#I've had a rough week

[episims]

Random Foxfire Facts

That probably interests no one, but I miss my game a ton and felt like doing something related. I've probably mentioned some of these at some point, but oh well.

When I moved Becca, Ruby, and Cloud together at the very start, I was betting that Ruby and Cloud would hook up

As I was setting up the neighborhood, Mel and Ash kissed. Then Ash got together with Lydia and Mel found a toyboy from Cloud and the whole thing didn't make much sense anymore

I have addressed most pre-playing kisses in some way, tho! That's how Mel and Will ended up being exes (let's just say Mel was very efficient with uh, getting to know everyone)

Will and Jamie are the only pair I guessed correctly before playing

Vera has by far the most three-bolt matches. And she's straight! You'd expect some bisexual to hold that record, but no. Troy has had some competition for sure

When I created Julian I thought he's someone who imagines being above interacting with people who aren't as intelligent as him. After playing him for five minutes I realized that actually, this guy has no freaking clue how to interact with anyone at all

I already knew when I created Jonas that he must have a twin but I had zero plans to add Judi to the hood as I was very determined to keep gen 1 free of pre-set familiar relationships. I just eventually hit the wall with writing Jonas without showing Judi (and I'm happy that I did)

I didn't think Deanna and Tess would last, but they've steadily gained more bolts over time and are now one of my rare few three-bolter couples

I would've stopped Chase from kissing Hanna, but their round was just about to end and I went to the second floor to shoo Jonas away from the computer so that Chase could go to sleep. My heart stopped when I suddenly heard that first kiss tune playing

Breaking up Ally and Judi is the most I've intervened in anyone's relationships. As soon as I realized Judi was going to keep the baby no matter what, I didn't see any other outcome

Jonas and Cloud really were talking about aliens at the same time when Julian got abducted

Luke has had enough skill points to get a promotion for something like five rounds at this point. I haven't stopped him from getting them, either. Dunno who did he piss off to get his career to freeze this badly (it's Luke we're talking about, so probably everyone)

Cedric and Shay had a hard time getting along for a while, which caught me by surprise since they're both generally nice

When Dari first got a crush on Felix, the game crashed right after. So I was like, right, that won't likely happen again. Well, after I loaded, Dari got both crush and love at the same time

Okay, that's enough for tonight!

#text #text post #foxfire forest #foxfire forest extra #i've had a rough week #really needed this little bit of comfort

[mario8th]

Jojo Does It Better

I'm not sure if this is a honest comparison to make. Stands were introduced in Jojo's part 3, Nen a fair bit into HxH. Not sure when either released compared to the other, and I'm not going to look into it (mainly for HxH spoiler reasons)(Also I'm incredibly lazy)

But also, like. These three episodes I just watched (30-32), had me wishing for pacing similar to how a Jojo part 4-6 did it.

Which Again! Unfair comparison! I remember part 3 dragging quite a bit, but the formula was ironed out by 4 and only improved from there! And I am more than willing to let HxH make the same adjustments as the series goes on!

But also, that doesn't mean I have to especially enjoy seeing something, then having a character explain the concept of a doppelganger for a little bit too long. Or a detailed play by play of the match After the match happened.

That's one thing Jojo's does really well. It loves explaining itself! But it does it quick, and usually does it while the fight is ongoing.

Despite this, much to enjoy in these episodes. Again, can't get enough of the music. The guitar piece that played during Gon's fight was wonderful, and the chanting vocal piece that played as Gon and Killua started meditating is truly haunting. I could almost see myself singing it back when I was in choir. (i bet it'd sound good in that dumb chapel up in sedona)

And when the cut to Anime Joker right in the middle of Gon's fight? Reminding us that he's still there and is very impressed. Great! Love to see him there!

Hisoka's fight was also well done, but again, wish the explaining could've been streamlined a bit more.

Lastly, and most importantly, or perhaps least importantly, there's a woman who appears briefly in the intro that I am going to be completely obsessed about. She's probably killed people but I forgive her in advance.

