#(which i personally like but i get that some ppl might not like it)

[vapolis]

not to out myself but seven from infamous isn't even that bad 🤓 why is everyone coming after them lmaooo imagine u getting kicked out of your own band and them still being successful nah I'd be worse

#and every interaction w them has been sure distant but whaaaat am I missing#so far I went after every ro and it's been fun#the outrage from asks I've seen from the authors blog is hilarious now that ik whats going on

THIS!!! seven’s reaction about the band fight is realistic- they feel hurt and acted according to how they feel (even if they hate mc which makes sense with their personality. like. i understand ppl are hurt by seven’s feelings towards mc currently but it makes sense for seven as a character lmao- they feel a lot and express it a lot! does that mean mc deserves the amount of seven’s bitterness? well not really? maybe? i don’t know. i try to see both sides tbh but i feel like i understand seven more tbh. and they have been distant but as a defence mechanism and also BOTB is eagerly waiting for them both to interact and i feel like the last thing seven wants rn is more drama😭)

sorry for this ramble i just wanted to state my thoughts! :D

yeah, I agree their reaction makes sense considering the history. I don't even get the vibe that seven hates the mc? I might be in the minority here but the one POV scene we've gotten from seven just shows how conflicted they are and how they can't help themself with falling back into the mcs orbit -- that's at least how I read it.

their bitterness isn't even that bitter. maybe I'm just used to more drama and toxicity from other IFs or books in general I've read but they're just hurt. like that's it. Idk if I played it wrong or something but even playing a mc that's still in love with seven and it's not that bad. that's not me saying the mc deserves it either way and I've definitely played for max drama with some of the choices I picked but at the end of the day their interactions have been distant but ok.

maybe I'm really just someone that loves maximum messiness but I don't see it in their route (despite us still being just at the beginning).

#asks #need someone to go off the rails fr for me to understand the outrage

[tariah23]

Man, I still remember participating in one of the many jjba zines that I took part in and how my piece was placed as the first page (for the second time) and how one of my mutuals/artists that I’ve always admired, hit me with the “oh… you’re on the front page again… 😅…” like man, that kind of killed me lmfao. I never got over it like man, what was that about.

#it’s not like i put the books together myself or anything all my ass did was submit my work #like this was from a really popular and well known artist as well like #their art has always been so gorgeous to me too I was like ‘I’m literally a nobody is this person really being shady or…’ #rambling #I guess it’s nice being in a zine with ppl I don’t know or care to get to know at least now 😭… just submitting my art and running #referring to the jjk zine 😭 I need t start working on it uhh #zines make me feel so anxious man #it really did make me feel bad and almost guilty? I was like this is kind of awkward… #another zine I was in which was run by a mutual… well… I never even got my zine in the mail #and I even sent them $20 for some merch that they were making since I wanted to support and never got that either… #they deleted their blog but I see that they remade and draw a lot of DM and have a lot of popular posts here so it’s kind of awkward seeing #their art shared on the dash sometimes skeks #we’re still mutuals on Twitter but I don’t rly want to ask about my zine again or the $20 bucks #it’s okay like I owe other ppl stuff too I’m a late bird man but still loskekk #they were the mod for the zine too #I might hit them up again I guess I still love their art and they were always fun to talk to #there was another zine that I participated in where we had to purchase our own copy bro #i remember being so annoyed by that but went ahead and bought it anyway #I was invited to this zine so it made me even more annoyed #I #Guess it didn’t make its money back #or something like that but I remember being broke at the time and was pissed that I had to pay for my own book #I didn’t buy any of the merch because why when it was supposed to be free #if you’re participating in a zine the book and merch should be free

[starlooove]

