#But its so damn hard to work on it

[1captainjordan4]

Its missing boatem hours

#hermitcraft #Boatem #Grian #Mumbo jumbo #Impulsesv #pearlescentmoon #Goodtimewithscar #My art #Lat #Wasnt gonna post this here #But people on twitter were enjoying it so yeah #I wanna work on my immortal au with these guys again #Like i have a full storyline #But its so damn hard to work on it #Like drawing wise but also writing details out #Cause my brain needs a push i guess #But ive a few ideas!!! So mayhaps soon

[macksartblock]

you believe me like a god, i betray you like a man

#dndads #dungeons and daddies #dndads spoilers #nick close #glenn close dndads #nicky swift #idk why this specific scene hits me so hard im shaking glenn close so god damn hard #its also just a sketch bc i have to leave for work soon #thinking about mitski's ''I'm your man'' and glenn is making me ill #my artwork

[luck-of-the-drawings]

"And soda; runs off into the street..." "...and soda... is totally okay!"

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi suckening #cw blood #something something cracking open a boy w the cold ones #IF THERE ARE ANY MISTAKES I MISSED I SWWWEAR TO JEBEDIAH. IF I STARE AT THIS ANYMORE IM GONNA DIE IT NEEDS TO BE DONE #ALSO RRRAAAHAHHHGHGH CAN I JUST TAKEA SECOND TO SCREEAAMM ABT HOW MUCH I LOVE SODA AND EMIZEL.. LIKE THERYE SO CUTE.... #THEY ARE HOMIES THAT KISS EACHOTHR GOODNIGHT. THEY CARE SO MUCH FOR EACHOTHER. SODA LOVES SODA AND SODA LOVES YOU #do u guys remember how willing he was to share blood w his vampire bestie. like cmon. remember when emizel memorized sodas Soda Schedule. #LIKE CMON.... they just have eachothers backs so much. ouhhh my god... ANYWAY SO THE ART HUH. I FEEL LIKE I SCRAMBLED W IT FOR A WHILE #DRAWIN IS HARD..... i think i did well in the end tho.. i like the lil heart beat effects. and i hope i made soda look Suffieciently Scared #i ALSO had fun w the teeth. i however did not have fun w the walls. if i had more drugs i mightve done every brick in more detail #but i didnt WANNA!!!! this will suffice.I HOPE IT FLOWS WELL&THAT ITS CLEAR... IVE STARED AT IT SO LONG IT IS NOW VISUAL SOUP. HELP!!! #i want my comics to have more Pauses and Space and Thought and Momence. i feel like normally they go so fast. but THIS time #i think i did good.... huuoouhhhh.... comics are HARD art is HARD but i am HARDER. or something. OH YEAH I HAVE MORE ART THINGS #soda was RLY HARD FOR ME TO DRAW FOR A MINUTE..but i like where his design is now. i wanted his hair to be curly swirly.like soda fizz #i THINK thats all my thoughts for now. if u have thoughts u should spill them in the tags i looooove reading tttaaggsss #have a goodnight i gotta go to work soon. maybe. unless the casinos power goes out AGAIN. OR SEOMTHING... UUGHHH MY SCHEDULE IS IN SHAMBLES #I THOUGHT I WAS WORKIN 3 DAYS INA ROW SO I RENTED A WHOLE DAMN HOTEL BC THE JOB PLACE IS FAR AWAY.. I HAD TO CANCEL THE WHOLE RESERVATOn #annd im MMMMAD ABOUT IT!!! like ill get over it ofc BUT IM PEEVED!!!! IM INCONVIENIENCED AND GENTLY AGGRIVATED. BUT OVERALL FINE. #hope yalls weekend goes well. sleep well. if u get the chance to.

[puppyeared]

its so hard to watch time pass when things like careers and assignments exist. what do you mean im supposed to take that seriously

