siriusmotherfuckingblack

[siriusmotherfuckingblack]

What happens once you kill yourself? Because I'm ready to go.

You wanna know what happens once you kill yourself? Your mother comes home from work and finds her baby dead and she screams and runs over to you and tries to get you to wake up but you won’t and she keeps screaming and shaking you and her tears are dripping onto your face and your dad hears all the screaming and runs into the room and he can’t even speak because the child that he loved and the child that he watched grow up is gone forever and finally your little sister runs into the room to see what all the fuss is about and she sees you dead. The person she looked up to and loved. The person she bragged about to  her friends, the person she wanted to be just like when she grew up, the person that made her feel safe. But she’s never really going to get to grow up and smile and laugh and love because she’ll always be consumed with this feeling of missing you. And now there’s something missing from your family and they can barely look at each other anymore because everything reminds them of you but you’re gone and hurts more than anything. and you think that your mom never cared because she was always busy and yelling at you to finish your homework and clean your room and forgot to say I love you sometimes but really, she loved you more than anything and she doesn’t leave the house anymore, she can’t even get out of bed and she’s getting thinner and thinner because it’s too hard to eat. Your father had to quit his job and he doesn’t sleep anymore, every time he closes his eyes he sees his baby dead, and the image never goes away no matter how much alcohol he drinks. And at school your best friend sees that your seat is empty and she gets this sick feeling in her stomach and that’s when she hears the announcement. You killed yourself. And suddenly she’s screaming and crying in the middle of class and no one even bothers comforting because they’re all  busy sitting there staring at your empty seat with tears dripping down their cheeks and all she wants is for you to hug her and tell her it’s gonna be okay like you always did, but this time, you’re not there to do it, everything is dark now that you’re gone and her grades are slipping, she barely goes to school anymore and she ended up in hospital after taking too many pills because she wanted to see you again. the girls who used to make fun of the way you dressed feel their throats get tight, they don’t talk to each other anymore, they don’t talk to anyone, they’re all in therapy trying so hard not to blame themselves but nothing works. and your teacher who always gave you a hard time stares blankly at the wall, she quits her job a few days later. And then your boyfriend hears the news and he can’t breathe, he still calls you a lot just to hear your voice and he talks to you on facebook but you never message him back, he can’t fall in love again because every girl he meets reminds him of you, he’s never going to get over you, he loved you and he cries himself to sleep every night, hating himself and slicing his skin because he couldn’t save you and he’s never going to hold you in his arms or hear you laugh again. Now everyone who knew you, whether they were a big part of your life or someone you passed in the hallway a few times a week, they carry this aching feeling around inside them because you’re gone, and they miss you, and they don’t know why you left but it must’ve been their fault and they should’ve stopped you and they should’ve told you they loved you more and that feeling is never going to go away. And so you killed yourself

but you killed everyone else around you too. 

[siriusmotherfuckingblack]

wolfstars-biggest-shipper:

mystical-marauder:

church-of-burnt-romances:

sunshineandshadowss:

blurring-all-the-lines:

peachy-saladlover:

introvertedscarecrow:

silver-war:

letmefangirlinpeace:

moobrvoobl-moobmoob-oobmpoobroom:

wisedreamcatcher:

lilyevansblog:

annabeth-scamander:

palindrome-k:

lowkeyjustvibing:

letitbefiction:

surviving-an-ocean-of-fandoms:

tinacroat:

anyarps:

i never talk about these things but i can’t remain silent.

i know tumblr doesn’t give a SHIT when things happen in countries outside the “most popular ones” (such as the usa & england). it’s true, don’t lie to me. y’all don’t give A FUCK. not every issue and problem in said countries gets the appropriate exposure but in general shit shows up on the news WORLD FREAKING  WIDE. you set up donations, you help out, your spread the word, you say “pray for x”……

southern europe is burning. 

my country is burning.

people are dying - at home, on the road, trying to run away, in their cars.

yesterday my country had 300 active fires.

people are losing EVERYTHING they own.

i have a friend that is on a train right now passing through places that have been burnt to the ground and she says the smoke is so intense it’s getting inside the train and she can barely breathe.

and yet, even though several people (myself included) have been trying to bring awareness to what has been happening in southern europe… what we get from most of you, those not part of the countries suffering, is silence. we don’t ask for money, we don’t ask for shit other than a reblog to spread awareness… something you can delete in 24/48hrs if you wish. 

i don’t know what to tell you. i’m angry. i’m frustrated. i’m disappointed. i feel like i’m screaming into the void. “a reblog does nothing” - you know that’s a damn lie, you know exposure always helps, you know people start paying attention when posts on social media become popular. my country in particular is a small one, we get ZERO exposure. y’all are only starting to figure out we even fucking exist bc of the shit we’ve been winning lately. 

but hell, if the EU doesn’t give a shit, why should some user on tumblr dot com?

again, i don’t know what to tell you so i’ll let the images speak for themselves: 

An image captured by a Nasa satellite shows a thick plume of smoke blowing southward from the Greek island of Chios over the island of Crete

Torneros de Jamuz, Spain

Duca, Croatia

A helicopter from Italy’s civil protection service drops water on a fire near the railway between Venice and Trieste

Residents take refuge on the beach as a wildfire burns on the mountain next to the village of Lithi, on the Greek island of Chios

Men gather cattle during a forest fire in Vieira de Leiria, Marinha Grande, Portugal.

