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words-for-holland · 4 years

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Quarantine Series: Burnt Out

Pairing: Tom Holland x Reader

Summary: Y/N has to work from home during Quarantine, but when she gets extremely busy it’s up to Tom to find a way to help her relax .

A/N: This is my second attempt at this piece. Last time I created this it was super long but it got deleted 😩

All Y/N ever wanted was an opportunity to work from home. Then again, who wouldn't want that opportunity? All she could think about was how nice it’d be to work in the comfort of her own home, not have to dress up in business professional clothing, and most importantly be surrounded by the people she cared for the most. But as the saying goes, “Be careful for what you wish for.”

When a global pandemic decided to take over 2020, Y/N certainly got her wish. Her company was forced to work from home until further notice, but what she didn’t expect was the amount of work she would be given. Y/N was pulled from project to project with deadlines thin as paper, and was expected to pick up the extra work of those that were no longer with the company. There was no time to catch a breath, and there certainly was no time to spend with her beloved boyfriend, Tom. This only made Y/N more depressed and made the Holland boys only more concerned.

“Mate, you got to get her to take a break. She’s gonna overdo it.” Harrison commented to his best friend, as they watched Y/N type away like a zombie from the kitchen.

“You think I don’t know that?!” Tom responded with a defeated sigh. “Every time I ask her, she always brushes it off and claims shes fine. Don't get me wrong, Im proud of her and admire her work ethic, but damn its sucking the life out of her.”

Both Harrison and Tom continued to observe Y/N with a cup of tea on hand, wondering how long it would take before she snapped. Tom hated seeing her like this. To him this wasn’t fair. It’s not fair that her 8 hour shift now became a 15 hr shift. Its not fair that she had to work 3 weekends straight, and it certainly wasn’t fair that her company took precious time away to be together. It was hard enough already that he couldn’t spend time with Y/N like a normal boyfriend would because of filming. Now, that he has the opportunity to make up for the lost time, it’s taken away.

“What if you surprised her?” Harrison quipped.

Tom looked up at his best friend with curious eyes. It took a few minutes to sink in, until the brightest idea figuratively smacked him in the face. “Yeah...yeah!” he responded, a smile forming “And I think I know exactly how to do it.”

As Tom was working through the thought process of his brilliant plan, his younger brother entered the kitchen, looking for his usual afternoon snack. “Hey, does anyone know where —. Oh no...” Harry groaned as he looked up at Tom and Harry. “Whatever it is that you two are planning...Leave me out of it.”

“Come on, mate. You dont even know what were planning.” Harrison defended

“Believe me, I know enough and any plan that involves you in it, is likely to fail 99.9% of the time.” Harry opened up his bag of crisps as he continued to list out the other 99 possible reason why they should have left Y/N alone like she wanted. “Cmon guys, you know how she gets. When she doesnt want to be bothered, she doesnt want to be bothered.”

“You’re right Harry, but she’s so stressed, she’s homesick, and one day she’s going to overdo it. Id be a shit boyfriend, if I let it happen.” Tom reasoned. “Look, Im not trying to do anything crazy here. I just want to give her that sense of comfort and see her relax.”

Harry looked at his brother and then at Harrison, both displaying their best puppy dog eyes, in hopes that he’ll join in. “The face doesnt work on me...but I’ll help for Y/N’s sake.”

Meanwhile, Y/N continued her work in the living room, her eyes firmly glued to the computer screen. After being dragged into the kitchen and the Holland plan, Tuwaine slowly made his way to Y/N. “Hey Y/N.” he happily greeted. “I think it’s time for you get some fresh air, don’t you think?”

Y/N looked up, her glasses slightly shifting forward down her nose. “You know theres this thing called being stuck in Quaratine right?” she responded, continuing to code her project.

“I think the real question is do you really want to work here when there’s just nothing but CONSTANT NOISE !” Tuwaine yelled out, hoping the others would catch on.

“What?!” Tom yelled back. It took him some time to realize what Tuwaine meant by his statement. “Oh...Right!” Quickly, Tom grabbed whatever pot or pan he could grab his hands on and dropped them on the counter. Harrison and Harry gave Tom the strangest look. “What? I gave him some noise?”, he shrugged.

“See?” Tuwaine smiled back at Y/N. “You wouldnt want to distract that working brain of yours with all this going on, right?” Y/N furrowed her eyebrows as Tuwaine as she looked at him and the closed off kitchen. Did they think she was born yesterday? Of course she knew they were up to something. None of the boys were subtle enough to keep everything hush hush.

Y/N shook her head and decided to just go with it. The faster she complied, the faster they’d leave her alone, which only meant more time to finish her work. Tuwaine helped carry her laptop, mouse, and charger to the porch as he led her outside. “See, arent you glad your outside, breathing in fresh air with no distractions?”, Tuwaine spoke out.

Y/N took her time to admire the view. “Wow”, she whispered under her breath. Y/N couldnt remember the last time she set foot outdoors. Seeing the sunlight hit the flower beds, the gentle breeze rustle through the grass; it was beautiful. Of course, the moment was short lived with a simple ding, which only multiplied by the second.

Y/N dripped her head back, trying to rub out the frustration from her face. “Yes, well it was fun while it lasted. Duty calls.”

“Im sure they wouldnt mind if you just took five minutes for yourself at least.” Tuwaine commented, feeling bad about the amount of work he saw popping up on your screen.

“Yeah well that’s Corporate for you. Doesnt matter if you’re 500 km away or if a virus is hurting the population. If you’re not working, you’re useless.” Y/N shrugs. It wasn’t like her company was completely evil, this was just how business worked.

“I know Y/N, and we all see that you care deeply about your work but we’re all so worried about you too. We want you to be mentally okay as well. I know Tom is worried about you the most...He misses you, you know.”

Y/N’s heart dropped the second she heard him say it. She knew that all of this was gonna take some time away from Tom, but she hadn’t realized how much he would be missing her, even though they’re living under the same roof. “Yeah I miss him too, more than anyone will know. Believe me.” Y/N pondered for a moment as she stared at the work in front of her. Perhaps five minutes couldn’t hurt. “Maybe I will take that break after all.”

“Really?”, Tuwaine was surprised she had agreed so quickly, and at the same time he panicked. Tom and the others were not ready for Y/N’s surprise yet. “On second thought, Im wrong. You should keep going and try to finish up that project of yours or else you’ll never be done.”

“Excuse me?” Y/N asked as she tried to close her laptop. “You just spent a whole half hour trying to convince me to stop working, and now you want me to go back and work?”

“Yeah..I mean what do I know, right?” He laughed nervously. Tuwaine looked back at the door, for some sort of signal. Come on man it’s not like your preparing a break for the Queen of England.

“Listen Tuwaine, if I go back there and you boys break anything in that house...I swear— I’ll”

“Y/N!” Tom interjected as he stepped out to the porch. He wrapped his arms behind her waist, giving her a gently kiss on the top of her head. “How’s work, my pretty girl?” He looked back at Tuwaine and mouthed a thank you to him as he left the love birds alone.

Y/N turned around to face Tom, taking in his features and running her hands at the nape of his neck. “Busy, but what else is new? I’ve been missing you a whole lot”

“Me too, darling. Anyway, Im really hoping you can take a break from all this because I’ve got something special for you.”

“Oh no, babe. You know you didnt have to anything for me. Really Im fine..I-“

“I wanted to. In fact the boys wanted in on it too. So this is really from all of us, if you think about it.” Tom grabbed Y/N’s hand as he led her back in to house. “Come.”

As they both enetered the house hand in hand, Tom led Y/N into the kitchen, where the rest of the boys waited with diner burgers in hand and warm homemade chocolate chip cookies on the side of table. What seemed like a simple meal was a cure for any bad day..at least for Y/N it was. It represented a sense of home for her, while being far from Jersey. Even though she hadnt realized it, Tom and the boys knew she needed it. “Wow” Y/N breathed “I...I dont know what to say.”

