink. Moving his head felt like one of those glitching computer windows that leaves a trail of copies behind it. The room swam around him. His eyes moved absently around him.

Fuuta picked up the glass that someone had left him. His fingers were clumsy, and it immediately went crashing to the ground. He hardly heard the noise as it broke apart on the concrete below. 

He swung his legs over the side of the bed. He’d just go get a drink himself. Shidou told him not to get up without help. But what did he know? Thinking of the man ordering him around only drove Fuuta to step out of bed even quicker. He cried out, pain shooting through his leg. That was right, it was broken… 

Fuuta looked down, finding himself on the ground. It was so hot. Maybe this is what she felt, he thought numbly. Was it this slow for her too? Probably not. She had no regrets to fill the time like he did. The heroes got quick, beautiful deaths, and it was the villains who had to suffer the long ones. 

He lifted his right palm from where it had caught his fall. The shattered glass on the floor had cut into it. Shattered glass? What had broken? He stared blankly at the blood dripping down. 

He didn’t have the strength to raise himself up. He was burning. Why was he on the ground? Was he bleeding? He could barely breathe. What was he doing here, anyway? He just wanted to curl up and sleep. He was so weak... just to lie down... he wouldn't have the strength to get back up again. Was that such a bad thing...?

A voice caught his attention. His eyes struggled to focus on the figure who’d come running into the cell. He couldn’t understand a word of what she was saying, but he was happy when she pressed her cool little hands against his forehead. 

He allowed her to prop him up next to the bed. She held onto his hand, squeezing it tight. Why was she holding it like that? That hand was bleeding. When did that happen?

Her arms wrapped tightly around him. He wanted to shove her away -- it was too hot -- but couldn’t. In his ear, he could make out her words. “I’m sorry. I’m so sorry. Please, Fuuta. Don’t leave me alone. I’m so sorry...”

As she pulled back, he recognized Amane. Her uninjured eye was filled with tears. Was she upset? He thought he’d been making her happy. He wanted to keep making her happy. He’d never made anyone happy before. 

He opened his mouth to say something, but no words would come out. They all scrambled up in his mouth. He felt the cell swirling around him.

Amane raised her voice. She looked desperately upwards. “This can’t be --! This isn’t right!” 

Fuuta looked up at the ceiling. There was nothing there. 

“I can’t do this anymore.”

She continued talking. Fuuta was too busy studying the ceiling. She was shouting. Or maybe crying. Fuuta didn’t like that she was so upset. Huh, had there been someone there? He surveyed the empty cell. What was he doing on the ground?

He looked down at his hand. The sheet from his bed had been pulled down and wrapped hastily around it. Why? His eyes felt sticky as he blinked. Everything hurt. It was so hot. What was going on? He was so angry. He was so scared. He wanted to cry. Why was he here? Why couldn’t he just hurry up and die already?

The next time she entered, Fuuta recognized Amane instantly. Her one hand pointed to him, the other held onto someone else. The second figure hurried over to him. 

Fuuta was not a big fan of dying. Shidou reassured him he wouldn’t.

—

“You’re wearing the eyepatch,” Fuuta observed. 

He was playing a dangerous game, drawing attention to it like that. He was too exhausted, and his curiosity won out over his better judgment. If Amane was going to explode with one of her typical speeches, he’d just let her.

She didn’t. 

Amane’s hand drifted up to her eye. It had been hastily covered before, but now it was cleaned and wrapped in professional-grade materials. She simply said,  “Kajiyama Fuuta. How do you feel?”

“Like shit.”

“But--”

“-- But I’m better, yeah.”

Amane nodded, her shoulders releasing. 

“Oi, I haven’t seen you in a while. Not since…” He wasn’t sure how to finish the sentence. Shidou had told him what happened, but it was difficult to believe. He couldn’t quite trust his own memory of the night. No matter how much clearer his mind felt since receiving proper treatment, those days of fever still muddled together. He heard that Amane had up and switched her beliefs overnight -- she was now complacent about all of Shidou's treatments -- but Fuuta knew people didn't just change like that. He wanted to hear it for himself.

She lowered her gaze in shame. “I… I thought you hated me.” Her voice was steady. “As you should. I almost killed you. I accept any ill will you may feel.”

“I -- what? You’re wrong. You… it wasn’t…” He grabbed his head, grunting in frustration.

After standing awkwardly in the entryway the whole time, Amane took a few steps inside. She made it to his bedside when he finally collected his thoughts. 

