#I hope this is useful to some degree

[front-facing-pokemon]

#on the gourgeist post‚ when i clicked Add to queue‚ tumblr just Hung for a solid two minutes until i refreshed the page #and then i checked the queue and it was already queued up anyway. but the page reloaded all weird and looked like for a split second #some posts from my dash had entered the queue. so in lieu of this Being A Website‚ i'm gonna leave that post where it is and hope the queue #has not been contaminated #anyway i thought this thing was gen 8 because that was the first place i saw it. which is weird because i'm the big gen 6 proponent #but i guess i just never saw this one when i played pokémon X as a kid #inb4 someone is like. yeah it's pokémon Y exclusive. like what happened with spritzee #naw bulbapedia says it's not. i was just bad at video games i guess. or it's a rare spawn or something. or i just got unlucky #bergmite #however the pokédex entries seem to suggest it has gotten two (2) degrees warmer since generation 8 #from gen 6 to gen 8 the dex entries stated it used air of -150ºF #but now in gen 9 the dex entry states it's only -148ºF #climate change is affecting even the bergmite. what has this world come to

[hallowclave]

What a whimsical looking young man I wonder if he has received any job offers recently

Original photo

#my art #project sekai #rui kamishiro #if u saw this get posted before: no u didn’t #forgot to schedule the post for the morning incident 60 dead 600 injured. #i feel obligated 2 say I actually post abt pjsk on my main (apotelesmaa) frequently (I have brain worms) #& I only post on this blog once in a blue moon and it’s usually not serious art atp #so do not expect anything. #curtain call. what an event. love rui he’s such a good character. I hope he explodes. #he is so full of love and so bad at recognizing his emotions and problems. #‘I don’t have any emotional hang ups about anything’ says the guy who has so many emotional hang ups #rationalizing pulling back as safety measures instead of fearing abandonment/concern of hurting tsukasa (or others) again -> #rationalizing accepting asahi’s job offer because it’s the best for his future even if it’s not the best for himself #also tbh I think to some degree u could argue accepting the job offer was his way of getting ahead of being abandoned #not that it would happen and not that he’d recognize that to begin with #negative self awareness king! he is not processing his emotions at all! #would love for him to mention the job offer in a future event. even just offhandedly. shaking him by the shoulders. talk to ur friends moron #me when I’m in a not recognizing what I’m feeling and how it effects me competition and my opponent is rui kamishiro from hit game pjsk #etc etc. anyways. #once again falling into the ‘sure whatever this can go on the art blog’ category #in that I used simultaneously too much effort and very little in creating it #once again: [hope you’re hungry. for NOTHING] dot jpeg. as is typical here at hallowclave dot tumblr dot com.

[itwoodbeprefect]

girl HELP absolutely everything is going exactly right on the high school lesbians obsessed with space show and there are still FOUR more episodes to go

#looks like there are some oh-no-foreign-exchange-plans-may-make-us-part woes ahead but. probably not four episodes worth #(also yes i AM saying everything is going right while ton is getting hit by charoen bc i think (with much love) that it's good for him) #(of course i don't think mawin getting stood up is what he deserves. but i DO think mawin ending up with ton during the meteor shower....) #(well it SHOULD be foreshadowing is all i'm saying. and so far i have no reason to believe this show would waste that) #* #23.5 degrees #anyway. this is just how the pacing of these gmmtv shows works #< things i tell myself while hoping we can avoid the inevitable main couple breakup arc

[sailforvalinor]

Idk if this is controversial, but studying for a English/writing degree at university shouldn’t make you NOT want to engage with writing or literature. Just a thought.