No bc fuck tim but it really really bothers me how people ignore his growth like he used to be an asshole and I’ll give tim Stans one thing: now he’s so so so stale but what I disagree with is that this staleness is bc nobody likes him like it’s in fact the exact opposite where everyone likes him so much they dont want to do anything. Even when it’s him surface level challenging Bruce it’s when everyone else is doing it too; but he’s still the backbone of the fam! Etc. and it’s so irritating bc him gaining more compassion and empathy even for people he doesn’t fw is so fun to watch and that’s why the captain boomerang thing was so out of character! (Not in a from the author way but in a tim wouldn’t do that and he and Bruce both knew it which is why it went down like it did. Same way dick killing joker was ooc; not in fanon sense but in a he would hate himself forever for this sense) and speaking of that it’s such an interesting mirror to Bruce who genuinely believes that everyone can grow vs Tim’s it doesn’t matter if they grow it’s not my decision to make like it’s the same but it’s not AND WITH CASS’ IT DOESNT MATTER IF THEY CHOOSE NOT TO GROW I WONT DO IT! like ugh. And anyways even when people acknowledge it they boil it down to “Janet and Jack taught him that the capitalist pigs that they are” like no. This is who tim was. Tim was the kind of guy who’d blame a dead kid for dying. That’s ok. Also Janet and Jack? Please reread anything involving them that’s not a fic like Jack had anger issues and they were both aloof at worst like relax.

#the Jack and Janet thing is both an understatement and an exaggeration but I don’t think anyone reads enough to care #some tim stan might get all pissy and be like ‘no look this is everytime jack yelled at him and boarding schools are abusive’ to which #and its like narratively that means nothing bc the tim you made up to justify the Drake parents you made up by blowing shit out of #proportion is also made up and if all of that was abusive there’d be smth to show for it besides ur homophobic Jack #too girlboss to care but still terrible Janet bc god forbid a woman have a personality from ur fics #anyways that’s also the reason I’m ignoring the council of spiders #well two reasons #first is that was just a moment to make tim look cool and did absolutely nothing for him or his character moving on #like at all #I’d say it fucked with his previous established dislike of killing for his own reasons #and while that COULD be interesting it’s not bc they didn’t do shit with it #and fanon doesn’t do fun shit with it either #nothing about how tim in his most manic state did shit he doesn’t want to remember shit he’d HATE other ppl for #just “’remember what I did to ur base Ra’s? mess with me again and see what I do next 😼’ #like ok can you be real and genuine? #anyways I think #AND NOT IN A HATER WAY #Tim would benefit from being humbled #like genuinely I detest the world can’t move without tim running it but the idea that tim thinks that way is so good to me #and #I think next step being him realizing that’s not true would be a BIG push for his character #bc like I said tim Stans are right in the fact that he’s stale as hell rn #but that’s bc there’s nothing to say bc there’s nowhere to go! y’all want a tim action story where he shows off how badass he is reread #the Bruce quest and maybe it’ll remind you he’s not ceo lmao but anyways there’s nothing internal to say about him atp bc nobody wants to #say anything that’s not propping him up. same with Bruce! Gotham war was such a copout but it’s like ppl are saying he’s stale and it’s bc #god forbid he makes a lasting fumble. and I’m not under the illusion this is new I’m just saying it’s weird that fandoms not clocking it #anywayyys I really do like thinking about the No killing rule and how different it manifests for each perosn #like the way each distinct difference tells u so much about them #UGH ONLY SLIGHTLY RELATED BUT DUUUUUKE BEING LIKE IDGAF ABOUT GUNS LIKE UR SO REAAAL #anyways enough tim positivity for today FUCK THAT NIGGA!

[girls-and-honey]

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#okay so random tag post even though it's been ages #me thinks the current place i work is actually decent a la accepting-queer-ppl so?? miiiiight. consider actually putting my #pronouns in my email signature (which hardly gets used but shh) but like. the actual ones not the society/people assume anyway ones #idk i attended a virtual tech focused event for trans dov (yes early but they didn't want to put the event on sun) and you know when #everyone is just sharing their stories and experiences and it's just like... an overwhelming sense of community? anyway that #and since it was hosted by a professional org the topics were all workplace focused and mayhaps that's something i'm thinking abt for #this year. at least within our pride group I might be ready? wild bc for a long time tumblr has been the only place I feel comfy being 100% #myself. but hearing real people's stories makes me feel like that kind of community would be nice to have elsewhere too #and the whole looking to others also turns around into the leading by example thing bc then we had some breakout groups at the end for #networking which is not my favorite but! i did my intro and said I use she/her for work but will use she/they for this group and #then the next person said he/him at work but for this group he/they so that made me wonder if it was bc of me saying so first? #which if it was is kind of like oh. the way I'm looking for those people for me.. I can also be that for someone else #anyway this sounds dumb typed out but irl/professional me has always separated out queer identity so it's new to me #i'm allowed to be giddy okay. just a little. as a treat (is tumblr still using 'as a treat' i really hope so) #oh shit is this what gender euphoria feels like #alright that's it for now i think #gah emotions and whatnot #missed you all btw i'll start actually being online again soon #personal

