#but yeah it was. a ride

[letitrainathousandflames]

First off, I loved the story. Second, what happened 👀👀👀

(Not particularly heavy stuff, but an emotionally abusive situation is mentioned, so TW for that, I guess? Also if u have anything u want me to tag here, just send me an ask and I'll do it. Also this is a long post, but that's what u get for asking someone with adhd to tell a story ¯\_(ツ)_/¯)

Alright, so like I said, I my first bf and I met in highschool and we stayed together from me being 15 to 26. A decade plus one of emotional abuse, manipulation, gaslighting, my friends being cut off to further my isolation, and me being too inexperienced to see the guy for the asshole he was.

And, like I said, my therapist from that time was a goddamn genius who saw how much I was suffering but also could tell I would not get out of that situation willingly bc I was so used to that being my life and the whole "he can't be abusive - he never hit me!" mentality that I couldn't see that he would cheer me up when I was down - but he was the one to put me down to begin with!

So she said "how about you two take a break? One month away from each other, with no strings attached, not bf and gf anymore, so you can see whether this is a relationship worth fighting for" (it wasn't, lmao)

Me, a week after: so, he's gonna be traveling in two months after this one and-

She, very serious: fascinating! let's make it three months then! You'll meet again when he's back, it'll be great for everyone!

The thing is, when you date someone that swallows up your entire life and cuts your bridges to everyone else, you end up pretty lost and alone (this is literally the tactic cults use to force people to stay in the cult, by making sure they won't have a community to support them once they are out).

But! My bff, bless her heart, never left my side no matter how often I would ghost her while i was still dating. And after I'd spent that first month (november of that year) moping and crying like someone had died, she invited me to go clubbing and I actually got to dance and be silly for the first time since my early teens!

Being undiagnosed autistic/adhd and having my ex as my only social interaction outside of my family AND not doing well socially in school bc bullying made it a bit of a challenge to come on to people, so my bff would be my wingwoman - hey, my friend thinks you're cute, etc.

For some reason, the ladies shot me down a lot, which sucked bc I really wanted to kiss a girl and "find out" whether I was bi (I thought I needed this as proof, lol). But the boys had those looney-tunes eyes at me so I got to kiss some of them and it was fun and stupid and so freeing.

And then there was her. Julia. Even my adhd brain still remembers her name. She was much taller than I, with full, black hair and a raspy voice that made me go heart eyes over her. I asked my bff to chat her up to me, and when instead of politely shaking her head with an apologetic smile as the other girls did, she walked up to me.

Then she asked me whether I wanted to kiss her, and I said yes, and she leaned over me and the world stopped spinning for a moment because I was kissing a girl and it was soft and sweet and good and oh my god, so I do like girls, of course I do, they are so pretty and amazing and oh wow, I am bisexual, that's a lot to unpack and-

And then she was smiling, and saying goodbye bc she wanted to meet up with her friends, and I was left in the middle of that rooftop dance floor, under the stars, my ears ringing and my face burning hot. I had my answer. I had my truth. I had it all along, but now it was real.

So just on account of that, month two (december of that year) was already chalked down as better than the entire time I had ever spent with my not-yet-entirely-ex, but I went out with my bff other times and had just as much fun. Incidentally, the hidden quickie with the handsome guy only happened bc I was intensely fueled by a spiteful thought of "aw hell no, I won't close this year without having boned someone other than [redacted]!". So uh. Yeah. The say love makes you do things, but hooo boy, the things that spite makes u do!

Anyway, moving on! January rolled out and my soon-to-be-ex sent me a text for us to meet, and we did. We caught up at some public place, and at some point he asked me whether I wanted to get back together.

Now, the first sentence that popped into my brain, in all caps, was: "I'D RATHER DOUSE MYSELF IN GASOLINE AND LIGHT A MATCH LMAO" but I unfortunately held back enough to say "I think we're much too different people now" while choking back laughter. So he asked to be just friends and I was like, ah well, I guess?

And we had this whole talk in the cab on the way to drop me off at my place, and this is where the nickname to which I refer to him now, "the deceased", came to be.

See, he was very clearly trying to lay the groundwork to try and build a relationship with me again, talking abt how different people can still get along even if they're exes bc we are both so emotionally mature, etc.

And I jokingly say the most absurd thing I could think: "yeah, and even if we're different, it's not like you're gonna... idk, vote for bolsonaro".

