#(also ignore that its 5 am....)

[treasureplcnet]

also quite obsessed with karl being as detached from the story as he is. there's nothing that makes him have to be the detective that has to be involved, but he unknowingly dooms himself by agreeing to work with the KYAL cult. every other detective basically deals with elias head on except weissman, who only meets him right before he kills him. like he's right when he says "by my choices" because everything that leads him to being mixed up with the mannix cult is himself. it's the gambling debts and the choice to do the dirty work for an organisation he knows nothing about. he's the only one that doesn't encounter that body doing police work and it's specifically because he's told to cover it up. he gets himself into the mess and eventually fixes it but the fact that esther always dies in the doomed timelines and he's always too late even if he starts wanting to change things ("till this child. esther.") it just makes me very ill

#sorry jane who heard this on her dms but now im posting it to tumblr cause im having a category 5 woman moment. AND ALTERNATIVELY: #i am also EXTREMELY obsessed with how its a time loop and the idea (so sorry tumblr user whose post i have lost and was inspired by) #weissman was just so fucking hard to deal with that they made sure that he was in their pockets. i just like the idea of the loop-- #--having like. fixed points that elias would need to ensure the dystopia (body is covered up/the investigation closes/etc) but #how they get there is a slightly slower process and the earliest loops were the messiest/most unpredictable #and what we see in the show itself is like. the most streamlined version over hundreds of loops and attempts #so karl specifically. lonely that he is and determined to survive. AND with a cruel streak against people he doesn't like #kept nearly blowing their operation so they began to incorporate him in it instead #there's also another tragedy in there if /esther/ is what they realise works best against him.. #just love and kindness for a girl that weissman comes to see as family and they immediately exploit it after learning during an early loop #im ignoring specific plot points here (polly seemingly panicking when esther shows up at the station) but I DO NOT CARE. #THERE'S ANGST HAPPENING RN. IM CREATING SCENARIOS TO HURT ME #now if i could write coherently this would be written as a fic but im stuck writing too long textposts #karl weissman #bodies 2023 #bodies netflix #sorry to the other detectives. weissman in particular is my babygirl who i devote most of my brainpower to #personal

[hybbat]

You know I've had a lot of posts on my dash about Lizzie including 3 fics... And all of them are about how she is ignored for the men.

I've not seen any of the content they're complaining about, and I've not seen any of the content they're asking for...

You know you can just... make content about Lizzie. Instead of content about the lack of content. You can just draw her or write about her or make headcanons and essays about her, instead of about how there isn't any.

We get it, nobody is talking about her. So, please just actually talk about her?

#id certainly love to see it but no ody is actually talking about her in favour of complaining that nobody is talking about her #its a really weird typw of irony #seriously the first thing i saw about lizzie on my dash like an hour after episode started dropping was someone already complaining #about it being made about jimmy before id even seen any posts about jimmy #secret life spoilers #traffic spoilers #but yeah just... make stuff? instead of souring the whole thing? #im also sick of hearing about the men lizzie is ignored for... and its these exact posts that are doing it and spreading it around #instead of being upset fans of jimmy are happy his 3 year 5 season long plot has concluded #posts ill def regret when i wake up but its 4 am and im so tired of not having any positive lizzie OR jimmy content on my dash #cause people are either complaining or too scared to be percieved as Part Of The Problem to make things for the characters they care about

[martyrbat]

youre allowed to have at least one (1) mental breakdown in the summer without it counting btw. its a freebie for enduring august.