“It was your fucked up family or whatever that caused everything. They did this. And I went along and made things worse.” He looked away. His next words felt stupid to say to a little kid. He felt like the most pathetic, weak, loser. But it was too important not to say.

“They almost killed me. You saved me.”

#milgram #fuuta kajiyama #amane momose #i am emotional about them!!! #my other drabble between them hinted that fuuta would convince her away from her dangerous beliefs before things got too bad #but i wanted to see what would happen if things Did get bad ya know #we were talking about what could convince amane to think twice about the medicine ban (if anything) #and i think seeing her closest friend is literally on deaths door finally gets through to her #shes sees him weak and bloody and completely out of it and knows this is Wrong #i dont know how long it takes fuuta to realize that it really was all for him that she changed but he does accept it eventually #it helps both of them grow #he feels worth saving (and therefore worth turning his life around) and she is freer from her cult #not completely #but one step at a time #tried to make fuutas narration simpler and shorter to reflect his thoughts but idk if that worked #i thought they were going to do a lot of stuff with mahirus head injury and memory but they never did- i played around with that a bit here #i thought about writing out amanes monologue to her god about how shes not doing this anymore but 1. its more dramatic to leave that to #the imagination and 2. idk if its silly but some things are so personal for a character and i dont wanna intrude... like yeah its my #story but thats between her and god fr #drabbles #tw cults #tw child abuse

[averagenolofinwean]

Fingon, watching the tapestries of the third kinslaying: Oh. Oh that's- Oh shit- Uhhhh well. Yup that's- that sure is a lot of blood. Oh no. That doesn't look good. Augh. That tall child looks terrible. Yeah that sure is a tragedy. Welp. Oh no. Oh. Oh. That sure aged like fine wine. Well. It is what it is. That's all i'm saying. Can't do anything about it, can we?

*his whole family is staring at him with shock in their eyes*

Finrod: Findekano, what the fuck.

#incorrect quotes #incorrect silmarillion quotes #incorrect finwean quotes #He's not even that surprised it's just awkward for him #imagine your closest friend is killing a bunch of people. that would be awkward for you #like what are you supposed to say? 'yep that sure is my best friend killing my kin. well. cant do anything about that.' #his whole family is soooo upset at Maedhros and Maglor and Finno's just like. yeah. this might as well happen

[zosonils]

congratulations to bowuigi fans for the colossal w but if i see even one more post where mario is distrusting or upset over luigi having a relationship with bowser i'm blowing this fucking website to smithereens mario is NOT homophobic!!!!! he knows perfectly well that bowser has a civil and even friendly side they go kart racing and meet up for board games all the time he would be THRILLED that luigi has someone as passionate as bowser supporting him and showering him with affection. luigi is smart enough to make his own decisions and strong enough to defend himself if bowser's world domination instinct overrides his homosexuality and mario knows this! they've known each other since they were born they both know that if luigi really does need mario to protect him all he has to do is ask. stop letting pratt's voice and decade-old game theory videos cloud your judgement. mario is a gay ally [and bisexual icon] who would never be anything less than overjoyed to hear that luigi has a loving boyfriend and from now on anyone who insinuates he would be antagonistic or disappointed 'for luigi's sake' owes me one million dollars per mediocre out of character post

#this got a bit angrier than i thought it would sorry but i am SO SICK of mario being mischaracterised for the sake of drama or funnie joaks #that's my kindest friend mario and he would never ever doubt or disapprove of love!! ESPECIALLY love between two of his closest friends #[well his twin brother and greatest frenemy but same difference] #just fucking whatever #bowuigi #you know what yeah i do want this post to be seen. if anyone is annoying to me about it i'm firing wizard beam level 9999 at them though

[bumblingbabooshka]

#Sek #Kar #star trek oc #[REDACTED] family shenanigans #klingon oc #Kar is Sek's childhood best friend whom he met bc Kar won a chess match against him and Sek started crying when Kar gloated about it #and Kar felt really bad v_v and they've been best friends ever since :) #also Kar was Sek's first kiss and they did a LOT of 'kissing practice' until Tuvok caught them and was like No. Enough Of That. Stop. #Kar had a MASSSIIIIIVE crush on him when they were kids #now Kar is Sek's..........friend. And they still kiss. #& T'Nia (Sek's wife) knows and is fine with it. Hell - she might fuck around and kiss Kar too #How Sek feels about Kar is: He is my closest friend and I will love him until the day I die <- romantic[????] #Sek & Kar made a pact as kids that if one of them was dying and there was no way out of it the other would kill them #so #yeah #star trek #star trek art #comix

[notanotherinfjblog]

Texting habits per judging function

No one asked, but here are some observations I've made in my personal life.

