#2020 really is the worst year

[aprito]

here you go anon <3 this is my usual go to process because im extremely strapped for time these days and thus always have to figure out the Fastest and preferably Best Looking Way to create content

some comparisons as well

as for brushes and programs i mainly use clip studio paint and HiBisoft brush for sketches/lineart/shading and whatever square soft opaque brush is available for painting

#my art #nonitxt #idk if this is what you wanted anon sry #the lesson of the story is you can suck at art like me but if you do it often enough you can still become passable #shading is the worst aspect for me i really should sit down and sign up for practise or smth #also lets remember i went on a near 3 year art break and still managed to improve somewhat. So Can You!! #but if you compare my art from 2020 to today there's a big improvement regardless #my envy are some soft painterly art styles they look so nice...maybe ill be quick enough at Draw to manage that someday

[evilmagician430]

who up sinning their fest

#one of my worst recent hyperfixations i'll admit #and i dont even have an excuse like ohhh i used to read this back in the late 2000s before all the terf shit #no i got into it in late 2023 this school year cause i stumbled across the tvtropes page #and i was like 'sinfest'? isnt that the name of that terf Twitter comic? but the cover image showed a sick ass artstyle so i read it #and im just obsessed with it now its such a strange spectacle. its like a political cartoon and a newspaper comic at the same time #my fav era has gotta be late 2000s maybe early 2010s sinfest... hell maybe even mid 2010s sinfest if i ignore the sisterhood #now every strip is just about jewish people or calling trans women groomers #and almost every once-likable character is now canonically a terf and/or racist and/or antivaxxer etc #or theyre just not in the comic at all anymore like my dear criminy and fuschia #i hope we never get another appearance from them godbless #cause last time we saw criminy he was helping squig and slick break a terf out of she/her penitentiary. with fuschia's permission #theyre definitely the best part of 2010s sinfest. a bygone era #the best part of 2000s sinfest is the sharp artstyle and lil e just being evil #and the best part of 2020s sinfest seems to be. um. laughing at how ridiculous it is? its kind of hard to enjoy though. #i intend to stay updated on it because i like being able to say i've read all of sinfest start to finish #but man i gotta get an adblocker soon cause i read it on the official website cause idk how else to read it online and the ads are constant #really funny when ur reading a strip criticizing the prevalence of ads in our day to day life #not as funny when you remember tatsuya is probably making money off of them. so yeah im gonna install ublock #but the problem is i usually read it on my school computer to pass time. and that technically isnt my computer so i cant download ublock #anyways. i could ramble on about how much i love and hate and am obsessed w sinfest all day but heres some fanart of the characters. #id like to make my own headcanon version of sinfest aka sinfest if it was good #but headcanons arent enough... i need to kill tatsuya ishida #sinfest #squigley sinfest #monique sinfest #lil e sinfest #the devil sinfest #tangerine sinfest #images that are horrid to see and look at #mspaint

[jewishcissiekj]

Am I scared to get too close to friends platonically and did I not have an actual best friend since 7th grade because the last time I thought I understood someone and was incredibly close to her everything went horrendously wrong and now she's not around anymore and I can't help but to think I could've done something to prevent it and I really could have but it doesn't matter anymore or am I making some connection that isn't there

#i used to think a lot about how all of that shit effected me in relation to that shit #what i never thought about is the fucking lasting effects. #worst thing to think about right now #but if you really are romantically interested in someone #idrk #it all makes sense for her side and for me #but everything is so fucked and now she's fucking dead and i can't even face that #and it really doesn't matter because none of this is happening currently #but i am the sum of everything in my life so it does matter #wish i could just have a not completely fucked up view of love #it's all covid's fault really #or maybe idk #how to make a 13 year old terrified of dating for at last the nxt two years #2020 fucked me up so badly everything that cam because of it was even wrose #2020-1 wattpad is too at the root of it #who the fuck sees their friend talk about their crush on wattpad of all places #and writes a comment to them saying they've had a crush on them for a while now #sorry for the rant i just start talking about it and i don't know where to stop #infuriates me that every so and so months our mutual friend texts me #what do they think changed #awful that when you go to her wattpad page her wall is full of eulogies #i do not know how to cope with death #idek why i'm talking about this sorry

