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cat scratch - venti x self harming reader

IN WHICH; you forgot about the bloodstains.

WARNINGS! major trigger warnings for self harm (cutting), dead dove — do not eat.

g/n reader

A/N! don’t do what i do

you rummaged through your medicine cabinet, pulling out all types of bottles until you found the one you were searching for.

it looked like a regular bottle of pain-relievers, bought from the cathedral.

however, the contents were not the kind of pain relievers that you would expect.

pressing down and twisting it open, the glint of light reflecting on the pencil sharpeners made them look heavenly. almost welcoming.

smiling, you dumped them into your hand— shining each into the light to find the cleanest one.

satisfied with the one you chose, you tugged up your sleeve.

the blood didn’t show at first, but soon enough it was dripping down your arm. the marks you left hardly even hurt— it made you want, no, need to do even more.

as the dripping blood began to dry, finished with one last cut and slipped the blade back into the bottle. staring at it for a few more minutes made you forget your problems. it was a beautiful sight— and with the lack of blood clouding your head, you smiled once again.

you ran your arm under the sink water, the sting hurting even more than the actual act of cutting, and pulled your sleeve back over your bloodied arm.

you could wrap it later, now— all you wanted to do was sleep.

“hellooo, windblume?” venti asked, knocking on your door. “you there?”

fuck.

you forgot about venti.

“windblume?” he said, his voice slightly muffled through the door.

you stood upright, panic flowing through your veins.

“venti? i’m sorry, i slept in!” you said.

you sprinted into your bathroom, almost knocking the door down as you shakily removed any evidence of the night before. you pushed the bottle of blades to the back of your medicine cabinet, wiping the blood stains from your sink.

“love? are you okay?” he said, his voice laced with concern.

“yes, i’m fine!”

the stains wouldn’t budge, where was the hydrogen peroxide?

“i’m coming in, okay?” venti said, the soft rustle of his key making you rub the stains even more aggressively than before.

you needed the peroxide— if venti saw…

“love?” venti said. he stood in the doorframe of your bathroom, eyeing your figure closely.

you looked up slightly and stared at him back through the mirror.

venti walked closer to you, wrapping his arms around your stomach and peeling you away from the sink. his breath was caught in his throat when he saw the blood.

“i had a bloody nose.” you said. the smile you wore to convince him did not reach your eyes.

venti hummed, spinning you around to get a better look at your face. he held your arms gently, as if the slightest bit of pressure would make your body break.

still, the feeling of your sleeves pressing farther into the cuts made you wince.

venti was alarmed by this, looking into your eyes before looking down to your arms.

“love?”

you avoided his concerned gaze, moving to stare at the door instead. maybe you could rip your arms away from his hold and sprint to the door, throwing it open, running to the barbatos statue and throwing yourself off of it.

his eyes widened when he saw the crimson red stains that littered your arms, where the blood soaked through the thin clothing.

venti let go of your arms hastily, covering his mouth with his hands. his eyes welled up in tears as he stared at you in horror and disbelief.

you wrapped your arms around your stomach, backing away from him.

“i won’t force you to show me what’s under your sleeves… but i can’t help you if i can’t see them, my love.” venti says carefully.

you nodded.

your heart pounded so loudly in your chest, you were surprised that venti couldn’t hear it. slowly, you rolled up the sleeves of your shirt to reveal your arms.

“please don’t be mad..”

bloody, wide, gory cuts littered your arms. they painted your arm red and dried into a brown scab, which looked even more painful than they were.

venti’s heart dropped.

he knew what he was expecting, but he could never had imagined this.

he knew he was crying, and he knew that his legs were about to give out, he knew that he felt like he was going to vomit— but his first priority was you.

he shook the other thoughts from his mind and took out the first aid kit that you had. he wiped the dried blood and debris, making sure there was no infections and softly rubbing ointment on them. he wrapped them in bandages, more carefully then you ever would.

tears rolled down your face endlessly as he worked.

venti led you to sit on the floor and hugged you close, holding you tight as if you would slip away if he didn’t.

he let you cry into your shoulder, rubbing circles into your back, leaving most of what he wanted to say unspoken.