And he did a double take. And. Very shyly, he said he was, in fact, gonna vote for him. Y'know the genocidal, pro-dictatorship, homophobic, corrupt, nightmare of a president with which we were later plagued with for four years in the middle of a pandemic.

That's when I realized this dude wasn't worth keeping around even as a distant acquaintance, and I had a whole mental funeral for this guy bc he would be dead to me from then on. Sad music, flowers, the whole thing. Rip in piss, as y'all say around here.

Once we arrived by my place's door, I asked him to wait in the cab while I went up real quick. When I came back, he was like "oh?? you wanna go somewhere else from here?"

and I simply shoved the very large plastic bag I'd carried down on the seat next to him, explaining: "no, it's just that this is all your crap that was still in my house and I don't want it here anymore. Bye."

What a terrific place to end this story! How dramatic! I mean, that guy was the worst thing I've ever had cling to me in my life, and that includes that one time in the woods when I was a kid and like a hundred ticks bit me.

Well, close the curtains on this show, then! This is a satisfying ending and surely you never heard of him again, right, OP? Right, OP????

[press X for the next stupid anecdote about the deceased]

[press Y to never hear about the deceased again]

[vanilla extract] (sorry I had to)

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If this made you laugh, buy me a ko-fi to help me continue to afford the therapy I so clearly need lmao

#long post/ #lu's stories #abusive relationships/ #emotional abuse/ #what I love about this story is that the only thing that might be wrong there are some dates bc adhd brain #but yeah it was. a ride #i still quote the gasoline quote sometimes #also obsessed with my stupidass logic: #ok u wanna kiss girls. u find them hot. but what if you kiss one??? and don't like it??? then ur het #lu you stupid bisexual bless ur heart

[bytebun]

found family coworkers (definition multiple) of all time [image description under cut]

Comic 1:

First panel, Ingo and Akari are standing together. Someone off-screen asks “oh, is that your dad?”. Akari has an awkward smile and replies “oh, no no. he’s my...” There’s a long pause as she looks at Ingo. He’s leaving it up to her. She finishes, “He’s my coworker... friend... guy.” In smaller font, she continues “yea. that.” Comic 2: A dramatic panel of Volo, looking pissed off, shouting “who are you to interfere?!!” Ingo tugs the brim of his cap lower. The upper half of his face is in shadow, while his eyes stand out. He looks threatening but has his expression is his characteristic neutral-frown, and he says “...I’m her coworker friend guy.”. In the final panel, Machoke is throwing an incredible amount of punches, a reference to Star Platinum from Jojo. Ingo is pointing with one hand, his battle pose. The background text reads, “What does that even mean??” Volo is experiencing off-screen violence.

Comic 3: The comic is titled “Reunion”. In the first panel, Ingo shows off Akari, with a faint smile on his face. She is labelled “best girl (assigned by god)”. He says, “Emmet, this is Akari, my coworker. She’s the reason I was able to return to this station.” In smaller font, Akari comments to herself, “ooh... so this is the man in white.”

In the second panel, in smaller font Ingo notes “I think I remember now...” He says, “Akari, this is Emmet. He's also my coworker.” Coworker is underlined. Emmet is crying in the background, looking confused, conflicted, distressed, and happy. He says, “Brother...?” In the final panel, we see a framed photograph of all three together. Underneath are the words, Employee of the Month. Akari is dressed as a depot agent, and she and Ingo pose with peace signs. Emmet is red faced from crying, but he’s smiling widely. He looks happy.

#pokemon arceus legends #submas #akari #ingo #pla #comics #bytebun draws #your long lost presumed dead brother shows up with a teenager and introduces you as his coworker wwyd #i'm really pushing the platonic ride or die coworkers dynamic for these two. my agenda #making shitty comics is so much more fun than making nice comics i don't have to worry about panel sizes and shit #yeah it's a jojo reference U_U i was drawing that second panel like wait... this looks like sugim*to g*lden k*muy #and you know who he looks like...? starts with a j #my hand remembers this shape of character #originally it was going to be ingo suplexing the guy. but that's a complicated pose... #messed up the tag... #pokemon legends arceus

[eldritch-ace]

They’re on the run :]

#I love the fact that Hannibal knows how to ride a motorcycle #like yeah of course he would #Will would lie and say he doesn’t find it attractive #hannibal #hannibal nbc #nbc hannibal #hannibal 2013 #hannibal lecter #will graham #hannibal lecter fanart #will graham fanart #hannigram #hannigram fanart #murder husbands #art i made #image description in alt

