#I’m literally getting too old for this lmao

[sodacowboy]

Yes. Because jumping off from a 3ft high bar in the fence is a good idea. Especially when I know I have weak-ish joints. And seemingly chronic pain.

#yeah my ankle didn’t like it #it hurt for like two seconds and I have ice on it right now/immediately #but I know damn well it’s gonna hurt tomorrow #I’m pretty sure I landed pretty flat though??? and it’s the back of my ankle that hurt #anyway #apparently this is what doctors mean when they ask you if you engage in any risky behaviors #not just like… drugs and alcohol #impulsively jumping off a fence is a risky behavior #I’m literally getting too old for this lmao #which means I should be doing it more if I’m honest #I wanna be able to go hiking and climb trees and stuff you know??? #cant do that if I can’t even jump down from three feet

[alexturner2005]

i need the strokes to come back bc i very nearly made a sign that i’m 99% sure would’ve worked and it’s haunting my every waking thought

#problem is now i’m determined to actually do it but a. they need to play a show here again #and b. i need to get front and center again which under normal circumstances is so fucking hard lol #i was literally making the sign at 1am the night before and got tired and frustrated and gave up #bc i figured i wouldn’t be in a spot for it to work anyway #and then i absolutely was #amazing night but i literally can’t stop thinking about several missed opportunities i had lol #if they wait five years to come back here i’m gonna be too old to wait all day for a front spot lmao

[marimbles]

i miss being in my tmsidk era. what was i on back then. where did that girl go. come back ho why would you abandon me like this

#me getting writer’s block 4 chapters into my wip. hemming and hawing over my outline #weeping and wailing that it’s not funny or interesting enough #good grief. #i was so strong back then….. #actually tbh I’m sure it was just as hard writing has always been and will always be so so hard for me lol #agonizing. excruciating. it just feels more appropriate when you’re agonizing over a long dramatic AU vs something rly dumb and silly. hddjd #literally tho when I think abt how I wrote something that long I’m still flabbergasted. i don’t even READ fics that long. hdjddn #but MAN it was a good time. I miss it. I miss the fandom from those days too #I sound like such an old geezer rn lmao. the fandom just feels different now idk. smaller maybe. less active in a lot of ways. #it’s a little sad I guess. but there is still great stuff going on! #anyway. I sleep now #maybe when I wake up I’ll know how to write again🫶

[pussy-ache]

thinking about how my sister just got engaged at 27 to her first boyfriend ever and i just don’t have a good feeling about it

#i mean i’m not talking to her right now lmao. i did not even say congrats #but i’m still her older sister and i don’t believe she really has experienced enough of the world and of love itself to be tied down #at least in that way — technically speaking she’s already ‘’tied down’’ being in a long term committed relationship #but like. i know she thinks my mom had us when she was ‘’too old’’ #my mom had me at 35 and my sister at 38 #my sister criticizes my mother for that and has made comments throughout the years about how her friends mothers are all so much younger #meanwhile my mother lived an EXPANSIVE life in hers 20s and early 30s #she went out outward bound trips with hippy dippy granola eating fucks and camped out for months on end #she jumped out of planes and paraglided and rode motorcycles #she was a huge pothead and spent so much time at the beach studying tide pools and looking for horseshoe crabs #she even metal detected after storms to see if she could find unique lost beautiful jewelery and other items that were lost at sea #she was a PERSON and without those experiences would NOT have been our mother #i’ve explained this to my sister dozens of times over — your opinion of our moms age is based upon you not seeing her as a PERSON w/ a LIFE #and she does not care. she still believes my mom was ‘’too old’’ which is a ridiculous argument because having kids in your 30s is NOT. OLD #like even outside of my opinion of our moms life. my sister is literally just wrong across the board because 30s is NORMAL #she frustrates me to no end because our ‘’differences of opinion’’ are actually REALLY big differences like. stop dehumanizing our mom….? #so truly. honestly. this is just a big push to ‘’not end up like’’ our mom so she’s getting married earlier and will have kids earlier #now in my own right i don’t want to ‘’end up like’’ my mom either — ie in a marriage that is unfulfilling with a man who bosses her around #but the difference between her opinion of ‘’not ending up’’ like her is she blame MOM for everything #meanwhile in MY example i blame my father for being a piece of shit to our mother and vowed i would never be in that situation myself period #but that’s not putting blame on my mother. that’s me seeing my mother as a VICTIM of injustice and misogyny #meanwhile my sister just sees my moms decisions as a ‘’problem’’ to be ‘’fixed’’ #meanwhile i am consistently reminding myself that while my mother loves her children very much… #she inherently had to LOSE herself in order to have us and fashion a new version of herself - the ‘’mom’’ version to replace her real self #my sister doesn’t care to talk to our mom about the intricacies that come with all of this. i do. quite often actually. #my moms rule was that she was not getting married before 30. period. #the first thing i said when my mom told me my sister was engaged was #‘’i don’t even believe someone should get married period. but especially not before 30’’ #she agreed. because she TAUGHT us that! she TAUGHT us the importance of finding yourself before anything else #but my sister in her race to ‘’not be like’’ our mom is missing out on turning into a wonderful person for it?

