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My brain works like, "I die if I stop."

Summer holidays are a death sentence for my brain.

I have finished all the classes. I have nothing to do. Now that I have 'took a break' from studying, how will I start when the time comes? I already feel like shit and I can't stay motivated for more than 5 seconds. I can't study, I can't read. I can't doodle.

#adhd inattentive #adhd post #adhd adult #adhd stuff #adhd student #adhd #actuallyadhd #executive dysfunction #summer holiday

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This is SO TRUE

i Know adhd gives me horrible object permanence (if its in a drawer i forget i own the thing) but i didn't really see the effect of it until i realized that i also:

- can't conceptualize death or the fact that someone who is dead is gone (funerals are uncomfortable)

- don't believe what anyone says over text because i can't see them and they might be lying

- think that the minute someone leaves they hate me or find me annoying

- think that i'm completely emotionally alone if no one is physically around me (quarantine has been wild)

because object permanence also applies to the humans i have in my life too

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More adult adults: We tolerated your disgust for coffee until now, but you HAVE TO learn to like it now that you're an adult. Coffee will save your life when you are busy and need energy for pulling all-nighters, and you can't survive collage without it.

Me: Drinks coffee just to shut them up, (it still tastes like liquid coal) then immediately falls on the ground and starts sleeping.

#adhd stuff #adhd #living with adhd #actually adhd #adhd things #adhd brain #adhd adult #collage #adhd inattentive #adhd student

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This! I'm such an over sharer

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This! I'm such an over sharer

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I sometimes get distracted by the sound of my heart beating

Ppl without ADHD be like “oh if I get rid of all possible distractions then you’ll be forced to focus on the boring task!” Fool… You underestimate my Power 

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I may forget to do some chores around to house but I eventually get them done. If someone tells me to clean the table and I forget it, I will eventually see that the table looks dirty and clean it. There is no need to yell at me and call me irresponsible or lazy when I do chores 2 or 30 mins late. Chores are usually not time sensitive. There is no need to trigger my RSD for a stupid table and make me cry.

#adhd #living with adhd #actually adhd #adhd stuff #adhd things #adhd brain #actually rsd #rsd #rejection sensitive dysphoria #rejection sensitivity #living with parents

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How can someone forget where they placed the cactus literally 5 seconds ago and step on it with her bare feet like an idiot???

My feet hurt and I managed to take most of the cactus needles out with tweezers and wax but I still can't walk, my feet bled and there are some needles left under my skin.

I am so mad at myself.

#adhd stuff #adhd #living with adhd #actually adhd #adhd things #adhd brain #cactus #accident #forgetful #adhd adult #adhd post #adhd inattentive #adhd is hell #adhd is wild

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Lately, whenever I am getting ready to sleep I start hearing a weird tick tick sounds like a metronome in my room but couldn't find its source and its driving me insane. Something keeps ticking and it doesn't end. I fall asleep hardly, waiting for it to stop and when I suddenly wake up at around 2 am, I can still hear the ticking. Weirdly, when someone walks in, the sound stops so no one heard it except me so far. We also don't have any clocks in the house bc I can't read them. I only have my digital watch and it doesn't make any sound. Am I going insane finally? Is my room hounted? Does this have a complicated but logical explanation? Are my ears broken? Is my ADHD brain so bored from being quarantined without any breaks for the last 98 days that I started having auditory hallucinations?

#weird stuff #weird shit #haunted #quarantine mood #quarantine #adhd brain #actually adhd #adhd adult #adhd inattentive #adhd #what is happening

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My memory is so shit that I usually think my dreams are actual things happened yesterday or last week. (I don't know because yesterday and last week seems to be equally distant from now because they are not now.)

#dreams #adhd brain #adhd adult #adhd #adhd stuff #adhd things #adhd mood #time blindness #adhd comorbidity #adhd combined #adhd inattentive #living with adhd

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Who else among my ADHD people is hypersensitive to certain textures? I find shirts really gross. The ones with buttons on the front y'know. I'm so grossed out by them that I can't touch a shirt let alone wear one. I have never worn a shirt in my life. I can't touch someone while they are wearing shirt. If someone is wearing a shirt the first time I see them I find it hard to talk to them, and I don't get attracted to them even if they are my actual soulmate.

#adhd stuff #adhd #living with adhd #actually adhd #adhd things #adhd brain #hypersensitive #hypersensitivity #touch sensitive #textures #texture #adhd adult #weird stuff

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I'm grateful for closed captioning and subtitles.

#Auditory processing disorder #adhd comorbidity #living with adhd #adhd stuff #actually adhd #adhd things #actuallyadhd #actuallyneurodivergent #adhd #adhd adult #adhd brain #auditory hypersensitivity

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anyone else with adhd/autism get straight up exhausted by hyperfixations/special interests sometimes

like "I'm getting overwhelmed by this one singular thing but I also can't help but consume it nonstop for hours and days on end"

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What people think hyper focusing is

What hyper focusing actually is

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No one:

Hyperactivity hits at weird times.

#hyperactivity #adhd #adhd stuff #living with adhd #adhd memes #adhd hyperactive #adhd combined #actually adhd #adhd things

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I noticed that there is a toxic positivity culture surrounding ADHD.

Of course, there is nothing wrong with seeing ADHD as a superpower-it does help us do incredible things sometimes- but discouraging people from taking their meds is wrong.

Meds help us function better, and can even save our lives. I don't know how many times I almost got hit by a car just because a bird was flying in a distractingly (that's probably not a word).

I also know that not all of us can afford the meds or a diagnosis, or develop serious side effects. So it is also good to learn how to live without the meds.

My country stopped buying the meds for some reason and now we can't find them anywhere. Mine is almost finished but I kept losing the boxes full of meds for years and I know they are in the house somewhere I just need to find th-I'm off topic again, let me return to the main thing.

Let people use and need their meds.

We are still us when we take them. We are not "weak" or "trying to conform to the society of people different from us" or "faking to be neurotipical". Meds just help our brains reach their potential.

(So sorry for writing this long. I tried to divide it into smaller parts and it's ok if you don't want to read it. )

#adhd stuff #adhd #living with adhd #actually adhd #adhd meds #adhd advice #adhd adult #toxic positivity