#not to be vague but. something happened. #<- light hearted i prommy i just had a mini psychotic episode & seizure LMAO #BUT ANYWAYS.... HI.... HOW ARE YOU MY BEAUTIFUL FRIENDS.... #my blog has a long queue so i dont think anyone missed me buT i missed you all.... #ransom note #(also ignore that its 5 am....) #(i gotta binge my mutuals accounts later but im about to go to work with a migraine and lowkey still in a manic episode) #(im just desperately waving and tapping the window at all of you)

[snepdragon]

"thought about Hypnos from the hit game Hades (2018) for a second too long" incident 58 dead 367 injured

#snep rambles #i could write an essay but it all bois down to im so sad #they only start accepting him when hes useful to them and does his job #they all see him as useless and a bother UNTIL HES USEFUL #and then suddenly they like him #he just wants to hang out with his family but his brother hates him and his mom ignores him #even zagreus is mean to him sometimes #can you tell hes important to me #and also he literally cant help dozing off its PART OF HIM #and they hate him for it #id love to replay hades but im gonna lose it if i have to see people being assholes to him gor no good reason #and thanatos only apologises to him when hes useful im going to bite my hand off #i cant remember if nyx ever apologises #but i do remember nyx not allowing hypnos to call her mom #nyx is a better mom to zagreus than she us to hypnos #dont me wrong flawed characters are good and i think shes a good character im just sad about hypnos ok #its almost 5 am

[bookofmac]

Deadloch Speculation: Killer Edition, major spoilers to follow

Okay, so with the revelation that the killer's profile is that a man looking for validation, and also has access to vehicles owned by William Carruthers (possibly being will himself but we'll get to that). This implies that the man is someone who is friendly with the women of the time, unassuming, but also able to access the pentabarbatol. And so, here are my suspects with Pros and Cons to their likelyhood

William Carruthers

Evidence- He's named in the penultimate epsidoe, he's been a chekov's gun all season with his distictive shoe in the painting of him and Margaret being pointed out twice. It could be part of the subverseive comentary of the show that we Don't get to meet the killer before he's aprehended, or he might be going under another name and avoiding

Counter Arguement - We have not seen this man once outside of a painting. Could be the final red herring, does he exist or is Margrette using him as a smoke screen. (i've also seen some speculation that William is pre transition Margaret which while being a common trope in crime and horror fiction it still feeds into the 'trans/gnc psycho killer' trope and I don't think I want the Kate's to tackle that in the current political climate)

Ray 'Pies' McLintock

Evidence- Skye's best friend and works at the bakery. The male character who isn't an active shit cunt. we 'know' the most about him. Donkey was ill so could reasonably have needed pentabarbatol. it would be narratively devistating for the centeral cast if he were the killer, came to Deadloch 'looking for love'; perhaps this means female validation? Not for nothing he dresses like a fisherman

Counter Arguement - Seems to be unable to swim/swim confidently, wobbily access to the Carruther's family

Gez Rahme

Evidence: Organised the Movie at the lake on the day it happened and would be a hell of a coincidence for the bodies to come up during the movie, has easy access to Alyena's GP practice, In every episode of the show, seemingly very competant and just wants things to be chill for his wife? as one of the higher managers of the Feastaval he may have the easiest access to the Carruther's car.

Counter Arguement: the Actor who plays Gez is Trans masc, and while that can play with some of the gendered assumptions of the killer, it also falls into the same nasty transphobic tropes that has already been discussed with the William entery. Wants things to be chill for his wife.

James King

Evidence: physically fit (cyclist), seems to be willingly obtuse to how much HE'S been fucking over the investigation (tarp incident, not being clear about what's come up in the forensic reports), has access to the investigation and would be able to be 1 step ahead.

Counter Arguement: he barely seems to care about anyone other than himself so why would he kill the shithouse men in town?, also constantly stealing abby's ideas which seems to be in conflict with the idea that the killer wants to be acknowledged as this sorta white knight vigilante. Started being involved with Abby while she was his student at uni which while not illegal makes him a shit cunt with ethics that don't align with the killers appear to be. no known connection with the Carruthers siblings. Was in Perth at roughly the time the car would have been driven into the water.

Where I sit on all this

I think it's Ray. It makes the most sense and Eddie is gonna go off her tit at him and I think that'd be something the Kates would write. I also think there is a chance that Ray is somehow connected to the Carrruthers, possibly being William or William's son but that is much more tin-foily. I also think that James is in on it/ knows who it is but is keeping quiet for currently unknown reasons.

