#cptsd symptoms

[slivincptsd]

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[furiousgoldfish]

signs you’re not doing well:

you’re stress-scrolling social media hoping to find a distraction

you’re struggling just to get to the end of the day

you’ve dropped your daily routine, you’re only doing the bare minimum

you’re forgetting to eat, or feel too tense and nauseous to eat

you’re feeling too weak or too stressed to get/make food

all you can manage is to watch a show or play a video game

all you can manage is to indulge in your favourite media and if it’s not available you feel like you’ll break down immediately

your thoughts are racing in distress and you can’t think clearly

you feel pressure like you should be doing something but you can’t remember what

you feel like you’re in the wrong place, or a wrong time

you can’t tell if something bad is going on right now or if you’re re-living past

your own head feels like a hostile place and you want to get out

any chore you have to do feels impossible and unachievable

interaction with others feels dangerous

your emotions shift from fear, pain, anger, frustration, anxiety, sorrow

you feel like you need to stay distracted no matter what, you shuffle multiple media trying to stop yourself from having thoughts

you’re starting to feel physical pain in your head, joints, limbs, stomach

you can no longer digest food and your stomach is tense and hard

your appetite is a mess and you can’t tell if you need to eat or not

you’re too tired to get up, or to stay up for longer than 30 seconds

any detail is sending you into the dark thoughts, you’re drawn to spiraling

you’re spiraling and everything feels like it will never be okay

you’re overwhelmed with shame you’re not doing something you feel you’re supposed to be getting done

you’re scared you won’t be able to complete a chore or a task even if it’s days/weeks from now

it’s hard to take a deep breath or to calm your breathing

you feel like you won’t be able to take this for a long time

your thoughts start leaning closer to suicidal

If you’re feeling these, know that you’re currently not obliged to do anything but to focus on yourself and feeling better. Whatever chores or responsibilities there are, you can drop them. Your mental and emotional well being is more important than whatever else is going on. You are struggling and you deserve rest, compassion, love, kindness, and support. Life is not supposed to feel this way, you’re going trough something difficult and traumatic. Also, you will not feel this forever, good times will come around, all you need to do is survive right now. Do whatever makes you feel a little more willing to be alive right now.

#cptsd #trauma #furiousgoldfish #ptsd #chronic illness #chronic exhaustion #emotional flashbacks #trauma episodes #struggling with trauma #cptsd symptoms

[traumatizedjaguar]

Abusers never getting their story straight:

I spoke to one abuser who said that he wasn’t an abuser because he lacked self awareness about his behaviors during the time he abused women he had relationships with. So being mentally ill let him off the hook for abusive behaviors. But he still had a right to get revenge and abuse people in extreme ways who minorly hurt him as I was given details of those situations… but nobody has a right to hurt him back.

I spoke to one abuser who claimed he wasn’t the only abuser in the relationship and that him and his ex gf were 50/50 when it came to splitting up the role of being the abuser. So he went on to tell us in the chat that it’s a good thing bc now it’s a “fun” war where he’s justified in doing whatever he wants to his ex girlfriend and nobody can talk him into thinking differently. I asked for details and he told us, so fucking clearly, that his ex-gf just reacted to his abuse…. He drove her “crazy” basically.

I talked to another abuser that said he had NPD and his ex had CPTSD, OCD and BPD and he laughed about how they “made a beautiful mess of everything” when they dated. Red flag. From all the details, he had no self awareness of describing that he abused her first, but he thought “so what” bc “she’s bad too”, dragged her through horrible and stressful situations, justifying it bc “he had childhood trauma” causing her to react to him in such intensity and horrible behaviors back. He blamed her BPD and his NPD saying they were both abusers, but everything he described had absolutely nothing to do with her BPD, and more so to do with his treatment of her, and her simple reaction to that which can get either confused or overlap with BPD symptoms coming out. Why not blame her CPTSD? CPTSD had a lot of symptoms about flashbacks, emotional dysregulation, even anger issues sometimes and when she displays these symptoms why is that not automatic “she’s the abuser” with the CPTSD? Why not blame her OCD? Anxiety around loved ones too. He admitted without realizing it probably that he gaslit her and she did not gaslight him; he gaslighted her in extreme ways I was concerned that he will never change his way of thinking.