[moonlight-fawn]

Can’t wait to live in a house where I’m not getting constantly yelled at !

#like bro you are my father #why out of all days would you chose today to yell at me #everytime my dad gets mad at something not worth getting mad about #all I think about is #thoroughfare #Ethel cain #where she goes #and FoR the FiRST TiME SInCe I Was A CHiLd I cOUlD See A MaN ThaT WasNt AngrY #lmao #mad at me for getting my dog dental surgery as if she wasn’t years past due with literal gum disease #saying stuff like you better not have given them a window to do whatever they want with her #and if you think putting that old dog through surgery and have it benefit her well then I have nothing to say #like my good sir you do realize as soon as this dog goes I might check out too ? #she’s my lifeline #I’m gonna need you to stop insinuating she’s gonna die

[deadlittledogs]

If ur ex friend reached out to rekindle your friendship would you?

She just texted me today when I was at work. I ended up crying for most my shift. She wants to be friends but she thinks I’m asking for too much. She doesn’t feel any regret towards how she’s made me feel and even expressed that she couldn’t take the situation seriously and therefore couldn’t respond to my hurt appropriately. She doesn’t think she’s done anything wrong (ever) and if she fails to meet any of my needs or doesn’t support me in the slightest it’s because she’s ‘just some guy’ and needs to focus on her own life. She wants to be friends but on HER terms and seems satisfied being the only one ‘getting something’ out of this relationship. It doesn’t really matter to her how happy or unhappy I feel, as long as I am technically ‘there’, ya know?

She continues to reject my own rejection and instead, after I continually attempt to sever the tie, tells me I’m basically acting irrationally and she loves me and we’ll talk later when I’m ‘ready’ for it. It makes me feel insane, sort of.

I just don’t understand…. what this is….. what is this? We’ve both taken on such odd personalities with each other. These conversations have warped us into something terrible, I always end up going on heinous, horrible rants, so overtaken by my own pain and grief I start lashing out wildly. She acts so cold, so uncaring, like my emotion is nothing more than a small stain at the edge of her sweater. She takes the time to spell out her laughter and mock me for what I have to say. She denies, denies, denies. I tell her I’ll spit in her fucking face for it.

I don’t know what to think anymore. The conversation made me feel so humiliated, worthless, needy. So disrespected and like I was nothing but an extra creepy bug beneath her shoe. I still want to believe she’d change and do better because I miss her in my life so dearly but I think there’s something seriously, seriously wrong with her mentally. People don’t just act like this. People don’t treat other people like this unless they have serious fucking issues. I refuse to engage with her until she can stop being a fucking BPD cow.