[spamsandsuch]

In my mind i dont think swatch necessarily hates spamton but spamton does think they hate him

#spamton #spamtonposting #swatch #swatchposting #in a sense i feel like spamton just thinks everybody hates them due to its circumstances and is extremely distrustful/disdainful to others #as a result #and especially hates ppl like swatch and the adds for believing them to be fake friends #(i include swatch in this cuz of the sweepstakes q&a) #but would swatch hold the same amount of contempt for spamton? To me not really #I think its more so that swatch is just uncomfortable around spamton due to its actions #And due to swatches personality is often annoyed by spamtons actions as well #Thought that doesnt necessarily equate to swatch hating him (or in my fanon at least… though even from a canon standpoint #i feel like swatch is more so annoyed and uncomfortable with spamton rather than actively despises them) #i think in afttp they would get more on friendly terms and become acquaintances after talking through their issues together #(but who knows i might make them friends eventually too? who knows..) #my headcanons #also sorry for not posting as much lately i got a new job recently and just been dealing w/ some personal stuff #to the point where i forget i can just posts my ruminating dr thoughts (which i used to do more often and i feel a lil bad for not doing so #as much now) #anyway thats all i dont have much else to say lol

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#sorry i cant shut the fuck up today. i think i just feel worse on the weekends bc i kno i shoulf b relaxing #ppl r telling me to relax. take a break. let me kno how i can help. let me kno if theres a problem. bc my behavior is apparently ya kno like #visibly somethings not right. but how tf am i supposed to relax when i have so much to do #so im stuck spiraling like dont work but also think insistently abt working. but get nothing done. its horrible #mostly rn im stressed abt all the grading i havent done and the work on my masters data i havent done #but its like. something in my head is on fire and it's burning thru all my cognitive energy. i am just trying to keep existing #how tf am i supposed to find the energy to read 45 lab reports? im like illiterate #and idk i just feel bad about coming into a new lab being so sick. i just dont like being a problem #it also does not reflect well on my future career that im being such a flake on things. like sorry if i have to work on my research #assistant data rn i might die ✌️ ugh. itll b fine. i just need to find a way to effectively manage my head #and i keep hearing my dads voice in my head talking abt personal responsibility but like i dont even kno how to employ that. i could suck #it up and double down on productivity but that way leads to burnout and self destruction. do i doubke down on relaxing? #i dont kno how to do that. like u would probably just have to drug me. which is y i do not partake in substances. that way also leads #to self destruction. so what am i do to? cross my fingers and pray for a fluctuation in my general mood? #hope that aliens invade and that an incoming invasion sharpens my focus onto only one single thing? #idk. but my sister is finally working on the fish i askrd her yo draw me. so i gotta think of how i wanna get it tattooed #bc shes not an art person and its an act of indulging chaos to get an imperfect image tattooed onto me #so i might have to do some things to make it make me not insane. i asked for this bc i like causing myself problems. also i was in a #slightly altered state of mind when i asked lol but i stand by it haha. anyway. idk things r just annoying and hard rn as i knew they would #b. and im good at catching myself before things get dangerous but it sucks that i feel like a ticking time bomb of destruction. ugh. #unrelated

