#I HAVENT CHANGED OKAY

[catsconflictscopicsandchamomile]

having a bunch of "historical OCs" as a kid and being into SPN as an adult is so wild bc like-

I'll be sitting there, minding my own damned business, not even tRYING to get into Cas Kinfeels at ALL

and then suddenly I remember some random Lore about the ~13th century Christian pilgrim OC I had in ~4th grade and its like getting WHACKED into Casmode remembering something about a vessel from ~800 years ago. Like "wAIT. I HAD A HORSE. THAT WAS THE FIRST TIME I FELL OF A HORSE. AND IT WAS AWFUL. I DIDN'T KNOW HUMAN LEGS COULD BREAK LIKE THAT"

and then you remember that your OC's horse's name was "Cinnamon" (see: 4th grade) so now you're tempted to go down a research rabbit hole on if this person could have know what cinnamon was and what word they would have used for it

despite this being information I will use *checks notes* never

....also how the FUCK have I been Like This(tm) MY WHOLE LIFE and only thought about majoring in Archeology LAST SPRING

#if anyone was wondering what i was like as a kid: same but w less fandoms so I just had historical OCs straight-up #and occasionally more or less tried to kin a god #...hi Persephone. sorry Persephone. I promise imagining that you looking like Zooey Deschanel was a compliment in 2008-9 #I HAVENT CHANGED OKAY #history #spn #supernatural #cas kin #castiel kin #kinnie #kinblr #aGH #historical OCs #what was her name even...

[petricorah]

lee from the tea shop boutta get it (wip) [id in alt]

edit: completed illustration here

#zuko #zukka #i wanted this to be a guiding hand #encouraging or like he's surprised it's happening but holding sokka's hand comfortingly #but something about the expression and the mouth makes it seem like he doesn't want it or he's afraid #i don't know i'll workshop this #mywips #i also havent read any ba sing se zukka fics but i do wonder how they'd work #like i totally buy that zuko was SO tunnel visioned to the avatar that he literally wouldn't know what sokka looks like #but i don't know how Sokka couldn't Not know who he is #unless maybe they met as blue spirit vigilante and sokka falls for him and this is the unveiling moment and zuko's afraid of his past #but sokka's like it's okay you're changing you've helped people as the blue spirit and i care about you. those feelings are real #even now #and zuko almost decides to change for the better right then but he gets scared and turns back and canon happens idk #mistaking his father's approval for love and his love for sokka as wrong #whatever. idc. something something i just wanted to draw short haired zuko

[tomurakii]

I like bloodweave. Okay. But I DON'T like the version of them in fanfic where Astarion is a dick and Gale is like. Whining and pleading for him to be emotionally vulnerable (or just. Nice to him) prior to the relationship being established. Because that is just not accurate. Gale needs the player to express interest in him during his weave-teaching scene before he even considers hitting on them properly. Gale is entirely resigned to his fate and needs someone else to pull him away from it. Gale only starts being sweet and romantic and devoted after you accept his love confession and give him hope for the future. Gale says fuck all and then slinks away to cry privately if you break up with him.

Like he isn't chasing after people lmao. He isn't dropping to his knees and crying about anything much less this dickhead he met a week ago. He is overwhelmingly passive about literally everything personal to him up to and including his own death (provided there are no casualties/there is a good reason) until after the player expresses that they care about him. Astarion is not doing that in any of these fics.

Like Gale is friendly and a dork and doesn't wanna get murdered but he fully has a suicide plan. He thought the artefacts would help him survive but he didn't believe he'd ever truly live again. If Gale confessed and Astarion said/did like one (1) mean thing afterward Gale's romance is closed off forever. He's wandering into the forest to cry. He's killing himself immediately. His fragile ego and self worth can't take it. You have to understand that when we joke about him being pathetic it's not bc he's like. Sopping wet and chasing people down and begging for a scrap of attention. It's because he craves affection but would literally rather die than ask or even hope for it until someone else forces that hope back into his serotonin-deficient tadpole brain.

