#on being chosen

[glasswaters]

pick yourself off the floor, child. you are not finished.

you still have things to give, in the hollow of your mouth and under that thin skin. there is still gold upon your head and pearls within your gums. your spine still bends just so.

your ribcage has long since started blooming and you've yet petals to harvest from your spine. your heart is beating, and your lungs lay, torn, alive in the pit of you.

can't you see them move? take that breath. open that maw, and drink air from my palms. your shoulders are not worn to dust, and your feet still hold your weight.

the pillars are crumbling, dear thing. the skies are ripping at the seams. another red giant. another sunset. another layer of skin.

you were made for this. don't be silly now. straighten your back and let me wipe all this mess from your dear face. look at me, soiling myself for you. was not this handkerchief once white? however will i get that stain out?

hold on, child. you are not finished. Even torn hands can carry heavy loads. Even phantom fingers can sew.

and you were chosen. don't lay down that honour.

#chosen one #poetry #writerblr #writers of tumblr #poets of tumblr #my work #spilled ink #spilled words #on being chosen #on sacrifice #gore #blood #idk if this is gaslighting but it sure is Something #a dialogue between a hero and their narrative #in which heroics are made of heroes #adventurerswrite

[vizthedatum]

I’ve spoken about this on my blog once before, but in the fall of 2022 when I was still married and was on an emergency trip to help my brother, I snuck away to talk to someone on a spiritual level.

I needed guidance badly.

There was something horribly wrong. And it wasn’t my parents this time - I was seeing them for who they were.

I had the wrong idea of what was wrong.

When I went to her, and when I left… I fully was planning to stay married for years and years.

I recorded our whole conversation - the one I had with her.

I had talked frankly and openly about everyone I currently loved. I was so gracious about each of them, including my two partners at the time. Even though, I ended up speaking the most about someone else who… didn’t even love me. That was why I went to her in the first place - I needed to get rid of whatever was happening because it was tamping down my ability to be happy in my other connections.

Little did I know that what was happening was that I was remembering who I was.

I no longer speak to any of the people I excitedly told her about.

None of them.

I was so busy begging for love, approval, and connection from all those people that I forgot about myself.

She kept telling me how much I was seen. A couple months later, she told me that I don’t need to be chosen.

I don’t need to be chosen.

I just took a nap, and I get it now. Like of course, I intellectually got it back then. That’s different.

No, I’m awake. I get it now.

I don’t need to be pavloved with subconscious and conscious breadcrumbing whether it’s in an all-consuming relationship like with the one I married or whether it’s in a situationship where I chase an emotionally unavailable person.

I don’t ever need to be chosen. I will never ever get true love that way.

Because all this time, even going back to listening to that recording, I realized… I was making a case to myself about how much I craved to love myself.

Oh my god, how desperate I sounded. I love how I sound, despite the dysphoria. I must have looked so good that day. I didn’t think so back then. I was so used to minimizing who I was.

I love how I love.

I don’t need to be chosen anymore.

#on being chosen #choosing #chosen #healing #neurodivergence #trauma #love #queer #self love #prose #a love story #a love story for myself #polyamory #remembering

[counting-stars-gayly]

I’m actually LOVING how Rick Riordan, and the other writers of the show, took his initial concept of a Percabeth rivalry fueled by that of their parents and kind of turned it on its head?

Now, instead of Annabeth being wary of Percy because he’s a son of Poseidon, he’s wary of her because she made a callous impression on him. They get off to a rocky start even before finding out who Percy’s father is, and when they finally do, Annabeth doesn’t care. Instead of them fighting because of who their parents are, they’re fighting over their own opposed worldviews.

Then, instead of them arguing over which of the gods is cooler and who was right in the story of Medusa, they realize that, just like Medusa, Annabeth is a victim of her mother and that, unlike Medusa, she is a far kinder and stronger person, unwilling to repeat the cycle of hurt. They realize that, like his father, Percy often acts without considering potential consequences and that, unlike his father, he is a far kinder and stronger person, willing to step up for someone he wronged and whom he cares about.

Instead of Percy and Annabeth’s rivalry being focused on that of their parents, it’s focused on who they are, themselves. But the path to friendship is still the same: a realization that they have each other’s backs, no matter what, because they’re not their parents after all.

