#and now this weekend which like

[comraderoscoes]

lotta jumbled up thoughts abt the way this team is acting towards lewis’ success this season and none of them are good

#really hated the way they acted in aus after his podium and the way they kept saying they could’ve won the race . fucking do it then #silverstone there was so much talk about his safety car luck as if he literally didn’t go thru abu dhabi 🤡 #and now this weekend which like #it would literally be sooo easy to fix this pr disaster. #like post a podium pic? post him being p3 or gaining another record breaking podium? something ? anything #or write a tweet explaining why the team weren’t at the podium (if yk there’s a proper explanation lol). like it doesn’t even need to be a #statement ? just a tweet would suffice #what are they doing 😭😭😭 #if it’s bc of the DNF then surely that’s doing a disservice to gr and also is in such stark contrast to their response to zandvoort #anyway hm. the continued silence is irking me like it’s one thing to mess up ur sm strategy after the race and not show up for the podium #it’s another thing to carry on the day after 😭 #and tbh like . there are weekends when you have to squint to see gr on their sm so i think the team is pretty poor as a whole #but this weekend has felt inc disrespectful to lewis #then what shov said …. ew!! #ANYWAY . thoughts spilled out . now repress #i hope they step their act up. if i’m being generous to them i’d say hopefully it’s bc of the standard lewis / merc set themselves to and #mb podiums don’t mean that much given that they want a wdc #but fuck that celebrate him #and also … idk if i believe that LOL

[shirozora-draws]

It's WHAT day today!? Not me already feeling weird about working on two sketches to post the same weekend as that sketch I posted for the first time in months only to find out that Today is the Two Year Anniversary of The Day Dinluke Took Over My Brain.

(It's not 12AM yet, this still counts as a 12/18 post)

Anyway.

Been dying to do some nice proper "the staircase fic is firmly on my mind" sketches. This version of Luke actually shows up later in the fic and the shape/cut/color of his robes are also influenced by Padme's wardrobe. Din's look has appeared on this blog before and is super duper influenced by what we saw of Aq Vetina's residents in the flashback scenes. The, uh, holocron plays a smaller part than it looks but I bought a holocron at Disneyland and wanted to have fun with my new reference.

Have I posted about the staircase fic on the art blog? It is live and currently posting as Gravity Well on AO3.

#shirozora draws #dinluke #lukedin #skydalorian #din djarin #luke skywalker #grogu #the mandalorian #star wars #jedi holocron #story: the staircase fic #story: gravity well #I'M BACK WITH EVEN MORE SKETCHES IN THE FINAL HOUR OF THIS GLORIOUS DAY #THIS DECEMBER 18TH WHEN DISNEY WARS MADE THE MISTAKE OF PUTTING DIN AND LUKE IN THE SAME ROOM #MY CONCLUDING THOUGHT AFTER HYPERVENTILATING THROUGH THAT WHOLE EPISODE? #'SO GROGU HAS TWO DADS NOW' #REST IN FUCKING PIECES MY SANITY FOR THE NEXT TWO PLUS YEARS #WHICH IS WHY I AM POSTING THREEEEEEE WHOLE ASS SKETCHES THIS WEEKEND AFTER MONTHS OF WRITING DINLUKE FIC #LIKE I'M RUNNING OUT OF TIME LIKE IN THAT HAMILTON SONG #FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF

[the-rogue-mockingjay]

Me when my chronic pain which is worsened by doing things is chronic and gets worse when I do lots of things:

#i massively overdid it this weekend #but hey i got to hang out with some old friends for the first time in like five years #and that is well worth the pain #however. it's amazing how the chronic pain - which i have had 24/7 for like 2 years now - manages to sneak up and surprise me #i am not a clever woman 😂😂😂 #chronic pain #chronic fatigue #chronic illness #blehhhhhh too many organizational tags

[icewindandboringhorror]

