#I don’t really have an explanation for this lol

[lilies-n-slander]

just my unstructured thoughts on “complicated and sad”

I’m not huge on radiostatic and haven’t thought about the dynamic as much as other people so probably I’ll be retreading common ground

radiostatic friendship had to have broken up for smth more ideological, it would honestly be a bit boring/disappointing if it was just over the unrequited romance aspect (but it was likely a contributing factor)

the fact that vox asked alastor to join his team gives a few clues

I think atp vox still thought positively of alastor while alastor’s opinion of vox was starting to deteriorate. Vox respected alastor enough to *ask* him to join, rather than manipulate or try to force him

if that’s the case, then whatever vox did that alastor hated likely wasn’t malicious (but knowing vox, it was still a bad/harmful thing)

it seems like the kind of situation where alastor showed discomfort and vox refused to change and didn’t understand what he was so mad about

what could vox have done that alastor disliked so much that it ruined a previously good friendship?

using people? Alastor does that

owning souls? Alastor does that

killing people? Alastor does that

associating with and enabling ppl like val? Maybe? It seems like an arbitrary line to draw, altho one of the comics shows alastor killing an attempted rapist

influencing people’s perception of them through media? Alastor does that, but maybe it was the difference of method that he didn’t like (hypnosis vs charisma)

being fake? Alastor does that but is better at it than vox (smiling to hide weakness)

being weak*? (*not just physically) Now we’re talking. Alastor hates weakness, both in other people and himself. He hates when people let their composure slip and tries to exploit any weakness he sees. Maybe it disgusted him to see someone he thought was strong actually prove to be weak, insecure, and pathetic

a combination of the last three seems the most plausible to me (especially considering what things alastor disses vox for in stayed gone), but I’m still struggling to come up with something that has the right amount of “oomph” to it

I’m curious what alastor initially liked about vox in the first place?

did he only like him bc he thought vox was stronger than he actually was?

has vox just changed so much over the years that the vox alastor formed a friendship with was basically a different person? That would make me curious about what sparked that change in vox—was it a particular incident or gradual corruption?

does alastor hate modernity because of vox or does he hate vox because of his modernity?

leaning twds the former, the way alastor speaks abt tech has a personal tinge to it

most of vox’s hostility twds alastor is prob due to what alastor did as rejection

supported by vox not having much variety of his insults in stayed gone

yes he’s pathetic and might be salty that he doesn’t return his feelings, but I feel like that’s not the whole explanation

does “I thought he was gone *for good* too” imply that alastor has previously disappeared or been shooed away by the vees and came back soon after?

“he owes us a lot more than money” + “things have changed a lot since he left town… …I gotta send a message of who’s really in charge of things now” = before he disappeared, alastor was previously in control, possibly by sabotaging the vees and overthrowing them?

I didn’t rlly mention “still pissed he almost beat you that time?” bc that had to have been after the fallout, so not as much to dig into there (this isn’t to say that I don’t desperately want a flashback of it lol)

hmmmmmmmnfgh… so many questions

I really hope their backstory has already been mostly planned out, bc it seems like something that would go poorly if you just made it up on the fly

#hazbin hotel #vox #alastor #onewaybroadcast #.txt #meta

[quinn-pop]

genuinely i could not sleep until i drew this. sewing jokes ft a very confused kirby

at first i thought this idea was silly but i mean. it probably would be a big deal for the prince of patchland to be made of synthetic fibers, so uh

bonus doodle of me when i actually am sewing lol (sorry for the anatomically incorrect iron)

#yeah it’s anatomically incorrect (like everything i draw) because i really didnt feel like getting a reference #okay here’s your explanations #singer and brother are both sewing machine brands lol #inter facing makes stuff stiff #smth not cut on the bias won’t stretch as well (basically he’s saying they’re not flexible. i didn’t mean literally but ig you could #interpret it that way. idk whatever) #tulle is a light and airy fabric yea but it’s also a bit stiff and scratchy so…don’t tell kirby that i guess #anyway these made me giggle and i lost sleep because!!! #I kept thinking about them for so long #and now ive had awful insomnia all week and have hardly slept lol so hoping posting this will help (I wish) #but i have more ideas so i might do more later #kirbyposting #kirby #prince fluff #king dedede #also fluff just looks angry a lot i promise he isn’t #can interpret as kirfluff #btw i suck at sewing so feel free to correct me

[brainrotdotorg]

The reason I don’t make a lot of very insightful posts about studying characters and the world they’re in is because I don’t know enough about jean everything I have to say about Harry and Kim has already been said I feel like I don’t have as much to say about the student communists because I am a bad communist who hasn’t done any of the required reading (lmao) my only thoughts on the RCM as an institution arent very well-developed (and also are through an American bias of what police are like rather than how they exist in Elysium) and I don’t know fucking. ANYTHING about the innocentic system.

