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tomishaped · 3 years
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Rating:
Explicit
Archive Warnings:
Graphic Depictions Of Violence • Major Character Death
Category:
M/M
Fandom:
Supernatural
Relationship:
Dean Winchester!Izzy Hlton
Characters:
Dean Winchester • Izzy Hilton • Sam Winchester • Asmodeus • Dagon • Demons • Hellhound • Ellen Harvelle • Jo Harvelle • Hunters • Crowley • Charlie Bradbury • Bobby Singer • Ruby • Death • Pestilence • Famine • War • Castiel • Angels • Cain
Additional Tags:
Demon Dean Winchester • Demon Sex • Kidnapping • Gay Sex • Blood • Blood Kink • Hate Sex • Love/Hate • Major Character Injury • Major Original Character(s) • Character Death • Past Child Abuse • Past Rape/Non-con • Past Sexual Abuse • Past Torture • Past Violence • Canon-Typical Violence • Violence • Protective Dean Winchester • Bisexual Dean Winchester • Top Dean Winchester • Dean Winchester is Bad at Feelings • Izzy is too • Emotional Hurt/Comfort • Emotional/Psychological Abuse
Summary: After being pulled out of hell Dean realizes quickly that the four months he had been gone made way for a lot of changes in the lives of everyone he knows, including the life he had known for himself before he died. Nobody was treating him the same, and there was seriously something going on with his brother that he could not figure out. He was spending most of his time alone nowadays, not really hunting anymore since Bobby and Sam were against it for him, and spending most of his time drinking instead to try and forget. He was angry, pretty much all the time. That anger really worked in his favour though when walking back to the impala he came across a freaking hoard of demons getting ready to attack some blond chick. He didn't know who she was or what the hell all the demons wanted with her, but there was no way he could just walk away. Maybe if he had any idea what trying to save this person was going to lead too he would have just walked away, maybe if he had actually given any thought to the situation before him he wouldn't have put himself in the middle of it, but even before hell he made impulsive and rash decisions... so maybe not.
Previous Chapters:
• Chapter One • Chapter Two: Part One •
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Chapter Two: Welcome to the Batcave
Part Two
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Izzy watched the other actually curious for a moment to see if he would finally catch what he said. Aaaand, there it was! He had to give the hunter some props, he was taking the fact that he mistaked Izzy for a girl better than he could remember anyone else had. Demons especially hated him for it. Not for the same reasons that humans seemed too, most demons really didn't care what your fucking gender was as they body hopped so often, what they didn't like was that someone so small, sweet, and innocent looking was actually a deadly assassin sent by a prince of hell. And worse, he was good at it. Izzy looked away from him again and back at the book he was holding when Dean started to talk, crossing one leg over the other as he started to look through the book. "If the idiots would just abandon their stupid plans of trying to break Lucifer from the cage I would just leave them alone," Izzy muttered as most of his attention was back to the book in his hands, not realizing he even said it out loud or knowing if Dean had heard about what this specific group of hellions were planning. "I wouldn't count too much on actually finding one, I've only ever found info on one and I can't find that fucker for the life of me. I've never not found a mark before him, it was actually really frustrating…" he said, talking more naturally and easily than he had before with most of his attention focused on something else. He could feel his heart racing as he read through the pages. The first few were just about Cain. How he had become a demon. That was actually interesting even if none of what he was learning would help him track the mother fucker. Cain was the only demon specifically named though. After the chapter on him, the book went on to explain how because of him it had become possible for a human to turn. And what had to happen to said human for something like that to happen and Izzy found that for the first time that he could remember, he was grateful for something. He was really fucking grateful that he couldn't remember being human. Because this shit sucked. 
Dean relaxed his shoulders when the other didn’t point out how obviously awkward his mistake was. It must have happened quite a bit and it was obvious as to why. Though he didn’t dwell on it for too long after catching Izzy mutter under his breath. So Izzy knew about Lucifer and over half of Hell’s plans to free him. Not too many hunters really knew what was going on, just that demons had been kicking up a shit storm lately. He crossed his arms over his chest as he leaned against the table Izzy was sitting on. He raised a brow when Izzy said he’d only found one and he couldn’t track him. “A mark?” He asked, not following him. “Do you think they could make more demons like that? I have a feeling they’d be a bitch in a fight.”
"Not a mark, my marks. Whatever demon I'm hunting at the time," Dean really did get kind of lucky that Izzy had found this book if he wanted to ask questions. The lithe demon was only half paying attention to whatever he was saying, basically only enough to make sure he didn't let the fact that he was one of these demons slip out. "Though he does actually have a mark that turned him in the first place. Didn't know that." Izzy nodded without hesitation at the other males next question though, "Definitely. Seriously time consuming and difficult, but not impossible. Looks like when it does happen, it's usually an accident. And they are definitely totally awesome in a fight. Stronger than a knight of hell but not quite as strong as a prince. And not easy to kill. Our knives won't kill one of them." The book didn't actually tell him that last part, he knew it from experience back when Asmodues was first training him. He had kinda lost his temper at the pretty little blond and actually fucking stabbed him with the same knife he now had hidden in his boot. All it did to the blond was piss him off though. It ruined the dress he was wearing and had left a nasty little scar in his side where he had been stabbed. "So unless you’re Cain with his first blade or have that Colt and bullets that you killed Azazel with, or yanno, a crazy person like me, I would avoid looking for one of them." He took in a deep breath as he slammed the book shut, trying to not let it be seen how incredibly fucking furious he was right now. Well, at least he knew why Asmodues was so keen on him not knowing how he turned. "So uh, yeah. Thanks for the info. Great fucking room ya got here. But I gotta go find a certain prince and tear his fucking head off somehow," Izzy said, his voice showing he obviously was not happy with what he just read if his words didn't give that part away. He was caring less and less about whatever fucking cover he was supposed to be playing here. He couldn't fully remember right now what he had let on that he knew about the man in the room with him but he no longer really cared. He pushed himself down from the table and went to move past Dean, "Nice to meet ya and all that shit and like, thanks for the help…" he paused for a moment to look at the hunter again, fuck it. Dean gave him access to the information he so desperately wanted, he figured he could return the favour with some info that Dean probably actually needed, "By the way, you really should probably get your brother away from Ruby because bitch has him all fucked up, pretty sure that people shouldn't actually be drinking demon blood the way he is. Pretty fucked up. So yeah. Gotta go." 
“Oh they sound great,” Dean said when Izzy confirmed that more could be made this way. “Oh yea, awesome,” He shot back when Izzy went on about them and described them that way and mentioned that the knives were worthless against them. The only good thing that was mentioned was that apparently they were only ever made on accident and there were no rumored army’s full of them. He had noticed the others snapping of the book and the anger rolling off of him, clearly having read something he didn’t like. “Oh yea that sounds like a feasible plan, how do you plan on getting in Hel-?” He was cut off by the other male thanking him for the help. “Wait.” He said, not wanting the other to run off and get killed while half cocked. He didn’t get a chance to say anything else because what Izzy said after that shut him right up. “Wait, what the hell are you talking about?” He asked, his voice showing his own rising anger. “And how the hell do you know who he’s with?” He asked him. This ment Izzy knew who they were before he ran into him tonight. He started reaching for his pistol in a back holster without thinking much about it. “Who are you?” He asked, taking a step back and raising the fire arm.
Izzy rolled his eyes as Dean called after him when he turned and started to walk to the bunkers exit. If he did leave here right now, he really would go straight to the youngest prince and try and kill the fucker somehow. "Oh come on Dean, you're pretty and reckless but I didn't peg you for being stupid. I hunt demons. Ruby is a fucking demon. And your brother is running around with her. Do I really need to connect all the dots for you?" He stopped for a moment when he heard the click of the firearm and rolled his eyes again. Really? First time he ever tried to actually help someone else out and they pulled a gun on him. Not that Dean's pistol would actually hurt him, but he had been serious when he mentioned he liked this jacket. He didn't feel like throwing it out because of a bullet hole after he managed to actually keep it through the ambush.