#I have an assignment that was due a week ago and I really really dont want to do it. I have to but i dont want to #im probably making it worse because my brain has built a wall around it so now i can’t do literally anything else until thats done. but #because I don’t want to do it I’m just kinda stuck. turns out this is what they meant when they said emotional regulation is part of #exec dysfunction.. I’ll have a thought like if I get a little bit of it done now i can get it over with. I can just submit something #and then not even 5 minutes later itll be like ugh but I have to draw all the assets out. I have to write things and make spreads ugh #and its just flopping between those two things. i hate it when ppl are like well how much time do you need to work on one thing #because BOY id love to know too. I’d love to know exactly when my brain wants to cooperate with me and work around that but I cant #even my period can’t decide when it wants to punch me in the stomach. which is kinda funny in the grand scheme of things but still #its so weird im just lying on my bed thinking abt all this like damn.. the time will pass anyways no matter what I decide to do.. damn…. #if I submit that assignment now and take the L I literally won’t die. it’ll just be a deduction on an assignment nobody will ask me about #I know this but I’m still stressing myself about it so my thoughts aren’t really connecting to my body. weird #maybe its because Im having a hard time looking forward to things. theres definitely a lot I should be living for but I don’t really feel #a strong attachment to it I guess? it’s been like this for a while with holidays and meeting with friends so I just don’t #I kinda figured its because im pretty passionless and its more like passing interest. but it’s not very fun when it feels like I’m going to #be living distraction to distraction for the next 70 years or so lol #idk it kind of feels like slowly bleeding out. which is funny because I actually did experience blood loss this week #had a 30 minute nosebleed and literally could not stand. also it felt like someone was pinching the back of my brain which was interesting #yapping #does this count as vent #vent #Ive just been making an oc carrd and contemplate changing my blog header for the past 3 days honestly

[oneluckydragon]

Started writing a fic back in early October and had to abandon it for a while due to IRL situations. But I've started working on it again little by little, and I am so excited to eventually share it with my mutuals and followers. I hope you guys enjoy it (I am trying my best to get it done)!

TBH my only motivation anymore is thinking about my friends having a good time reading it when it's finally posted (I love all of you very much). I cannot wait for all of these ideas to be fleshed-out on paper at last.

Over 16,000 words and I am nowhere near satisfied yet. I feel like I can write WAY more. Stay tuned!

#for anyone wondering the fic is dusknoir/grovyle centric but I PROMISE that I did not forget their girl Celebi #she loves them as well and they love her #but the entire thing takes place during Dusknoir's reconciliation w/ Team Wish #the doodle above is from a scene that I wrote!! #Echo and Dusknoir have lots of conversations #they are working on mending their relationship with each other #also dusknoir is holding his hands folded and out in front of him so Echo can clearly see them at all times #he knows that she's got some trauma with grabbing/touching when its w/ him specifically and he's trying VERY hard to accommodate her #in reality Echo could give a shit about him doing that for her but it's the thought that counts (she secretly appreciates it) #bonus that Sora also gets some resolution with Dusknoir too because lemme tell ya my girl NEEDS it #(scribz / fuji / zerger ) thinking about you guys each day fuels my desire to finish this damn thing so pls know that i love you #pmd eots #pmd2 #my art #my fic #echo/umbreon #sora/lucario #not sure how long until this is actually posted cause my life is a horrible mess atm but I am hoping not too long!! #time to disappear back into the void because job hunting is the literal worst

[artistfingers]

one thing i didn’t expect was that my voice changing on t would mean i’d essentially forget how to speak in a comfortable register

#it’s seriously weird (in a good way) but its like #speaking in ways that used to feel natural now. don’t feel natural ? #and instead I get all dry/scratchy #which is Something because my default Phone and Work Call voice now feels….. a bit forced and difficult #but like. I don’t know what to do instead 💀 #trying to find where to pitch my voice…. is kinda hard because I still expect everything to be the same and it’s… starting to Not be #anyway ! #this Sunday will mark 1 month on t #so that’s pretty damn cool #getting to here has been a whole journey and a half and it ain’t even over yet #my life and stuff

[dank-meme-legend]

“The expectations are always rising, goal after goal after goal. Is that why winning feels like compromising? / Everything under control.”

—“Under Control”, How To Dance In Ohio - The Musical

#how to dance in ohio #htdio #autism #autistic #actually autistic #that lyric and the whole song hits so hard as a young adult who’s doing college with no accommodations #and who is managing everything “as a normal student’’ #there’s also a song in the musical about the characters asking each other out but using their special interests and hyperfixations #which is just.. yes! #and it’s really sweet and a catchy damn song!! #I mean.. I sent my now gf a the politician meme about Payton and River to express my feelings #and sent her plenty of Ben Platt songs to get my feelings across #it worked!! autism rizz works folks!! #LISTEN TO THIS MUSICALS EP PLEASE ITS SO GOOD

[leona-florianova]

Absolutely fascinated by how that director/cinematographer guy in Nope! was apparently obsessed with making documentaries or art films (from what we have seen) where animals hunted, killed and consumed each other. Where the action and the act of kill itself couldnt be enough, but it had to be artfully made. He filmed it himself with a camera of his own making and edited it all by himself too.. From what I understood, he was even quite renowned for it in certain circles.. But to make a living he had to direct cheap artless commercials..Like the one we have seen... filmed on a greenscreen backgrounds starring some gone era stars...Something nice that would appeal to the consumers. 