Anyway, I'm excited to continue on in a couple weeks. I'm enjoying the threads they're pulling with the spider murder club or whatever it was called. Excited to see how far Kurapika gets with his training, and eventually see what Leorio is getting up to. I think he's still my least favorite of the crew, but I find myself missing him.

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#I've had a rough week #And an especially stressful past couple of days #I wasn't planning on watching these today but realized I'm so burned out and needed a break #And it was good for that #I'm also gonna finally start watching Dungeon Meshi #Which I expect I will enjoy much more than hxh #But I've read it already so like #Hunter x Hunter #Media Club Plus

[wildelydawn]

Hi Dawn! I've just finished reading BSC90 latest chapter and I've missed Kim so much!! (like I don't re-read it every now and then because I'm obsessed with Big and Kim bantering all the time). I just wanted to drop by and tell you how much I appreciate your works. Know that they mean a lot to me. Your Kim, in whatever universe you put him, feels always so real. I hold him very close to my heart. I hope life is treating you well, they way you deserve it 💙 Blue.

🥺🥺🥺

To see this in my inbox is such a treat. I smiled so big, you are so kind and lovely. Thank you for such a sweet message, Blue, and thank you for supporting my works. I always read your tags and feedback and it really does keep me going. I appreciate this so so much, I will carry it and you in my pocket. I hope I get to write more versions of Kim that you like. 🖤

#alwaysandforeverlost #ask #answered #I've had a rough week #and tbh I'm struggling with Chapters 9 and 10 #But this really gives me so much of a confidence boost #thank you very very very much #oh no I have trees in my eyes help #bsc90

[nell0-0]

Didn't have much time but I wanted to draw so badly, so have my fav silly guy just being happy for once

#linked universe #lu mask #oot link #mm link #young link #time travel shenanigans #tloz #tloz fanart #my art #I thought of him waving at Warriors and the captain being like “???” #rotating happy Mask brainrot on my mind like it's in a microwave #I really should draw him like this more #I like it #it looks so rough but I've had a rough week #rambling in the tags

[wigglesdtuff]

boyfriend shirt

#one piece #nico robin #soul king brook #hanahone #daily wtt robin 2 #day 23 #can you tell i'm tired #i've had a rough week and i didn't even get to nap today

[gh-0-stcup]

Riley failed because the writers didn't understand the archetype they were trying to convey and their audience.

Riley's the all-American boy next door. His character model was so pervasive in other media because it's wholesome, simple, and nostalgic. Calling back to a nebulous time when people were nice, helpful, and virtuous. (Actually a rose tinted view of a nonexistent past - it calls back to the viewers childhood when everything felt that way.)

The most important thing with this character model is the feelings it evokes in the audience. The character must come across to the audience as

A moral paragon

Safe

The problem is that this type of character also has deep associations with heteronormativity, sexism, and racism. They have been used numerous times in media to help uphold and propogate these ideas.

But BTVS' very premise stands in direct opposition to the American values this character model tends to embody. It's more likely that this archetype will evoke the exact opposite feelings it's supposed to in fans of BTVS. They're more likely to have been victimized in their lives by the messaging imbeded into it.

It could have worked extremely well had the writers considered what would evoke the same feelings with their own audience.

Take one of Riley's early scenes - punching Parker for his comments about freshman girls and toilet seats. It's mentioned after that Riley does not take issue with his friends talking about women in "worse" ways. He reacted the way he did because he's got a crush on Buffy.

Imo, this is the moment the character failed. If you want to sell a character like Riley as a love interest to audience like BTVS', you must ensure the line between chivalry and chauvinism is never crossed. Once it is, that character's virtuousness will forever come across as a facade. A way to have control and possession over women under the guise of protecting their honour.

A minor adjustment to this one scene would help reframe Riley's motivations. He doesn't take kindly to men speaking that way about women, but it is odd for him to react violently.

In this version, he's someone who respects women in general but has more rash reaction than normal because his crush on Buffy is shaking him up. It also suggests he's not a man who's typically quick to violence.

Another important scene is when Riley finds Buffy outside at night and insists on walking her home. She puts up a fight, commenting on the sexism of assuming boys can take care of themselves but girls need to be walked home. Riley's response is that yes, this is absolutely what he believes.