[ministarfruit]

pleased to announce that I have finished omori and feel very normal about siblings right now

#omori #omori omori #omori mari #y'all. who recommended this game to me I just wanna talk #FICTIONAL SIBLINGS ARE MY WEAKNESS OKAY #no more chatting in tags I need to go sit by the river for 240 years #whew. what a ride #yeah. play omori. BUT HEED THE WARNINGS. but play omori

[mj-thrush-gxn]

Oh my Talia- Я тебе кохаю

#i put his vows as my caption on twitter so yeah #it might try to translate to russian #it is ukrainian though. #Я тебе кохаю: i love you #rtc #rtc musical #mischa rtc #ride the cyclone musical #mischa bachinski #mischa ride the cyclone #talia rtc #ride the cyclone #rtc fanart #thrushcore #thrush draws

[relaxxattack]

teslas are literally the iphone of cars. fashion accessories. status symbol. not fully useful for their intended purpose. sickly animals. why did you breed them like that

#ive made this joke at least 3 times irl but just now realized i never posted it #but yeah teslas literally look like iphones on the inside i had to ride in one recently it was horrible and alien #LOL

[juniper-clan]

MOON 18: Oh Shit She’s Feeling It (pt. 1)

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#warrior cats #clangen #clangen warrior cats #warriors oc #wc #wc oc #jcmoons #oh man that’s embarrassing #I dedicate this to all the angry / embarrassed cries out there………. #I also dedicate this to MC Ride from Death Grips because of course I listen to them #I wonder what kind of mood she will be in back at camp #oh shit I’m feeling it #takyon #hell yeah fuck yeah I feel like killing it #takyonnnn #shout out to everyone who reads my tags to further understand me and are only more confused

[softiedingo]

It still irritates the hell out of me how well Sylvie seems to have accepted Loki's absence. I mean, come on, Loki SACRIFICED himself so that in the end she could come back and live her happy life the way she wanted. But in this scene she seems to be talking about the fucking wind, they ruined her so much in this second season.

While Mobius seems SAD AS HELL. ALONE in a new life that he still doesn't know how to deal with and that he didn't ask for, without the presence of the person he liked most. He looks so devastated, like someone came and destroyed his favorite jetski, when in fact the only thing destroyed was his and Loki's chance to ride that damn jetski TOGETHER.

#loki season 2 #loki spoilers #loki series #loki season two #loki #mobius #sylvie #lokius #sophia di martino #tom hiddleston #owen wilson #what a sad fucking end guys #sylvie deserved a better development this season #instead of being turned into a damn bitch #loki and mobius DESERVED a happy ending riding on that jetski #i'll never forgive you for this marvel #and i may not have made it clear enough i apologize for that #but yeah loki sacrificed himself for everyone and not just for mobius and sylvie #and i know that #;))

[plistommy]

Steve takes Eddie’s virginity by riding the older boy after a long session of smoking and drinking inside the metalheads cramped van.

He’d praise Eddie on how good he’s making him feel, how big his dick is and how he’s so pretty under him that it makes Eddie moan loudly, strong hands roaming and squeezing the fat of Steve’s ass as he begs to fuck Steve harder.

”I need to fuck you, Steve- please, sweetheart-”

Steve would kiss him, sloppy and wet as he whines into Eddie’s mouth when the dick inside him hits just right.

When he pulls back, breathless, he picks up the pace and finally lets Eddie buck up to meet his thrusts.

Eddie would just look up at Steve, brown eyes wide and realize he’s so in love with the gorgeous boy on top of him and he never wants to let go. Never.

#Virgin Eddie #I love you #LMAO #And he also has a big dick Steve can’t stop praising #Steve riding someone Is so important to me like HED LOOK SO HOT #SOFT DOM STEVE TOO? hell yeah #I do love Sub Steeb the most but this is good shit too #Sounding like my fic ’The First Time With You’ right now LMAO #steddie #steve harrington #eddie munson #power bottom steve #steddie fandom #steddie fic #hairfreak #stranger things #lemon #my writing #headcanon #hc #steddie hc #text #steve x eddie #drabble

[thefrsers]

#do you see the grip she has on him😭#she was not letting him go the ocean be damned😭

#911 #911 abc #911edit #7.02 #tw: flashing lights #athena grant #athenagrantedit #bobby nash #bobbynashedit #bathena #bathenaedit #gifs #mine #yeah im still here and its been 3 business days but i havent recovered #they literally were not letting each other go no matter what #they are the meaning of ride or die and soulmates and true love *sobs*

[spearxwind]

Here's another concept for Broken Horizon - a dragon pilot saddle! Ft. Alex as the model (and Riptide as the pilot, even if you can't see his face)

Modern saddles were jointly developed by dragons and humans post-war to make dragon riding safer and flying more precise, as regular reins and voice commands quickly became obsolete.

