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[leggeteconme]

Happier life update:

I finally got a psychologist to take me seriously about the possibility of me having ADHD, something I’ve been researching a ton this year and that I, my boyfriend, a close family member (who is diagnosed with it), and my GP all think I very likely have. I went to get evaluated at a local clinic a few months ago and the only person they’d let me see was a PhD student who basically said, “You don’t have ADHD, you’re really smart and you did well in school and never got into trouble as a kid!” My therapist initially thought she was probably right and that it was more than likely just anxiety - despite the fact that I’m on anxiety meds and they are working. Anyway it’s been several months of “there’s a missing piece in my mental health, my antidepressants and anti-anxiety meds are working, I don’t feel depressed or anxious anymore, but I’m still having huge issues with executive function and impulsivity and sudden mood shifts and disorganization” - “you’re just depressed and anxious, it’s not ADHD” that have really messed with me and my confidence in my understanding of myself, but FINALLY I spoke to a doctor who talked with me for awhile, went through a questionnaire with me, and said I had one of the highest scores he’s seen and should definitely pursue medication if I’m interested in that. FINALLY my GP and I have permission to try ADHD medication and see if it helps. I was in tears, I was just so relieved to not have my struggles written off as anxiety again.

I hope you’re all doing well and taking care of yourselves <3

#personal #life update #mental health #adhd

[leggeteconme]

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The cashier at the grocery store asked how I was doing after I put down two bottles of merlot, a bar of dark chocolate, and nothing else. I almost laughed.

#wine #bubble bath #red wine #chocolate #heartbreak #reading #piranesi novel

[leggeteconme]

The life update I’ve been avoiding but should just go ahead and get off my chest…

My boyfriend and I are breaking up. There’s nothing for him out here and he’s utterly miserable, and staying here just isn’t feasible for him. We’ve talked about long distance, but due to a number of reasons that’s not a viable option for us either, so… Neither of us wants to end this relationship - we both still love each other and make each other happy - but we don’t really have a choice. So… yeah. He’s leaving in a couple weeks, and we’re both complete wrecks right now.

#personal

[leggeteconme]

Found a pretty pine branch in the middle of the road. Brought it home because I am a normal well-adjusted adult and definitely not a magpie. Made pine needle soda 🥰

It’s really really nice - it has a flavor that’s close to citrus but not quite, and it’s relatively subtle. A lovely spring drink ^^

DISCLAIMER: research and clean anything you forage before putting it in your mouth. This is Eastern white pine, which is completely edible and actually very good for you, and I gave the needles a quick bath before they went in the jars (don’t clean these too aggressively though, you need the yeast on the needles for the soda to ferment - ideally don’t wash them at all, but since these had been in the middle of the road I gave them a little rinse…).

#pine trees #pine needle soda #pine needles #foraging

[leggeteconme]

Finally got around to burning these gorgeous candles I thrifted a few weeks ago ^^

(Everything here was thrifted actually - the candles, which were part of a pack of six, the leaf holder, and the tablecloth - under $15 for everything 😊)

#candles #light #roses #thrifting #thrifstorefinds

[leggeteconme]

Part II of a lovely Saturday:

• Two glasses of blueberry wine while getting a pot of chicken congee started for my boyfriend (he’s been sick all week, but he loves congee and I load it up with garlic and ginger and bone broth and lots of veggies so it’ll help him feel better faster <3)

• Went back downtown for Wingspan night at the local bookstore (this was the first time in my life that I attended a social event where I didn’t know anyone - by myself - please be proud of me 😭)

• Watched a thunderstorm start rolling in

• Did a little scrapbooking

• Admired the rain

• Assembled a little charcuterie plate for movie night (we watched Nobody ^^)

Bonus: the soundtrack to my day:

#day in my life #food #saturday #cozy saturday #rain #thunderstorm

[leggeteconme]

Part I of a very lovely Saturday:

• Slow start with cozy breakfast and morning skincare

• Beautiful spring walk downtown to visit my favorite shops and the library

• Cute pinecones found on the side of the road and brought home because I am a magpie

• Sushi for lunch

• Wingspan with the love of my life <3

More to come soon ^^

#spring #day in my life #sunlight #small town

[leggeteconme]

Sometimes there just are stressful stretches of time and we need more support than usual (medication, extensions on assignments or even withdrawals) or it could be a goal is no longer compatible with you since we grow and outgrow things and you can be forgiving of the change. Hoping you feel better!!