“Dont say, just eat” Harrison laughed. “In all honesty this was Tom’s idea. We just wanted to make sure you had the support you need.”

“Yeah you deserve this, so please enjoy it.” Harry added. With that, everyone dug in and bonded over a family dinner, sharing laughs and stories. Tom leaned toward Y/N whispering in her ear, “I have a few more surprises after this.”

The next few surprises did not disappointment. He set up a nice warm bath for the two of them to relax and enjoy each others compny. A few subtle kisses, laughter, and silence was shared between the two. Y/N leaned back into Tom’s chest, feeling the water gently flow back and forth. Breathing in and out, she had forgotten how good this felt. Being close to Tom, was a different experience, one that no one could ever do justice. This was what she really needed.

After the bath, Tom led her into their shared bedroom. For a moment, Y/N stopped him as she pulled his head down to hers, giving him the kiss he rightfully deserved. Her lips crashed with his, his hands gently holding the sides of her tiny face. He picked her up as she wrapped her legs around his waist and situated themselves on the bed. Reluctantly, they both pulled away, catching their breath. Their foreheads touching and noses gently rubbing the others. “I love you. I love you more than you could possibly know.” Y/N whispered to him

“And I love you. I just want to give you the world because you deserve it all. My hardworking pretty girl.” Of course all good things must come to an end.

After a great well spent break was shared between Y/N and Tom, she was back on the work grind. Only this time she was working in their room as Tom was reading a script for his next upcoming project. The more Y/N coded, the sleepier she was getting. It onyl took a few minutes before she started leaning into Tom and her eyes started to flutter. Her breaths became slower and she was out like a light.

Tom turned to look at Y/N, smiling to see the sight of her finally at peace. He removed her glasses and set them by her table side. Tom made sure to clock her out of work abd checked to see if her work was saved. Just as he was about to turn off her laptop, another message popped up. “Great”, he muttered, rolling his eyes at the fact her team is still working at this hour. He couldnt help but read it though. Just how badly did they need her anyway?

We all know how hard you’re working and going above and beyond to get these projects out the door. For that, we thank you! On behalf of the company we’d like you all to take a day off on us!

Tom smiled, relieved that shell finally get some time for herself. Feeling triumphant, he shut off her laptop and set it aside. Crawling back into the bed and covering themselves under the blanket. His arms wrapped her waist once again. “Goodnight, my love. Im so proud of you.” he whispered.

#tom holland #tom holland x reader #tom holland imagine #peter parker x reader #peter parker

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lunova-rambles · 3 years

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Carmen Sandiego S2 Liveblog Masterpost

originally posted 191002 lol, finally dug this post up from my other blog!

CARMEN SANDIEGO SEASON TWOOOOOO

IM SO HAPPY WTF I WAS FEELING SO DEPRESSED BUT MY MOOD TURNED AROUND!!!

This is just a collection of my liveblogs lol

EP.1-3

FIRST 2 EPISODES WERE SO GOOD I KEPT YELLING ABT SHADOWSAN BC OMG FATHER DAUGHTER BONDING

Y O SHADOWSAN CAN JUST D O THAT WTF

HE'S SO COOL???? HE CAN SCALE A BUILDING IN LIKE 2 HOPS WTF I WISH I WAS THAT COOL

AND THEN WHEN HE GETS THE SWORDS HFJAJ

oH and the part where he explains how he "decieved carmen"? I didnt belive that for a second lmao and then he said Moscow and I was like I KNEW IT LMDJAOHSJS

EP.4

AAAAA NOW JULIA'S ALONGSIDE THEM

I LOVE HAVING ALL THE DIFFERENT CHARACTERS WORKING IN DIFFERENT PLACES BUT STILL TOGETHER!!

ALSO SHADOWSAN CAN JUST DO THAT

Bro the animation/cinematography got like 2x better oh my god. I’m referring to both literal animation (their use of like...perspective to make it more 3d? I love the animation so much hfhajsh almost makes me want to take up animating) and the composition!! V good use of foreground + background

Bro Shadowsan is lookin sharp but he stands like a dad lmfao he's such a dad

EP.5-6

Im gonna cry tho Zack and Ivy's backstory :'( it's sad

But Ivy's old hair was so cute lol

Hdjaidh Carmen hired her crew because they were persistent history buffs lmao i snorted it's so cute

Le Chevre kinda sharp too ngl

Also Ivy is fusjinh GIRL CRUSH hfhahjs

Also also IVY THOUGHT OF THE WRIST GADGET IM AIDHDH

They got a home base????? Wtf

But i mean im ok with more father-daughter bonding if Ivy and Zach do some renovating lol

EP.7

FJKDISUK IS GRAY GONNA UNINTENTIONALLY BE ON THE TEAM

I WAS JUST TALKING ABT JULIA WORKING WITH THEM BUT NOW GRAY??? I LOVE THIS GROWING OF THEIR FLEET

Oh this is so COOL and kind of scary hhdjajsh kms im scared hfjajbd

DAMMIT IK IT HE HECKIN GOT SUSPICIOUS

GRAY IS BABIE

GRAY YOU GO IM SO HAPPY THE WRITERS KNOW HOW TO USE THE MEMORY THING

But istg do i ship Carmen with Gray or Julia

EP.8

Smh @ ACME @ Chief why u gotta mess it all up

Go Jules tho

EP.9

oH DAMN IT'S GETTING INTENSE NOW

GONNA GO CRY BRB THE SEASON'S NOT EVEN DONE WTF

AND SHADOWSAN IS GONNA "HANDLE IT"?!

THIS HECKIN MONTAGE IS MAKING ME NERVOUS

HOW MUCH TIME HAS PASSED!?!?!

OH FINALLY DEVINEAUX IS BACK

Oh lordy lmao i guess this isnt what i expected

He's literally crazy lmfao

DAMN SHADOWSAN CAN JUST DO THAT

dang y'all

Wait do I ship Devineaux with Julia jshahs

EP.10

Wait MORE BACKSTORY

NO SHADOW DONT CRY

Oh the amount of secrets being revealed this episode-

TOO MUCH

AFTERTHOUGHTS

I jist finished s2 jahsjsi im gonna cry i heckin love how it all connects

My fav show next to atla probably :’))) so heckin good

I love how everything is connected, I love shows like that!! I always find it nice to theorize and make connections since I love associating things

Again, if y’all want art, please say so!! I love this show omg

#carmen sandiego #shows #lunova rambles #.txt

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kattieisdead · 3 years

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first&last?

hey.

idk where this will end up, maybe ill just post it on some random forum and leave. not sure yet.

anyway. my names kattie, 18 as of 26\8\2021. i live in england rn, northeast, but am supposed to be moving to uni in a few weeks. i keep worrying about if my roomates will be nice, if well get along, but im starting to think that wont matter anymore. not when they find out the girl who was meant to live in C2 killed herself before she moved in.

ive attempted suicide several times since the age of 15, the most recent being 6 days after i turned 18. i stayed in hospital alone all night. out of all of my family only my mother and sister know, and they didnt come. mam said she'd pick me up the next day, but i ended up leaving alone and we have never spoke about it since. jesus christ the lack of autocorrect sucks. so yeah, this will be number 6 i guess. 6th time lucky? hopefully. i dont even really remember why i tried the last times. i mean, i know, but there wasnt some big trigger like you see in films. theres a lot of built up trauma; SA at 15, several eating disorders, depression, general life suckery, but its not like some major event happened and then i slit my wrists an hour later. oh yeah that reminds me, sh too. but yeah, no major trigger. its more like, i just live life in this constant state of numbness (not really numb though, just perpetual sadness) and the thought is always there. ill make jokes like 'oh look at this minor inconvenience, omg im gonna kms' and friends will laugh along, but that thought, those ideas are always there. they just lurk at the back of my mind, and some days they stay back there, and other days they make themselves very, very known. i dont really wanna live like this. i mean i dont wanna live at all, but i think deep down, deep deep down somewhere, if i got help and seriously tried and did things that actually made me better, maybe id find something in life that was worth living for. i got a test from the gp after my last attempt. she reckons its pandemic induced and is only mild, something that would just go away after lockdown. whos gonna tell her huh? that rape from some random man i met online before school when i was 15... definitely did some damage. the eds? not healthy. probably had some issues before the pandemic sweetie. so yeah, i reached out for help and it did literally nothing. not doing that again. you know, with such a big family youd think someone, somewhere, would help, or want to help. i got drunk on a night out last week and fell over on my way home. had to be brought home in an ambulance. my sister didnt know what happened, but do you wanna know the first thing she said when i walked in? "why have you done this shit again" she thought id had another attempt, and even then, she didnt give a fuck. the only fucking thing she could think of was 'why does this bitch keep ruining everything' i didnt do anything, obviously, but knowing that she thinks me trying to kill myself is just an inconvenience really really fucking hurts. like a lot. and now im crying, great.

