#( ALSO THIS IS SO LONG ? AND LOWKEY SAD )

[doomedclockworkdotmp3]

oohh my goodness would you look at that. its the tristamp version! at last!! ill admit- this has been all but finished for uuhhh weeks! its been weeks. the only thing ive needed to do is the ampersand. that lil "&" that you see? thats the only thing i needed to do. i just didnt want to.

BUT ITS DONE!! its done and if you want heres the links to the tri98 version and the trimax version

#art #my art #digital art #digital drawing #digital illustration #fanart #trigun #tristamp #trigun stampede #vash the stampede #how long ago did i post the progress of this one... i dont want to look.... #OUUUUU BACK IN JUNE!!! #goddd if you thought there wasnt gonna be a tristamp version of this at all you were so close to bein right i was so close to just never #finishing this LMAOOO (crying) #ITS THE FONT!!! I HATE COPYING FONTS!!!! #genuinely this was the EASIEST font to copy and THATS what got me #i mean thats not the only thing ive been lowkey a lil sad but yaknow im always like that so #that arm also... and his gun.... killed me... i remember.... #for a pacifist this man absolutely slaughtered me #also since im here i might as well vent abt my life im sure no one cares lol who even reads the tags #anyways my toilet broke so that sucks ever since i got back from a trip back in early june itd been squeakin like CRAZY idk if i mentioned #it before in the tags of a different post but itd been drivin me wild like i started hearin it even when i wasnt in my apartment id just #hear the squeaking of my toilet at the grocery store. itd been destroyin my sleep fr i felt so paranoid constantly i had no idea if it was #ever stopping anyways the part that had been sqeakin like. BLEW UP or smn i havent a clue what happened but i heard water runnin in it open #d it up n got blasted in the face with toilet water that was miserable. my granma came over to check it out n the same thing happened to he #then my neighbor came over n got blasted too. called my landlord and a plummers gonna come over tomorrow i have no idea when so i probably #wont be able to sleep at all thatll be fun lol #i feel bad for anyone that does read the tags i hope no one does i always feel a little worried abt it bc i always read the tags on posts #but anyways its been a time. life is life is life. its been spittin on me. i wanna draw more trigun stuff #gosh finally havin this finished feels like a massive weight off my shoulders i havent even wanted to draw anything until i finished this

[cheriboms]

doctober day 29: 2023

remembered this exchange from ahsoka show and uh yeah QwQ

#back to the future #bttf #doctober 2023 #doctober #marty mcfly #doc brown #emmett brown #michael j fox #christopher lloyd #my arts #my sketchy wip arts #me when my friend who DEFINITELY has passed away by now irl visits me looking exactly the same as he did when i was a kid ;__; #but hey thats time travel babeyyy #((partially inspired by @doctorbrown post for day 20 ;w; its lived in my head rent free for the past 10 days)) #was very torn on doing smth cute vs smth stupid vs smth sad for SO LONG so yeah this is late >:/ sorry #and i also lowkey am not very happy with it but GRGRHRHGH IT IS WHAT IT IS !!!!!!!! (((: #IM FINE IM FINE IM FINE (<- not fine but will survive) ((((((((: #anyway. 55yo marty be upon ye #and the absolute whiplash of me drawing bby marty yesterday vs old(ish) marty today ;__; #edit: i lied lol the longer i look at this the uglier it is to me GRRRRR IM SO MAD >>>:( WHY DOES IT LOOK GROSSSSSSS

[dykeinthedark]

venting in tags about gender n shit (long as hell) (u can comment and talk 2 me as always :3)