#like I’m genuinely was not asking much from her lmao #I just want to be an active part of her life that’s literally it #and anytime I’m like. you break promises. you don’t spend any time with me. you disappear for months and months. #she’s like ‘yeah we’re normal friends now ur expecting waaaaay too much okay. we aren’t dating lol’ #like wtf are you talking about 😭😭😭 #I swear to god I swear to god it’s because she had a falling out with her old best friend and they managed to reconnect #and now they reconnect a couple times a year to catch up #and that’s what’s she basing this off of lmao #and like with them that dynamic makes sense #but it wouldn’t make sense with me??? #AND SHE DOESNT GET THAT #she thinks I should just be cool sitting at home alone all day while she does whatever #and she only needs to see me once or twice a year #?????????? #i’m like naaah get fucked #I didn’t agree to this shit lol #if she wants it that way good for her cuz now she gets nothing! #swag!

[inkykeiji]

Clari baby…. sometimes I literally have no idea what ur talking about bcuz I don’t watch bungo stray dogs but I too am a slut the moment I hear a character used to be/is currently a high ranking member in a gang lmaoooo

HAHAHA ANON eeeee stop i love u hehe <333 no seriously tho!!!! i read that and i was like wHAT he was A WHAT????? and suddenly, i was in love and my legs were wide open n waiting <3

#it made him 100 times sexier #and i was like ooooh ur extreme sadism makes so much sense now LMAO #literally added him to my lil ‘who i’ll write for’ section purely because of this fact #i dunno honestly it just make him immensely more interesting to me too #like okay so he isn’t just a sadistic cop #he’s got a whole backstory and i am such a sucker for characters who make that switch from evil to good because they always retain some of #their moral greyness and old habits yk??? #anyway <3 he’s hot now #hope tuesday is treating you fabulously anon bb <3 #stay safe n drink water!!!! i’m gonna go make a salad now haha #inky.bb #clari gets mail

[ceramictooth]

i have a lot of issues with the fortune-teller, many of which are like, bigger overall issues i have with the structural setup of canon kataang? its fine i just… boy is it one of things about atla that makes me go “wow this sure is from the mid 2000s” upon rewatch. which once again i cope with by chanting its integral to the premise its a kids show it was 2005 like a mantra

but man… watching aang single-handedly stop a lava flow knowing that it will later be revealed that it was, in part, failing to single-handedly stop a lava flow that caused roku’s death…… man is that heavy

#mine #atla #night. 2? 3? of rewatching as my sleep disorder fucks me over #i have some thoughts about the blue spirit too but theyre not coherent enough for their own post yet #i probably need to pay more attention to it but i dont want to watch out of order so. next time maybe #anyway why are aang and katara both like ‘we r going to get married 😌 it is inevitable’ literally 14 eps in. why #they are children! i know teenagers in relationships r sometimes like that but they! aren’t even! i’m— #integral to the premise of the show im FINE #i really like kataang & i feel like theyre like percabeth where its like. yeah! the old married couple friends #i just hate how the actual show writes them lmao. i know its bc aang is literally 12 but also he’s a reincarnated divine spirit #idk i wish we’d gotten to see them together as adults ever in the continuity. i don’t want them to ruin it with a sequel show but i do yknow #this should probably be its own post at this point. oh well!

[tiredsadpeach]

May not feel great rn but tomorrow I get to see my best friend and we’re exchanging gifts and then afterward I’m going with my sister to pick up a cat