well i cant see coz of the tears, but i hope if you read this. well i dont know. i just wanted to rant, and knowing maybe someone, somewhere might finally know how fucking shitty life treat me makes me feel a little better.

be kind to yourself. you deserve it. some people are too far gone for saving.

i wanted to be a counselling psychologist. i cant help anyone now, but maybe this will strike a nerve with someone enough for them to reach out and seek help.

love you, take care, your worth the space you take up on this earth. if you dont like your life, change it. cut the toxic person out, eat that fear food, call that guy back. and love those around you. sometimes they need your care more than you could ever imagine.

your bestie, kattie <3

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unintentionally-lame · 4 years

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WBB MOVIE LIVEBLOGGIN

●Grizz I'm going to fucking cry to movie just started

●O w

●A TRAIN????

●What the fucking fuck Ice.

●T H E S T A C K

●I dig the varsity jacket

●YESSSSS INTRO

●Sksksks they're just destroying people's day

●FUCKING BONJOUR???

●Mmmm Canada's been on thin ice irl

●The girl with the yellow beanie got me 😳

●oh panda hon....

●YeAH FUCK THE POLICE NOM NOM

●Oh no this is gonna go horribly wrong

●panda is anxiety personified poor dude

●KAKXJDHDJFBJE THE FUCKING FORTNITE DANCE

●GANGNAN I AM NOT OKAY

●IM GONNA KMS THE MEMES

●u h o h

●panda is going to snap later and I'm not ready

●nope don't like this guy already, I dig his voice tho

●secure contain and protect

●kick their ass squad

●HUBUHWHAT?????

●C H A R L I E ! ! ! 💖

●ice bear was so willing to lose his fingerprints what a fucking legend

●angst. angst. angst. angst. angst.

●charlie is a saint panda why would you do this to him

●ice bear I'm so sorry you gotta deal with this

●MUSICAL NUMBER?????

●what's it gonna beeeee ~

●this is so cute

●h e c k

● "yes. no. ask again later."

● oh god the youngest child struggle

● regular police convo

●grizz is my fave but his behavior is killing me

●J INK IES

●"we're gonna die here aren't we?"

●bro this place SLAPS IS THAT LEFT SHARK

●CRAB RAVE IM GOING TO CRY

●H ELL YEAH THIS LOOKS LIKE IT RULES

●whoa is that chuck e cheese

●these animals are on thin ice as well but that was heartwarming

●if they betray them I'm going to sue ●is this gonna break my heart?

●TROUT THE TANK ENGINE

●CHUCK E CHEESE YOU STUPID CAPITALIST

●YES ACAB

●I love these racoons

●how is there only 26 minutes left this is gonna kill me

●murphy you bastard

●HSHAGSHSGSH WTF MY HEART IS POUNDING

●cloudy skies mean my broken heart, great

●sTOP EATING THE LEAVES-

●I don't trust this man

●bro me too ice bear

●oh no oh no oh no oh no grizz pls baby stop

●yup there it is the snapping

●skskskks this is just like eene big picture show

●haha O U C H

●N ON ONONO NO N ON O FUCK OFF NO

●LET THEM GO YOU MONSTERS

●N O O O O O

●LEAVE THEM ALONE

●NO NOT THE MUZZLE

●my heart has been obliterated

●shut up white man

●15 minutes left cmon make this right

●😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 GRIZZ BBY I'D DOE FOR YOU

●that's rough buddy

●shut up no promise this is gonna kill me

●THE MUSIC GOD STOP HURTING ME

●the lil blush

●kkjsj roasted

●did they teach ice bear to speak?? That's the saddest and cutest thing ever

●ELDEST BROTHER ENERGY

●FUCK 'EM UP GRIZZ SQUAD

●SKSKBDUEHD HOLY FUCK LIL BRO

●get rekt

●m u r p h y 😒 you're USELESS

●S T A C K

●trout's just gonna burn huh

●o H NVM

●awww home

●3 yeehaws for acceptance

●wHOA

●pride bear 😭

●I'm gonna miss my boys so fuckin much

#wbb movie #wbb movie spoilers #wbb #we bare bears #we bare bears movie #we bare bears movie spoilers

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silversprit · 3 years

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me reacting to danganronpa shit with no context

includes all 3 main games! ask for context if u want heeheh

FUCK YALL ITS CANON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BRO ITS LITERALLY THERE ITS ALL THERE (referring to leosaya of course)

i also love how everyone else hates him, though him and mukuro junko coudlve been really intriguing

kyoko doesnt even waste time speaking

SAYAKA DO IT. FRIENDZONE THAT NAEGI

DIUKGJHSDN DKUCFH CNXUDGFJKHN AXGUF NAEGIRI CANON CELESTE/MAKTOTO CANON????? WHY DOES EVERYONE LOVE MAKOTO at least sayaka friendzoned him

MONDO WHAT THE HELL ok its confirmed hes gay AHHAHA LEON JEALOUS OF THEIR FRIENDSHIP AHAHAHAHAHAH

HOYL SHIT NOOO LEON AND SAYAKA NEVER SAW GENOCIDER :( NEITHER DID MUKURO NO!!!

SAYAKA DO NOT BE THAT ENTHUSIASTIC ABOUT TOGAMI HE IS NOT WORTH YOUR BREATH

CELESGAMI CANON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I KNEW IT WO- maybe not maybe im reading too deep “he and i are of a kind” WINK WONK

KYOKO JUST LAUGHS WHAT IS THE CONTEXT

toko pleeeease stop obsessing ove rhim hes so bad

ishimondo canon i think that ones actually canon someone on the dr crew said it i think

SAYAKA WTF “he’s great” SAYAKA/ISHIMARU?

fuck you byakuya “don’t breathe until i tell you to” shut the fuck up

i would say band-aid confirmed but honestly? it already was MONOKUMA HUH WHAT

hm comparing gundam to komaeda… is that a good comparison? idk much about sdr2 i cant say for sure SONDAM CONFIRMED again it probably already was

sodddaaaa dont beat him up

HAHAH THE GIRLS DISSING TERUTERU IS SO FUNNY akane just here for the food

i love you twogami you are so good HAJIME NOT KNOWING WHAT YAOI IS JUST… MMM FEELS RIGHT

OOH CHIAKI SORTA DISSING HAJIME OUCH

AKANE!! WHAT THE HELL THATS SO FORWARD I GUESS THAT THING FROM THAT ONE SCENE WAS MORE THAN JUST

TERUTERU GAY FOR HAJIME CONFIRMED also kazuichi/hajime but thats more believable… wait “come and be my worthy partner” TWOGAMI/HAJIME EVERYONE IS SO HORNY FOR THE PROTAGS

“she’s in the wild ‘n wet world of yuri now!” IBUKI WHAT ARE YOU SAYING ARE YOU DATING HER WAHAT i mean i do think it could be cute also hajime’s was surprisingly calmer than i thought it would be

WOAH HIYOKO WHAT THE SHIT DID YOU JUST SAY KOMAEDA WAS INTO LOLICON WHAT honestly im glad no one trusts komaeda (this will get me murdered)

