#tw sa related

[darkangel888]

TW talk about rape

He took so much from me. He made me a hateful shell of myself. He made me hate myself. He made me hate my body. My body who just tried and still tries its best to protect me. I destroy it, I cut it, I burn it, I take drugs, I drink, I destroy it. I absolutely despise it. I blame it for what he did. Cause ‚how am I supposed to control myself around you‘. Cause it reacts even tho I don’t want it. Cause it feels good while I feel so bad. I hate it I don’t want it I hate it make it fucking stop. But my betrayer of a body feels good. Why? I hate it. I hate it so much. But even now… 5 years after I escaped him I still can’t say no, my body still betrays me…. Why do they never stop? I dissociate so much, I can’t move, I can’t talk… and they still keep going. ‚Hey you seemed kind of weird, is everything alright?‘ if you noticed I was dissociated why did you keep going? What is wrong with them? I hate them. They should stop they should die they should burn alive I am so so fucking angry. He took my voice from me. Because of him, I have to relive my trauma again and again and again. And I hate myself for still not being better. For becoming a mindless sextoy for them to use and abuse. For still not speaking up, for still not protecting myself from him, from all of them… I can’t make them stop and they never stop…

#tw rape #tw selfhate #mentally fucked #bpd #rape #sh #tw self destruction #self destructor #tw drugs #tw abuse #tw rap3 #tw r4p3 #tw sa #tw sa mention #mentally unwell #mentally unstable #trauma #tw sa related #sa tw #sa survivor

[stellariumcircus]

i know it's an uncomfortable subject for obvious reasons, but i'm actually surprised we don't talk much in the stranger things fandom about how will byers is canonically a csa victim

it's not like a "reach" or subtext, it's actual events in the show. in season 1 he's kidnapped and a vine is inserted in his mouth for the purpose of sexual reproduction. in season 2, a being controlled by a middle aged man invades his body through every opening and will "felt it everywhere".

i'm considering writing an analysis of this and how it affects will through the seasons but i'm a bit worried no one would be interested in reading about the darker/more uncomfortable subject matter from the show 😬

#will byers #byler #<- target audience sorry not actually byler but #st #milkvans do not interact #not milkvan related either i just don't like you #tw sa #tw csa

[moistrodent]

What happened to respecting all SA victims? What happened to letting us be angry? What happened to letting us process our trauma in our own ways? Is your horny demon show more important than us? I tried to fucking kill myself because my first exposure to anything sexual was when I was under 7 and I got r*ped by an over 50 year old man. We have gone through so much shit but when we criticize your horny demon show we aren’t valid? We didn’t go through horrible trauma because we don’t like your show? Fuck you. We have gone through SO much. Let us be angry. Let us criticize representation of US. These are things that happen. WE ARE ALLOWED TO SHOW EMOTIONS OTHER THAN HAPPINESS. LET US HAVE BE MAD. SO MANY OF US FUCKING HATE OURSELVES. WE DESERVE TO BE TREATED LIKE FUCKING HUMANS. R*pists, m*lesters, and p*dophiles deserve to burn and experience the worst and most painful deaths yet here you are treating one like this hot sexy man (he’s really not btw…) . I don’t care that it’s fictional. Again, shit like that happens, you are sexualising HORRIBLE and extremely traumatic things because you like the evil one dimensional r*pist. I don’t care if you like Valentino, it’s fine to like horrible fictional villains! Yet so many of you sexualise him. We SA victims have the right to criticize representation of our trauma, especially when that trauma is written and animated by people with r*pe fetishes. This has been annoying me (wrong word, not annoyance but like. Kind of?) Since the poison scene came out, we can have opinions. We ARE people. And we can express our emotions in different ways.

#People who like the how sa is represented in HH are valid btw #Not saying they arent #What im saying is we are all valid! #Tw sa #tw sui attempt #Just please let us show emotion #vent post #Also i do respect sa victims who relate to angel dust #And who like hh #hazbin hotel critical #anti hazbin hotel #csa vent #hazbin criticism #anti vivzipop #vivziepop critical #vivziepop criticism #long post #ok that’s enough tags

[nerves-nebula]

Last year I made a comic about Quinn, which I knew at the time would quickly become outdated as i developed the characters and their setting more, but I liked making it anyway. This summer I've decided to give a little update on how the story has changed. 