He turned around and crossed his arms over his chest. "I was after her. I really can't fucking stand her. Unfortunately for me, your junkie brother was in the way and I couldn't get close enough without having to kill him first, and since I don't kill humans that wasn't exactly an option." He waved his hand at the pistole pointed at him, looking more annoyed that Dean was pointing it at him than anything else, "But I swear to fuck if you pull that trigger that'll change real fucking fast as I will slit your fucking throat." He wasn't reaching for the knife though, he wasn't scared of the gun and wouldn't pull it unless Dean actually did attack him first. After all, he didn't know the bullet wouldn't hurt him, he would definitely be trying to kill him and Izzy didn't take well to that happening. Threats were usually whatever, a dime a dozen when you did what he did, but actually trying to do it was another thing completely. "Now do you wanna play this game with me too or do you mind if I go now?"
Dean narrowed his eyes when Izzy said he hunted demons. He didn’t say anything for a minute after Izzy said all that and threatened retaliation by cutting his throat. His jaw was tense but he eased the hammer back and lowered his gun. He didn’t like anything he had said. He just knew Izzy was keeping something from him but… he was telling the truth about his brother and Dean hated it. He kept his hard eyes on the blond as he put his gun back in his holster and he pulled out a small piece of paper from his back pocket and grabbed a forgotten pen on the table. He didn't say anything as he quickly jotted something down, folded it and handed it to him. “In case you do something stupid like take on a prince of hell and want back up,” he said, his voice was quiet and calm. His reboiling rage wasn’t aimed at the blond any more so he tried to keep it from exploding on him. He had seen what he could do with that knife of his.
The anger at the hunter seemed to dissipate when he withdrew his weapon and put it back in the holster. Smart move, because the little demon had been deadly fucking serious about retaliation if he tried to shoot him. When Dean handed him that paper and said that, Izzy couldn't stop the confused look that crossed his face. Seriously? We both just threatened to kill the other and Dean was offering to back him up again a second later? What the fuck went on in human fucking heads? He really didn't understand them at all. Especially this one. And this happened to be the first one he spent any length of time with. "Right. Not gonna happen, but thanks? The backup thing. The prince thing is totally happening." After nearly sixty years around Asmodeus, Izzy didn't hold any fear of him. The prince needed Izzy and they both knew it. Besides, that was a long time to spend with anyone, and since the prince had wanted Izzy a secret until he was ready he had been the one Izzy trained with most often before he started throwing demon chum his way to practice with. Izzy knew that mans every fucking move.
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enax-comics · 3 years
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• who needs glasses •
• got the purple pattern online so not mine. bored one day and didn’t know what to draw. so i drew my self bored one day not knowing what to draw •
• one of Erin’s many self portrait styles •
• all art by Erin Novak • • @apotaterwithglasses •
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enacomics-blog · 6 years
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a little about enacomics
I'm so excited about this project that I have decided to post a little bit about it. So Erin Novak ( main tumblr: @bibbitybobbitybitch10 ) and I, Erin Jackman ( main tumblr: @tomishaped ), have decided to collaborate together on a Comic Strip. Something we have wanted to do for years but have never found the right idea to work with until now. This comic strip is going to be set in the Harry Potter universe and is based off of the list 522 Things I am Not Allowed to do at Hogwarts. Which is also the title of the Comic right now unless we come up with something better. ( If you have an idea that you think is better or we might like suggestions are welcome to send it in. ) If you haven't read the list before you can find it here: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1qH1lBqxr96_fnup0cg76RO9RshycRNZyAabOtH1eChg/edit?usp=drivesdk Erin is obviously the artist, as she is absolutely fantastic. And I am going to actually write it. Whenever we do finally start posting it online, which is gonna be awhile still since we have the write the script and design all the characters and background settings, and actually draw the comic we will be posting under the name EnaComics. Hence the name of our tumblr. But with all the work we still have to do it won't be ready for some time. While the actually Harry Potter characters are going to be in the comic, the storylines main characters are going to be OCs. For those of you who don't know what an OC is, it means original character. Slytherin Elladora Jones; nicknamed El, and Hufflepuff Eunice Notts; nicknamed Puffy. Until we are able to start posting the actual comic, we will be posting updates, little fun facts, and information about 522Things. So follow our page now to keep up to date on the progress and eventually to be able to read the comic itself! It's going to funny as all hell and absolutely amazing. ~EJ
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tomishapedx · 6 years
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My Roleplay Character
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Izzy Hilton:
a sassy, fun loving, crazy, sweet, sometimes bitchy, strong willed boy.
a crossdresser
a bottom
aka uke
FaceClaim: Luna Lovebad
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thexpoetryxcorner · 6 years
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Never
You never see, you never know
You never know, you never feel
You never feel, you never love
You never love, you never live
Never die, you'll always cry
Always cry and never care
Always wishing to be there
by:
Erin Jackman
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rpmatchmaker · 4 years
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Hey there, y'all can me Tomi. ( Toe-Me is how its pronounced ). Looking for someone to play Dean Winchester in a M/M Supernatural RP against my OC Izrael. I have an idea in place and actually a bit of a start explaining my OC and ending in the perfect place for Dean to be able to show up. 
I'm a literate writer, and prefer to play with others who are as well. Someone who will give at the very least one GOOD paragraph. Not just one or two sentences. That just makes it no fun. I have been playing myself for 12+ years, and have some examples of my writing if you would like to see it. Other than being a literate RPer, my only other requirement for my partner is that they be 18 or older as I am over 18 and I don't want any trouble.
So in this line there would definitely be spoilers if you haven't seen at least up to like season 13. And I fucked with the timeline a little, mostly when certain characters are introduced and when the boys get the bunker. The line takes place during Sam's demon blood drinking phase while trying to keep Lucifer from escaping the cage, but they do already have the bunker.
This is Izrael: 
https://i.imgur.com/8AJASvC.png
https://i.imgur.com/PAisQRT.jpg
https://i.imgur.com/KZFTDd6.jpg
He is a crossdresser, not transgendered, though is oh so very aware he does look like a girl and doesn't get too pissed off when he is mistaken for one. It annoys him, makes him hate humans more and more for being closed minded that a boy can't be pretty too and that they're weird when they are. But because of what he is, he doesn't really like humans anyways.
The start/background info on Izrael: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1zmrSe4b7JrOo8gUYIKFbmhNNk0dN-ZBxssi3gdJ4_Aw/edit?usp=drivesdk
I like to play on either GoogleDocs or through E-Mail only. 
So message me in one of these two places:
Tumblr: tomishaped
I check my e-mail much more often than the tumblr messages though since I get notifications on my phone for those. 
Hope to hear from some people!
~Tomi
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tomishapedxx · 4 years
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Hey there, y'all can me Erin. Looking for someone to play Dean Winchester in a M/M Supernatural RP against my OC Izrael. I have an idea in place and actually a bit of a start explaining my OC and ending in the perfect place for Dean to be able to show up. 
I'm a literate writer, and prefer to play with others who are as well. Someone who will give at the very least one GOOD paragraph. Not just one or two sentences. That just makes it no fun. I have been playing myself for 12+ years, and have some examples of my writing if you would like to see it. Other than being a literate RPer, my only other requirement for my partner is that they be 18 or older as I am over 18 and I don't want any trouble.
So in this line there would definitely be spoilers if you haven't seen at least up to like season 13. And I fucked with the timeline a little, mostly when certain characters are introduced and when the boys get the bunker. The line takes place during Sam's demon blood drinking phase while trying to keep Lucifer from escaping the cage, but they do already have the bunker.