SONIA KNOWS KUZUPEKO CANON EHLL YEAH ibuki was friends with him? i dont remember that

everyone is being angry at ibuki gonna kms /j /j /j shes just playin her death metal HIYOKO NOOO WHY ARE YOU THE ONLY ONE WHO LIKES IT

F-FUYUHIKO BLUSHING AT CHIAKI??? NO. I CANNOT ACDEPT THIS ibuki is so gay i love her she is best girl for a reason

i dont trust most of the people’s reactions to her thats weird

akane just confess to nekomaru already damn you dont gotta keep innuendoing ooookay is teruteru bi cause hoyl shit these reactions make me think so thats actually p cool

ibuki keeps referencing that one scene in chapter 2 and i love that

hajime says “stop talking about your panties”…. bro shes- you know what nvm he can figure it out on his own

KUZUPEKO CANONNNNNNNNNNNNN

ibuki being gay for peko feeds me i love them together but like kuzupeko but like peko has two hands! gundam just laughing.. imposter sus

glad none of the dudes (except for teruteru rolling eyes emoji) is being horny for hiyoko and monokuma calling her a loli is. technically correct? shes an adult if the dr timeline is right

love that ibuki still goin on about that scene girl… same also love that kazuichi and gundam bonding over loving sonia

ibuki rejecting soda like that… good for her. hajime yes you’re soul friends geeez it snot that hard to understand

havent played v3 so my opinions might be stupid (you have been warned)

wow these are surprisingly boring also whats with the talk of ghosts thats weird

miu dont diss tsumugi like that i thought she was cute also yeah okay maki you dont need to be like “im not interested” okay we know u straight baby its ok /hj kaito wanna see her cosplay (lenny face)

HAHAH RIP SHUICHI

STFU KOKICHI HIMIKO IS NOT UGLY UGGGHGH WHY DOES THE FANDOM LOVE YOU YOU PIECE OF GARBAGE

angie finds keebo attractive you say? and tsumugi asks if he knows romance? and shuichi calling him a dryer? fascinating

angie calling gonta a grandma is both cute and kinda odd. why is kirumi calling him mother? my god miu can you not be horny for 5 minutes

ohhh i get it now nvm gonta asked if she was the mom of the group AND KOKICHI ASKING HER TO BE HIS MOM HAHA KOKICHI MOMMY KINK LOLOLOL tsumugi drooling ooh

OHH GONTA CALLED ANGIE THE GRANDMA OF THE GROUP WHILE BLUSHING WHAT angie is honestly so cute shes obsessed with atua and sacrifices but shes cute

kaede asking why korekiyo wears a mask… sadge if only she knew what awaited her in 2020 also maki asking who his sister is is

monokummma

aw kaede called tenko cute. also kiyo just straight up being like “yeah imma kill her” is so brave

shuichis is so boringgigig

im crying i cant find the ultra despair girls one

ALSO I HOPE YOU NOTICED THAT THE DR1 ONE IS ONLY LIKE HALF OF THE CHARACTERS BECAUSE I WAS SO HAPPY THAT LEOSAYA HAPPENED THET I JUST HAD TO POST ABOUT IT

#not art #via rambles #if you saw that last post no you didnt #not posting in dr tag its too embarassing

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unkn0wnl0v3 · 4 years

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Day 2 ✿ Sep 15 ‘20

Today is a new day! Blah blah:/ ugh! I can’t believe I have P.E for my first period ε٩ (๑>•<)۶з and I can’t believe I’m already failing p.e! Like what the hell! I’m not even in class! F me I guess. Besides this my teacher in this class is ok he’s not boring he’s not hot either tho, he’s like this old guy. That’s ok ig; my classmates are all ugly and they’re all boring argh! I’m just salty cause I have to wait all day to see Sir! Ugh that’s the only downside of having him last. I wish I could just have him all day. That would be hot;) Oh my gosh tho like it’s been six minutes and my teacher still hasn’t started like start already! And it’s not like he says anything important he just drones on and on like this is P.E just let us leave if ur not gonna teach us anything. I guess I just have to f-ing deal with it (ᗒᗣᗕ)-(09:08)

Lmao pe teacher funny jk:)-(09:18)

Oh my god I just had algebra and my teachers wouldn’t stop teasing me. They’re funny and stuff but today they like fucking set me on fire. Like I said before at least soon I have Sir and it’ll be all good and fun. Ugh it was just so embarrassing (｡•́︿•̀｡)!!!!! Like in the beginning of class my algebra teacher was like “does *my name* want a test?:)” and I was like “yhmoskskwwkwkw” then my other algebra teacher put us in breakout rooms and was like “this is the girl who left my comp science class shes the one who hates me:) Hahahah” and I was like “uuu uuu ee ee eh eh huh eheheh” then my friend cat was waving at me and then my teachers called us out and we’re like “hi *my name* hi cat!” And I was like ‘(´Ｏ`)’. I’ll just be looking forward to the end of the day:)(11:3-?)

I have my class with him now. I usually find myself getting so scared that I’ll be like not doing good enough! But today the assistant principal came and then I was stressing like “Am I not doing enough?!!?!!!?!?!!!??” Cause like I want to look good to these people! But wtf like I literally get so embarrassed and I can’t act and think! I just want to be perfect for them ugh :(

And I was having trouble cause I couldn’t write my name and like I want to kill myself like I straight up just want to die rn like I want to die oh my god. And like my answer is fine but for some reason I just want to like die I want to die cause I think that he hates my answer but he probably doesn’t like I literally am going to kms. I’m going to kms like I’m going to die arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! If I could I would turn back time and just not come to class.(13:23)

Oh my god Jesus Christ hahahahahahahahahahhahahhahjhahahahahhahhhahahahhhjhjhhahhh Im losing my f-ing mind!(13:26)

Yk guys when I’m not lusting over him I’m just so bored! Like this class is so boring! Oh my gosh:0! Like I’m literally going to cry cause of how boring this f-ing class is wtf! But like who the F do I think I am:(((((( like it’s not like I add anything or say anything I should start contributing again cause I’m getting jealous idk why my classmates r just answering. Bruh I’m literally crazy. And he chose this Mexican story and he gets all happy when people answer with their Mexican knowledge I’m asian choose an asian book!! And it’s not like he’s Mexican he’s white so like urgh. Bruh Im just having a panic attack I’m like venting cause of how f-omg embarrassing this whole day is. I should just enjoy this class! Ugh but I can’t cause I’m crazy 。゜゜(´Ｏ`) ゜゜。!(13:34)

I like how two little tufts of his hair along his hairline curl and touch like a heart<333! Ugh I’m still bored tho. My aunt told me I should ask to be switched to the advanced class like AP cause all of my class from last year got put in ap English I’m the only one who didn’t even tho I got the highest mark(105.6%) so my ego kinda took a big fucking beating cause of it. My teacher said he really likes me tho, he talked to my mom and btsn and he was raving about me so I guess I should just be hopeful and assume he doesn’t hate me or dislike me or anything like little dumb brain is making me feel like. Bruh you know something’s wrong in ur brain when you get smitten as he says

“Thanks *insert name*”

Ugh what the hell its not even that cute he was just saying thanks. My god! I’m so topsy tervy when it comes to this stuff like I just got finished saying I’m so bored now I’m like f-ing horny. What the fuck. I want to kms! Argh! Lmao this kid couldn’t pronounce vaginal pleb! I’m mean I should be nicer to these kids just cause their below me I shouldn’t be such a bitch.(13:48)

I hate my anxiety I should kill myself shouldn’t I!?(14:11)

Oh my gosh wtf! I turned on my cam to say goodbye and my hair flew back and everyone saw my devestating hairline. Rip km rn y’all!(14:21)

I’m contacting him now to ask about being placed in a harder class or like getting support well not support well support for aiding my fucking boredom. He’s sexy tho so I’m not angry about having to talk to him(16:29)