I’m spoke to another abuser who said he kept pushing a girl into a relationship and would never leave her alone and didn’t count this as emotional abuse and potential stalking. She non stop would run from him and tell him to get away and stop bothering her. He genuinely believed coercion isn’t abusive if he spread out his coercive behavior over the course of months as in: “coerce her for 3-5 minutes, then leave her alone, repeat for months every other week or so”. Which made no sense like “people change their minds especially if every week I can come up with something good to get her to turn her no into a yes”. He harassed her, stalked her, and coerced her into things she didn’t want to do and claimed she abused him when she reacted so badly to him one day at school and embarrassed him in front of all their classmates. Which he said he had a right to get revenge on her and bully her for embarrassing him; obviously he does not have a right to abuse her because he abused her first, she reacted and told him off in front of everybody, then he claimed to be a victim.

Mutual abuse is non-existent.

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[unwelcome-ozian]

#trauma symptoms #trauma recovery #abuse recovery #cptsd symptoms #PTSD

[ghostisventing]

Ways I cope with trauma as someone who is not ready /unable to open up about it to a professional

-art. Making vent art. Or edits aka “traumacore” stuff. It feels like im not keeping it to myself which is a relief. But it brings emotions to the surface which can be triggering.

-music that reminds me of the trauma. It doesn’t have to be about the trauma specifically. Songs that remind me of my old mindset. Songs that remind me of the dynamics I had with my abusers. Songs that remind me that they will get karma one day. It’s comforting and helps me release anger.

-writing. This is the most recent tool I’ve been using. I’ve written about my trauma before but this method is using creative writing. It is not uncommon for people to project onto OCs, which is what I do. Writing out their mindsets helps me process how my trauma affected my mental health. I didn’t intentionally do this as a coping skill; I just wanted to write. But writing down my OCs thought processes has helped me.

-talking to other trauma survivors. I do this rarely but it helps to vent on subreddits like r/CPTSD. This account is also helpful, and I find that giving advice to others makes me feel better.

#traumacore #resources #coping skills #coping #trauma survivors #post traumatic stress disorder #CPTSD #cptsd symptoms #ptsd #csa survivor #sa survivor #abuse survivor #medical trauma #bullying #bpd #borderline personality traits #depression #mdd #ed #body image issues #traumacore.

[mycptsdstory]

I have cptsd but I don’t know a lot of my symptoms very well. Can you explain emotional flashbacks?

Emotional flashbacks are very similar to actual flashbacks, but without the image/audio/video/all (depends on the person).

It's an old feeling you get, from a traumatic event or something bad happened in your life.

This feeling pops up and it does feel so real. So we tend to think it's happening now, when it's not. That feeling, happened soooo long ago. It's weird, I know.

Not many people talk about them because many people (without therapy) have a hard time understanding, the difference between an actual flashback with audio/image/video/all to an emotional flashback. Since we tend to act upon them, instead of just letting our emotions loose and letting us feel them. Since, we had to survive, we couldn't let our emotions let loose because we lived in survival mode for so long. NOTHING WRONG WITH THAT. We had to do, what we had to do.

Here's some more info about them.

Lastly, I recommend this book by Pete Walker. He talks about CPTSD in depth, a great read. It's also in kindle and in audio, if that helps.

#cptsd #c ptsd #cptsd symptoms #cptsd psychology #pete walker #anon ask #ask

[mental-mona]

#cpstd #ptsd #ptsd symptoms #cptsd symptoms #mental health #mental illness #mental health awareness month #infographic

[selectivechaos]

types of flashbacks.

[ID: text reads: “3 Types Of Flashbacks Due to Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder.

Visual is where trauma is re-experienced as a visual picture.

