#IT GOT SUPER WEIRD IN THE MIDDLE

[cuntwrap--supreme]

I've been doing a lot of grocery delivery in the country lately, so I ordered myself a nice bumper sticker so I fit in with everyone else's stuff :)

I've seen a lot of these lately, but they were all of a pride flag I don't recognize. Not sure which gender/sexuality has the red and white stripes with the blue with white stars in the corner, but I guess it's an ok design. The rainbow is the traditional LGBT flag, though, so I feel it symbolizes the collective queer community a little better and will be a little more noticeable/recognizable than niche flags, like this stars and stripes guy.

#queer #pride #rainbow #flag #gay #lgbt #fr tho I've seen so many q-anon and trump stickers that i feel like this'll either be really funny or I'll get my windows smashed in #for some reason the country here isn't just chill people eeking out a living doing what they can #it's all super well off people who immigrated from elsewhere in the us and are incredibly aggressive #I'm from the middle of nowhere. country folk are typically very kind even if they're a little ignorant to shit like being gay or trans. #but this is the kind of people where i got called a dyke twice just walking through kroger #i had the person behind me at mcdonalds yelling about my sticker that says i don't break for kids #anyone i know who has lived in that area for a long time hates all these new people #they've driven up housing prices to be just as much as in the city. they're all republicans who fled California or Illinois... #...and they brought with them their more radical views and hateful big-city attitudes #like yeah. this wasn't a place to be comfortably out as gay beforehand. now it's actively hostile instead of you get weird stares kinda shit

[theuwuafterhours]

My new nails~

Here, for those that keep asking to see~

#nails.byuwu #nails~<3 #mine #me #glued the dangly part of the thumb charm bc it’s so distracting n noisy bc it hits against my nail when I move #also tried to do some 3D design on my middle finger but my topcoat was super thick so it flattened and made my 3D look weird :/ #idk if you can see but my middle finger also got a catseye glitter~ #I love the charms but they keep getting caught on stuff ;w;

[catastrxblues]

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#okay i actually want to rant a bit 😭 - not advised to read this because then you might get brain damage #because oh my god??????? weird #(was going to write an entire diary but nvm here’s the gist of it) #basically i was coming home from this chem thing right #i used the train as i always do when it comes to this. and because the new station just got a shiny renovation it is now connected to the #new mall in front of it (we have two now it’s an addition to the first one). and guess what 😭 #i had to go in and get to the first mall because my dad said he’d just pick me up at the lobby instead of the bus stop in front of #the station entrance right. #and when i was on the elevator going up on a call with my mom about food orders 😭 #the guy i used to have a very very VERY heavy crush on in middle grade got to the elevator leading down just as i was on the landing 😭😭 #and i had to make sure i wasn’t hallucinating so as he was descending and his back turned to me i examined the back of his head and i’m #pretty sure it was him. curiosity killed the cat i should’ve remembered that shit because you know what my stupid ass did?? #i was already walking away on my way to cross to the first mall but then that curiosity got the better off me and i steppedonto the elevato #leading down 😭 and followed him out into (apparently) the fucking bus stop #oh my goddd I JUST REALIZED this is my the one moment help #except i don’t think he recognized me because i was never even friends with him lmao. wrote tons of poetry about him ✅ #actually had one proper conversation with him ❌ #i was delusional and kept alone with my thoughts living in my head do not judge me #but seriously even though i don’t really care about him anymore this would’ve been (unfortunately) SUPER important to middle grade me #she would’ve taken it as a sign or something and write like five pages about it #and i just keep thinking about that #funny how things change because IF YOU KNEW how many credits and exaggerated compliments i gave him in my old journal #oh you would’ve laugheddd #like i used to SPEND SO MUCH TIME pondering over him it’s so 😭 #i used to have an oc and i think i based it on my idea of him and then i think that idea of him was even the reason i started to TRY to #write poetically. and i used to relate every taylor swift love songs to him (esp the ones in debut lover and rep and fearless) IT WAS SO #FUNNY LOOKING BACK AT IT NOW #i think he did see me though. i put on this act as if i was searching for someone confused and then (my go to) pretended someone called me #and then i whisked off as if to find that someone #i’d like to think i look pretty cool though. not because of anything (def not my looks because i was SO TIRED from that extra chem lessons