[l0se]

vent/rant in the tags🤪

#my mom got breast cancer in the beginning of 2020 #and i found out that i have the BRCA gene #so i decided to have preventative surgeries #i just had a double mastectomy and it’s probably the hardest thing i’ve ever done in my entire life #i hate relying on other people i’m a very independent person #so having to rely on people to help me while i’m healing and having to slow down is so hard #i feel like a burden all the time and it’s honestly the worst part #i’m healing really well and i’m really grateful for my amazing doctors and that i have people to support me #but it’s still really hard and i’m having a tough time #i also have amazing friends who are checking in on me and helping cat sit for me and whatnot #but some of my good friends haven’t checked in on me and it makes me sad #i also haven’t posted anything about this or much about what’s going on in my life to any of my socials #i’ve gotten way less social over the past 8 years in college and grad school #but even so some of my good friends knew and didn’t check in #and that makes me the most sad #i could go on but i’ll end there #if you have BRCA and/or are considering a major preventative surgery please don’t hesitate to reach out #i would be so happy to share my experiences or just chat and make friends

[helleanorlance]

I love living in a tourist town but I really can’t deal with September being the new october and October being like 5x as busy. I don’t see how anyone can have fun when there’s that many people.

#tourist behavior has also gotten SOOOO much worse in the past few years #it’s crazy how many altercations there are with waitstaff and things like that #in Oct 2020 everything was shut down and they told ppl not to come so ppl who did were the worst possible #but like they haven’t really gotten better lol

[tunemyart]

Sometimes it’s impossible for me to watch Voyager without thinking about what the concept inevitably would have been translated into had it aired 5-10 years later. Battlestar Galactica was on in 2004 - which is mindblowing to me! Especially when Voyager went off the air in 2001. Especially knowing that RDM cut his teeth on and was hugely influenced by Star Trek.

I’m 100000% sure I’m not saying anything that hasn’t already been said, but like - what a huge departure in worldview, re: how our culture circled around this new, grittier, more “realistic” vision of exploring the possibilities opened up by the science fiction genre. Two space operas about a disparate group that has to either pull together or die while stranded in the unknown: Voyager and its rampant idealism, an arguably sanitized process of telling ourselves stories about the human condition and its constants now and the future the story envisions for ourselves, vs. the endless fault lines and compromises of self and scraping for survival and humanity, and if you’re lucky you get both together, of BSG.

#i just watched 'the void' in s7 voyager #and was just flabbergasted all over again by the comparison i can't get out of my mind #how if this story had come to air just five years later #inevitably voyager would have been the story of the power struggle between maquis and federation that never would have been dropped #in the face of the extreme situation they found themselves in struggling for survival in the delta quadrant #and even more inevitably - the power struggle between janeway and chakotay #a kind of prototypical roslin and adama #and i just think how sad i would have been to watch that show #bc i love voyager so much for what it is #is it escapist? sure! #but that's a function of science fiction too #an escapism into the best of humanity vs. always the worst of humanity #idk what i'm really saying here #at a particular time #and ofc by the real world politics and concerns influencing that evolution #i loved bsg for what it was #but god i'm so glad we have voyager as it is #maybe a window to a past #but so good and relevant for at least me personally in 2020-present too #and that's worth something isn't it? #voyager

[flowers-of-io]

Also lol I realised my birthday is in six days and I've been feeling like a piece of crap for the past several weeks, so here's to hoping I'm not gonna spend that day sobbing on the living room floor but I don't have particularly high hopes

#i've sobbed in many places on my birthday! for example in 2019 it was a bus #in 2017 it was my old room's floor and i think also kitchen? #in 2018 i had an anxiety attack #and so i did in 2020 #last year it /was/ the living room floor #and still my mum is like 'why do you expect the worst you're only gonna make a self fulfilling prophecy' like #mum i really don't have much evidence supporting a different result #last time i had a good tear-less fear-less birthday was my first year of high school and even then i remember the anxiety #so like. yea fun thank you for your attention. i should really delete these rant posts more often #rant #mental health

[eggmeralda]

this whole year's been really good so far and I'm starting to get suspicious

#2014 and 2016 started off good and ended up being two of the worst years of my life #2019 was good for almost the whole year until the end of december. just in time for 2020 </3 #2021 started good then gave me the worst 2 months of my whole life but then ended good i guess? #anyway i don't trust 2022 rn #ramble #on the other hand 2015 and 2018 started badly and ended up being two really nice years #and 2017 was neutral throughout lol #okay enough rambling about years again