#nnstuff #nnart #nnoc #original art #original comic #quinn #loose stitches related #comic #implied csa #implied sa #csa tw #Clement

[realbeefman]

everytime i rewatch one day, one room i expect house to disclose some sort of SA trauma and every time i am shocked when that isn't what happens

#just the way hugh laurie plays house in that episode is so... specific. #the way he gets so furious that she would dare relate to HIM #this especially in context of s8 and house very casually mentioning getting assaulted in prison like. #there is this constant theme throughout house md where house's bodily autonomy is taken away from him in this permanent and damaging way #even while he himself tries to downplay what he went through #i forget house being a rape survivor is just a personal hc and not an actual canon event #like it's to the point where i don't even think i've mentioned this hc on my blog before because it just implicitly Informs the way i think #about his character... idk hope this is relatable to other people and not just me reading into it #tw rape #tw sa #rape mention #sa mention #house md #one day one room #gregory house #house md hc

[evendemonscryforus]

i do not let my scars fade.

i cannot give them the satisfaction that they healed me in some way.

i cannot live with the fact that all my suffering was for nothing.

so i continue.

#vent post #tw vent #i am unwell #i am in pain #words #spilled words #poetry #trauma #mental illness #tw sh related #tw sh destructive behaviour #tw sh implied #sa #tw sa implied

[kafus]

as a CSA survivor and pwDID i found the premise of HZ015 to be kind of mortifying. i don’t know how intentional or unintentional it was, but the imagery of an adult man luring a young girl into an alleyway, wiping her memories/fogging her brain and in the midst of that, stealing something she was wearing on her body, and then pretending to be a good guy and walking off leaving her with amnesia, confused and alone, is like. it’s a lot actually.

and i’m incredibly emotional about liko being able to reconnect her memories through sprigatito, and the adults rushing and doing their best to save her, and the first faces she sees after all of it are roy and dot’s… shit makes me want to cry dude, HZ015 and HZ016 mean so much to me i think about them a lot. seeing liko get help. seeing so many people worry about her. she’s not alone even if she temporarily can’t remember. and then she’s even able to rescue what was stolen. symbolically i just. Sobs in a puddle. this post is getting incoherent

#kiki was here #kiki.txt #csa tw #sa tw #ive wanted to mention this a long time but didnt have the courage #doing it now though #to be clear i dont think its literally a story about sa #not asserting spinel Did That #i just mean i relate to the themes and imagery as an sa survivor #horizons

[frankiebirds]

so. i love this line.

but i want to talk about her expressions after gideon asks if she's alright:

i dont know. throughout the first season, elle expresses the strongest negative feelings towards sex offenders (reasonable!) and sure, she came from a unit dealing specifically with that and that's her specialty (remember when all the characters had specific skill sets and specialties?) but especially this reaction here seems very personal. and this is pre-randall garner, so she doesn't yet have that connection to being attacked in her own home.

also. the team knows sexual offense crimes are elle's specialty. they know that's where she came from. but her response to gideon when he asks if she's okay after she goes off on scott isn't "i've seen a lot of this and it gets me riled up" it's to get defensive and evasive. if it was anger born of something the team is aware of, why hide it? her response to gideon and her expression afterwards very much read to me as someone hiding something.

#elle greenaway #obviously you dont have to be a victim to hate sex offenders #“i hate sex offenders” is a very normal stance #but elle's hatred seems personal to me #and again in a way that seems born of more than just her career #and then theres the question of why she chose to go into and specialize in sex crimes in the first place #to me that implies that that hatred was already there #ie. she doesnt hate sex offenders so passionately because she specializes in sex crimes #she chose to specialize in sex crimes because she hates sex offenders #i would be very curious to know what the planned backstory was for elle had lola glaudini stayed on #we get a bit with her dad #but throughout the first season i very much got the vibe that there was likely something SA-related in her backstory #either her or a loved one #not fic #criminal minds #criminal minds rewatch #character analysis #i think #criminal minds s01e15 #unfinished business #tw sex assault #favourites

[dootznbootz]

I went on tiktok to just watch some silly Odysseus videos but then I mostly saw people going like "Yeah, maybe Odysseus cried on Calypso' island every day but honestly he had that coming after what he did Achilles and Patroclous/Circe!!!" and "Everything that happens in Odyssey is deserved cuz he took Patrochilles to war!!!" and "I feel so bad for Circe and Calypso and Penelope, they deserved better!!!"

For fucks sake I beg you, read anything different from Millers bs and like educate yourself- And please stop goddamn saying that rape victim. deserved it.