Just curious what the average level of personal investment in these sorts of things is. Like, how much do people usually get into silly stuff like this their friends ask of them? etc. etc. Which I know, only surveying a small sample on a very specific website means I'm not getting an exact average idea lol, but.. curious nonetheless .. Maybe reblog for bigger sample size but also this is not very serious at all/not worth a call to action gbhjbhjb

#which I know this could be context dependent like.. maybe you'd normally dress up but on a week that #you feel sick you wouldn't or etc. etc. - but I mean.. GENERALLY. in the most general average scenario #where you have the average amount of health and free time that you always do. etc. just based on your personality #and level of investment in these things - what on AVERAGE are you most inclined to do #also of course assume they communicate with you ahead of time and are not like planning a part last minute #like 'throw together costume in 5 hours and show up tonight randomly' or etc. I would hope that if we're going with the #AVERAGE of things - most people's friends have better communication skills than springing entire parties #on people last minute lol #assume you have like.. a few days-a week or so to prepare. however ealrly people usually start talking about #birthdays. In my experience it's usually one or two weeks ahead of time. Like 'oh next weekend' or 'oh two weeks from now' etc. #ANYWAY.. feeling a little Sick again of course but still trying to get some photos or something posted #AGAIN i promise I am not going to exlcusively post polls and ntohing else forever hgkjgnekj #I just really really love the ability to post polls and have always my whole life been obsessed with surveying people #I used to think I wanted to do that as a career somehow like.. be one of the people that does psychological interviews #or produce interview asessments for a company or etc. etc. I am always the one friend in the group thats giving out custom made #surveys or asking for other simialr stuff (did you ever take an mbti quiz? how about enneagra #m?? oh yeah I know they're not really scientifically valid or antyhing but like... DID you take them?? huh?? did you??please?? ghjj) #I simply cannot resist.. posting a little poll every once in a while.. as a treat #whilst I still fall behind on like actual content and costumes and stuff gbjhbjh #New poll adventure should be not as much of a wait as the last one was though since I already have the writing #for it really. I just have to do the ms paint sketch. hopefully no unexpected other health issues will get in the way #*** *** *** #< (anytime I do these three star patterns it is an ocd compulsion not me bleeping out words or something just ignore it lol) #(it means something secret in my evil brain just pretend you do not see it. significant only to me) #BUT YEAH.. ... poll... what type of costume party atendee are you? #:0c

[dontneedmyheart]

why are weekends always like. i want to meet friends but i also want to just sit in silence. i want to go to my favorite coffee shop but i also don’t want to leave the house. i want to go for a two hour long walk in the woods, i want to eat junk food in bed. i want to watch my favorite movies and read books, i end up aimlessly scrolling through the same three apps for three hours. i want to sleep in but i also want to get up early so the day will feel longer. i want to do everything, i want do nothing. it’s friday night and the possibilities are endless and suddenly it’s sunday night and i wasted the whole weekend.

#this is not An Original Thought but i’m just really going through It this weekend jhjhjhj #honestly weekends should be three days long at minimum #you know that tweet/post don’t remember which it was #that goes like #i need one day to lay down and one for errands and one for fun stuff #now it’s like i blink and suddenly it’s monday morning again #why is being an adult like this

[saturnvs]

i’ve had a shit week but yesterday i had my horse therapy for 3 (!!!) hours, and today i’m visiting a riding school for a lesson to see if i want to start riding there .. very nervous but excited :)

#i wish i could tell you all about the therapy but it’s so much!! and so wonderful!! #one of the horses there is unofficially my therapy horse now :’D her name is eva and she’s very fast which i learned when my therapist- #-had us run with our horses in the paddock #i was struggling to keep up with her but i’m quite fast too #i get tired quickly though 😭 #eva is a very funny lady i think we’ll learn a lot together <3 #wintertime starts this weekend however #which means it’ll be pitch black at like 15:00 or 16:00 🙃

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

ah yes! the joys of executive dysfunction and something being Fundamentally Broken In Your Braincase!