[devotedlystrangewizard]

ok ok so the thing with destiny 2 is how inaccessible it is to new/returning players. we all know this. im perfectly fine with paying 10, even 15 euros every three months for a game that i enjoy. ffxiv is one of my favorite games right now. im used to paying far more. i dont mind messy storytelling. i think it can be fun.

my problem is entirely that because i stopped paying attention somewhere between beyond light and witch queen, there is no longer any way for me to catch up in the game itself. i got burnt out on destiny. i stepped away for almost the entirety of the witch queen - lightfall period. and now i can no longer get back into it. and thats not because im no longer interested in it. i still adore the lore and characters in destiny. but i dont want to have to watch videos on youtube to get a vague understanding of the plot?

and i get it. okay. the game is bloated. the last time i looked the destiny 2 file size (including all dlc) was around 100gb. but fuck if it isnt frustrating that i cant get back into a game i loved so much 2-3 years ago

#if i leave xiv for a month i come back and have missed nothing but seasonal events #if you leave destiny 2 at the wrong moment (ie a month prior to the release of a new expansion) you miss major plot beats #i wasnt burnt out on the story. i wasnt burnt out on the characters. i was simply burnt out on the game itself #and that happens! i had a 2 year long hyperfixation on it! i needed a break! #sorry i uh. i uploaded the last of the finished chapters of tsbesg #because i know that with me not really having played the game in well over a year. i cant write it anymore #not with the concrete main game plot-related arcs #there is a lot of subplot stuff i wanted to do with patch #mostly just their relationships with guardians #crow's relationship with the scorn is still bad #like YES chapter 116 is a decent open but positive ending #but. #the entire fic STARTED with this mental image of the scorn running dsc. (bc it started when dsc dropped) #filler episode-flavored shenanigans #the darkness plot that i expanded on in the two-shot fic i uploaded #and i also really do want patch & pirrha to move past all the death to actually go back to their playful idiot4idiot banter #sniping rematch where patch gets their vengeance???? them being the absolute worst to everyone else just in general #reunited and about to make it everyones problem or whatever #finally got them to the point where their relationship starts to become like. common knowledge #so i could finally get to the main plot but with scorn plans that i had when i started the fic back in. 2020? #but yeah im. no longer caught up on the story #ramblings #aside from au/disconnected from the main plot oneshots #i dont think i CAN continue that fic. without it sucking ass #i miss them bro

[traitormithos]

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#i want a new car #but i dont want to pay the money for a new car #i have 3 contenders right now #1 is a 2021 chevy trailblazer rs. very cute. black with red roof. 28k miles. for 27k dollars. but very small engine. good gas mileage tho #also new engine. 3 cylinder. not much known about new 3 cylinders. unsure of power for going up hills... #2. chevy equinox 2018. 98k miles. red exterior (yuck). 17k dollars though im wondering if theyd go down to 14 or 15 since theyve had it #awhile. 2.0 turbo engine. so thats a regular 4 cylinder. most like the car i currently have which is a 11 equinox with a 2.4 ecotech #safe choice since im comforable with equinox and know how to take care of it. #and for all the equinox haters. mine has the worst engine of GM and it has 225k miles on it and still going strong. no check engine light #3 (the dream) 2020 chevy blazer. black exterior (swoon) has a v6 though and id rather a 4 cylinder in this economical climate. but its 30k #ill probably hold off but that trailblazer is adorable. but i just dont know anything about them and theyre too new #and they have a new engine whereas the blazer is more similar to traverse or equinox depending on which one you get #id really love a blazer. but if i dont get one i should probably just wait for the right equinox. #id want a black equinox with heated seats. so not that picky. and obviously way newer than mine with a reasonable price and miles #only because whatever car i get will lose most its worth with me since i drive 20k miles a year

[gothwizardmagic]

its really really fucked up that people in the northern hemisphere think? assume? are told? that the ozone hole closed & went away forever & isnt a problem anymore

the ozone hole closes and opens every year and at no point has it stopped. 2020 was one of the worst years on record for both size and length of opening. there has been a trend downwards over the last decade, but the ozone hole absolutely didnt stop being a problem. aotearoa and australia have the world's worst rates of skin cancer. (australia's number is higher overall, but aotearoa is higher per capita.)

i dont really have any kind of moral to this post just please be aware that the ozone hole is very much still a problem and not something you can put in the 'solved' basket. it still massively affects the lives of people in the far south and the idea that it's permanently closed is false.