#I don’t talk about this best friend on here a lot lately but he’s great and I love him #platonically and romantically #I’ve had a crush on him for uhh 9 years teehee #he doesn’t know I still feel that way or at least I hope he doesn’t because I don’t wanna make him uncomfy #we dated back in 2013 but I was a pos then and cheated on him because I give in to peer pressure #I’m serious about that btw like the chick that convinced me to cheat when we were official I went over to a friends house and she thought I #would cheat on her because I was so easy to convince the first time lmao #anyway that was forever ago and I am very very different now and would kill past me tbh for that teehee #this is the best friend that stayed with me after I cut off everyone because they stayed friends with my abuser #he’s literally the fucking best and I love him so much and I hope we always stay friends despite my Crazy lol #but also CAT INFOOOO okay so me and my sister went to our local pet store and they partner with a specific shelter? idk I can’t give the #name out because the only pet store listed on their website is the one we go to and that’s too much info about where I live lmao #ANYWAY I was more just showing her the two 4 month old brothers I saw the other day because they’re cute and I was hoping I’d see they were #adopted which they weren’t but they’re chatty kittens they’ll be gone soon tbh probably snatched up for Christmas #but so I had just been there two days ago on the 16th and we went on the 18th and one new cat was there #a 1 1/2 year old black cat named Morticia!! she was so cute they had a hot pink collar and bell on her and her file said she gets along well #with dogs and other cats (perfect for us we live with our parents still so full house) and it said she loves to be held and talked to ☹️☹️☹️ #and her arrival date? the 16th so I just missed her but ALSO that’s one of our family dog’s birthday he turned 5 that day!! #also learned today Morticia had three kittens who have all been adopted and you’ll never guess their names #Wednesday pugsly and thing teehee #the fact that cat is just named Thing is so fucking funny #anyway my sister was petting her and she rolled into it ☹️ got head scratches and ear rubs and THEN I was filling out the application for he #while we waited for our parents to call us back and Morticia LAID HER HEAD IN MY SISTERS HAND ☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️ #so yeah my sister fell in love and the naming matches so well with her other cat who is about 2 years old now who’s a long haired tortoise #named Magnolia !! she’s a really chill cat who when it comes to other cats if the cat likes her she likes the cat but she’s also the younges #cat we have rn but my cats half adore her and half dgaf like my older two just want to be left alone by the animals and loved on by humans #but my younger two (8 and 5) still act like babies and run around like kittens so they love magnolia and she loves them so I have no doubt #Morticia is gonna fit in just fine and we don’t have to change her name!! #idk about y’all but we like always change our pets’ names when we adopt them and sometimes I’m glad we do because we have an anxious big #mutt doggie and we named him Chimmy which worked out well because he’s kinda silly and goofy and yknow neurodivergent but his og name?

[moonjade]

How the fuck do I act in an interview lmfao 🥴

#text #personal #i have to start applying to jobs soon 😭 #and my mom suggested a hostess job since our acquaintance works there but i would rather Die than work a public-facing job again #like you don’t understand. I DO NOT WANT TO WORK. i have never had a dream job except for being an author but i don’t have the energy #or creativity for that anymore #but yeah i have to find a ~real job~ since i’ve graduated college and i have ‘skills’ (not actually though) #but anyways if i even make it to an interview round after applying how the actual fuck do i act #I’ve never had a ‘real’ interview bc I’ve only ever worked in fast food #am i supposed to kiss their ass? am i supposed to be honest? how honest? how much do i lie? do i even lie? #how do i explain the 8 month ‘gap’ in my resume lmfao. bc I can’t just say that I was moving for eight fucking months #ugh I really want to die like I would rather die than have to work 40-50 hours per week every week #like that sounds like absolute torture and i never lasted more than 2 months at my old jobs bc it got too overwhelming and hard to handle #i think there might be genuinely something wrong/off with me but idk what LMAO #i don’t think I can get disqualified from working or whatever bc I can technically work but I’ll burn through all of my energy #and literally be extremely depressed and miserable and have no time to do anything other than sleep and eat #i don’t even remember what I wrote at this point and I don’t care #the main point is that I hate working more than anything. i hate burning through all of my energy and having none left #I’m tired as fuck just writing this shit out. how the fuck am i supposed to get a real job and work it every day for the rest of my life #like there is NOTHING I enjoy laboring for. i wish I got paid to stream video games or post videos for a living but I’m not funny enough #or creative enough for that to work. plus idk how to stream or edit. and I know I’d get cancelled lmfao since my social skills are so poor #and I’d say something wrong. not even anything remotely bad but just word something wrong or use the ‘wrong’ word #ugh anyways. idk if I should tell my doctor all of this or if she’d even care (probably not)