Circe probably didn't give a flying fuck, Calypso is a rapist and abuser and Penelope deserved everything she wanted and SHE WANTED ODYSSEUS

I think I've had enough internet for today, imma go wash my eyes with bleach. Anyways sorry for ranting here, i hope you don't mind it lmao

It's alright. I absolutely understand the vents about the whole thing. :'D No one deserves to be a victim of such a thing no matter WHAT they've done. I hope your eyes are okay after the bleach

Like Odysseus does so many fucked up things but Calypso and Circe? He is the victim. Period. It's very clear that Odysseus is in extreme distress on Ogygia. And Circe wasn't some sort of FwB situation. There's fear and numbness in the language he uses when talking about it. There's so much victim blaming and it SUCKS.

While back then it probably wouldn't be considered SA but now? It clearly is.

Even then, Odysseus' journey was kind of about "temptation" or just straight up "Die or get out of my sea." From Poseidon. "I don't want you in my waters so I'm gonna try and give you things that will keep you on land or just kill you."

Immortal goddesses wanting you would be many people's dream come true but not for Odysseus. And I think that's the point. His determination, how he clawed his way back into the arms he never wanted to leave in the first place, is incredible. Many people would've given up and just started a new life but he never would because no life he could ever create would compare to the life he had before. Even if it's different, it's what he's always wanted.

He literally tells Calypso "I'm not stopping until I'm home. I don't care if I suffer more until I do. I'm going home."

“Mighty goddess, do not be angry with me over this. I myself know very well Penelope, although intelligent, is not your match                                          to look at, not in stature or in beauty. But she’s a human being and you’re a god. You’ll never die or age. But still I wish, every moment to get back to my home,                                                       to see the day of my return. And so, even if out there on the wine-dark sea some god breaks me apart, I will go on— the heart here in my chest is quite prepared to bear affliction. I’ve already had so many troubles, and I’ve worked so hard                                  through waves and warfare. Let what’s yet to come be added in with those.”

(Book 5, Johnston)

Circe's a goddess and what happened is nothing like Dionysus and Ariadne and Apollo and Hyacinthus for example. Circe never gave Odysseus a crown of stars and he would never go out of his way to kill 120 people for bothering her. They did not love each other and he can't refuse as she's a goddess.

If you interpret them sleeping together the entire year,(It's only explicitly said that they had sex once so that's what I go with personally.) that doesn't mean he was happy with it! Even then, the whole situation is not what a healthy FwB should look like! I'm asexual and even I know that no one in a FwB situation should have to BEG in any way that basically says "Please let me go or kill me" with supplication!!! The fact that he leaves so quickly he forgets one of his men? The fact that during Elpenor's funeral, he doesn't greet Circe himself? He was avoiding her. Wouldn't he want to get "one last night together" during Book 12 if they were fwb? 🙄

It's bonkers to me that people hate him for being a "cheater" when A.) having multiple lovers wasn't uncommon in Ancient Greece, and B.) the two people he is explicitly said to have "cheated" with, weren't his choice. He wasn't actively searching for pretty women either!!!

As mentioned, while it was common for men to have many lovers, Odysseus never had any listed unlike some of the other men. (not bashing any of them. I'm just making a point in comparison.) He also has no other children besides Telemachus in Homer's works. There's no evidence of him having other lovers other than speculation. (funny enough, I once read somewhere that the reason why Odysseus is so mean is because he doesn't "bond" enough with the other soldiers. 😂)

Does that mean he didn't have other lovers? Technically, Nope! It's just never explicitly stated either way. He has slaves but none were ever said to be concubines or that he sleeps with them. He has deep bonds with his fellow soldiers but that doesn't mean he sleeps with them. That doesn't mean people can't write or talk about him doing so even though it's not mentioned! Just like it also means that someone can write him not doing so as there's nothing that says it either way in Homer's Works! :D

It's fucked up when people say "He didn't try to leave Calypso enough" or something of the like. It just tells you how A.) they didn't read the Odyssey or have piss on the poor reading comprehension or B.) ...you should probably stay away from that person...

With Circe though??? I can understand the confusion but digging deeper and looking at the text, he wasn't having a good time. Or at the very least was walking on Eggshells the whole time. I hate bringing up that essay over and over again but like...I literally wrote everything there.

I also don't like how people take Circe's morally gray-ness away from her. Let her do something fucked up to be fucked up!!! Let her traumatize Odysseus!