Now, Riley is a trained soldier who knows there's very serious danger lurking around at night and does not know that Buffy is anything other than a tiny civilian. It's understandable that he would insist upon protecting her. The issue is entirely with how the dialogue is framed.

A better answer to Buffy's question would be "You shouldn't have to." Set him up as a man who understands many women can protect themselves, but believes his role is ensuring they never have to.

It shifts these gender roles from "woman weak, man strong" to Riley's sense of honour. Focuses on how he derives meaning from protecting civilians and those he cares about. Helps shed light on the mentality that led him to becoming a soldier and suggests that being a soldier is tied to his sense of identity and personal values.

It also more firmly shifts being a soldier from a day job to a duty for Riley. It gives him a connection with Buffy, who also believes it is her responsibility to use her strength to protect people.

Just two very simple shifts in dialogue and Riley's a much better character. Amazing how they got it so wrong without even understanding what mistakes they made.

#i had a very long and better organized rough copy in my drafts #but part of it got nuked by my phone deciding to update tumblr WHILE I WAS WRITING #and now i'm tipsy and i've been sitting on these thoughts for days so i want other ppl to see it #coherency be damned #i'll probably add to/adjust this tomorrow or sometime this week #riley finn #btvs #btvs s4

[jossun-kyyneleet]

WTF I drew Krisko 🤯

#kris guštin #joker out #joker out fanart #damon baker #pencil drawing #my art #i can't believe i've done this #i mean i'm not a kris girlie #and i had to thought for some reason that he would be hard to draw #but no this was probably the most effortless drawing i've made in past few months 🤯 #actually this one ended up being my comfort drawing #i had quite a rough week with nasty pms and lots of crying #and i did cry while drawing this too #but those were just happy tears 🥹 #so thank you kris and damon ❤️

[dostoyevsky-official]

utkin, the actual head and founder of wagner and noted neo-nazi, may have died as well

#🦀🦀🦀🦀🦀🦀 #i've had a rough few weeks—this is such good news

[theoryofwhatnow]

crafting the game

(this has been in my drafts for ages)

#i've been thinking about the boys game a lot. #the event at the end of the movie that most of us first recognized as the cycle #(or at least most of whom i've interacted with after first finishing the film) #I'm gonna be honest this all started because i was making an edit #but that's neither here nor there. #Essentially i was confused about *the game* #and was wondering whether nigel won or lost before i realized i was looking at it all wrong #duh #Nigel was talking about the creation of the game that he would contribute to #not how it's played #which only became glaringly obvious to me after i'd sat there with my thoughts for almost a half hour #(give me a break i'm not stupid i've just had a rough few weeks) #Everybody played their part perfectly the schools order begins to fall apart #(alex headmaster's son leaves. nigel grandmaster's son dead alongside his parents. etc.) #the valiant hero forsakes the religious organization (McKenzie) #and everyone else takes their place unknowingly simply through existing. #Alex finds another boy and so it begins. #Finally out of death grief suffering and ruined sanity; the game starts but we don't ever see it. #start with a Jack and then fabricate the game #like minds #nigel colbie #alex forbes #murderous intent

[sidetongue]

Harold was on cloud nine today

#i cant remember if i'm mentioned in my tags yet lol #but i had a tonsillectomy a week ago #and it has been ROUGH #and my poor dogs have literally been neglected #and left to entertain themselves #i've been shovelling bones and kongs and chicken feet at them #trying to offer them SOME sort of enrichment #anyway on day 5 i finally mustered up the strength to take them to the beach #which was an awful idea??? because how the fuck do i recall them?? with a burning throat? #but anyway they were all crazy #but also all angels #they were very good and despite there being many people on the beach #they kept to themselves and didnt attempt to run off to greet anyone #which is really really hard for sprig #so i was very proud of them #also i think it's because i took cubed cheese as rewards HA #harold #dogs #sprig

[lupinmoonlight]

Lifeline

Masterlist AO3

Summary - You feel broken and like you're about to lose control again. You escape to the forest. Remus Lupin stops you from doing something stupid and builds you back up.

Warnings - mentions of self-harm and mental health issues, angst, scars.