“it’s okay, let it all out. we’ll talk about this later.”

and you did.

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#’s

#genshin comfort #genshin x reader #venti comfort #venti the bard #genshin impact venti #venti fluff #self h@rm #tw shelf harm #tw sh relapse

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BOTHER - zhongli

g/n reader !!

WARNINGS! depression, swearing (like once), mentions of not eating.

A/N! tysm for rq again! i hope you like this <3 might be a bit ooc because i’ve never written zhongli before :(

@urcatbf <3

you hadn’t been around zhongli much lately.

sometimes he would knock on the door, or a friend would tell you that he was asking about you. it was nice to know he was thinking of you, but you wouldn’t dare let him see you right now.

for the last two weeks you had spent your time in your room. you laid in your bed, either sleeping or reading books. anything to keep you busy that didn’t take much work.

bathroom breaks were scarce. eventually, your bladder had become too full and your kidneys screamed at you to get the fuck out of bed, forcing you to groan in extreme pain as you walked carefully down the hallway to your bathroom.

the house was dark, dusty, as if the person who once lived in it had gone on a long vacation. the only light was the soft beams of sun that shown through the windows, which let you know if it was day or night.

most of the time, it was night.

after leaving the bathroom, your body still hurt so you pushed yourself to the kitchen. the light flickered on, the soft hum of electricity filling the silent air.

the food that was once there had rotted by now, the only edible thing left was the water.

you knew you had to leave your house eventually, but even though your stomach begged for food, you didn’t feel the need to actually get it.

so, you retreated back to your room— collapsing on the bed, and the process repeated.

after more time had passed, you slowly regained your sense to gather the things your body needed to survive.

you suspected it was morning, the light of the sun shining against your blankets. slowly, you got out of bed.

you tied your hair up, not feeling well enough to wash it yet. you changed your clothes into something more presentable.

you left your house.

zhongli noticed when you stopped showing up at his work. minutes stretched to hours, hours to days, and soon he was wondering if something terrible had happened to you.

“apologies, director, but i can’t help but wonder if (y/n) is distancing themself because i did something wrong.” zhongli said.

“i swear to—“ hu tao huffed, “listen, you didn’t do anything wrong. doesn’t (y/n) get like… super depressed sometimes? maybe it’s that.”

“depressed?” zhongli said, crossing his arms. “(y/n) never mentioned going through depression to me.”

“(y/n) said that they don’t like to talk about it to me once, but it was a while ago. i guess they would just rather suffer alone.”

“suffer? (y/n) should never have to go through anything like that alone. why didn’t they ask me for my assistance?” zhongli says.

“why’re you asking me? ask them!” hu tao exclaims.

luckily, zhongli sees you wandering around, almost detached from the other people in the harbor, a basket of fresh food in their arms.

zhongli walks over to you, offering to carry the basket.

“hello, my love.” you say, voice scratchy from not being used, “it’s… been a while.”

“so it has.” zhongli kisses your hand, smiling slightly.

“if you wouldn’t mind, i would like to take you back to my office so we can talk. of course, it’s completely alright if you can’t.”

you look away, aiming your gaze at the ground beneath you. “i don’t really…”

“it won’t take long,” zhongli says, almost begging as he takes your hands in his.

“… alright.”

“(y/n), you know that i love you, right?” zhongli says, sitting next to you on a comfortable couch.

“of course i do, why?”

“as your lover, i want to feel safe around me. i want you to feel like you can tell me how you’re feeling, without fear of being judged.” zhongli says softly.

“zhongli…” you say, fighting to say the words that you’ve been holding back.

zhongli stared at you with sincere eyes, his presence comforting but the weighing fear of his judgement looming i’ve you.

you took a deep breath, pushing down the negative feelings.