*Note that this probably differs by age, gender, and culture (for instance, I have been told by several Americans that I use an insane amount of emojis, whereas it's not considered weird at all here in Germany).

FJ:

Generally very good at texting, will respond to absolutely every point you make. If you send them a long voice message, they can be found taking notes while listening so that they will not forget to answer any point you made.

Have a very hard time leaving someone on read and if they do, either something happened and they forgot, or they simply don't like you very much. If they open the message, they answer. If they don't have time to answer you right now, they simply will not open the message yet.

If the text conversation is done (i.e. you wrote something like "bye, see you tomorrow!" that does not require another response), they will still at the very least send you an emoji back for no reason other than letting you know that "Yes! I read your message! I'm not ignoring you! I love you!" (Literally every FJ I have ever known does this. Every single one, including myself.)

They will adapt to your style of texting. If you are the kind of person that likes to send a bunch of heart emojis to friends and the FJ friend is not, they will still pepper in a heart here and there. If you generally don't use emojis, they will use them only occasionally. If you reply in wallpaper long messages, so will they. If you break up your messages into several texts one after the other, so will they.

FPs:

Also generally quite good at texting and can actually appear a lot warmer in writing than in person (there have been several instances where I received really lovely messages from FPs who I used to think hated my guts whenever we met in person).

Prepare for emojis. Seriously.

You can have infinitely long text conversations with them. If you are willing to commit, the conversation between the two of you will never end. With NFPs, the conversations usually end up spiralling into nonsense scenarios, while SFPs keep telling you about their day and keep answering you about your day every day.

TPs:

(my texting experience with TPs is unfortunately very limited, so feel free to fill in my blanks)

Fe is very noticeable in the extroverts, i.e. they tend to go the FJ route described above, but in a more nonchalant and more relaxed way. Like with FJs, the focus of the conversation is on you and their dynamic with you.

The introverts (i.e. my dad, i.e. my only point of reference) are bad at texting and prefer to call, so almost all text conversations go something like this: TP: "Hi, I tried to call you, but you didn't pick up. I hope everything is alright with you?" You: "Yes, sorry. Everything's good here, how about you, everything okay?" --- end of conversation ---

TJs:

Generally bad at texting. Also don't really like it and see no point in it, so they usually prefer calling or talking in person.

Will appear colder in writing than in person, especially the STJs. Their answers will be straight to the point. No beating around the bush and no needless extension of a conversation in form of jokes/questions/anecdotes for a bonding experience. If they want to tell you something, they will tell you in person.

Have absolutely zero problem leaving people on read and usually don't mean anything by it.

STJs rarely use emojis, NTJs do but not excessively

If their answer requires them to type anything more than two sentences, they will send you a voice message instead. (Literally every single TJ I know does this, except my INTJ brother who is a complete maniac and calls instead.)

#the TJ way of texting will never stop confusing me #i usually don't look at other people's phones but i once witnessed an istj's text conversation and it's been haunting me ever since #she had just visited her husband's family with their kids and her mother-in-law sent her a really long lovely message #saying how much she enjoyed their visit and how much she loved each and every one of them and sent her a bunch of pictures #and this istj replied with 'thanks me too' and THAT WAS IT! if i had been her mother-in-law i would have assumed she doesn't like me at all #but no! this istj spent the next half hour looking at the pictures smiling softly zooming in on everyone's faces and then smiling some more #similarly one of my closest friends is an estj and she will tell you in person how much she loves you but her messages? not that warm #or my entj friend. he is a real chatterbox in person but texting? yeah no forget it #this is unimaginable for me as an FJ i would only do this as a deliberate choice to make it known that i don't want anything to do with the #so texting with a TJ always feels like recalibrating your brain to calm down and go: #'no i know they don't hate me yes i know they text like they do but i know that they don't it's okay they are like this with everyone' #and really sorry for the limited TP section. the only TPs i ever texted are my dad and some occasional acquaintances #so seriously. chime in with your observations! especially to get a broader picture from other cultures than my own as well #typing post #judging functions #cognitive functions

[kingdom-dance]