This is Izrael, the Character I am oh so desperate to play right now.
https://i.imgur.com/8AJASvC.png 
https://i.imgur.com/PAisQRT.jpg
https://i.imgur.com/KZFTDd6.jpg 
He is a crossdresser, not transgendered, though is oh so very aware he does look like a girl and doesn't get too pissed off when he is mistaken for one. It annoys him, makes him hate humans more and more for being closed minded that a boy can't be pretty too and that they're weird when they are. But because of what he is, he doesn't really like humans anyways.
The start/background info on Izrael: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1zmrSe4b7JrOo8gUYIKFbmhNNk0dN-ZBxssi3gdJ4_Aw/edit?usp=drivesdk
Now, that's just the idea that I have thought out. But really, what I really, really wanna do is play my Izzy is some way against Dean Winchester. If you're cool with playing Dean Winchester against my Crossdressing Izzy in some way then I'm still totally intrested. I have different ways I've played Izzy in the writing examples below, but I seriously have used Izzy for so long that I have learned to be able to find a way to twist him into so many different kinds of lines. I've lost count of how many versions of Izzy that exist inside of my head anymore lol.
Of you're not into playing Dean, I am open to other ideas as long as i get to play some version of my Izzy.
I like to play on either GoogleDocs or through E-Mail only. 
So message me in one of these two places:
Tumblr: tomishapedxx
I check my e-mail much more often than the other messages though since I get notifications on my phone for those. 
Hope to hear from some people!
~Erin
A few writing examples of intered:
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1op8Df3iMoAynyjIBnuWpZ4Q9OpzQJVjAuC1qkLoADaA/edit?usp=drivesdk
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1I9n6SH3c9Uc3XuobQEC-iqwmGCiuxVfMeSe4xJxhvKs/edit?usp=drivesdk
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1tiRE8nov6qV4dY5gihbaqUrZdxSh51_BCAtSmYLZs88/edit?usp=drivesdk
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blowxxtomishaped · 7 years
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Izzy's Character Sheet
Just in case you’re interested.
Basic Statistics:
name: Israel “Izzy” Felix Hartmann
birthdate: December 12th
age @ beginning: 17
nationality: German / French
hometown: Munich
currently lives: Chicago
occupation: school
income: not a clue (IE: Daddy’s Money)
talents: is very artistic. A skilled artist and writer. A fantastic dancer.
relationship skills: Izzy can have a conversation with anyone about something or another with just about anyone. That isn’t to say that his conversations don’t get heated, they often do. Izzy has no problem talking. Getting close to people though? It happened far and few between and sadly all too rarely in his life.
Immeadant Family:
mother: Adalyn Macy Martin Hartmann
father: Dominick Felix Hartmann
brother(s): Dominick Alexander Hartmann - 38 - half brother
sister(s): n/a
spouse: n/a
children: “Oh gods, never!”
Physical Characteristics:
height: 5’5
weight: >100lbs
race: caucasian
eyes: right blue, left green
hair: natural soft light blond curls
how does Izzy dress?: Izzy wears clothes that are typically meant for girls. Dresses, skirts… heals and makeup- he loves the whole shebang! He’s a crossdresser, not Transgender like so many people think upon finding out he’s actually a boy.
mannerisms: Pulls hair and/or bites lip when nervous. When he’s around people he always tries to seem upbeat and happy. Showing any other emotion made people ask questions. What’s wrong? Nothing. Are you okay? Perfectly fine. Tell me what’s made you so sad. Who the hell talks like that?  I’m here for you. No, you’re hearing trying to sleep with me. The higher he is and the higher his emotions are running the more animatedly he talks.
bad habits: smokes cigarettes and pot. Heavy coke user. Rarely drinks, prefers being high over drunk.
health: physically- too thin mentally- bipolar
hobbies: writing and drawing his comic books. Working on a hard novel based off the comics and paintings/sketches/etc. Still takes dance four times a week to keep up and stay in as good of shape as the high on can be in.
quote from Izzy: “Jesus christ I’m not a girl! I don’t feel like I’m in the wrong body, and I in no way want to actually be a girl. I just like the clothes so much more. And shoes. And makeup. Girls have better shit, boys need to step their game up or do something that should be so much easier and simply start accepting people like me.”
favourite quote: “Crazy people are considered mad by the rest of the society only because their intelligence isn’t understood.” - Zhou Weihui
disability: n/a
style: whatever he feels like that day. Elegant. Flashy. Fun. Cute. Simple. Stylish. Outgoing. Shy. Sexy.
glasses: no
biggest flaw: is addicted to cocaine.
best qualities: if one really would just let Izzy be Izzy and accept the kid as is they would see them. Izzy is really a sweetheart, rather smart, and when he lets himself be and isn’t putting up a guard to keep people from hurting him Izzy is fun.
Intellectual / Mental / Personality Atributes:
educational background: graduated in the top of his class a year early, he just had to get out of school and studied his ass off for weeks to be able to do it. Opted out of college.
IQ: 139
short term goals: to be himself, to really be happy.
how does Izzy see himself?: As a drug addicted cross dressing teenager.
how does Izzy believe he is perceived by others?: by the people he hangs out with: As a drug addicted cross dressing teenager. The rest of the world: As a cross dressing teenager. That’s exactly what showed, no one’s perceptions of him should be any different than how he sees himself.
how self confident is Izzy?: confidence completely oozes from Izzy when he’s out in the open. Said confidence has gotten him in trouble plenty of times though, like when stupid ex football players find out they just hit on city freak in a dress.
does Izzy seem ruled by his emotions?: very much so. Izzy has a hard time thinking logically before opening his stupid mouth. So much of what Izzy says and does is done in the heat of the moment.
what would most embarrass Izzy?: if people found out some of the things he believed to be true about himself, finding out the all confident Izzy isn’t so perfect. Example: He thinks he is unlovable.
Emotional Characteristics:
strengths: loves the unlovable. Not afraid to be who he is inside. That doesn’t mean everyone deserves to see all of him.
weaknesses: coke, and shoes. He has a closet just for his shoes. He’s nearly as addicted to them as he is to the drug.
introvert / extrovert: although he keeps his guard up, Izzy is very much extroverted. He is open with the world about who he wants to be, for the most part at least. Due to a deal with his father he had to stay out of the media so he does have to keep it reigned in.
how does Izzy deal with…
         anger?: not well, the teenager is quick to anger. And isn’t very good and holding back his tongue when he’s pissed. When someone makes him snap, the little spitfire will actually throw punches. Thanks to years and years of dance he did have some strength.
         sadness?: he doesn’t deal with it. At all. Ever. He just does more drugs, puts himself in a world far away from whatever upset him.
         conflict?: avoids it if at all possible, he has enough conflict in his life without actively seeking out more. Conflict eats at him, he doesn’t really know how he’s supposed to deal with it.
         change?: really well. Izzy is usually pretty good at just going with the flow. He’s good at accepting what life throws at him and trying to do something with it, even if that something isn’t necessarily a good thing or even a good idea in the first place.
         loss?: not well. His family spends most of the time trying to forget that he’s a part of it and that left Izzy starved for attention growing up. It also left him alone, not even school offered much solace- kids are fucking mean. When he finally makes real friends, real people he actually gives a shit about and who gave a shit about him even just the thought of losing them makes his chest ache.
what does Izzy want out of life?: so simple it’s almost sad. He just wants to be truly happy and loved. He would also love for everyone to know who he is because of his comics / paintings / book. But happy and loved more.
what would Izzy like to change about life?: change how people see him, would make the world just accept him and treat him like everyone else.
what makes Izzy happy?: positive reinforcements, compliments. And coke. You can’t help but to just smile when you’re mind is racing a mile a minute and bad ideas suddenly sound like a lot of fun now.
is Izzy judgemental of others?: not in the least bit.
is Izzy generous or stingy?: He has never had to work for anything that could be bought, but it didn’t turn him into a stingy spoiled brat. If you’re someone he cares about, or at least not somebody he hates, than Izzy has little to no problem sharing anything- except his shoes. He’ll share his coke ten times over before he’ll give up his shoes. “Don’t give me that look. These are vintage prada heels, only a hundred pairs were made!”
is Izzy generally polite or rude? He tries to be polite. He can’t expect people to be civil with him if he’s not with them, right? But once one starts throwing smack in any form his way all bets are off, much of what he says than would probably be considered rude.