And then he got THE OFFER OF A LIFETIME.. And when he found out it really did fit his niche, he took it..and he shot it. But because  just capturing it wasnt enough, he continued. He had to have the perfect shot, with the perfect lighting, and perfect point of view. He had to be right there. It had to be his. He had to make THE IMPOSSIBLE SHOT.. And he did it..But it consumed him in the process...

#NOPE! #antlers holst #NOPE movie #thats passion and perfectionism baby it can destroy ya #or its the industry or the consumers that destroy ya... when faced with the fruit of your labor #or giant alien jelly fish #either way this movie slaps hard #text post #thoughts #oooh the spectacle #jordan peele you damn genius #nope spoilers #im frothing at the mouth i need to watch this movie at least 5 more times #nope 2022 #it was so filled with all sorts of different allegories that work in tandem and 1 theme #it makes me mad #and then its possible nobody will ever see that shot.. but he did it

[sunnibits]

I literally never make edits these days but a demon just possessed me to make this (the demon was adhd)

(and yes this is not every queer tv role he’s ever played but the others aren’t as iconic so yknow)

#con o’neill #con o'neill #I know it’s off beat and awkward in places and the videos are all varying quality ok I’m not an editor 😭 #It’s damn hard to get scenes from some of these things so I tried my best ok #I’m pretty proud of myself just for making it #and besides I made it for myself so now I’m just happy it exists 😌 #my edits #<<tag I have literally only used TWO other times ever LMAO #SERIOUSLY DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH FUCKING WORK IT IS TO RECORD AND EDIT AND CUT DOWN VIDEO CLIPS FROM 6 DIFFERENT SHOWS AND MOVIES #MOST OF WHICH CANNOT BE ACCESSED EASILY #ITS DAMN HARD OK #IT TOOK A LOT OF PASSION FOR THE IDEA FOR ME TO DO THIS

[crescentfool]

not indicative of anything, just something silly i thought about! feel free to fill in the variables with whatever you like.

#lizzy speaks #HELLO TUMBLR. this question was brought to you by me from 1 AM who woke up in the middle of being sick #this was a genuine question i thought about. i joked around in my head that i was sick bc im clearly just a host for my little blorbos #but actually though i think i just had a silly little reaction to taking the flu shot #me playing sr with friends at reset with my beloved wife squiffy wondering 'why do i feel hot?' (completely forgot about the flu shot) #anyway! i hope you are all have an excellent weekend. please make sure to stay hydrated! #and feel free to rb with thoughts i need to see what everyone's relationship is with a parasitic god-like entity #not that the entity needs to be a parasite but yknow. i think its fun #also related but unrelated whenever im unwell i think about kitaro. im like. damn. he works so hard for SEES... #going and climbing through tartarus through all that even if it makes him sick.. ue ue ue he is everything to me

[the-midnight-stargazer]

i feel like i just won at life...

#monster prom #monster roadtrip #brian yu #liam de lioncourt #polly geist #scott howl #IVE WORKED SO HARD FOR THIS ENDING #ive literally been sitting here for the past 5 hrs #i suppose hard work DOES actually pay off #cuz DAMN its so so so so so WORTH IT!!!

[betasuppe]

Had a fucking bonkers good time at the IAAPA expo today & wound up winning a Tab Lite in a raffle drawing among the mountain of other free goodies I had forced on me by vendors throughout the day.

& like.

Guess it's good I haven't completely given up on the art thing because it looks like I have a brand new tab to be my travel digital sketchbook heck yeahhhh~

#nok talks #fuckin ay tho #going back on thursday & im so PSYCHED #too much to see & do in one day like #damn i feel like a kid in a candy store always lmaooo #& legit #this industry is mostly hard thankless work #but being able to see adults turn into little kids & having a great time #fuck it makes it all woth it #touristy un escapable life style from hell #but also #mAGICCCC #its got its own perks at least lol

[unexpectedbrickattack]

👀🍕..