Note - I wanted to write about the self-hatred that sometimes comes with anger issues and neurodivergence, the feeling of isolation and pure chaotic rage that can plague your mind. Sometimes it makes you hurt people you love. In a way, I think Lupin's lycanthropy is a good analogy to that. This is partly why he is my comfort character. This may be badly written but it was kinda blurted out in one shot.

You thought that the heavy silence of the forest would make it stop, but it didn't. Instead, the eerie stillness is crushing you, isolating you, pulling you down further that path you are so terrified of.

It's too loud. It's too loud and you can't escape it. You don't even know what is louder. The world around you or your own mind screaming at you. You want the control, you need the control, but it is escaping you, slipping through your fingers. Fading away.

You dig your nails into your arm, relishing the familiar feeling. For a moment, your mind quiets down. You don't even think you deserve that peace, but the silence the pain provides you with is too good and you hate yourself for it. You hate yourself, and you want it to hurt.

You debate with yourself, walking a fine line between self-control and giving in to your self-hatred. It's too loud again, you need more. You need it to hurt. You grab the nearest sharp object you can find- a tree branch. It's pathetic, you think to yourself, but it will be good enough to give you that fix you've been craving.

You brace yourself, disgusted with the tears flowing from your eyes, disgusted with your weakness. You raise your arm, your hand holding the branch firmly, readying yourself for that sting. Your breathing becomes heavier. You need this, you want this. But suddenly, you feel a warm hand grabbing your wrist gently.

"Please don't hurt yourself," a voice says softly. "Let me help you."

You know that voice and a wave of shame washes over you. You can't even bring yourself to look up and meet his gaze. You're just angry that someone had the audacity to stop you from doing what you needed to do. Someone who you love and trust. Yet, right now, you were angry at him. You wanted to hurt him too. You try to pull your wrist away, but his grip is too strong.

"I hate you, I hate you, I hate you," you continue to scream, hoping that the words are painful enough for him to let go of you and leave. But he doesn't. You put up a fight, you struggle, you lash out, anything to push him away. But he stays there, holding you steady.

"Stop," he says firmly. "I won't let you hurt yourself."

Eventually, you become tired and your resistance is giving away. You don't want to be weak but you can't hold it together anymore. You collapse into his arms and let go. You cry. You scream. You lose control. But it's okay because his hands never leave you, he keeps you grounded, and he won't let that part of you take over. He is in control.

"It's okay, you're okay," he says, holding you close. His voice is like an echo in your head. The good part of you can hear it, but you are a prisoner of your own mind. You can't break free.

"I've got you," he continues, trying to calm you down. You focus on his arms holding you tightly, on the warmth of his body, on his voice that is so familiar and soothing, on his body like a lifeline.

Your head hurts, your throat hurts, your vision is blurry from the tears, but you are not alone. You feel his arms leaving you for a bit, only to be replaced with the warm weight of a cloak on your shoulders. The scent of him, a mixture of sandalwood, old books, and freshly brewed tea, envelops you completely. The arms are back around you and you relax into his embrace, your face buried in the warm fabric of his cloak.

Before you know it, the eerie stillness of the forest is replaced by the warmth of a dimly lit room with walls plastered with bookshelves filled to the brim. It smells of old parchments and chocolate. It smells of him.

You are sat on a soft couch, his arms never leaving you, his hand rubbing your back gently. He pulls out your arms from under the cloak hanging on your shoulders, exposing your scars. You hate them, you are disgusted with yourself. You gather the courage to look up at him, your eyes searching his face for any signs of judgement or disapproval, but all you see is kindness and understanding.

He gently traces them with his fingers. "Scars are part of life," he says softly. "But they don't define who you are."

For some reason in that moment, you believe him. His voice is too kind, too gentle, too comforting to lie. He continues to talk to you, softly and calmly, and you let yourself relax a bit, his presence making you feel safe. Safe from your own self. You lean into him, immersing yourself in his scent, in his warmth. And it feels like home.

#remus lupin #remus lupin x reader #professor remus lupin #i need him to tell me it's ok #i've had a rough week lol

[coyotehusk]

Missing the viscera? Well not enough whump art includes strangling someone with intestines so consider that a dare

Err, challenge accepted??