[causticsunshine]

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#thinking about finishing my 1d fics again and while with one super old wip i figured out how to write it sans heavy ot5 friendship dynamic #the two sequel fics for ‘swear i’ve known you since forever’ in ATSCO series…. oooh i fear i am Fucked #it’s not that i have beef with ot5 fic really it just feels weird for me personally to be writing it so #heavy handedly this many years on? and controversial take mayhaps but there are still plenty super involved ot5 fans out there putting out #mmm weird vibes? delusional even? not all of them ofc #but enough that i’ve seen especially on twitter and iii don’t want the association just bc i kept the dynamic in a fic i wrote lmao #(also i have some thoughts and opinions on things and people i did not have in the past too so! that doesn’t help) #i think for ATSCO i’m just gonna have to commit because i am Not rethinking a whole new plot for that series 4 years down the line #especially after i rewrote the whole plot like 5 times as well as the first fic in the series several more times as well….. #i’m not doing it again!! i’m not!! so if i DO finish either one of these fics specifically. please know if ot5 element stays in #moreso in ATSCO than the other one which has remained a secret 4 years on #know what i stand for and who i am… i know this matters to few but me but i’m putting it out there nonetheless #it’s still gonna be a hot minute before any fics get finished bc where my interests are rn and my focusing on art but! i stand by my word #and my fics are still intended to be completed! #(also sidenote i am. no longer replying to any update inquiries on here or ao3! i’ve already said why in the past that they #stress me out rather than encourage me so i’m gonna leave it at that! i honestly might even start to delete them from my inbox / comments #just because they get to me that bad like i literally avoid ao3 because of it so. yeah! pls don’t send me update inquiries <3) #alex talks

[hdmiports]

everyday i wake up

#hdmiports #vent post #the rejection sensitivity is really hitting lmao #i just loooveeee when my friend calls me and then acts like i’m taking up too much of her time but SHE called ME !!!! #idk it’s probably just a me thing lack of communication but it gets old #everytime i’ve been on facetime with her lately even if she’s the one who calls me i always end up sitting on mute while she talks to #someone else and then eventually she just. hangs up without saying anything lol #i love her and i love that she gets to spend time with her boyfriend and i love him too it’s just like. idk. #i have like literally 3 friends and she’s the only one who doesn’t work third shift and sleep during the day or live in an entirely diff #different time zone lol. #idk and i never want to be one of those bitter single people but everything she does involves her bf now #like i said i love him he’s amazing but like. when she calls me specifically to play tinder with me and then hangs up without saying #anything after leaving me on mute for 20 minutes it makes me sad

[lyriumsings]

debating if i wanna try to draw tonight and get back on track with my studies or just chill and watch a movie with my sister

#my parents stressed me out and i’ve been gone all day #so i’m not sure how good anything i make will be #but i also know i need to suck it the fuck up and get back on track tbh #lyriumsings txt #i got off track obvs cuz i went on vacation #a very well deserved one tbh and i had a great time with my best friend #but i’m starting to get antsy the longer i go without drawing #i’m giving my dragon age mid escapade a break tonight too #cuz that shit straight up makes me wanna be violent lmaoooo #idk yet #i’m also in the middle of an infamous playthrough so there’s that #hmmmmmmmm #maybe i’ll finish the playthrough and then draw until i’m tired and if drawing doesn’t #go well after an hour #then i’ll watch a movie with my sister #but before literally any of that i have to put my 1 yr old sister to bed lmao

