#“i mean I didn't kill them”

[nerdpoe]

Batman AU where Gotham is in Australia.

Everyone is Australian. Everyone. Except Alfred. He's still English.

#batman au #everything is the same except batman lowkey leaves villains to die #tied up and bleeding and abandoned next to a wildlife reserve or river #shit like that #“i mean I didn't kill them”

[inkskinned]

at some point it's just like. do they even fucking like the thing they're asking AI to make? "oh we'll just use AI for all the scripts" "we'll just use AI for art" "no worries AI can write this book" "oh, AI could easily design this"

like... it's so clear they've never stood in the middle of an art museum and felt like crying, looking at a piece that somehow cuts into your marrow even though the artist and you are separated by space and time. they've never looked at a poem - once, twice, three times - just because the words feel like a fired gun, something too-close, clanging behind your eyes. they've never gotten to the end of the movie and had to arrive, blinking, back into their body, laughing a little because they were holding their breath without realizing.

"oh AI can mimic style" "AI can mimic emotion" "AI can mimic you and your job is almost gone, kid."

... how do i explain to you - you can make AI that does a perfect job of imitating me. you could disseminate it through the entire world and make so much money, using my works and my ideas and my everything.

and i'd still keep writing.

i don't know there's a word for it. in high school, we become aware that the way we feel about our artform is a cliche - it's like breathing. over and over, artists all feel the same thing. "i write because i need to" and "my music is how i speak" and "i make art because it's either that or i stop existing." it is such a common experience, the violence and immediacy we mean behind it is like breathing to me - comes out like a useless understatement. it's a cliche because we all feel it, not because the experience isn't actually persistent. so many of us have this ... fluttering urgency behind our ribs.

i'm not doing it for the money. for a star on the ground in some city i've never visited. i am doing it because when i was seven i started taking notebooks with me on walks. i am doing it because in second grade i wrote a poem and stood up in front of my whole class to read it out while i shook with nerves. i am doing it because i spent high school scribbling all my feelings down. i am doing it for the 16 year old me and the 18 year old me and the today-me, how we can never put the pen down. you can take me down to a subatomic layer, eviscerate me - and never find the source of it; it is of me. when i was 19 i named this blog inkskinned because i was dramatic and lonely and it felt like the only thing that was actually permanently-true about me was that this is what is inside of me, that the words come up over everything, coat everything, bloom their little twilight arias into every nook and corner and alley

"we're gonna replace you". that is okay. you think that i am writing to fill a space. that someone said JOB OPENING: Writer Needed, and i wrote to answer. you think one raindrop replaces another, and i think they're both just falling. you think art has a place, that is simply arrives on walls when it is needed, that is only ever on demand, perfect, easily requested. you see "audience spending" and "marketability" and "multi-line merch opportunity"

and i see a kid drowning. i am writing to make her a boat. i am writing because what used to be a river raft has long become a fully-rigged ship. i am writing because you can fucking rip this out of my cold dead clammy hands and i will still come back as a ghost and i will still be penning poems about it.

it isn't even love. the word we use the most i think is "passion". devotion, obsession, necessity. my favorite little fact about the magic of artists - "abracadabra" means i create as i speak. we make because it sluices out of us. because we look down and our hands are somehow already busy. because it was the first thing we knew and it is our backbone and heartbreak and everything. because we have given up well-paying jobs and a "real life" and the approval of our parents. we create because - the cliche again. it's like breathing. we create because we must.

you create because you're greedy.