But I sure can tell you a lot about the skills and piss/fuck. Which isn’t actually a lot but boy I can tell you

#also I am afraid of. expressing opinions sometimes lmao…… #tbh I don’t think I’m smart enough to do deep character dives into their pasts and motivations and whatnot #i feel like my own biases cloud who the haracters actually are too much #i have to learn how to not let me headcanons influence who these guys actually are #because I’m really bad about that lol #i also just feel like I don’t know enough and everyone else knows a lot more than I do!! #like people are saying shit that happened in the game and I’m like. what I never saw that #symptom of being a fan of suuuuuuch a massive game #anyway this isn’t about me talking down on myself or anything #just like. an explanation as to why I don’t get way deep into lord stuff #i find it very interesting and love reading other peoples posts #but I don’t think I should make big grand sweeping statements about things I feel like I’m just pulling out of my ass. yanno #in case you were ever curious about why I never make those kinds of posts #you probably weren’t. but #lol

[comraderoscoes]

lotta jumbled up thoughts abt the way this team is acting towards lewis’ success this season and none of them are good

#really hated the way they acted in aus after his podium and the way they kept saying they could’ve won the race . fucking do it then #silverstone there was so much talk about his safety car luck as if he literally didn’t go thru abu dhabi 🤡 #and now this weekend which like #it would literally be sooo easy to fix this pr disaster. #like post a podium pic? post him being p3 or gaining another record breaking podium? something ? anything #or write a tweet explaining why the team weren’t at the podium (if yk there’s a proper explanation lol). like it doesn’t even need to be a #statement ? just a tweet would suffice #what are they doing 😭😭😭 #if it’s bc of the DNF then surely that’s doing a disservice to gr and also is in such stark contrast to their response to zandvoort #anyway hm. the continued silence is irking me like it’s one thing to mess up ur sm strategy after the race and not show up for the podium #it’s another thing to carry on the day after 😭 #and tbh like . there are weekends when you have to squint to see gr on their sm so i think the team is pretty poor as a whole #but this weekend has felt inc disrespectful to lewis #then what shov said …. ew!! #ANYWAY . thoughts spilled out . now repress #i hope they step their act up. if i’m being generous to them i’d say hopefully it’s bc of the standard lewis / merc set themselves to and #mb podiums don’t mean that much given that they want a wdc #but fuck that celebrate him #and also … idk if i believe that LOL

[patheticfemme]

i genuinely think it’s very funny but also beautiful that my whole identity changed last year. i’ve identified as bisexual for a very long time and then life happening changed everything. it was so weird to even look at the bi flag i had in my room and it just not feel like me anymore. it’s even slightly surprising, in a good way, that being a lesbian isn’t uncomfortable or alien or different… it feels like coming home.

and even right fucking now still learning things about myself that just make sense to me, it genuinely feels like just fucking becoming whole for the first time in my life.

#i owe it all to my first queer friends irl & to the peeps on the server im in 💖 #and someone else on here that was very helpful as well 🥰 #& then also realizing that i’m demiromantic and demisexual are answers to how i’ve been feeling for a long time now #& yeah i’m really the type that labels make sense to me and they help me and i love having them #and even now i’m seeing things and reading explanations and personal experiences about being stone and…… yeah. it resonates to me now #more and more i realize that clarity comes as you experience life #and 2023 was the first year that really happened for me #just. wow #i speak into the void #don’t look at my tags lol #lesbian #femme lesbian

[elizabeth-dicewielder]

Big fan of when stories provide no justification/explanation for why main characters have unique, insanely powerful abilities. The writer(s) really just said “Well of course they can do that, they’re my specialist little character. It makes perfect sense.” And they’re right

