#💤 very tired 😴

[cosmic-kaden]

My f/o making a soft comfy spot for me on the floor in the living room for me to pass out onto is self care.

Imagining my f/o coming with me to the bathroom so I can squeeze their hand when I'm in pain and then reassuring me and not being grossed out is self care.

My f/o reminding me to drink a lot of water so it flushes out those nasty little bacterias is self care.

My f/o helping and reminding me to take my antibiotics in the morning and before bed is self care.

My f/o comforting and reassuring me when I'm having a break down because I'm so sick of this constant state of my body shutting down or having something wrong with it is self care...

I just want to be better.. :c

#I didn't sleep well last night. the urgency to pee thanks to this stupid UTI kept me up almost all night. #I am t i r e d and I don't own a bed so the next best thing is to sprawl out on the floor with my squishmallows and blankets/pillows #💤 very tired 😴 #I just want to sleeeeeeep but its hard to do rn :c #Want my f/o to tell me its just another bump in the road and I'll be okay soon... This has been the sickest ive ever been in my entire life #in terms of things ohysically going wrong with my body. cold/extreme salmonella poisoning/covid/and now this damn UTI. #im frustrated. im trying whatever i can to be healthier... i cut back drinking a lot and ive quit smoking #I make sure to shower when i can even tho its hard. I try to do exercises in the mornins now..... #im just so tired of my body not being well #vent.tw

[br1ghtestlight]

Do you want somebody to care about you (a frriend)?

LMAO i guess?? i have online friends who i love and who care abt me so that isn't really the problem. i havent had any irl friends in a very very long time and ive never had an irl friend who i could actually trust/confide in. Maybe having irl friends would fix me but i think mt mental illness would not actually be fixed by being around people...... i dont know i think you don't really "recover" from what ive been through mentally but maybe friends would be nice <- Im not making friends. the time and opportunity for making friends irl has gone and past. AND im autistic and give off negative and uncomfortable vibes when people see me irl so its not happening unfortunately

#assuming that this was not sent by somebody who lives in my town and is outside my house right now #but i guess if it was. Hmu?? #i like talking to people and making internet friends but right now im operating at like 0.5 mental speed and im awful w/ conversations #and keeping up with people which ANYBODY who has been in contact with me lately would agree with #so i cant in good faith say that talking to me would be a good idea. i dont even really know why someone would ever WANT to #as oppossed to the millions of other people they could talk to and know #its like 3am right now and im very tired so i dont know if this even makes sense #i feel like any amount of making friends or having a social life would just be a banage covering up my real problems #which are unfixable. mental illness doesnt not work like that. you cant extrovert ur way out of it #but at least if i had somebody to watch movies with on weekends that would be SOMETHING. maybe not much but something #anyway.... sleeping now 😴😴💤 #ask

[zackisontumblr]

#polls #feeling very sleepy today

[unoriginal-and-dumb]

you have been blessed with very tired anon

-🛏️

You’re blessing made me not respond to this for however many days/weeks 😴😴💤💤💤😴💤💤😴💤💤🥱🥱🥱🥱🥱💤🛌🛌🛌🛌🛌🛌🛌🛌💤💤🥱🥱😴💤🥱🛌💤💤🥱🥱🥱🛌🥱💤🥱😴🥱🥱🛌🥱🥱😴

[studyingpookie]

14/100 days of being productive

What I did today:

-talked to a lot of people (according to me at least)

-learned a few things about the uni I would like to go

-spend time with my friends:)

Hey guys! So today I was at uni I want to go in the future with my friend. It was really awesome to see all projects and students and actually talk with them. I can't lie tho I felt so out of place, and just weird but I don't regret going there. Kinda made me scared about my future, I mean these people are actually doing something big and unusual still being reasonable.

Later me and my friend went to the other uni that she wants to go, participated in few things and went home. There I actually just felt dumb lol

I heard from the professor that python is quite desirable on my profile so I want to try make something there. I'm really dumb with computers and overall sooo... I need to study it.

I was to tired from talking to people which is very rare so imma go to sleep 💤

Goodnight 😴

#100 days of productivity #productivity challenge #productivitytips #school #study #study motivation #studyblr #studying #nature #study aesthetic #college student #student life #100 days of studying #study desk #study inspiration #study notes #study tips #study with me #student #study buddy #dark academia #chaotic academia

[avida-heidia-5]

‼️ New Sanctuary AU fanart dropping soon!!! ‼️

For fans of this amazing series, here’s a little clue of which scene I will be tackling: 👰🏻‍♀️

I’ve just finished it. I’ve been working on it non-stop and I am very tired and I need sleep. Just thought I’d give a quick update on what I’ve been up to before my head hits the pillow.