#i feel like u can tell when a bloodweave fic is written by an astarion stan vs a gale stan lol #because the astarion stans are just using gale as a vessel for like. their sopping wet meow meow #who screams and cries until astarion becomes emotionally vulnerable with them #which gale would not do. realistic bloodweave is astarion tries to fuck him in act 1 and he refuses because of the orb #and then astarion is like “boo what the fuck. change of plans” and gale is like “okay” and they never speak of it again lol #anyway #please god the gale characterisation in this place. half of you make him the soppiest most pathetic loser and the other half make him evil #he's not ACTUALLY a loser. when i joke about it the reason its funny is because its not true #hes just a regular guy with depression lol. hes not out here debasing himself begging for some old twink to care abt him #bg3 #gale dekarios #bloodweave #gale of waterdeep #does this make sense. i havent slept #i just mean that if you want gale to be sappy he needs to have like. prior assurance that his feelings are reciprocated #because if he doesnt have that and astarion is a dick to him he WILL just give up on the relationship #like hes not hunting people down after they deliberately upset him. i see so many fics where they create tension by lime #*like #having astarion openly fuck someone else after establishing a sort-of relationship with gale. for the drama #like hey. gale fully dumps you if you do that in game!! you have no way to convince him not to. he will dump astarion for that permanently

[y-allium]

SIFFRIN <3333

#in stars and time #isat #isat siffrin #isat fanart #im not ok this game... omg this game #seriously play this game if you havent #you know its good when this is the first thing ive finished drawing in like 2 years or something #and them!!! the scrimbly!!! the scrimblo!!! the ultimate blorbo!!!! #siffrin is like me fr but in a way that makes me say wait no thats not good actually #i will give them all the hugs if they want <333 #or if he rather have isabeau thats also good just someone hug this man #ughh im still crying about that ahhhh okay enough rambling in the tags lol #(also thank you jelloapocalypse for introducing me to this masterpiece of a game it has forever changed me) #allium art

[kyurochurro]

saw this image on Pinterest and the pose gave me such riker vibes that I just HAD to draw it as him and troi HEHEHE

#churro art #my art #digital art #illustration #fanart #star trek #star trek tng #star trek the next generation #william t riker #william riker #deanna troi #AHAAAAAA OKAY PLS DONT SEND ME TO TREKKIE JAIL I HAVENT HAD A CHANCE TO PROPERLY START TNG YEET 😭😭😭 #but I do know… I DO KNOW . I love troi so MUCH #I actually started this image drawing her and doodle her a lot on paper in my first week back to uni #but omg I struggled so much with riker here and for why BJBJCBSDJHDSBJ #he literally had like 60 different hairstyle changes during the Lineart phase like it was that bad #it just didn’t look like him but in the end I think I’m close enough 😭😭😭 #ANYWAYS This is this weeks uni drawing … the type of drawing I do in my free time on campus :P #I LOVE HOW THIS TURNED OUT SO MUCH!! I was kickin my feet n giggling. like a madman #i should really draw the tos crew w these full eyes too but I always love drawing them with the simple dot eyes more HAHAHA #also little authors note. wow did that reference give me a hard time #those are some LOOONG limbs boy . Riker almost ended up looking like slenderman DAMN

[helldreamz]

sketches

#🎮 post #total drama #noah tdi #noah td #cody td #cody tdi #noco #cody anderson #noah sterecra #dont tag as kin/id/me #i literally havent drawn in so long my art style changed so much but im honestly okay with that #i also forgot to add another shirt collar for cody but um #i feel like it isn’t that noticeable #hopefully #i 🫶 cody #cody i love you

[vigilskeep]

ranking da love interests on a scale of how unhinged theyd be if their beloved was made tranquil (they would all be maximum unhinged its just a matter of deciding what flavour)

#like theres obvious ones like anders canonically would mercy kill and then burn down the world about it #and thats stellar beautiful no notes #but we gotta get into the others #for example i’d kill to see what sebastian’s little vengeance fuelled heart would get up to #not to mention that i have no idea if this is a good read or not bc i still havent played the romance but #he strikes me as a guy who would just stay devoted married to his tranquil spouse his entire life #it seems like something he would do. #and a bizarre political scenario it makes <3 fascinating vibes at starkhaven parties #i feel like other people it would hurt too much to be around them or they would feel it wasnt really them anymore #but to seb he made a vow and he has a wife those things havent changed even if so much else has #which would be crazy if anders was alive to hate it. and the implications abt hawke then. okay im going to stop talking im inventing #entire scenarios now