#okay i made this in a joke form because i do find it funny #but like i unoronically think this is a good writing technique #like. sometimes people are just uniquely special for no reason #people with perfect pitch #people who can do insanely complicated math in their head #i know someone who can perfectly cut a card deck in half or thirds just by feel #sometimes things just don’t need an explanation! #and having your main character have this special ability for no apparent reason #really makes it clear WHY they’re the main character #like of course they’re the main character. they’re the only one who can do that. who else could the story possibly be about? #and it allows them to be obviously the main character without any kind of prophecy or clear-cut chosen one #there are definitely some cases where this does not work #like it works when the world has magic but only the main character can do a specific kind of magic #but it doesn’t work if they’re the only one in the world who has any magic #like. if you’re not gonna provide any explanation it has to be within reason imo #anyway #i wrote this about echo from dollhouse lol #but obviously it works for a lot of other characters too #nimona is a good example of this

[dimitrscu]

I've been in enough fandoms to know that this whole "radahn was beating malenia" thing is going to be one of those "fandom delusions" that will keep going on and on no matter what. It will not die. If the discourse comes up again on Elden Ring's anniversary, the same people will bring it up once more. Just fandoms being fucking exhausting, like clockwork.

Oh yeah for sure I don’t expect this to ever go away or anything. The whole “this vs that” has been a thing in quite a few fandoms for me too. I still remember the witcher fandom back in the day with whole Yen vs Triss thing and oh boy was that exhausting.

It’s funny how all this died down and then all it took was the game award hype to bring it back up again. Mainly the discussion surrounding the game being nominated for best narrative. You wait it’ll win goty then it’ll all come up again

#anonymous #answered #i guess the only thing that might make some people shut up is if they release some other content #either dlc or comics (not including the gag manga they’re currently working on) or maybe books or something #could go either way though #it could be that it was froms intention all along to have malenia be hated lol #they made her fight like… well that #they had her fight the big hero guy that they must have know everyone would love #and then being a fromsoft game there’s like zero explanation for her motives for that fight #overall she comes across as unsympathetic to a lot of people despite her situation #people just don’t care about what's going on with her and her brother #in regards to their curses i mean #and with the lore being so vague most people only see what they want to see and don’t really bother looking that hard into it #or thinking that hard about it for that matter #the majority of this fandom looks at this game through a black and white lens #anyway i’m just thinking out loud now don’t mind me

[letterstotheflre]

i love being told that i’m not really bisexual bc of how i dress/look 😃

#i went out on friday with two girls from one of my classes n the topic of our sexualities came up #and they both said they were bi n they looked at me and said ‘you are staright right?’ #n i said ‘no lol i’m bi’ #n they said that there’s no way that i’m bi bc i dress like a straight girl n have the vibe~~ of a straight girl #that i must be bi-curious not actually bi n i was like 🧍🏻‍♀️ #sorry do u want my sex life history?? like i don’t owe u some explanation as to why i’m actually bi.. but also like i went to catholic #school.. all of my friends are straight and i didn’t feel comfortable telling them i’m bi until senior year.. my parents don’t know i’m bi #so i had/still have to act a certain way so they don’t Figure It Out #do i have to walk around with a big sign on my forehead that says ‘ACTUALLY I’M BISEXUAL I JUST LIKE DRESSING THIS WAY’?? #idk it was just really invalidating n it made me sad and uncomfortable in myself :(( #sorry i needed to get this off my chest #keeping up with tina

[me-william]

so as we all know, you cannot sleep in the nether. you place your bed down, and it explodes.

why, though? why does specifically sleeping in a bed in the nether cause it to explode? not in terms of raw game mechanics, I mean why as in “give me your best narrative explanation.”

for example, I think the question of sleeping in the nether is often circumvented by an explanation like, “sleeping in the nether in general is a bad idea due to the dangerous conditions,” wherein a bed in a more secure location, say a cleared-out nether fortress, no longer poses a problem. no explodey. but in reality (or. the game, obviously), you’d still explode.

i think the next easiest explanation to go to would be something like, “notch specifically cursed beds to be dysfunctional in the nether,” which works, but isn’t as fuuun.