Also, y'all so thirsty for guts.

├┬┴┬|•⊖•) ├┬┴┬| art tag: @burntcoffeewhump @demondamage @jayghore @lonesome--hunter @mottinthemainpot @softmutt444 @sunshiline-writes @suspicious-whumping-egg @whump-captain

#ask box #coyote husk draws #gore #guts #strangulation #blood #I hope y'all are chill with rough sketches #I've had mush brain for week #my worms are barely thriving #felt good to draw again thou #also... #this really could have taken many directions #but uh this is what you get

[im-literally-just-sitting-here]

Hermit-a-day-may, day 28– Pearlescentmoon

Don't know if someone has done this before but i decided to try my hand at the ghibli art style, i love the idea of Pearl as San!

#i don't know who the rest of the cast would be. i guess divorce quartet? #that makes a lot of sense actually #scott is ashitaka cleo is a lady Eboshi and Martyn is Jigo #i'm quite happy with how this one turned out considering replicating art styles is one of my weakest suits! i had fun drawing it ^^ #though i have a lot of assignments to get to– the reason why i've missed quite a few days this week– so i won't shade it #or clean up the rough edges around the colouring #anyways PEARL DAY LET'S GO!!! #pearlescentmoon #hermitaday #actually thinking on it although i think lady eboshi fits cleo's personality better the role might suit scott more hmm

[scrunchables]

light me up

Nicholas D. Wolfwood x gender neutral!Reader

Mentions of reader smoking

SFW content

You and Nicholas share a silent night, exchanging only glances and a cigarette kiss.

With half-lidded eyes, you watched every inhale and exhale he took, watching as the smoke curled up into the air, into your nose and your clothes, before it was carried off by the cold desert wind.

Beneath the curtain of smoke and red-tinted shades, you could see his eyes trained on you in turn, watching your fingers curl around your jacket and thumbing the well-worn zipper.

How many nights was it now that you were both sat out during night watch, sitting next to each other and sharing nothing except unbroken stares and the occasional drink?

So many times you had contemplated saying something. Anything. A joke to crack the silence, a tease to humour something, reminiscing about the day's events-

-and every time you would open your mouth, the words would die in your throat, and you would simply look away to avoid the weight of his gaze on you.

You idiot, you would always curse yourself, what the hell's your problem?

Nicholas wasn't a difficult man to talk with but with every word he'd say, every time his gaze would pass yours, you felt something twist in your gut and you'd clam up in his presence.

You wondered if he noticed the hold he had on you with something as mundane as a single look.

You figured he would. You'd learned that Nicholas was more perceptive than his chain-smoking and foul mouth let on, senses honed to an uncanny degree for reasons that you would never know. Not that you'd ever get the chance.

The wind blew again, but this time it changed direction, and before you knew it, cigarette smoke landed squarely in your face. You coughed wretchedly, taken by surprise, waving away the lingering smoke and cursing the stink of tobacco.

From your side came an amused chuckle, and you scowled at Nicholas as you batted at his arm and settled into your jacket. "Just so you know, I'm blaming you for that one," you grumbled as the smoke cleared.

His half-cocked smile stretched even wider. "Hey, 's not that bad once you get used to it."

Your eyes lingered on the way his eyebrows raised with his smile and the moons illuminated his shapely nose and the cords of muscle in his neck, thinking that you wouldn't mind it if it was for him. So instead you shook your head, looked away into the yawning desert sands, and waved him off. "Mm, I'll pass."

A few moments passed before you felt something shoved into your fingers and you jerked, looking back to find a fresh cigarette in your outstretched fingers. You looked up to see Nicholas leaning in, still with that half-cocked smile.

Your gaze flickered down to the little stick of white and brown as your heart jumped into your mouth, uncomprehending of what had just happened. But before you could allow yourself to spiral into your thoughts, you simply lifted it to your lips and looked up to meet his gaze.

"So, uh, you gonna hand me your lighter...?" you quietly whispered.

Nicholas let out a soft heh and leaned in closer. Calloused fingers gently tipped up your chin and he leaned in even more, ever so slowly that it felt like the world had stopped still.