[koishua]

shining solo ep 8. my reaction rn 😐😐 took it a bit hard lmao

#tp #very mixed feelings. as someone who associates herself with jeongwoo and having very similar personalities... this ep hurt a lot #idk idk #i mean i get it but i also absolutely do not get it #so many thoughts im taking this very personally what the heck #i cant really warm up to half of this part's girlies im sorry #i loved everyone on part one #as someone who also struggles with managing my social energy lvls... this was a slap in the face #bc my boy jeongwoo truly gave it his ALL the whole day and even managed to perform a couple songs for the girls #despite already having spent the whole day together #and his energy must have been SPENT already and then they pick him as MVP of the day and he has that 1:5 date with all of the girls #by himself!! which is so terrifying imagine being the one person who everyone's attention is on and you have to interact with these ppl #that you arent very comfortable with but you still try your best to give them a good time #AND THEN!! they give you NOTHING in return?? not even a recorder?? no jewel no recording nothing. just ignored like that by everyone #and i get that the girls dont know who's voting for who so they might have believed someone else was gonna give him a jewel or sth #but no one gives him anything (positive OR negative) #and yeah. he was absolutely shocked at the empty safe. i would have been too. #and why did they not give him a jewel y'all might ask??? IT WAS BC HE FELL SILENT DURING THE LAST BIT: THE DINNER #my gosh that's the part that i take offense to personally bc it's really really really difficult to always engage in convos with ppl #after spending the whole day with them already?? and your social battery is down so you quietly enjoy a simple meal?? #and then all the girlies threw him away like that?? #i mean yeah you're surrounded by sweet men who spend the day appealing themselves to you but come on?? #i would have been so impressed by jeongwoo and thankful that he put that much effort in and would understand how difficult it is to #maintain it till the very end because not everyone has hyunsuk's boundless social energy #no offense hyunsuk i love you dearly #and also??? what's up with admitting that you lack some confidence upfront?? #the girl's reasoning for giving yoshi the voice recorder was that he said he holds himself to a high standard and lacks confidence sometimes #and i get it. being confident is more attractive than someone who's always insecure and puts themselves down #(and makes the other person uncomfortable) but they were having an honest and deep convo when the thing he said in that convo was used #against him in the end? i would feel kind of betrayed too bc being able to admit that you feel insecure sometimes is a v brave thing to do!!

[gibbearish]

btw i just wanna say if ur a long term follower but we're not mutuals it 100% isnt a personal thing, i do love and cherish you just as much and have probably checked out your blog multiple times and we just. didnt have enough overlapping interests for me not to have to filter the tags for basically everything you post about to keep my dash from being 99% things i scroll past jsbfjsbfkdb

#I've never rlly engaged with the idea of mutuals the same as other people i don't think #like i think to most people its the social media version of like. best friends? which is also a concept I've never engaged with #normally so. lol #but yeah i check out new followers and ppl who show up in my notes a lot and if im like hm i dont like this person #then i just block them #so if i didnt follow you back it isnt that i didnt like you i just. already follow i think like 700 blogs JEBFKSBFKSBFKDN #actually i should go clean those out again its been a while since the last time #origibberish #esp the ppl i feel like might have post notifs turned on for me #some of u like new posts too quickly too often to just happen to be refreshing your dash at the right time 🤔🔎 #jahfkwhfjdb thats /lh dw and i hope doesnt make anyone self conscious #i always have a thing where in like 'oh i cant like this post it was made less than a minute ago thatd be weird' #and then theres me getting likes right after posting a thing going !!!!😃👉 FRIEND #its rambling hours again ig lads JEBFKSBFMDN

[peanutblowandjobsandwich]

i hate how ppl use are you feminist? as a question whose response means something™ like idk man i support human rights and that's it. are women humans? then great i support their rights as i do all other human beings. i think it's more of a red flag when people start hard and fast emphasizing their support of a specific branch of human rights and not the whole of human rights if that makes sense. that's why you get people who support queer rights but think anti-queer palestinians should die. the only question should ever be do your support human rights? you can argue back and forth about who gets to use the label woman but you can't argue about whether any human being is a human and since they are a human they deserve to have their humans rights respected and fulfilled. it's not to say that identifying as a supporter of a specific minority group is outright wrong and specific groups help to emphasize the specific needs that are still withheld from that group which is important and necessary. but acting as if there's some like higher merit in someone specifying i'm an x rights activist as opposed to saying i'm a human rights activist makes no sense to me personally.