And with that, I bid you goodnight! 🥱😴💤

#fanart update #sanctuary #pumpkinning #sunshinesebby #sanctuary au fanart #sanctuary au

[astrojoy]

Had sleep paralysis and normally I try to quickly wake myself up (I can twitch my body and shake my head normally//I think my body is just used to sleep paralysis at this point) this time I opened my eyes during it and heard a guy and he was sitting in front of me on my bed talking (he was invisible but you could slightly see a body outline) and instead of being creeped out and trying to wake up I said 'F-ck this and honestly f you too 🌝 No offense 🥺' in my mind because I was, might I say, ☁👼heavenly👼☁ tired and just didn't move and kept laying there. THEN THIS MF STARTED SAYING "Wake up..Wake up.. Wake up" in a very slow, soothing voice and the words overlapsed. I felt like I was being hypnotised but I said 'FINE 😡😔' in my head and woke myself utterly defeated and tired 👽

So everyone if you have sleep paralysis just show them you don't care and they will get sad and tell you to go. Professional Illustration:

😱‼️- - - 👾👹👽👻😒👤👺

🤨⁉️ - - - 👾👹👽👻😒👤👺❓

🙄😒 - - - 👾👹👽👻😒👤👺‼️

😏😪 - - - 😟☹️😦😭😢🕴🥺

😴💤 - - - ☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️

😴🤯 - - - "WAKE UP 🤧🥺💔 LEAVE"

[millenialfanfictionaddiction]

let me offer some headcanons because I'm fucking exhausted and I'm going to make my thoughts everyone's problem:

~shiratorizawa is soft with their manager vol. 1~

-shiratorizawa has a new manager. it's very awkward and a bit tense in the beginning, but everyone grows to be at least acquaintances. after a particularly long day as in early morning practice, full day of school, then two three set practice matches, and getting things ready for an away game the next day, sweet YN is a walking zombie. Semi, ever the mother hen, walks them to their dorm and tells them to get some rest.

The team leaves early the next morning and YN did not sleep well. For some reason, Goshiki is extra, well, goshiki and insists on following YN like a lost puppy begging for attention. They try to give the baby the attention he needs but isn't able to fully commit. The second they're left alone, YN falls asleep. Their head is against the window and the ride isn't exactly smooth. Tendou thinks this is unacceptable and climbs to YN's seat so he can be a pillow. This works better than he initially thought it would and he is now being snuggled by a sleepy manager. Tendou is living his best life, Goshiki is jealous, and shirabu is over it.

Beging scene:

YN: *stumbles while loading the bus cause they're that tired* 🥴🥴

reon: whoa, you good?

Semi: are you alright??

YN: hmm? yeah, just tired. 💤💤

Goshiki: DONT WORRY, I'LL HELP💪🏋️‍♂️

YN: oh, thank you Goshiki

Goshiki: *begins rambling about what he's going to do for the team next year*

Shirabu and Taichi: 🙄🙄

Everyone: *leaves yn alone for a minute*

YN: 🥱😴🪟

Tendou: *channels inner lemon grab* UNACCEPTABLE

Tendou: 🧗🧗🧗

Ushiwaka: that isn't safe tendou 😐

Tendou: what if they get a headache??????? Then they can't watch us beat Seijoh!!!!!!

Ushiwaka:

Ushiwaka: proceed

YN: 😴🪟 ➡️😴👨‍🦰

gen z anon

🤣🤣🤣 one mention of Oikawa and Ushiwaka is like "😐 ight" 😭😭😭😭

#my lovely bbys #gen z anon #follower headcannons

[honeybeecomebuzzingme]

I'm still overthinking and unable to feed myself or sleep. I might just eat chocolate and drink chocolate milk and hope things get better or if I sleep soon...

I'm not sure if my previous vlog made sense but basically I am ill and I think I might have food poisoning but it comes and goes so maybe it's something else?

It might be the weather or pollen count, or it could be recovering from the really irritating skin reaction. My arms feel really hot but I don't want to scratch them because of the previous self harm the stretching can lead to hindering healing.

