#I am doing this for employment

[thatiranianphantom]

5000 word essay hell.

Due tomorrow.

70% of my mark.

God bless my friend who used to be a TA reading essays professionally for her comments.

#TIP speaks #Ramblings of an ADHD brain #Why did I take a masters program #Look I'm going to correct it #Cite it #Then give it to god #And by that I mean upload it #This is a pass fail situation #I am doing this for employment #As long as I pass no employer in the world is going to care what my mark is #So I just need to pass #Don't get me wrong a good grade would be fantastic #But it's not a necessity

[vyeoh]

I'm rewatching all the Marvel Defenders shows on Netflix and as much as I mock the MCU now, I need non-Marvel fans to understand that I was and still am a fan of "Daredevil fighting the gentrifying assshole who bought out the police force because ACAB both as a lawyer and vigilante of the community" and "Jessica Jones fighting the man who mind controlled her into doing unspeakable things and forming a community of fellow survivors and allies while dealing with PTSD in a range of both healthy and unhealthy ways" Marvel. God I love these idiots they carried so hard

#vio.txt #mcu #marvel #jessica jones #daredevil #also the two of them induced so much bi panic in me. also gender envy. jessica jones is one of the few women i get gender envy fron #the iron fist and luke cage shows were...more mid but still leagues above current marvel shows #like. yes be anti-mcu but these were masterpieces #and yes this is why i was so pissed about them putting daredevil in she hulk and trying to make him iron man 2.0 #like! yes hes suave and charming but thats bc its his lawyer job!! he works in a law firm he and his friends started to serve his community #he is NOT 'i am rich and better than u' charming. he is 'i learned how to talk fancy for my degree and i have empathy' charming #and not bringing the other guys over either???? bruhhh #marvel really cancelled the best things they did on the screen #matt murdock my original red and black round glasses wearing sadboy what did they do to you #also!! can i mention that these shows had such better representation than nowadays marvel #murdock's actor doing extensive research on blind motility for the role #jessica and trish's friendship and how trish immediately believes jess about kilgrave #the whole!!! unique community feel of harlem and in luke's bar #hogarth whos both jessica's employer and foggy's boss in later seasons being a lesbian and having Real Marriage Issues #and also being a conplex and kinda shitty person #iron fist was....eh but that's why it was the worst one lmao #OH YEAH HOW COULD I FORGET MY GIRL KAREN #karen page getting a whole storyline in s1 about her dealing w ptsd and then getting fleshed out backstory and her own adventures #like ok it was kinda weird in daredevil that she dated like every guy bc she was the female lead 💀 #but even then foggy and matt and her figuring their shit out like adults. like they shot their shots and it didnt pan out. still besties th #disney would never allow such good writing in current times #but a boy can wish

[somecunttookmyurl]

all the while society conflates "being an adult" with "having a proper job" and "having money to make arbitrary Adult Purchases" disabled people who can't work - or can only work part time or can only do entry level baby jobs - will never be 'allowed' to be adults

you can say "being an adult is looking after yourself you don't have to have a job!!!" all you want but most people who say that will still assume anybody who doesn't either can't or won't 'look after themselves' actually. and every 'marker' of 'adulthood' that's observable and thus actually counts or whatever loops back around to... having a job and 'contributing' something

#yeah i have netflix on all day #i am quite literally signed off of work for the -rest of my life- #what the fuck else would you like me to do with my time when most people are in fact at work #or did you think i can't have the tv on and put laundry away at the same time or something #must i work on commissions on silence in a dour room to be perceived as an adult #anyway 'looking after yourself/your home/your pet' is not observable #to anybody who doesn't like ACTUALLY live in your house #unless you are extremely obviously NOT doing it #if a tree falls in a forest etc #owning a house? job. like not even 'in this economy? lol' #disabled people LITERALLY can't because we aren't allowed to have enough savings for a deposit #car? would you honestly trust me with a vehicle lol but also: job #you mostly cannot buy a car without one it's a requirement for the lease #otherwise you aren't 'trusted' to pay it on time #incidentally most landlords will also - perfectly legally - refuse to rent to you because you are going to be unreliable with the rent #which is being paid directly by the gov anyway like take your trust issues up with them bro #a family? if i get married or cohabit with a partner my income gets sliced in half #so to support even myself let alone a child would require. drumroll please. employment #savings? adults have savings right? yeah but unlike you i have a gov enforced cap on mine #'good furniture not shit from ikea' (someone has remarked that ikea furniture is 'college dorm-y' it's going here) #i mean do i have to say it

[silvrhxnd]

[ID: An instagram story from user jp_design aka Jake Paul, former F1/Red Bull Racing graphic designer. It reads:

Sadly, my time at Red Bull Racing will be coming to a close at the end of this calendar year as my contract has not been renewed. If anyone has any opportunities, roles, or jobs they think I would be suitable for, by all means, please do reach out! I have a portfolio ready to send your way. Reshares would be greatly appreciated. Thanks so much!