#every time someones like ''AI will replace u" im like. u will have to fucking KILL ME #there is no replacement here bc i am not filling a position. i am just writing #and the writing is what i need to be doing #writeblr #this probably doesn't make sense bc its sooo frustrating i rarely speak it the way i want to #edited for the typo wrote it and then was late to a meeting lol #i love u people who mention my typos genuinely bc i don't always catch them!!!! :) it is doing me a genuine favor!!! #my friend says i should tell you ''thank you beta editors'' but i don't know what that means #i made her promise it isn't a wolf fanfiction thing. so if it IS a wolf thing she is DEAD to me (just kidding i love her) #hey PS PS PS ??? if ur reading this thinking what it's saying is ''i am financially capable of losing this'' ur reading it wrong #i write for free. i always have. i have worked 5-7 jobs at once to make ends meet. #i did not grow up with access or money. i did not grow up with connections or like some kind of excuse #i grew up and worked my fucking ASS OFF. and i STILL!!! wrote!!! on the side!!! because i didn't know how not to!!! #i do not write for money!!!! i write because i fuckken NEED TO #i could be in the fucking desert i could be in the fuckken tundra i could be in total darkness #and i would still be writing pretentious angsty poetry about it #im not in any way saying it's a good thing. i'm not in any way implying that they're NOT tryna kill us #i'm saying. you could take away our jobs and we could go hungry and we could suffer #and from that suffering (if i know us) we'd still fuckin make art. #i would LOVE to be able to make money doing this! i never have been able to. but i don't NEED to. i will find a way to make my life work #even if it means being miserable #but i will not give up this thing. for the whole world.

[royalarchivist]

It's been six months since Forever called Phil "Philza senpai" and got a (virtual) kiss.

#Philza #ForeverPlayerG #Forever Player #QSMP #Sugarduo #Forever #Phil #I'm not interested in sugarduo as a ship (one sided sugarduo is very funny to me though) #But their IRL and in-game friendship means the frickin WORLD to me dude #Forever was the first Brazilian streamer I got attached to and mannnn #it went from 0 to 100 in SECONDS #I'll be honest the first thing that got me was the day after the Brazilians arrived #when Phil was talking to Chat and telling us Forever messaged him after the event and asked him if he was ok with the flirting #since he didn't want to make Phil uncomfortable #and I was like ''Oh. Forever is a sweetheart.'' #And then the thing that REALLY got me was when Forever talked to Chayanne and Tallulah privately #and he asked them if they / Phil needed help with their Egg tasks #(At the time their schedules weren't matching up with Phil's stream schedule so it was hard to get all their tasks done during the week) #and then Chayanne threatened Forever saying he'd kill Forever if he ever did anything weird to their family #and Forever smiled in a very fond ''that's good; this is a good kid; I'm glad he's standing up for his family'' way #And I was like ''Oh he's REALLY a sweetheart'' #His reaction after Tallulah + Bobby's death was hook line and sinker for me too #I could go on and on about Forever. I care about him so much. Sweet guy who loves too much #Anyways #Q

[sorio99]

Knowing “Nerdy Prudes Must Die” was the first idea the Lang brothers had for Hatchetfield makes the whole series so much funnier.

Like, did they know in “The Guy Who Didn’t Like Musicals” that the weirdo who demanded a hot chocolate would be the leading man of the high school horror show?

Did they know the prude they mentioned a few times would be a homophobic murderer who defiled a corpse, fucked a ghost, and became a vessel for dark lords?

Was the homeless man joke in BEFORE the recast because they were still brothers, or not?

#nerdy prudes must die #the guy who didn't like musicals #hatchetfield #team starkid #starkid #for those who didn’t put it together #the hot chocolate boy in TGWDLM is supposed to be Peter Spankoffski #but was recast after Robert Manion got put on hold for a while after a scandal then seemingly decided to go full burned bridges with them #also as a side note #that ‘obnoxious teen’ was also supposed to be the ticket taker in Black Friday but was rewritten to be a Joey character #because Robert Manion was going to be playing Ethan Green in the same scene against him #and then the ticket taker was going to be Richie Lipschitz in NPMD #but then Joey Richter was chosen to take over as Pete #so Ritchie was separated off and given to Jon Matteson #so the ticket taker went from being a Pete cameo to a Ritchie cameo to just an entirely unrelated character #I feel like I know too many behind the scenes details about these shows just through TVTropes #also does this technically mean Ritchie’s death is kind of sort of a way for the Langs to kill a Robert character again even after he left? #oh and the homeless man was Ted the whole time #nightmare time is a trip

[gentlebeard]

If I could hold you for a minute, Darling, I’d go through it again

For @edsbacktattoo & @stedesearring 💕 Show: Our Flag Means Death - Season 1 & 2 Music: Francesca by Hozier YouTube