Somatic is where pain and body sensations are felt due to re-experiencing the physical pain of the trauma.

Emotional is where intense emotions occur due to triggers to emotions felt during past trauma.”

At the bottom of the image, text reads: “Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/ cPTSD. Copyright Protected. See more info on my Website - the link is in my bio https://www.healingfromcomplextraumaandptsd.com/ . End ID]

#types of flashbacks #cptsd symptoms #ptsd symptoms #uhhh i always discounted my experiences because it wasn't the way flashbacks are portrayed in media which sensationalises mental illness #so i wanted to raise awareness for this

[cptsd-skywalker]

A hallmark of victims of CPTSD is a huge desire for validation followed by self harm talk; Because you’ve been abused for so long that compliments are scarier than criticism. His face falls because Anakin feels like unless he’s perfect he’ll never be worthy of love. At the same time he thinks so low of himself that any time he gets that validation he becomes so scared of losing it that he can’t enjoy it. I really understand the struggle well. It’s hell. He needed someone to understand this and confront it. Obi Wan sees that Anakin has this never ending need for validation, but he doesn’t see it for what it is, a symptom of Anakin’s trauma. So he just corrects him without soothing him. So to Anakin, it feels like another reminder that he’ll never be worthy. It has the opposite affect Obi wan wants. It actually makes Anakin fight back harder to prove himself.

#anakin skywalker #star wars #anakin star wars #anakin and obi wan #anakin needs therapy #anakin #anakin did nothing wrong #Anakin has Cptsd #cptsd borderline #Cptsd symptoms #self worth #starwarsedit

[thestonerwitch]

“Your trauma made you hot at least.”

Thanks it also gave me brain damage 🙃

#mental health #mental wellness #mental illness #cptsd problems #cptsd life #cptsd symptoms #cptsdwarrior #cptsd coping #trauma #somatic symptom disorder #developmental trauma #girls who smoke weed #stoner witch #healing

[journal-from-the-heart]

re: trauma/cptsd, shame, feelings of inferiority, and how it affects self esteem and relationships

okay, I know I already made a post about a similar thing, but I wanted to build on that because I have more to add, so I'm making another.

so in my research, I have learned that on top of all of the already existent criteria for ptsd, cptsd also has three other sections of criteria, which are, in layman's terms, problems with emotional regulation, problems with self esteem/view of oneself, and problems with interpersonal relationships. (source here and here). for this post, i'm going to focus specifically on the self esteem aspect.

in one of the articles I read, a negative view of oneself is described specifically as: "Beliefs about oneself as diminished, defeated or worthless, accompanied by feelings of shame, guilt or failure related to the traumatic event" (see the source colored in pink above).

in my experience, I find this description to be very accurate. However, one thing that i have not seen mentioned in these articles is how or where those negative views about oneself manifest. For me, where it manifests has changed with time. Where I used to hate myself very actively and use self deprecating jokes to cope with this much deeper issue that I was too young to really understand, I now find that although I stopped hating myself consciously, I haven't actually stopped hating myself. I just do it more covertly and subconsciously now. I try to be more logical and reasonable, but it feels like doing so is a continual battle with my much nastier subconscious.

but, as is described in the article i quoted above, how it manifests is also a lot more than simply "hating myself". for me a "negative view of oneself" is really more like a deeply ingrained sense of shame for everything about my trauma, and even the fact that I have trauma in the first place. it is also a deeply set belief that I am inherently horrible, worthless, and inferior to everyone around me.

its also hard to understand how the shame appears, but for me there are a lot of ways. For most of my life I intently avoided talking about my trauma at all, and when I do talk about it I feel uncomfortable, because I feel like i'm exaggerating and being overdramatic, like it wasn't actually that bad and i'm just making things up. when i was younger, it also manifested a LOT as me blaming my trauma on myself, and feeling guilty that it was even happening to me at all, even though obviously it wasn't ever my fault.