[playthe-piper]

the urge to write a highschool based chatfic for Gotham

#Harvey Bullock is a super senior #Dent is the debate team captian #Jim Gordon would be a track star #Ed is the weird freshman #Oswald is the middle schooler no one is sure how he got there #gotham fanfiction #gotham tv #Gotham

[soup-child]

I'm thinking about Doug the intern I think he's really neat and I love him

#maybe ill get super into doug the intern #ive been applying to a bunch of jobs because i just graduated college and i think it would be more enjoyable if i think of it as doug rp #i am in the middle of my s2 relisten but im tempted to just go back and listen to all the episodes with doug #i just like him so much i like that he has such a deadpan voice i like that he killed that guy probably i like that he jumped into a fire #immediately after being reincarnated because he got a coffee order wrong hes just a weird guy and i love him #hes perfect to me #name a better guy you cant #dndads #doug the intern #doug De’Interné

[bunnihearted]

🌌🗯️

#ughhhh i had a very very unpleasant nightmare and now i just feel awful :< #it was like all dreams super weird and made no sense. like i was in this GIANT obnormous building and was in the elevator #and suddenly i was in a large room where u like went to be accpted to get a job there??? #someone told me to change my outfit so this room could get accepted bc it was too revealing #then a man - the big shot - came in and the leader of the room introduced us one by lne #but when it came to me he asked the two of us to introduce ourselves #but when it got to me he said 'now it's eden's turn' & i was like haha im eden but u already know that ;3 #he just forcefully moved the convo along and asked me (and no one else) 3 questions #the last one was like 'if u werent here (at work) where would u be?' i hesitated for a moment and he said that if i hesitate too long #it doesnt look good. 'i'll give u one last chance. if u werent at work you would still be here in this place. with your family. #'we will be your family now. that's your answer. do you want to be part of this family?' #it all had an eerie tone to it but i just said 'yes i do. i really want to be part of the family' #and whoosh i was accepted and 'hired' to the very mysterious omnious building (the building was like miles long and big. like an entire city #anyway... this was just odd but then the thing that fucked me up for today #i dreamt of my two old 'friends' first there were just many moments where we talked and did things etc #but then came a part where // tw for SA // i was raped and then.... #they both chose to leave me and abandon me after #like they in the middle of the night made sure to bring me home. they werent completely heartless haha.... #and i in the nightmare felt safe. like i thought i could count on them #then the next day they were gone and they had also unfollowed and blocked me on all the apps #hmmm... yeah so both of those two things were just so horrible to dream about #and now i just feel like.. yeah. checks out. that's very similar to reality skskks :')) #i feel so lonely and like.. unworthy of care or love or support. ugh not a nice dream to start the day

[leonardburton]

the cool thing about getting news about people you got along with in school but didn't keep in touch with is that you'll be shown pictures of them on instagram or smth and they've grown into such beautiful adults like. i haven't really talked in you in ten years and you were such an uncomfortable and sad kid but you have a really nice smile and a cool sense of style and im glad you're studying something you love. nice autism awareness posts btw i knew we had something in common when we were 4 and you bit my arm so hard i had your teeth marks for days. could have been me. sorry my mum threw a fit