(please do not ask me any followup questions i am not some kind of scientician im just a guy who got sunburned through jeans one time on a long car trip)

[nostalgebraist]

Honestly I'm pretty tired of supporting nostalgebraist-autoresponder. Going to wind down the project some time before the end of this year.

Posting this mainly to get the idea out there, I guess.

This project has taken an immense amount of effort from me over the years, and still does, even when it's just in maintenance mode.

Today some mysterious system update (or something) made the model no longer fit on the GPU I normally use for it, despite all the same code and settings on my end.

This exact kind of thing happened once before this year, and I eventually figured it out, but I haven't figured this one out yet. This problem consumed several hours of what was meant to be a relaxing Sunday. Based on past experience, getting to the bottom of the issue would take many more hours.

My options in the short term are to

A. spend (even) more money per unit time, by renting a more powerful GPU to do the same damn thing I know the less powerful one can do (it was doing it this morning!), or

B. silently reduce the context window length by a large amount (and thus the "smartness" of the output, to some degree) to allow the model to fit on the old GPU.

Things like this happen all the time, behind the scenes.

I don't want to be doing this for another year, much less several years. I don't want to be doing it at all.

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In 2019 and 2020, it was fun to make a GPT-2 autoresponder bot.

[EDIT: I've seen several people misread the previous line and infer that nostalgebraist-autoresponder is still using GPT-2. She isn't, and hasn't been for a long time. Her latest model is a finetuned LLaMA-13B.]

Hardly anyone else was doing anything like it. I wasn't the most qualified person in the world to do it, and I didn't do the best possible job, but who cares? I learned a lot, and the really competent tech bros of 2019 were off doing something else.

And it was fun to watch the bot "pretend to be me" while interacting (mostly) with my actual group of tumblr mutuals.

In 2023, everyone and their grandmother is making some kind of "gen AI" app. They are helped along by a dizzying array of tools, cranked out by hyper-competent tech bros with apparently infinite reserves of free time.

There are so many of these tools and demos. Every week it seems like there are a hundred more; it feels like every day I wake up and am expected to be familiar with a hundred more vaguely nostalgebraist-autoresponder-shaped things.

And every one of them is vastly better-engineered than my own hacky efforts. They build on each other, and reap the accelerating returns.

I've tended to do everything first, ahead of the curve, in my own way. This is what I like doing. Going out into unexplored wilderness, not really knowing what I'm doing, without any maps.

Later, hundreds of others with go to the same place. They'll make maps, and share them. They'll go there again and again, learning to make the expeditions systematically. They'll make an optimized industrial process of it. Meanwhile, I'll be locked in to my own cottage-industry mode of production.

Being the first to do something means you end up eventually being the worst.

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I had a GPT chatbot in 2019, before GPT-3 existed. I don't think Huggingface Transformers existed, either. I used the primitive tools that were available at the time, and built on them in my own way. These days, it is almost trivial to do the things I did, much better, with standardized tools.

I had a denoising diffusion image generator in 2021, before DALLE-2 or Stable Diffusion or Huggingface Diffusers. I used the primitive tools that were available at the time, and built on them in my own way. These days, it is almost trivial to do the things I did, much better, with standardized tools.

Earlier this year, I was (probably) one the first people to finetune LLaMA. I manually strapped LoRA and 8-bit quantization onto the original codebase, figuring out everything the hard way. It was fun.

Just a few months later, and your grandmother is probably running LLaMA on her toaster as we speak. My homegrown methods look hopelessly antiquated. I think everyone's doing 4-bit quantization now?

(Are they? I can't keep track anymore -- the hyper-competent tech bros are too damn fast. A few months from now the thing will be probably be quantized to -1 bits, somehow. It'll be running in your phone's browser. And it'll be using RLHF, except no, it'll be using some successor to RLHF that everyone's hyping up at the time...)

"You have a GPT chatbot?" someone will ask me. "I assume you're using AutoLangGPTLayerPrompt?"

No, no, I'm not. I'm trying to debug obscure CUDA issues on a Sunday so my bot can carry on talking to a thousand strangers, every one of whom is asking it something like "PENIS PENIS PENIS."

Only I am capable of unplugging the blockage and giving the "PENIS PENIS PENIS" askers the responses they crave. ("Which is ... what, exactly?", one might justly wonder.) No one else would fully understand the nature of the bug. It is special to my own bizarre, antiquated, homegrown system.