End ID]

hey guys, let’s show JP some support!

if you’ve ever seen these:

…these are all the work of designer JP (Jake Paul)!

he’s also responsible for what he claims is his proudest moment as a designer: the End Racism campaign.

JP is totally self taught and makes some great designs.

And he’s now looking for work!

Support Black designers! Reshare his story, follow his social media (jp1_design on IG, jakepauldesign on twt), hit him up with any leads 💜

#no idea why i couldnt put a link in this. like turning a word into a hyperlink yknow #anyway y’all spread the word! dude deserves it #obviously i am biased and my fav work of his is his lewis work… #but it rly is the best #PS THIS IS NOT ME TRYING TO STIR ANY POTS ABOUT RBR #So nobody come for me!!! im not insinuating anything!!!!! #i have no idea abt the circumstances of his not getting renewed!!! #what I DO know is i love helping fellow designers get their bag #and sometimes our employment situations change and we love the support for what we do #formula one #formula 1 #graphic design #support black designers #f1 #lewis hamilton #michael schumacher

[sysmemes]

Next time I can’t get in a store or on a bus because its “too expensive” to make shit wheelchair accessible or fix/maintain the wheelchair ramps, I’ll just remind myself that experiencing ableism is a choice and I’ll fucking teleport I guess. And when I get turned down from yet another job because they don’t want to deal with accommodating a wheelchair user, I guess I’ll just ✨ manifest ✨ enough money to afford rent, food, utilities, medication, etc. Theres no way ableism can affect me if I don’t “feel disabled” ❤️

#tell me you’ve never met a wheelchair user or higher support needs disabled person in ur life without telling me lmao #heidi pushes clara over a cliff meme #sysmeme #also before anyone tells me ‘oh but it’s illegal to discriminate against someone for using a wheelchair!!!’ #i am aware its illegal but potential employers don’t have to tell you why they didn’t hire you #it being illegal doesn’t mean they don’t do it.

[girlweepinginstairwell]

i was hoping to get this one job so badly and i applied a week ago and the listing has closed since then so i assume they hired someone and it wasn’t meeeee and i really really really wanted the job. it makes me so sad that i have all the qualifications and i did all the right things and somehow i still am not able to break into this industry. i’m a loss for what to do at this point

#they’re always like oh you don’t even necessarily need any publishing industry experience for this role even though it’s a lie of course but #i DO have experience is the thing. i literally interned at one of the big five publishers... and i graduated with an excellent gpa and #i have not had any employment gaps on my resume in the time since and i am just in complete despair like what else do they want from me... #i am never going to fucking make it i think. i should just try something else

[theflyingfeeling]

I hate it here sm

#i have a scheduled phone call with my employment agency person later this afternoon #and i already know i'm going to cry #not because of the phone call per se but just the fact that i have to do business with them in the first place #i don't care if someone else is unemployed or why they are unemployed. it is not my place to judge anyone for not working #but for me myself and i personally? it is so humiliating. the ultimate personal failure #i am so ashamed for not being good enough to have a job #even if i know i'm not being fair on myself bc the reason my contract will not be renewed isn't bc i wasn't doing my job well enoug #it's just that they literally don't have work for me to do when the other person returns 🤷‍♀️ #in any case i find it so unfair from the universe that i was working so hard all winter and then the reward i get is full-time unemployment #again!!!!!!! #there's so much more that i could say about this but i don't need y'all to know just how pathetic i really am

[dickensianenglishbulldog]

Pros: I can now sing (badly) every word of a total of twenty two Gilbert and Sullivan songs.

Cons: no one cares.