#i've kept in touch with 2 (two) people i was friends with in middle and high school #cos we were a trio and barely had any other friends #but one of them has kept in touch with Lots of people who also kept in touch with other people #so this summer i saw people i was friends with in middle school then barely ever talked to in high school and didn't keep in contact with #it was so nice to see them again! #plus one of them brought her bunny to the picnic and it really liked me so. fuck yeah #anyway we all started talking about people we went to school with #and they went from instagram account to instagram account to find people in follower lists #so i saw pictures of lots of people i straight up forgot about #including that guy who bit me when we were 4 #he was visibly and undeniably disabled so everyone was super cruel to him #i was Weird™ but not in an understandable way so people were also mean but like . more low key #anyway he and i talked and hung out a few times in primary but we lost touch completely afterwards #waved hello every other month when we crossed paths in hs #but i didn't have any way to keep in touch after that #he's quite the handsome young man now #good for him #he got his bachelor's degree this year #got a gf and everything #im glad #im still not gonna talk to him because i cant exactly go hii remember the girl you talked to briefly every other month several years ago? #well he's a guy now hi i am autistic also turns out how have you been doinng #i don't do conversations like that #anyway #lots of other people have grown up also #horsegirl who had a crush on my friend when we were 13 is still a horse girl. nurse in training. soo fucking hot like 😳

[crvstybowlofcereal]

this is a really specific vent(?) post. im processing things by putting them in words. its not serious, feel free to ignore me lol

i just want to say that a couple years ago when i was in the beginning stages of researching autism (and would soon realize i am most likely autistic) i was in a relationship. and communication in a relationship is So Very important to me. I would constantly ask how he was (obviously it was more specific to whatever situation was going on) and he would always say he was fine. If I had even the Slightest hint that he wasn't actually Fine (like 19 times out of 20) i would continue asking if he was sure and if he wanted to talk, and he continued to say he was fine. half the time i assumed he meant it and i read the situation wrong, the other half of the time i assumed he didn't want to talk about it.

he ended up breaking up with me because i

"didn't pick up on some things"

"what kind of things?" i asked

"idk, just, things."

and he had been talking to my friend (U) about our relationship, and telling her that i wasn't picking up on things. she got mad at me and we had a "fight" for a short time, she thought i was being a bad partner, and her sister (M) (who is toxic and possessive) felt like i wasn't spending enough time with her, so she complained about it to their mom, who got mad at U for it for some reason? so U also brought all that up, telling me M felt left out. (i wasn't leaving M out of anything, i was sitting with my partner at lunch half of the time, she was welcome to join, but didnt, looking back i think M has RSD and maybe i should have been more direct when moving to a new location to explicitly invite her) (U was also not in school at the time due to covid, so its not like i was spending more time with her over M, which is something M would get so upset about if she perceived it to be that way [she was incredibly possessive of me as a friend and the extent of it made me feel like an object tbh])

U never brought up the issues my partner talked about, because that's how we are, we don't make it known someone was venting to us, to respect their privacy, but it fueled her emotions during our "argument" so i really only heard her being mad at me for not including M, (which i later learned is because M's emotions were made to be her problem when they shouldn't have, this has been a running problem so it wasnt that surprising to learn) so i started spending more time with M, but it was school, and i had work, so schedules only allowed so much time, and any time I was with M (lunch and one class) was when i was also with my partner, but i had other classes with him so i assumed it was fine, but he started drifting away (also around a time i attempted to communicate something important about our relationship, which ended up making him uncomfortable, but he didn't say anything about it until we had a conversation after breaking up)

i was stuck in a place where i felt like no one around me communicated how they felt and still expected me to understand them and do what they wanted me to do

U and i recently reflected on this and realized my ex was a shitty communicator (he and his next partner also broke up because he didn't say how he felt and expected them [also most likely autistic] to... just kinda know ig?) and that she should have gotten my side of the story (she had no idea i was frequently checking on him and trying to get him to talk to me)

and that she wasnt actually upset at me about M, she was upset that people were making it her problem, and she was especially upset during this reflection to learn that M was not being left out at all, she was just doing That Thing again where she wanted me to be Her friend and Only Her friend.