[teastarfall]

strange little guys… mayhaps a gang of little nightmares… perchance…

#HI. SORRY I HAVENT POSTED ART IN A HOT MINUTE. I FELL ILL. #AND ALSO APPLIED FOR COLLEGE!! SCARY!! #also don’t mind how my artstyle changed and how i gave my hunter a face again things happen #okay bye bye :3 #little nightmares #little nightmares 2 #little nightmares fanart #ln six #ln mono #ln hunter #ln doctor #ln teacher #ln thin man

[3-aem]

i also don’t want to portray myself as faultless. my work isn’t ai and it isn’t copied. but nk will say i Had old pieces that were copied and referenced ai. Yet it isn’t good faith when i apologize, state how i took accountability, and explain thats definitely not the case today because i learned my lessons- to respond with well you made these mistakes in the past so how can i believe you, you are lying, and have not changed.

so i quit. how can i prove myself then besides what i mentioned in the last post. my question is will you even ALLOW me to prove myself. each time i must explain, i place a spotlight on something that was resolved agreeably with the artists, resolved by removing the works, and resolved within myself by learning from it. but by not saying something i also allow You to concoct narratives and have to watch people spread them around and come to me demanding apologies. it is a very uncomfortable very distressing process that has worn me down completely.

never mind that other artists who have copied have not nearly been requested to apologize as much as i have been. never mind that they were forgiven when they removed the works or even when they just say sorry and don’t remove the work at all. But you still choose to hound me afterwards for doing just that?

nk has stated that i have not fixed this. and that i must address it. how many times though? for how long also? who on this planet starts the conversation by recounting all their mistakes, especially when they know they are resolved.

i have had to learn my lessons through cruelty like yours. trust me its a trauma i have to bear and they are not lessons you then forget.

my anger and my feelings of defeat come from the fact that even after nk was still talking like i had not even attempted to make progress. just look at your tone here.

#im going to fking throw up this is the last time i will ever say this #do not come begging to be for another apology i am done #i will never address this issue again okay #i need to say this because no matter what when i see people supporting me now i feel guilty #i recognize it is just because i hate myself #it is because i havent accepted i made mistakes #but i cant accept it because people cant accept it #i cant accept it and i cant move on #and that is why i think its best to leave art #i cant make work i am proud of anymore #i dont want to list names of artists #but i will say that when king chris reposted my work without credit i viewed it the same as when i referenced other artists work #but there was no callout no request even from the comments for credit #and he has millions of followers #i felt like i could not stand up for myself because i have this history #because of this history i can never properly defend myself i feel i must always kneel to it #even though i have changed and realized i was wrong i still have to acknowledge it always

[maliciousalice]

🔥ATTENTION BAJORAN WORKERS!🔥 If you would like to see some custom J/C, your Blorbo , or maybe you'd like for me to draw you a thresholdsona I'm open for business! DM if you'd like something, hope to hear from you soon.

#art #my art #probably going to open up a few slots. 10 people seemed interested so I'll do batches if thats okay #things are getting a little tight for me recently and even though im actively job hunting i havent had a hit yet #These prices are an estimation of course there will be some negotiations because im dumb and should think about workload a bit more #I changed the $20 per character I meant to make it higher but I got a little too excited sorry :(

[miutonium]

Dude what the fuck is Art School?

#heyyyyyyyyyy it seems that I have left this blog for a month aha my baddddd rawr #but I swear I am actually very busy and on the verge of crying every 10 seconds #anyway did anybody missed me while I was fighting for my life at school???? #if not then would you change your mind if I say I also got into an accident and fucked up my car a bit??? #would you still love me if I am a worm???? would you? #but anyway how is everyone doing while I was away???? #i vant promise yall I'll be active I am kinda tired with school and im just too stressed out to think about selfshipping in general zzzz #i actually havent draw selfship for like.... uh... since 2 months actually thats insane hmmm #okay anyway i hope everyone had a good day please enjoy this silly update by me #asuka speaks

[guinevereslancelot]

eye doctor was trying not to scare me today bc i have a sight threatening condition 🥲 it's probably treatable but i need to go to a specialist