#This is what I am doing instead of revising for my G.C.S.Es #What’s your favourite music? friend: rock other friend:pop Me:Victorian light opera #am I the dieing hope for our young generation? #Me: dangerously close to making a new friend #Them: so what’s your favourite song? #Me: don’t say it…don’t say it #Me: when I was a lad. #When I was a lad I served a term as office boy to an attorney’s firm. #with cat like tread upon our prey we steal in scilence dread our cautions may we feel. #when a felons not engaged in his employment #I am the very modal of a modern major general #oooohhhh I am a pirate king and it is is is a glorious thing to be a pirate king! #gilbert and sullivan #Victorian #opera #LIGHT opera #pirates of penzance

[trans-axolotl]

it's getting cold + snowing in my city and I am so fucking angry because this year cops have evicted more encampments then we can ever remember them doing in like the past five years. it keeps happening when we're going to do outreach + mobile syringe exchange and we'll drive past the spots we always go to and our neighbors are just gone, because in the middle of the night without announcing it cops evicted everyone. and like they've been doing this shit for years but it is so much worse this year. they've put in so much more new anti homeless and anti sex work architecture this year and even though there's some rad ppl fucking it up, there's still so much. and i'm just fucking livid every time we go out there for overnight outreach and all my sex worker friends tell me how much more cops are harassing them this year like. fuck this shit so much. stop criminalizing survival. we keep losing track of so many ppl because of this and we keep having to wonder who's alive and who died bc the cops trashed their tent and it's fucking below freezing outside. we lost four people in october and november who were murdered for being trans sex workers and it's just. there is so much grief and there is so much anger and i want to tear it all down

#personal #fuck you. fuck you for hurting my friends. #i am still so fucked up about the people we've lost like. they were my comrades and they were SO loved and they did so fuckign much #and now we all have to live in a world without them #i feel like that's one of the shittiest things about being a sex worker is the amount of people all of us have lost. all of us #harm reduction #vent #also fuck all the nonprofits and grant people or whatever. for fuckign hoarding resources and spending money on 'development directors' #we need more handwarmers. we need more funds for stems + syringes + condoms. we need trans specific services back again #stop hoarding the shit you have. stop saying you're doing “harm reduction” when you pay your executives 95k a year and REQUIRE YOUR EMPLOYE #TO SUBMIT TO DRUG TESTING. there is no world in which that is harm reduction there is no world where that is liberatory

[emberglowfox]

i often call my dissociation 'autopilot' because it works well as an explanation but my god do i feel like an actual robot on autopilot these days. not just because 'i'm not in control of myself' or whatever, that's normal, but because i feel like the autopilot is beginning to break down. i've been zoned out for so long that it's run out of normal behavior to reference, so it's referencing what was a shoddy replica to begin with, and that results in a lot of oddities

mostly i've been noticing myself happily responding to people without actually even looking in their direction. like my eyes and head will just lock and i'll go a whole conversation animatedly replying while looking in the wrong spot (i'm usually very good about eye contact, or at the very least looking at people). also my reaction time / processing speed is waaaay slowed to the point where i'm starting to get nervous about driving so. that's cool

#cannot figure out what the hell is going on ive been told my dissociation/derealization is largely a defensive response #but the fuck am i defending against now? im not actively in college for a few months i dont have (read: can't find) a job i do nothing 24/7 #i do not feel like a human person. and i USUALLY dont but now i really dont #what if my brain melted into schlock. that would be nice #sparks speaks #/vent #sorry new followers this is the only place employers dont check so its my silly diary <3 #block sparks speaks or vent if u dont wanna see idm

[runawaymun]

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#sorry let me rant real quick in the tags #cw personal #once again hitting an insurance pothole bc the psych says she accepts my OHP plan HOWEVER the therapy group she is contacted with says #THEY don't #they only accept the insurance if it's through my employer but NOT through the government?????????????? #so there's still some kind of payment??? #anyway I want to scream why is this so complicated #like will she take my insurance or not who's right here #anyway called her back directly and went to voicemail so now I've done all I can for now #why the hell is this so hard man #the person on the phone didn't know really how to explain #once again no one knows what they're talking about #like can y'all not communicate and figure this out? #AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #i need to get an ADHD eval before my next PCP appointment in june so that they will continue giving me my meds #and the psychiatry through the hospital has a limited number of visits that insurance will cover #*contracted #not retyping all of that #and once again the only reason this is so stressful is because the psychiatry group at the hospital fumbled the communication ball last tim #and the psychiatrist I was with never put the ADHD on the chart #and now somehow it's MY responsibility to fix that> #UGH #like I am grateful to have some kind of coverage but holy shit is the US healthcare system in shambles #the bureaucracy is INSANE #i had to just sit down and put my head in my hands for a second #and then go 'right okay nothing i can do about that rn moving on' #uGH #literally said 'what the FUCK' out loud a couple times #like not on the phone after I hung up obvs

[itssoinevitable]

Mrs Hall helping Siegfried get dressed.