So on the concept of recovering and things that can hinder healing I feel like I'm going to vent about my dad again until I fall asleep eventually...

My skin feels very hot and my hand feels sensitive still but it doesn't feel like anything serious just that it's very warm and I'm very tired.

I was hoping that I could have gone to bed much earlier than this and slept for a long longer time haha.

Like, my dad is so whack, but he doesn't understand why I get stressed 😥 😅

Life is stressful

I wish my friends could stay over or I could move out and then I can spend more time with my friends instead of being stressed.

I really like it that when my friends are here my dad doesn't bother me as much.

I wish it didn't need to be this way.

I'm happy that I've been spending time with my friends and watching Star wars is a brilliant time to spend with my bestie but I do feel like I depend on them too much.

#deep thoughts #ramblings #sleep deprivation #self deprecating humor #lovestruck #depression and anxiety #self healing #self love #love #scotland

[lom-journal]

Tuesday March 12/24-Both Showered 🧼 Today!

Peter and the gurls were up around 5:30 a.m. and me. 1st at 6:00 a.m. then coffee ☕️ and ****I took 2x T’s with the Pink med! At 6:00 a.m. ****I went back to sleep after coffee ☕️ and woke up around 8:00 a.m. Peter has gone to do the Bedding Laundry 🧺 At 8:30 a.m. No poop yet this morning!****I had a largePoop 💩💩💩****just before Peter got back from the laundry 🧺!Peter’s home from the Laundry 🧺 and drying the bedding that didn’t dry very well! We had soft boiled eggs and olive bread toast for breakfast ! Peter is finishing the damp laundry and washing the dishes! We’ll go to Whole Foods for Organic Flour! I’m not sure whether we’ll Scooter 🛵 walk today sore and tired 😴! ****Im took 2x T’s at 11:00 a.m.******!I hurt today more than usual!**** I took 2xT’s at 3:00 p.m. *****! I just got up from a lay 💤 down, I feel better to have laid down from the shower I was lightheaded , I did 😴 a little ! Enough to feel better! 😘

[firespawn]

A Jam Reiderson Christmas (my edit)

I hope Jacob and Sam both enjoy the holidays with their friends and families. 💕 I also hope they relax and get a lot of rest. ⚰️😴💤 They must be tired after months of traveling back and forth working, they recently just finished filming. 😀 But unfortunately, their work is still not over yet. 🤣 Because I know they will be very busy with having to promote season 2 of Interview with the Vampire next year. 😆 All the actors will have to do interviews, press conferences, photoshoots, etc. 😁 I'm excited to see the new content coming soon, it will be a treat! 😁 I've been laughing at how the IWTV fans are already about to die just from seeing the teasers. 😆 I am paying attention to the updates. 😏 Because I'm very curious to see how the production will bring the second season to life ??? 👀 I'm really looking forward to seeing these two talented lovely guys again. ❤️ But until then, I'm wishing Jacob and Sam to both have a Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays!!!🎄🎄🎄⛄⛄⛄ 🎉🎉🎉 So far, this is my favorite photo of Jacob and Sam together. Because I like how it shows that this is not just a business partner boring co-worker relationship 🙄 and it's very beautiful to see they actually hang out and eat ice cream together and have fun! 😎 I think it's so cute how while working together, Sam and Jacob have become such good friends! 🤭 This is a Pisces man with a Gemini man - an extrovert and an introvert 🤣 so some might think they would never be friends because they are so different but clearly it's true that opposites attract. 😄 I love how even when they are not playing Louis and Lestat, their chemistry in real life is still very strong and playful. 😉 I'm sure that privately, they have been getting into mischief and doing fun buddy activities that they might share later when they do future interviews in 2024. 😅 Currently for me in American time zone, it's a few days before Christmas and I'm in a jolly holiday spirit, so I made this quick edit of Jam Reiderson. 😘

#interviewwiththevampire #iwtv #lestatdelioncourt #louisdepointedulac #lestat #louis #samreid #jacobanderson #jamreiderson #happyholidays #merrychristmas #christmas #2023

[splashy900]

I Feel very tired from staying up all night

Im gonna take a nap! Be back in a few hours! 😴💤

Till then have a Raymond Gif 💚🌹

#misery rambles #aaaaaaaaaaaa

[waitingformyfavoritesongs]