in my experience, with the shame and sense of inferiority put together, the "negative self view" section of criteria also intersects with the "difficulties with interpersonal relationships" section of criteria. Since I have this deep set belief that i'm worse than everyone else and also a deep set feeling of shame for having these mental health issues and trauma in the first place, I sometimes feel insecure in my friendships, because I don't know why someone would want me as a friend when I feel like anybody else they could choose to be friends with would be easier to get along with. And I also think that i'm only likeable if people don't know I have trauma, and once they do know, it's like they're going to find out how gross I really (feel like) I am and how much of a liar I was about actually being a chill person to hang around with. it's almost like some kind of imposter syndrome.

anyways, that's everything I wanted to talk about. if any of this feels relatable to you, you aren't crazy and you aren't alone. these are real, recognized symptoms of cptsd. you aren't broken, and you aren't just making things up.

be safe, and much love to everyone in all your healing journeys. <3

#trauma #cptsd #cptsdawareness #cptsd symptoms #cptsd thoughts #cptsd healing #cptsd recovery #complex ptsd #trauma recovery #abuse recovery #childhood trauma #mental health #self esteem #sorry for tagging 3 billion things but i am trying to get a little more engagement since this is a very new blog. #and in my defense they are all relevant lol #long post

[strawberryflavoredsapphic]

Hi I have questions

I really struggle with identity issues to the point where sometimes I can’t even pinpoint what I’m struggling with. I have symptoms of bpd and cptsd, but I’m not quite sure I meet the criteria for either.

I made this account because I wonder if my identity issues are a result of OSDD or P-DID. To understand further, I want to know how to differentiate between bpd, CPTSD and osdd identity problems (idk how else to word it).

Obviously, tumblr is not a scientific resource, but hearing from people who live with either disorder can hopefully be useful.

#bpd #borderline personality disorder #osdd #cptsd #complex ptsd #identity #cptsd symptoms #bpd blog #pdid #pdid system #osdd 1b #osdd stuff #osdd community #bpd identity #bpd self image #bpd symptoms

[traumatizedjaguar]

I need to get this vent off my chest. Just bc someone is diagnosed bipolar or borderline or something else doesn’t mean we’re “crazy” and especially with me, I don’t experience delusions, and I have every right to speak for myself. Just bc we’re dx with bipolar or BPD doesn’t mean we’re too ill to speak for ourselves; everybody is different with how they experience symptoms. I am never out of touch with reality, I don’t get delusions, I don’t get hyper-religiosity ever so you can believe me about my life experiences. I am not “insane” or “too sick” to speak for myself and my experiences. I’m not “crazy” or a “delusional liar” just bc I went through traumatic events in my life and developed illness due to it. I don’t deserve to be treated like a child or insane criminal. You can trust me and let me speak for myself; you can treat me like how you treat neurotypicals; you can let me be and not write me off as crazy. Some people with my disorders can act bad, I’m not them nor do I act like them. I see this too often that if I say I went through something deeply traumatic and the person knows about my dx’s, they’ll write it off as me being a liar, crazy, or too ill to speak the truth like I am not to be trusted just bc I have mental illness WHICH IS CAUSED BY TRAUMA. I’m my own person and deal with my symptoms in self-reflective and healthy ways. Just bc you see someone else with my disorders acting abusively doesn’t mean I will too bc I never do and never have. Oh, and my cousin can’t accuse his (oh-so-obviously) abusive mother of abuse “bc he’s bipolar and crazy” like STFU, and comments like that are coming from within the blood-line.

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[unwelcome-ozian]

#cptsd symptoms #CPTSD

[2outta3aintbad]

#girl same #I feel so empowered I mean if rihanna can do it... #who tf is “the rest of us” bc certainly not me #sleep disorder #insomnia #sleep deprivation #sleep problems #audhd problems #did osdd #adhd autistic #cptsdhealing #cptsd recovery #cptsd symptoms #complex dissociative disorder #unmedicated adhd #untreated mental illness

[damnbleeding]

at this point nothing seems to help not even my therapist not even the medication not even the thought that i can survive or i can die

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