“i’m sorry, for distancing myself.”

zhongli shook his head, “no, i’m sorry for not noticing how you’re feeling soon enough.” he holds your hand, rubbing circles into it.

tears brimmed your eyes, “i didn’t want you to think that i was annoying… or a burden to you. i’m sorry.”

now, zhongli understood. like a meteorite had come crashing down on him, he knew why you were so hesitant to open up, and he was angry.

not at you, never, but at the people who made you feel that you needed to keep your feelings inside.

he leaned in closer, wrapping his arms around you and resting his chin on your head. he felt your tears soak his shoulder, but he didn’t mind at all.

“you are not a burden, to me or anyone. i would never judge you for having depression. it’s not something you can control.”

“please inform me on how i can help you, and i will do my best.”

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TAGS!

#genshin comfort #genshin x reader #zhongli #zhongli x y/n #zhongli x you #zhongli comfort #zhongli imagines #zhongli hcs #genshin imagines

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BUBBLE BATHS - kaedehara kazuha

g/n reader <3

WARNINGS! none

A/N! tysm for requesting! i hope this was okay :)

- BUBBLE BATHS WITH KAZUHA unfortunately don’t happen very often. on the crux, the waves would tilt the boat to where all of the bath water would spill out— which was a pain to clean. however, whenever the two of you did get to bathe together…

- kazuha makes sure that the water is just the right temperature. he wants you to be comfortable, massaging you shoulders or back, even simply holding you to reassure himself that you were here— that you were real.

- kazuha would listen intently as you described your thoughts, dreams, anything to him. even if he has heard them a million times, he could never get tired of your voice.

- kazuha can (and will) use the bubbles as a reason to pile as many clumps of them as possible on top of your head. he will attempt to put a rubber duck on top of the bubble mountain to finish his masterpiece.

- kazuha runs his fingers through your hair, humming a soft tune. he carefully shampoos and conditions every strand, making sure not to tug on it and hurt you.

- when it’s his turn to get his hair cleaned, he lays his back against you as you wrap your arms around his stomach, kissing his bare shoulders. kazuha will close his eyes as you softly massage the shampoo into his head. the sound of the bubbles with your comforting touch is enough to make him doze off.

- the two of you decide to get out once the hot water cools to less than lukewarm. he helps you dry off, making sure you aren’t uncomfortable in damp clothes.

- baths with kazuha are almost rare, but that makes it even more enjoyable every time.

- also, beidou has barged in at least once.

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TAGS!

#kazuha x reader #kazuha x gender neutral reader #genshin kazuha #kaedehara kazuha #genshin x gender neutral reader #genshin x y/n #genshin x reader #genshin fluff #genshin comfort

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WHERE THEY KISS YOU - inazuma boys

g/n reader <3

WARNINGS! kinda suggestive, but no nsfw obviously. heizou might be a little ooc but i’ll fix it after i do his hangout.

A/N! new layout!! how do we feel? i kinda got sick of the pink, so i’m using purple now !! thinking about blue for the next one, maybe red. idk yet.

GOROU -

he loves to kiss your temples.

- gorou is a hardworking soldier! he’s almost always on the go when he sees you. this means you both can’t stop and bask in each others presence for very long. as much as he would absolutely adore to give you all the love he has, kissing your temples gives you both the quick comfort that you both desire. gorou always gets excited when he hears the small giggle of yours when he kisses your temples. it makes him even more eager to get his work done so he can kiss you even more, and get more noises out of you.

THOMA -

he loves to kiss your forehead.

- thoma sometimes pauses his cleaning duties to walk over to you and press a kiss to your forehead, smiling as you wrap your arms around him. kisses with you both are subtle and quick. you two were modest with kissing while he works— given that either of the kamisato siblings may walk in on you both at any moment. thoma saves the more… intimate kisses for later.