10:45 am pdt 27 December 2022 Tuesday part 2

since mid 2019 I started having difficulty breathing. Now the incubus keeps on burning up burning 🔥 my back sides and front causing the air in my lungs 🫁 to heat up and choke me to death ☠️ he’s relentless at the moment. Not allowing me to breathe 🧘🏻‍♀️ much unless I’m up 🆙 from bed 🛌. Heat/dehydration can make me tired 😓 tired 😴. But if I can’t breathe 🧘🏻‍♀️ I cannot walk (which I haven’t done very much lately and all year 11:06 am pdt ) 🚶🏿‍♀️🚷 or sleep 💤. 10:50 am pdt. I have never smoked 🚬 anything in my life. Once I ran away from home and someone forced me to try a pipe - and I took the tiniest sample: it tasted 👅 like alcohol. That was all! The only time EVER. My sister had asthma when we were kids. Once I got sick 🤒 from second hand smoke 💨 from my daycare/babysitters and I had to leave school 🏫 to rest. I don’t remember if they stopped smoking 🚬. I remember playing outside a lot at some point even when it was gray and windy 🌬. I think they might have made an extra effort the day they had to bring me back to their house 🏠 from school 🏫. I remember taking a nap 😴 near the front door 🚪 and window 🪟 on the couch 🛋 (I was stilll in elementary school years), & I woke up 🆙 to find the cat 🐈 that normally laid on top of the refrigerator on my legs 🦵 like a loaf 🍞. I think she was a tortoise 🐢 shell 🐚 calico ?? Brown black spotted maybe a white belly? Felicia was her name. Fast forward ⏩ to high school 🏫 years there was a friend I probably spent the night at her place maybe 🤔 3 times? Or 4? She gave me allergy medicine bcz my nose 👃 got congested. I think I saw 👀 her mom smoke once. Eventually she started smoking 🚬 and I think by that time we started growing distant instead of closer. 11:04 am pdt. I was a long distance 🏃🏻‍♀️ runner 🏃🏻‍♀️ in high school 🏫 the last 2 years. My crush 😻 recruited me and the coach asked is this your girlfriend 👧?? Since elementary school 🏫 I was serious 🧐 about running 🏃🏻‍♀️. There were walk Athons to earn money 💰 I think 🤔 for charity?? I think I remember staying until the very end trying to walk as much as I could. I liked to do a type of little gallopy movement when it was only me and my classmates and maybe around family. But when I was home 🏠 I either played dolls/legos/video games or my eyes 👀 were “glued” to the tv 📺 that actually looked a lot like this emoji. Whenever I was out at recess and not stuck doing homework 📚, I was active on the field or blacktop or playground. There were sometimes I played imaginary” house,” pretending to be family with a classmate/friend, whose last name was del grande. Like Ariana grande. She always wanted me to be the baby 👶 🍼. One time ☝️ I walked home 🏠 with her without letting my mom know bcz she told me she had a lot of toys 🧸 and she wanted to show me. I saw her bedroom for a minute with toys 🧸 on her bed 🛏 I think I said “whoow!!” 11:18 am pdt in middle school 🏫 the p.e. Teacher criticized me I think after the first mile we had to do. I walked the end of it, but after she criticized me I worked harder. And she noticed my efforts I think 🤔 bcz when it rained 🌧 we danced inside and she gave me her handmade xeroxed/photocopied play” dollars” to use later on to take a break from future half mile or mile days. 11:22 am pdt pain left side ribs. I remember my partner for the square dance 💃 his name I think was Luis? 11:23 am pdt. Promenade! I remember I wore bell 🔔 bottom/flare pants 👖 bcz they were back in fashion, and unfortunately those shrank or I grew or both. Not a good deal when your parents don’t earn much money 💰. I often had to wear the same pair multiple times a week without washing bcz I didn’t have many. In high school 🏫 I became self conscious that people would notice so I tried to switch between pairs everyday. 11:29 am pdt still heating me up 🆙 a lot even though I’m sitting 🪑 up 🆙 11:30 am pdt. Adam Noah Levine is gross 🤮. Incubus, gross 🤮 he’s probably going to make me throw up 🤮 again anyway. He and his friend (Sagittarius ♐️) made me feel like vomiting 🤮 to communicate to me how they felt about me. And at that time they said

12:19 pm pdt hungry 😖😭😫🥵left 👀 sting 🦂 pain

That they said the new woman 👩🏻 who whar was it who joined the verve??? Is perfect 😍. (They erased this part and I rewrote it.) I had difficulty saving it but it saved without telling me. Had error messages many times. Then something weird happened with the login. Had to close the window.