#just doing regular employer & housekeeper things I guess? #haha jk they're in love #they're more married than actual married people #I love them so much #guysss I am kind of proud of this gifset #it may or may not have inspired me to write my fic: layered #gifset: mine #siegfried farnon #audrey hall #siegfried x audrey #acgas 2020 #acgas gifset

[vellichorom]

" i want people to know what i think of things " on the same night i skirt over fnaf so you know what

i don't know what people think the theoretical jeremy fizgerald looks like in this day & age if not the rebornica rendition but if you asked me?

i unironically think & have always thought this was the best design for him

#twinkie talks #' i haven't characterized anyone in fnaf beyond what we're given about them ' WRONG i have just barely unintendedly characterized jeremy #over this FUCKING design #do you guys remember the lhugeny musicals #anyway if i had to make a guess i think jeremy is some poor late teen / mid 20's college dropout who's desperate for employment #he's kind of just an awkward greasy gamer guy who eats pizza & saw this open job at freddys & was like #hey that'd be p fuckin rad of a job #& then he took the job & then got bited or something #i am right for that

[nattousan]

#nat chats #my art #og post #i drew this at 2 am can you tell? #im makin good money at my current place of employment but they're losing staff like a motherfucker #i'm the only one in my dept and everything would be fucked if i left #so where do i go? #make art for a living? #what if i grow to hate it because now #i depend on it for income? #i have adhd that severely inpacts my ability to self motivate #and yet? #theres so much i want to do #i'm wasting my one life for what? #survival? #no #i'd only realistically be able to survive a month or two on my meager savings #that i've spent YEARS saving #why blow through it all now? #to live #shut up #to MAKE ART #no. you're just going to have to find a shitty retail job to make ends meet #to WRITE STORIES #to feel what its like to WANT something and REACH FOR IT #TO LIVE TO LIVE TO LIVE

[fereldanwench]

i've been considering resuming job hunting again but i think I'm still, like, traumatized from what i went through in 2021 lmao

#i keep getting in this cycle of 'well my current job lets me do pretty much whatever i want bc they trust me to get shit done' #(which honestly is really nice bc i am neither a team player nor a leader and i like being left alone lmao) #and 'my current job is otherwise unfulfilling in every way possible also it's for an awful company I'm ethically opposed to and i want out' #and my salary is garbage #esp as someone with 12 years of experience #and they dont even do cost of living adjustments #in theory they will give you a raise if you go above and beyond but i did that for a year and just got a thank you #which i dont need your fucking gratitude i need more money #but god i just cant do interviews anymore #i used to be such a good BSer in interviews #and now i just... cant lmao #so many places are all into the 'be your authentic self' shit these days #my authentic self is not employable lmao #and then i think about pursuing my creative passions for income and I'm like nooo i dont wanna do that either #bc that will make me hate what i love #i am so protective of my hobbies just being hobbies #idk whatever!!!! #t: wench.txt

[wrenhavenriver]

i have lies of p and ff 16 installed and ready to go so i can do something mildly enjoyable my last few days before the school/work death spiral starts up again and instead i'm just sitting here refreshing Webbed Sites and watching nothing interesting appear like

#quite predictably i did in fact get sick at the 3 day long work training held during a massive covid/flu surge #i was masked except for meal/photo times and am up to date on vaccinations tho so thankfully it's just a mild cold #but i'm just sort of tired and unable to focus on anything #honestly tho they could have easily done all those presentations over Teams and been done a lot earlier :/ #the weather was really bad the first couple of days too and i know a lot of commuters would have really appreciated doing it virtually #but i guess that wouldn't have let us do all our ~fun~ icebreaker and ~team building activities~! #idk Employer Mandated Socializing and Fun Times just inherently irritate me on a cellular level #tell me how you want a job done and then let me go do it #having us write a group poem about our department for arbitrary points accomplishes literally nothing but wasting all our time #kathryn vs higher education #assorted work nonsense