#okay so i got a really masc haircut about a month ago and i know it's just a haircut but holy shit has it changed EVERYTHING for me #like.... i've always leaned masc except 1) before i came out 2) when i was actively in love with someone who i knew liked femmes #and they always described me as a fem. because that's what i showed her. because i wanted to be with her. #but lowkey whenever i'm in a not-impressing-anyone raw-dogging-life-no-crush era i always resort to a very masc style #like masc being my default and i'd only lean fem to impress people whether it's for love or peer pressure in a specific setting #like ''dressing up'' has always been a form of drag to me. like something i HAD to do to fit in or impress my parents (scott favor core) #but ever since this haircut i've realized... i could just BE masc innately like i really don't have to be womanly if i don't want to #which i usually don't. again i have only ever dressed fem for other people. but it's not even being masc that attracts me on its own #it's like. being masc in a distinctly lesbian way. as in whenever i look in the mirror i don't wanna be like a Guy i wanna be a dyke. #like lesbian as a gender identity too sort of thing honestly. okay i've been waffling but basically i sort of want to call myself butch #but i don't know if i like... can?? if i'm allowed to??? #everyone always says it's MORE than just wearing boy clothes and not wearing makeup and having short hair (which i already do all those) #i mean i've always id'd as genderqueer because it literally just means gender weird and i experience gender in a queer way #what's probably the most telling is that my friends (all queer) CALL me a butch lesbian #like every time they do i feel really internally validated. it's not just my clothes but my personality too ig is what people tell me #i have a higher pitched voice relatively speaking but apparently the way i talk is quote ''very clockably into women'' #which?? gender euphoria asf. my best friend specifically he (gay trans guy) always uses butch to describe me very intuitively #people have also noticed that i ''transitioned'' in all aspects except hormonally. like ppl have commented and noticed my masculinzation #but at the same time i always feel rly haunted by my ex relationships because one wanted me to be more masc #(she's the one who came out as straight and would treat me like a man) which i didn't like and i didn't like playing up being fem either #bc now it feels like she (butch) won't believe me if i called myself butch too bc she remembers me being femme #idk i feel like there's her voice in my head all the time that sees everything i do through her eyes (i'm lowkey still in love) #i feel like even though this comes so naturally to me i must be putting on a performance #even though i've actually read stone butch blues and done research into the history and i truly love and id with the culture like i rly do #that im still just a sad imitation of a butch lesbian and can never really be a part of it because i used to enjoy dressing up sometimes #like it's so stupid but can i still be butch if i wore a dress to prom and i think i looked good in it?? #even though i was envious of my friends who wore suits?? that i used to try goth makeup?? that i liked long dresses?? #that i enjoyed stacked necklaces and rings on every finger??? #and tbh ALL OF THAT CAME FROM A CONCIOUS EFFORT TO FEMINIZE MYSELF IN JUNIOR YEAR OF HIGHSCHOOL WHEN I WAS 16 #because omfg it was 2 months before junior prom and i was worried that i was too masc and wanted to get comfortable with being fem

[faggotslime]

In other good news, my partners parents are going away for a month potentially, meaning they have to do chores while they're gone.

Which means I get to go to the farm and do physical labor and be out in the middle of nowhere with no cell service and nobody else around aside the cows n' chickens

#personal #talk #im actually so excited #i‼️love‼️physical‼️labor‼️ #unironically tho #its def the t i like physical work way more now than i used to #but im so stoked to actually fuck off to the woods and be alone aside them #apparently we're also digging a fire pit #‼️ #like youre telling me we're basically gonna make a fort in the woods?????? #its been so long #my burnt out ass needs this so bad #its lowkey kinda sad that i view working on the farm as a vacation to 'normal' work #but if i worked on the farm every day personally i think id still love it #¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯

[guinevereslancelot]

how is my friend's baby 12 days overdue and didn't come during the massive blizzard we had yesterday

#the entire town and most of the state had no power #the roads were basically impassable everywhere #thats exactly when you expect a baby to come esp if he's overdue #like he was WAITING for the blizzard #he wasnt going to come a week ago when the weather was nice and the roads were good #but no update so im assuming still no baby #he was never going to get a better chance to come at an inconvenient time #also im lowkey sad bc my mom pointed out he's probably never going to be able to wear tbe cute bear onsie i got him #its super warm and fluffy and he totes could have worn it if he came on time before easter #maybe not for beey long tho #but its april and this blizzard may have been our last snow 😔 #and he wont fit in it anymore in the fall #we have a slight chance of snow next week but more likely rain #anyway we shall see it might be chilly for a few more weeks and the occasional random day in april or may #but he's def missed peak dress your baby like a teddy bear weather #maybe i'll buy them the size up in the fall it wasnt that expensive lol #anyway my friend lives ~next door~ like half a mile away down a hill then up a really big hill and we couldn't get out of our driveway #but i told her to lmk if they needed anything bc i would have walked thru 2ft of snow if they needed it lol #but they were probably better off than we were bc they have a woodstove and probably a generator and her father in law has a snow plow #i think #so they probably weren't even trapped in the house lol