#quick vent Look Away Nothing To See Here #i just needed to place my emotions somewhere before i really started to spiral #texts from cherished friends should not cause nausea-level anxiety! and yet! #here i am! running away from the ever-present miasma of guilt and stress! #you know a few months ago i was like 'im going to be better about responding im going to do better' #i Immediately started doing Worse! #i think i stressed myself out too much #pretty much every relationship i have ends up completely deteriorating due to my own insecurities and guilt and fucked up brain <3 #ah yes and how could i forget the Commitment Issues and Emotional Block #mentally i am banging my head into a wall #but its fine Its Fine #i mean its not. its really not. but sometimes it seems like the harder i try the harder i fail #which is something i should be used to by now! #okay so it looks like i Am Indeed spiraling so #i am going to go... list some good things in this world and uhhh #well i dont have the car this weekend so cant go for a drive and some boba. um. #i need to organize my room table Yes that sounds distracting and falsely productive #not gonna tag this with anything actually. #love treating tumblr like my personal diary #ah yes its just me. my personal feelings. and the couple thousand people that follow me. #perhaps i will also buy something online with one of the gift cards i found the other day #buttons from michaels!!! i need buttons! i will go do that! #with the knowledge that i have unopened messages to respond to looming in the back of my mind like a noose! yippee yahoo!!! #gonna... turn of replies/rbs just this once since its just a Vent #i just needed to get it Out yk? not looking for anything other than relieving pressure on my brain #ok it looks like i cant turn of replies for individual posts #just... pretend you didnt see this for both our sakes <3 #look away look away

[mobius-m-mobius]

I cannot believe that season. truly just. there was not a single episode I didn't sit down to without a genuine conviction that *this* would be the episode where they spit all over everything I loved about the show. I braced constantly throughout the episodes as they kept setting themselves up for Very Stupid story choices only to pull the rug and go "HAHA surprise, idiot!!! We've given you exactly what you wanted <3". until the final episode which was NOT what I wanted and also exponentially better storytelling and character development than any of the ideal scenarios I'd constructed.

something deeply meta about it all. truly a chaos season for the chaos god, where the most chaotic, unexpected, transformative thing they can do is to be good.

Spent the day processing my love for this season only to have your message sum my thoughts and feelings up perfectly, thank you so very much for sending it 💖

Same as you, not for a second did I go in truly expecting anything from s2. Owen and Mobius have my heart, always will, so primarily the show was a vehicle to provide whatever crumbs of his scenes and chemistry with Tom I could get and with the start of every episode I braced for the moment that would get ruined in some way, only to be continually hit with everything I've ever wanted in a show or pairing right up until the finale. Which, while not what I would've chosen, was beautifully crafted and an almost Shakespearean tragic romance that will haunt me for the rest of my days and is still infinitely better than the nightmare scenarios I'd been floating around in my mind so at least there's that and it's impossible not to be thankful for eps 1-5 for giving content anyone could dream of and more 😅

Besides the obvious ending, I'm mostly crushed our Loki and Mobius didn't get a proper goodbye but honestly believe Loki decided to seek out s1 Mobius instead knowing s2 Mobius loved him too much to ever let his sacrifice happen and it would've been too much to bear, so having made his mind up already he at least tried to visit a version most likely to validate his choice. Just wish the Mobius now waiting until the end of time had at least a similar opportunity, but I'm just thankful he didn't lose his memories and could make his own decision that his faith in Loki is what's carried him before and will continue to do so now.

The flip of their characterization from order or chaos is exactly what has me convinced Lokius will reunite because how can they not with such an open ended future?? Even in separation they revolve around each other and they're the only ones left wanting. Mobius and his life are in ruins with nothing but the passage of time and possibility of some spent with Loki ahead while Loki's surely going to find a way to meet halfway when the choice of order has not only made him potentially the most powerful being in existence but one who spends eternity looking at the only person who ever saw him back.