U AND I ARE NOT MAD AT EACH OTHER FOR ANY OF THIS, I WAS NEVER MAD AT U AND U WAS ONLY MAD ABOUT HER PERCEPTION OF THE SITUATION, AND ONLY FOR A SHORT AMOUNT OF TIME, EVERYTHING IS FINE

so basically i went like a year and a half thinking that people were rightfully mad at me and i was too self absorbed to pay attention to other peoples' emotions and i started learning how to read people again (clearly my body language research from middle school wasn't cutting it anymore) only for me to realize i just need people to be a little more direct that allistic people typically are, and those specific people were just being dogshit at communicating, (even for allistic people, relative to my needs)

anyways highschool post-covid was Really Fucking Weird and socially stressful for me

TL;DR reflecting on my communication needs not only not being met, but being far undershot for even a "normal" persons needs and how i was convinced I was the problem because of circumstances

#U and i are best friends and have been for 7 years now #U and M are twins #M and i barely talk anymore now that she has Other Friends (grateful tbh) #i know i previously brought up having an ex bf with messy hair and eyeshadow. this ex was Not Him #(my identity as a lesbian was shakey in highschool- i was figuring things out) #(i had several “girlfriends” in middle school (all lasting less than a week after the first because religious guilt)) #(but in highschool i had two separate boyfriends and zero girlfriends) #oh god my first ex is such a fucking story but thats for another time #also the ex in this post was like. REALLY fucking obsessed with spiderman #it was great frfr #but it made anything spiderman related super weird for me for a like a year after the breakup #he broke up with me On our 7 month anniversary like right after school got out for summer #the next school year was awkward bc he was in one of my year long classes and we had a LOT of mutual friends #he also started dating his next partner like a week or two after breaking up with me #i was also pushing down ALL my emotions at this time so when i finally Let Myself Feel Things a couple months later i played Good 4 U a LOT #17 was a fucking weird year for me frfr #honestly ALL of my teenage years have been rough and i have never actually let myself acknowledge that before This Moment #and that feels really weird to say because im technically still a teenager #this post ended up way fucking longer than i thought it was gonna be #(also going back to the middle school “relationships” ive sorta-almost-dated a good handful of people #but i only consider 3 people to actually be “exes”)

[faultsofyouth]

I hate that women are made to feel guilty and afraid of being gold diggers for accepting gifts and free dates from men because there is something super sweet about a broke ass middle class motherfucker paying for Your broke ass' lunch 😤

#my bf and i have been trading a 20 back and forth for the past 2 months because we get paid at different times which means #one of us is always broke the week after the other one just got paid. and we both love SNACKIES #literally no way to make me happier than be feeding me its like having a boyfriend = free emergency snack fund #this didnt happen with my last bf ever even tho he made more money than me! he used to ask ME for money when i was unemployed #bc he wanted to buy vapes........... literally wanted to use my Saving accounts for vapes...... i feel like i ''traded up'' a little hahaha #my posts #ok ok i know gold digger and 'broke ass middle class mf' dont belong in the same post together #BUT i know im not the only lady who feels really weird about getting gifts outside of holidays #or not being able to pay for our own food when people take us out but actually #it feels Super nice to be an adult who can eat whenever i want to even when i dont have any money.... thats wicked sexy to me 🤯 #and in general its nice to know that money is simultaneously important to your partner and Not As Important as You are #like yea man im the motherfucking queen. bring me money and cheese 💅

[stargazeraldroth]

oof, lot of room for self doubt on Ink’s part, with the initial unrequited crush… especially if Error’s initially a bit of a jerk. poor guy probably writes it off as hopeless because Error would never love him, right? (little does he know-)

I don’t know when Error would or should gain his crush, but I feel like it’s be really fucking funny if he had like. an idle realization while Ink is doing something silly/goofy/clumsy/what have you. just like “who gave this dumbass the right to be so damn cute” before realizing what he thought and bluescreening.

as for ages! not sure about horseland canon, but I’ve been imaging people in this au as being in the range of 16 to 20! kinda a mixed age group vibe, in my opinion.

Yes, I don't have the slightest clue how old any of the characters in the show are, but I know they aren't adults. I know that for a fact. And since everyone's saying that it's irresponsible to leave kids their age unattended, I guess the characters are on the younger side??? Like, maybe they're pre-teens? Regardless, I have been picturing the characters in this AU (with the exception of the animals ofc) to be in a range from teenagers to adults. All I know for a fact is that Zephyr and Top are older adults, Ink and Error are the youngest of their brothers (btw even though Geno and Error are related, I've changed it so that Fresh is not included in CQ Bros, and I do have a reason for this), Cross... is maybe an older teen? Like, a teen about to enter adulthood?