#vagueblogging #rant #ignore me #idk it's like ppl immediately associate someone saying oh i'm a feminist oh i'm a disabled rights activist etc etc #with someone being a 'good person'™ #and it's like yh i get that #you can't save the world #it's easiest to focus on one group for your activism and volunteerism etc #but like beyond tht i want to know if you support human rights #which is a simple yes or no question #like idk #i feel like there shld be more emphasis when someone is not a human rights supporter but a only supports specific grps #there shld be news articles dropping headlined like x known philanthropist who champions for children's rights is however not a human's #right supporter bc they believe all x ppl shld die #like idk myb i'm naive but i feel like if we were more commonly faced with the term humans rights myb some ppl might let down their hate #like it's easy to say as someone who's cis i hate trans ppl ok great so you hate humans n dont support human rights? no i hate trans ppl #well trans ppl are humans so do you hate humans and think humans dont deserve human rights? if yes then great you no longer hv human rights #sigh #whatever #i hate this baka world grrrrr

[izzy-b-hands]

I really wish blocking someone meant their stuff wouldn’t wind up on your dash at all. Like I understand why it doesn’t, but. still.

Actually, I just need to get better abt checking source urls before I reblog. I try to be mindful, but now and again I Forget and have only myself to blame lmao

#text post #I would love to reblog their art and be supportive in that way at least but tbh #every time I accidentally reblog it I remember checking out their blog and seeing how they talked abt fans that like Izzy and the izcourse #and it's like oh no that's right you hate ppl like me and ur art might be gorg but maybe we just shouldn't interact #they do their thing and I'll be over here doing mine #what really needs to happen is I need to remember to check urls on fandom art to make sure it isn't any of the folks I had to block lmao #but sometimes I get excited bc the art is genuinely lovely and i do like it and think the person is v talented! #and then i forget to check and it's only after scrolling my dash that i see my reblog and the url and go 'oh. fuck. that's right. damnit.' #it's a weird feeling to be like yes I want this person to have fun and make gorgeous art but also it seems #they've made it p clear how they feel abt folks like me and so maybe they would prefer i just fuck off #which i tried to do by blocking!! and yet. here we are #i delete the reblogs whenever this happens so they don't have me in their notes but #i do hope they know their art is lovely and I appreciate their hard work even if we wouldn't otherwise get along with each other #idek why I'm blogging abt this I guess bc I feel like usually it's either or online? like u either hate each other or u don't #but I don't hate the folks who sent shit to me or the folks who condoned it i just wish i had found a way to get along with them instead #as useless a wish as that probably is #and i don't talk abt it a lot but it really bugs the fuck outta me sometimes that we can't just start over and try to interact generally #no messages no trying to be friends just reblog from them if u like and otherwise ignore each other #which has been a thing that's worked fairly okay in other fandoms tho things have happened in others to change how workable it was #but for some reason in this one i feel like im just always walking on eggshells to interact w/anyone bc it feels like everyone is waiting #for someone else to say something they vaguely disagree with and instead of just like. blocking and moving on w/the fandom experience #it turns into a massive mess that even if ur on the fringes of it all you still get pulled into or sent shit and just. #idk it doesn't matter bc ultimately none of this does but dang it the show has been special to me and hits all my special interests #and it's hard to let go and accept that there's no changing how things went and how they are and how this fandom experience for me is often #very fucking lonely even when i'm bursting at the seams to share and to hear from others what they think abt anything and everything w/it #no one is gonna read this tag essay lmao pls scroll on

[dimiclaudeblaigan]

mfw finding out that the localization of hopes literally cut an entire frame out of a scene

like can we not

can we not try to make felix seem more angry and edgy than he actually is by removing him smiling/not being aggressive for the explicit purpose of making him seem significantly angrier as a person/purposely not portraying him in a good light

like no seriously tell me why they literally went out of their way to remove an entire frame of him when it didn't improve the scene to remove it and instead paints him in a worse light

