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shipperwithnomister · 2 days

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Play Hangman with me?

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#hangman #idk

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shipperwithnomister · 5 days

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Grass Appreciation Post

I forgot how soft grass is. Why do I not lie on grass more often? This is great.

#happy #grass #touch grass #lie in the grass #spring #im in such a good mood

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shipperwithnomister · 7 days

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I... I tried to kill myself. And I'll see people and they'll say "how have you been?" And it's so hard to say "oh I've been good" when all I really want to say is "Well I tried to die, so not great"

Like life has just been going on as normal for these people, and I've been over here struggling, and it feels so unreal that they don't just know.

How can they not see the guilt in my eyes? How do they not know about my sins?

adult life is crazy because you can be going through the most devastating and heartbreaking things while still having to go to work and do the laundry and grocery shopping

#tw suicide #death #grief #text posts

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shipperwithnomister · 9 days

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*glances at the ridiculously long list of people I follow.*

Do you want me to talk to those people? You fools, this is my safe haven. I post whatever I want, and no one I know will ever find out about it.

So I just saw a post by a random personal blog that said “don’t follow me if we never even had a conversation before” and?????? Not to be rude but literally what the fuck??????????

I’ve had people (non-pornbots) try to strike conversation out of nowhere in my DMs recently, and now I’m wondering if they were doing that because they wanted to follow me and thought they needed to interact first. I feel compelled to say, just in case, that it’s totally okay to follow this blog (or my side blog, for that matter) even if we’ve never talked before.

Also, I’m legit confused. Is this how follow culture works right now? It was worded like it’s common sense but is that really a thing?

#tumblr isnt facebook #tumblr isnt twitter #tumblr isnt instagram #tumblr isnt tik tok #tumblr is tumblr #tumblr is the hell site #tumblr is my secret cave #tumblr is home #i love tumblr #tumblr is unique

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shipperwithnomister · 12 days

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Uh....

I need to stop trauma dumping, screen shoting my conversations, and then deleting all related messages.

On an unrelated note, here's the most recent picture of my dog instead.

*Frantically checks Followers to see who my mutals are* @starryvioletnight @beansnmcnuggets @booitsloki @twentyyearstoolate @cybersaw I'll just tag the first 5 that pop up.

Found this on Twitter, so I thought, why not posting it here and doing a tag game 😊

Ok, I’ll go first

If he is the reason, I’d go to prison gladly 🥰❤️‍🔥

Tagging: @killerqueen-ofwillowgreen @nic-214 @milkyway-ashes @dr-radiation @whitequeen-ofwillowgreen @sunsetdaydreamer @therockywhorerpictureshow @delicatelyfantasticninja and everyone 😊

Sorry if I forgot to tag some of you!

#tag game #5th picture in camera roll

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shipperwithnomister · 18 days

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What if I just.... don't.

#bed rotting #ignore life #depression

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shipperwithnomister · 20 days

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It's too hard to love you, so I guess I have to hate you.

I broke up with you.

I regret it.

I know it was what was best for you, but I don't know if it was best for me.

You're friends with all my friends, there's no way to escape you. We sit together in class and we play games together too.

You're a huge part of my life. There's no way to let you go.

But I need you to hate me because that's all that I know.

So I'll ignore you, and I'll pretend I don't care. Maybe I can be ok with you gone. Maybe I'll survive. But your names around my throat and I want to call you back. I want to run into your arms and never let you go but I can't.

Please hate me.

I need you to hate me.

#i hate you #i love you #help #im not ok #depression #heartbreak

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shipperwithnomister · 20 days

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I don't usually reblog stuff here but this needs to be shared.

Listen up!

You see a post like this? Where OP might hurt/kill themselves? You hit that button that I circled

Hit that.

Click Suicide or Self-harm Concern

Yes.

Fill in the rest of it, and hit submit. The "content you reported" will fill itself in

Tumblr will follow up and help them.

Warning: this is only for mobile. If anyone knows how to do this for desktop, please add it!

This could SAVE SOMEONE'S LIFE.

YOU HAVE NO EXCUSE NOT TO REBLOG THIS.

I DON'T GIVE A FUCK IF IT DOESN'T GO WITH YOUR BLOG'S THEME.

And yes, REBLOG. Liking does no shit at all. This isn't ig.

You reblog, people see it. You don't, people don't see it. This shit's that simple.

This could save someone's life. It's not a joke.

#self harm #suicide

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shipperwithnomister · 22 days

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Tell you how I'm feeling and what I'm thinking? Why would I do that when I could just post all my deepest darkest fears and insecurities to tumblr where tons of strangers can see them, but the people that care about me can't.

#yeah no ones allowed to know #except you tumblr

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shipperwithnomister · 22 days

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Person: Oh, you have tumblr? That's so cool, can I see?

Me, who just finished trauma dumping to the entire internet and posted it all on Tumblr: Um, actually, I deleted Tumblr

#trauma dump #no one can see my tumblr #id rather die

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shipperwithnomister · 22 days

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A rant about my relationship problems and self worth issues!

What do you want from me?

I pretend I don't care and you say "well you moved on quickly"

But when I do care, you say, "I was gonna break up with you soon anyway"

I tell you not to touch me, but you still hug me like you used to.

Do you know how hard it is? How I have to clench my fists or bite my lips to avoid you?

I want to lean on you and call you when I'm sad.

I want to kiss your lips and feel your hands in mine.

I want so much to love you.

But I can't. I'm posion and I can't keep hurting you. I don't know how much longer I can be around you.

It hurts so much. But you shouldn't have to deal with this. You shouldn't have to wrap the cuts on my arms or pull the bottle from my hands.

You shouldn't have to parent me and remind me to eat or sleep.

I am a burden that weighs on you and I just want to set you free from me.

I love you. But you shouldn't love me.

So I'll pretend I don't care. I won't touch you. I'll keep my distance. I won't tell you about my problems.

I know how to wear a mask. But every time I'm around you, it starts to slip.

Why do you insist on caring?!

I don't deserve your affection or attention!

So I'll leave before you notice, and I'll slowly back away until you only think of me as just another acquaintance.

I'll bleed and I'll drink and I'll try to give in to these temporary solutions and I know you'd hate it but maybe that's what I need.

Maybe I need you to hate me.

Because if you hate me, then nothing I do can hurt you.

I'm sorry you've got my posion in your system.

I swear I'll find an antidote.

Please forget me.

#Im broken #depression #tw self harm #tw alcohol

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shipperwithnomister · 22 days

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Oh, to love so much that it consumes and poisons.

The myth of Orpheus and Eurydice always makes me feral, because in every variation of the myth Orpheus loves her so much. He turns because he's terrified Hades tricked him and she's not behind him. He turns around because he hears her fall and instinctively goes to help her. He turns too early because he's so excited to see her again and can't wait another moment.

In every version, Orpheus is a boy in love. And the tragedy is that ultimately, his love is what dooms Eurydice.

#orpheus and eurydice #The way you care for me hurts #Your love posions you #I am a monster and you are the one who loves me #My love is like claws that hurt you when you get too close

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shipperwithnomister · 26 days

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I am Orpheus.

I looked back and I lost my love.

Or if you want to be more exact I reflected on past trauma, didn't heal from it and became too mentally unwell to have a healthy relationship

#i no longer have a girlfriend #i broke my own heart #orpheus and eurydice #greek mythology

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shipperwithnomister · 27 days

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