poemsandwritings

[poemsandwritings]

"I'd tear myself apart to figure you out. To know what goes through your mind, how you feel. I'd tear myself apart to help sew you back together. But I can only break myself down so far."

-poemsandwritings

#poetry #love poem #short poem #poem #writing #love poetry #love

[poemsandwritings]

"Figuring out my own emotions would be like plucking each strand of hair from my head individually. It would be slow and excruciatingly painful."

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#writing #poetry #short poem #inner thoughts #mental instability #emotions

[poemsandwritings]

Rambling rant ahead. I stg as a retail employee I don't get paid enough for this shit. In my experience I walk into the back room have to clean up other shifts messes before I can even start my job and then when I do I end up doing other people's jobs?? Like yo i don't get paid to do the amount of work it should take 2 people to do lmao not to mention me damaging my body slinging around heavy boxes in a fast paced enviroment. Then when I get to the sales floor I have to deal with customers being complete assholes, risk catching c0vid, spots for items being full of the wrong items, and managers asking "you gonna get it done? Is it done yet? When will this be done?" And essentially if I didn't live at home still my full time paychecks would have me living paycheck to paycheck and I wouldn't be able to save up money. Shits crazyy. Okay rant over lmao

#rambling rants #ranting #retail #retail employee #minimum wage #i hate my job

[poemsandwritings]

"It feels like the end.

Is my mind hurting me or is it the reality?

What do I do?

How could I be better?

How can I be enough?

How long has this been coming?

Is it coming?

Is the end coming?"

#manic depression #not enough #am i enough #writing #ramblings #the end #maybe im just paranoid #is this the end #my mind is spiraling #spiral

[poemsandwritings]

"I wanted something tangible

Something I could grasp and hold while escaping the world I'm forced to reside in

Music helped, for awhile

Then it was onto the next fixation

Whatever I could consume

Whatever I could let consume me

Anything to fill the gaping hole

Anything to escape

Anything to feel

Anything to not feel

Anything to not be here

Anything to still be here

Anything to survive

But is it really me surviving if I'm living through characters?"

#escapism #writing #poetry

[poemsandwritings]

"I've never been good at dealing with change. No matter how much I want it, no matter how close it is, I never seem to grasp it and take the leap. There's always the fear things could go wrong, but also that things could go right.

Maybe its commitment issues or fear of abandonment, but I never can seem to hold onto what I want. Theres always that fear there, even when theres nothing to fear. I dont get it."

#writing #venting #ramblings

[poemsandwritings]

"And you'll find me where the lines blur of what's real and what's not. Where Pisces visionary meets escapism."

-poemsandwritings

#poetry #writing #venting #ramblings #this is my coping mechanism #this is my therapy