ARATAKI ITTO -

he loves to kiss the top of your head.

- as much as itto would adore showering you with kisses all over your body— he’s really tall. so, whenever he doesn’t wanna crouch down a bit or pick you up, he places many, many kisses on the top of your head, and any other part of your face that he can reach. if you two are laying together, he’ll lay his head down and press chaste kisses to your stomach. however, if you’ll allow it, he’ll gladly kiss your thighs, too!

KAEDEHARA KAZUHA -

he loves to kiss your collarbone.

- the time you spent with kazuha was nothing short of peaceful. he has a naturally calming presence, and the two of you could spend hours leaning against a tree or on the crux simply in each others arms. kazuha likes holding you, as if that is how he can make sure that you don’t leave him. if you’ll let him, he loves to kiss your shoulder up to your collarbone when you’re in his arms. he would write poetry about how intoxicated he felt when he was around you. you were the sun, the light of his life, his darling— he would worship you, if he could.

KAMISATO AYATO -

he loves to kiss your jawline.

- ayato works very hard, and you’re the perfect solution to make him energized again! of course, while simply being in your presence is enough, ayato insists that the true thing that will fully recharge him is if you let him prop you up on his desk and kiss your jawline. however, ayato will sometimes get carried away— he just loves you so much! sometimes, he will tilt your chin up for better access to your neck. holding you in place, he knows just the right spots to kiss and run his tongue over to make you squirm under him. yes, this is very recharging indeed. oh, you want him to leave a mark? ayato will make you beg for it, of course!

SHIKANOIN HEIZOU -

he loves to kiss your neck.

- heizou works a very hard job, too! being with his partner is a dream, of course, and what better if he gets to show his love for you in the best way possible! heizou will pick you up my your thighs, moving you on top of him for better access to his blank canvas your neck. it feels heavenly when he kisses and bites there, almost as if you were dreaming and the kisses weren’t real. of course, he’s smiling at the reaction he gets out of you as the marks of his love appear. “what better way to show everyone else that you and i are partners!” he says.

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TAGS!

#genshin x reader #genshin x y/n #genshin x gender neutral reader #genshin kazuha #kazuha x gender neutral reader #kazuha x reader #genshin gorou #gorou x gender neutral reader #gorou headcanons #arataki itto #itto fluff #itto x you #genshin impact thoma #thoma x reader #ayato x reader #ayato genshin x reader #ayato genshin impact #genshin heizou #heizou imagines

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sleepy head - jean gunnhildr x reader

IN WHICH; you find jean asleep at her desk

WARNINGS! none

gender neutral reader

A/N! i’ve been listening to kate bush for 10 hours straight, and i have no intention to stop. anyways, i had a longer fic for jean but tumblr freaking deleted it so this is what i’m feeding you all.

jean had a habit of overworking herself.

you understood that she has a lot of responsibility, but you couldn’t stand seeing your lover asleep on her wooden desk in such an uncomfortable position.

you walked over to her as quiet as possible, peppering the side of her face that wasn’t against the desk with soft kisses to wake her up.

“mm… what’re you doing here?” jean mumbles, her eyes slightly opened.

“come to bed, my dear.” you smiled.

jean sat up, stretching her back. “i need.. to work…”

you shook your head, gently leading the tired woman up from her chair, “i will help you with the work when you’re well rested.”

you led her to the second floor of the knights of favonius building, where she had a bedroom that was hardly used.

you sat her on the bed, untying her hair and gently slipping off her armor. she got into her clothes for sleeping and curled under the covers beside you.

“are you comfortable?” you murmured, your arms curled around her tired figure.

jean gave no response, her steady breathing letting you know that she was already fast asleep.

you smiled, kissing the top of her head that was tucked close to you.

“sleep well, my love.”

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TAGS!