#cutting this short because it's already longer than expected and i'm about to cry again even though i've done so like a dozen times today 😅 #but truly s2 has been the most incredible fun uplifting heartbreaking experience and i'm so thankful to have shared it with you all #have a feeling nothing's going to beat it for me as well which is kind of wild to wrap my mind around?? #never gonna be another character like mobius or one who means more to me plus owen is it for me now #and if i could craft a perfect episode of anything start to finish it would be s02e01 #the banter their chemistry the touching the sacrifice the perfect balance of plot and humor it's pure love and comfort #what a ride #and thank you again for the loveliest ask!! love hearing what everyone thought of the season and where things can go from here #hope you're having an amazing weekend 💖 #ask #loki spoilers

[bogkeep]

i forgot how long it takes me to work on comms these days

#which is why they're not open haha #haven't been able to do much art lately which is why anything ive posted has been sketches #and now im doing a whole illustration! #im always like yeah i can do that in a day. just breeze through it!!!! #then weekend rolls around and im like BUT WHAT IF I JUST LIE DOWN FOR LIKE. SIX HOURS #and the lying down for six hours part is actually necessary #it's for a friend! im actually very excited about this one except for how long it takes #wip #sketch

[gxlden-angels]

I think it's so funny when Christian flat out reject the concept of being intersex like oh so me and about 2% of the population aren't real but you expect me to believe homeboy's gonna come back after (holy) ghosting us for over 2000 years?

#I plan on coming out to my dad as trans this weekend #And thought about the time I explained what intersex is to my uncle #and how he flat out refused to except it as a real thing #which is fuckin wild #male and female should be used as adjectives not nouns #cause there's so many factors that contribute to biological sex that it'd be easier to say every person is their own sex #but yea i'm medically considered intersex cause of my flavor of PCOS #and other issues #it's just so wild cause you'd think that would be a great 'miracle' for them to brag about #'Look at science say there's female and male but Jesus says in Galatians there is no male and female because we are all one in Christ.' #Like the opportunity was literally right there #oh well #florida gov ronald desantis if ur reading this you know what would be so fuckin funny for you to say right now? #also I'll be back on the book soon I've been Working. got 38.5 hours the past 2 weeks tho let's gooo (limit is 40 as a pt student) #[pt working and full time student not pt student] #bro fundie christians' obsession with sex/genitalia in general is fuckin wild #ex christian #religious trauma

[killiru]

Guys!!! Supposedly we only have one more month until the 2nd 2024 announcement from GMMTV. Accordingly: Give me your guesses and hopes what new shows we will get. I am SO curious what everyone thinks and so excited myself. Can't tomorrow be April already?

#gmmtv #gmmtv 2024 #gmmtv 2024 pt.2 #actually no pls not be april yet. #only 5 more months for my master thesis. lol im not ready. #but cmon!!! I need my little queer shows to cheer me up?? #I feel so empty with only 23.5 airing in the moment haha. I used to have so many shows for my weekends and now there is only one #like... one that i love ofc #but one! #Also hmmm... im curious with which show of 2024 we will start this year. #i BELIEVE 2023 Midnight museum was the first show to be aired from the announcements that were made for 2023 #and that started on the 6th of march. #Im so curious rhjgskleaf #and miss earthmix as always but i think for them i have to wait a little bit longer lol. #okay i stop to ramble in the tags now.

[theloveinc]

I need dabi to be my boyfriend so badly so he can bum around my apartment and stop my roommates from touching my shit

#aita: I baked both bread and cookies over the weekend and I asked my roommate to not put them in the same container #she did and now we’re texting back and forth abt it #I know this is the second time I’ve had to ask her not to touch my bakes too #(in the sense that if I don’t put them in a container I don’t want them moved. she’s welcome to eat them) #but god. #she also ate half my cereal and is refusing to buy me a new box bc ‘she thought it was from the landlord’ #which like no biggie but … #if we’re piling things up … don’t put the cereal Im not going to eat (it’s easy to save when it wasn’t open #in the first place) and I don’t want it anymore!!!! #sigh #dabi come be a scary clown on my couch please please #please #SORRY TO RANG #caitie blabs #shii posts #dabi

[wifegideonnav]

tbh when mitski said “you’re my best friend/now i’ve no one to tell/how i lost my best friend”