He told my mom I should switch out to a different class to get a better education. Specifically his honors class. But if I do that then I might not be able to see him anymore And that’ll kill me. But if I stay in his boring dumb people class then that’ll kill me too. Worst part is if I do end up in his Honors English class then I’ll have to leave my friend in math. So if I do this the bad might out weigh the good. So idk get a better education with an ugly teacher, leave my friend, or be surround by dumb dumbs all year. Agh plz help(17:19)

I decided I have to get a better education like I can’t just stay in that class and not do what I have to do to get a good education. But like I’ll miss him. Or I’ll miss my friends and my other teachers idk. Idk idk idk, I just know I’m like feeling fucked rn:(((((((((((17:59)

I think I’ll probs be seperated from him. I mean it’s better this way cause I’ll get a better edu in an honors class and have a better time but like I’ll miss him he’s really cute. I might just sign up for the journalism club he oversees but idk I already have a tuff time in keyboard so idk if I can keep up with it all:((19:39)

I’m pretty sure this all my emotions for all school stuff and him like I thinks that’s all so bye (´ε｀ )♡ (21:31)

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airett-archive · 4 years

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I start in a week and I changed schools which means I don't know anyone there, and because of Corona rthere are gonna be some changes and I don't know what is gonna be changed and I take 40 minutes to get there and it's a big difference from the 3 minutes i took before (and STILL was late) idk why I'm telling you but if I think too much about it km gonna have a panic attack lol -ian

try an distract yourself (binge a show, watch yt, read a bunch of books) bc like it or not, school's gonna happen (unless your parents agree to homeschool you, in which case yay!)

also sorry about having to switch schools, that sucks. But on the brightside you can spend the extra trip doing fun stuff like cramming for tests bc you were too busy watching the Gilmore Girls the night before

im not sure im even talking about anything you are but i hoped this helped cheer you up

#asks #ian #im numb to school at this point #but i get its stressful

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inoctoberwebloom · 5 years

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Lol debut anon with ONE LAST POINT before I leave u alone 😂😂 . When I started my journey with BTS, it was all about the music which is why I loved them. I loved the hip hop feels, their impressive dance moves, the color of JMs voice (from day 1), and their involvement in their music. I absolutely abhor the toxicity in the fandom now. (1/)

People arent even prioritizing their music anymore and that’s what the boys loved and wanted to do. It feels SO cheap/disrespectful to prioritize ships over THEIR PASSIONS. Scenery and Promise should have been days of recognition and accomplishment and congratulations it was disgustingly tainted by fan narratives; whether those narratives had to do with ships or complaints about Twitter acknowledgment by other band members. BTS say they love and think and are grateful for fans (2/)

I believe that is true. To a certain extent. But the reality is you dont know them and they dont know you. So for anyone to reduce their musical accomplishments and triumphs into ship wars is just wrong and intolerable for someone who’s been around for so long. I also think its wrong for people to project their personal experiences onto the boys when many of us arent from the same culture or country and definitely dont know them personally. Its not our place. IT SHOULD BE ABOUT THE MUSIC. (3/)

And the boys’ health and well-being. I am so happy for their international success and musical accolades but with that fame has caused a shift of attention from what they started in Kpop to do to superficial nonsense like ships. Like I said, I do believe it’s KM or nothing. But I’m definitely here for the music and the boys first. And if the fake fans could dismiss themselves asap, girl, bye. Ain’t no body here gonna miss you. (End)

#ask inoctoberwebloom #debut anon you are a legend #be my friend

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boredgrrldiaries204 · 3 years

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my summer trauma haunts me heres my story ig im still developing still coping ut maybe this makes sense

it was like i got raped by the nicest guy alive that was deaf and couldn’t hear the hundred no’s

u don’t get it

u just don’t get it

uve alr forgotten even tho i j said it

and now he left marks on my neck that i gotta hide to pretend like it was my fault

to pretend like i liked it but as i pulled away he would suck on my tit that would release the slut in me to not wanna retrieve. he was smart w every word that came out and knew how to get me into every position. i was helpless and honestly had no choice.

i think the amount of time that i said no even as he stuck it in was obssurd. i was insured that he knew what he was doing but as i recoeved my 3 calls after i am no unsure.

he said he wants to get me drunk and high which a part of me wants to c him again for

i just didn’t talk

i didn’t want to

he did make me moan tho

but it felt good for the slut who wanted it

but sophia didn’t

sophia said no

hundreds of times

my nice boy who said he was a nice boy didn’t listen

said he got the drugs to get me high tho

i do wanna get high tho

idk tho cuz at the end of the day he just stuck it in me and the real slut in me kinda liked that he ignored all the no’s and j did whateva that he wanted w my slutty body.. saying i should teach all the other girls to be as hot as me.

i wasn’t ready for it

i didn’t want it

i made myself as tight as possible for it

tried to get away as many times before tbh. ate me out w my tits and pussy laying in the ocean on display for everyone. lk. i was basically lol drowning and couldn’t see because of the salt water in every hole as he wouldn’t remove his mouth from my pusey as i literally suffocate and drown whitin myself. gonna kms wtf was that. but i am mad at this man i did not like how everyone saw me and i couldn’t get away. no i didn’t like it and i told him no and i tried to leave he didn’t listen. i literally got raped. fuck him. fuck him. i said no. he said he was nice. i didn’t want it. any of it. fuck him. fuck hum. fuck him n. fuck him. fuck him rot in hell dirty ass black skank ass ugly assgtfo this white coo chi ass gtfo away from me i hate u asssssss i hate u i hate u i uate u wtf was that wyd was that fuck u fuck u fuck u fuck u fuck you i didn’t want it i had to get back fuck u fuck u fuck u i hy ihy ihy ihy ihy ihy ihy ihy ihy ihy ihy ihy ihy ihy ihy ihy ihy ihy ihy ihy ihy ihy fuck uuuuu.

I don’t even know his fucking name. fuck

but as they say the worst mistakes make the best memories

i’ve been sleeping for the past 12 hours trying to come back alive after he killed me frkm the inside out.

idk some random black island boy

very black

light eyes

bnice lashes

bad teeth. mouth full of teeth i just wanna break. he might look like he gets bitches but huni that dick was abt 5-6 inches

do not fuck me black boy

u don’t get this pussy boi

u a loser i don’t wanna jerk u off boy

get away boy

now i’ll run away boi

mom found me as i returned to bay

she saw u to slut shamed me for it.

little does she know. that that has drained everything from me. idk what to do now. tbh. but i’m fine. this will not ruin me. that’s bs and u know it.

what happened what happened u disappeared ur so stupid ew slut welcom yo the real world. happened to us all.

fuck u i hurt

i hurt

i feel i hate u

u suck

rot

rot boy rot

i hate u i didn’t even want u in the water

i couldn’t move

u held me down

fuck uuuu

fuck offfff

i hate uuu

impure

rot

rotten

spoiled

slut

stupid

raped

slut

whore

mean

something is fs wrong w me

her innocence lost

always mad

hate on things

hv to deal w things

trauma and things

no one gets it

no one really gets it

fuck

hated that smsmsmsmsm

fuck u mark

or whatever tf ur black name was

kept saying in my ear

u like that black dick

all i’m thinking is NO NO NO and i’m literally telling him not really no no no u don’t get it u just don’t get u will never get it i hate u i hate i hate i hate u ihatte u u raped me u burn in hell. rot whore i hate u

gtfo off meeeeee

ewwwww

i hate u

r a liar

thursday

turks n caixos

1-3 pm

sophia was missing

this is what was happening to sophia

sophia didn’t even realize what happened until way later

sophia is one idiot

ahhh

i’ll be fine

i hope i hope i hope

i mean i am traumatized

i can’t stop thinking about it

and how much i actually dispised all of it

but if i hated it all how am i ever going to get over it

u make me hate this city

i don’t talk abt that shit cuz that shits embarrassing

cuz i was a kid

u ruined everything good

always said u will do everything g i wanted

JUST FUCKINV LEAVE ME WLONEEEEEEEEE

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAHHHHHHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHHHHHHHH

I HATE U

U RAPIST

FUCK U

and i want my hat back

i’m about to get violent

but i don’t really feel like fight

u don’t listen anyways i’ll get quiet i don’t really feel like fighting

i’ve lost my mind

wander all away

make them wonder where i am

but now i just got a vandeta

but gonna go on an endeavor and the only thing i got was a bellyache and slut-shaming. but i hate him more than anything ever

i want him to die

i wanna leave this city

get me away

from this city

I DONT RELATE TO U

SHUT UP PLEASE

gonna make me relapse please

please please wtf ihy

U MADE ME HATE THIS CITY

GODDAMNNNNNN

FUCK

FUCK UUUUUU

personal vandeta

don’t know what to do

honestly embarrassing

shi

fuck

ihy

smsmsmsmssmsm

find this mf and lay him in his grave

i will never be the same

will go to sleep w bloody hands

i hate uuuuu

if i teel u my secret will u keep it

he raped me

literally raped me

omg

#myrapestory

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irregulardiaryposts · 3 years

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00:53 21/06/2021

Hello again <3

so i think im gonna write about my mental health today because i dont feel like i have anyone who understands fully apart from myself maybe so i need to Organise my Thoughts. as a kid i had a pretty normal childhood, a mum a dad and a brother - pretty nuclear right. but as a child i felt like my family maybe wasnt quite right, that this wasnt supposed to be what family is? perhaps. - i was scared of my mum a lot because she wasnt very understanding of me - and i was a great kid, never getting into trouble, very good at school, no issues whatsover. the thing that really shows how i thought of my relationship with my mum was when i was like maybe 8 or so having a parents night and at it my teacher had nothing bad to say apart from i was kinda bossy in group settings (im sure i dont need to explain how misogynistic that actually is- i was not bossy i was a natural leader) and when i got home my mum told me off for that and i felt like she was kinda cold to me and not taking all the good things about me into consideration when telling me off for that.

i feel like thats a really defining moment in my life when i realised i cant expect adults to Understand me, realised how people treat young girls, also started my defiant behaviour maybe or was kinda one of the key moments that made me dislike certain authorities in my life, that if people wont understand me regardless of how i explain myself then i wont bother trying to be understood by people who wont matter to me. anyway yes i was scared of my mum-like petrified sometimes- but my dad wasnt great either, he also had his shortcomings. i feel like he never really cared about me like he was kinda apathetic towards raising me like a parent - i feel he would be better suited as an uncle to someone rather than a dad - the funny childish guy that makes kids laugh -not the uncaring dad that cant be bothered to really learn about his kids. and i feel im sitting here complaining about my parents when the fact is that a lot of adults should never be parents, society has conditioned people into thinking the only way to be fulfilled in life is to live vicariously through your kids when life gets to such a boring and monotonous place where you feel the need to create a new life to spice things up lmao. i feel a lot of parents regret having kids but they cannot express that regret because it was their choice and they should deal with that, also saying you regret it would be pretty horrible to the kid.

so while yes i am complaing about my parents i dont think they were Bad in any way just not that great yaknow. also i just notice all these things growing up and i feel its been pretty impactful to understanding myself and my parents. also just some anecdotes from my childhood - i used to watch my dad play video games like the uncharted games i think theyre called, and whenever i got scared i used to hide behind the couch until the scary part was over (usually a lot of guns and high energy fight scenes thats too much adrenaline for a 7 yo) and sometimes when i would take out my dad/brothers game i would get them to fo the hard parts and do other stuff myself - i dont remember many games i played apart from one of the spidermen games where u could just web around the city and not progress apart from sometimes you would come across some strippers and i accidently got into a fight with them (also hot women with umbrellas they use to fight- maybe i went near them on purpose) i would yell to my dad and get him to do it for me. also on new years eve whenever my mum was working and we werent going to any family parties we would make a bunch of food and put it out in the kitchen - wed make like homemade onion rings, chips, have crisps and dips, and a bunch of junk basically and watch like austin powers or some shit and genuinely miss those times they were so simple. but a lot of thats tainted now from what happened. also my brothers always been annoying as shit but when we were kids we couldnt be in the same room without arguing which like whatever thats how kids are esp brothers and sisters for some reason.

i think thats majority of the background needed for the rest. wait this is a little addition but i meant to mention this here so ill put it in- basically sometimes on holidays i would geniunely think my parents hate each other/ were getting a divorce like once when we were in florida in 2012 my dad convinced my mum (as well as me and my brother convinced her since we liked them) we convinced her to go on a water slide thing that u had to walk up the stairs for, it was outdoors, and it was kinda tall and then we got in one of the big donut things and it swooshed from side to side a lot and was generally pretty scary i suppose for someone who doesnt like rides esp since you had to hold on to the handles there were no buckles or anything, and so when we got off the ride my mum was big mad at my dad and like wouldnt talk to him and stuff like that which was pretty uncomfortable to have to be the 8 year old mediator of that but there was also another occasion i think (maybe also at florida) where they were made at each other and i asked my mum if they were getting divorced and all she said was 'ask ur dad' like???? no sort of consolation to this child who thinks their parents hate each other nooo just petty 'ask him' and theres also been other times when they fight/ are mad and they dont feel the need to hide it from us so i felt quite anxious around my parents sometimes.

so ahnyway . yes. when i had just turned 13 my parents split up and it fucked me up in a multitude of ways. also i cant beleive i stopped being a proper kid at 13, like as soon as i turned a teenager life hit me like a fucking truck. so the context as to why they split is still kinda lost to me ngl but they didnt tell me much anyway since i was young but my mum basically said my dad didnt love her anymore and he wanted to separate. its kinda funny because leading up to this my dad had been sleeping in the living room for like a few weeks and there was on and off fighting i could hear and i basically thought they were fighting over me and that i was in trouble and it kinda used to keep me up coz i could hear loud voices when they thought i was asleep- which is probably the cause of why i get veryyyy mad and angry when i hear my mum at like 1 am downstairs when shes drinking and im trying to sleep, probably something ive internalised (is that the word?) and made me respond so strongly to those type of noises.

anywayyyyy yes i thought i was in trouble when they were actually just getting a divorce so ... yeah you can really tell i was young and didnt understand adult issues or really couldnt figure this out myself from all the arguing and him sleeping downstairs lmao. anyway my dad moved out and it was just me my mum and my brother now and at this point my brother wouldve been about to turn 18, so although still kinda shit, not really as affected my it as a 13 yo, just to keep in mind. so i was devastated obviously and my whole world was kinda shattered but i had to hold it together a bit, also i was sometimes my mothers own therapist having to say things like 'everything happens for a reason' 'itll get better' in response to her deteriorating mental health and her questions that would be really hard for me to answer like 'why did he leave' etc (bish im a child be there for me not wallow in ur own pity, u have ur whole life to sort this out youre an adult, im a 13 you and only months away from wanting to kms hun think of ur CHILD please) anyway this left me feeling like a burden if i were to share my mental state because when my mum shared her stuff she was burdening me (AGAIN i was 13 she is an adult) so that made me bottle a lot of things up also the fact that i had no one to share it with because she works as a nurse and now shes a single mother and so she works almost all hours of most days and i dont see her much, my brother was either working at this time or just didnt give enough of a shit about me to make sure i ate.

i went from being catered to for every meal because i didnt know how to cook to suddenly no one being there for me so i had to learn how to do it myself. needless to say that lead to a bunch of unhealthy eating habbits like eating the same things every day - frozen pizza, cheese toasties, i cant think of anything else probs because i didnt make anything else just ate chocolates or didnt eat breakfast coz i woke up at 2pm. just general unhealthyness both in substance and like how healthy that was for my head yk. also this is during the summer btw so it gave me the option to be incredibly depressed - im not saying that as an edgy teen thing to say im being 100% genuine i was very depressed like textbook style - not eating or overeating, not showering/ taking care of myself, extreme lack of energy and hated doing social things coz i had to put on a farce that i was okay meanwhile i couldnt wait to get into my bed and sleep the next day and a half away.

i very vividly remember at the start of the summer holiday my friend asked me if i wanted to go out and do something and i rememeber just crying at that because i had no reason to say no but i just didnt want to and felt like i couldnt do anything and so i lied and said i wasnt feeling well and then put my phone down and curled up in my bed and cried coz i was frustrated and upset and i couldnt really understand what was wrong with me and why i was Like This.

god i didnt take into account how tired i was and how late it is when i started this huh, this isnt even half of it, but i have obligations in the mornign, the last until uni or whatever so ill put this in my drafts and finsih it somethime. alrigtht it is 02:08 btw z_z. also ive just now decided im gonna re organise my tumblr so if this ends up being an actual blog thing i can navigate it easier by adding tags and such. anywau goodnight.