I must have one of the longest-running GPT chatbots in existence, by now. Possibly the longest-running one?

I like doing new things. I like hacking through uncharted wilderness. The world of GPT chatbots has long since ceased to provide this kind of value to me.

I want to cede this ground to the LLaMA techbros and the prompt engineers. It is not my wilderness anymore.

I miss wilderness. Maybe I will find a new patch of it, in some new place, that no one cares about yet.

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Even in 2023, there isn't really anything else out there quite like Frank. But there could be.

If you want to develop some sort of Frank-like thing, there has never been a better time than now. Everyone and their grandmother is doing it.

"But -- but how, exactly?"

Don't ask me. I don't know. This isn't my area anymore.

There has never been a better time to make a GPT chatbot -- for everyone except me, that is.

Ask the techbros, the prompt engineers, the grandmas running OpenChatGPT on their ironing boards. They are doing what I did, faster and easier and better, in their sleep. Ask them.

#nostalgebraist autoresponder meta

[liinos]

I'm going to be controversial but award show performances are never as good as everyone hypes them to be😭 esp jyp groups SORRY

#jyp has the WORST award show remixes in existence its genuienly so🚶‍♀️ #they get in the studio like hm how can we make this song bad :) and then they do 😭 #yall know im an itzy ride or die and sure the performance aspect is always there but the music.... god its BAD 😭 mitm last year was not #good but everyone hyped it so much... dont trust yall #i only really care about end of the year collab stages bc occasionally theyre fun and good but other than that im not watching that😭 #taemin gayo 2020 should be THE blueprint now THAT is how you elevate a song

[pe4chpunch]

as much as i dunk on myself for how cringy i was in 2018-2020, that was literally the last time i was genuinely happy with myself and my art 😭😭

#but i also regret those years bc that's when i really started posting things online #and over time i started worrying more and more over engagement #in 2020 my art really took off and all my art did well #and then in 2021 the algorithm decided to cut my engagement in half #then i turned to twitter in 2021 bc instagram was playing games with me #we all know how that turned out though #this year is definitely my worst year art-wise

[scientia-rex]

I feel like disappointment in Biden is baffling to me because he was always a disappointment. He was the asshole who got to ride to power on the coattails of a better man. He told bizarre and repeated lies (despite getting caught at it and his team telling him not to) about having a Welsh coal miner dad when he did not and he stole that story from actual Welsh people. I read a profile of him years back that pointed this out and told the story of the time he straight up ignored good advice from an expert not to plant a certain kind of tree too close together and flew a bunch of them out to plant, at night because he was just too fucking excited about it, and they all died. He’s not a smart man! He’s charismatic ish and lacks principles and as far as I can tell doesn’t really care about abortion rights or a lot of things we’d consider pretty critical to preserving freedom. I sincerely thought he couldn’t become President because there were so many obviously better candidates in the pool. I underestimated the sexism and antisemitism in American politics, and when he became the candidate in 2020 I gritted my teeth and voted for him because the alternative was a man who is not only an idiot but also profoundly dangerous. Trump is not ha-ha crazy, he’s Mussolini crazy. He is not dangerous because he’s stupid, although that doesn’t help; he’s dangerous because he does not care about anyone except himself under any circumstances and if that means he lets the far right push us straight into forced birth for white women and sterilization for women of color he’s going to do that. If that means conversion therapy for queers and death penalty for homosexual acts he’s going to do that. He has literally no limits. If he gets back into power, a whole lot of people are going to die, again. It’s not a hypothetical because it happened the first time and he’s only going to get worse.

I am not, never have been, and never will be a fan of Biden. To pretend that he and Trump are in any way equivalent is wrong at best and another goddamn Russian psy-op at worst. To pretend that a third party candidacy is viable in the US is to completely ignore every election of your lifetime and your parents’ lifetimes, and to further ignore the lesson of Ross Perot.

You cannot save Palestinians by not voting for Biden in November; the best you can do is chip away at his margin, and the worst you can do is see Trump elected so he can decide to do the worst possible thing in ever circumstance. Biden has Palestinian blood on his hands and watching this when we could have had Bernie or Elizabeth Warren instead is maddening. (I would have preferred Hillary to Trump, but I don’t think she’d be any different than Biden here. They’re both old-school politicians.)