#the amount of times one of my literature professors presented us with the worst reading or interpretation (some of which were just plain #revolting) of a piece of literature almost as if she were expecting us to like it just because it was sensational and me and everyone else #going ‘um. no. sorry. not only does that make no sense but now I kind of want to throw up’ #I just came here to read some gothic lit and honestly I’m feeling so attacked right now. (my fault for signing up for gothic lit I suppose) #her English survey class made me never want to look at the written word again #however I know this isn’t me having an issue with survey classes (although the rate they make you read at is kind of ridiculous and I read #fast: case in point for one of them I had to read Huck Finn in 9 days) #because I took American Survey from another professor and it was really challenging but probably the best course I ever took at university #I was not expecting to develop such a distaste for the academic world at uni but maybe that’s just my university (whenever I complain about #this my mom always tells me I need to watch Dead Poet’s Society lol) #siggggghhh anyway. hoping for some better classes with my exchange program (although none of them are writing/English as I’m almost #finished with my degree) #english lit #university #english #college

[plulp]

dol schoolboys but how i picture them in my mindpalace

#my art #degrees of lewdity #dol #sydney the faithful #sydney the fallen #robin the orphan #kylar the loner #whitney the bully #DUDE this took me so long to draw but i was possessed by some outside force to make it #since i was going through the dol tag on this bad boy (tumblr) and i was like I WANT TO DRAW THEM TOO #so i did #and i finally decided to use this blog for something #because it was like so empty before and my art was old and so it was like whatever ill just do a whole upheaval #dol is fun i like it #ALSO i play the game with all boys because im. gay #sorry if anyone wants me to draw them as girls feel free to send in an ask #oh also kylar has a mole under his eye and Acne and robin has a mole on his neck and Freckles #i hope i made that clear enough 😖 #anyways HI DOL FANDOM #if i keep talking ill probably end up making these tags a whole page longer so thats it sorry #OH I THINK THAT i gave sydney his roots showing because i think its CUTE OKAY. thats it promise. thats all. bye #RBS off because my art is better now i want to remake this once i have the designs finalized

[thegreenisles]

Hey! I finished up another little resource I've been slowly putting together.

I've put together a turnaround reference of every character in the game, with every alternate appearance, both full bodies and profile views.

The full body views include a hatless young Graham for scale. There is a bit of an issue regarding characters with armor- I'm not very savvy with blender admittedly, and all of the metal comes out really dark. It isn't too bad, save for Manny, who doesn't even have his green feather. I'd like to fix those once I can. Also, capes are omitted. I think that only applies to Graham and Whisper though.

I'll be finishing up doing the same for the animals at some point, and I'm planning on making a few references for certain character's weapons, or other interesting items.

Also- along with the profile views, I included some of Graham's head at every angle by 10 degrees, from head on, lower, and upper angles. Thought it would be helpful to see how his hat works from any direction. The images are huge, here's a gif of them all together.

Hope these will come of use! I've been working on it for a while.

#kings quest #king's quest #king’s quest #kq2015 #kq #the only metal object i successfully fiddled with was the crown. because it looked horrid if i didnt #also chester and hagatha have an extra angle in their profile views bc they are hunched over with long noses #so at a 45 degree angle it didnt have the view i wanted and i just threw in an extra #only them tho and only from the front not from behind #also theres only 4 goblin profiles and 8 different goblins in full body bc they have the same heads. 4 heads and 2 body types #ive been actively doing this for over a year just not constantly... its easy work but its a time sink #ive been WANTING to do it since 2017 ever since i could access the models in a modelling program #since then we've found more references from the artists but still lack all of them. like graham's >:( #im gonna take a break before getting to the animals and items. there are a few animals already done though #ps these are great refs for art but i wouldnt colorpick from these images due to how blender adds some shading to the models #just use them to pick colors from the color wheel or find the character's texture in the extracted textures and pick from that if you must #anyway thats all my commentary here. have fun go nuts i really hope you guys find this useful

[r2y9s-notartblog]

evening/night boop! (how are you doing?)

morning boop! (i've lost track of the time whoops!)

I'm doing well! have a cat butt!