[jaeyunverse]

only 6 more days for 12th grade to officially finish and my exams to be over. perhaps jaeyunverse comeback with a long fic ????? 😳

#first order of business will be to finish that damn jeno fic #then i will work on one of the valentine’s event fics who’s masterlist i posted Last Year 💀 #i will prob make a poll for that bc idk which one to write 😭 i have 4k for the heeseung one but i’m STUCK #i have 4k for the halloween special fic i started in 2021 ummmmm maybe i’ll buckle down on it too #THE ALICE IN BORDERLAND AU???? i have the entire plot but it is going to be So Long i just know it. #i hope i can finish my current wips before any other long fic ideas come to me 😭 #i have to finish the stupid headcanon series too what was i thinking when i started it #IM TERRIBLE AT HEADCANONS #fffff i only have a few weeks of peace after boards 😭 i have to start grinding for my other exam in june once april starts #i hope i can be more active on this account and actually get some writing done bc ngl i have sm plans for the small vacation i’m getting #but i wanna be delusional too 🫡 #also i have so many unfinished projects here sometimes i feel like abandoning this account completely #and this place is lowkey dead in terms of activity ngl 💀 i will have try to revive it #but then i remember that i put effort into building this blog so seeing it go to waste would be sad #plus i Really do not want to repost my fics for a third time ppl will call me crazy

[deus-ex-mona]

when you can never forget… _(:3 」∠)_

#mad cringe 3am rant incoming pls stand by— #…so i found my enstars screenshots from 2018 and i don’t even remember half of them happening h e l p #there’s stuff like spamming for repayment fes event nazuna niichan till i had 0 dia left… #…and making ship birthday board things for the 2019 birthday events. i made leokasa and subahokke ones s o bs #and i think i saw a makoizu ss from the librarian event? the outfit + blushing seaweed head sure looks like it’s from that event #(tfw you’re the only one shipping this problematic ship lmao) #also speaking of enstars hi are there any other hokke recasting rejectors out there👀👀👀 #hokke’s current va has been voicing him for much longer than his previous va ever did and i *still* can’t get used to his ‘new’ voice lmao #i remember benching his 5☆ so fast the moment i heard his ‘new’ voice post-recasting. sad times. initial hokke was my first 5☆ too… #but the most cringe memory i have of enstars is… downloading it thinking it was a haikyuu game bc subaru lowkey looks like hinata. #in my defence i couldn’t read japanese back then ok. i was so confused when they told me to pick an idol unit bc ‘where my volleyboys at???’ #i really should’ve realised something was up when i saw hokke (or as i thought he was back then: haru from the swimming anime) appear smh #it took me like 2 months to get through the tutorial bc i was so confused. 0/10 experience; should’ve quit enstars on the first uninstall #but lmao i still have the og enstars app unupdated on my old phone. it still has the dumb 4th anni thing on the icon. time flies… #and well if you read this for some reason or other… go listen to ‘crush of judgement’ or ‘sei shounen yuugi’👀 they’re the best songs (imo) #also nazuna niichan is the bestest boy and prettiest boy and the cutest boy and have you seen his frozen ice card it’s so cute and aaaaaaa— #also now that that’s done can i talk about my 3.5 year long love live phase— #ok i think i got enough cringe out of my system for now. #tune in in a few hours for (maybe) more cringe tag blubbering about shin jidai this time (provided my dvd comes in today dhl p l s—) #it is suiyoubi my dudes #inedible blubbering

[beelzzzebub]

me every other day almost accidentally posting my real name on this site because for some reason i keep forgetting that y'all don't know me irl and this is supposed to be a sort of anonymous blog

