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silveredsound · 21 days

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How you go from harry styles to hockey I will never understand.

I was going to make a little joke, as I do, (would have been v hilarious, best joke ever pls know this) and leave it at that. But like, it's been raining for over 24 hours, it's 2am and it might be good for me to reflect a little.. So sorry anon I am going emote all over your ask (which (the ask) sounds a bit judgey tbh but the written word is NOT a great conveyor of tone so that might be on me.)

On one hand it's just fandom. And, I think it's been pretty clear that as much as I love Henry Stars, I'm not like, a 'Harry is the be all and end all of all music creation and creativity and actions.' I like him for the good and the bad, and I don't leave critical thinking at the door. (Not saying I'm the only person to do this, just that it's hard sometimes in fan spaces and Stans definitely do..)

Which, can make it hard to participate in fandom as a lot of people are not great at irony, or accepting that someone else can say, god damn that is a terrible song - and that it's okay for that to happen. It doesn't mean that the person who expressed the neg opinion is not still a fan of the artist they were speaking about. Same with if the artist you are a fan of does something that gives you the ick.

I def learnt this when Harry went to Google Camp the first time. Like obviously I've been around 1d fandom in some way since 2012 ish I think it was - and it was my own reaction to Harry going to Camp Douchebags the first time that made me go, oh jeez Silv, you are a bit too involved in the parasocial relationship here. Like I was genuinely upset that he'd done something I thought was so dumb and wanky.

Anyway, clearly I still loved - love - him and I celebrated him and spent a fuckload of money on him and engaged in fandom and etc etc. But I just did at that point I think turn a little from heading in a very blinkers on version of fandom to one that's def more me - where you just get to have fun, make fun be creative, make friends! and have a bit of a perv depending on the silk cream vanilla ice cream outfit Harry might be wearing in Nashville.

I like RPF. I mean I like all transformative works and fandom extending and enhancing source material via creation, but I don't have an issue with RPF. I believe in 4th wall. And I clearly have written 1d fic. A lot of my good fandom mates, and real life best friend(s) are people I have met through sharing a love of writing in fandom spaces. Obviously all the best writers in 1d went to Hockey. And I stayed here. And I tried. I wanted to be where my friends where. I had fomo and I was lonely! My fandom had changed in a few ways all around the same time.

But Hockey is very confusing, (for starters as I often say to Angela or Joanna, snow is fake) and nothing clicked for me - it seemed large and I had no idea where to even start and I didn't really try.

But I think the change in some fandom fellow participants, and also anons being mean when they would get even a glimpse in their peripheral that I might have vaguely indicated that Henry did something that I thought was dumb or embarrassing, or just not that good, (it's no fun sharing a thought and feeling chatty about it, and wanting to engage with other people's thoughts if some random is going to anonymously tell you that you are a dumb c*nt and should delete etc etc so I stopped sharing any thoughts at all.) Of course Nick leaving breakfast and then R1 altogether - as well as obviously my whole life narrowing to a point that was just tend Mama- work - tend mama - work - tend mama - sleep - grow a tumour - tend mama left me not so much time for proper joyful engagement.

And then, in Jan/Feb this year, I think as I'd been looking at book reviews and as soon as you search for a book on tik tok they push book tok romance reviews into your feed and I think then that pushed an actual hockey clip (which is a really shite 4th wall issue as is the whole Kraken thing etc) and I can't even remember what it was but I know I then swiped through and watched other videos on the account and like 1d being adorable shites repeating stock answers and sitting on top of each other I was intrigued by what seemed to be very dumb and very entertaining.

But Silv, you cry, what about the emotions! You need emotions! Ah, yes, see, because I am nothing but devoted I had followed Angela and La's hockey blogs, and something La posted grabbed my attention and I followed a link and read an article and I was like. Oh, I want to read more about these kids. So I did. And after a little while I reached out to La and was like, um, I think I get it. And I posted something about the Fantilli Bros and then Max reached out and tbh I don't think anything says it better than my wide eyed enthusiasm reply. (You are probably by now thinking, Silv why is your answer to Max so short, why didn't I just get a paragraph? This is an endless essay with no conclusion or indeed a thesis statement, (that is if you have even made it down to here) & anon I can only apologise.)