#replies #uygfiug #not my cat but he is when i'm there lmaoooo #my friend's cat his name is Witcher! he's very cuddly! #the more allergic to cats you are the more he wants to cuddle with you! #to the chagrin of the friend of said friend who often comes by for video games with us #i uh. may have impulsively submitted an application to a communitiy college. #i haven't taken college classes in 8 years haha #but i was like ok i have a BS in art but what if i got an AS in forensic science huh #wouldn't that be cool #i'm just out here about to start collecting degrees orz #also can i even pay for it? even if it's part time? #financial aid save me #fuck if i'm gonna apply for another damn loan after i just paid my last one off #ANYWAYS got into a new video game and it's eating at my brain but at least i've got some great art inspo coming in #i never stay in a fandom for long which is why i never publish any of my fics bc i'm in a new fandom before i can even finish the fic lmaooo #i hope you're doing well! i think ur classes started up again? #gl and take care of yourself! #take breaks and eat and all that u know how it is

[steelycunt]

FINAL MIDBLOCK ESSAY DONE!! I AM FREE!!

#FINALLY. have not been able to relax for like a month that’s the thing about the due dates being so far apart it’s great because you’ve got #more time but it also means everything just. lasts longer. anyway! done now. this one perhaps not my best work but it was harder than i #expected…my us government one will be rough but what else do you expect from 1500 words..and then my theory essay..my best hope for a good #grade perhaps…but we’ll see. the next lot aren’t due until january but im gonna start thinking about them now so im less busy over christmas #insane that that’s not too terrible a thought. uni is crazy when you actually enjoy your degree. anyway! for now i am going to enjoy the #rest of my weekend at home n me and my mum are going out tomorrow n im gonna buy some books with the voucher i haven’t spent since my #birthday in february and ill finally have time to finish the book im reading rn AND to do some writing..start chapter 2 : ^ ) #woohoo!! aware no one gaf about any of this but i am first and foremost always the audience for my own posts so. this one’s for me.. #(ridi's) bigmouth strikes again

[the-everqueen]

was talking to the other postdoc (same fellowship, different field) and it's wild how outright rude our host departments have been. with the exception of one or two people, we've had multiple microaggressions and dismissal of our research (while both depts are literally searching for someone to fill a position that would theoretically encompass what we do). again, i get we're temporary, and there's no obligation to really connect with us, but. i've gone to other dept lectures out of curiosity/overlapping research interest and the faculty have been SO nice, made a point of remembering my name if they saw me again, asked about my research, etc.

#welcome to academia #like it's bare minimum type shit i expect #mostly bc i do it when i'm at conferences #the degree of outright exclusion is not entirely unexpected but it IS deranged #(both of us are also in...fields that i would say encourage these pockets of conservatism) #(so both our host depts are largely [if not entirely] white dudes) #i hope their job searches fail. if they're this bad to some light-skinned poc postdocs #they're gonna make some ntt bipoc faculty's life hell

[anto-pops]

From the moment I met you, all those years ago, not a day has gone by when I haven’t thought of you. And now that I’m with you again… I’m in agony. The closer I get to you, the worse it gets. The thought of not being with you… I can’t breathe. I’m haunted by the kiss that you should never have given me. My heart is beating, hoping that that kiss will not become a scar. You are in my very soul, tormenting me. what can I do? I will do anything that you ask.

— Anakin Skywalker.

I love this line more than anything. And I thought maybe some of that could be used for Sebastian's vows when you eventually write the wedding fic or for his real proposal.

( https://vm.tiktok.com/ZGJxMjXqd/ ) it hits different when you listen to it.

STOP IT WHY WOULD YOU PUT THIS IN MY BRAIN

#asks #HE WOULD SAY SOME SHIT LIKE THAT HE'S INFATUATED AND LOVES TO THE SAME DEGREE AS ANAKIN #not my first love clashing with my current obsession I'm WEAK #WEAK I SAY #I've consistently seen the parallels between Sebastian and Anakin from day one I love this so much #THANK YOU FOR MAKING ME WEEP I HOPE YOU'RE HAPPY #and yes I will MOST DEFINITELY use this in the future when I get around to writing a wedding fic for Sebastian !!!