Charred trees are seen on the hills above the Cloister of Thivaidas on Mount Athos, a World Heritage Site in Greece

Portugal

This is fucking important. I am glad someone fucking spoke about this and said what they had to say. The damage is terrible, and all the evergreen, stone, even the ground is black. I was fucking terrified when Croatia was burning. The fire was near a village where I like and I thought it will burn down. I thought the church will burn down. I thought the cemetery where my grandpa is buried will burn. I still remember the smell of smoke, and when I went to check how bad is fire, my clothes and hair and skin all stunk of smoke. It didn’t go away for weeks.

This is NASA’s picture of Croatia and Montenegro burning. My fucking country was burning. Fucking reblog this. I don’t care that it isn’t UK or US, or that it doesn’t go with your blog, fucking. Reblog. It.

Not my blog type, I dont care.

Reblog for awareness. Do it.

@thegrinningkitten @trialoftheguilty-comic @the-bad-sanses @thewastedwaffle @thewastedwaffle @theundertalehuman @idonthavefronds @kit-kit-kat @the-star-sansess @lights-camera-stagefright @smol-lightning-bug @undertaleau-headcanons @enosstart @incorrect-ibvs-quotes @smol-spook-owo @starlypenguins @laurarose1701 @bellkim27 @definitely-a-living-human @smol-spook-owo @joyfultimetravelbanana @joyfultimetravelbanana2222 @aurellia404 @onebizarrekai @ds-and-ibvs-nerdo @horrordustislife @outcode-crossing @undertalethingems @dryemiddi @skumhuu @bung0us @ask-dreamswap @beruu14 @jmv-au @biggest-gaudiest-patronuses @pukicho 

Boost this or so help me

I don’t care if this “Doesn’t fit your blog theme” or “You don’t think people will notice if you reblog it”

I

Don’t

Care

If you don’t reblog this, that’s a conscious decision to ignore that people are suffering.

And one last thing

TAG EVERY SINGLE BLOG YOU KNOW

I don’t care if you don’t think you’re big enough for them to notice you or you’re worried about bothering them, you do it regardless! I nearly had a panic attack tagging some of the bigger blogs I know of because I’m practically invisible in term of popularity but I still tagged them because it’s worth me being anxious if it means someone gets help.

So unless you don’t care about people dying and suffering, then reblog this and be a decent human being.

@annabeth-scamander @erniediangelo @officialtonystarkprotectionsquad @dreamer-329 @verose-queen-of-hell @kurohiraeth @that-geeky-dude @you-did-it-sir @closetwlw @leapea01 @sweetbutwhateverbaby @herdreamangelcookie @lotus-hotel @radioactive-butterfly @gal-pal-17 @holding-infinity-and-a-book @karathekilljoystanx @queergeek123 @pining-skater @loveimnotparanoidyouare @multifandommoron @notdxbya @forgetful-nerd

Schist. I’ve never been told about this even though one of my oldest friends is from Crete. I’m so sorry.

@its-mooony @certainglitterhologram @anyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa @solangeloiscanonyay @avethepotatoshipper @anyone else who views my blog

This is fucking important! Reblog this and you should reblog it even though it doesn’t go with your theme and all that. Spread awareness in order to save a hundred people’s lives!

@destiny-is-jealous-of-us @james-effing-potter

Reblog this!

@skullsontess07 @cade-flrt @siriusblackkinnie @mylittlekendall

@verose-queen-of-hell @viscountmelbourne @anywhere-but-here-plz @everydoorsleadstoanotherunivers @kurohiraeth

@silver-war @sokka-beifong @introvertedscarecrow @della-vacker-supremacy @bianavacker-is-bi-as-hell

@valkyriesofvelaris @fire-sapphics @zoyyanazyalensky @peraltastarkov @the-whispers-of-moonlight @cortanas-star

@evolving-dreamer @ropoto @oc-growth-and-development @prolifeproliberty @purplepeopleater214 @peachy-saladlover @autumncozy @sapphicconservative @sparkyaura @solobreakfast @someonestolemyfuckingcat @slightlybluebubbles @dearlordwhathasthiscometo @great-another-book-to-cry-over @kolarpem @loveeepoem @catsinthebed-pillowsonthefloor @colorado-conservative @cottagecore-cryptid-cowboy @chicken-roll @nikkasart @notaluna @neonified @midnghtsky @mspence @mallowmeltz @ian-haywire

ALL OF YOU

@stoictea @malikmeweak @motskkyu @kookooki @pine-apple-prin-cess @pissvortex @neonified @gayidioot @digimontamer56 @just-edgy-kitten-thoughts @blurring-all-the-lines @the-moon-high-above @everyone