Please if anyone has any evidence or points to support or counter what i've listed please reply/respond! I'm really enjoying the mystery of the series

#this is barely editted so if there are mistakes and misspelt words ignore em #deadloch #deadloch spoilers #deadloch speculation #cw: dicussions of transphobia #lemme know if thats the right tag to use here #and i am mentioning bc i have seen some speculation and its a bit yikes in a show where they dicussed the gnc killer trope in ep 5 #there the two posts from pinselwurm that i really like and i largely agree with their point that it's probably ray #but i think there's gotta be an extra twist as to who ray is #bc we know a bunch of stuff about the guy but also nothing at all #Long post

[bisexual-birdy]

i’m sure this has been mentioned but we need to take a second to appreciate the character growth dean has from season 1 to 4. he used to be the attacker, the shoot first ask questions later, don’t question orders and follow dads lead kind of guy. he was raised that way, raised a soldier. but his interactions with early, god’s soldier cas really shows that he grew out of that mindset. its almost like a mirror of who dean used to be before he realized that john actually wasn’t a perfect man and fucked up a lot. him saying that you always have a choice??? think he learned that the hard way when he disobeyed his dad by saving sam and selling his soul. i think dean regaining control over his own free will because of his dedication to protecting sam, and it being made really fucking clear through cas, is going to be the end of me

#not sure how coherent this is #its 4 am and i’m on s4 ep7 #the way cas is acting is so funny to me because like #in 1.5 seasons he’ll literally be leading a civil war against heaven #and it’s also really fucking sad because his wings aren’t broken #and he still has all his grace #s4 cas makes me have severe urges to protect the shit out of him #also misha collins is so pretty???????? #young cas is *chefs kiss* #dean winchester #deans love for his brother pushed him to grow as a person #and i am so here for it #watching this as a much more mature person and i honestly still find this show incredible #supernatural #sam winchester #castiel #like seasons 1-5 are actually so good????? #i always ignored them bc of the homoeroticism #of season 7-9 #but man i was missing out #anyway my bad for the late night post

[mymarifae]

i don’t think i’m ever recovering from this one. like guys i don’t think you’re ever going to hear from me again this is it i have to go get hit by a car. again. i feel like this

#the way this CATAPULTED itself into my top 3 prsk covers when i heard the like 10 second in game preview ALONE............................. #it's BEAUTIFUL ? FULL VERSION IN MY HANDS NOW PLEASE OR I WILL NOT SURVIVE #the medley of their voices in the chorus... airi's lower range being utilized to its full potential...the. all of it. the whole thing. HARUK #A #AAAAAAAAAAAAAA #prsk fans that ignore mmj (and l/n) are missing out like leave the boys alone for 5 minutes and appreciate everything mmj has done for you. #... but also keep ignoring them because that means i'm less likely to see rancid takes about them #i suffer enough. do you know how difficult it is to behave when i see people being wrong about akito. it's very difficult #i am always on the verge of causing an international incident. #and i WILL cause one if i ever have to see copious amounts of bad takes about mmj and l/n #anyway top 3 covers in this game are now 1. THIS. DEEP SEA GIRL MY LOVE. 2. daybreak frontline (it's my comfort song but this ^ goes crazy) #and 3. meru

[carcarrot]

i did tell you people i met a they might be giant right.