#i kind of typed this in my essay voice because I knew it would be long so ignore that #also I don’t actually know which of the other writers are playing big parts in percabeth’s story so threats why I put a focus on Riordan #that’s* #aaaaanyhoo if I’m being honest I definitely prefer this version of percabeth #AND I like that Medusa said ‘‘we are not our parents until we choose to be. you three have chosen’’ implying that she thinks they’ve chosen #to be their parents only for Percy to reveal in the next episode that he’s chosen to be better than his father. #that was a really nice touch 👌👌👌 #percy jackson and the olympians #pjo #pjo disney+ #percy jackson disney+ #percy jackson #annabeth chase #Percabeth #rick riordan #Medusa #pjo tv show #pjo tv series #pjo tv spoilers

[seiwas]

you wear katsuki’s clothes to bed.

among all your cotton and silk pajamas, you prefer the thinning fabric of his faded tees. there are holes in some of them, just a few more seams away from their undoing as they fit far too large on you—but that’s why you love them.

they’re comfy and worn; lived in with love from the man that you love. when katsuki is gone for days or weeks at a time, you find his warmth intertwined within the threads of his t-shirts. when the fabric presses against your back, the bed doesn’t feel nearly as empty as it is.

(though it can never replace him. nothing can, you fear.)

“hoggin’ all my shirts,” he tuts, but you know it means nothing. the roll of white fabric is neatly folded unto itself, its crisp corners unfurling once handed over.

you giggle, shaking off its folds and fitting the hem right over your head. from the corner of your eye, you see katsuki’s gaze, watching you wrangle the fabric over you as the towel wrapped around your body slowly drops to the floor.

he turns away then, a little too quickly, a little too abruptly. if you look at him now, you’re sure you’ll find flushed cheeks and crimson eyes burning in shame for wanting you so inopportunely.

“guess you’ll just have to take me with it then.”

#bakugo x reader #shotorus.bubble #bakugo katsuki x reader #katsuki x reader #bnha x reader #WAAAHDJENDJDN #i think he gets a lil bit flustered seeing u in his clothes 😋 #and he feels so embarrassed just watChing u dress and undress #it eases up over time but his cheeks dont lie!!!!!! they flush red everytime!!!!!! #the look of shame transforms into unabashed want over the years but #the feeling is the same 🥹 bubbles or butterflies or whatever the hell it is swirling in his belly #seeing you in something that’s his #especially smth he’s had for yeaaaars 🥺 clothes that have grown up w him 🥺🥺 it makes him feel a little bit like #youre the gift he gets at the end of it all 🥺 #like this is the life he has now even tho he was who he was before #and idk !!! it flips something in him !!! #bc it feels a lot like youre proud of being his 🥺 wearing him all over you and whatnot 🥺 and that you’ve chosen him 🥺 #all rough edges and holes 🥺🥺🥺🥺 #anyway theres a longer version of this but i might make it into a fic or put into an existing one so i will stop it hErEEEEe 🥹🥹🥹 #bnha #katsu

[posalis]

"I just don't wanna feel left out."

#challengers #art donaldson #tashi duncan #patrick zweig #the first two pics are him not being chosen by tashi and losing patrick #while the last ones are him not being chosen by patrick and losing tashi #from his pov #also something something abt the whole “homewrecker” thing and luca implying art was losing patrick as if they were an item+ #comparable to what tashiart becomes in the future

[gin-juice-tonic]

#sorry ive chosen to dedicate the night to being stupid

[lwiann]

fall from grace

#durgetash #bg3 #gortash #wiann art #baldur's gate 3 #durge #my durge is just constantly losing hair bc of his father honestly #at first gortash was very manipulative about it #to ensure that bane does not share his dominion #but then he falls in love lmao sucker #he still very much respects their relationship as god/chosen #but hes like spiteful of it as father and son #hateful wretch!!! #he'll never come between a chosen and a god afterall theyre all servants to their lord but OUGUHHGG him being selfish and doing this #im sick

[moodyseal]

Meg and Apollo tarot card designs for @ferodactyl <3 I'm not an expert when it comes to tarot cards (this was actually the first time I looked into the full deck) but hopefully I got it right!

The explanation of the cards' symbolism is under the cut because it's a bit lengthy oof

Meg's card is the Knight of Swords, one of the minor Arcana, I think? Upright, the Knight of Swords refers to a person who is action-oriented, determined and unstoppable in what they set their mind to; however, when it's reversed the card also indicates a person who might be blind to the consequences of their actions and charges into things without having fully considered their options. Meg's choices throughout TOA point to her being exactly this sort of person: while her determination and lack of hesitation were exactly what was needed to balance out Apollo's occasional self-doubt, her impulsiveness was also what got them both into trouble multiple times. The fact that, eventually, she learned how to rely on others and slow down when needed goes hand in hand with the warning this card poses.