@mysticals-fantasy @avocadochobe-xoxokittenkissxoxo @moondrop-jellyfish @sunshineandshadowss @firerose @samuel-the-dragon @burn-like-starss @not-dead-only-looks-that-way @everyone 

i’ve 100% rebloggrd this before and i will 100% do it again

@mysticals-fantasy @tributetotheliving @fangirlingsohardithurts @dam-wisegirl14 @damhalfblood @will-solaces-sister @church-of-burnt-romances @kindawannadietbh @princess-kayleigh @bakedpoodle @rorybutnotgilmore @spiraling-galaxy @umafangirl @hotdogsandpopcorn @idiots-of-olympus @my-apollo-gies

@burn-like-starss @chocolateeedonutpie @mystical-marauder @oh-my-tatoes @blushingpizza @hitchhiker-of-the-galaxy @readdreamwrite28 @everyone

@averychaoticcritter @athenapotter @burgeranddonuts @church-of-burnt-romances @chocolate-hooflepuff @daylily-evans @jilywolfstar03 @lloomy @mysterioustruffle @mischiefmanagedx @marauders-goldentrio @mysteriousmarauders @puffleshmuff @perfectly-padfoot @padsmoonyprongs @regulusxmarlene @reggiedarlin @sassycatlady99 @sarcasticsirius @siriuslysircadogan

this needs fucking recognition

tagging people who i don’t know as well because this needs to be seen

@accio @anotherfacelessauthor @andreakalfas @breathtakinglandscapes @chuckgroenink @deadgaywizardasgaeilge @daisy-x50 @enbysiriusblack @fuckyeahtattoos @hogwartshousefriends @i-solemnly-swear-headcanons @incorrect-hp-percy-jackson @juveniledeliquentwrecks @jilywolfstar03 @jahbeautifullove @lupinpettigrewblackpotter @luckylandpatrolthing @lilyevansgf @lumpy-elephant-dung @mischief-marauders @maraudersxa @maraudersgirl1234 @mystical-marauder @noblehouseofwolfstar @obviouslyloony @pathetic-monster @padfootrevolution @phoenixstartedthefire @questionten @remumoonylupin @remuslupinslefttit @real @swifty-fox @slythgeek @themaraudersheadcanons @theblacklupins @tinyshroomboy @unexpectedly-queer @vhsthe1950s @worldofwolfstar @wolfstar-causes-me-chest-pains @wolfstar-jegulus @wolfstar-lb @yesterdaysprint @zackisontumblr

i feel like i’ve reblogged this before but- i’m gonna tag some mutuals and followers!

@moonsaurora @lakeswherepoetsdied @whatevertheweather @bordeauxfrom1993 @warlock-doctor-sociopath @thetoddanderson @queertoddanderson @lady-me-meow @stroopwafeldetective @spacebound-w-splett @disneyintrovert @gr-lestrade @thatweirdqueerkid @herequeerandcantdrinkbeer @enbysiriusblack @mybrownthunder @lucianinsanity @saltvault @diademsandtiaras @cow-chow @flcnnelshirts @siriusblackisgendergoals @literally anyone who comes across this

[siriusmotherfuckingblack]

Hey everyone

I wrote a little wolfstar moment on ao3

It would mean alot to me if someone read it<33

It's called "a little star away"

My username is @swagrid06

Happy monday:)

[siriusmotherfuckingblack]

Am I the only one that gets removed from group chats , I thought maybe the first time it happened, It was because I wasn't active but now It happened again. Or do the group chats get deleted monthly or smt.

[siriusmotherfuckingblack]

HAPPY FULL MOON TO ALL THE MARAUDERS FANS.

#remus lupin #remus #full moon #werewolf #moony #hp marauders

[siriusmotherfuckingblack]

Sirius: should I wear black Jeans or

Remus: BLACK

Sirius: what?

Remus: black

Sirius: what u want

Remus: huh

......

Sirius: soo should I wear black Jeans or blue

Remus: Black Jeans

Sirius: why didn't u just say so when I asked the first time

Remus: *raising his eyebrows and gives Sirius his "are you dumb" look

Sirius: oh

Remus: oh yes

#atyd #hp marauders #sirius #incorrect marauders quotes #sirius black #remus lupin #wolfstar #wolfstar incorrect quotes #dumb sirius

[siriusmotherfuckingblack]

Sirius: Hey Remuu

Remus: Dont call me that!

Sirius: but its so cute! Just like u😏

Remus: ...

James:

Peter: *shocked*

Sirius: u know bro cute, no homo *cough* ehm soo uhmm, I'm gonna go to the library!

Remus: ??

James: what the fuck was that about?

#atyd #hp marauders #sirius #james potter #remus lupin #sirius black #wolfstar

[siriusmotherfuckingblack]

Reblog if you say "fuck" more than 5 times a day.

[siriusmotherfuckingblack]

Who doesn't ♡

i wanna hug remus

[siriusmotherfuckingblack]

Lily: I'm cold.

James: u can have my jacket if you want?🥰

Lily: Aww thanks♡♡

5 minutes later

Remus: I'm

Sirius: have my clothes!!

Sirius taking all his clothes of

Remus: ehh. I was gonna say I'm starving but okay😏

#wolfstar #jily #sirius black #remus lupin #harry potter #the marauders