I am really enjoying learning so many new things, being welcomed into a new space of connection and joy and silliness and emotional breakdowns. It's been so lovely to meet new people who are so excited to share their niche interest with you and no one minds how many questions I have and everyone searches out Primera and Important Past Instagram Posts from the archives - and of course reconnecting with people who I have always been friends with, fandom changes didn't change that, but it's delightful chatting much more often. The other day Angela and I watched an Avs game together via Tumblr chats, which was delightful, to learn about the team and to talk about random other things, and I've spent my last month of Saturdays watching umich with lovely people who La introduced me to, and having MANY EMOTIONS. (It's like hanging out all posting about a show's fits and one liners and if he's going to sing medicine but it's many pantomime gooseberrys. The performative homoeroticisim, wild hair, jokes, punching (only now during not pre show work outs ) and very goddamn impressive skill and physicality is actually pretty similar). Meghan and I have been able to chat through our very similar horrible experiences with cancer and mums with cancer and it's been so lovely and strengthening to be able to share that experience with a person who beyond gets it, and then also I've been able to announce to her that I want to write a fic about 5 ways Nolan saw god with the UMich Bible Study Group but didn't find faith. which is obviously a completely ridiculous concept but equally worthy of discussion. It's this that I love so much about fandom friendship - you share SO much because you are sharing something that gives you intimate joy, so the relationship always starts from a place of an automatic mutual understanding and empathy - and from there we make it our own.

But also, I really like the game. Like I love watching them play, all of them! It's fast (obviously - and oblig have to say - ice is slippery) and it's hard - and they make it look easy. When one of the special players (they are all special, but one of the ones who play almost with innate ability) makes a pass or a turn sometimes it's almost almost magic, like how the fuck did they see that gap between four players, and did you see how they kept the puck a moment longer so they could release it perfectly into the lane !! Hot.

The game can be all encompassing and it's SO SO SO silly. Like it's the dumbest sport. It's The Show. I'll put on ESPN and stream a match while I'm working during the day (the time difference is perfect for once) and I'm spending time cos I want to, learning the rules and the logistics and business side of it all. And of course, the differences between college hockey and the show. Idk. It just clicked on so many levels for me.

And so, I have no idea why it took me so long to transition from Henry to Hockey, but I am not surprised I did now that I have - it def wasn't something that I was bloody expecting. And Anon I will say this, the last few years of my life have been sad, hard, and tbh shitty. Now, I know what it's like to have fucked years, so I am not saying this to try to be and show off but 2024 feels a bit better. I feel clearer, I have started to lose some weight (15ish kg so far depending on the time of the month) and now I have a meeting w a PT on Tuesday as I actually don't care what I weigh but I want to get stronger and reduce my visceral fat as it will be better for hormones which is better for lessening my cancer reoccurrence %.

God knows it's (2024) not all roses, I literally had surgery again a fortnight ago and the cost of living in Sydney is giving me so much anxiety. I am still a terribly disorganised mess, my work is undergoing a complete restructure (thanks NSW gmnt) and my clean washing is NEVER folded and put away, it's always in the basket - but I feel so happy and entertained and creative - I am writing again! like it's joy. It's ye olde you are who you are at this moment but you are also the 4 year old you and the 15, 27, 34 year old you - girlhood (non gendered concept of not literal interpretation) and I love it. 💛🩵🌱

#sorry anon this is very much non con silv thinks about fandom and emotions and processes on main #there's a boy who has harry energy although more spoiled and sarcastic and this is delightful as i do actually think #which also i got a rude anon about once #that harry is not as nice as eveyone thinks #i think hes professional as fuck definitely #but i think hes a sarky little perfectionist and this delights me #but chemistry with everyone - thats the harry curse and blessing and the **** ****** one #sorry anon i know this was annoying #but i genuinely just really needed to get this out of me and acknowledge it all #fandom and fandom participation is something that is so important to us all #otherwise why would we have a little blog #let alone create posts of fic or gifs or edits #and god last year i said multiple times to shifty that i wished i had a fandom that i could wallow in as a happy place distraction #its very nice to feel engaged and delighted by something #i hope we can still be mates #i am a popstars and radio dj lover for life #i didn't even touch on teams i like and players and such cos not the point #tw: cancer #tw: death #tw: weight loss #sorry! i should have added those tw before!