20:21 30/06/2021

MOTHERFOIUHIFIUDVMKCVKM V

MY LAPTOP SHUT DOWE IN THE MIDDLE OF THSAT SO ITS ALL GONE BASICALLY I WAS DEPRESSED BURTNOUT GIFTERD KID AND IT SUCKED YADDa YADDSZ ANYTWAY

23:01- well. yes earlier i wrote a little about the ages 13-16 and how they sucked but whatever it got deleted the more pertinent stuff happened in the last year or so anyway.

um yeah so i started the last year of highschool as a 16 year old with a fucked up brain and never having learned any study techniques or work ethic in the slightest. i took 3 uni-level courses only one i actually wanted to do, most people take 2 at most or even 1/0 but do other classes. honestly it fucking sucked this year for school but i scraped all passes so thank god for that. so i started the year quite optimistic, or as much as i could be and in all fairness the content of this year wasnt actually that bad considering i was doing 3 hard classes but corona really truly fucked everything up and by November i had mentally dropped out of my classes but of course i still had to go to them. i feel like im an oddly independent teen because ive never had a solid parental presence in a while, like i had to do a lot for myself and maybe i should thank myself for getting me through it all because i really did pull through.

my thoughts keep drifting from what im writing coz i wanna talk about different things and im just thinking maybe i shouldve just posted the last one then added a reblog when i could be bothered to write and not force myself because if theres ever a reoccurring theme in my life is that if i force myself to do anything i will hate it with my entire being, so maybe i should just do a short synopsis and write about something else afterwards.

so i took 3 hard classes, slowly lost all motivation because in jan it switches to online classes and i could Not deal with those it was horrible, and i became more of a "troublesome student" in one of my classes *cough* maths *cough* and almost got "kicked out" of taking the class just because the teacher was a control freak but like wanted to control all of our actions and behaviour, also i think i may have adhd and another kid in my class i think he does too and surprise surprise the teacher "dislikes" him too but its only a farce because he doesnt actually dislike him its only so that i cant call him out for singling me out when other students behave "badly" too. but anyways maybe ill come back to this in a while when i can be arsed explaining my complicated relationship with my parents.

the only reason i wanted to write this today was so that i could tag the post with like june 2021 or something and not june/july, but i might make another post later, Anyway happy end of pride month i supose, hope u figure it out me!

#why does tumblr break up the paragraphs like this #there isnt supposed to be paragraphs #maybe i should change that #anyway off to fix all my post so far and tag the all like ->#june 2021 entry #2021 the year of fun

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lil-ray-of-moonlight · 6 years

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31/5 2018

My teacher had been sick for some days so i mentioned him in a prayer this morning. Turns out he was feeling better today but better safe than sorry.

I spoke to him and he said I was raped. I know it sounds weird but we just kinda talk and i think i trust him. I don’t think it was rape though because there was no penetration.

I was feeling really bad today. I felt kinda empty but after speaking to him I felt better. He went through worse things than I.

At work the receptionist and my english teacher came in. Apparently the people working at the school were gonna have a ton of pizza and I accidentally said “wow i think imma kms now” aloud and one of them just said “nah”. It was actually quite awkward but who cares

I left work early today and read some. I think I’m going to go to bed early today. I slept for only about 3 hours and I’m the kind of person that sleeps for 10 hours, takes a 2h nap and still doesn’t feel rested. This week has been a bad one sleep-wise

I hugged my teacher 2x and my coworker like 4x. Wtf i remember a time when I hadn’t been hugged in over a year. Fuck i’ve missed this.

I regret getting rid of my lighter. It was like 1500 and I had already smoked over 1/2 a pack of fags and I really wanted another one but I freaked out and don’t want to become dependent to I just kind of tossed the lighter away. Dumb, I know.

I skipped art and watched owari no seraph instead. I really want to like it but I can’t. I just can’t get attached to it.

Yesterday Maja made fun of me and said I had a crush on the teacher but today I explained it with something like “its not sexual i just feel kinda like begin arounf his cause i think i can trust him“ and “idk he’s just like what i imagined a good family would be like“ she said it was kinda cute and got off my back. Boy, if i told her what i thought about the german girl she would never get off my back.

I feel better now. It’s nice and I feel like im not really alone. I feel like I have people to turn to and people that would help me if i needed help.

I’m looking forward to church this sunday. On saturday I’m also gonna go to see some guys confirmation ceremony.

I’m doing well right now. up until around 1430 i felt really empty and like a useless burden. After that I just felt normal.

#journal #personal #if you can't find family at home you'll search for it elsewhere #and yes: i know its weird #i know youre not supposed to act like that #but this teacher is super chill and really nice #may

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friednose · 6 years

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missing you comes in waves of memory stupid memory of things I can’t do with anyone else that nobody would understand stupid memorys of dumb roleplays that i loved stupid memroys of your voice get out of my fucking head why dont you just leave stop clogging my memory it just hurts its memorys from when it was good i want it to be good i want you to love me i just want your love your special love i dont want to give my love to anyone else i dont want you to love again yet i fall into another relationship with an ex I’m not happy I haven’t been happy in months I havent brushed my teeth sense you last told me too all my cuts are infected and I dont know what to do i dont have my little nurse girl anymore I think im around 95 pounds it hurts im in constant pain someone take me off this earth i shouldnt have left you despite you not loving me in the slightest because it felt better pretending you did i love you I love you I love you I love you love everything you hate about yourself its terrifying you know everything about me and you can do anything with that now you have no reason not too i think the only way to be friends is if you never even loved eachother in the first place maybe im wrrong idk i regret not touching you or hugging you i regret being dumb i love you idk how many times ive said that but it never loses meaning i have a bad memory you know this you know its weird you know i remember things at weird times when did it stop when did you stop loving me why i couldnt i fix it i shouldve fixed i shouldnt say this but i will i think id give up all my friends for you even Seth your not reading this and if you are you dont care I want answers to my questions I dont even know what i can do to fix this now im broken now you fixed me slow and broke me in a matter of around 3 months i have gotten next to no sleep i am always tired im failing almost all the classes imactually out during and its painful to eat everything hurts everything good reminds me of you so i start to throw up not even on purpose nobody cares about thispost though idont anyones reading it and I doubt theyll do or say anything if they do i dont really want anyone elses love despite everyone telling me thres so much other people in the world who could love me i dont care i want you i dont care i need you im working off all the foodd i eat during practie hoping to die of malnutrismatian eventually and nobody cares thats the fucking worst because i cant take care of myself i dont know how and i dont want i would pay someone to kill me rn because i dont have the motivation to do it myself i love you idk how many times ive said this ik i said that already your the best and worse thing that ever happened to me i deoned in you to ive and that wouldve been fine if you planned on staying i feel my bones i black out for two seconds when i stand up im always dizzy and tired at practice youree beautiful you know your brown eyes are beautiful i torture myself thinking about you every fucking day until i pass out at 5 and get up at 6:30 i need your voice i need a voice telling me it’ll be okay even if theyre lying i need you to promise me you wont leave me again i need you to actually stick to that promise i need to hear i love you too even if youre fucking bullshitting everything id rather live a lie then this if youve made it this far thanks what the fuck are you going to do now im not gonna kms so dont go telling tumblr staff idk live your life this post wont ever change anything and if this person i targeted this to is reading this then great what now babe @sinningdragonfromspace yep im tagging you calling you out i guess because i doubt you even go on tumblr anymore

