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Tell me how Little Miss is having her zoomies. During a zip through she knocks down my ps4 controller and stops running, sits and looks at me and then the controller and back at me. And when I got near she meowed at me. lol almost like an apology. So cute.

#cats

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It’s too damn early in the morning for this. Some reason I’m imagining one of the conversations I’m dreading is going to happen when my sister comes to visit. When she makes the comment that I’m eating too much when she spots me in the kitchen eating something.

And my response are in secessions of:

“Comments like that is the reason I developed an eating disorder. Comments like that is the reason I became anemic. Comments like that caused me to have severe hunger pains that led to painful migraines. Comments like that led to me becoming pre diabetic. Comments like that had me develop fainting spells throughout the day. Comments like that led to me having high blood pressure. Comments like that have me on the verge of my body giving out on me. Comments like that is the reason I ran away. I’m human and when I’m hungry I should be allow to eat. If I eat when my body needs it that helps combat my eating disorder, my hunger pains, my blood pressure. Best part, I been losing weight because I haven’t been starving myself to the point that my body shuts down.”

I’m just fired up and frustrated on something that is currently not a conversation that is occurring.

#rl shit

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I must not mock Gen Alpha. Mocking Gen Alpha is the mind killer. Mocking Gen Alpha is the little-death that brings total generational solidarity obliteration. I will engage with Gen Alpha lovingly. I will permit them to be cringe. And when they grow up I will turn my eye to their accomplishments. Where mocking has gone there will be nothing. Only generational solidarity remains

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Funny thing, I find myself streaming for an hour daily for some reason. Mainly MH Rise, but yeah. Just a random hour for the past 4 days I just stream. No commentary due to no mic, but I don’t care. It’s just a “just chilling” type stream. Like just playing a game and stuff. Funny enough every single time there is at least one person who just views the stream.

It’s fun 🙂

#rl shit #gaming #streaming

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Keep Watching: In world month Sneak Peek

I’m not sure if I’ll be able to fit all this in this month but this is the original plan for in world 2nd month of UA

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- Sports Festial: 2nd

- Bakugo accepts Best Jeanist offer: 9th

- Class 1A pick hero names: 4th

- Reviews of sports festival along with announcing field trip to history museum,

- Announcement for the upcoming semester finals, which aizawa gives everyone their current grade

- Fill out forms for internships: 5th

- Bakugo first day under best Jeanist: 9th

- Deku starts his internship with Gran Torino: 9th

- Hero Killer take down: 10th

- Bakugo therapy, life lessons, and training with BJ: 11th - June 26.

- Field trips: 23rd (history museum)

- All Might Brawl release date: 24th. Bakugo, Deku, icyhot, and 3 other boys goes to the release. Which they get surprised by All Might being there and signing people’s games.

- Besides Deku’s internship, also going to gym

- Deku’s gym days are Mondays, Wednesday, Fridays

- Deku goes to his internship daily and on-call basis

- Internship days (for everyone) are Tuesdays and Thursdays.

- Deku uses the week before starting internship to go over his father’s journals and talk about what kind of training he would like to work on for the remainder of the month.

- Deku’s delivery (work) days: 7th, 8th, 13th, 25th, 31st

- Midterms week: 16th - 20th / Midterm training: x

- Mock exams: 5,6.

- Got grades back: 11

- Deku takes his permit exam: 21st

- Spotlight oneshot are all on: x

#mha #fanfic #bkdk #writer notes

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Even through there won’t be an updates until next month, I still want to give a sneak peek into chapter 45 of Keep Watching. It’s actually was fun to see where I had left off.

#mha #fanfic #bakugo katsuki #bkdk #izuku midoriya #bnha bkdk #bkdk fanfic

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Keep Watching ch45 has been completely edited. Now to draft 46 through 50.

#fanfic #bkdk #mha #writer notes #writer update

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Small announcement

Ok! This month I’m solely going to be working on writing the updates for Keep Watching (MHA), and Broken Leg (DBZ). I won’t be posting them until I reach my goal of 10 chapters each. By that I mean fully finished 10 chapters.

I think that’ll be a great way to end my 5 month depression burnout. Of course, these chapters are to set me up to be able to do weekly updates again.

There’s also a new goal I’m trying to achieve besides getting back into writing. When I start posting the updates I’ll have setup a Ko-Fi goal. Mostly the tip jar goal is to help with building my first home.

More on that when I post fanfic updates.

I’m so excited to finally write again and even get a chance to do art as well.