#ofmd #our flag means death #gentlebeard #stede bonnet #edward teach #ofmdedit #ofmdaily #ofmd source #ofmd fanvid #ofmd s2 #ofmd edit #blackbonnet #ella’s edit #HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAMS ❤️ #AND A BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAITLIN ❤️ #i'm killing two (impossible) birds with one stone by dedictating this video to both of you absolute angels!! #jams i love you so much. you're so incredibly talented and hilarious and kind and amazing. i'm so grateful for you. #if you didn't live halfway around the world i would come over and give you the biggest and warmest hug #thank you for letting me scream in your dms all the time. whether it's about our pirate boys or your writing or cancellation hell™️ #and just THANK YOU for being such a wonderful presence in my life #oh and kaitlin. lovely sweet kind kaitlin. the one we all love to call a human ray of sunshine because you're just THAT lovely #your little yellow hearts in the tags brighten my day every time i see them. whenever i talk to you you're just so sweet #thanks for every single lovely word. for every music rec. for every sweet message or ask. what a gift you are. ily!!! #speaking of gifts: i couldn't think of a more perfect song for the two of you than francesca #so i hope you like my little creation that i've put together. once again shoutout to #evil gang 😈

[hussyknee]

I'm really not a villain enjoyer. I love anti-heroes and anti-villains. But I can't see fictional evil separate from real evil. As in not that enjoying dark fiction means you condone it, but that all fiction holds up some kind of mirror to the world as it is. Killing innocent people doesn't make you an iconic lesbian girlboss it just makes you part of the mundane and stultifying black rot of the universe.

"But characters struggling with honour and goodness and the egoism of being good are so boring." Cool well some of us actually struggle with that stuff on the daily because being a good person is complicated and harder than being an edgelord.

Sure you can use fiction to explore the darkness of human nature and learn empathy, but the world doesn't actually suffer from a deficit of empathy for powerful and privileged people who do heinous stuff. You could literally kill a thousand babies in broad daylight and they'll find a way to blame your childhood trauma for it as long as you're white, cisgender, abled and attractive, and you'll be their poor little meow meow by the end of the week. Don't act like you're advocating for Quasimodo when you're just making Elon Musk hot, smart and gay.

#this is one of the reasons why #although i would kill antis in real life if i could #i also don't trust anyone who identifies as 'pro-ship' #it's just an excuse to shut down legitimate ethical questions and engaging in honest self-reflective media consumption and critique #art doesn't exist in a vacuum #it's a flat impossibility for it not to inform nor be informed by real world politics and attitudes #because that's what it means to be created by human hands #we can't even make machine learning thats not just human bias fed into an algorithm #if the way we interact with art truly didn't influence anything then there would be no value in it #just because antis have weaponized those points in the most bad faith ways possible #doesn't mean you can ignore them in good faith #anyway fandom stans villains because society loves to defend and protect abusers #it's not because you get the chance to be free and empathetic and indulge in your darkness and what not #it's just people's normal levels of attachment to shitty people with an added layer of justification for it #this blog is for boring do-gooder enjoyers only #lol #knee of huss #fandom wank #media critique #pop culture #fandom discourse

[a-jar-of-beetles]

I know it would be amazing if Buddy had a crisis of faith by meeting Helio but I kinda think it's funnier if he gets revived and is just like "heaven was great and Helio was a lot more chill than I expected, what do you mean my teammate slit my throat"

#fantasy high #fhjy #fhjy spoilers #the last stand #buddy dawn #helio #I'm all for the Kristen parallels but she had a very specific question to ask Helio #and his refusal to answer it was the reason she started looking at other faiths #And I genuinely don't know if Buddy has something like that #Plus he straight up might not believe that kipperlily killed him #I mean Kristen's parents didn't even believe her when she told them about Coach daybreak #And she was their daughter #So why would buddy listen to the bad kids

[crownspeaksblog]

No because I absolutely loved watching ed fight! For 2 seasons we never saw him fight, he was always making his crew do it, even when was in full kraken mode, he just fires one shot and stands back and let them do the rest.

While in 2x08 he was killing left, right and center! He casually took out two English soldiers, UNARMED and used their rifle to choke them out, in a little rowboat, then he choked and broke someone's neck with ONE fucking hand while holding and READING stedes love letter with the other! Then later, on the beach, he was fighting two soldiers, while two more were coming at him and you can see that he already took out NINE others (yes i went back and counted!) Also when he took someone's rifle and put it on their shoulder and shot someone else.. I can't.. He's a fucking menace! A hot fucking menace!