this brings up questions like, “well, what actually counts as a ‘bed’ in the nether?” and “what actually counts as sleeping?” i have some half-baked thoughts, likely with glaring holes, but i am as usual curious to see how other people might work around/think about this game-mechanic in a narrative way =v=

thanks @goldenblackhole for the worms I really appreciate it

#another day another pondering game mechanics/magic that don’t need an explanation #like to be clear. to be really clear bc idk some people get weird about these things for some reason #this is all in good fun for me personally LOL #i don’t intend to like…be meanly um whats it called #nitpicky about these kinds of details. i don’t really care #this isn’t me being like ‘ur not allowed to have unexplained things EVER’ #or thinking that somehow this detracts from minecraft as a whole or smth… #if that were the case we’d have much bigger fish to fry than beds exploding. #it is just genuinely fun for me. to think about how these things would work in a ‘practical’ sense #as practical as…beds exploding in an alternate hell-like dimension as one can get anyway #minecraft #text #will.chat

[doolallymagpie]

Using Sabine’s helmet as a way to remind myself Bobbie needs a damn face ASAP (gotta get dyes and more confident painting these things; bought some dollar tree knockoffs to experiment on), but…Mando!Bobbie, fun to think about

Also, she doesn’t have hands right now; the Curvy MTM body seems to have a weird problem with ‘em where instead of coming off without much of a fight, the little hinge in the wrist snaps and you’ve gotta pull the peg out with a pair of pliers, and now we’re waiting on the broken Rey to get here as a donor

#really hope the cheap dolls don’t just…melt #custom figure #custom barbie #custom doll #Aran Mereel is Mando!Bobbie lol. but also Jedi!Bobbie? complicated. #I mean my silly little OC is like…Post Order 66/Siege of Mandalore Diaspora!Bobbie? #also at that point could she really be that similar? #and there I go with the most detailed explanation of her ever #but Project Barbie Draper is going on. gonna have me a 1/6 scale Bobbie with mostly off-the-shelf parts Soon. SOON!

[annarubys]

the kinsey scale is like a brother to me because we are allllll over the place like i’m bi but the single shred of evidence is a crush i had in MIDDLE SCHOOL and who knows if that’s even reliable because it was a decade ago. but also i don’t think it was comphet because i was obsessed with this kid to an embarrassing degree. but you would think there would have been maybe one other person post puberty. so then i was like okay i can be a lesbian i guess since at 13 i probably wasn’t a reliable narrator but then the boys aired and. well. there were five minutes where i did think jackles was maybe hot (an experience which i hated). anyway i am thinking about all of this because i am watching something with sebastian stan who i did routinely used to say was hot but he is really giving me nothing right now so maybe i was being a liar. the thing is i can’t remember

#worst thing i ever did was start treating my tumblr account as a diary #and the worst thing staff ever did was letting me turn off reblogs to enable me further <3 #i just!!!! would really like to know if i am actually attracted to men lol #like for all intents and purposes it does not matter but it just feels like one of those things you should Know #with women i do have a more recent concrete example i can point to that was like okay Yeah. that was definitely Real #but with men that is just not the case 😔 but part of me is like oh well i just don’t know that many!! #which is true but idk how much weight that holds as an explanation #if anyone actually read all this ily <3 #a.txt #okay sure i’ll publish some of the deeply personal drafts too why not!!

[buzzerdome]

Wasn’t the Fast and Furious franchise just about street racing at one point? Why is Tyrese Gibson in space? The Rock straight flexes his full arm casts off in at one point!?!?

And who names the movies and why is there no consistency in the titles??

I’m probably overthinking this 🤣

#don’t get me wrong #these movies are super entertaining #but I guess you really can’t think about them too much #lmao #it feels like the plot got away from them and they just started having fun making super action car movies #fast and furious #fast x #but seriously who’s in charge of naming these movies 🤣 #actually I feel like they had a different person everytime #only explanation lol

[starlightswait]

lolol okay!!!!