Realizing that Minthara is a Baenre and therefore from the same House as Ady’s Buncle (Chaotic Bisexual uncle-but-not also known more famously as Jarlaxle) and she killed her by taking the bridge out from under her like its fucking Looney Tunes

#Jarlaxle fucking hates his family tho so he’s probably good with it #I love the fact that in my game Jarlaxle went from BBG (kinda) to another father figure for Ady to glom into #in spite of the fact he’s this scheming and super charismatic antihero/morally grey figure #leader of a mercenary band #and in game he was Ady’s dad’s closest companion/best friend and her dad was just a walking sunbeam of an elf #and it was heavily insinuated her dad and Jarlaxle hooked up at some point but thought they were better as friends before he met her mom? #ugh I love the lore my DM came up with and we came up with together I mISS IT #god Astarion and Jarlaxle would be CHAOS #I know in the game the BG3 VAs are playing they encountered Drizzt and Astarion fanboyed over him #I can’t imagine how he’d feel about Jarlaxle omLLLLL #anyways this went off the rails in the tags my adhd be adhding tofsy #so yeah I did kill minthara I didn’t like how she locked up Halsin it was means :(

[millions-dykes]

My favourite modern knives aus is where he's either a Hermit or a misanthropic scientist. Nothing else.

#niho's triguns #millions knives #In me and my friend's au he's like a scientist guy who's team is his closest entourage (elendira/zazie/legato) and that's IT #I like to think he's the type of scientist everyone hate the attitude off but can't deny that he is Good at what he does #But honestly? him being a hermit and never moving out of his house is also sl very good #like yeah this man cannot function around people

[victimized-martyr]

Are you optimistic about season 26?

erm um… no?? 🥲

Season 25 and Streaming Wars had their moments, but overall the delivery of ideas felt lackluster. Much like the last 2 years, I expect a running theme. Essentially, the season won’t really be a season per se, but acts as narrative buildup interspersed with side episodes—though they will loosely connect to the season—leading up to the 2 specials airing later this year. It’s a solid game plan on paper, but s25/SW was super dodgy. I feel the saving grace was Tolkien’s renaming, and Cartman’s whole hot dog arc thing that just got set up. I know Randy was given competition (finally! the little resistance and pushback to his hijinks has done serious damage to his character) but really the biggest takeaway I’ve seen from fans/merch is stuff from Cartman’s arc. (cartitties).

However, I feel Matt and Trey have been revitalized by the concert, Casa Bonita’s opening, and their deepfake deal. It’s a double edged sword though, because now Mattrey are juggling the opening of a restaurant, production for the video game, their deepfake studio… I’m worried their attention will be divided and affect the quality of the story this season.

TLDR: Very mixed feelings, though not quite approaching cautiously optimistic… I expect the fresher ideas (HotDog) to get sidelined and Randy will remain in focus.

#south park #I’ve no doubt ​Trey will apply his patented Two Sides: Rivalry setup between Steve and Randy #and their rivalry will take up like. 60% of the plot #and Trey can be a lil shit so i’m ready for when he’ll be like ‘yeah it’s the randy show again deal with it fuckheads🤪’ #meanwhile the more interesting arc is sitting. right. there. in the bg #a buddy and I were realizing Cartman has been taking a turn these past few years and the hotdog is the culmination of that #his motivations are transparent to those closest to him (butters+ liane in s25) and he’s frustrated by his #inability to adapt #Liane’s putting her foot down so that will be VERY interesting to see how the Cartman family dynamic will evolve #and we expect the boys to start closing off Cartman for taking advantage of their kindness #idk. he’s losing his grip on liane and he needs to lose his grip on his friends. I think we’re gonna start to see the latter #I think?? Trey is taking him.. well not towards redemption but… somewhere??? #and I do wanna see stan and tolkien hang out more and maybe that’ll cement the changes in the group dynamic #or maybe it’ll only affect the bus stop openings lol idk #I do feel their friendship is delicate rn and Help My Teen was a step but there’s more re-bonding left to do #and the physical separation of them all is gonna make that a bit more difficult #it’d be nice to see a growing dynamic between Kyle and Kenny. we have! no episodes centered on their dynamic!! #they give me the impression of ‘oh we’re good buddies but only hang with a group and never outside of it’ #they’re the weakest relationship of the 4 for sure and these circumstances can remedy that! #…. watch trey do absolutely nothing with kyle and kenny except have them be reactionary :’) #asks