In these saddles the control sticks on the pilot's seat transmit inputs to the steering modules, which are then interpreted into nerve impulses for the dragon to follow. However they are not hard commands, and the dragon can still choose to ignore the impulses for any reason. This means that the dragon and the pilot must have an incredibly strong trust bond for the best performance.

#windyart #broken horizon #alex #riptide #oc ref sheet #I MEAN KIND OF???? #anyways i hope u enjoy this i have been obsessed with it for the past couple weeks mwah #by the way you can see how much bigger alex (and the other dragons) are now with this worldbuilding #cause wow he big. on par with actual jets! :D though alex isnt specifically a fast flier (or the fastest at least) #BUT UUHHHH YEAH!!! SCIFI DRAGON RIDING!!! WOO!!!

[bogkeep]

bitter medicine

[character is from in stars and time]

#in stars and time #siffrin #isat spoilers #isat act 6 spoilers #art #digital art #fanart #me: oh yeah i can draw this on the very long car ride #also me: WHOSE IDEA WAS IT TO DRAW ALL THESE STRAIGHT LINES IN A SHAKING MOVING CAR #loop isat

[bunji-enthusiast]

Simple idea for Catnap!

Carrying around a reader who's been working too hard, and just about ready to go some sleep, and who better to help than that giant kitty!

Sweet Dreams

Note || OOOH, you are so right

WC || 475

Sypnosis || There is simply no better way to take a load off then the help of a very giant cat.

This giant kitty doesn’t expect much from when he first crosses paths with you, now he’s just extremely concerned for you when he notices you beginning to really overwork yourself. CatNap just watches and waits from the shadows (emo kitty), too see when was the best time to intervene, he really does get genuinely concerned for you.

You're about ready to get some much needed sleep it seems, so CatNap is more than happy to help you doze off into your sleeping chambers. He knows well enough that people and toys alike aren’t gonna do well on the basis of energy, that lack of sleep can make a person really cranky. 

CatNap can speak of this from experience.

You're only a human after so you remind yourself, trying to get all this work done wasn’t doing any good on your mental and physical health. Sleep was sorely needed, yet you didn’t want to go to sleep without getting all the paperwork done first. Offhandedly there is miscellaneous work you had also needed to get done as well. 

This was exhausting. Extremely exhausting enough as is, you realize sleep is ebbing into your eyelids, you yawn and rub your eyes. Leaning back on your lamp desk chair, you sigh weighing in on the pros and cons of the lack of sleep you realize will affect you in a few hours from now.

Black was pouring into your vision, you tried fighting the sleep quickly claiming you, yet the need to rest had quickly overtaken your compulsive need to get work done.

A shadow looms over your unconscious figure, tail wrapping around your waist and lifting you carefully onto his back. CatNap sighs internally as he bites back at how limp you look sleeping, you just needed that rest and it was clearly evident to the large cat. He couldn’t sit down at this spot, you needed somewhere more puffed up and fluffy to sleep on.

CatNap lets out a puff of red smoke as he realizes that he simply will have to walk around while you sleep, at most his back was probably more safer to sleep on then anywhere in the factory. He takes a step back from your desk, carefully taking watch of where he stepped so as to not knock over any paperwork that you seemed to work so hard on. Also taking care to keep watch of any furniture and decoration that may be at risk of his large paws and tail.

Ah, walking is something CatNap constantly is doing. A cat is always on the prowl, yet not for him. CatNap had a priority right now, and that was to watch over you and keep you safe while you got your much needed sleep.

A snore snapped him out of his internal maze of thoughts.

You really were knocked out cold.

#catnap poppy playtime #CatNap #poppy playtime #poppy playtime x reader #catnap x reader #yeah we riding with platonic fluff boys

[turtleblogatlast]

I think about Leo’s “I’m your least favorite” comment to Splinter in “Down with the Sickness” a lot. It’s likely just a throwaway comment, a way to get Splinter to leave him alone before Leo gets sick too, but I can’t help but wonder if Leo believes it on some level.