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new-poets-society · 6 years
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Yuour Perfect Little Girl
Your perfect little girl dropped a grade on her report card Your perfect little girl yelled at you last night Your perfect little girl talked back to you again Your perfect little girl turned out all the lights
Your perfect little girl painted her nails black Your perfect little girl cries herself to sleep Your perfect little girl slit her wrist until she bled Your perfect little girl made promises she could not keep
Your perfect little girl kissed another girl Your perfect little girl was broken by a boy Your perfect little girl doesn’t go to church Your perfect little girl was told that she’s a toy
Your perfect little girl hates the things you do Your perfect little girl had a bad day today Your perfect little girl has given up on life Your perfect little girl wants to run away
Your perfect little girl thinks she overweight Your perfect little girl won’t let you dry her tears Your perfect little girl won’t listen to your word Your perfect little girl no longer hides her fears
Your perfect little girl is no longer happy Your perfect little girl hates the world she lives in Your perfect little girl tried to commit suicide Your perfect little girl has deep cuts along her skin
Your perfect little girl stays out a bit too late Your perfect little girl has been called a whore Your perfect little girl has become a disgrace Your perfect little girl isn’t so perfect anymore
Erin Jackman tumblr: TomiShaped
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tomishaped · 3 years
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Rating:
Explicit
Archive Warnings:
Graphic Depictions Of Violence • Major Character Death
Category:
M/M
Fandom:
Supernatural
Relationship:
Dean Winchester!Izzy Hlton
Characters:
Dean Winchester • Izzy Hilton • Sam Winchester • Asmodeus • Dagon • Demons • Hellhound • Ellen Harvelle • Jo Harvelle • Hunters • Crowley • Charlie Bradbury • Bobby Singer • Ruby • Death • Pestilence • Famine • War • Castiel • Angels • Cain
Additional Tags:
Demon Dean Winchester • Demon Sex • Kidnapping • Gay Sex • Blood • Blood Kink • Hate Sex • Love/Hate • Major Character Injury • Major Original Character(s) • Character Death • Past Child Abuse • Past Rape/Non-con • Past Sexual Abuse • Past Torture • Past Violence • Canon-Typical Violence • Violence • Protective Dean Winchester • Bisexual Dean Winchester • Top Dean Winchester • Dean Winchester is Bad at Feelings • Izzy is too • Emotional Hurt/Comfort • Emotional/Psychological Abuse
Summary: After being pulled out of hell Dean realizes quickly that the four months he had been gone made way for a lot of changes in the lives of everyone he knows, including the life he had known for himself before he died. Nobody was treating him the same, and there was seriously something going on with his brother that he could not figure out. He was spending most of his time alone nowadays, not really hunting anymore since Bobby and Sam were against it for him, and spending most of his time drinking instead to try and forget. He was angry, pretty much all the time. That anger really worked in his favour though when walking back to the impala he came across a freaking hoard of demons getting ready to attack some blond chick. He didn't know who she was or what the hell all the demons wanted with her, but there was no way he could just walk away. Maybe if he had any idea what trying to save this person was going to lead too he would have just walked away, maybe if he had actually given any thought to the situation before him he wouldn't have put himself in the middle of it, but even before hell he made impulsive and rash decisions... so maybe not.
Previous Chapters
• Chapter One •
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Chapter Two: Welcome to the Batcave
Part One
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When they had reached the car Dean made quick work of the door locks and got them both inside before he punched it, only leaving squealing tires and smoke behind them as they took off. Dean didn’t start to relax till they were a mile or so away from the group of demons, still keeping an eye on the mirrors though just in case. “You really pissed someone off," he said with a grin as he glanced over at the other while he drove.
Izzy did manage to force himself to relax once they were in the car, though Dean still happened to look tense with the way he was looking out his mirrors for someone. Honestly, it probably helped the demon to relax with the fact that Izrael couldn't feel Dagon as close anymore. She was either losing interest or losing track of them for now, either way that worked for him. "Huh?" He was honestly confused at first when Dean said that, "Why would you think I pissed some- oh! Because of all that? Right. Yeah. They don't seem to fond of me, do they? I should probably stop crashing into their parties like that." 
Izrael shifted in the seat a little and rolled his eyes when he saw the man look out his mirrors again, "You can stop doing that now. We're fine, mommy lost us," he said with a shrug, leaning back in the seat again, trying to get comfortable. He was ready to get out of the Winchesters car now, and he would really like to do it without having to kill the hunter next to him in order to keep him from following or trying to track him. Even if he didn't have an issue with killing humans, he didn't know which way Dean's soul would go now and having it back in the pit after he killed him could possibly become… problematic. "So uh, yeah, you can just drop me off whenever now and can go get back too… whatever the hell you were doing before joining me at that lovely party tonight. I'm actually supposed to be at a different party right now anyways, so anywhere is good."
Dean snickered when the other said that they had crashed a few parties, it made sense. He did raise an eyebrow when he was told that the horde had backed off of them. Granted he hadn’t noticed any one but still, he never trusted demons to give up. “To be honest, I was out looking for a good time… guess I found it,” he said with a wicked grin, still feeling a bit of an adrenaline high from the fight and sprint to the car. “Rest of my evening is open if you want some back up,” he offered the blond. “Not saying you can’t handle yourself, I saw your moves back there but… twenty to one is a bit much,”  he said while giving him a bit of a doubtful side look. 
This is what Dean thought of as a good time? The human was either suicidal or crazy. Sure, Izzy did have fun doing shit like this too, but he was a demon- he was fucking crazy. "Mmm, yeah… it was a bit much till you showed up. Definitely would have ended up losing this jacket," Izrael laughed a little at Dean and shook his head, "See, I haven't gone and learned my lesson yet it seems since I'm definitely gonna be crashing one of their parties again. Gotta find it first though, and I can't do that in a strangers car."
Dean raised an eyebrow when the blond mentioned that they weren’t done yet and was looking to start a similar party to where he just found them. Ok sure he had been doing stupid stuff since he got back but he had an excuse. He was trying to repress what felt like forty years of Hell - literal Hell. So what was this kid's excuse? She might be crazy, but her crazy was also kinda hot and hunters like this don’t tend to stick in one place long because of the next big hunt. Besides, too often if they stayed in one place for long then all the enemies they made along the way had a tendency to catch up to them. “I can drop you off wherever your next party is so you don’t get jumped on the way again…” Dean trailed off a little as he drove, “could at least tell me your name before you get yourself killed.”
Izrael smiled at the hunter. "Why would I give someone I've never met in this life my name? Doesn't sound too smart. Besides, I don't see you passing over that information either."
Dean grinned. “Sorry, thought you picked it up before things got hairy. Names Dean, Dean Winchester," he said as he held a hand out to shake as he drove, glancing at the blond but mostly keeping his eyes on the road. “You know demons can’t keep their big mouths shut, if your next party is anything like that one, they’re going to be ready for you and you’re going to lose more than your jacket, sweetheart," he said in a matter of fact tone. “Might be a better idea to show up with back up and armed to the teeth,” he offered with a mischievous grin. “Lucky for you I know the perfect place.”