#genshin comfort #genshin fluff #genshin x reader #jean gunnhildr #jean x reader #jean x y/n #jean genshin x reader #jean genshin impact

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embarrassed - xiao / diluc x reader [ separate ]

A/N! i finished stranger things 4 last night and i am not okay 💔 anyways thank you for rq!

WARNINGS! mentions of panic attacks

gender neutral reader.

ADEPTUS XIAO!

xiao held you close as your anxiety subsided.

the two of you were having tea with zhongli at third-round knockout. however, the storyteller’s voice was forgotten when you abandoned zhongli’s table to go inside the tavern.

there, you hid at a secluded table, in an area where customers hardly went, and silently hoped the panic would go away on its own.

it didn’t.

apparently you were gone for a long while, because xiao had come looking for you. he doesn’t always know what to do, but whenever he comforts you- it always works.

after some time spent in comfortable silence, xiao spoke up.

“why didn’t you call my name? i could’ve helped you calm down much sooner.” he said, leaning close to your ear so you could hear him well.

you shook your head, “i thought that i could deal with it on my own.”

xiao scoffed, “liar.”

you bit your lip, blinking away the tears that tried to form in your eyes again. “i just… feel bad.”

xiao looked down at you in confusion.

“you know, for having to do this for me. people stare. i know that i’m embarrassing you. i’m sorry.” you said, leaning against his shoulder.

“you think you’re embarrassing me?” xiao huffed. “you mortals are so…. so confusing.”

“i’m sorry.”

“don’t apologize. you do not embarrass me. i am an adeptus- the only mortal’s opinion that i care about is yours. it doesn’t matter whether we’re in public or in private- i will always help you.”

DILUC RAGNVINDR!

diluc led you to the second floor of the tavern.

he rubbed your hands, holding you close to his chest and whispering gentle words in your ear. this always calmed you, but you couldn’t help but feel slightly uncomfortable thinking of what the others who he sent away could be thinking.

“thank you, love, but i’m alright now. you can go back downstairs.” you said, pulling away from diluc’s grasp.

his brows furrowed, “i don’t have to go back for a while. are you sure you don’t want me to stay?”

“i’m sure.” you smiled to him weakly.

“is everything alright, darling?” diluc said, holding your hand again.

you coughed uncomfortably, “well- i know that i’m embarrassing to deal with. and, well, your reputation-“

diluc shook his head.

“no, you’re not embarrassing. what made you think that?”

diluc tilted your head up with his finger, holding eye contact with you.

“did someone make you think that you are?” he said.

“no… well-“ you sighed, “no. i don’t want to embarrass you.”

diluc smiled slightly, holding your chin with one hand and rubbing your arm soothingly with the other.

“you are not embarrassing- i would never be embarrassed by something that you cannot control.

it doesn’t matter if it’s just the two of us, or if we’re surrounded by everyone in mondstadt,” he kisses your nose softly, “i will always be here for you.”

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TAGS!

#genshin comfort #diluc ragnivindr x reader #diluc ragnvindr #diluc x gender neutral reader #xiao comfort #xiao x reader #adeptus xiao #xiao fluff

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s/o has anxiety - xiao x reader

A/N! tysm for requesting! i hope this was okay :)

WARNINGS! mentions of suicide (only once) anxiety, a bit ooc xiao but i still need some practice writing his personality :)

reader is gender neutral.

xiao doesn’t understand a lot of things about you.

ever since being close to you, the weight of his karmic debt has been lifted slightly. he slowly but surely became more relaxed around you, and he was willing to learn some of liyue harbor’s new customs- even if he thought them childish.

xiao felt safe with you, but he didn’t understand why he felt uneasiness from you- even after you became his partner.

he could tell that you never truly felt relaxed, ever, and he was aware of the unkind thoughts that took over your mind.

xiao just didn’t understand what to do about it.

you tried writing down how you felt. maybe, you could put the thoughts that plagued your mind onto the page and get rid of them.

however, you didn’t quite know how to explain to xiao why you had multiple entries in your diary about the drowning anxiety or corrupting suicidal thoughts- so you decided to just deal with it until they got quieter.

this almost never seemed to happen.

the thoughts repeated in your mind like a broken record as you felt your chest tighten. you wrapped your arms around yourself to ease the shaking of your limbs, but it didn’t work.

you struggled to breathe as the world around you became endless reminders of the thoughts that were now being screamed inside your head.

your throat felt like it was closing up as you mumbled your boyfriend’s name.