[the-faultofdaedalus]

every day i think about howard and maria’s deaths in the 2004 draft script

#urge to write mcu x 2004 draft script cinematic universe fic #where they both meet eachother and both start discussing the specifics of their parent’s death #and mcu tony is like. yeah they were assassinated when i was 21 #but i thought it was a car crash because my dad was drunk until a couple years ago #when i also saw video footage of it and learned that someone i considered a friend #had not told me that it was an assassination because his friend was the assassin #unwillingly! but still #and then draft script tony is like. ah. marginally less fucked up than my parents then. #and mcu is just. what do you mean less. #draft script: oh my mom died in a boating accident when i was 15 and driving the boat #and my dad never stopped blaming me for her death. and i also blame myself. #mcu: oh yeah that is fucked up. is.. howard still alive then? #draft: up until last year. when he tried to fund and support an invasion of america #in order to drum up more buisness for his company (which i eas not a part of) #including assassinating the president and also trying to kill me multiple times #so. i killed him to stop that after he killed one of my closest friends. #mcu: … what the fuck #anyways i’m still always thinking about potential im2/future stuff after that script #the possibilities…. so juicy #i’m also so obsessed with a tony who FROM THE START is a good dude who isn’t involved in weapons at all #it’s So. draft script tony my beloved.

[irregularbillcipher]

"if you think that kryptos was from flatland and you believe bill genuinely cared about him, meaning he had some fort of actual human connection to another flatlander, why did bill still end up destroying the place? wouldn't kryptos trying to stop him have either made him reconsider his actions, or made him get rid of kryptos entirely?" well you see when bill was burning flatland, kryptos was whooping and hollering and breaking out the champagne

#imo on paper bill and kryptos have the healthiest relationship bill has ever had-- hell off paper too #BUT it's really just because kryptos has like nearly alway agreed with bill's decision making except for small bickery things #that really don't matter #YEAH kryptos has some weird bad upsetting feelings about the second dimension being destroyed but it's very much a #'oh wait the catharsis is wearing off' thing #while it was happening? the minute he realized what was going on he was all for it #bill isn't even inhernetly trying to manipulate andy this is truly just their Dynamic. which is unhealthy in itself but! not intentionally #andy is so lost in the 'bill is the best person i know and he's always right' sauce that he genuinely doesn't want ot argue with bill #he just assumes bill is correct and right and any weird feelings he ever has are just flukes #meanwhile bill just would not know how to react if andy suddenly started disagreeing with him on anything serious #like??? this is andy. andy's smart he knows what's up why is he suddenly being Stupid #he would not handle it well but also he'll never have to because they're so weirdly codependent at this point that this is just the Dynamic #and it's not flat out abusive like every other dynamic in bill's life but man. Man. #'i was eight years old before anyone was ever really nice to me and actually wanted to be my friend and now eons later we're #just enmeshed but we do genuinely care about each other and it's the closest thing to healthy that we know so we don't think we have to #change anything about our dynamic'

[bangcakes]

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#personal #lmao around this time last year i decided to give up on him n LMAO girl if only you knew #i should have just talked to him but djdjjdjdjd idk it felt weird. but he even like. complained one time that we didnt talk all summer #like LMAO..... bro its two ways. u could have messaged me too xjdjjdjdjdj #tho to be fair i think he did show up to a dinner but i wasnt there bc i had just had wisdom tooth surgery n was 1. blown up like a balloon #and 2. so high on pain meds i couldnt function JFJDJJDJDJDJDJ #n e way whatever jdjdjdjd im just laughing at myself bc how did this man become my closest friend from college Zhfnnddnnd #our relationship is so weird. not in a bad way but in an unexpected way #we sat beside each other an entire semester n never talked til the last day like thats so FUNNY IDK #i even said to him that time. bc we were talkin in the hallway n went to sit for the exam n sat in our regular spots of being one seat awa #y and i was like... you know its so funny that we sat beside each other all semester and only talked today #and he was like.... hahha yeah #i was gonna introduce myself but it felt so stupid JDJJDJDJD #i didnt even know his name LMAO #i had him narrowed down to 2 names. bc he was one of like 2 guys that Always showed up in another class' zoom #and LOL i was right. he WAS one of those 2 shjdjsjsj #n e way. then the next sem came n i didnt know whether to say hi to him or not bc we talked ONCE #and i was still wearing my mask at this point and so id try to smile at him with my eyes but never got a response HDNJDJD and so i got soooo #annoyed with him. and even more so bc i kept making friends with ppl and they KNEW HIM??? and i was like WHO IS THIS???? #then one time he came up to me n my friends before class n we just talked and i was like o lmao this annoyance im having??? its a big ole #crush BDNNDNDND #and in community college its hard to like. know ppls ages and that day i found out he was 2 years younger so i was like o ok 26 n 28 isnt #bad at all #but thinking back.... first things we exchanged that time was age and i think he was also trying to fish for whether i was single bc he was #talkin about this other guy havin a baby n a wife n i was like o wow !! i didnt know!! #jdjxjdjdjdk god when he found out my age he was like... oh i never would have guessed you were older. you look young ZFHJDJDJDJDJD #oh so you were Looking is that right HJXJXJXJZJZJ GOD LMAO #i look back on so many moments n im like oh duh... he must be interested #but for me its like. i will literally more easily believe literally any other theory so i thought he just liked one of my friends Zhjxjx #ya i dont think so anymorem but i thought that up until like mid january HDHXJJXJDDJJDJ