His excuse? His absolute only memories were of hell. Turning into a demon the way he had had wiped out all his human memories and the little demon only knew the last sixty years he had spent in hell training to do just this. He wasn't trying to repress hell, why repress when it was all he knew? He was just doing what Asmodues sent him off to do, and with the youngest prince of hell being the closest person to the blond and having nothing else to really do… he listened. He enjoyed killing other demons, it was a task he found fun. But when your job is to kill any demon that stands against the man you're working for, you don't exactly make any friends. And being alone only gave him more time to hunt down Asmodues's enemies. It was a vicious never ending cycle that wasn't going to change anytime soon as far as Izrael could tell. Hell either hated him, feared him, or admired him from afar - very afar. No one was brave enough to chance getting on Izzy's bad side. And those that were like the hoard tonight that actually tried to kill him were just too stupid to stay away and deserved to die anyways as far as he was concerned. 
Of course he knew who Dean was once he heard his name. But the hunter didn't need to know that Izrael had heard of him. He eyed the other’s hand for a moment before he sighed and half gave in to the man, though didn't reach his own hand out, "Izzy Hilton," he said, using the name that Asmodues had given him for when he had to pretend to be human. Though he had no idea that it actually was his name. That Asmodues called him Izrael to see if any of the once nineteen year old’s memories would spark with little clues like that. It never did. "They're always on the lookout for me… wouldn't be anything new…" he said with a little shrug, getting the gut feeling that this hunter was not about to let him go off on his own anytime soon. The last thing the little demon needed was to do spend time with a fucking Wincester, especially the one that spent all that time in hell. "No offense, but I don't really work with others. Thanks for the help back there and everything, but you're Dean Winchester… so you and I working together is a bad idea. Trust me."
With both hands back on the wheel, Dean snorted when Izzy said that demons watching out was nothing new. He understood that, that's what made the Bunker so beautiful. It was the definition of a safe house for spooky shit and basically everything else. He sucked some air between his teeth when it seemed the other knew who he was by name, having heard some of the stuff hunters thought of him while he was putting in time at the Roadhouse. “Fair, I mean we did just meet and I also just saved your ass from a fucking gaggle of demons, but okay,” he said, half joking. “We don’t know each other, and inviting you to my secret Men of Letters bunker can seem a little Silence of the Lambs but I promise, imma damn puppy dog compared to your normal party guests,” he said,.  Ane yes, he did just name drop the Men of Letters to see if that helped his case. Dean wasn’t a creep and if Izzy wanted out he’d drop them off wherever they wanted but all horn-dog habits aside, he wouldn’t rest well if he did. He’d probably end up asking around and looking into this pretty Izzy Hilton to see what her story was about. “Again, I know bunker can be off putting, but this place is huge, over twenty bedrooms to pick from. It’s armed to the teeth so nothing is getting in. I have one of the few keys to get in but you can get out whenever you like,” he added, trying to seem a little less kidnappy and rapey. “That and there's a hundred year old whiskey collection.”
Izzy had absolutely zero ideas of what other hunters thought of the man he was currently sitting next too. Up until now, he had done a really good job at avoiding them in his travels and work. Sure, to be on the safe side he did do some research on hunters who seemed to be the biggest threats but until now he hadn't actually met any of them. So, right now he couldn't figure out if it was just bad fucking luck that Dean Winchester happened to walk in on his ambush, or some weird good luck to get him out of it unharmed. Even after over fifty years as a demon, almost sixty now maybe? He honestly had never actually hurt a human. So did he deserve this kind of bad luck? On the other hand though, can demons actually have good luck? It was really confusing. 
Fact was, Izzy only knew of Dean Winchester from the mouths of other demons. His research on hunters in general was by word of mouth in hell. It wasn't like there were any books he could read on them. So he knew the man was obviously a good hunter, and not just when it came to demons. He knew the idiot sold his soul to save that dumbass brother of his that was hanging around one of the main demons on his own hit list. It was just really hard to get to the bitch when she was being protected by the hunter drinking demon blood. He only knew that from actually running across her once, he could fucking smell the demon blood radiating from the human she was with and it didn't take long to figure out who that human was and what fucking Ruby was doing with him. Little Sammy Winchester. Lovely. He also knew the man next to him spent what was like forty years in hell, being tortured for most of them by fucking Alastair. It had come as a surprise when he heard that there was some sort of angel watching out for him. Well, the angel part wasn't really known when he figured it out. It was just known that the man was pulled out of hell and Izrael knew that an Angel was the only way the man could have escaped hell and returned to his body the way he had. And really, he would prefer to avoid angels. Most demons weren't really that much of a threat to him. They could likely hurt him but Izzy was not easy to actually kill. Not that they had quite figured that out yet. But he had no idea what an angel might be able to do to him. 
Izrael couldn't remember his own torture. He actually had no idea it even happened. Ever since the day Asmodues found his newly turned demon in that cage he kept his pet in, the youngest prince acted as though that was the first day of Izzy's life. He didn't even know that he was in that cage because of that man in the first place. "I'm not afraid of you, Dean, even though I'm pretty damn sure you're no puppy dog," Izzy told him with a little roll of his eyes, the man who had spent his last few years in hell torturing other souls was far from a puppy. But he had caught Izzy's attention mentioning the Men of Letters. He vaguely remembered Asmodues mentioning them decades ago. Something about them being all dead now… about them holding knowledge no one else had. Going to this bunker… could prove useful if the knowledge thing was true.
Izzy finally looked over at Dean again, tucking hair behind his ears, "Well whiskey is always a very good and tempting offer," he said, chewing on his lip a little as he thought it over. "If you're all armed like you say you are… Do you also have books and shit? Like, books on demons and shit." Izzy knew he had been turned differently than almost every other demon that existed, he had to have been to have his own body and no ability whatsoever to jump from one meatsuit to the next, but he had no idea what happened to make him this way. And no book he had found since being set loose on the world had been able to give him the answer he was looking for. If this bunker had hidden knowledge it might be his best bet to find out how he turned, because Asmodues wasn't telling him anytime soon. "And I really wouldn't have to just stay if I don't want to. I can just walk out? Seriously?"
Dean just grinned when the other said he was pretty sure he wasn’t a puppy, calling him out like that. And he believed them when they said that they weren’t scared of him, he did find her in the middle of a demon infested alleyway in the middle of the night. His grin grew when Izzy seemed to be mulling the thought over. He raised an eyebrow and chanced a longer glance at the other when he was asked about books. That he hadn’t been expecting, didn’t peg her for a book type. There might be something they were looking for specifically that the old bats had locked away. He would definitely be doing an inventory check but hey it sounded like they were coming around to the idea. A new face and alone time might do him some good, even if they don't get handsy and this Izzy turned out to be a gigantic book worm. 
“Like I said you need a magic key to get in but getting out isn’t a problem, locks behind you but I gotta warn you the cell service sucks,” he said with a smile. He altered his route and started out of town and toward the bunker. The long ride was pretty much silent after that, Dean was honestly a bit too nervous to say something and have the blond change her mind about coming. He couldn't help wanting to help her, wanting to figure her out at least a little. From wanting to protect the little thing and knowing that he would just worry about them at this point. “Just don’t take anything, alright? Not really supposed to take people to the BatCave but…” he trailed off with a shrug after he parked by the bunker, obviously making an exception for the blond right now. 