#DCB Comments #they do everything they can and bend backwards to make edelgard so uwu so good and justified #but when it comes to other characters who don't fawn over her they actively go out of their way to #remove scenes and change sentences completely to make those characters look worse #or just totally remove lines that might do her verbal harm. I recall a Sylvain line that got #totally removed from the loc too. in the Felix case it just serves to make him look more mean #and I'm noticing this trend of removing things that make characters seem good/better/nicer unless it's Edelgard #in which they bend backwards to do right by her and add in words to make her seem better #Felix's situation is just like with Rhea where they changed her tone/behavior to match Edelgard's view of her #rather than just translating her lines properly and keeping her tone the same in the loc #for some reason the loc is hellbent on making Rhea and Felix seem like terrible people and removing #most if not all instances of them being good people. it's even more glaring of an issue in Hopes in this case #bc Felix has a dramatically less amount of reasoning to be as aggressive as he in Houses #his banter with Dimitri could've just been friendly and reminiscent of them being childhood friends as it is in JP #but in the loc they just went nah this one single frame makes Felix seem like a better person with better relationships #better cut that out so ppl don't get the ~wrong idea~ about him and think he's actually more mellowed out in this game #-.- #DCB Three Hopes Stuff

[trans-leek-cookie]

as a certified Aromantic Asexual (I should make myself a certificate) I genuinely don't Believe there is systemic oppression that specifically targets Aromantic or Asexual people.

I do however believe that people Cannot be normal about ppl who don't have sex or romantic relationships, and that can Really Impact Aromantic And Asexual People.

Also like. Aros n aces are still. Experiences Other forms of oppression that can interact with the aro and/or ace-ness

#Like. Woman doesn't get married. Maybe aro maybe illegal for her to marry who she wants maybe no fuckin reason. She's probably gonna get #Some shit for it but that's primarily misogyny. While it does affect aro ppl disproportionately bc. Yeah. It's not based on them being #Aro it's a conicindental intersection. Also can y'all be normal about sex and virgins #Anyway slightly related dreaming of a world in which it was better acknowledged that sex repulsion while common for ace ppl #Was not synonymous w being ace so we avoided the ace discord phenomenon that a bunch of gay/lesbian/bi ppl mis identified as ace #Bc they couldn't deal w the idea of having sex w a person of the same gender #With the idea of actually having sex bc it was treated as gross (sex repulsion as a result of society) or that trauma survivors #Misidentified as ace bc they had issues w sex bc trauma. Also that sex repulsion wasnt like an identity but rather a Symptom that could be #Either a problem or neutral. Who else's brain was boiled by ace and also inclus/exclus discord and came out thinking everyone was fucking #Stupid. Like both sides had Points but it was mostly just bullshit and no one fucking talking. Also ppl kept talking about ace ppl #''stealing resources'' and multiple ppl joked Abt that which is a problem bc that means. A BUNCH OF LGBT PPL DIDNT UNDERSTAND WHAT RESOURCE #THEY HAD (anyway looking back on it. Idk if ace ppl were even taking up resources or anything like the common example was LGBT shelters #Bc like if u were gay u might be kicked out of a normal shelter but if u were ace u would probably not get kicked out so if an ace person #Went to an LGBT shelter then they might've taken a bed from someone who needed it more which. I guess is theoretically possible but also id #If that ever fucking. Was something to actually give a shit Abt. Correct me if I'm wrong) #ALSO the idea of ''all gay ppl should go to hell'' ''oh do bi ppl only half go to hell?'' sure thats probably a problem but also. A LOT OF #THOSE WERE EVERYONE DOING IT INCLUDING GAY PPL? LIKE THE FUCKING ''ALL GAY PPL SHOULD BE ON AN ISLAND AND THE POPULATION AUFNFJNSAJ'' #like does anyone else remember that. Everyone was making those stupid fucking jokes. This is just a rant Abt me being on Tumblr without an #Account for years and the psychic damage I've accrued. Anyway fuck AO3 goodbye

[sunshinefurby]

hm. i've been quiet abt it bc i don't really like being negative on here but honestly the new furby design is. disappointing idk. absolutely nothing against people who like it ofc, and there are def some cute aspects. but it sucks to see that the design is so far removed from original furbies and just doesn't have the same charm idk. the connect was already straying pretty far but honestly i kinda like connects bc the shapes are cute but. idk the 2023 furbs just seem like they're trying to hard to be cutesy and it just feels sort of forced?? if it appeals to kids and young people get to enjoy it that's awesome and honestly that's kind of the point. but i do get why people are unhappy with it. like in regards certain aspects like the eyes the fixed beak & the way it's like. super difficult to take apart bc of the clips and stuff. i can totally see why a lot of customizers especially aren't happy with it. i'm sure lots of people have said the exact same stuff but yeah overall i feel like. relatively neutral to the whole thing idk it's nice to see furbies being produced and sold again and yeah it is cute but i get why people aren't loving it. that said ofc there are people who do love it and that's totally okay. regardless if you love it or hate it what's not okay is people within the community being rude to each other based on whether they like it or not cmon. it's not for everyone but if people do like it that's their business and there's no need to be rude!!! but on the other hand if people have complaints about it they should be allowed to voice that as long as they're not being mean yknow. letting it cause a rift in the community is silly. but anyways