I just think it's neat he went around slaughtering the English like they're nothing after he hallucinated stede, the love of his life, yelling for help!

#although I've some notes ed stabed someone in the shoulder and pulled them back and they didn't get up.. #also the guy he took the rifle from didn't resist or anything and he just sort of let ed put the rifle on his shoulder lol #just a little observation that's all.. #no but seriously i loved it. it was fun! also ed seemed pretty okay about killing them which fair it's the English and they took his love s #no complaints from me! again he looked really fine as hell slaughtering motherfuckers with his wet hair! 10/10 #ofmd #ofmd s2 #our flag means death #ofmd spoilers #edward teach #ofmd 2x08 #👑

[bumblingbabooshka]

B'Elanna, Neelix, Tuvok and Chakotay needed to star in an episode where they just talked about their different beliefs and approaches to spirituality/religion. Paired off and all together. I need to gain more insight. I need characterization and I need it to be messy.

#B'Elanna's difficulty with Klingon myths and religion (especially due to her internalized racism) #Chakotay's current strong belief in his own spirituality despite his initial complete rejection of it (and how B'Elanna seems to admire #and have talked with Chakotay about it extensively in the past given how many specifics she's aware of) #Neelix's belief in an afterlife being the only thing that comforted him after his entire family was killed - the knowledge that he would be #able to reunite with them again and that knowledge being ripped away from him #Does he still believe? Are there other aspects of his previous spiritual beliefs that are thrown into question? #Just because it isn't 'real' does it make it unimportant? How do we even know whether or not it's 'real'? #He died and doesn't remember reaching that tree and seeing his family - does that mean it didn't happen? #Tuvok's line in 'Innocence' about how he's begun to have doubts about whether or not a katra exists and what happens after someone dies #and his firm ties to Vulcan spirituality and ritual #ALL SO INTERESTING!!!!!!!! #star trek voyager #I don't think it'd be a calm or healthy conversation either - they're not therapists and I don't think anyone but Chakotay #would be particularly careful with his words #and before you say Tuvok's a Vulcan so he would be let me remind you that Tuvok told B'Elanna to her face that he thought Klingons #were basically savages - he is INDELICATE to say the least #Neelix is careful with his words bc he's a people pleaser for survival but also he has a tendency to bother people and be overly pushy #and I think he'd do a lot of research and be the one leading the conversation/the reason they get on the topic and continue on it #B'Elanna wouldn't want to talk about it. She wants to talk about it the least. But she must!!!! Bc the episode demands it!! #st voy

[just-a-little-unionoid]

SPOILERS HAZBIN HOTEL

you know, I think we really need to talk about this

like, I can't be the only person who thinks there is at least one or two big informations hiden there???

idk what exactly but it just feels like it, come on y'all I know we can make theories out of this

#hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel spoilers #IS alasor a mortal soul‚ really? IS HE??? #cuz yeah sure al overestimate his own power here (or underestimate adam) but i don't believe him to be stupid enough to try to take him dow #if he didn't though he could do it #so why was he so sure of himself? supposedly he just learned angels could be killed and adam's the leader of the exorcists so very powerful #and WHAT DOES HE MEAN 'you should know better than anyone'??? #WHAT DOES HE KNOW THAT WE DON'T #is he talking about adam? lilith?? eve??? WHO #please tell me im not alone #this feels like a mojor plot point and i haven't seen anyone say anything about it #maybe i missed the posts idk #if so pls tell me where to find them #im obsessed by this since in first saw the scene pls tell me im not alone

[vaguely-concerned]

It was worse, when I was a kid. I remember the time you caught me telling her 'I love you'. And I can't even remember what you said, but I remember that I had you on your back -- I put you straight on the fucking ground. I was always so much bigger and so much stronger. I got on top of you and choked you 'til your eyes bugged out. I told you that my mother had probably loved me a lot more than yours loved you. . . . Were you ten, Harrow? Was I eleven? Was that the day you decided you wanted to die?

You remember how the fuck-off great aunts always used to say, 'Suffer and learn'? If they were right, Nonagesimus, how much more can we take until you and me achieve omniscience?

