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"Beauty comes from the eye of the beholder”

 Isnt it beautiful<3

 Goodmorning strange ones!!

#life is strange #awesome #awesomesauce #jeepers #creepy #i'm weird #this is what happens #lost and delirious #motivation #exotic

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Arent I Beautiful

Looking at the world sinking deep into the pain

seeping out of me is a voice that creeps

 telling me theres monsters under my sheets

i cry so many ugly around me i cant breathe they surround me

eyes wide open solemnly spoke to them

 Arent i beautiful

Where is everyone around me

 all pitch black my mind runs it relapse

ADHD focus on every detail forgetting to breathe they surround me

heart bursting with anxiety

 cold sweat my apology

I must turn craze hells hot i sit and blaze

lastly i gaze

im shucked up theres a vampire on stage

blood soak dress fazing to a dark strafe sneaking up on me

all is beautiful why cant the darkness be

 just as beautiful

arent i beautiful?vampire says im no liar im impressed you have a deadly desire

in your eyes

 cliche as it comes i see a fire that needs to be raised higher 

preaching darkness to me sit and imagine what could be and

 i go to sleep

#go to sleep #jeffs rap #jeff the killer #vampire #VAMPY #deep #melodic #shaking #anxitey #inner thoughts #artistic #darkness

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Totally me in this picture, freaking hilarious Vampy x)

#vampy #jeff x jane

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All night ive been restless over my cat, Happy and also thinking alot ive thought about ways to improve myself and ive thought about Her especially. I am Nocturnal night time is the best for me its when im most active when my brain functions properly , sure i hear voices sometimes but when i am needed i try to be there try to put myself together for a brief moment but god am i afraid of so many things afraid of certain events just because we live in this world where you need to expect the unpredictable or else you get whiplash at the unforeseen moment.

Right now my cat lays in my lap as i type this, still looking dead trying my best to comfort her, ive wouldve probably died with my bad habit if it wasnt for my cat and the support of another... i was really losing it, my heart felt like it was going to burst my fingers turned frozen and had shakes all thru out my body like i was going into shock i closed my eyes held on to my cat held on to my desires my determination all ive wanted from life i tried to keep my heart to continue its sustain.

Now im worried about my own cat, my friend ...just felt like typing this out for her, for Happy. Because theres alot of fears i ignore but one fear is losing her shes the one i sleep with at night thinking of my beloved which it self is a pretty crazy topic lol and is also a fear left for a better day to talk about, i hope my emotions dont get the best of me in that department and that i keep it together and make something out of how i feel for my little vampire.

I dont want to be alone i stay in my house all day, i need my cat i need happy, and my little vampire is a pleasure indeed 

I forgot what happiness felt like im pretty much a wack out person trying to fit in this norm society , i need life to start working again

It is Morning indeed but for me it is 

Goodnight~

#goodmorning #goodnight #cat #happy #crazy #symbolic #fears #sad #real #from the heart #beautifully damaged #vampy