[gasstationlady]

the start of something beautiful | a lando norris social media au

pairing: lando norris x private!reader (fc: tyla)

lando is spotted with an unknown woman, and everyone thinks she’s another fling. however, later revealed as naomi campbell’s daughter, lando's fans slowly start to love her despite her tendency to be private.

notes: btw, i’m so sorry i’ve been mia for a while! honestly, i have a ton of drafts i’ve written over the time i didn’t post, but i lowkey hate all of them lmao. anyways, hope you enjoy this fluff :)

disclaimer: swearing. photos not mine. OLD PIC OF JAZ AND ROSS (yes it’s a warning bc i’m still mourning that relationship, and ik i’m not the only one). there are a few mistakes in the tweets that i was too lazy to fix lol. also, i hope the flow doesn’t feel too rushed!

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yourbestie 👀

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yourbestie framing these pics brb 😍😍

f1gossip

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f1gossip We received these photos of Lando and a girl today! It looks like the same girl he has been spotted with for the past 3 months, but it’s still unclear who it is. ☕️

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user three months of them being pictured AND YET NONE CLEARLY CAPTURE HER FACE. that’s some bs

↳ user no deadass bc you guys had one job 🙄

user lmaoooo i know the delulu fans are crying that she’s still here

user Are we sure it's the same girl? Lmfao even if it is, he's probably going to get tired of her soon!

user god i hope people learn and treat her better than how they treated luisinha

landonorris

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landonorris First time trying wakeboarding 🤙

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user happy lando >>>

user Where’s your girlfriend

user not the red bull life vest lmfaoo

user lando rlly said here’s some shirtless pics to distract u

↳ user frrr but like it’s not working 😭

f1gossip

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f1gossip Naomi Campbell and daughter, Y/N Campbell, making an appearance at today’s GP! It's presumed that Y/N is dating Mclaren driver, Lando Norris. Our sources in the paddock mentions that the two visited the Mercedes, Ferrari, and Mclaren garages before the race. 👀

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user i'm literally in love w her she's soo beautiful 😍

user this actually makes sense that they knew each other since naomi has been connected to f1 for a while now

user I would be unstoppable if I looked like her.

user she looks so kind 🥺🥺

user oh the things i would do to reincarnate as a wealthy person’s child

user i was there and got to meet her and i’d just like to say that i’d go to war for her

landoupdates

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landoupdates Max, Lando, and Y/N (seen in second photo, far right) with fans at an after party! We received these pictures a few minutes ago, and the fan included “Y/N mostly stood behind as Max and Lando were asked for photos but she was so so kind !! Although you can tell she likes to keep to herself, she told me she thought my dress was cute and even got Lando’s attention for me so I could ask for a picture 😭 Also, he kept holding her hand !!!”

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user her face card is insane.

user now that we know she's naomi's daughter, i can't believe we didn't see it before LOL

user “he kept holding her hand” 😭😭😭😭😭

user I have never wanted someone to go off private so bad 😩

user honestly she’s my new fav wag

user it’s the way everyone loves her rn lmaoooo

user LANDO CAN YOU FIGHT

f1gossip

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f1gossip Lando, Ginge, and Ethan possibly alluding to Lando’s new relationship with Y/N in the recent Quadrant video 👀👀

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user not them clowning him 😭

user i mean we all know by now that they’re together but this was the cherry on top

user melting over how he couldn’t stop smiling 🥹

user the fact that he kept this clip in 😩😩

user I AM ONCE AGAIN ASKING “LANDO CAN YOU FIGHT”

user I get it 😭 I also wouldn’t be able to hide that I’m dating Y/N

user perfect example of private but not a secret, in love with them 🥹🥹

landoupdates

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landoupdates A few photos of Lando and Y/N at the paddock today ☺️

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user literally my fav couple

user when is he gonna make it officially on insta

↳ user My thoughts exactly!! 😭😭 I know not everything has to be posted, but I’m just excited to see him officially announce it.