12:24 pm pdt I m afraid 😟 they might be using my whole life to “fake me out.” Which is something that Adam the incubus seems to like to do since he was a kid. I watched a video online I think 🤔 or I read something online that said this. Something having to do with sports 🏀 sports 🏈 sports ⚽️. 12:28 pm pdt.

#3 pain abdominal area and below belly 😖😫😤🥵😭😭😭😭

Melissa darman variety.com 12:31 pm pdt

2:22 pm pdt (always think of poison ☠️ control number has 222 in it) Sometime after I read about Saint Lucia this year on Wikipedia, the incubus started pulling my eyes 👀 out of the skull a little ways 😖😭😫it was painful he keeps hurting the bones 🦴 of my face and hurting my eyes 👀 probably since 2017. In 2019 he beat my eyeballs 👀 a lot! 😫😖😭😩 it felt like they shrank maybe 3 times at least???? He fakes me out a lot. Makes me think he might be trying to keep me quiet especially since I wrote on this blog about him trying to decapitate me he hurt my neck like that again A LOT!!!!

2:29 pm pdt also when I transferred to a four year university for 2 years a teacher/professor?/instructor and a nurse 👩‍⚕️ at the student medical center 🏥 told me I should drop school 🏫 when they saw my chronic eczema. Probably bcz I was missing a lot of top layer of skin and oozing body fluid. I remember I had to take oral and topical antibiotics 2-3 times in one semester. The nurse 👩‍⚕️ said eczema can be triggered by stress. 2:34 pm pdt. Incubus... stay away from me!!!! Had this problem since 7 or 8 years old. 2:35 pm pdt I mentioned it in previous posts. 2:36 pm pdt. Genji = incubus!!!! 😵🤢☠️🤌 2:37 pm pdt

2:49 pm pdt 2019? I remember taking supplements and it got stuck I think at the top of my throat. I think I was alarmed 😱 and it might have, I cannot remember, if it made it more difficult to breathe 🧘🏻‍♀️. I drank a lot of water 💧 and I remember it happened 2 times and then shortly after I realized it expired???? It was after I recalled the Sagittarius ♐️ guy hurt my neck. Also I remember he struck me in that part of my body? And my throat I think 🤔 before the supplements got caught in it???? It was extremely stressful and difficult experience, one experience after another. It all seems never ending. 2:55 pm pdt when he did that to me, it felt like he was torturing/punishing me for recalling it and not forgiving it???? Incubus friends, Merlin 🧙‍♂️ and kings. 2:57 pm pdt I don’t think King Arthur was a bad guy. I don’t know 🤷🏻‍♀️ anything. I remember reading a 📖 t.h. White book 📖. And something about ants 🐜 regurgitate. I think I heard 👂 someone say we regurgitate what we 👂 hear /learn. Now I’m getting to thinking 🤔 a little more but it’s hard to get smart. 3 pm pdt. How many kings 🤴 did Merlin 🧙‍♂️ (incubus offspring?) know and work with???? 3:01 pm pdt do most kings work with “sorcerers?” 3:02 pm pdt was King Arthur real???? 3:03 pm pdt

3:21 pm pdt I think once babies 👶 are born they don’t need us anymore. They only see us as cattle 🐄 to breed to keep our genes 🧬 in circulation. Then they get rid of us. Too many people for them to know. Spread thin. They have no attachment to us. 🚺🚻🔼🚼🚺🚮🚻🚹🚮🚺🚻 🔼= delta= change=rise/run = y/x= why over ex?-> new woman younger 👩🏻 . 3:25 pm pdt. Incubus 3:26 pm pdt 3:27 pm pdt they only care about power and their own happiness? Sacrificial lambs/rams (nihongo r sounds like L) 3:28 pm pdt 🧐😭😱😩😖😫😤🥵😭3:28 pm pdt