#chattin #i am AWAKE from my nap. and i have thoughts #thinking of that damn 🍕head bc i keep seeing him in my dash…and people draw him w others so well…. #i want him to be like just a silly guy #but a silly guy thats got something a little fucked up wrong w him #mentions of stalking and obsessive behavior -> #like i think i am going to settle w 🍕head being a bit (ALOT…AWFULLY ALOT) obsessed w peppino #like summing it up wo writing an essay; #he wanted peppinos shop and got rejected TWICE. he tried hiring peppino and got chased out of the shop #and it went from ‘i want the shop’ to ‘i want peppino’ to ‘if i cant have the shop neither can he’ #to ‘if i cant have him…well actually thats not an issue at all’ #imitation is the sincerest form of flattery yknow #the peppibots came first bc its like ‘okay i cant have the damn shop but i can just Make a shop w bots that work like him. that cant be too- #-hard RIGHT??’ but the bots are so volatile and unresponsive and they explode everything they touch #and pizzahead is like ‘no… :(‘ peppino looks so angry but makes his food w LOVE…he does NOT explode his food!!! #he doesnt want to scrap the idea but it Is a bit disheartening #and hes like OKAY. WHATEVER! WE ALWAYS HAVE OTHER PLANS….! #theres gotta be cloning labs right? no i dont care about the morality of that shit u sillywilly. FIND ME A LAB. #so now theres little peppino clones everywhere. and they look SO close to the real thing #and pizzahead is like. hol up. i think something is happening that i dont want to happen right now. but im going to put that away for now :) #by this point peppino has already relocated to his Current Spot bc theres literally NOTHING available 😭 #‘enough. to the Woods with you’ #and pizzahead is like there is no fucking way that chump that IDIOT that extremely handsome IDIOT took the damn plot next to the tower #and immediately is like ‘well if im already making the bots AND the clones then i really REALLY dont need u! at all! not even a little!- #-I dont care! i really dont! who needs a strong and smart and handsome man like u around???!!!!!!’ #and pizzahead is like that fucking dumbass😏 watch that shit explode in 6 hours. only um. peppino is storming the tower #and hes like WAIT OH SHIT. KEYS. KEYS WHERW ARE THEY??? THE CLONES! WE AINT GOT NO TIME THE FAT MAN IS COMIN #YOU. ECCENTRIC ARTIST. FIGHT THAT MAN. ‘okay’ YOU WEIRD CHEESE MAN. SHOOT. ‘mkay’ #like hes panicking and throwing shit in the air and running in circles in his little camera room #NOOO im at tag limit…pizzahead hates this man he loves this man he is obsessed and maybe wants him a little carnally. its all good okay bye

[puppyeared]

man ok so you know the spiciness scale on menus that show you how spicy a dish is so you can order based on your tolerance. can we have that for sauces too please

#im being serious btw. the sauce to rice ratio is very important and sacred to me #whenever i eat at home i get to choose how much sauce i can have with my rice because i dont like absolutely dousing it but i still wanna b #able to taste it yanno. i dont do well with slippery/saucy foods and ive given up trying to understand it. it might be a sensory thing #i am so sorry to admit this on the soup website but i cant handle thick/chunky sauces or curry. forgive me #the worst part is that i actually can handle and even enjoy some like caldereta and congee. but its so hard to tell people ill eat this but #not that.. its embarassing because it feels like im making exceptions. which i am!! because its preference!! but alas #but anyway with the sauce scale. i was thinking it would be nice to include a scale for how much sauce you want with a dish #rather than just skirting away from a food because you feel like you cant handle the texture or feel unsure about it #sauce could be adjustable without completely changing the recipe so it would be more like a matter of quantity or serving size #also i feel like i can make cool names for the scale. like “light drizzle” to “sauceageddon” #im asian so when i eat sauce i pair it with rice and it works because the rice kind of cancels out or makes the sauce more tolerable for me #with caldereta i make it an even 50/50 because i can taste it in the rice without the texture getting in the way #but with pasta and sauce its normally 1/3 sauce because the pasta normally isnt enough to cancel it out #i also grew up with relatives making fun of my eating habits and i really really hate eating at restaurants and gatherings because of it #maybe its because they want to make sure im eating right but!! you dont have to call me out for my 1/3 portion of spaghetti sauce!! damn!!! #anyway im not sure if anyone feels the same abt this and maybe its just me. but it would be really nice to have this a normal thing #without judging ppl for their eating habits and preferences. on god #yapping #food ment #EDIT: ASKING FOR SAUCE ON THE SIDE. MY EYES HAVE BEEN OPENED. I DIDNT KNOW THAT WAS A THING