user my girl y/n looked so fucking good today

user i just want him to post her solely because i want more y/n pics

↳ user LOL you’re so real for that

landonorris

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landonorris We so good ❤️

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user THE HAND PLACEMENT

user not tagging her is criminal 😭😭

↳ user girl what’s the point when she’s on private

user When will it be my turn 😩

user LANDO??? OMFG

user TURN IT UP IVE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS ONE 😁😁😁🔊🔊

user omggg i can’t, they’re goals

user Y/N IS SO CUTE

user i luv my parents

#f1 instagram au #f1 social media au #f1 x reader #f1 imagine #lando norris x reader #lando norris imagine #lando norris instagram au #f1 smau #f1 fic #f1 fanfic #lando norris au #formula 1 x reader

[ivysoul]

FIRESIDE. ✸ farmhand!rafe cameron au [1.1k]

summary. rafe cameron. everything you need and more.

꒰ WARNINGS ꒱ ༘⋆❥ afab!reader, farmer’s daughter au!, reader calls her dad “daddy” but it’s obvs not sexual (it’s country. it’s a country thing it’s normal.), porn with minimal plot, ooc rafe (he’s just sweeter in this lmao), mutual pining, friends with benefits, except reader has such an awful crush on him, unprotected p in v, public sex (no one sees), against a barn oops, dirty talk, fingering, praise, creampie.

reign speaks. i have a rlly bad obsession on the farmer’s daughter aesthetic rn so pls just bare with me while i literally milk the ever living hell out of it. a lot of farmer’s daughter/country au’s in the drafts rn. rafe, leon, ghost, you name it. just let me cook y’all i swear something good will come of it i promise LMAO. sorry about any spelling errors i wrote this in two hours😭

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rafe cameron had an incredible way of making you feel both wanted and wholly confused all at once. he could be at your feet, begging you to follow him around whilst he did his farm work for your father, to keep him company and fill his ears with your voice of honey. he’d look at you as if you yourself had put the very moon and stars in the sky, as if you’d put them there just for him. hell, he even carved a small heart out of wood and attached it to some ribbon and gently wrapped it around your wrist.

he’d do all this just to continue calling you his friend.

his friend that he occasionally fucks dumb every week. the friend whose brain he turns to mush with his sweet words as he thrusts his cock deep into your cunt. the friend that he spends more time pleasuring than himself.

this time was no different. just another time when you snuck out of your bedroom window and into the warm night, illuminated by the soft hues of the moons glow. the note he had slipped into your hand earlier in the day had been discarded in a box under your bed.

(where you kept all of the notes he’d given you. shamefully, you must admit).

now, you find yourself being pressed against the side of your father’s old barn, towered over by rafe, mouths colliding in mutual desperate need. you pawed at his clothe covered chest, taking the fabric in your fist. his hand held the back of your neck while the other gripped at the skin on your hip, having pushed itself up and under your floral cotton nightgown. his fingers toyed with the waistband of your panties but never dared to go further, not yet.

the feeling of rafe took over your senses. he rendered you unable to form any thoughts other than him. it was embarrassing—the effect he had on you.

he pulled away against his own wishes to catch some air. but the look in his eyes, the look, forbade you from breathing any air at all.

“i missed you today,” he confesses. his voice is like silk against skin. smooth and gentle. “where’d you go?”

you smiled at him. “ran some errands with daddy. needed t’ get a new rake since someone broke the other one.”

“i told you, it was an accident!”

the laugh that escapes him makes butterflies form in your belly.

“i know, ‘m just teasin’.” you run your hand through his hair. when he leans back in and kisses you deeply, gently nipping your bottom lip, you tug lightly at the roots of his hair. the groan he lets out sends shocks through you.

you felt anticipation build up higher and higher when rafe’s index and middle fingers grazed over your clothed cunt, feeling the wet patch and knowing how wet you were already. he applied slight pressure to your clit over your panties, making you whine desperately.