#sorry for the super long post #but yeah these are just some thoughts abt it. idk personally i don't love it it's not for me #but i can acknowledge that other people and kids especially are enjoying it and that's good!!! #i hate being negative on here so i wasn't even gonna voice my opinion on it. but like #i personally do not really like booms n 2012s to be honest. the like digital eye thing and everything idk it's not for me #connects too they're just. not my fave. but honestly they're aesthetically very nice i think?? just not the bluetooth aspect and fart jokes #but idk it does feel like with each new model it gets further and further from the originals and ik ik that's what a redesign IS but #i do kinda wish they went back in the other direction a little idk. there's a reason why 1998s and 2005s are the most popular models #and i truly don't think it's bc they're considered retro or whatever i think it's bc they're a little out there and very unlike other toys #and the whole cutesy rainbow thing is. i totally get why some people love it!!! but you can't rlly deny that it's not really unique #but. idk. i do get both sides of the argument. personally i would have loved smth a little more adjacent to 1998s #that said. a lot of ppl do find 98s creepy and weird so from a sales perspective i get why they might not be. marketable #bc i guess a lot of kids might find them offputting #also correct me if i'm wrong but i think the 2023s have painted on eyes?? which. Don't Like. #didn't love the digital eyes either bc i keep the batteries out so they're just blank for me which is kinda boring #and i don't love the digitization of everything like 😭 idk. so i'm kinda glad they moved away from that #but if they're painted/printed idkkkk. i'm an eyechip girly i think they're great honestly #they're just nice to work with for customizing especially. also keep in mind w my opinions i primarily am a customizer so #i do kinda view it from that perspective #ANYWAY feel free to rb or comment or whatever and lmk ur thoughts. i genuinely do not want to get on here and be negative #or say anything that would upset anyone bc i imagine some anti 2023 furb ppl have probably been pretty nasty #honestly i haven't been online much at all so idk but i can imagine 😭 i ain't wanna come on here and be like BOOOO I HATE IT #i don't hate it tbh i just don't love it yk. but i'm not gonna shit on people who do love it

[toastsnaffler]

i keep getting irrationally miffed at ppl 😐😐

#'impressed by how much u can talk abt this considering youve not played either game' #fuck off. as if im not just trying to show interest bc u + another friend are both into them + constantly talk abt them in our gc!! #i mean since u guys talk abt them all the time + theyre huge on tumblr like. it would be hard for me to not know anything abt them at all #literally what else can i talk to u guys abt anyway. i dont think there are any interests i personally have that they both gaf abt #if anything they actively dislike most of the things im hyperfixated on. or at least she does so like i cant bring that up can i. #all i did was share a post i saw on tumblr that i thought was funny. its not like i had some negative/controversial opinion #i just saw it and thought hey that makes me think of my friends bc they like those things maybe theyll find it funny too!! #dog sitting outside the door with rly big sad eyes offering them a stick i found in a puddle #i like listening to them talk and i will eventually play some of the games theyre into myself cuz they make them sound rly cool #and even if theyre not my kind of thing i like sharing interests with other ppl and sometimes thats enough for me to be able to enjoy it #i literally own some of them already but im just not in the mental space to start smth new right now. which i have SAID!!!! #why do u even care girl. as if u dont already have a ton of friends playing it that ur talking to abt it???? i wont have anything to add #and thats not gonna stop u from being able to talk to me abt it anyway????? like 2/3 of our conversations atm are abt bg3 #man. i know its not that deep but it makes me kinda sad for some reason. im just trying. i guess next time ill just let u guys talk- #to each other or at me and not comment or say anything so u can pretend im not here or whatever it is u want #ughh. she probably didnt even mean it like that and ill feel stupid for getting annoyed and delete this later but whatever. #might work out early today and then i can like draw or play a game or smth the rest of the day. alright lets go #.vent #listening to my silly little jfunk/jazz/soul playlist and i already feel over it. healing