#my freshman year of college my best friend and I were both a wreck #and on opposite sides of the country #during winter break I made the decision to share certain information with their parents bc I was actively concerned for their safety #they were deeply upset about me betraying their trust like that and asked for a break in our friendship #(a few months later (which happened to be early March 2020. lol) they did shrooms and realized they wanted to talk to me again lmao) #(so we talked and cried and now we’re still best friends almost 4 years later) #and my birthday is in january so it fell right in the middle of the period we weren’t talking #and my friends at school actually put together a really lovely party and it remains to this day the best bday party ive had #(most of my bdays have been sad and shitty lol) #but i just remember being drunk in my friends dorm room with my friends all around me #it was the end of the night people were just kinda chatting in little groups or whatever #and i was lying on my friends bed just miserable bc all I could think about was how my best friend was supposed to be there too #bc my parents were going to fly them out for the weekend as a present #and obviously that just got dropped #and id been talking to my friends about it kind of but all I wanted was my actual best friend #I left them a very embarrassing drunk voicemail that THANK GOD they deleted without listening to #but it’s just. the quiet agony of being angry and sad and hurt because your person doesn’t want to be ur person anymore #and still wanting to talk to them about it. still needing them to comfort you and give you their advice and insights #i don’t want to talk to anyone else about it. they’re not you. #sigh. anyway. ive actually lost several close friends for various reasons ranging from reasonable to bullshit #and it always blindsides me how much I want to talk to THEM about it #so thanks mitski for expressing that so artfully #op

[theygender]

My gf and I have finally decided to open our relationship after talking about it on and off for the past few years so she's guy shopping now and she already found someone she likes on a dating site and I'm so pumped for her. I feel like this:

#rambling #for context im polyam but weve always been monogamous bc before she wasnt comfortable with nonmonogamy #weve been together for 7 years now tho and she finally feels comfortable enough with the idea and im v happy! #shes only looking for a fwb and she found a guy that seems really cool and isnt a creep or a chaser #hes polyam and also apparently a professional dom/sub?? which is cool #we're talking about meeting up this weekend to get to know him a bit and go over like expectations and boundaries and stuff #i wont be involved bc i mean. lesbian. but i wanna make sure hes cool and she wants to get my approval #this is probably more information than any of you wanted to know about me but. now you know 👍 #tmi #?

[kohakhearts]

theres a really. special kind of despair in the uncertainty brought about by moments of success and achievement. the inevitable “what now” of reaching your goals. and i kind of wish someone had warned me how hollow graduating university would feel, tbh

#taylor.txt #im miserable primarily for other reasons right now but i dont think i appreciated how much this just…wouldnt feel like anything #i think especially in my case as someone who so desperately needed ‘going away to college’ to get out of my childhood situation #and now for the past 5 years everything ive done has been for the purpose of getting my degree and finishing school #like im fine i guess i just kind of wish i could feel proud of myself or happy its over instead of like dreading the ceremony and feeling #like everything i have to do for grad is just one more thing i have to check off a list. getting my grad photos done felt nice but idk #it kind of feels like no one really cares which. idk why i would expect it to NOT feel that way. but yeah #tl;dr im around Kinda…need to finish stuff up but im over the really busy part of this all. kinda just coasting to the end here tbh #when this is over i’m gonna get to my request fics. prommy. wanted to do them over the long weekend but i was sick :( #anyway like to be clear im fine. people have been pointing out today i seem down and i think embarrassingly a collection of my students #noticed me crying on the bus today but thats life i guess you make do. im sad and thats ok. tbh

[synthshenanigans]

just woke up from a dream where CJ posted a song called Houdini Screwdriver and im very confused

#if that's the song this weekend you all owe me 5 bucks #okay but now what tf is a houdini screwdriver #that sounds like a weird al song what #the whole dream was me looking at spotify. seeing the song & then i immediately woke up #if i had a nickel for everytime I was left confused by a music/CJ related dream id have two nickels #which isn't a lot but it's weird that it happened twice #moss post #is there a song called houdini screwdriver???? where did this come from #chonny jash