[mcl38]

crazy abt the fact that that martijn is wearing a T-shirt, while lando is wearing a tight base layer AND a huge hoodie

to be FAIR, im pretty sure the undershirt is a thermal made specifically for sports (and therefore like sweat and overheating). also to be fair im 99% certain someone gave him that hoodie so that he'd have smth orange to wear. that said like. its lando. at this point we should b expecting it

#i know one (1) dutch man and he'd wear shorts to walk his dog in romanian winter (-10 degrees) so like. maybe its genetics too #martin garrix #lando #very intrigued abt the use of martijn.... i only know one person who calls him that but who surely wouldn't b on anon #is it more widespread? or anon r u dutch. id love some answers #or if it IS you * then hope u have a nice dinner LMAO #anon #ask

[nuwanders]

Got my 2:1!! Solid 65 average which is all I was hoping for 🙏

#for any americans reading this 65 is a more respectable grade here than in the US #did better than expected in some exams and worse than expected in others #but all pretty middling on the whole #was so convinced i was gonna get a 2.2 so im just RELIEVED #its done ! law degree done! goodbye ****** i hope i never see you again!!! #text

[inniave]

finally got that second opinion surgery consultation scheduled. i'd thought well maybe i can get away without it but the pain is getting worse again :/ consult is mid-may so it's just a matter of pain & ptsd management until then

#though i think i'm doing a little better ptsd wise this time around because it's a woman doctor #which is still scary but not the same yk #she's the only woman jaw surgeon in town though???? i looked and looked and looked #there's like 20 men :/ #anyway #using every coping skill in my book #and i do have a nice little getaway planned at the state park between now & then so i'm looking forward to that #get to just sit and watch the lake #and i'm doing all my somatic trauma processing i can as the feelings/flashbacks/sensations come back #and hoping that maybe this can lead to a resolution of some of these things #even if it's hard #my brain will dissociate rather than deal with but we've done so much grounding work cant dissociate to same degree so kinda #being forced to actually process & work on #which is really fucking scary #but i know there will be an other side #and maybe things won't feel so heavy once we get there

[bonojour]

i moved back to the netherlands last friday and i still really feel like someone is holding my throat closed and something heavy is sitting on my chest & i keep tearing up at the smallest things. it is only a temporary state as i am planning to permanently move to denmark in 2024 but holy shit the way my body is responding to being outside of it is shocking to me

#it feels like the covid period when denmark locked its borders and i felt the same feeling (but less) because i was unable to come in #i hate to be so in love with a country #especially one that is used by right wingers in NL as an example of how to deal with the migration issue #but there is something that just. makes me so Happy #but it scares me #because i put all my hope for my future in the hands of a country who is dedicated to making it More Difficult for me to even come in #and there are some things coming up on my path that are going to determine how easy my path will be #like the C1 level language test and getting accepted for a masters degree #But yeah anyway the thought of having to spend more than a year in the netherlands is absolutely crushing me #i wish i could be excited for the sake of my friends #but when one of my friends who i had not seen this year hugged me #i just felt.... deflated and empty #and i still do #although i am now on the flixbus to copenhagen and about 30km away<3 #but eh i might be a bit emotionally unstable the next period #because you can add on top of that that i have also been unable to Relax on my own for almost two months #so i am highly strung and emotionally just a sad wet rat thrown back into the sewers #text #sorry this is incoherent #and there are worse things in the world

[freakpit]

being in your 20’s sucks cause it’s like oh boohoo i have bills and pressure to make permanent life plans. guess i’ll get so stressed i want to kill myself about it

#op #i’m 22 i have no prospects no fucking degree #nothing to show for my fucking existence #alls i do is doordash for money and sit at home and cry about money #i have over $700 in medical bills from my infections and my doctor’s appointment that insurance decided not to cover for no reason #and i just. why am i pointless #i used to be smart and promising and want to do things with my future and now i’m just some #idiot ugly insufferable unemployed fuck who cries about everything and can’t sleep from stress #god. #AND ITS NOT EVEN AN ORIGINAL KIND OF MISERY #i can’t even claim to be unique for feeling this way!!! #so i won’t get any comfort for this other than. oh well Feeling Like That is Normal for your early 20’s #and i’m just expected to pick up and carry on and hope it gets better fucking. a decade from now #i don’t want it to be better a decade from now. i want it to be better now #whatever