#it's whatever #although i did have a nightmare once that i like posted my full name and location and a bunch of like really important information #and then wasn't allowed to delete it for some reason #and i was like super panicked about it #anyways it's chill #but also lowkey a bit sad bc i do really love my name and i wish i could share it with some of you guys! #but also like #anybody i know or have known irl would totally be able to id that #and i'm also super paranoid in like internet safety terms #so i def don't feel comfy sharing that just like generally #but also i'm like so happy that bee is what i ended up being called on here bc that's like really nice :) #anyway #i've thought a lot in the past about what it would be like to have another name #i always liked the thought of a gn name like dylan or something #or maybe not having a name that people consistently mispronounce #but like i'm kind of chill with it now #like i have my grandma's names and i never met her but i really appreciate that #anyways this has gone really long and off topic #sorry lmao #ok bye #boink

[estheticpotaeto]

Finished TMA and i have so many thoughts and feelings but the most important one

WHO THE FUVK IS LISTENING TO THE TAPES???????

#MAG 200 #is it us? #is it the web? #IS IT JON? #WHO IS IT I NEED TO KNOW? #i put off the last 3 episodes for TWO WEEKS #delayed gratification #but also i have a small feeling that i waited too long #cause why am i lowkey..... #kinda dissapointed #tma #jonny sims #martin blackwood #jonmartin #i love them so much #im so sad #the magnus archives

[heretodefyfate]

Damn, i'm not sure if i'm more glad or sad that flora and Fern weren't able to meet each other

2 insufferable people with green hair either having fun talking trash about others or Flora even annoyes at Fern's egotistical ass

#pkmn reborn #Kudos to Laura for shutting her up. Well. Sorta. ''Kill them with kindness'' i guess #Flora making fun of Heather is ''funny'' because ''why are you bullying a kid?'' #I do lowkey feel second-hand embarrassment when Elias talk like that. #Poor Bennett. Man. Sad that MC couldn't say anything back at Flora. At least i'm happy i could offer a comforting word to Bennett #Also like. What happened to PULSE abra? Like...it's just chilling out in the wild now? Being confided like that for so long. Would it- #Affect how it gonna function? #Flora continue to be one of my fav rejuv char. And by ''fav''. I mean. Love to hate. The scene which her rage-punching the monitor is now- #More satisfying upon rewatching

[oceanmoss]

wait i need advice . i also need to stop treating the cat like she's my goddamn daughter bc she's not and i'm young and childless so these r some nice affirmations . i still can't sleep overthinking this shit . i also dk what to do and don't think i can do anything anyway wtfff

#ok so remember the other cat that decided to just . live w zanjabeel for the fuck of it and he looks like a fanxy housecat #anw he's a bit older than zanjabeel my baby who's only 3 months :( #AND i thought this new bitch is neutered but ig not??????????? and she isn't???????????? and now what i don't want him to hurt her or smth #and she hatws his guts but just doesn't mind him living around as long as he doesn't get close to her #but they keep lowkey fighting anyway but they're also chill but idk #ANYWAY WHAT IF THIS IS A CRY FOR HELP AND IM IGNORING HER OR SMTH #I'D KILL HIM WITH MY BARE HANDS #he's so calm and chill and sweet tho he's not like aggressive she's way more aggressive with him #and he's homeless and spoiled and sad and he'd prolly die if i just set him back to tje street #but i also dk who his owners r so i can't just put him up for adoption yk???? #well fuck me anyway #delete later bc -_- #🧷

[foreverxdaydreaming]

mdzs watching me finish tgcf practically overnight after having abandoned it:

#13 short eps > 50 long ones #and i only just found out there's a s2 so.. i know what I'm gonna be doing real soon ✨ #tldr ive been watching some animes on netflix lately and got REALLY into this one #hoping romantic killer will be good. a friend recommended it to me bc she said it reminded her of me lmaaoo #my happy marriage was nice but also like jfc it had so many real sad and haunting parts too. lowkey hoping for a s2. had a nice cast/plot #uuhh been all over the place watching like stand up and bake off and stuff in between idk #ooohhh and frieren! abt halfway thru that one bc i was watching it w a friend #and trying to finish s2 of the restaurant show. and we were rewatching wotakoi bc it was cute #i might rewatch vanitas at some point bc.. bae <33 #jj.txt #aerin.txt #my post #misc. #tagtalks

[maraczeks]