“rafe, please.”

he made a faux pouty expression, displaying fake confusion. “what? i’m just teasin’.”

he is not mocking you right now.

he let out a small laugh before dipping his hands into your panties and finally drawing small circles on your clit. you moaned a little too loud at the sudden feeling, making rafe clamp his free hand over your mouth.

he then pushes a finger, then two, into your sopping cunt, curling them slightly. your eyes practically roll to the back of your head. you were thankful he had your mouth covered, otherwise you would’ve woken up not only the animals on the farm, but also your parents inside the the house.

rafe wasn’t holding back, giving you exactly what you wanted and needed. “god, she’s so wet f’r me, baby. you been missin’ me? missed my words? my fingers? my cock?”

you nodded the best you could with his hand on your mouth. your abdomen constricting with every sharp jolt of pleasure he gave you. an all too familiar feeling was rising too fast for you to prepare for.

but just as quickly it came, it left when he retracted his hands entirely.

you wanted to plead, you would’ve if not for the mouth guard, but instead you attempted to grab at rafe’s hand once again. he just shook his head, shushing you softly and undoing his belt with one hand. christ, you could’ve cum right then.

“don’t worry, baby, i’m gonna take care of you.”

he pulls your panties down and they pool at your ankles. you only have time to step one foot out of them before he’s grabbing at your leg and pulling it against his waist, your panties hanging from your ankle.

rafe takes his hand off your mouth and instead wraps it around your neck and captures your lips with his. in one push, he filled you to the brim with his cock.

your jaw falls slack as moans upon moans escape you. there was nothing rafe could’ve done to muffle you now. with him hitting every spot inside of you that had you seeing stars, you were done for.

the wood of the barn walls scraped against your bare shoulders, rafe’s hand sneaking up and under your nightgown to grope at your tits, pinching your nipples.

“rafe, rafe—fuck!—”

“watch your mouth, princess,” rafe warns. the nickname making your mind swirl. “i know it feels good, y’pussy’s just squeezin’ me. like it wont let me move.”

“‘m sorry! ‘m sorry!” you could barely think. his cock stretched you so much, providing the perfect combination of stinging pleasure.

once again, you felt the knot in your stomach getting tighter and tighter the more rafe fucks his cock into you. you attempted to grasp at any part of him that you could get ahold of and the only word you could mumble out was his name, over and over, until you finally let go. your body spasmed, eyes screwing shut in pleasure. rafe fucked you through your orgasm before he came inside you, against his better judgment. his hips stuttered back and forth, grinding himself against you as much as he could until he had nothing left to give you.

he stilled as you two caught your breaths, until he eventually pulled out and fixed himself back up.

“lift your foot, baby.”

you lifted your foot as he said and he put it through your panties, lifting them up your legs and resting them back against your wet cunt. his cum pooled from you and into your panties, but you didn’t care. you’ll just wash them tomorrow.

#i know the ending is kinda weird #but i couldn’t figure out how to wrap it up #neither could they apparently #but hey #rafe cameron #rafe cameron smut #rafe cameron x reader #rafe cameron x fem!reader #outer banks #outer banks smut

[midnineties]

Why won’t you be able to study after all?

money. the loan i get won’t cover rent+general living expense and bc i haven’t worked for months on account of my almost suicide attempt (<3) i have nothing saved up! how fun!

#like i can save up the welfare money I’m getting since I’ve moved back home but I’ll have to save up for a while and like #idk i just know my mental health will deteriorate living at home and being stuck again #so idk!! i just wanna go far away at least once you know #i feel like my age is catching up w me which i know is stupid bc it’s never too late to study and all that but!! #the shame is still lingering #or maybe not shame but something along those lines #and I’m literally not old lmao #i wish i could’ve done this all when i was 18 19 but the universe didn’t want that for me apparently!!!