#living with cptsd

[defiantcripple]

Okay, breaking out of the crippleposting to do a Mental Illness Post rq:

On top of depression and anxiety, I have BPD, CPTSD, OSDD-1b, and Bipolar II. I experience delusions, psychosis, and severe dissociation. I am a *severely* mentally ill person. Because of all of this, I require several mood stabilizers and an antipsychotic to keep myself grounded to reality, let alone functional.

I swear to GOD, if one more person with depression looks at me and says some shit like "yeah, I'm sure medication would help me, I just don't want to be dependent on it." I'm going to fucking scream. The sheer ableism in y'all's attitudes towards people who can't just opt out of medication and who ARE dependent on it is fucking crazy. The way they hit the word "dependent" in that sentence always holds so much judgment and distain, like they don't even consider that some of us don't have the luxury of choice. Being dependent on medication has literally no moral weight, and for me it's that or dead. So.

***and before someone goes off on me, this is NOT about people who can't afford medication or who medication doesn't work for, and I am not saying that depression can't be debilitating. I am only referring to exactly the situation I described, so don't try and gotcha me***

#mentally ill #actually mentally ill #mental illness #mental health #bpd #borderline personality disorder #actually bpd #actually psychotic #bipolar #bipolar disorder #did osdd #osdd #osdd system #osdd 1b #ptsd #complex ptsd #cptsd #actually cptsd #living with cptsd #dc crippleposting

[billybob-99]

I feel so disgusting and uncomfortable in my own skin I don’t wanna be here

#bpd feels #bpd vent #cptsd problems #girl hysteria #living with cptsd #need friends #sadgirl #sorry for being depressing #actually bpd #bpd blog #bpd problems #bpd thoughts #bpd

[nothing0fnothing]

being like this and living with someone who doesn't understand is so hard.

#narcissistic abuse #parental abuse #cptsd life #complex trauma #just cptsd things #actually cptsd #cptsd recovery #living with cptsd #cptsd problems #mental health #mentally fucked #actually mentally ill #overwhelmed #therapy #coping #mental illness

[yourhealingjournal]

i read this post about someone simply accepting their depression is not going to go away & instead of resenting themselves for never getting rid of it or trying to find so much energy to banish the sadness away or to be fully "healed" from it, they just focus on adding more happy things in their plate.

and that is something i can resonate with.

#might not resonate with many. might not even be the hopeful amazing tone i usually keep up in this blog #but something clicked so #be kind to yourself #cptsd recovery #trauma recovery #actually traumatized #just cptsd things #living with cptsd #actually cptsd #bpd recovery #actually mentally ill #actually borderline #rose.txt

[4spooniesupport]

#traumagenic osdd #trauma #just cptsd things #living with cptsd #cptsd recovery #cptsd problems #abuse survival #parental abuse #mental abuse #emotional abuse #verbal abuse #tw abuse #childhood trauma #medical trauma #spoonie #chronically ill #chronic illness #disabled life #disability #mental illness #disabled community #invisible disability #chronic disease #mental heath support #complex ptsd #ptsd #actually ptsd #ptsd recovery #living with ptsd #actually cptsd

[theinsomniacindian]

"My child is fine-"

Your child is so lonely and emotionally numb that they cope by living in a dream world to the point where they are terrified of living in reality itself

#madd #maladaptive daydreaming #maladaptive daydreaming disorder #paracosm #actually madd #actually maladaptive #living with cptsd #just cptsd things #cptsd #cptsd problems #actually cptsd #autism #autistic #asd #actually autistic #neurodivergent #neurodiversity #nd #actually neurodivergent #the insomniac archives

[smol-possum-screaming]

#ptsd #actually cptsd #trauma #dark humor #mental health #living with cptsd

[sufferingtosurvive]

It’s not fair!

#funny #memes #dark humor #actually cptsd #cptsd memes #cptsd problems #cptsd vent #just cptsd things #living with cptsd #cptsd thoughts #actually bpd #bpd shit #bpd vent #bpd feels #bpd problems #bpd things

[the-edgy-fuckerz]

"Mental health matters" until its a minor struggling with substance abuse

"Mental health matters" until someone doesn't want/refuses help

"mental health matters" until someone struggles with an addiction

"Mental health matters" until someone is unable to do 'basic' hygiene

"Mental health matters" until someone is deemed violent and scary

"Mental health matters" until someone doesn't 'look like' their struggling

"Mental health matters" until someone has bulimia or bed

"Mental health matters" until someone wants to get worse

"Mental health matters" until someone is a dropout or unemployed

"Mental health matters" until someone has disturbing intrusive thoughts

"mental health matters" until someone is delusional

"Mental health matters" until someone struggles with hallucinations and hearing voices

"mental health matters" until someone is extremely scared of other people

"Mental health matters" until someone has violent outbursts

"Mental health matters" until someone has trouble masking/ can't mask their illness

"Mental health matters" until it doesn't fit your romanticized view abt it

(feel free to add onto this)

#mental health #mental illness #actually mentally ill #tw bulimia #depression holder #actually cptsd #living with cptsd #actually hallucinating #hallucinations #addiction #neurodivergent #audhd #complex ptsd #abuse survivor #childhood trauma #hearing voices #mental health matters #trauma survivor #traumagenic did #idk how to tag this

[mycptsdstory]

To add; "They left out that children aren’t your purpose in life. They shouldn’t give your life meaning. That’s something you should have already had."

Tweets and this comment found on Reddit.

#toxic parents #toxic parent #cptsd meme #cptsd memes #ptsd meme #ptsd memes #meme #memes #cptsdhealing #living with cptsd #cptsd vent #cptsd problems #cptsd thoughts #actually cptsd #just cptsd things #tw cptsd #actually ptsd #cptsd tag #cptsd #c ptsd

[billybob-99]

Life’s a endless agonizing loop the same awful feelings over and over and over I can’t handle this bullshit I’m done 

#bpd feels #bpd splitting #bpd vent #cptsd problems #girl hysteria #living with cptsd #need friends #sadgirl #sorry for being depressing #obsessive love disorder #bpd #bpd thoughts #bpd safe #actually bpd #bpd blog #bpd problems #bpd mood

[systemblogging]

#actually dissociative #actually osdd #osdd system #did system #osddid #actually cptsd #living with cptsd #cptsd vent #actually ptsd #actually traumatized

[yourhealingjournal]

actually, to have the audacity to live, to take up space, is the scariest and most rewarding gift you can give yourself.

#cptsd recovery #gentle reminder #living with cptsd #cptsd healing #be kind to yourself #trauma recovery #self love #radical self love #positive self talk #actually cptsd #actually borderline #complex trauma #just cptsd things #healing #recovery #recovery quotes

[4spooniesupport]

#traumagenic osdd #medical trauma #trauma #complex ptsd #ptsd recovery #actually ptsd #tw ptsd #ptsd #cptsd problems #just cptsd things #living with cptsd #cptsd recovery #actually cptsd #psychology

[futureless]

i don’t know if i’m fighting demons or if i am the demon at this point

#borderline personality disorder #complex ptsd #panic disorder #adhd #bipolar disorder #obsessive compulsive disorder #severetrauma #bpd #cptsd problems #fuck society #manic bipolar #mental instability #why do i exist #adhd stuff #bipolar mania #bpd problems #diagnosed bpd #living with cptsd #manic depressive #mental health #maniac #demons #fighting demons #actually cptsd #actually adhd #actually bipolar #actually borderline #being borderline #borderline