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#UGHHHHH i cannot express articulate how much i miss her im lowkey highkey disappointed we didn't get to talk like nutcracker #like i'm so happy my heart is so full but i'm xelusionallllll conversations in my head did not happen #n i just. wanna talk imsojejdkooo #whatever. #LIEK WHATEVER ITS FINE i'm normal #idek #like i'm so so happy i saw her n hugged but it was so short im so sad and idk when i'll see her again either #i need 2 get out of my head #i am also so sleepy #just tongue tied and speechless i guess 😃 clown. fool #feb 11 2024 #quite embarassin but yeah no i miss seeing her o. a regular basis #feb 12 2024 #sorry for 🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️ #i'm having withdrawals i looked forward to it for so long and it went by so fast and it was so fun but so short n i wanna go ! back !!!!! #it went so fast #AND that i always forget to take photos😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 rip selfie w teal u will always be missed #when i enter my s********r arc just to keep in touch with her GAUEYJERNEJHERHFJKSJDJDAJDHJ BRO i just want to be her friend and have reasons #to hit her up like how do you move on and progress #LIKEEELIKE MAYBE Maybe just Maybe i am delusional but i feel like if sarah theresa n her n i hung out it would be so fun i am so delusional #omg get help soon❤️

[thefunniestguy]

hang on i'm gonna yell about season2 in the tags more bc now i'm . thinking so much

#SEASON 2 BABY !!!!!!!!! #i'm so curious of the plot . bc season 1 wrapped up nicely imo #BUT I WON'T COMPLAIN I LOVE MORE AT CONTENT #as long as it doesn't get into like . yk . where people milk a series or franchise Dry because it rakes in money #but AT has soooooo much lore and sooooooo so many good characters that atp i'm convinced that's lowkey impossible #they can realistically talk about things that we don't wanna hear but they would Not run out of content possibilities #i also am gonna die waiting again for s2 . i am fine and willing to wait bc Obviously i don't want this to be rushed . i'm jsut impatient #and it makes me kinda nostalgic [???] esp bc i remember a friend i had before f+c released . like before the trailer . when there was just #the bare minimum known other than it was in the works . and i remember talking with him about it and being So Excited #and anyway i haven't talked to him in ages and lost contact even before the trailer so i hope she's well . season 2 bestie [explodes] #UMMM ANYWAY . WANNA KNOW WHAT MAKES ME SAD #if there's no betty in s2 ......... bc i feel like they wrapped up all they wanted to do w her character ................ #give me a season 2 where's it's just betty . i don't care if it's just 10 half hour episodes of betty just sitting there

[emmaspolaroid]

vent art?

#I lowkey feel like this is Very Vulnerable for me to post when it’s….. hardly that at all hahahaha #my eema plush is the perfect size and shape to hold while I’m having a Cry (<- is a crybaby and discovered this immediately) #very good impulse purchase that was planned months in advance #anyway. I’m okay I just feel stuck and like I’m running out of time and have been hermit-ing up as a result which i know is not good for me #making myself break out of it today! 🤠 texting all my irl friends back finally and redownloading discord once my nanny baby goes to sleep #(I hadn’t opened the app in so long it Offloaded. sorry dudes my bad.) #okay now I’m going to focus on the good! my new glasses are out for delivery and i won’t be on my period during my trip and FOB!! SOON! #i have an incredible partner who loves and supports me and always jumps in to defend my craft and skills he is so handsome and good #my hair is purple!!! sometimes i forget then i remember #pasta literally exists. hard to be sad when there are so many pastas in this world. and so many sauces? incredible. life is so beautiful. #my skin flare up finally cleared and my tattoo is unharmed :’) and the fic I’m most proud of is nearing 100 kudos which is crazy to me #Omg my OTPs also literally exist!! Rotating them around in my mind forever and always

[prettyboylovemail]

kinda want to start a new selfship blog from scratch tbh…

#I’ve had this account for a really long time so part of me doesn’t want to like… abandon it #but on the other hand — I kinda just want something new?? #I don’t interact with the community much anymore and I also feel like I’ve lost a lot of friends/mutuals and it lowkey makes me sad #I kinda just want to start over with a clean slate #ino rambles