Apollo's card is instead one of the Major Arcana, and it's Death. The Death card is a symbol of change: it indicates a time of transition and new beginnings that are sometimes unexpected and difficult, but still necessary. Reversed, the card indicates that the person is resisting that change, and unwilling to let go of the past, which makes the journey all the more painful as the transformation that they're going through is inevitable and cannot be reversed. One of the major points in Apollo's character arc, and the biggest change he goes through, is the transition from the god he used to be to the one he would be in the future. It's a slow change, and one he didn't fully lean into at first—after all, if he chose to give up all that he had been up until then, what would he have left? However, ironically enough, death is exactly what set things in motion, and let him finally shed away his past beliefs to embrace his new sense of self.

#i would've chosen the sun for apollo but it seemed a bit uh. cliché i guess? #another option was the hanged man actually #but i liked the little joke about there being a lot of death in his life LMAO #trials of apollo #percy jackson #toa #pjo #apollo #lester papadopoulos #meg mccaffrey #my art #lonely thoughts

[rosetterer]

just a reminder that this is how tommy looks at buck...

#911 abc #bucktommy #evan buckley #tevan #kinkley #911 #tommy kinard #we have got to settle on a shipname #i do feel like bucktommy has kind of been chosen already though #still like tevan #im such a fan of buck being happy like this #SOFT

[kagoutiss]

din’s champion

#tloz #ocarina of time #oot #ganondorf #din #um #ganondin #…..does anyone here ship them ha. hahaha #i mean their whole thing is funny actually because she didnt even choose him but he managed to steal her triforce and #so then hes her ‘chosen’ by technicality. but with her virtue being power it’s maybe kinda one and the same #and anyway beyond that ​point i feel like she loves shaking him around like a mortal dog toy #but like in some way she also must have believed in him enough to give him Power in a different lifetime. so he’d survive his own execution #i;m just saying there is so much you can interpret about their relationship. despite her being #literally an unseen 4th dimensional being who is the embodiment of power and fire and change amd earth itself etc #like what do they think of each other. what does she think of this tiny mortal who somehow stole a piece of her and now theyre bound by it #take my hand walk w me thru mortal x god hyperdimensional traumatic power imbalance situationship. and youre both girls

[slavonicrhapsody]

Ranni has every reason to hate Marika. She is the figurehead of an order that has caused her and her family so much misery… and yet, in the Age of the Stars ending cutscene, Ranni holds Marika’s head with such gentleness. It feels less like Ranni is putting down a tyrant, and more like she’s laying her to rest, after many long years of torment. 

Ranni could have been Marika’s successor, but she rejected the guidance of the Two Fingers, slaying her own flesh in order to be rid of their influence: 

“But I would not acquiesce to the Two Fingers. I stole the Rune of Death, slew mine own Empyrean flesh, casting it away. I would not be controlled by that thing.”

Ranni goes to such drastic lengths because the most intolerable thing possible to her is to be a pawn; her will not being her own, but being at the mercy of a higher power. Ranni’s quest is above all about free will – it culminates with Ranni using the Fingerslayer Blade to tear her Two Fingers into bloody ribbons, at long last giving her full control over her own destiny.

Marika in the present day is a prisoner held in perpetual torment. According to Enia and the Two Fingers,

"Queen Marika is the vessel of the Elden Ring, carrier of its vision. A god, in truth. But after the Elden Ring's shattering, she was imprisoned in the Erdtree. A grim punishment for shattering the Order, despite her godhood. The Fingers speak... "Marika's trespass demanded a heavy sentence. But even in shackles, she remains a god, and the vision's vessel.”

Marika shattered the Order, going against the will of the Two Fingers, and was punished for it gravely. In many ways, Marika’s fate is Ranni’s absolute worst nightmare. This is exactly the fate she took such drastic lengths to escape… serving a higher power with her entire being, her will not her own, but the will of the Fingers, with any attempt at change met with violent suppression, her body essentially being used as a puppet to defend the last vestiges of the Order.

“I would not be controlled by that thing.”

I think that Ranni, seeing Marika’s broken body at the end of it all, felt nothing but pity for her in that moment, despite everything she’d done. To me, the act of Ranni holding Marika’s head in her hands feels like she’s saying, “you were my enemy. But there is no worse fate in this world than what you suffered. Now, you can be truly free."