I hate everything about this, and I hate that saying “maybe don’t put the man who literally said he would kill his political enemies in power” is seen as supporting genocide. It’s acknowledging reality. Joe Biden as a person can eat rocks for all I care. I was kind of hoping he’d die sooner in his term so we’d have time to get used to and then vote for President Harris. (Remember when the line was “she’s a cop, don’t vote for her”? Funny how there’s always a reason not to vote for a woman or a person of color or someone you just “don’t like” and can’t put a finger on why except she “seems angry.” Oh does she. How would she not? When Michelle fucking Obama, the picture of grace , STILL got called angry for having the nerve to be a Black woman with an opinion? When Hillary Clinton lost to a man with no political experience to her decades and who openly discussed sexually assaulting women? Would you have voted for President Harris? Or would you let Trump win again because you don’t LIKE her personally and she’s made decisions and statements you disagree with?)

Biden has both less power than his critics give him credit for and more power than his fans give him credit for. He needs to do more to pressure Israel and although it’s a delicate diplomatic situation I’d rather see us fuck up our diplomatic relationship with Israel than watch more Palestinians get murdered for things like “wanting to eat” and “existing.” The line has been crossed, and he doesn’t see it. Because he wasn’t the best person for the job. Because they didn’t get elected, because of sexism/antisemitism/racism. Hell, I have no idea what bootlicker Pete Buttegieg would have done here, but I’d have given him a try. But no. We got Biden and we’re stuck with this reality where you can be as leftist as you want and still have to look at the situation and decide whether you’re comfortable contributing to a Trump victory through inaction. I want socialism—I want every single person on Earth to have clean drinking water, enough safe food, shelter, medical care, and education—and I’m going to vote for Biden, pissy as it makes me, because the only actual alternative is so, so much worse, for me personally as both a woman and a queer, and for everyone in America and the rest of the world who Trump would find reasons to hurt. What do you think the man who openly and repeatedly praises dictators is going to do when those dictators massacre their own people? Yes, we need to care about this genocide now. We also need to care about all of the other people who are at real risk, both at home and abroad. Would a Trump government agree to fund military intervention in Haiti without insisting on it being a colonial exercise in power? Would a Trump government roll back the restrictions on discriminating against transgender patients in healthcare? How would Trump respond if Orban started dragging people into the streets and shooting them en masse? How would Trump respond if China finally went for it and invaded Taiwan? There are more lives at stake here than mine or yours or even those of the Palestinians, who have deserved better for literally decades and are being mass killed in ways that should result in immediate sanctions, a war crimes trial, and the execution of Netanyahu.

The world deserves better from you than complicity in a Trump victory.

[f1version]

26 BIRTHDAY KISSES ★ CL16

pairing: charles leclerc x gf!reader ( she/her )

summary: 26th birthday, 26 pictures of you and Charles kissing. A kiss for each year.

notes: i’m back from my birthday trip!! i wrote this birthday special in like 30 minutes and it’s still charles’ birthday in a couple of places so… i’m not exactly late! enjoy <3

26 KISSES: A GALLERY

By your beautiful girlfriend, in collaboration with a lot of people but mainly Joris and ourselves.

1. DRUNK DANCING: A month after we got together, we were at Arthur’s 18th birthday. We got drunk, singing and dancing to the worst playlist in existence (Lorenzo’s) and, somehow, Arthur got to capture this moment I barely even remember.

Taken by Arthur Leclerc, 2018

2. AUGUST 2019: Summer break, so sweet so loving. You made me promise that if you jumped off first, I would jump too. It took me fifteen minutes to follow after you. Also your kisses were incredibly salty.

Taken by Joris Trouche, 2019

3. THE MONZA INCIDENT: I had red lipstick the night you won in Monza, you told me it looked pretty, I asked you to kiss me, you did. Fast forward 8 minutes it was all smudged over your lips, you were 10 minutes late to the post-race conference, and Sylvia almost banned me that night. (I’m still kind of banned from your driver’s room)

Taken by Charles Leclerc, 2019

4. UNDER THE COVERS: 2020, what a crazy year. This one was taken the day we decided to finish moving in together. You were so excited, wanted everything to be perfect. Today I can say it is.

Taken by Me, 2020

5. WORDS: We were spending Christmas by ourselves, we face-timed our families, had dinner and watched movies. You gifted me three beautiful words I, of course, said back… and we also got a puppy!