#personal #vent // #you don’t ‘have’ to cancel #you got a better offer!!! #actually i didn’t even offer today. this friend reached out and asked if i wanted to hang tonight #and then just texted to say that someone they have a crush on said they could hang out tonight #and it’s like on some level i get it. #but i also consider it really rude to initiate plans with someone and then cancel for different plans with different people lol #like i’d get it if it was just oh I’m not feeling up to it anymore or feeling sidk or whatever #like disappointed but whatever #but to very specifically know that it’s bc they would rather hang out with someone else!!! unfortunately rubs up on a very ugly insecurity #for me!! #and iknow it’s kinda pathetic but i’d literally rather not know that lmao #like in their head it’s like ‘oh see I have a valid explanation’ meanwhile this is the primary explanation that makes me feel like shit lol #like just lie! or say you’re not feeling up to it anymore! #i know that’s ridiculous BUT ALSO #anyway. #tbc i have zero romantic feelings for this person and our orientations do not really align lmao it is a platonic frustration #also if you are reading this there is zero percent chance it’s about you bc they don’t have my tumblr url #i’ll get over it but. shit hurts lol #edit: i’m also annoyed bc i already got ready so now my brain’s just In That Mode lol #anyway they said they were sorry but clearly not sorry enoygh to not do it so! #edit: also the text they sent me cancelling said ‘i hate to do this’ no you don’t!!! #if you hated doing it you wouldn’t lol #i’m mostly not that mad anymore bc it’s been like 3 hours and i need to Move On with my life #but. hh!

[alloutshirt]

//

#you can’t read this #I just need to ramble and it’s too embarrassing to put on paper in my diary #how does one find someone’s socials with just a first name #i’ve done it before #like not to sound like we’re in you but im usually so good at finding anything #but nothing #only explanation is that this guy doesn’t have socials in which case damn just got more interesting/ed #so embarrassing to think abt a crush you were over because you crossed them once lol #wouldn’t even call it that #like yea he’s cute but #i don’t even want any type of relationship #i just like learning about new people #and when i can’t i get even more curious #god this really sound sociopathy rippp #i promise it’s not what it sounds like

[jentlemahae]

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#im so frustrated i started crying i hate that man #he had a problem with me using ergo how dare he #and hes not giving me s bongs point for independence and creativity when im the only one in class who picked an original topic and i havent #shown up to class in months #he’s gonna give it to one of those imbeciles tho bcs of course #i’m so annoyed i hope he falls off the bed tonight #and he wants me to find academic papers that don’t even exist like #i cant make stuff up cause that’s not okay either so what does he expect me to do #my god i should have studied marketing fr #he was like ‘what’s the psychological explanation for this’ sir idgaf ? #😐 #anw he said it’s good so that’s good and also that’s true lol but im really peeved rn

[seddair]

9-1-1 is great and all (would argue definitely less “great” and more just “good” over the last couple seasons but w/e), but Buck’s storylines ever since the shooting at the end of season 4 have been all over the place and shoddy tbh.

#idek what they’re trying to do with him anymore #it’s like they’ve realized he’s essentially the ‘main character’ of the show #and they’ve been scrambling trying to find a compelling storyline and romantic arc for him ever since #his whole relationship with taylor in season 5 was just… awful #and drug on for way way wayyyyy too long #yk usually with most romantic arcs they try to show the compelling and good parts of the relationship at the beginning #but they just… never really did that? #they had that one scene in 5x01 where they were happy sort of but even that got interrupted by taylor’s work #they started planting the seeds of their relationship being problematic just way too early #and proceeded to make the audience suffer through it the entire season lmao #and then the shit with lucy which was just really confusing? #like idk what the whole point of that was #i think she was supposed to make buck let loose but outside of 5x11 that just… didn’t happen? #and then of course there was the sperm donor storyline where they sl early decided to change gears randomly mid-season without explanation #and with natalia they seem to be just wasting a golden opportunity to really explore buck’s relationship with death but they abandoned+ #all that in the last ep for whatever reason??? #so i don’t think they have a fucking clue what they want to do with him #and it’s pretty infuriating to watch them trying and failing to figure it out in real time #ngl i think i’m ready to be done with this show after monday lol #i’ll probably continue to follow it from a distance during s7 maybe? #but with buddie essentially being dead and the writing getting more and more spotty over time #i just don’t think i have it in me to care anymore #plus based on what i understand about the actors’ contracts it’s hard to imagine they’re going to get anymore than 7 seasons so! #i’m ready to jump off this sinking ship methinks! #anyway