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sculkshrieking · 3 months

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dude your hoffstrahmdon is changing my life! have you ever thought about including adam in the mix for the au? ship thing or not i'm just curious about if he gets to live :-)

teehee i'm glad you like them :D!! I had to think about this for a little bit. Adam generally stays dead in my head because i love the guilt and haunting and also because i don't think John with his barbed wire grip on all three apprentices would ever allow his freedom. HOWEVER we love to self indulge in this house and throwing Adam into the mix sounds so chaotic.

Maybe Hoffman plays a part in getting Adam out which is what makes Lawrence feel indebted enough to come and warn him not to go after Jill (which just makes me think of Lawrence and Adam in the makeshift jigsaw hospital room getting tended to by Hoffman while John and Amanda are off getting bloodboarded).

Lawrence and Adam are insanely codependent because I wouldn't have their post-bathroom relationship any other way. They will bite, kick and scream like frightened dogs if you try to separate them.

With Hoffman, Adam probably has some mixed feelings in a "You're horrible and I can't stand you, but you saved me" type way. Mostly the first part, really. Meanwhile, I think Hoffman just finds him annoying and grating as hell, he wants that twink obliterated and all that.

The Strahm and Adam roasting matches are insane. It's a constant PvP zone in there and absolutely no one is safe. There are parallels between them that they're both doing their best to ignore. Also they can smoke out on the balcony together as a treat <33

I don't know what kind of situation would force them all to have to spend a bunch of time together but i personally would love to see the resulting carnage. I also would love for them to kiss, i just have a hard time imagining all of them liking each other </3. Hate sex is absolutely still on the table however <33. Adam how come your mom lets you have THREE big hot middle aged men around you etc etc.

In conclusion:

#sorry this got long #this is the first time i'm drawing adam can u believe it. couldn't tone down his emo swag #the thing about lawrence and adam is they're insane about each other Because of that bathroom. they would not be otherwise #strahm and hoffman didn't have that experience with him so adam is just some rude little brat to them probably. a wet rat #i feel like that pepe silvia meme #saw #hoffstrahmdon #hoffstrahmdonadam?? good lord #anon #askbox

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tardis--dreams · 3 months

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You know what? I give up on this paper once and for all. I'm not even ashamed anymore

#okay I'm a little ashamed #it's another 5 points i have to catch up with next semester #but it's making me want to kill myself and i don't even know if the professor would still accept it #(the original deadline was in October. i got an official extension until November. i guess it'd be just rude #to ask if it was still okay to send it #especially since i haven't done any substantial work on it #it's just bad. i hate the topic. i hate the way the professor views the subject 'language and emotion'#so that i cannot write what i want but would have to tailor it towards her views because otherwise I'd fail #and also i cannot write in german. i simply can not do it. )#it's better to move on and focus on my last paper for last semester (official deadline is end of March #so I'm not behind for once)#and i should do the assignments for a module i should have finished 1 year ago #so i don't have to do that next semester #and i should start studying korean again so i don't make a complete fool of myself next semester #I have my first day of work in 2 weeks so I'll also have to focus on working (for money) from there on #I've been paralyzed by the thought of having to write this paper for way too long #the professor is not my boss anymore (i still have to work off some hours though) and even if she was #I'm so done being ashamed of myself for not being able to do certain things #i wanna give it my best from now on but not for this paper. it's done.#void screams

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archduke-enver-gortash · 4 months

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posting on here is like my sisyphean boulder i'm constantly rolling tbh