Izzy shrugged when he mentioned cell service, that meant pretty much nothing to him. Of course he knew what a cell phone was, he had been in this world long enough. But he never felt the need to get one. Who the hell was he gonna call? "No big deal, no cell phone. I was serious, I've never worked with someone else before. Never felt the need to get one," he shrugged, as little like it was normal or something to not have a cell this day and age. He honestly didn't actually know either way though. "And I don't plan on taking anything. I've got my own weapons and shit. Just… looking for a little info is all. If you happen to have a book with what I want to know, well, then I won't really need it anymore once I read it." He ignored the Bat Cave comment for the moment, not wanting to let the hunter next to him realize he actually understood the reference. He especially didn't want him to know he found it amusing.
Dean decided to leave Baby in a little hidden knook they made for when they didn’t plan on staying long and putting her in the very nice garage. He just grinned as they walked up to the old green doors after grabbing a bag from the trunk and he pulled it open for the other. Once past the first threshold Dean unlocked the second doors and stepped through, holding it open for the other. “This is the legacy of the Men of Letters, a bit old and dusty but we’re still fixing the place up.” he said as they made their way down the spirling, metal staircase. He walked past the light up map table and tossed his bag on the first long table in the library. “Wanna tour?” he asked as he turned to the other, smiling at them.
He just wanted a fucking book that explained how humans became demons. Without their souls spending hundreds of years tortured in hell. Asmodues had no choice but to tell him that he turned differently than everyone else when he realized he couldn't just jump from meat suit to meat suit like everyone else could. His soul never left his body, something in him changed while he was still a human. But that was all Asmodues would say on the subject. Honestly it was the one thing about the man who called himself Izzy's master that drove him absolutely insane. He didn't care so much about whatever his human life was since he couldn't miss what he didn't remember or had any sort of idea what it might have been like, but he did want to know why he turned into a demon. Was he evil in his previous life? Is that how it worked? He remembered someone once saying that he must have cracked to change the way he did, but cracked from what and how? He just wanted to know how the fuck he came into existence. What made him so different from other demons. Why even Dagon, who knew that Izzy couldn't kill her without that oh so special gun, feared him to some extent. And nothing he had found so far explained any of that shit. Was he a bookworm? Mmm, debatable. Ask any demon who knew him they'd say no,, but Izzy was really good at keeping things about himself pretty damn secret. The less people knew the less they had on you and the safer you were. But the truth was that he did love books, loved to read and learn. And now that he wasn't under Asmodues' thumb at all times and had a mission to carry out, he was able to use research for said mission as an excuse to read. Sure, he was actually doing research but for so much more than anyone actually knew. 
Izzy was a bit unsure following Dean into the bunker when they got there. This could be a really, really stupid idea. But on the other hand… he was going to have info on the Winchester's no one else could possibly dream of having and he might get a few other answers out of this as well so he followed along. He looked around as Dean led him through the place, tilting his head and letting a confused little look cross his face as he tilted his head back to see the ceiling, "Uh, sure, if you want. So, do you keep the bats in some special room or something? I kinda just pictured them all over the place."
Her not havung a phone probably should have set off more red fags then it did because even if you were a loner it was useful to have one since pay phones were all but extinct. He tilted his own head when Izzy had mentioned bats, that had been a reaction he might have expected from Cas but really? “It’s not really a batca-... never mind. This is our fortress,” he said, just trying to get past what he felt was a painful moment. He turned on his heel and held up his arms out on either side as he gestured to the books. “This is the library. Nothing says stuffy bookworms like having a library right at the front door right?” He said with a laugh, turning completely to face the other as he walked around one of the tables. 
If Izrael actually cared much about completely blending in when he was going by Izzy he probably would have gotten a cell phone. But truth be told, he didn't actually care what humans thought about him and despite Asmodues having insisted he play the part on earth he could probably count on one hand how many times he had ever used the name Izzy before. Since he usually avoided hunters he rarely ever felt the need too. So really… What was the point of carrying around a little electronic box used to call people? The only person who would ever actually want to get ahold of him had his own ways of doing so. But even Asmodues left Izzy to himself for the most part nowadays as long as he kept doing what he was told and continued to work his damnedest to keep Lucifer in his box. Though if he had realized how odd it actually was to not have one, he wouldn't have mentioned it. 
Of course it wasn't actually a Bat Cave. It almost annoyed him that the hunter found it so easy to believe that the batman reference really meant nothing to the blond. Sure, part of him was glad too because he didn't want the fact that he enjoyed those comics to be known by anyone, but still… how stupid did this hunter think he really was if he believed that Izzy? He was pretty sure that Batman was popular among humans. It was the Winchester thinking he was dumb that bothered him more than anything though, because that was just not true. Izzy had always been rather smart, even before he turned, he had a near photographic memory. But with all memories of humanity gone, and those memories being from close to sixty years before anyways, all that was left was hell and the supernatural. And he figured that shit out quickly, easily. Humans, not so much. Humanity and what they were like and what they did like were never on his list of things he needed to learn about. Humans weren't his targets. "No offense, but you don't exactly strike me as the bookworm type," he said, moving around the table to go and look at the spines of the books, fingers running lightly over them. Yeah, this would definitely be his best bet at finding answers. Some of these were obviously old as fuck. "The kill first and ask questions later type. Though I suppose since all you hunters go after everything supernatural, you need the lore books, huh?" He personally didn't bother with any other supernatural beings, just the demons on Lucifer and Dagon's side. Which was probably a good thing for them, if this little demon were to ever start working as a real hunter with someone like Dean… they wouldn't stand a chance. As they had proved earlier… the two of them working on the same side had some pretty nasty consequences for those fighting against them. 
Dean chuckled when Izzy said he didn’t seem like the book worm type, oh hell no that was Sammy’s department. “Yeah no, that's more my brother's thing,” he said as he walked over to the opposite wall, towards the small table with a few bottles filled clear, brown liquid and a few glasses. “I at least wait long enough to see what I'm fighting so I know how to kill it.” Dean poured them a few glasses and headed to the closest main table to the blond. He leaned against it on his hip and took a sip from his glass while he held out the other to Izzy. The other’s wording did strike him as odd though and he raised an eyebrow a little. The way he said it was just off, but Dean wanted to think Izzy was just into demons, and therefore could know some pretty useful stuff. That or maybe he was really green and thought of himself being different from regular hunters. His gut was telling him something was still off though, but he wasn’t sure what.
Izzy was glad his back was to the hunter when he mentioned his brother so he didn't see the little demon roll his eyes and scowl at the mention of that junkie who was seriously getting in his way with that bitch he was attached to. He was pretending he didn't really know much about them… which wasn't a complete lie, but he had a serious suspicion he knew something about the younger Winchester that Dean didn't. He might know about the demon bitch Sam hung out with but he highly doubted this man knew about the blood and psychic shit that boy was playing with. The psychic shit was honestly the main reason he hadn't gone after Ruby yet, he wasn't like other demons, he had no idea how Sam's little exercising shit would affect him. 
“You know, you never mentioned what you were looking into. I’m guessing something demon related,” he mentioned to the other. There wasn’t much small talk on the car ride over.
He didn't say anything for a bit while Dean spoke and walked around the room, more interested in looking through the shelves of books for anything that looked promising. But he never let his guard down really, constantly aware of where Dean was around him or how close he was. He stiffened a bit when he felt Dean closer again and he asked that direct question. Izzy didn't really want to answer anything he was asked, but avoiding taking to him too much might just seem more suspicious. Fuck. He really should have paid more attention to the humans around him the last decade, he was really bad at trying to be one. "Yeah, demon related," Izzy finally said as he turned around and saw Dean holding out the whiskey he had promised. Alcohol didn't really affect him as much as it did humans unless he drank an ungodly amount so he wasn't worried about drinking at least. 