#I DONT THINK I DIDDDDDD like an insane person i left out one of the most bonkers moments of my california vacation #saying it now makes it seem like im making this up and the following story will seem made up but dude just trust me. #im fucking. ok sunday morning the morning of Thee Concert and i (used to waking up at 4-5 am) have been awake on and off since like 6 am #my friend? asleep. #now i enjoy waking up and falling back asleep for a couple of hours however by like 9:30 im starving i need BREAKFAST #like the very nice friend that i am i dont wake my friend up i let him sleep and leave him a message on my open laptop screen #because the fucking hotel room doesnt have a pad of paper?? so i leave my modern post it note of a message #saying that im going out for croissants and coffee #because im an idiot i severely misjudge how hot it's already gotten in los angeles in july #ive chosen to wear jeans (bad idea) and a long sleeve flowy black shirt (worse idea) #i also dont look my Greatest because my friend had been telling me dont wash ur hair before we curl it for the concert!!! #so this is my hair after flying in and everything the day before (It Needs To Be Washed) #im following google maps to the coffee place as i brave the streets of los angeles on a sunday morning #hollywood boulevard around the chinese theatre is insane btw. insane. but being from new york i am unfazed (well. a little fazed) #i am Sweating. its already gotta be 80 degrees. im also reaching critical hunger levels. but i continue on my journey #google maps leads me down a sidestreet and tells me to turn down some alley and im like well thats not right. #so i turn to go back the way i was headed and find another way to get to the coffee place #as i turn and head back up theres a guy going down this same block heading in my direction #i look at him and im like hey that guy kinda looks like oh my god it actually is him. mr john l of tmbg fame #and so i have a split second decision of like do i sayyyyyy something do i just ignore him while geeking out #somehow i decide to be bold and im just like gdjgmm hi excuse me i recognize you uh do you mind if i could get a photo #he was very nice and suggested we move into the shade and i took the photo trying to turn off google maps before i did #and i was like aa im seeing you in concert 2nite love your music thank u! and we went on our way. #i think i kinda like. stopped for a moment before i went on to the cafe and was like. that just happened??????? insane. but it gets better #i do finally get the coffees n croissants btw and get back to the hotel after melting in the heat #and my friend who likes tmbg better was losing his mind once i finally told him #so the following morning after our spars concert insanity we have breakfast at a diner and then head back to our hotel #and he's wearing a tmbg shirt he got and im in a spars shirt and as we're walking back a car horn honks near us #AND ITS BOTH THEY MIGHT BE GIANTS IN A CAR and they say hi and are like we like your shirts! #and my friend and i are like losing it but trying to be cool and like oh thabk you we loved your show hi! so theres my insane story

[daughterthethird]

#I AM I AM I SWEAR #ignore the fact that im on tumblr rn #IM CURRENTLY TRYING TO SCHEDULE OUT HOW IM SEPPOSED TO STUDY LIKE 8 DIFF SUBJECTS IN 5 DAYS #i also have another secret assignment i didnt tell you thats due today so teehehe (AAAARRARRARHGFFHGGHHJGRHHGHGJHHHKRHHGNHJHH) #WISH ME LUCK IGGS!!! 🫶🫶🫶 GOD KNOWS I NEED IT. #EDIT: i just recounted and its actually 11 subjects. SIIIIIGGGHHHHHHHHHHH..

[fertbutt]

I'm very glad the Nimona movie was pretty good not only because i loved the graphic novel and the movie went through so much turbulence just to be released, but also because i got into several arguments in tiktok comment sections with people saying it was gonna be bad and i cannot handle when people dislike things i like

#its like a 7/10 or an 8/10 i think #assuming a 5/10 is like a regular schmegular movie #also one of the commentors said 'they canceled inside job for this??' in response to the trailer and like #first of all no they did not thats like saying 'they canceled i am not okay with this for inside job??' the two are not related #second of all. inside job is not that good #sorry it was rlly unfunny and kinda boring #sucks that it got canceled but i wont miss it too much personally #and thats ignoring the potential antisemitism and the time the alien mushroom character called a black kid 'tyrone' in the 80s episode #anyway yeah sorry but nimona was pretty good if you like gay cartoons for children like i do #nimona

[scattered-winter]

horrifying self recognition through the other aside this has been an actually not terrible start to The Family Gathering tbh