Thank you darling <3 I hope so too.

#ask #personal

[leggeteconme]

Life of a grad student just trying to keep it together while it feels like everything is falling apart 🙃

(Not ready to share right now, might not share at all, but the past week has been hell on earth.)

#grad student #day in my life #food #crafts #embroidery #scrapbook journal #spring

[leggeteconme]

A little reminder that pretty blogs don’t show real life: I had to take a mental health day today because I literally could not make myself get out of bed, so my day started at noon, sitting on the kitchen floor in my underwear and a giant sweatshirt with donuts, coffee, and incense to try to calm myself down. No pretty aesthetic blog-able moments today, but I figure this is just as worth sharing. Take care of yourselves, and remember that what you see online is only a small, cultivated part of the whole picture of someone’s life <3

#personal #mental health

[leggeteconme]

Saturday <3

I woke up slowly in a very fragrant bath while working on a cross stitch, then drove to Sioux Falls with my boyfriend for Cracker Barrel and thrifting (found some adorable treasures!). When we got back, I spent the evening drinking copious amounts of coffee, working on an essay on the alterations made to a 17th-century French harpsichord, took a couple breaks for scrapbooking and a little decorating, and crashed <3

#grad student #day in my life #cozy saturday

[leggeteconme]

My sticker obsession and love of cutting up magazines and hoarding pretty things has finally gotten me into scrapbook/junk journaling, and I wanted to share a few of my favorite spreads so far ^^ Have any of you lovelies picked up new hobbies lately?

(The green piano [above] and gold Ruckers(!) harpsichord [below] are going on display at the National Music Museum tomorrow as part of a special keyboard exhibit, so if you’re near South Dakota you should definitely come see them sometime!! ;) Other attractions include a 500-year-old harpsichord in playable condition, a stunning octave virginal from the same workshop as the harpsichord, a Späth tangentenflügel - Mozart’s preferred instrument before he met Stein’s pianos!! - and a show-stopping Knabe square piano that is basically the keyboard embodiment of big dick energy. And ten other beauties. There will be demonstrations of all the playable instruments tomorrow, so check it out if you can! It’s going to be so amazing <3)

#scrapbook journal #junk journal #crafts #music student #these just let me get out all my chaos and it’s amazing #shoutout to my angelic boyfriend for putting up with me colonizing the office floor with scraps of paper and shredded magazines

[leggeteconme]

Could I ask which medication is working for you? Ive been trying different anti depressants and anti anxiety medication but not having any luck.

Sure! A combination of Zoloft, buspirone, and Wellbutrin has been working for me, but unfortunately it really does vary from person to person. It took a fair bit of trial and error to get to where I am now, and I’m still working with my doctor to find the right dosages of everything, but these medications have helped me a lot :) Good luck with your mental health journey, and I hope you’re able to find something that helps you! <3

[leggeteconme]

Cozy Sunday - did a little reset of the apartment and took the rest of the day nice and slow <3

#sunday #lazy sunday #sunday reset #cozy day

[leggeteconme]

Spent half the morning Thursday and all morning yesterday (I wish I was joking) measuring the soundboard thickness of this lovely French harpsichord - I was having a great time playing with the magnet gauge until I hit about the hundredth measurement and realized I wasn’t even halfway through… got it done though!!

#music student #harpsichord #grad student

[leggeteconme]

Today in photos <3

• Didn’t take a picture of my morning coffee because I can’t function before my coffee

• Fit featuring a vintage lambskin jacket I thrifted for $7.75 🤯

• The harpsichord that gave me a headache from squinting at the ruler I was using to measure it all morning (it came to the museum in its present condition and is being preserved as a document - how cool is it to be able to see the inside of the instrument with all of the supports!!)

• Quick lunch with as many vitamins as I could fit in to help my headache before I passed out for two hours

• Cookies!! I call them “therapy cookies” - they’re full of blueberries, dark chocolate, and a lot of calming herbs like lavender and chamomile, and they’re divine 🥰

• Finally: studying, splitting a pizza with my boyfriend because he was exhausted and I had too much to do to cook (not pictured, but it was exactly what we needed), and a raspberry hazelnut coffee to get me through a long night of reading about bassoons…

Take care my loves! <333

#grad student #day in my life #studying #harpsichord #food

[leggeteconme]

The best way to study <3

#studying #grad student #food #charcuterie #girl dinner #wine #lol jk it’s pomegranate juice #tipsy studying is a vibe tho