He took the glass offered to him and leaned against the bookshelf behind him, shrugging his shoulder a little, "Don't know if you picked up on it during that whole ambush shit, but I kinda hunt demons. Apparently I'm pretty good at it since they don't seem to like me much at all." He took a drink from the whiskey he was given, relishing in the burn that goes down his throat. As a demon, the little blond didn't need to eat. The few times he did were few and far between and it was always for some reason he couldn't figure out, but knew he just wanted whatever the hell it was that he was trying. But he did like to drink. Alcohol that is. He liked the burn. 
"Just curious what kind of people become demons and how. Always good for a guy to know everything he can about his enemies and all, yanno?" It wasn't a lie. He had actually been avoiding actually lying to the hunter. Izzy didn't like to lie, it was too hard to remember the fake information he had given to who. So the only thing he had lied about was his name, but that wasn't that big of a lie as Izzy did sound like a nickname for Izrael. Mostly, he was just leaving out details he didn't think Dean needed to know. Like the fact he was a demon and really just wanted to know how he, himself, had turned. How demons like him were made. Because as far as the books he had found about demons elsewhere knew, Cain was the only other person to become a demon this way. And almost nothing was fucking known about that man. As a matter of fact, he was the one demon who no matter how hard he tried Izzy could not fucking find. Not that he had really looked into how to find him. He didn't want to kill Cain like he did with everyone else he hunted down, he wanted answers. But even so, he knew Cain wasn't exactly like him and probably didn't have the answers he wanted. So that had just been another fucking dead end. The little blond didn't do a whole lot of shit that he actually wanted to do or something anyways, ninety percent of his time was spent following Asmodues' orders to hunt down Dagon's followers and make sure Lucifer didn't get out of that cage. 
Dean nodded a little when the other confirmed that it was demon related, easy guess. “You don’t pick up that kind of attention without being a major pain in their ass,” he said with a snicker. The man's shoulders stiffened when he took another drink when Izzy said what he was looking into. What kind of people become demons. He forced back a smile and shifted a little as he tried to keep his mind focused on the task at hand and not let it run off with the flashbacks and nightmares he has. It felt like every time he blinked he was hit with a flash of something he’d seen or had done. He told everyone he didn't’ remember any of it and refused to talk about it and self medicated with liquor like any good hunter.
Well duh, obviously he was a pain in their asses. Two dozen of them had actually gotten together without someone in power telling them what to do to try and take him out. They failed, miserably thanks to the hunter near him right now, but it didn't negate the fact that Izzy was a huge threat to them and their plans. Really though, if the whole fucking lot of them just fucking stopped trying to set Lucifer free Izzy would have no problem leaving them alone. But until that happened…. He had a job to do. What the hell would he do with himself if Asmodeus actually managed to take the crown and this mission was over? He'd actually never thought about that before. Every single memory he had had something to do with him having to keep Lucifer in the cage. 
“Well demons are mostly twisted and tortured souls. You get twisted up so much down there you turn into something else,” he said, rubbing at his brow as he fidgeted a little as he spoke. “At the end of the day they're a spirit, just nastier. You don’t normally catch one running around before they possess someone but the same tricks apply, salt and iron,” he told him, running off a few things off the top of his head, mostly from first hand experience. “I’m sure you know all about devils traps and all that,” he said, waving his hand and finally looking over at the other. It was probably a good thing Dean had been so caught up with that Izzy was looking into that he completely missed the suspicious pronoun.
Izzy couldn't help but roll his eyes at Dean when the man just told him shit he already knew. Was he actually under the impression that someone he thought was a legit demon hunter didn't know that shit already? Also. He was wrong. While holy water did have the same effect on him that it did to most demons, salt and iron actually didn't bother him for some reason. Every single voice in his head was screaming at him to keep his mouth shut for a while, to not get sucked into this conversation. But the thing was… he actually wanted to talk about this shit. He never talked with anyone about shit he actually wanted too. Demons avoided him unless they were trying to kill him, he avoided humans and hunters, and Asmodues pretty much just told him what to do. The little demon didn't actually have any memories of just talking with someone about something he was interested in. And this happened to be the biggest fucking intrest he really had right now.
"See, right there just proves you really have no fucking clue what you're actually dealing with, do you? Obviously being tortured in hell is going to fuck up any soul in some way, but not every soul in hell becomes a demon. This world would be fucked if they did. There are millions and millions of souls in hell." He only just stopped himself from pointing out that despite Dean's own torture and escapades with Alastair he didn't actually turn into a demon. No, a fucking angel actually came and pulled him from the pit. So what the hell was it that made some souls twist the same way he had even though he hadn't gone through that die and be tortured shit and made others just… well, be tortured for all eternity. Or torture as was the case with some. "Yeah, most of them are just nastier twisted spirits, and you don't normally see one walking around without someone else's meat suit… but they can. It's apparently super fucking rare for it to happen, but a human can just wake up a demon somehow. In their own skin and everything. So I want to know what makes the souls that twist that way different from those that don't. What kind of person they must have been. And what happens to those people who turn? How does that happen? But unfortunately, because it's so fucking rare, I haven't been able to find a single book in the last ten years that actually explains that shit." He sighed a little in frustration at the thought before just shaking his head and finishing the rest of his own drink before he turned his back to Dean again to start looking through the books again, waving his own hand in dismissal of the subject. Dean wasn't going to have the answers he wanted obviously. "But yes, of course I know all about devils traps. I just don't use them." He couldn't if he wanted too, not unless he wanted to get stuck inside one himself. Besides, even if he could… with the way he hunted, it would be pretty damn useless and time consuming to try since it was usually a sneak attack/ambush of his own on their own grounds. Wasting time with a devils trap when it was just so much easier to kill them just seemed stupid. "Do you have any sort of order with these books or am I gonna have to look through all of them to find the ones about demons?"
Dean was a little taken back when Izzy said that he had no clue about demons. He felt anger rise up in his belly and his face tightened some. His pride didn’t like that but the built up emotion subsided the more Izzy spoke. He did have a point, if that’s all it took then Hell would be nothing but demons. He never really focused on the fine details, he just killed them. His face became a mix of surprises and doubt when Izzy kept going and told him about the type of demons that keep their bodies. What the hell? He’d never heard of something like that before, what the hell could it be capable of? It was a worrying thought. “This keeps getting better and better,” Dean muttered under his breath. He couldn't stop his brain from thinking about his younger brother on his road trip with his little demon buddy. What if that was Ruby's plan, twist his brother into one of them? He’d fucking gank that bitch before she could try. He wanted to call and check up but that hadn’t gone so well last time. 
He made a small face when Izzy asked about an order to the crazy amount of information. He finished his half glass of whiskey and pushed off of the table, setting the glass down before walking away. “I have a feeling what we’re looking for isn’t in here, come on,” He said, motioning the other to follow him with a head nod. He led the blond down the hall a bit, through another doorway and down some stairs. He pushed one of the two heavy doors open and held it open for the other hunter. “When we started going through the stuff that was left here we found that most of the heavy reading books are in here,” He told him. The room was about 25 by 25 feet, metal shelving lined all the walls filled with books and some jars. There was a decent sized table in the middle of the room under the only light, taking up a good chunk of the free space. 
Dean just nearly kidnapped the little blond he helped out that he knew nothing about other than the fact he could kill demons pretty damn well and brought him to his secret bunker and he thought anything that came out of this idea wouldn't be completely fucked? Hell. He was pretty damn sure that Dean didn't even realize yet that he hadn't stepped in to help a pretty little girl, but actually a boy who just happened to look a lot like one. Add on to that fact that this boy was also one of those freaky ass demons he was just talking about and you could see clearly that this man definitely hadn't thought this through. "You have no idea," Izzy mumbled back, not sure or honestly even caring if Dean heard him. 