#my cousin who i havent really seen in a while came up to me and asked abt my pronouns because i came out to the fam a while ago #and he didnt really remember what id said (which. fair. its a big family w lots of things to remember) #and so he asked what my pronouns were and i told him and he promised that if he ever messed up i needed to make him #do like 5 or 10 pushups lmao #and ngl. its the sweetest thing anyone in this family has ever said to me abt that #everyone else has kinda just. moved on. and either forgotten that im not a girl or purposefully ignoring it. #and idk maybe i should stand up for myself a little more but ive been practically a doormat all my life #and idk. its hard using my voice and establishing boundaries when ive let ppl bulldoze over me for almost 20 years. #sigh. anyway. #im gonna be thinking about that all day tbh it was genuinely so sweet #and i am also being consumed by The Loneliness again <3 #just. i want someone to just talk to about all this??? someone who isnt in my family because they all have stakes in it too????? #we're all grieving. i aint special. #i just want to talk to someone about it in person so they can hold my hand while i cry myself to sleep because ngl #thats what it looks like we're doing tonight #im just. tired of feeling alone in this enormous family where it seems like im the only odd man out #and also ykw the Not Having Any Irl Friends loneliness too. thats also pretty significant. #not saying my internet friends arent great i love yall so so so much but it has just been . #a really really long time since ive had a good cry n hug session w someone. #sigh. im tired i need to go to bed #winter speaks #personal

[gayandvibin]

So like *twirls hair around my finger* there’s this old book series...

Still on my re-read and I cannot describe how unhinged the end of book 4 made me so naturally I drew scenes instead. Just picture me gesturing wildly and gasping and you’ve got it.

this file is aptly titled ‘before you ruin it with snow’

and hey, you can actually see that the bear is translucent now 💀💀

#the last dragon chronicles #tldc #david rain #elizabeth pennykettle #liz pennykettle #? does it really matter when i doubt anyones looking through her tag #vibe arts #no but srsly wtf was the last hundred pages i am UNEQUIPED #ik its only getting crazier in the next one so good luck future me #if u see me ignoring canon details mind your damn business 😤 #its intentional at least half of the time #mr d'lacey owes me emotional damages at this point #tumblr keeps fucking deleting my tags so youve lost my incredible witty insights 😔 #but uhh yeah liked book 4 even if i think the final act was a lil too much like book 3s #that may have been intentional and just clumsy but i forgive it cus teh epilogue really founded my families #i am Not prepared for the opening of book 5 jesus christ #just sitting here imagining the reunions and weeping #anyways goodnight lads #i dont want to flood the tag with too much of my nonsense but i am also aware we are in a bit of a content drought #im happy enough to fuck around and make things gayer than the og text lmao

[bensiskos]

(…)

#WUAG. ok. Complaining ahead ignore it’s whatever #We got a dog last week bc my mom really wanted one #the dog is fine she’s a good girl #But I really don’t want to be responsible for it #and my mom said “Ella don’t worry you don’t have to be responsible for the dog” #Even though a. She works 9 hours a day and won’t be home 5/7 days a week #b. My dad also works full time #c. My sibling will be the one home full time & I don’t want to make them do dog stuff all by themselves on the days I am home #d. SINCE WE’RE ALL TRAINING THE DOG ITS MY FUCKING RESPONSIBILITY #It’s just another thing I have to worry about on top of math classes AND work AND cleaning the house AND planning for my 18th bday #and it’s a lot #and I wish we didn’t have a dog because it makes life so much harder and I don’t really think it’s worth it for me #but I can’t say no at this point because like augh my mom would be so upset #we took a training consultation today #and obviously it’s a lot of work training a dog #and I don’t want to be the one worrying about it #I just wish I could tell myself the dog isn’t my problem BUT SHE IS because my mom isn’t fucking home to do the work herself #I’m just tired and I know I’ll feel better tomorrow but I feel insane about this like is no one else worried about this ????

[buckleydiazmp4]

