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puppyeared · 5 months

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its so hard to watch time pass when things like careers and assignments exist. what do you mean im supposed to take that seriously

#I have an assignment that was due a week ago and I really really dont want to do it. I have to but i dont want to #im probably making it worse because my brain has built a wall around it so now i can’t do literally anything else until thats done. but #because I don’t want to do it I’m just kinda stuck. turns out this is what they meant when they said emotional regulation is part of #exec dysfunction.. I’ll have a thought like if I get a little bit of it done now i can get it over with. I can just submit something #and then not even 5 minutes later itll be like ugh but I have to draw all the assets out. I have to write things and make spreads ugh #and its just flopping between those two things. i hate it when ppl are like well how much time do you need to work on one thing #because BOY id love to know too. I’d love to know exactly when my brain wants to cooperate with me and work around that but I cant #even my period can’t decide when it wants to punch me in the stomach. which is kinda funny in the grand scheme of things but still #its so weird im just lying on my bed thinking abt all this like damn.. the time will pass anyways no matter what I decide to do.. damn….#if I submit that assignment now and take the L I literally won’t die. it’ll just be a deduction on an assignment nobody will ask me about #I know this but I’m still stressing myself about it so my thoughts aren’t really connecting to my body. weird #maybe its because Im having a hard time looking forward to things. theres definitely a lot I should be living for but I don’t really feel #a strong attachment to it I guess? it’s been like this for a while with holidays and meeting with friends so I just don’t #I kinda figured its because im pretty passionless and its more like passing interest. but it’s not very fun when it feels like I’m going to #be living distraction to distraction for the next 70 years or so lol #idk it kind of feels like slowly bleeding out. which is funny because I actually did experience blood loss this week #had a 30 minute nosebleed and literally could not stand. also it felt like someone was pinching the back of my brain which was interesting #yapping #does this count as vent #vent #Ive just been making an oc carrd and contemplate changing my blog header for the past 3 days honestly

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burninbriight · 4 months

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related to pjo when i was 12 and still an undiagnosed neurodivergent kid and still relating to pjo now that i'm 18 and diagnosed but still treated like there's something extremely wrong and unfixable about me

#does this count as vent #vent #??#pjo show

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syrnyj · 4 months

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Watching Peter cry is heartbreaking.

Loud, hoarse sobs shake his entire body as he holds onto Curt with his entire might, like he’s afraid the man will be gone any second. No matter what Curt tries to do or say to comfort him, it only seems to make Peter cry harder.

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Watching Curt cry is distressing.

Peter can feel the fabric of his t-shirt grow damper near his shoulder while Curt motionlessly clings to him, and it’s the only evidence Curt is even crying right now. There’s no sobbing, no trembling shoulders. He only answers Peter’s questions with weak nods and shakes of his head. Peter doesn’t know what to do.

#does this count as vent #idk #i can't cry so i'm thinking about my faves crying instead #parkonnors

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platonic-qpr-selfshipping · 1 year

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sometimes you just gotta consume some self shipping content because stress from life has you feeling lonely ig

#daydreaming about f/os to scape from all of this for a minute #it doesnt help that theres literally only one person in this city that i can comfortable and freely talk with #perhaps if i saw my f/os more often everything would be a bit better you know?#self shipping blog #f/o community #self ship community #self shipping #esta tarde tuve ganas de llorar en el pecho de Holst #does this count as vent #vent #just in case

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dabruzzy · 1 year

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Had a dream that fucked me up a little. Gonna leave this under a read more

So it started out pretty normal, I was dreaming about being at work. Then it took a turn, suddenly I wasn't me anymore, I was a man and apparently I did something terrible, though it was never specified what I did exactly. Another man wanted to punish me by removing my heart and letting me die slowly (according to my subconscious it was basically like suffocating). After he removed my heart, the man told me I could talk to his cousin and ask her any question I had before I died, so I did. I asked her stuff like "how would you describe your cousin" or "why did he do this to me". She seemed to be completely unaffected by my situation and just replied calmly. But then I asked her "should you be afraid to die?" and she was thrown off. She hesitated, clearly didn't know what to say. I knew I didn't have much longer and got more and more desperate, begging her to reply. At this point I was on the floor and I was holding her hand. She said no, but it was obvious she didn't mean it, she was just saying what I wanted to hear.

And then after I "died" I realized my heart had actually been beating the whole time. I did notice before, but I didn't pay much attention to it. And I thought that maybe if I spoke up and said something about it I could've survived. So I'm not sure what I actually died of lmao

#does this count as vent #it's not really vent i'm just sharing this so my brain will let me go back to sleep

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couchie · 2 years

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someone get me out of this household

#sick and tired #when will it stop #when will it end #urghhhh #funguy🍄#short vent #does this count as vent #oh well

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tiredfoxtf · 2 years

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#> tired shitpost #i hope I won't fucking die from anxiety would be not nice #it's so strong these last months #and the more I think the more it feels like i'm gonna blow up from inner pressure #huh #does this count as vent #i have no idea

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not-heavenly · 11 hours

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its all fun and games until i could treat you better she doesnt fucking deserve you this isnt you youre self sabotaging this relationship isnt good for you

#Does this count as vent

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stankyles · 1 year

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