#elden ring #marika #ranni #ranni the witch #queen marika the eternal #thee mother-daughter relationship that wasn't!!! #also the parallel that the fingers will us to become marika’s consort as elden lord #whereas we choose to become ranni’s consort though she tries to warn people away with her message on the ring #also also ranni being fated to become marika’s successor but she instead follows in the footsteps of rennala #rejecting her godly mother’s destiny in favor of the traditions of her ‘chosen’ mother #there's just so muchhhh #ranni's pause while she's cradling marika's head towards her chest makes me feel something

[apprentice-s]

the red paladins of voltron x

#lance mcclain #keith kogane #klance #vld keith #vld lance #vld #c-t art only #THEY SHOULD HAVE CHANGED OUTFITS !!!!!!! #the inherent romanticism of being chosen by the pickiest lion #also the SWIRDS? #I’m a black paladin lance believer but I have to admit #red suits him (in more ways than one)

[johnconn]

Nothing would be greater than mori choosing dazai to rejoin the mafia expecting the demon prodigy to be back but its just him in his ada coat and personality simultaneously doing nothing and fucking things up for everyone

#i feel like chances of atsushi being chosen to join the mafia are higher #for one mori might want dazai back but he's not stupid enough to think dazai will not come without his own set of agendas #and atsushi being in the mafia would give sskk a chance to truly be partners #and for atsushi and us to observe the mafia from the inside #skk #sskk #sokouku #shin soukoku #bsd #bungou stray dogs #bsd dazai

[inkskinned]

hello! are there any updates on the book, date, where to buy etc ? can't wait, I love your work ! ♥️

it's yours in september :)

click thru below to see what i look like w/long hair. it's short now, but my heart is bigger.

so many things to talk about this. when there's a link to purchase, i'll talk more but - all i can say now is that i am so grateful for each of you. for every single note and comment and thought. i can't wait to share this part of my life.

this is easily the best thing i've ever written. bar none. i want to give it to you so, so badly.

my life has been more bright for having you each in it. i am keeping you like stars in my heart.

#sorry about it being my human face #i am sorry i am not a red panda #my brother chose that icon when i first started and i liked it and it became like... my thing #i felt bad changing it. he was so proud to have chosen it #and every time i post my human face ppl are like “WAIT WHAT UR NOT A PANDA??” #and im like. i am not ALWAYS a panda. #also love when ppl are like -- oh no she's hot :/

[katebeckets]

Emily’s Follower Appreciation Event 🌷 ⤷ 🎨  kevin ryan & javier esposito + primary colors

for the last time, I am not jealous that you passed the sergeant's exam. tell that to the hole in my ass.

for @lovofmylife ♡

#fae #my gifs #em.castle #javier esposito #kevin ryan #tw flashing gif #usersmash #userannalise #userlolo #userelliee #usermaria #usersole #useremsi #tuserkers #singinprincess #tuserleah #userairi #crimeshowsource #castleedit #castle #jfaljf;ia i love them so much omg #i probably should've chosen secondary colors but i liked primary better #(secondary for the sake of coloring gifs since yellow and red are so heavily featured in skin tones) #anyway this is also how i discovered a youtube video of them being gay LOL

[fluffyartbl0g]

Someone get this man a younger sibling that ISNT like. Twice his height.

#one piece #op fanart #monkey d. luffy #shirahoshi #kozuki momonosuke #IVE FINISHED REREADING THROUGH WANO IM OBSESSED WITH MOMONOSUKE NOW #I LOVE HIM SO MUCH AND I MISS HIM SO MUCH T - T!!!! #literally tears streaming down my face ‘But I think of you like a little brother! #You’ve heard of laser beam that make you read one piece #get ready for laser beam that makes you REREAD one piece #srsly. do it. I didn’t care about characters like bellamy or shirahoshi or even momonosuke all that much on my first read through #IM OBSESSED NOW. I LOVE HARUDJIN THE GIANT TOO AND I CANT WAIT TO SEE MORE OF HIM T - T!!! I ALSO DIDNT CARE ABOUT KATAKURI LIKE AT ALL #NOW I CANT GET ENOUGH #also what the actual heck guys. I know its only been a couple of months since wano ended. #but why aren’t there any fics centred on luffy and momo being brothers… There’s like one on ao3 and it’s in italian… #PEOPLE ARE ACTUALLY SLEEPING SO HARD ON LUFFY BEING THE OLDER BROTHER/MENTOR TO BOTH MOMO AND SHIRAHOSHI #IM SO MAD #SHIRAHOSHI AND MOMO ARE BOTH THE CHOSEN ONES ; - ;!!! AND LUFFY HAS BEEN PROHPESIZED TO HELP GUIDE THEM TO USE THEIR POWERS!!! #eg shirahoshi hearing the voices of the sea kings and momo hearing zunesha #both times luffy hasn’t been able to talk to them… but he’s been able to guide his younger siblings to use their powers properly #No im fr obsessed with luffy and shirahoshi and momo WHERE THE GOD DAMN FANFICTION AAAGFRGEHSHHSHSHS #LUFFY TREATING SHIRAHOSHI AND MOMO THE SAME WAY ACE TREATED HIM WHEN HE WAS YOUNGER T - T #KILL ME AAAAA1!!1!1!1!!1!1!1 #99 percent of all tags on my posts are just me freaking out LMAOOOO