it's tag venting time

#i've had this friendship. of like. 5 years #and well #we used to be really really close #and in hindsight i guees it was because we literally saw each other for 8 hours straight every day of the week #and then that stopped happening #i literally haven't seen this person in about a year and a half i think? maybe more? #despite the fact that we basically live walking distance from each other. which. already says a lot #but then there's also a bigger issue. because hey i get it we're both busy ppl it's okay if qe haven't seen each other in a while #(despite the fact that in this case it is because of a lack of trying -i like to believe not on my part- but ignoring that) #we text sporadically when we have something to let off our chest so it's like this back and forth of voice notes every week or so #but lately its has turned into them sending me groups of 5-minute voice notes at a time because their life is so. so dramatic #and like. hey if this were still like a mutual communication i would enjoy it because i am indeed a good listener #and i like to believe i guve good advice. and i used to give this person good advice like. it was a nice friendship back then #but it became so one-sided as in i received info dumps and vents about the same stuff over and over and the few times i talked about myself #i received some half-hearted dismissals like. oh cool or oh that's so sad. anyways. and then we went back to talking about them. #and it was so frustrating but at first i thought well if they're gonna use me as a venting device so will i despite getting no input like #they became a void to me which i was getting gradually accustomed to it was fine. but then today they asked if i could talk on the phone #i said yes because i wanted to prove my theory. the plan was: i answer #let them talk without offering any input whatsoever. see how long they can just talk and talk and then in the end see if my lack of answer- #-elicited any reaction at all. and unsurprisingly it didn't. i waited for them to finish and then i thought #well at least they might ask me how my day was or something just to confirm i was listening like idk but #i personally would find the quiet unsettling and would ask.but they didn't even do that. asked me if i had homework i said yes. that was it #that was IT!!! i felt so frustrating but at least i was entirely correct and it does hurt to lose a friend but this had been coming #for a long long time. the thing is though i cant just cut this person off #i hate confrontation so all i cant do is keep up this sort of a 'quiet quitting' kind of attitude. pretty easy to do with someone like this #so anyway. that's how you realize a friendship is fake and now i am a bit angry and also sad. but i guess i'll deal with it and move on #if you read all this hi and sorry for the venting. i just had to get it off my chest #vent post

[camptw1nk]

I wish tumblr was. Easier

#it just feels very. hard to kinda get things going sometimes #mostly its pretty easy on kurt but i can not emphasize enough that my other blogs are not inactive bc i dont want to do things #i log on to every blog i have every day and i try to reach out to people but. really only a small handful interact #and that handful follows me everywhere and is always trying and thats very nice!! i appreciate it a LOT!!! #but when a blog is at over 100 followers and u struggle to get more than 5 people to talk to you its. discouraging #esp bc so many people will also just. not read a single thing ab ur muse #there are people who have approached me who didn't know jason had powers. when that is. plastered everywhere #and that also happened when he had the url expheiriment and his graphics were entirely fire themed #like idk i have so many muses that i love and i try so hard with but no ones as excited as i am #and thats fine i dont expect them to get excited ab every muse its just. idk it feels like so much work to go on my other blogs #bc i show up and try to get interactions and a couple people send memes in but those memes wont always lead to more #i keep going to multimuse blogs so that i dont. have so many blogs that are ignored and i can tell myself im active and people care but #its usually only the same handful of muses that people care about #so ill make a solo blog for a passion muse but they're not one of the ones people were there for so it goes nowhere #idk im just. im very tired of tumblr but i dont want to leave you know #i just. idk i want to feel more like this is a fun little hobby and i can enjoy it but i dont. know how to do that #negative cw

[cremebrulee666]

helphelphelp i've fallen back into the rabbit hole idol producer and nine percent and now im rewatching idol producer late and night and just overall being infatuated im dying i keep trying to find blogs for idol producr fics but its been 5 years so ofc theres like hardly anything and most of the fics are already long gone bcs ppl deactivate their acc bcs, once again, its been 5 years 🥲

#:c #nine percent #idol producer #the struggle is real #smh i suck #i love them sm tho #i've been ignoring kun like the plague bcs he's in a scandal but it's kinda hard when he's literally first place wtf #also xiao gui and fan chengcheng have me down bad #i already watch a bunch of variety shows with them in it bcs my family is big on that shit and making me register chinese #and speak chinese by watching chinese shows #so i decided to watch idol producer #5 years after #i realize it muct be so weird for the people who used to be nine percent blogs who's fics were posted 5 years ago and im still reading them #i read them at like 1 am in my bed its an unhealthy habit help me #i have so much summer work to get done i still have to read 2 books and make this presentation im never going to survive #anyways i want some mutuals here even though im like never online #please anyone