[wrecking]

edit: i ended up just ranting abt like the current vibe™ in the tags... sorry abt that but like also whatever i don't care anymore

#d #my food therapist really said the most real thing on planet earth when she said i'm meeting me at the same time everyone else is #i feel like a cringey overzealous emotionally dumb teenager who's a total embarrassment to everyone around me while i'm trying 2 say fuck i #cuz like this is the first time in my entire life i feel like i get to actually explore my identity and do like normal young people things #and i feel just. so so exposed in the sense that everyone is watching me make a fool of myself without a single shred of self-awareness #and it makes me so fucking mad cuz like i'm finally happy with myself!! i'm finally starting to feel like a fully formed person #instead of a 2d projection or an object or something monstrous hiding in the shadows because that's how i've spent until now imo #and like. it's hard to emotionally make peace with the fact things in my social life are changing because like. there's some part of me #that thinks that maybe if i stayed in that miserable place that maybe i wouldn't have any of the problems i have now #and like my life is a lot better. and i know that and i wouldn't change a thing. but like emotionally i guess i'm just #processing it as a fault of mine to have changed bc it's changing my relationships to others #and this isn't about any one specific thing like i've been having lots of small growing pains with a lot of ppl in my life rn i just am lik #there's a lot happening to me rn emotionally so i feel like everything i do is a fuckup and i'm just bracing for more people to go ig #which might happen or it might not and tbh either is ok at this point. i need to do this in order to live i think #idk why i'm even rambling about this i just have a lot of thoughts and i want to share them i guess. not like it does anything but like #what else is this app for at this point lmfao i barely even want to talk on here anymore because i feel like everything i say on here is #just pointless. i'm thankful i have a strong support system rn cuz genuinely i don't know what i'd do if i didn't like #i feel like everything is so much more emotionally Big to me on E and it's kind of hard trying to figure out how to manage it #like i'm basically finally getting to be me. for worse AND for better. and i just am like. insecure on some level i guess #not even over my appearance tbh i've kinda made peace with that. moreso my personality and what things i share with others #this whole post is so wholly unnecessary but i feel like i'm going to go insane if i don't get this out of my head #i've genuinely been avoiding talking about my emotions or my private life on here because i don't exactly feel safe on here anymore #which is like great. love it when my primary outlet for like. socially interacting with people casually gets compromised i love it #i literally softblocked like 30 ppl off of here so i could talk abt my weird sex stuff and my body and my deeper thoughts with ppl i trust #and then i still am too conscious about it! this always happens when i make a blog for myself to talk on #maybe i'm just not meant for talking abt things

[junkie-virus]

i endure the most evils (<- brother watching movie in my vicinity so i cant sleep)

#ro rambles #another factor is i am sleeping on the couch #and although he has his own setup thing with his xbox he decided go watch a movie here because the wifi was acting up #(trying not to enact violence) this is truly unfortunate #i mean sleepimg om the couch isnt awful but also the room gets cold at night and also its a couch so frequently ppl just move my things #and generally do not care about my space #which is oartially what do u expect its a couch but also my bed is literally unavailable 2 me #bedbugs the.n it was elected the area to just Put Stuff #so theres a buncha junk there now #i feel like those freeloaders #which maybe spiritually i am in some ways #AND I MIGHT HAVE THIS STUPID MEETING WITH A GUY I KNOW TOMORROW TO PAINT HIS GUITAR BUT I DONT WANT HIM TO !!!!!! #there is the implication he will be here for maybe 2-3 hours for drying primer or something and aidyriyfocgkdydkyd #i want to ne a new person or whateva and keep to my promises. though maybe i shouldve started with being able to say no to things i dont wa #nt to do #aidhigfjfhuguhgu #these little agonies may be enough to drag me down #ike…. like i domt Know #small things taking about a big thing