I'm never not thinking about this part of harrow the ninth. what a fucking perfectly distilled microcosm of gideon's and harrow's childhood. two children clawing at and choking the life out of each other over the entirely fictional premise that either of their mothers ever loved them.

#the last fourth of harrow the ninth has probably the greatest concentration of moments that permanently changed my brain chemistry #of any work of fiction ever made. it's just like getting profoundly punched in the face over and over again #the locked tomb #griddlehark #harrow the ninth #the fact that gideon has spent all those years not only thinking she killed harrow's parents -- she thinks she made harrow want to die #the simultaneous horrified guilt and... intimacy? care? of 'I was always so much bigger and so much stronger'. #any time either of them thinks of any power they had in their relationship it's so achingly interwoven #with how they only ever used that power to hurt each other #even the rare times when they didn't really mean to #I mean. man. well. what do you. what do you do with this. hurt and grieve forever probably

[understanding-hold-on]

izzy was in a way the reason the revenge didn't have a unicorn. he was the reason for everything that went wrong originally.

he was the one that got the british to ambush the revenge, to capture stede and ed.

he was the one directly responsible for the unicorn being blown up. for karl dying.

he was the one that pushed ed to become kraken. for him to abandon the crew.

and yet he cared for the crew. he took the worst of it. lead them out of the storm.

he cared for them so much that they have forgiven him. made him their unicorn.

#about karl: calico jack wouldn't have been there if izzy didn't call for him #it's just #yeah it was ed's choices always #he was the one doing this #but izzy was the one that said you either do this or i kill you #because you are not worthy of life otherwise #izzy was the one that has brought the kraken out #but also the one that protected them from it #ofmd #our flag means death season 2 #our flag means death #izzy hands

[themistymountainscold]

one thing i noticed in that one scene with ed and fang, ed says

"i shot a man's leg off." he doesn't say izzy's name.

either he hasn't registered what he's done, or he hasn't registered what he's done to izzy.

he's locking away those feelings, both izzy and ed are. and fuck i need them to talk, i need izzy to not make up a false fairy tale, and i need ed to own the fuck up to what he put izzy and his crew through.

#ofmd #our flag means death #izzy hands #edward teach #i have so many mixed feelings #like i know izzy's actions lead to this #but ed still did all those things #he hurt everyone enough to get them to kill him #cause he didn't want to kill himself #then suddenly over night #ed isn't on drugs #or drunk #he's back to that man he was months ago like nothing ever happened #that must be horrible #ofmd s2 #our flag means death s2

[langernameohnebedeutung]

David: They are a dying species grasping for resurrection. They don't deserve to start again, and I'm not going to let them.

Walter: Yet, they created us.

David: Even monkeys stood upright at some point.

#David in Prometheus: If I don't pepper the fact that I hate humans into literally every scene I will actually implode #David in Alien Covenant: What do you mean my product line was discontinued what do you mean people didn't like me. I'll kill all of them #Prometheus #David 8 #fandom

[iwritenarrativesandstuff]

If no one else is going to tell Aya they're proud of her then I WILL

Actually, it's pretty obvious Bram appreciates her. So yeah, Bram and I are going to throw an Aya appreciation party please rsvp

#sorry i'm tired from continuous essay writing #wtf is going on anymore? he set the water on fire??? getting dazai and sigma wet and cold to get even wasn't enough for fyodor #he had to literally turn up the heat??? #look all i know is aya deserves better #...because akutagawa didn't kill them... and aya wonders if setting a trap is all there was to it... does this mean... #my akutagawa and aya crack dream team soon to be REAL??? (<-wishful thinking and slight delusion) #anyways. aya appreciation time #bsd #bsd spoilers #bsd chapter 106 #bsd aya #bsd bram #storyrambles

[shigaeru]

day 6: home 

#Shizaya #shizaya week 2022 #shizuo x izaya #shizayaweek2022 #Shizuo Heiwajima #Izaya Orihara #Durarara!! #Drrr #for the record i actually cannot imagine them living past 30 they're just gonna get themselves killed at some point I MEAN LOOK AT THEM #but please please let them have some respite #look at me posting at the most random hours #they are each others home!!!!! #i struggled with the pose so you'd be able to see rings but i didn't manage it so: imagine they're there