#havent been to the eye doctor in six years but i was like okay i need to update my prescription my headaches are getting really bad #and my prescription barely changed so the doctor said it wasnt that #also this other condition doesn't cause headaches either so treating it wont even help :( #tho it does make me light sensitive which is a trigger ao maybe it will help a little i hope #but mostly i hope its treatable #also i have no health insurance so hopefully its not expensive lol #but at least the job search is going well so maybe i can handle the treatment myself #but since i will go blind if its untreated my parents will definitely cover it if i cant i just feel bad #they paid for my appt to get the new prescription today too but that wasn't very much i didn't even get the new glasses #but seeing a cornea specialist regularly to treat a scary condition is going to be expensive 😭 #i dont even know how expensive yet tho #maybe i should make a gofundme or something #this has been a shitpost #im not 100% sure my parentsncan afford it if its expensive #probably depends how far its progressing and how fast andnwhat the cause is and a million other things #but i know it can be difficult and resist treatment 😰 #and its not early for catching it at all

[accidental-spice]

There's currently a thirty percent chance I set this stupid sketchbook on fire

#I CANNOT #i cant physically express how much i hate inking stuff in right now #WHY DID I USE THE SHARPIE PEN AND NOT A NORMAL BALLPOINT #cause it looks nicer? WELL IT SURE DOESN'T NOW #okay it might not be that bad #also i havent had lunch also i might be PMS-ing #none of this changes the fact i want to scream and cry and rip my sketchbook into tiny pieces #ive already thrown it across the room so thats where im at right now #my point is i might be overreacting

[leafeonb]

dizzy okay?

#my art #guilty gear #← scary #i tried to draw this the fastest i could before the new character announcement.... 🚶 then i got too lazy to draw necro and undine #i added more frilly stuff to her outfit bc i love to draw dresses like that theyre so cute but also i #didnt take a closer look at it bc i havent finished watching strive storymode yet o7 #so all i did was look at the blurry screenshot from the wiki #she is so everything she is so nightcore anime girl okay... she has so many friends #still deciding how i want to draw her i want to change something on the face maybe hmmm #dizzys design is so cutes i rly like her :-) i love her hair it was rly fun to draw #this was not a very good brush to choose to do the lineart it was a pain but it was too late to change bc i realized it was #a pain halfway the drawing 🤸........it was fun its fun for shading though 👍 #fun! ^_^

[robotsafari]

i havent even watched legacy yet but that fucking kh world did some.. unexpected things to me

#beep boop you want fries with that #kingdom hearts #re:ddd #sora #quorra #tron #riku #was trying to redesign rinzler’s helmet bc god. its. kinda fucking boring. leaning into the beast more #also teh helmets eyes are supposed to look angry when its down and sad when its up. bwaaa #i heard rinzler acts like a cat. thats soemthing to look forward to when i watch the movie. grins. #the three dots are supposed to be the classic t. btw. #theres four you just cant see the last one. #made sora look more liek his space paranoids look because he needs to retain the 80s swag. #this reads like a change log. #and my good friend quorra. idk if i’ve even posted that redesign b4. #yes im making her quote the ur my pockets eddie post #i think she needs to chew on things. maybe she should maul clu with her fucking teeth. #shes so unorthadox girl to me. do you see my vision. #also dw about riku falling or paralelling tron or anything hes fiiine. #speaking of the falling art. its old. so its inaccurate to how i draw riku now #before my brain was huge basically. #its so funny how i drew this much art for legacy like. i love tron 1982. i havent watched legacy yet but i feel like im gonna hate it. #the kh world was okay but it had a lot of potential and. uh. made me a BIT insane at the last part in sora’s story (EXPLODES) #also this post is tagged re:ddd for. reasons. dw about it. #ANYWAY GN ITS 1 AM. RUNS AT MACH SPEED.

[sualne]

obligatory 'ive watched hundreds of hours of one piece therefore I Will make up a guy about it' oc.

#my art #my ocs #my comic #no name pirates #undescribed #12 years later and im making an oc to hang out around law again. some stuff never changes. havent figured out his backstory yet or why he #was in prison. but he's pretty so it's okay. i feel like im mostly going to draw him in outfits and thats it.