4:15 pm pdt he has been giving me signs 🪧 since 2017 for Job in the Bible I think. Trying to recall : I think job gets sick 🤒 and loses all his money 💰. I have no money 💰 left. He takes my things and destroys my things. He destroyed my $20 neck pillow from the airport bcz there are little round styrofoam balls ⚽️. Foam. Sea 🌊 foam. Hans Christian Anderson. For about a week my mom left a 🧈 butter knife 🍴 in my room. I am the rejected 🙅‍♀️ mermaid 🧜‍♀️ who dances for the misogynistic womanizing gold digger prince 🤴 even though it hurts. 4:20 pm pdt. Brothers playing good cop 👮‍♀️ bad cop. If I don’t believe Adam the incubus is my husband he abuses me. After I give him the benefit of the doubt he at first will stop 🛑 hurting me for a few minutes and then doubles down on the pain and destruction and heat/fire even more. Vicious. His brother is doing him a favor (Sagittarius ♐️) so he never has to prove anything to me so he never has to touch me to get what he wants from me. He gives me no gifts 🎁 he steals and cheats me. He won’t even leave $20 here. He alters my books 📚 too it looks like and past ID cards to make me look ugly so probably no one will believe me when a guy in high school 🏫 treated me like a whore because he had a special relationship with him most likely and told him directly that I’m a whore even though I usually covered up 🆙 more than other girls in school 🏫 because I had body shame of having hairier arms than other girls and I had chronic eczema. I even got it on my face and it made me look like I had herpes even though I was still a virgin in every physical way. Did not touch a duck during high school 🏫 years. 4:29 pdt. I once unzipped my jacket in front of him and yes! I did want him to look 👀 at me and be interested. I did not reveal cleavage. It was a light yellow b neck 3/4 sleeve top with little embroidered? Eyelets 👁. The holes 🕳 were very small. Cannot really see anything. It was same shirt 👚 worn freshman year photos. He looked me up and slowly down and he had a very telling smile. And when I instant messaged him during the summer before sophomore year he wasted no time in treating me like one but I was kinda naïve and only focused on the exciting feelings of being thought of as attractive and he being interested. He asked would you ever let a guy finger you? I don’t remember when I learned the word “horny” but somehow I remember him saying “hella” as in hella horny. We did not talk again until after school started, and first day of school 🏫 I see he got back with his girlfriend from last year that I probably learned about near the end of school 🏫, why I cannot remember anymore 😞😖😭😖😭😖😭😖😭. Anyway, and then he messaged me I think telling me he and his girlfriend broke up. Not long after he asks for friends with benefits, and it’s probably the first time I hear 👂 the phrase? Even though we rarely talked, in fact I don’t really recall actually having any other conversation with him other than online?? I thought about saying no, but I hesitated and told him I would think 💭 about it, and I say yes bcz the thought enters my mind it would get my foot 🦶 in the door 🚪 to become his girlfriend. Hit became more apparent that he only wanted to treat me like a prostitute and he didn’t want the school 🏫 to know. 4:44 pm pdt. I 🧢 e you incubus, you suck dick! 4:44 pm pdt 4:45 pm pdt

5:47 pm pdt the devil 👿 uses the truth to lie, and will confuse you. You can not rely on feelings they give you. You have to figure out stuff for your self what logic is and hope they don’t confuse you. Confusion is the enemy. God can control your memory, thoughts 💭, everything. They damaged us like people take cats 🐱 and dogs 🐶 to the vets to be “fixed” Coldplay fix you. Spade ♠��� 🖤 neuter. Is it love ❤️ if you do that? 5:51 do cats 🐈 and dogs 🐕 “deserve” that? Then you smile 😊 in their faces? Blind? Stupefied? Unaware? Retarded? Which is it? You know what rich 🤑 people do? Do they breed their dogs 🐕 and cats 🐈 for best in show? And a lot of money 💰? I only had pet fish 🐟 all my life. The cheap ones. So I only thought about that recently. With all my head trauma and mind @_@ control there were a lot of things I did not question 🙋🏻‍♀️ until recently! God likes to “fix” us. Probably makes it easier to keep things manageable controllable with 8 billion people? The more isolated the less you know. The more you trust him? Shouldn’t? God will distract you. Maybe 🤔 I’m being too hard on people without knowing them? To desolate someone, you risk not finding out the truth. They guilted me about that; about not finding out something for myself in person about Adam Levine to see if he was telling me the truth. He the incubus tried to get me to come out to Los Angeles by myself. Every time I thought 💭 about it the next day something happened like the train 🚆 crashed after I thought 💭 about using the train 🚆. I started thinking 💭 every thing seems like it will kill me. That they are trying to kill me. Scare me. He scared 😱 me. Behati scared me. A lot of people sounded scary 😟. They also put a big spider bot 🤖 near me and it crawled up 🆙 into my anus and whipped the inside of my intestines with barbed wire feeling whips - they’ll probably do that again- usually if you think it it could mean they put the thought there and it will probably happen again - it might have been 2018 or 2017. After I wrote about 2019 here about the supplement getting stuck in my throat they made me choke on my food the same way this evening. It’s a trick if they’re making you think 💭 they’re friend and then abuse you. (I’m jumping around editing and adding 6:38 pm pdt) I really think there is no heaven at all now. 6:39 pm pdt.

