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I have this reoccurring headcanon of DemonDean and SoullessSam irrespective of eachother that I thought I'd finally share.
(FYI: Prior to these scenarios taking place, Dean and Sam have had sex before. Of course they know it's morally wrong, but it just feels so right.)
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-SoullessSam-
After the wall comes down in Sam's mind, Sam finds out his soulless counterpart wasn't exactly tender when initiating sex with Dean. No wonder Dean pulled away whenever he tried to touch him. He wouldn't want to touch him either. In fact, he hated his own reflection- feeling sick whenever he looked in the mirror. Dean shrugged off his apologies with the same nonchalant attitude every time, Sam feeling more vile with each one.
It's nearly two months after his soul is returned that Dean hugs him without hesitation- a bad call rendering Sam a little too still as he laid on the ground. A few weeks later they kiss again. There was just something so attractive about the way Dean sang along to Def Leppard, Sam couldn't help himself. And after a six hour long trek from Iowa to Missouri, when Dean threw his little brother onto the bed before his bag could hit the floor, Sam was more than surprised.
The sex was clumsy yet delicate, desperate yet determined- and much like their first time it was magical.
When Sam awoke the next day, he came too in his Dean's arms. And with a recycled inuendo about breakfast in bed rolling off his brother's tongue, he rolled his eyes- but it was mornings like this Sam wouldn't have any other way.
-DemonDean-
Sure, Dean could be a dick at times but DemonDean took the cake. His snide remarks about Sam's savior complex was manageable at first, but once they veerd into degradation territory, Sam soon became visibly uneasy.
The problem was Dean knew all of Sammy's little secrets when it came to knack for masochism. They way he'd beg for Dean to ruin him with just his eyes after a few drinks too many. How he'd crumble into the sheets when Dean pulled on his hair, the cold tickle of his amulet scraping his back. The fact of the matter is, Sam loved when Dean ordered him around- now that Sam thought he could do easily step into his shoes just tickled DemonDean pink.
Stalking Sam around the bunker, DemonDean said some rather inappropriate things that should have made Sam crawl out of his skin; but infact, as he ran for literal fear of his life, he couldn't ignore the steady growing uncomfortability his jeans held. Even as Cas retrieved their 2nd gallon of holy water, Sam knew by the glint in Dean's glossy black eyes that he had too had lost.
After the smoke spewed from Dean's body, the two never discussed what happened- thougo, Sam had a sinking suspicion it wasn't necessary. They both noticed how Sam's breath would hitch whenever Dean stepped a little too close. Dean's occasional itch to bend Sam over the nearest surface was visible in the way he'd stare into space mid conversation.
But eventually, their awkwardness passed- the brothers returning to their usual bedroom routine a few months later. Though after the occasional hard case, they did explore the boundaries of Sammy's masochism, one demon blade at a time.
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Listen, it's not much (and not a full fledged piece of work by any means), but I just wanted to shared what goes through my mind when I see DemonDean or SoullessSam on screen. Enjoy, you filthy animals! 🥰😜🤫
2) Being able to read those two and all their righteously indignant shame played over and over in a way that is all at once about queerness, and codependency, and religious trauma, and being raised/made wrong, again and again only to have it confronted, and accepted, and soothed away, and glorified and kept.
3) Finding out new and exciting kinks I have constantly!
4) The aspec representation and headcannons for these two is really large, in cannon and within gencest and weirdcest, and it's strangely affirming as an arospec asexual.
Suits really is crazy cause one second Harvey wants nothing to do with Mike and is giving monologues about betrayal and the next second he’s barging into someone else’s office to defend Mike’s honor because he “couldn’t help” himself