Idk, I kind of hate that I'm "known" for this but I relate to this idiot asshole a lot and it means a lot to me that his story, despite what happens to him, has a happy ending :'D

#Thank goodness I don't have tiktok >:) #I wish there was a way to like. have anonymous posts? because I made that PTSD post to show how him refusing to be bathed #by Nausica's maids and him choking Euryclea and was giving reference to make a point but I wish I wasn't like. Known for this??? #but like... I HAVE something to say. Having specific knowledge of some things just...really makes it clear in what happened that I don't #think others have considered. #And I was afraid if I was “vague” then people would say “You're just saying that to get sympathy points” and I didn't want to deal with #that :'D plus like in his outbursts I saw myself you know? #I just kept thinking “oh shit. I KNOW what you're doing because I did it too aAAAAAHHHHHHHHh” #I relate to Helen too but in a way. The Odyssey shows her “HEALED” (which fuck yeah!!! YESSS!!!😭) it doesn't show the #PTSD in the same way as she's had many years to recover. Watching it happen in “real time” for Odysseus was...really nice. #i said it before but the Odyssey feels REAL compared to the “girlboss queen slay” shit. Him tryiing to force himself into normalcy #only to act out is...yeah. #save me morally gray circe #ask #anon #Mad rambles #tw sa #tw ptsd #tw sex assault #anti madeline miller #anti circe #essay

[bugflies00]

like going “hey guys see those lyrics about hating yourself and being a bad person? well since that guy actually turned out to be a bad person you shouldve known” Is Not The Take You Think It Is. purely for the reason that so many people who are mentally ill and/or struggle with self loathing RELATED to that. but unlike him they were not ACTUALLY the bad person being described. i dont know if im being coherent but like. ive seen takes that are essentially implying “hey look at those lyrics that were so relatable to so many people because of mental illness? yeah anyone with a BRAIN couldve seen a bad person wrote that like who ELSE than pieces of shit would relate to that lol”. same goes for his character. people can struggle with mental illness and hate themselves and ALSO be horrible abusive pieces of shit. but do not equate the two or act like we shouldve KNOWN the former because of the latter. that has horrible implications think before you speak idk

#alex.rambles.txt #tw abuse #tw SA #cc!wilbur #mcyt #ask to tag #people pissing me the fuck off #telling so many people who related to lyrics + a character about hating yourself and seeing yourself as the - #- scum of the earth that essentially they shouldve known Because those thoughts were expressed #its just so fucked up just be fucking normal for a second #im glad you never felt close to his music but christ so many people did and they felt SEEN #and it SUCKS when you hate yourself and you constantly fear being a bad person to see someone- #- who reflected those feelings Actually Be A Horrible Person. ive seen friends doubt whether they were themselves- #- horrible bc the person who wrote lyrics that spoke to them so much Was In Fact Horrible

[darkangel888]

Tw SH&SA related

Sex allways was my favorit form of sh. I get beautiful pain and feel like i am worth nothing but my body at the same time… and i get to please another person. It is people pleasing and sh all in one. Fucking amazing:)

#tw self harn #tw selfhate #mentally unwell #tw self destruction #self destructor #tw sh #mentally unstable #tw sh related #tw sa related #tw sa implied

[greenunoreversecard]

promo for my fic (fic has TW, be warned)

Chapter 8 out on something in the orange.

Please check the tags, heavy trigger warning.

please, don't read if you get triggered. Has very serious topics, like sh, sa, and si, as well as drvg usage.

#no beta we die like jason todd #rottmnt #rottmnt leo #rottmnt mikey #rottmnt raph #rise of the tmnt #rottmnt donnie #tmnt 2018 #Tw #tw self destruction #tw s3lf harm #tw sui ideation #tw drvgs #tw sa #tw sa mention #tw abuse #tw sh related #tw self destructive behavior #rottmnt headcanons #greeny's inbox #rottmnt mikey angst #Mikey fanfic #Mikey fic #mikey tmnt #Rottmnt mikey #rottmnt fanfiction #Projecting #Wip #current wip #dead dove do not eat

[shenbunine]

i can’t put it into words but how antis are reacting to the poison music video from hazbin hotel really proves that they don’t like it when people have a complex reaction to their trauma. they only like survivors who react to their trauma in ways that are easy to digest.