#vent #depressed #alone #breakup #heartbreak #personal #lonely #missingher #missingyou

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unkn0wnl0v3 · 4 years

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Oct 22 ‘20

This is my new format. Do y’all fuck wid it? Hopefully??? Today I did makeup, I mean I do it every time I have D cause I also have mandatory cam on classes on days I have his class but besides that I’m so insecure about it. I mean I think it’s cause I did make up that’s visable not just eyeliner, brows and lips. I mean it’s not like I did alota lot, but I still think it’s alota lot. Idk, hopefully I don’t get shitted on. Usually my math teacher honks off at me for whatever reason, I mean he’s trying to be funny and make me giggle but when his jokes r like making fun of my name or other shit like that it make me go like (ʘдʘ╬)... I enjoy the class tho, there’s actually three teachers. One of them is me and my friends favorite to talk about cause he looks like Mexican snoop dog and sounds like a homosexual vampire. I have class in 10 minutes so I’m gonna go gossip to my mom about whatever and then go to class;))(08:50)

I have him in exactly five minutes(at the moment it’s 13:00), im so eager to be around him. He’s so cute! Im worried though cause he posts class like.. agendas(?) and he said we’d have to be in breakout rooms in regards to the assignments. I finished my work, I don’t think anyone else did. If I had the ability to I’d just have all those dumbasses in their rooms and talk to D all hour and a half:) but that won’t happen womp womp.. well time to attend class:)(13:04)

My mom needs to learn how to speak English no cap like it’s getting stressful..>3<!(13:15)

Omg hahahaha, I was in a breakout room the whole class with two girls and we were talking and they started going “oh yeah my *insert family member* thinks D is hot” and I was like “>3< i think hes hot” and they were like “imagine if he can hear us?????” And i was like “>3< imagine that..” UGH. I Want his Cock to destroy MEE!!!!! Jesus. Well i mean if he can hear us he can hear us rippppp<333(15:09)

Ok also so as I was saying this morning about how my math teacher always makes fun of Me so like I caught this mistake he made in Class and i was like “hey you fucked up” and he made fun of me for five minutes straight about being correct. This man, imma kill him when School Starts y’all. He’s ok tho like he teaches me math, but besides that ahhhhhhhhhhhh>3<... I think that’s my new favorite kaomoji. I’m gonna kms like oh my god; I have a headache and usually I masturbate to get rid of it cause I read it works, but my sisters in my room so I can’t. She’s just sitting there looking at me and I’m looking at her. She’s like a baby, she’s young so she’ll cry if I kick her out that’s just more headache juice so I can’t. But yk what I will do... cry(16:08)

Oh ok so yk what I was so worried yesterday about him being like “haha getting married” yk what it was?????? We’re gonna make a podcast next week. That’s cool, I think individually(hopefully) but at the same time idk. If I have to work with people I’d hate It 100%:).. Just wanted to update that facet of my week (20:18)

Gn everyone o3o!(22:56)

#teacher crush #tc blog #tc community #tcc post #tcc feelings #tcc quotes #tc crush #tcc

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akitarusx · 6 years

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Name: Morgan Gender: female Star sign: libra Height: 182cm (6ft) Put your music on shuffle, what are the first six songs to pop up?: 1. HUMBLE. - Kendrick Lamar 2. Lithium - Evanescence 3. Back 2 U (AM 1:27) - NCT 127 4. Lukewarm - PENTAGON 5. Trade Mistakes - Panic! At The Disco 6. Attention (cover) - Jinho Grab the nearest book, turn to page 23 and write line 17: i don’t have a book in my room because all my stuff is currently in storage so i’ll just say stan talent stan pentagon smh Last time you played air guitar?: uhhhh…..i dont keep up w/ that ldfjsajfjasfjas im sorry idk

Celebrity crush?: excluding yanan?? uh hh hh ….. i’ve currently been having heart eyes over Changkyun in Monsta X a lot lately. What’s a sound that you hate/love?: i hate really loud slurping or smacking while eating. i mean i hate it in general but sometimes you have to so if you’re quiet with it it’s not as rage-inducing but i live around people who do it loudly and all the time and it makes me wanna die. i love the sound of rain, the ocean + wind, and wind through pine trees. Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens?: yep and i honesetly don’t know if i do or not i mean i dont actively think about it a whole lot Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?:

I do drive! I have never crashed. Thank God. I’ve had plenty of close calls, though.

What was the last book you read?: i haven’t read a book in awhile but if we’re being technical i last read a textbook for an english class i had Do you like the smell of gasoline?: yes sometimes Last movie you saw?: uhhh …. cheesy christmas movie idk the name but mom was watching it Worst injury you’ve ever had?: When I was like 13 I tripped up some stairs with my clumsy ass and somehow it like really fucked up my right foot. Like it tore part of my big toenail off and there was blood everywhere because of how hard I had hit it into the brick stairs. I wound up with like mini fractures in the big toe and the toes beside it and couldn’t walk properly for over a month. I think the toes beside it had some fractures but like it was nothing that would end the world lol. Just enough to cause me a shitton of pain. Any obsessions right now?: hmm right now i’m really fixated on BTS jamming to Demi’s performance at the AMAs she was one of my first faves and bts was my first kpop group and so it just. makes me really happy lol Do you tend to hold grudges against people who’ve wronged you?: if it’s like a severe wrong such as…forgetting a birthday and you’re family then yeah i get pretty bitter. if it’s like minor things like oh plans cancelled etc my feelings might be hurt but i dont hold grudges cause shit happens In a relationship?: nope! _______________ SECOND VERSION Appearance: uhhh i’m sorry i’m not v comfortable answering this :\\ i’ll keep it basic and say brown eyes brunette hair that’s a little past my shoulders and 6ft tall

Personality fairly antisocial but like. with my 2 best friends you wouldn’t believe that lol. and online i can be fairly social but i get extremely awkward and conscious of everything i say / share privately. like it’s rough posting selfies to my twitter even though i have plenty of friends i’ve had for years there fjdfjdjd. when i’m with my friends i’m the complete opposite of how i am with others. i try to stay quiet and keep my mouth closed around others, but when with the girls i’m embarrassingly loud n able to laugh n stuff. so just basically antisocial, desperately nice, and usually desperately wanna be more social but lose my social meter quickly. i’ve learned to force myself over the years but i usually go home wanting to kms fdsdfjdsjsfj idk i like memes and i think im funny idk how to answer this phew Abilities: shitposting

Experiences: i’m not quite sure what this means lmao My life: currently trying to get into college sigh

Relationships: no romantic relationship

two irl best friends chey and daisia

long distance best friends dani and drav

good relationship w/ mom ??? Random stuff: -was a culinary student had to leave the college because of finacial issues

-i have a dog and a cat

-dog’s name is ace, cat’s name is siobhan _______________ THIRD VERSION Relationship status: single and probably gonna be forever single cause ya girl can’t learn to stop stressing for one f**king second and always thinks everyone hates her

Fave colour: uhhh currently i’m obssessed w the light purple i keep using everywhere but typically it’s green lol Lipstick or ChapStick: yanno i used to be a big lipstick person but chapstick/lipgloss is fine for me now Last song: games - demi lovato Last movie: don’t remember the name it was some christmas movie Top 3 shows:

Supernatural (it’s got its issues and it’s pissed me off so many damn times but it’s got a special place in my heart because it brought me closer w/ a really good friend of mine), Arrow, and Stranger Things Top 3 ships: i dnt rlly focus on this lol

i tag: @kimbeokjin @yeo1 @twicetagrm @naganoprince @hu1taek and @butawitcher

#shut up m #ask games #also you guys dont gotta do this if you dont want lol

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