“… xiao-“

you couldn’t hear his arrival over the ringing in your ears, but you could feel his eyes on you as you cried.

“(y/n).” xiao said quietly, sitting next to you. “are you okay?”

you cried harder, “i cant stop… i cant stop thinking about it. over and over.”

xiao didn’t know what to do, so he decided to do what verr’s husband does when she gets stressed.

slowly, he wraps his arms around your shaking figure. xiao closely studied your body for any signs that you don’t want him close to you. when you lean into his touch, he secures his arms around you and rubs circles on your back.

“what are you thinking about?” xiao mumbles, just loud enough for you to hear.

“that you would… that you would be better off without me.” you said, stumbling over your words.

xiao sighed, “that isn’t true. don’t listen to it. i need you.”

“you bring me the comfort i never thought that i could feel. you make me want to exist.”

you stayed silent, he took this as a sign to continue.

“i… am not good with mortal feelings. i may not understand, but i want to help you.”

his voice was unusually soft as he mumbled into your hair.

the thoughts got quieter, and you could hear his words even clearer.

“thank you.” you smiled, looking up to him.

his lips turned upward into what could almost be a smile back.

xiao kissed the crown of your head.

“do not be afraid to call out my name if this happens again.”

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TAGS!

#genshin impact xiao #xiao fluff #adeptus xiao #xiao x reader #xiao x y/n #xiao x you #xiao comfort #genshin comfort #genshin x reader

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s/o gets anxiety attacks - diluc ragnvindr x reader

A/N! tysm for requesting! sorry that this one is kind of short haha

WARNINGS! anxiety attacks, not proofread (i’ll do if later i promise 💀 i just wanted to get this posted asap)

they/them pronouns for reader.

blood pounded in your ears. your hands shaking, vision distorted as you moved your legs towards your stomach and wrapping your arms around them- nails digging into your palms to the point that trickles of blood spilled out slowly.

you pressed your head into your knees as you choked on your own sobs.

you felt like your throat was closing up, like you couldn’t breathe anymore, your chest feeling like it was going to explode.

you felt like you were dying.

this made you cry even harder, the hold on your legs tight enough to break your bones. hot flashes were quickly replaced with chills. you screamed at yourself to calm down- but it only made things worse.

“(y/n)?” your boyfriend said, walking over to you carefully. “hey, do you need to be alone?”

you didn’t want him to leave, but your throat closed in on itself- muscles being weighed down as you tried to reach out for him, to ask him to stay.

you shook your head, it was almost unnoticeable, but diluc must’ve seen it because he sat down next to you.

his hands hovered against your arms, “may i?”

you nodded and felt him gently loosening the grip on your legs, moving your knees from your head.

then, he wrapped his arms around you, letting you continue sobbing into his shoulder as he whispered comforting words into your ear.

slowly, you calmed down.

he smiled, a warm smile that was only ever seen by you, moving your face from his soaked shoulder and gently wiping your tear-stained cheeks.

you felt even more drained than before as he laid you down on your bed. he brought you a glass of water and something for you to eat as he cleaned the blood from your palms.

“i’m sorry” you muttered, looking into your lap.

“for what?”

“making you do this for me.” you responded.

diluc gently placed your hand down and lifted up your face, staring into your puffy eyes.

“i do this because i care about you- because i love you. and i will never stop loving you- so please,” he kissed your lips, “don’t apologize.”

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TAGS!