Obviously it’s not true, Splinter loves him as much as he loves the others, but…it wouldn’t be shocking if Leo believed otherwise. After all, just in “Many Unhappy Returns” alone, Splinter has, with no hesitation, said comments like “my other sons would have taken this seriously” and “I knew I should’ve brought purple”, said “no” to Leo’s “I love you”, and pretty blatantly didn’t extend any trust in Leo’s plan even after Leo was fairly effortlessly defeating their opponents.

It was only after, when they’d already won, that Splinter finally gives him a “it was all you my son!” And…that’s basically it. Raph is the one who announces his trust in Leo. Not their father, even though Splinter is the one to witness Leo lowering his walls for once (which Splinter doesn’t react well too, because Leo only lowers his walls in the most hectic of times, and because he lowers them only then, either no one is around or no one is in the right state of mind to respond properly, leading to Leo building his walls back up, and the cycle continues.)

Again, it’s not because Splinter doesn’t love Leo, but Leo…can’t be feeling too good about all that. The way he never reacted surprised about any of Splinter’s words too…

He may know that Splinter loves them all, as a group, but individually…I don’t think Leo believes he ranks all that high with that love. Gives another meaning to “I’m nothing without my brothers” huh?

(Of course, I’m willing to bet the invasion changed that understanding, but with that comes the potential misunderstanding that his father’s outright love is tied to Leo sacrificing himself.)

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt leo #rise leo #rottmnt headcanons #again OBVIOUSLY SPLINTER LOVES HIM DEARLY #but I wouldn’t blame Leo for thinking he’s loved the LEAST #Splinter also blatantly thinking Donnie is funnier doesn’t help #Leo being a Leo and thus being a Daddy’s Boy at his core doesn’t help #man splinter if you tell Leo he was the first one you held he’d be riding that high for MONTHS #but yeah I just think that with all of Leo’s insecurities…this all isn’t all that unlikely a conclusion to make #and I’ve said it before but…Leo and Splinter don’t really have a softer moment between them unlike the others #that must sting #this isn’t to say that Splinter was WRONG in being upset with Leo in Many Unhappy Returns #because Splinter had no way of knowing Leo’s plan would work out #but again - Leo has to be so confident and cocky because goddangit SOMEONE has to believe in him #so he lets it be himself #hell even the hug that comes after they incapacitate the shredder was more of a ‘Leo was there but it’s to all of them’ #I want them to have a good father son talk so bad #is it any wonder why Leo imprints so quick on Hueso #when the man sees him break and decides to help? #can you imagine how much that means to someone like Leo #that someone with all the reason in the world to leave Leo to deal with things alone #chooses not only to help him but to actively protect him after as well #I bet with Splinter there’s always a voice in the back of his head #that says his dad’s love of him is more obligation than anything #and if they didn’t have that DNA connection it wouldn’t be there #so Hueso having no connection but still sticking by Leo’s side in Leo’s moment of weakness…it probably means a lot #it’s a shame we didn’t truly get that with Splinter and Leo #now I want Hueso and Splinter to meet bc like…they’re both dads! and it’d be interesting

[my-amygdala-is-synthetic]

their relationship means so much to me...

#gotg vol 3 #gotg #nebula #rocket raccoon #guardians of the galaxy #guardians 3 #guardians of the galaxy vol 3 #gotg nebula #fanart #art #my draws #literally showed this to my brother and he was like 'this is reallygood but nebula doesnt have the metal around her eye anymore' #IN ALL THE REFERENCE PICS I LOOKED AT I DIDNT REALIZE X_____x art flop!!! #we'll just say this is right before rocket repaired it for her #rocket x nebula #yeah this can be shippy if u want it to be. so what #anyone else ride or die for this ship or justme...

[originalartblog]

"Can someone go and drag him back?"

Chuuya week - Day 7 - Happy Birthday!

#do you guys have ANY idea how hard it was to make something fun and light-hearted?? #i had a whole crisis asking myself if he was even close enough with the pm people that they'd get to throwing a party #like yeah sure ride or die and small talk going out for drinks with your coworkers but... birthday party?? #but then vee said mori and kouyou would do a proper celebration even if chuuya forgot so here this was their idea #bsd #bungo stray dogs #bungou stray dogs #bsd fanart #chuuyaweek2023 #bsd chuuya #bsd nakahara chuuya #port mafia #nawy's comics