#proship safe #tw sa mention #tw antiship #like i saw someone on twitter say that no real sa survivor woule ever relate to poison #meanwhile i have never related to anything more than i relate to poison

[demonic-shadowlucifer]

im already tired of the 'man vs bear' debate. it went from actually meaningful discussion about sexual assault and how men need to do better to just purposefully ragebaiting incels and nothing of actual value. and that's not even getting into the fact that the discourse only focuses on survivors who are cis women, and less focus on trans survivors, enby survivors (and even male survivors for that matter). hell, transphobes have already started to invade the conversation. we need less rhetorical questions about abuse, and more actual uplifting of survivors and actual education about abuse (for all genders for that matter!)

the man vs bear topic has done nothing to help survivors, and i will die on this hill.

#probably gonna make enemies with this but i dont care #and this is coming from someone who was abused (by mainly men) #the man vs bear debate has already become a trend instead of a meaningful discussion and im tired of pretending its not #and for the love of god stop replying to the incels getting pissy about it. all you're doing is giving them the attention they crave #man vs bear #abuse survivor #tw sa mention #discourse #feminism #i had to filter out terms related to this on insta because it's all ragebait #also why the fuck do we have to rely on rhetorical questions to get people to care about violence towards women? #if anything that says a lot more about society in general #(and besides the correct answer is a secret third option: a rat. because a rat wont kill you OR assault you!) #watch as someone misinterprets this post and says that i'm “missing the point” and calls me a misogynist #trust me i know what the point is and the discussion has completely lost the point

[genderstealer2000]

Okay, i know people have already established how overlooked childrens mental health is, but i wanted to put my view and experiences here. TW! mentions of abuse, substance use, sh, ed my childhood was not great in the slightest. i didnt grow up in a good home, it was mostly filled with drug addicts and loads of abuse. my mother was so preoccupied with other things, she never really acknowledged me and my siblings unless she was angry and yelling at us. she didnt care what happened to us. we were just other people living in her house. if youre going to have kids, treat them the way children should be treated. in all of the homes ive stayed in, ive always felt like a burden. ive always been reminded of who im related to, what has happened to me, and who i am. i want to move past everything, but its hard when my guardians (that willingly took me in) are using my mother to guilt trip me. "youre acting just like your mother." "keep acting like that and you know what youll become?" anytime i try to talk to them about anything, they make it seem catatonic. like im turning into this monster when in reality i just need help. my mother did not pick good partners. they were terrible people, and did terrible things to her, my siblings and me. i watched my mother deal with self harm, and an eating disorder, and she was pressing these things on me and my siblings. granted she wasnt in a good headspace at all, and she was always on something, but that is not appropriate at all to show your kids. and its very hard for me to create relations with the people i live with because of this. i never know whats going to happen, if im going to get punished. my foster families just saw me as another mouth to feed, and now that i live with my adoptive mom, she just says im not trying. they call me selfish for having suicidal thoughts, they call me attention seeking for cvtting, they call me disgusting for making myself throw up. what do they want? anytime i try to communicate my feelings i get shut down! my gender identity was formed from my trauma. i dont feel comfortable in a womans body. the people my mother lived with ruined me. everytime i view myself as a girl i get sick to my stomach. "youre not a boy," not biologically im not, but it helps me to view myself this way because i feel stronger. i dont feel as weak as when those events happened. and we're working on it, im trying to explain things to her and mend our relationship, but she doesnt understand. thats why i want to help her understand. so we can both heal. i think parents (guardians) are too scared to talk about their childrens mental health because they think that theyre the cause of it. even if they are a part of it they SHOULD talk! let it be known. communication is the most important part of a family, or relationships. communication is needed. dont treat your kids horribly. its sad that it has to be said, but they need parents for comfort. they look up to you for guidance, for love and affection. dont make your children feel like a burden. dont make them afraid of you.

#tw vent #vent post #mental health awareness #trauma survivor #childhood trauma #abuse survivor #cptsd recovery #sa survivor #ptsd #sh vent #3d vent #emotional abuse #physical abuse #coping #trauma recovery #trauma related #mental abuse #mental health

[proudfreakmetarusonniku]

concerning the amount of people who think rape is an acceptable punishment for being related to someone you don’t like. literally incel shit.

#like no Sarah simons does not deserve threats that need police involvement like that is fucking serious shit #For being related to someone you don’t like. Fucking hell #This is literally thinking rape is an acceptable punishment for not liking your cc like these are serious threats #What the fuck is wrong with y’all #R u so discourse poisoned you forget that rape is a bad thing and worse than disliking an e celeb #Misogyny tw #rape tw #sa tw