Taken by Charles’ phone timer, 2020

6. OCEAN BREZEE: Just a small escapade to take a breath. You were so cuddly that day, Joris was so done with you (he still took the pic though)

Taken by Joris Trouche, 2021

7. CUTE OR HOT: I just wanted a cute morning selfie but, because of you, we ended up in a…promising mood. It was intense that’s all I have to say!

Taken by Me, 2021

8. KISS KISS KISS: 24th birthday, 24 kisses. This kind of became a tradition, let me know if you still want them this year!

Taken by Me, 2021

9. DRUNK AF: How did we got so drunk? Ask Pierre, he was the one hosting. Either way we got another amazing photo of us drunk-kissing!!!

Taken by Pierre Gasly, 2021

10. UNDER THE SEA: I’m just going to say that you and your ‘photo ideas 📸’ folder are attached by the hip. I personally love this one (even if it took half an hour to take)

Taken by Joris Trouche, 2021

11. NEW YORK: Thought you could scape this one? Never! Arthur and I didn’t spend a week listening to your complaining for nothing, babe. You must admit that this kiss was magical, everything was so pretty that day. And then it started snowing!

Taken by Arthur Leclerc, 2021

12. EXPOSED: Remember how our amazing soft launch got ruined by our trip to Ibiza? Well, here it is, the image we couldn’t stop laughing at when it came out, we really thought we were sneaky.

Taken by unknown, 2022

13. HARD LAUNCH: A week later we were kissing on live TV. It’s one of my favorite memories, I couldn’t stop smiling.

Taken by F1 TV, 2022

14. BACK KISSES: Just a picture of the morning after I learned that you can convince anyone, even the CEO of Ferrari, to allow you to leave sponsor events early. I really don’t know if you knew those kisses were there, but I woke up to this, took a picture and then left you with them until we took a shower.

Taken by Me, 2022

15. SPONSORED BY AIRMAX: That time your team forgot to book us a flight and you had to ask Lando to ask Daniel to ask Max if we could go back to Monaco with them. I’ve never seen Max talk so much, Daniel laugh so loud or Lando taking so many pictures. He even asked to take one of us, here it is:

Taken by Lando Norris, 2022

16. SIXTEEN: I bet you thought this one would have something to do with racing. Number 16. Sorry to disappoint but it’s our beautiful puppy…Sixteen! I’m not gonna lie, I still hate you for persuading me into that name. Anyways if you kiss the dog you kiss the mom!!

Taken by Me, 2022

17. 25 KISSES: Again, tell me if you want those 26 kisses this year. Look at us last year!

Taken by Me, 2022

18. NEW YEAR, SAME LOVE: Sometimes the world feels unreal when I’m with you, this was one of those days. I felt in another reality, the world slowed down, it was just you and me. I remember thinking “I fell in love with the right person” and then you kissed me.

Taken by Joris Trouche, 2022

19. BLACK SUIT: Remember when your fans thanked me for your “new” outfits? They repeated it was the girlfriend effect, you couldn’t stop talking about how stylish you are with or without me!

Taken by Me, 2023

20. PHOTOSHOOT: You got Joris to take these shots just because you wanted a new wallpaper. I thought it was silly, until one day all of them were hanging around our home. You are the best thing that’s ever happened to me, Charlie.

Taken by Joris Trouche, 2023

21. FIVE STAR CHEFS: Not much to say, just sorry for being so distracting and thank you for the amazing (stolen from Ferrari) dinner babe!

Taken by Charles’ phone timer, 2023

22. RED LIGHTS: This year’s addition to our drunk-kissing collection. I remember you drowning shots with Carlos and Pierre, asking me to dance with you, absolutely failing at that, and then kissing me. After that there’s blurry ferrari red, giggles and a hot bath.

Taken by Andrea Ferrari, 2023

23. LAZY IN BED: Wonderful lazy days by the ocean, that’s how we spent the summer break. That morning in particular you didn’t want to get up, basically gluing me to bed. We got up at 1pm.

Taken by Me, 2023

24. JUST ONE QUESTION: Can I drive the purosangue now? Please please please

Taken by Me, 2023

20. LOVER: This day I woke up thinking about those dreams we talk about all the time, you even remembered me a couple of them throughout the day. Charlie, I do want to do this for the rest of our lives, never forget it <3

Taken by Arthur Leclerc, 2023

26. TWENTY-SIX: We are just 26 but I hope our story keeps on writing itself. I love you, these have been the happiest 6 years of my life. Happy birthday bébé ❤️

Taken by Joris Trouche, 2023

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