He is always depriving me of air. I don’t recall burning 🔥 anyone or depriving someone of air. Did I? I accidentally boiled my pet fish 🐟. It was cold. The thermometer 🌡 read below normal range so I turned on the little fish heater. My boyfriend I think 🤔 called then picked me up 🆙 and I forgot! My mom woke up 🆙 and found it boiling 🥵 one fish 🐟 barely survived and 2 died. He lived a deformed life for about 5 more years. He got transferred to a bigger fish tank by my mom’s boyfriend and then she left the fish 🐟 with him. Shortly after that s/he died (the fish 🐟). I went to dolphin 🐬 pet village store and bought yellow capsules and my mom changed the water 💧 every time? We used a new capsule. I used I think epsom salt 🧂? The guy gave to me free to try. He said to apply other salt 🧂 but I chickened out bcz there was stuff I didn’t know if it was good for the fish like yellow Prussian was it? I still don’t know what it is. I have not seen the additive since. That fish 🐟 seemed angry 😡 at me. 6:07 pm pdt. I lived in blossom hill and the store 🏬 was in Campbell. My boyfriend drove me. Trying to recall if I did anything else wrong like that on a bigger scale. I use to wash 🧽 dishes? I burned myself. I cooked 👩‍🍳 sometimes and my mom burned me by turning up 🆙 the heat high and the oil spit on my face. She burned me by turning on the wall heater high when I was near it sleeping on the 🛋. She did it many times in 2016? Or 2017? I cannot remember if the toilet 🚽 flushing would change anything? Bizarre to me if it does. But I guess it could?? I would think it could make it cold 🥶 if it takes hot water 💧? But if it hogs cold 🥶 water 💧 🚿 then I guess it would make it hot 🥵 ??

6:44 pm pdt I have no husband, and no friends. 6:44 pm pdt

[magpie-69]

First day back at work for a fair while. Only an 8 hour day and I just did bits & bats, but I'm shattered. The bosses are very stressed because of a couple of complaints about a couple of batches of our beer. In my humble opinion, they vastly overreact any time this happens, which is rare. Instead of waiting to see if there are anymore complaints, they withdraw the beer from every customer. I would investigate the beer, but wait & see before withdrawing everything. Why? Cos folk are weird & customers are even weirder and 2 complaints ain't enough to cause this much disruption. Oh well. I'm tired 🥱😴💤

Goodnight all! 💜

Love, 'Pie xxx

5th Jan '21

[punkranger]

Also (if you're up for more), [💢ANGER] [😴SLEEPING] [🌱SEEDLING] [👑CROWN] [💘ARROW'D HEART] for your Exiles!

Finally had time to continue these, they were a bit tricky at times just cuz newer characters but they were fun so ty! (since they're new i'm adding a picture: Alder on the left, Monroe on the right)

💢 ANGER - what are some habits they have that will take some getting used to?

Alder: never actually saying anything when something really bothers them. They won't hesitate to let ppl know if they're annoyed, either by way of sarcastic remarks or glares, but if something is really wrong they won't say a thing. 

Monroe: can be a bit difficult to predict - either he’ll not take anything seriously and just brush things off, or fly off the handle and start a fight at the slightest annoyance..

💤 SLEEPING - do they fall asleep easily? what helps them sleep?

Alder: they don’t sleep much :) when they really have to, they usually lie awake for a long time, either looking at the sky if possible or with their eyes closed. If they ever felt safe they might have an easier time with it.

Monroe: also doesn’t sleep much, but if he really has to he can manage to fall asleep pretty easily - that military life got him used to sleeping in any conditions and most of the time that’s still true. If he still can’t fall asleep for some reason he’ll take a walk, try to get rid of some restless energy, or if that doesn’t work he’ll hum or sing a little to himself, it’s something that comforts him.