#genshin comfort #diluc x you #diluc ragnvindr #diluc x gender neutral reader #diluc ragnivindr x reader #diluc imagines

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hello, welcome!

here’s some information that may help you navigate my page!

REQUESTS! - requests are open, [ no nsfw ] dm me to request <3

BOUNDARIES! - do not ask me to do or write weird things, you will be blocked. i will write fics for things that may be triggering to some (sh, ed, etc.) so please check warnings before reading.

WHO I WILL WRITE FOR! -

romantic: any genshin impact character that is released anytime EXCEPT for characters that are underage.

platonic: anyone

MASTERLIST!

NON-STOP; diluc ragnvindr x overworked reader

S/O GETS ANXIETY ATTACKS; diluc ragnvindr x reader

S/O WITH ANXIETY; adeptus xiao x reader

EMBARRASSED; adeptus xiao / diluc ragnvindr x reader [separate]

SLEEPY HEAD; jean gunnhildr x reader (reverse comfort)

WHERE THEY KISS YOU; inazuma boys x reader [seperate]

BUBBLE BATHS; kaedehara kazuha x reader

BOTHER; zhongli x depressed! reader

CAT SCRATCH; venti x self harming! reader

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non-stop - diluc ragnvindr x overworked reader

IN WHICH ; your boyfriend realizes that your working too much.

WARNINGS! mentions of fighting, blood, and injury. overworking to the point of severe exhaustion. i think that’s it but idk please be careful <3

they/them pronouns used for reader.

reader takes the place of the traveler.

the commissions you had today were draining.

you loved mondstadt and it’s people, but honestly, you really wished that they would handle their own tedious problems instead of taking every single minor incident to the adventures guild or the knights.

it was only nine in the morning, and you already wanted to back to your warm bed. … at least, it used to be warm.

ever since diluc had decided he wanted to bartend at angels share more often, along with his dark night hero duties, he hadn’t been getting home until the early hours of the morning. you didn’t mind, but this meant that your boyfriend was completely oblivious to the brutal hours that you spent running around teyvat.

you shook the thoughts of him out of your mind as you stepped away from one of the teleport waypoints in inazuma city. many errands had be completed before the end of the day in inazuma, and you didn’t have a break due to also planning on going to liyue, too.

“(y/n)! i’m glad you could make it!” thoma waved to you. he was smiling, as usual.

“hey thoma! what do you need help with today?” paimon said, floating over to him excitedly. you were glad that paimon did all the talking, as you would get tired of if very quickly.

he explained his errand for you, and quickly it was done. thoma gave you your reward, and an extra plate of sakura mochi as a thanks.

you exchanged your goodbyes, storing the plate in your inventory so that diluc could eat it with you later, and moved on to the next person you had to meet.

after running around inazuma for several hours fighting treasure hoarders, hillichurls, a fatui here and here, running around for the shogun, getting teased by yae miko, getting distracted by chests and puzzles, getting ambushed by a ruin hunter, getting struck by lightning several times, and accidentally meddling into your friends’ personal lives, all the tasks in inazuma were done for the day.

you were so, so tired.

but then it was time to teleport to liyue.

you had to meet zhongli for tea first, which was always refreshing after working so hard, and then immediately after you threw yourself back into work.

this time you were mostly fighting abyssal monsters, which was easy due to how repetitive their attacks were, a few treasure hoarders again, delivering almost tofu for xiao (he paled when he saw how tired you looked, but didn’t mention it during your conversation,) and ending with your weekly spar with childe.

you won, obviously, but you sustained more injuries than normal. luckily, your day was almost over as the sun dipped below the horizon. your muscles practically screamed at you to stop moving as you walked through liyue to get one last errand over with. the people around you must’ve noticed how horrible you looked, because they seemed to avoid you.

you slouched as you dragged your feet to deliver the letter that was clenched in your palm. you were so out of it, that you couldn’t even notice that the sun had set a long time ago.

a very long time ago.

the moon was high in the sky when you finally were able to teleport to dawn winery, where you temporarily stayed.

paimon was mindlessly rambling as she floated beside you.