The tip of his cigarette met yours, pressing together until a second soft ember lit up both your faces.

There, in the light of two lit cigarettes, you saw that he had taken his glasses off, saw the rough patches of stubble that lined his chin, saw the way his smoke-grey eyes locked onto yours, and saw just how very close he was to you.

Seconds stretched into eternity as you both leaned into each other, cigarettes pressing as tender as kisses, and eternity ended in a second as your lungs violently rejected the tobacco and you jerked away in a fit of violent coughing.

Your cheeks burned ember-hot in embarrassment at the ruined moment, but the way you heard him laugh in a gentler tone made everything seem okay all of a sudden, and so you leaned into his side as you silently shared smoke well into the night.

#trigun x reader #nicholas d. wolfwood x reader #trigun stampede #i've had a rough week i can have some self insert as a treat #no i dont know how smoking works <3

[figurativepieceoftrash]

I would love to read the fic about mental stuff you mentioned btw 👉👈

Jffjhfgj like I said I'm not sure I did the best job with the conceptual side of things regarding that fic bc,,, iirc you already have read it? A lot of Sympathy for the Devil was obviously me exploring cycles of abuse, self-hatred expressed via hatred of your own perceived flaws reflected in your parents, and the ethical implications of how we socially view inherited mental illness/genetic predisposition but I was also pretty heavy-handed in questioning afo's lack of redemption and the circumstances that surround it.

Plenty of readers seemed to take a pretty black and white approach to the conflict presented à la blindly sympathizing with Yagi and condemning afo, but I did intend for him to be somewhat sympathetic in the way he obviously craves comprehension and understanding that society blatantly refuses to grant him.

He gets a lot of indirect characterization in that fic through Izuku's thoughts and actions and I think readers tended to assume that the feelings Izuku grappled with throughout were limited to him when I intended them to be simultaneously indicative of afo's adolescent anxieties regarding alienation and his own status as "monstrous."

Afo DEFINITELY isn't in the right in the context of the story, but if you recall my tags on one of your posts a good bit ago, I interpret afo's desire for consumption and control partially as a fear response, and I genuinely think his goal to achieve widespread influence and power is a manifestation of his desire to be understood and accepted as he is.

He calls his followers his family members (think back to him referring to Aoyama as his nephew), regularly attempts to relate to them (his convos with Dabi and Tomura come to mind), constantly asserts that he understands them because he has an evident desire to, and goes out of his way to justify his actions and the power dynamics he perpetuates by recreating them in miniature (he projects onto Tomura to an ridiculous degree).

Readers were intended to question what exactly it was that made afo irredeemable, and Yagi's answer wasn't supposed to be definitive. He and Izuku's disgust with afo originates from a place of extreme bias and the fic intends to acknowledge that. There WASN'T necessarily anything that completely justified afo's murder, which is partially why Izuku runs away as part of the fic's conclusion.

If he really is like afo, then he won't receive sympathy, and exactly why is left to the audience to parse (though I did intend for it to be a metaphor for the stigmatization of mental illness, yeah hdfhfj). So while I'm not entirely certain that I did the best job conveying it, all this was supposed to be explored in sympathy. I may need to make a clearer rewrite in the future :P

#ask tag #trash talking #my writing #not sure I even explained it all well here I'm tired as hell and have a migrane but yk #I've had a rough week cut me some slack #😭😭😭

[zombeesknees]

As of 10/18/23:

Now that we've officially marched on the boss and openly declared, I can publicly drop this news that's been several weeks in the making:

The Bloomington, IL, Barnes & Noble is unionizing with the RWDSU.

#adventures at barnes and chernobyl #this is a large reason why i've been so exhausted the past couple of months #working with the RWDSU reps and organizing all my coworkers on top of still doing the grueling work at barnes #(and job hunting/applying on the side) #also i had to put down my cat nick last week and the pain keeps sneaking up on me intermittently #things have just been Real Rough for Angie Bee of late y'all #but there's definitely some lights at the end of the tunnel now and i'm feeling overall better about life #so that's good #state of the angie b.