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

the desire to do comms vs my inability to remember that i got a message FIGHT-

#its like 'oh a message! i will respond later' #and then later never comes cause i have no damn object permanence Or working memory #then its like... what do i even say #'hi sorry i ghosted your simple question for two days i forgot you messaged me' AGH #or especially lately #i mean to do things and then i get a New piece of distressing information about the way my life is going #which then consumes my thoughts and leaves no room for anything else #ahaha thanks! ill claw my eyes out now!! wow!!! FUCK! #trying to keep up the things i enjoy is. so tough rn #but ill flounder w/o em so! hard work that i am mostly failing at but i Keep Trying #yes i wanna do comms. yes i wanna draw. yes i wanna talk to people. can i? mmmmm...... #can't wait for this chapter in my life to be over. goddamn. #ive been in a perpetual state of intense stress since early childhood #but my fucking duck things lately have been taking the cake #absolutely unprompted #oh no this is turning into a vent post Look Away #well my mother called again last night and was all 'im getting you a car' #and uh. i started physically shaking while profusely thanking her (lying through me teeth) #GIRL!!! I DONT NEED A CAR THATS TOO MUCH RN!!! #she's always mentioning how the collective We are tight on money #and that rn i need to focus on making decisions and getting a job ill hold for like. a month #and then she slams this down outta left field??? thats so much extra stress i dont need right now??? #now i gotta worry about parking and maintaining it and gas money i dont have And And And- #i cant exactly tell her Dont Fucking Do That bc then she'll blow up in my face and call me inconsiderate & ungrateful again #me and my stepdad dont have the fucking TIME to get one! and then she was like 'oh i can always come down to help' #please dont. do not do that. i cant deal with you in person right now that sounds hellish #anyway. case in point #cant even think about messages and stuff i Want to think about bc all this bullshit is taking up my entire mind #metaphorically slamming my face into a brick wall till theres nothing left. aaaghhahsbkjadadj #its too much its Too Much everything is so much and its too much and can i be let be for two fuckin seconds please

[sleepyseals]

[Image Description: A digital painting depicting Feldspar standing to the right of a campfire, facing away from the viewer and upwards. They are holding an arm outstretched above them and the other gesticulates as if they were telling a story. Several fireflies surround them and their shadow falls to their right. Wreathed in the smoke of the campfire is a scene of their campsite in Dark Bramble. Three large twisting brambles, the anglerfish fossil’s teeth, and three pine trees are suspended upside down, stretching downwards toward Feldspar and the campfire. A plume of stylized curling smoke stretches across the top of the scene from Feldspar’s ship in the top right corner. The ship is sparking with electrical failure. End Image Description.]

my piece for the @travelers-encore-zine !!!  I think this came out a bit more conceptual than I wanted but I still like it!

Thank you to the mods for making this happen, putting everything together and being an amazing support team!!! Thank you to my fellow contributors for being so lovely and making such amazing things and sharing this project with me, I'm really happy I got to be a part of it!!

#I'm so late to posting this omg sorry!! I got stressed abt writing the caption bc its hard getting the words out of my brain sometimes #but its already been a few days since the zine came out I can't believe it #expect some sort of process video or post for this maybe!! as soon as I figure out how I want to do that haha #idk I put a lot of work into this that I don't want to leave unseen but I don't know how I would even go about formatting smth like that #I dont know how to feel abt this piece lol I definitely got very tired of looking at it by the end but I think I'm still happy with it #there's so much going on for me atm but I'm happy! I'm so happy I have things to be passionate about #crazy how life is messy as ever but so much more manageable when you have something you care a lot about #videos game. <3 <3 <3 #I’m interested to hear people’s thoughts on what this means like symbolically ::] #both lonely and claustrophobic #Stories are the basis of so much in game but give feldspar room to breathe god damn it #I have to go to class and stop rambling in the tags now #outer wilds #feldspar #dark bramble #my art #outer wilds spoilers #ow spoilers #how did i forget spoiler tags... smh my head XD