[neverendingford]

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#tag talk #fuck. I might just be a straight woman. #like. I like men. and the more I transition the more I vibe with binary womanhood. #sure I don't like getting shoved into restrictive femininity. but I vibe with womanhood as separate from femininity. #anyway. I might be straight. and In ten years it's very possible that being trans becomes a much less huge part of my life #because it will stop being something that I do and something that I wish for and simply something that I am #yeah yeah whatever hi my name is Reggie and I like men #I just. as much as I don't like certain restrictive gender roles I find myself slotting very comfortably into others #and I realize that my idea of gender and their roles was very much shaped by my female role models growing up #and a lot of the disconnect and distress when growing up was due to not being able to follow the path everyone else did. #all my girl friends were growing up into women and I was stuck on the man track. #and being gay was the closest I could get to being myself #but I'm closer than I've ever been before to being able to live my truth as myself #still not gonna shave my legs unless it's sometime in the future for a very specific event. #I like them fuzzy. they make me feel cool. #I like having some cultural masculinity still. I just don't want to be defined by it #talking about my binary trans experience is always a little weird because I'm aware of how binary I'm describing things #and I get that if my words were used to describe someone else's experience it might end up sounding hella transphobic #but these words are for me. they're my experience. they're my life not someone else's. #and this is how my identity works. #it's like how feminism protects the right of trad wives to be trad wives. #we just gotta recognize that just because one woman wants to be the designated dishwasher not every woman feels that way. #anyway. I might be dating a guy by this time next week. he's cool so far and we kinda got match-made by a mutual friend #we watched Redline tonight and it's hella good #he's really cool but I feel like I've got something to provide and to bring to the relationship. so we're still on peer-level I think. #which is new. usually I'm way ahead of the other person. maybe my fault for fishing in the bad fish barrel #the emotionally damaged and burdened fish barrel.

[hussyknee]

Moment of silence for all the incredibly hot people who have no idea they're hot and won't believe it no matter how many people tell them and never will until they look at photos of themselves 20 years later and go "holy fuck I looked like THAT??"

Another moment of silence for their best friends tasked with beating back every single dickhead pestering them after every single mixer to set them up with Hot Friend, including people who were hitting on them until they saw Hot Friend.

#brought to you by a ninny who once dated a guy who had a crush on her best friend #but let that go because everyone had a crush of best friend #only for him to ask me if it was okay to ask her out a week after we broke up #the ninny bit was because i gave him my blessing bc I didnt want to seem like a jealous ex or whatever #idk what he thought would happen but my friend froze him out so bad his dick nearly fell off #consoled himself by having a relationship with a girl who wasn't exactly creepily younger but kinda toed the line somewhat #wasting 7 fucking years of that girl's life then breaking up then consoling my friend when her dad died and then *asking her out again* #yeah the dude was a real prince #but also I could never bring my closest and oldest friend to any mixer without some knobhead pouncing on me immediately after #to my ex husband's dickhead friend to tiny drunk dickhead lesbians #it's a law of the universe that obliviously super hot and genuinely nice people can't pull a decent person if their life depended on it #i guess in the end we're both 36 and still single as fuck. altho she didnt waste 10 yrs of her life married to an asshole #and still looks as gorgeous as she did at 25 #knee of huss #life stuff #if you ask me for her number in the notes i will kill you