“we had a long day today” she pouted, “i thought you said that you’d postpone your liyue stuff until tomorrow!”

“why… why did i say that?” you asked, putting no effort into making your tone seem normal. you were more focused on not passing out where you walked than that.

“diluc said that he wasn’t bartending tonight. weren’t you two supposed to do an at-home date or something?”

oh.

oh.

you remembered suddenly why you saved the sakura mochi that thoma kindly made for you. paimon had a dawn of realization when she saw how your face turned from “absolutely exhausted” to “how the fuck do i explain this??”

but you didn’t have any time to think of an excuse to why you missed your date with diluc, or why your arms and legs were littered with injuries, because at that moment is when you walked through the front door to see your boyfriend staring at you.

paimon muttered something before speeding away to her room upstairs, leaving the couple alone. all of the staff had retired to bed.

diluc’s eyes softened when he looked at you up and down.

“darling…” he muttered, walking over to you. “.. why?”

you sniffed, curling your hands into fists as you tried to keep in the tears that threatened to spill down your face.

shaking your head, you willed your voice to sound almost okay as you tried to explain why you looked so horrible.

“i just..” you stumbled over your words, “i just got caught up in commissions. i’m sorry for missing our date, i know it was probably gonna be the only time you’re off from work for the next few weeks.. so…”

he didn’t reply as he scanned your features. his hand gently brushed against a small gash on your cheek, feeling the dried blood on his fingertips.

“my love, don’t be sorry. i’m not mad.” he says softly. “just… i know you started your day early this morning, and the staff said you hadn’t been here all day.”

those snitching fuckers.

“i was worried about you.” he said.

you nodded, pressing a quick kiss to his lips, “i’m okay. i just had a lot to do, and i accidentally planned it all on the same day.”

you knew it wasn’t convincing.

diluc was aware of your habits- to work yourself everyday to the point of passing out in the middle of the street. he knows what excuses you made and he knows that you never actually tried to make it better for yourself.

“please, be honest to me.” diluc said, his voice quiet and comforting. this was a side of him that not many people would see.

“do you do this often?”

you opened your mouth to spill another one of your excuses, but paimon appeared and suddenly started explaining what your routine was every day- how your only breaks were cut short most of the time and how you regularly denied help from healers when you got hurt.

diluc could only stare at you with pitying eyes. you hated it.

you didn’t hate him, you could never. just the feeling of pity. even though, a small part of you wanted the attention from him. that small part wanted nothing but to be cared for and comforted.

when paimon disappeared, diluc pulled you gently to the couch, where he left for a moment to get the proper tools to care for your injuries.

you tried to compose yourself while he was gone, but the facade quickly shattered when he got back.

“who did this to you, my love.” he said, his voice calm but with contaminated with anger.

“just hillichurls, you know.”

“this is not the work of hillichurls.” he said.

you sighed, finally accepting that this was a fight you couldn’t win and you began explaining how you got your injuries during the days you spent in liyue, mondstadt, and inazuma.

you felt his hands tighten around your arm, but he remained gentle.

diluc wanted nothing more than to explain to you that you didn’t need to do all these commissions. he wanted you to use his money, so that you wouldn’t be doing the dangerous bounties just for enough mora to buy one paimon meal. he wanted to beg you to take it easy, and bring him along when it was possible.

but you were both tired, so he left that conversation for the next morning.

diluc would not be working that day, and neither would you. he would make sure of it.

[ part 2 coming soon ]

AUTHORS NOTE! woo my first published fic guys!! i’m so sorry if it’s bad lol. i didn’t see anything like this for any genshin characters that i liked so i figured that i’d do if myself. i’ll be making a part two that will focus on more comfort from him soon <3 see you next time!

remember to drink water, eat a snack if you want, get some sleep!

© sadsayu 2022

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