#fanfic #writer rambles #writer update #mha #dbz

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Even though the chains are broken, I still have the collar and markings of my imprison.

I still carry the weight of my chains and can still see the bars on my windows.

So, even though I’m miles away and chains are gone, my body still remembers every last detail.

No matter how much I run and try to get away, I can’t see or feel how fast and how far I’ve come.

It’s stills feels like I’m in a dream and any day now I’ll wake up to see I never escaped my cell walls.

#rl shit #poetry #emotional #trauma

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#acrylic painting #personal art #abstract art

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First sketch in my first apartment!

#personal art #sketch

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Smile

Ao3 SWA

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As I mindlessly count the cracks on the ceiling and time the beating to my right, I still can not seem to believe what had transpired. All in 2 years so many things have happened. Such as what led me to this current situation. Besides the painful sensation of a thick tube in my throat to help me breathe, there’s all this strange numbness where my limbs are supposed to be. Most of all, the bizarre silence in my head.

All I could remember before I found myself waking to this broken down room was that I was speaking with Shigaraki. But now I ended up here. I wonder where is he. “Izuku?” I suddenly felt an urge to find that voice. Yet, to my horror, I couldn’t move my body. “Get a nurse!” That voice! I need to see them! I just have to make sure it’s really them!

It wasn’t long when I was surrounded by all sorts of people. Some were nurses helping me get the breathing tube out. There were also people of endless noise, but I just didn’t understand them. All I could do in my struggle to get the medical equipment off was searching for that one voice. But every time I managed to see pass the sea of white coats I was met with broken walls. Was I hearing things?

After finally getting checked by the doctor I was left alone. As such I took in more of my surroundings. I was definitely in a hospital. Sure, it was in a broken down building, but it was a working hospital. I wonder how they managed to get any form of power running for the equipment. Unless this one hospitals that was on the list to being setup after the war, instead of risking taking anyone to the offshore ones. Did any of those even survived the tsunami Shigaraki created? “My baby!”

I was suddenly feeling crushed by a heavy weight holding me. It took me a moment to recognize the sound of sobbing. Which I found myself resting my check against a soft surface as I tried my best to not join in the crying. “You’re alright, mom.” Just a wave of relief wash over when I was able to see her face. It felt like forever seen I saw her face and I was so grateful I live to continue seeing it.

“I hope I’m not interrupting.” Hearing that voice had me jump in my sink. If mom wasn’t holding me I don’t know what I would do.

I tried to look over mom in hopes to see this person, but the poorly lite hallway kept them in shadows. “It’s alright, dear. You can come in.” Mom slowly stopped hugging me and stepped to the side. And that’s when I watched them come forward.

The first thing I noticed was how their right arm was bandage and in a sling. I also saw how they were in a wheelchair and both their legs were also in bandages. It didn’t help that the right side of their face was covered up. If I didn’t know any better one could easily say they were in a full body suit with how bandaged up they were. “About time, sleeping beauty!” At that moment I couldn’t believe what I was seeing. There was just no way. It felt like my heart just stopped as I stared in awe. And it was at this moment that everything went dark.

I can’t believe that Kacchan smiled at me.

#mha #fanfic #bakugo katsuki #bkdk #izuku midoriya #bnha bkdk #bakugou x deku #bkdk fanfic #oneshot #writing warm up

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#fanfic #mha #dbz #maid sama #oneshot #fanfic poll #writing warm up

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Keep Watching+ Announcement!

Since I’m no longer couch surfing and finally in my own place it’s going to be easier to care for my mental and physical well being. Which means that I’ll be writing again.

So something to look forward to are updates for: Keep Watching (MHA), Little Dragonfly (MHA), Warrior (DBZ), Broken Leg (DBZ), We Are One (DBZ), and others.

Might pop up with a few one shots to help get back into writing. Either way I’m coming back.

Thank you for your patience, understanding, and support.

#mha #fanfic #dbz #mha fanfiction #dbz fanfiction #update #writer notes

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It’s like a dream come true. I look forward to finding the perfect table and chair set that would be lovely for my back patio. 🥹

Besides enjoying drinks (coffee, tea) along with a snack, I’ll be able paint outside, and even just bask in the peaceful atmosphere.

Those blink of peaceful getaway when I sat in the front yard to have a break from the chaos, is finally having an upgrade. At that, there’s no time limit or having to dread what will come once I get back indoors.

This time going into is just as pleasant as sitting outside. A bonus that the hiking trail is 30 minutes away, instead of an hour. 🥹🎉

#rl #blog #morning coffee