Part of me wants to make Errorink in this AU be a slowburn (I suck at slowburns), but at the same time, I don't want it to drag on forever. That's one of my biggest problems, pacing a story. I think it could be funny if Error and Ink are crushing on each other but not making a move for so long that everyone else, who are already painfully aware of how in love they are, is like "Just kiss already!" Fortunately for Error and Ink, these two idiots who don't know how to handle emotions, they have a mutual assistant: Missy!

OH- I have an IDEA. Picture Ink giving the dogs treats and having them do tricks to get them. That's when Error has that "This dumbass, who said he could be so cute"

#horse ranch au #i have an agenda #an errorink agenda #i know that ink and error being the youngest in their families doesn't necessarily mean they're the same age #but that's how i'm gonna have it anyway #just as a precaution to avoid any weird age dynamics y'know #unlike a certain thing i grew up #phoenix drop high. you know what you've done #aaron was a super senior (got held back) and was crushing on a girl fresh outta middle school #fresh outta being homeschooled too #gene's guilty of that shit too #jess why did you make the guys in that series so fucking creepy

[daisywords]

I don't know what this is, but it's somehow correct:

That night he dreamed he was tied to a table in a derelict banquet hall, lying flat on his back amid scattered plates and rusting goblets. At the head of the table, elbows framing his head, sat Lya.

He watched her upside down through wary eyes. Askew on her head sat a heavy copper crown. She smiled at him and brushed the hair from his forehead with lingering fingers.

He smiled back at her. She picked up a golden spoon and traced its tip gently along his cheekbone, over the arch of his eyebrow. Then, still smiling, she placed it against his lower eyelid and dragged it down, wedging the blunt metal between the skin and his eyeball.

He struggled and begged and she spoke gentle, teasing words, slowly and methodically extracting his eyeball. She got it all in one piece, in the end, perfect and shining in the bowl of her spoon.

He could only watch with his remaining eye, paralyzed, as she lifted the spoon to her lips.

#my writing #second chance wip #tw: uhhhhhh #tw: body horror #sorry idk exactly what to tag this as #ok like first of all I wrote this on my phone in the middle of my long car trip typing super fast like a person possessed #second of all like. idk what this means but also I do? #like something something being in love with someone and afraid of them at the same time #because the fear is about the vulnerability #also we're canceling the boundary between prose and poetry this is a poem to me #kind of the vibe I'm trying to explore with larger plotlines but this is the first time I've gotten something satisfyingly visceral enough #maybe it was the new crywolf album that got to me lol #sorry I really didn't think this wip was going to be this weird

[oh-gh0st]

#ghosts rambles #rambling before i go back to do stuff #i have thought of an atsutodo scene in my brain for the fanon s4 with shinrei........... #it wont leave my brain so ill dump it here rq #shinrei asks todo if he knows anyone who could help with her financing and business department since the prev manager of it got fired #and he's like “well i do know someone *in the middle of texting atsushi ab it* i doubt he'll answer back tho” and he immediately does #and he replies “yeah i can help. what's a good day to meet up for this” and todo's like “this cant be happening........” #so they set up a date blah blaaahh day comes and they start working stuff out at the same cafe the choro incident took place at #and todo is like. internally monologuing this whole thing (he's sitting next to atsushi while shinrei is across from them if that helps) #and when todo asks shinrei if they wanna take a break to get refills she says sure and goes with him and shes like...... #“ok drop the act i Know u like this guy” and it's all a mess from there #hes like “no i dont. wdym. ur crazy haha! ^-^” but he's quickly folding and its so obvious. like yeah okay #and he cant stop thinking about that possibility for the rest of the cafe date and he's like “well fuck maybe i do... but that's weird!!... #that's all i have. maybe atsushi asks him something super gay but idk. i have to go do things now baaaiiii

[nomaishuttle]

comparison (new on left old on right)