Izzy set down the glass still in his hand before he shrugged again and followed Dean through the bunker. Fuck. This place really was huge. Izzy couldn't help but grin a little when he looked into the room. Dark. Enclosed. No way for anyone to try and sneak up on him again. Exactly the kind of rooms he liked and usually worked in when he was looking for a party to crash. "Awesome," he said as he walked in the room. Creepy jars and big old books lining the walls on top of everything else, Izzy had instantly and probably noticeably relaxed more when he was in the room that was so much like a place he would actually want to be in. He didn't say anything else as he started scanning the books on one of the shelves, his eyes widening some when he saw what he instantly felt like he had been looking for for years now. It was smaller than any of the other books in here, but that wasn't surprising considering how little information there probably was at all on demons like him. Humans Turning Demon. 
Izzy grabbed the book off the shelf and took a few steps backwards to push himself up to sit on the table, just remembering that Dean was there as he went to open the book. "Uhm… thanks," he said, forcing himself to remember that he was supposed to be a human and actually used to having someone around and even weirder for him- that someone helping him. "Hey… uh, why are you being so like… nice and normal to me? As far as I've seen, people aren't just nice to strangers. Especially when said stranger is a pretty boy who can shove a knife into a human skull."
Dean noticed the small change in the others' demeanor when he showed them the room. The room didn’t bother him or his brother too much but ‘awesome’ wasn’t the normal reaction to this stuff. Though in this line of work, who’s really normal? You see a lot of weird and horrible shit fast and you pick up a few quirks along the way. He had half turned when  the other called out to him and thanked him, he was going to leave Izzy alone to do their digging. He raised an eyebrow when he was asked why he was being so helpful. He opened his mouth with a grin to say it was just the right thing to do for a lady when Izzy said that last part, his words luckily getting caught up in his throat. BOY!? WHOLY FUCK!! Dean’s back straightened as he looked the other over again. It took him a second or two to catch himself and he cleared his throat out a little. “Well you want demons dead and I want demons dead,” he said with a shrug, his brain still trying to absorb this enlightening new detail about the blond. “And I learned about a new fleshy kind of demon, win win,” Dean chuckled. Hell all of Dean seemed stiff. Right now, he honestly didn’t know what the fuck to do.
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enax-comics · 3 years
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• i look weird when I smile •
• new idea • • i really do look weird when i smile. when i was little i looked creepy as hell •
• stock photo background •
• one of Erin’s many self portrait styles •
• all art by Erin Novak • • @apotaterwithglasses •
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         Yes, this is semi-long and has links.          My name is Erin, I'm in my twenties and have been role-playing for 10+ years. I'm a decent writer, though like everyone I have a typo here or there I miss. I only roleplay slash/yaoi or whatever you want to call it. Also 99.9% of the time I play the more submissive character. Now that doesn't mean he's a little bitch, but I just have a hard time writing the dominate  boy in the relationship. I've tried, it doesn't come out right. Jeez, I seriously hate talking about me like this, I never know what to say. So yeah.          I am currently looking for someone to play against my favourite character to play, my Izzy. Izzy really isn't everyone's cup of tea, and I can understand and respect that. He's a fun, sassy, quirky little crossdresser.          Here are *some* examples of my writing if you're interested. I'm not crazy picky, I just want someone literate who will give at least one good paragraph each reply so I have something decent to reply too. I don't like one-liners at all. Preferably I do multi-paragraph posts but long as I'm given something to work with and be able to reply a good deal back then I'm usually happy. These also give you a little look at some of the different ways I have played my Izzy in the past as I'm looking to play him again.          Line One: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1op8Df3iMoAynyjIBnuWpZ4Q9OpzQJVjAuC1qkLoADaA/edit?usp=drivesdk          Line Two: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1I9n6SH3c9Uc3XuobQEC-iqwmGCiuxVfMeSe4xJxhvKs/edit?usp=drivesdk          Line Three: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1tiRE8nov6qV4dY5gihbaqUrZdxSh51_BCAtSmYLZs88/edit?usp=drivesdk          With the themes of my roleplay I do require my partner to be at least 18. Don't need to get in any trouble.          I am quite often quite mean to my own characters, I enjoy mean/abusive RPs, abusing my own character  making them a drug addict or something of the like. But that does not mean that is all I do. I also like some happy, romantic shit if that's what you're into.          I like supernatural RPs, meaning wizard's, powers, vampires, werewolves, ect. When i give Izzy any supernatural blood he's usually a fae. The closest example I can give to what my dad are like is True Blood. I had based my original fae off them forever and a day ago and slowly made them more of my own.          I also like slice of life, dangerous life, gangs or mobs, or high school for another few examples of some of my favourites.          Things that will turn me off of a line pretty damn quickly if not Instantly are furries, toilet play, and pure fluff- because I need me some drama.          Anything else you want to know go right ahead and ask. Contact Me: e-mail: [email protected] tumblr: TomiShaped google docs: [email protected]
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ena-comics · 3 years
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Tomi got this commissioned for us by • Mizuki Asakura • on Facebook!
It's super cute, right? A picture of us to start off getting this all set up.
#tomishaped #tomishapedx #apotaterwithglasses #art #artistsoninstagram #artwork #comission #enacomics #artlover #digitalart
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thexpoetryxcorner · 6 years
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Bang B.A.N.G.
P anic is heard when I'm found 
U nmoving on the ground 
L ots of blood was shed 
L ying here, I'm dead 
T ears falling from eyes 
H earing how I died 
E veryone's distressed 
T he family is a mess 
R ed now soaked in white 
I cried into the night 
G reen eyes now faded black 
G reat strength is what I lacked 
E rin's death has come along 
R ight has now gone wrong
By:
Erin Jackman
By:
TomiShaped
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fyrapartnersearch · 6 years
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looking for a new partner
My name is Erin, I'm in my twenties and have been role-playing for 10+ years. I am currently looking for someone to play against my favourite character to play, my Izzy. Izzy really isn't everyone's cup of tea, and I can understand and respect that. I'm going to show you three different lines segments that i have done in the past with others to give you some ideas of how he is. There is also a character sheet that I made for a line that never got off the ground. Line One: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1op8Df3iMoAynyjIBnuWpZ4Q9OpzQJVjAuC1qkLoADaA/edit?usp=drivesdk Line Two: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1I9n6SH3c9Uc3XuobQEC-iqwmGCiuxVfMeSe4xJxhvKs/edit?usp=drivesdk Line Three: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1tiRE8nov6qV4dY5gihbaqUrZdxSh51_BCAtSmYLZs88/edit?usp=drivesdk Line Four: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1Yj8C0oM3uDGkL0x30KV0IHDW_cN6Hm9RgqKfpYIgyTk/edit?usp=drivesdk Letting you read about my character through the posts leads to something else, there are also three examples of my writing there now too. I do not need you to be able write a novel with each post, but a good couple of paragraphs would be nice. With the themes of my roleplay I do require my partner to be at least 18. Don't need to get in any trouble. I only like playing through either Google Docs or E-mail. I am quite often quite mean to my own characters, I enjoy mean/abusive RPs, abusing my own character  making them a drug addict or something of the like. But that does not mean that is all I do. I also like some happy, romantic shit if that's what you're into. I like supernatural RPs, meaning wizard's, powers, vampires, werewolves, ect. When i give Izzy any supernatural blood he's usually a fae. The closest example I can give to what my dad are like is True Blood. I had based my original fae off them forever and a day ago and slowly made them more of my own. I also like slice of life, dangerous life, gangs or mobs, or high school for another few examples of some of my favourites. Things that will turn me off of a line pretty damn quickly if not Instantly are furries, toilet play, and pure fluff- because I need me some drama. Anything else you want to know go right ahead and ask. Contact Me: e-mail: [email protected] tumblr: TomiShaped google docs: [email protected]
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