[foxgirlmoth]

I don't talk about this stuff on here pretty much at all, but a past relationship really broke a ton of bits and pieces of my brain and heart in weird ways (I'm finally thinking about him almost never but the shit he pulled was abusive as hell and still affects me sometimes). Being in love with my current girlfriends for a while felt almost. Painful? Almost like I should be ashamed I can fall so deeply in love with people, and especially how quickly that can happen sometimes too. Thats how it kind of felt. I tend to get overwhelmed with emotions if I'm feeling them very strongly, and that has been extremely embarrassing and also felt almost like I was being a burden to those I love (which love is the main emotion that can 'get dialed up to 11' for me). It IS debilitating in some ways!!! It hasn't gotten bad enough I've been nonverbal in a really really long time but that happened this past week and it was wild to me.

Things are getting better now though! Therapy in the past has helped, and honestly having such patient and understanding partners has made a world of difference ;w;. my wife is someone who was one of my best friends and I had a huge crush on and now I can ask for cuddles and we can nap together and I've fallen so much in love. Her and her presence are literally heaven for me, I don't know if anything has ever made me happier than just laying next to her and feeling her warmth.

Worries of course flare up and I feel like I need to lean on her a lot during those moments, but I don't feel like too much of a burden to her. I love seeing the posts that say stuff like 'Its okay to be a burden' or 'its okay to be annoying' because really truly I think I need to be those things to survive sometimes. I can be 'a lot' and I can be a little bit obsessive and those things aren't inherently bad or evil of me. I just make sure I'm feeling okay during and after and make sure I'm checking in on myself often. I'm a bit of a broken girl, but that doesn't mean I'm not extremely happy and living a life I love. I've written poems and everything about how it feels like it must hurt to love me and my broken jagged edges, but hey, even if it does a little bit, it doesn't mean someone like my girlfriend/wife won't go through a little bit of burden to love me, and I'm more than happy to return all of this and more for her as well if she's ever in need or feels broken ;^;

#Not to be too gay but I wanna build my life with my princess more and more #She's. So good to me and she's so pretty and she's so beautiful and attentive and she listens to me in ways I feel no one else has #She understands me so well!! And I hopefully make her feel the same #But yeah I've been a burden a lot to people due to autism (which I didn't know I had for fucking ages) adhd and physical disabilites #And she feels like she isn't taking care of me which is good because I'd honestly hate that #But she understands me and makes me a better person and that's exactly what I've wanted for forever. #And being demi/aspec is awesome with her since she's aspec too and there's no pressure for sex or sexy times but if we both want it #It can still be super fun!! We gotta figure more of that stuff out if we want but knowing each others kinks (and sharing a good bit) rocks #Idk its so so so so easy to love my wife Maxie #She's so dear to me and we've only been dating for 4 months but they've been 4 months I've felt the most alive and seen #Its so easy to be cringe but free with her too idk #She makes me better and I hope I do the same for her. I don't want either of us to stagnate yknow? #But anyways yeah this is just a big journal entry of some kind I might do these every once and a while #Not to like. Brag??? I guess. Or show my mental illness so much. Its just kind of nice if friends know where I'm at in my life I guess #And idk having outside input on thoughts can be good. If any friends see this and go 'Hey Runa this is real weird maybe tone it down' #I can look at that stuff a bit more #Gonna tag this in a way I can find it and others in the future too #Runa diary logs #But yeah you're not hearing this from me but I wanna be with Maxine for the foreseeable future more than anything. #Gotta get my degree and a good job too and she's ofc not the only person in my life (I have Sara who is so very dear to me too ;w;) #Nor is she the only 'goal' I have either. I wanna make games I wanna make art. I wanna make something that other trans people #And queer people and just minorities in general can look at or play or experience and just go. Life is worth living #I love my life right now and I'm so glad I've made it to my late 20's. #Its only uphill from here :3 #Wanna add on when I say she's not the only person in my life I mean that I have so many friends and people I love who love me too :3 #♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