#As you can see i was mainly working ln fixing the distortion on the poles i did get a bittt carried away and add like a ton of oand but its #ok. also i did the math and its sitting at abt 40:60 land water ratio #rly its 41:59 but 40 60 is far easier #ive also still got to add rivers.. i have a few lakes as you can see but i haven't gone through and added rivers yet #ill probably have to do mountains first then rivers.... #ive also been thinking abt making a sideblog solely for worldbuilding posts but im shy LOL so itd probably judt be 4 me #i wouldnt be opposed to sharing it with anybody whos interested i just dont think anybody rly is... #im also working more on the language its kiiiind of rly frustrating me.. #i also have gaught to add a new island in the middle of the ocean bc ive been thinking while at work. but idk if i Actually want to use #those thoughts 4 this or keep them seperate.. whatevrr #but yeah. as mentioned the edits arent perfect yrt theyre kind of difficult to do 😭😭 map to globe doesnt allow you to draw directly On #the globe and the umm. sketch thing they have is kind of rlly annoying #like you can colorpick Once. but after that you have to reload the page to colorpick again #+ the likee. drawing you do on it is super artifacted and weird... + theres no way to just get the finished image idt. i may be wrong #but yes. anyways if i do make the sodeblog i wanna name it after the world but the issue is the world doesnt have a name 💀 #and to make the name i need to work on the primary conlang some more 😭😭😭 but its frustrating me i think its bc i started with the #written form which like. every guide im looking at says you shouldnt do that 💀 #so i might just scrap it and start from the ground up

[cosmicveiined]

Sooooo if I were to change Lena’s middle name, this is what it would be

Selena Mariana Stark

Thoughts?

#.ﾟ☆ﾟ. things just got super weird / it’s my time to shine! ‹ ooc. › #i've never changed her middle name in the years that i've been writing her #but i kinda want a change

[neon-danger]

last night I had a dream my ex boyfriend followed me on Wattpad under his full legal name and uh yeah I’m never going to fully recover from the secondhand embarrassment

#like my old Wattpad was Once under my legal name #because I was writing Orginal Stories in middle school #and I Never Published Them #Because They Were Bad #and then I developed crippling self esteem issues #and put a name to my already crippling gender dysphoria #and wrote a pretty popular textfic somehow #and a crackfic for some reason #and now we here #but like #even my old account only matches like #my roblox account I think? #but I think it’s closer to my clip penguin rewritten account #so #do with that what you will #but like yeah it was super weird #I was scrolling through popular fics on Wattpad #and then started reading a few oneshots #and I got a notif that was like #**** ******* followed neondanger #and I was like #what in the Netflix romcom #and then blocked him #also I was at school and our drama teacher was a sociopathic puppeteer #and my bike got stolen #and we had to go into the woods to retrieve a lost puppet or the drama teacher would kill us #Don’t Do Drugs Kids #real talk tho the hardest drug I’ve ever done is Paxil (40 mg) as prescribed by my doctor #mixed with alcohol #because eh fuck it

[werehamburglar]

tbh. it's probably not great that the few moments i remember from this week are (1) putting my head down some time around slime time, (2) biting my arm on monday, and (3) choking on meat on last night

#what the hell did i even do today #i know i did my green v denver presentation yesterday/last night and i panic-bought spinach dip for the pretzels #but none of the moments and none of the actual class except SP's weird video and JB showing up #wednesday is totally lost #ik i verified one of josh's prints and i THINK one of chase's on tuesday? unclear. probably did though #monday? sunday? most of saturday? gone #like i can REMEMBER friday. my lab partner and i got distracted by ammunition and my GSA VP grabbed me an eyebleed shirt #helped break down the women's center's table and got super insecure because ik they don't like me. like... i remember. #the thursday night before that i did lab with the opposite group and broke my shoes in the middle of it #wednesday was the exhibit. it went well and then i had a breakdown (headache then as well) #tuesday was queer prom and i was the WORST announcer #monday was normal! i told dr. i that i wouldn't be in class wednesday but i would be there for friday's exam! #to be clear: i know what i did last night because i have proof (30/30 pres grade + spinach dip + pretzel sticks)