🌱 SEEDLING - what is their most vivid memory from childhood?

Alder: I’m just gonna pick a moment from the game, but the one where they’re chasing the dove and meets the Queen for the first time is just stuck in my mind and I think it’s something Alder would think about often as well. They have, of course, a very complicated relationship with Marcelle, they used to be.. not close, but they had a lot of respect for her as well as gratitude, when they were the Commander they felt they were doing something important and right - and that’s changed a lot. Their first meeting with Marcelle was a turning point in their life, something they used to see as a blessing but now see as a curse. 

Monroe: there was this one time he was stealing bread from a girl just a little younger than him. She looked really hungry and he felt bad. Felt worse the following days when he didn't manage to find anything to eat and regretted giving that  bread away. When the same girl approached him later he chased her away, only noticing after that she'd left some bread for him. Never saw her again. But he still remembers the taste of that bread. Monroe had never gotten anything in return from a favour, so he never did any, but this moment changed that. After the exile he kind of regressed a bit, he no longer believes in favours.

👑 CROWN - what does your oc want to be remembered as? Why?

Alder: as things stand atm they'd rather not be remembered at all, whether by ppl in general or ppl they used to be close to, they feel like all memories of them would just cause grief. They are also very tired and feel like any chance they have of making up for everything is impossible to reach, they've also grown more bitter about it, more reluctant to even try to improve things. 

Monroe: want to be remembered as brave and powerful, not necessarily heroic or even good, but preferably not as a villain. Atm longs for the glory days to come back, they really chafe at this hidden life and they really don't want this to be what they're remembered as. 

💘 HEART W/ ARROW - what traits do they look for in a relationship? do they believe in love at first sight?

Alder: Initially, they would look for kindness and dedication, which ofc draws them to Sabir. After the exile though, they just want to feel something, to experience something new that can hopefully awaken some sort of interest, or motivation, for life. But that’s sort of a faint hope, what they’re looking for first and foremost is someone powerful - to save them or destroy them, it doesn’t really matter. As for love at first sight; maybe a little, there was something about Freedom that drew them in immediately, but it might as well have been some sense of, hah, intertwined fates as anything else. Having someone in your head, thinking at first that their thoughts were your own, kinda messes with your perception.

Monroe: He’s not really looking for anything actively and would probably repress any hint of feelings as soon as they appeared, as well as distance himself from that person. He’s just not at all ready for love and while he’s quicker to get close to people than alder, he also doesn’t really let ppl get that close. But in general or later he’d likely find himself attracted to someone who’d seen his worst side and stayed (but he’d be offended by someone judging him only by rumours)

#asks #alder dyvine #monroe campion

[vs-redemption]

This is page one of the 3 pages of Luck headcanons I have. I'll type and send the others tomorrow, I'm gonna get some sleep, I'm tired!

Luck never celebrated his birthday before he joined the bulls (his mother thought it was good for nothing) when the bulls learned about this, they started celebrating his birthday with him.

Luck as we all know has some problems with outing his emotions and feelings because of his childhood. The bulls know this and try helping him. He is getting beter, and they are proud of him.

Magna is the only one that can calm Luck down.

Magna goes with Luck to his mothers grave, every year. He does this so Luck doesn't have to go alone. (And so he has a shoulder to cry on).

Funny enough Luck adopted Finral as his brother. He finds the brunet sweet and caring. Finral is also the one who knows why Luck doesn't like taking medicine (this comes from the fanfic :  Use of Portals by Eclipsingbinary on ao3) Finral was confused at first, but is very happy that someone wants him as a brother. (This annoys Langris, who trew a fit when he heard about it)

He wear his dress like shirt because it makes him feel free he likes the feeling of the fabric swinging around him.

Luck will never replace Magna with Leo, he likes the ginger but Magna is his best friend and crush.

Funny enough, he gets along with Noelle.

That's it for today, I'm gonna sleep, goodnight! 💤😴

-Enis

These headcanons are so nice! I love the idea of Finral pissing off Langris by calling Luck his brother. And I love the found family trope for the black bulls! My favorite one is about his shirt though. So cute!!

Happy Birthday Luck!!

#Enis💖 #Luck Voltia #Black Clover