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A lovely person like you, on tumblr? We're blessed

WAAA?? Thank you kind stranger <3

#what a lovely thing to come back to tumblr to see :)

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me when I remember that tumblr exists—

#IM SORRYYYY COLLEGE IS HARD

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meme i made years ago still holds true

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Ah! Cool person in my notifications!

omg!! cool person in MY notifications!! :D

you guys should check them out they make neat stuff <3

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eat up, all you michael fans (im michael fans)

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I was thinking about creativity earlier, and it struck me that if I was given the resources, I could create whatever I wanted. Literally anything. I just had to try until it worked. I was just hit with the realization of how much potential I have if I set my mind to something. So why don’t I just fucking do it? Why am I waiting for some unspecified “perfect circumstance” to come around to be able to make the shit I want to make? I can do whatever the fuck I want, and I can do it whenever I want, I’ve just been fooling myself.

So I wrote this:

If I only had the resources; if I only had the time, I could create into oblivion. I would fill the vast reaches of nothingness with life and color, and the world would be better for it. A million snapshots of distant universes lay untapped in my head, and the creation of a thousand beautiful wonders wait at my fingertips for their chance to leap.

If only I had the courage to unleash them— to let my fingers fly and weave galaxies out of the starmap in my head; then I would be unstoppable.

If only, I say, forgetting that I already am. I can, and I do, and I will; no more conditions need to be met, save for the dance of the soft breeze that cools my lungs and lights my eyes.

My only wish for the future is to never forget that potential that I hold— my body is a mason of sunsets and honeyglow, and my mind a bubbling spring of tragedy and daisies and bliss. My hands and heart glow with the warmth of fireflies, and throughout all of me brims a wild and ceaseless river of creation, waiting to be unleashed.

All it takes is one mark— one conscious, courageous act— to create life into oblivion.

#thought it would share this little thing I wrote a year or so ago #this poem also has an accompanying painting that was inspired by it #I may post it here but if not it’s up on my Instagram #poetry #original poem #creativity #artist problems #artist #writing #writeblr #text post #philosophy #or something lmao #shower thoughts #ponderings #pondering my orb so goddamn hard rn guys #poem #creative

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I am alive and back with a new hyperfixation

👁️👁️

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Girl help, I’m regressing to that point in my childhood where I’d imagine a fictional crush standing by my bedside as I try to fall asleep, gazing lovingly down at my resting figure in awe of the raw beauty and honesty that comes with the peaceful stillness of slumber

#text post #shitpost #my text post #relatable #? i guess #man idk #maladaptive daydreaming #adhd #adhd things #probably #daydreaming #or actually nightdreaming i guess #idk man I just work here #it’s weirdly comforting to fall back into old habits even tho I know it’s probably indicative of a larger issue #womp womp #writing #does this count as #poetry #probably not but I’m tagging it anyway

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don't use "ftm" it's outdated and offensive. it implies that the trans person was their agab, which we never were. i was always a boy, never a girl who became a boy.

i'm 35 years old. i've been IDing as trans or something similar to trans for nearly 20 years. i was probably calling myself FTM while you were playing tag during recess, anon.

i WAS a girl. i IDed as a girl early in my life. i recognized myself as a girl, called myself a girl, lived as a girl, and was a girl. who then IDed as a man. hence, F t M.

spend more time worrying about yourself instead of strangers on the internet, anon.

sorry not sorry if this comes off as needlessly hostile, but i've been getting a lot of shit from a lot of teenage trans kids about the language i use to describe my own goddamn experience, and i'm growing real fuckin weary of it.

i have elder trans friends who call themselves transsexuals and transvestites and trannies. are you going to seriously go to a 60-year-old trans person who survived the reagan years and tell her she's not allowed to use certain language to describe herself because it might offend the delicate sensibilities of some teenager on the internet?

do yourself a favor and log off, find some real-life trans people who are over the age of 20 or 25, and spend time talking to them instead of getting all holier-than-thou at random strangers on tumblr.

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After 146 days, the Writer's Strike has ended with a resounding success. Throughout constant attempts by the studios to threaten, gaslight, and otherwise divide the WGA, union members stood strong and kept fast in their demands. The result is a historic win guaranteeing not only pay increases and residual guarantees, but some of the first serious restrictions on the use of AI in a major industry.

This win is going to have a ripple effect not only throughout Hollywood but in all industries threatened by AI and wage reduction. Studio executives tried to insist that job replacement through AI is inevitable and wage increases for staff members is not financially viable. By refusing to give in for almost five long months, the writer's showed all of the US and frankly the world that that isn't true.

Organizing works. Unions work. Collective bargaining how we bring about a better future for ourselves and the next generation, and the WGA proved that today. Congratulations, Writer's Guild of America. #WGAstrong!!!

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WAAAAAAAAAA

REBLOG if you have amazing talented artist friends!

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nothing has been more important to my being queer than when i went to my first pride parade, got seperated from my group, had a panic attack about it and was sitting on the side of the road holding a tiny genderfluid flag and freaking out. then this six foot five drag queen in four inch heels appeared from literally nowhere and sat down next to me. i, this scared-shitless trans bi kid at pride for the first time, very nervously told her she looked pretty and i told her my name and that i got lost and didn't feel like i should be at pride and she held my hand and said "oh, honey, everybody deserves to be here, especially you. pride is for everybody who's ever gotten lost, who's been scared of who they are or where they are. you think we never been scared before? pride's for you, honey, because you're scared. you don't have to be proud right now, but you're gonna be one day, honey, i'm sure of it."

i found my group soon after that and i never saw that queen again but to this day i am convinced i met an angel.

so yeah. pride is for you. pride is for all of us.

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This map is the most up to date version as of 3-4-2023 and takes into account all recent movement on anti-trans legislation

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Reblog to eat rocks with me

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Pocky kiss game but with raw spaghetti and also it’s not a kiss game you just watch on in abject horror as I crunch down an entire box noodle by noodle like a hamster without breaking eye contact

#goldiescreams #<- new tag for silly rambles #also yes I do actually eat raw noodles out of the box when I’m cooking pasta dont @ me #somehow my dentist still loves me #shitpost #rambles #ramblings #my text post #text post #can you tell I’m used to Instagram #wtf am i doing

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Yesterday I almost cried because my baby cousin ran up to my grandmother and was like. “Ha! Buhbuh ba ha.” And she said okay you want to show me something? And he led her over to the garden patch and crouched down and pointed at rocks and plants and was like. “Ah. Habah ba ah” as she listened attentively.

And I was like that happened 1,000 years ago. Probably 10,000 years ago. Maybe 100,000. The youngest human in a group went to the oldest one and said to the best of their ability “come see.” And the adult went.

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girl help i’m having creation ideas above my skill level