#god i am trying so hard to just have fun and be myself #but when i do that i'm immediately a strange outsider creep #and since i can't really mask my version of masking is just not talking and then obviously you don’t find any joy in fandom spaces either #i will always be a shitty unlikable freak no matter how much i pretend otherwise. it was obvious from the start that getting involved in #fandom spaces was a fucking mistake. it's always a mistake because you're some laughing stock at best and a horrifying freak at worst #i don't blame people for not liking me i've realised what an awful person i am long ago #but it's always so hard witnessing something like fun social groups from the sidelines knowing you'll never be a part of it #this is why my mental state has been deteriorating so severely in the last few months. that Realisation once again nothing fucking changed #i know it's stupid to get so upset over fandom but it's only a pattern for me #i stopped trying to be friends with people when i was a teenager because it hasn't worked a single time #this attempt at integrating myself into the wotr and bg3 fandom by sharing my shit was just one mistake #gortash/zeke is so different from anybody else’s work and i wish i could find joy in something that it isn’t fucking deranged but i can’t #like yes it’s just fandom bullshit! gortash/zeke is a fucking oc x canon ship! why am i getting so upset over it!#i love writing them. i’ve never been this happy writing anything. and it’s entirely indicative of a common pattern in my life #when i earnestly share parts of myself/things i’m passionate about people get creeped out. and honestly? rightfully so #i would leave the discord servers i’m in because it’s fucking crushing me dude. this is so petty but i’m so jealous of what you people have #but in one i am server owner and i don’t want to just dump that responsibility onto someone else and then dip #and in the other two i’m not sure anyone would even notice that i’m gone but i still worry about being rude #though i’m not entirely sure i didn’t get invited to one of those just so people could laugh at me. idk probably just being paranoid but i #it’s been gnawing at me #ok no if i’m being this vulnerable on tunglr.com i can also say that part of me staying is also still having the hope that i could fit in #one day. logically i know it won’t happen but it’s nice to have hope sometimes #watching you all from through the window having fun like a creep #so yeah. i’ve always felt like this but it’s been rapidly getting worse with my failed attempt at the bg3 fandom #idk just been crying non-stop for the last few hours. went through an entire pack of tissues in an hour it’s very disgusting #they’re all lying around me as i’m typing this like a pillowfort of snot lmao #so yeah. idk. if someone could come over and lobotomise me that’d be nice. orin where are you when we need you most #i never had any friends irl so i foolishly gave this a shot. i’m sorry #also doesn’t help that i can see someone dropping me for people that are easier to be around in irl rn #it just hurts because it’s always like that. someone you are around when you have no other option at best. not even that sometimes

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milkweedman · 7 months

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2 weird interactions with strangers in the same afternoon that my hip dislocated while I was out so I had to walk around incredibly slowly so as not to collapse. Which presumably is not a coincidence ?

#they werent being rude or mean which is what i usually get in response to being disabled #but im also not usually shuffling along at 4 inches per step and 1 step every 2 seconds or so #they were actually being pretty helpful just in a very weird way that i dont know what to make of #would annoy the fuck out of me if i got that often tho :/#but it was a cashier putting the two small things i was holding in a bag for me despite my forgetting to ask #and an old woman on a walk with her dog stopping to give me space as i crossed the street #which was nice bc otherwise her dog would have gotten way too close but also was bizarre #the weird part is just the way they were talking me #like very carefully and slowly and kept asking if i was ok #idk man #disability

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und3rwat3r-a5tr0naut · 2 months

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So how does someone play their cards right with Fellby? 👉👈

It’s actually really simple! If you pay on time and tip well, have good manners but match his snark, and maintain eye contact with him he’ll be won over just like that 🤌

#where he’s from I imagine lots of ppl would be rowdy and quite rude so he’s got that gruff attitude and expectation #that everyone’s gonna be a rude patron till proven otherwise

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jahiera · 8 months

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—I have read them! I appreciated the methodical text evidence approach the analyses you’re referencing took to the EA versions of the characters. I believe all the astarion analysis is in earlier versions of the game but I came across them and appreciated the insistence on not ignoring or softening down the more difficult aspects of EA Astarion’s personality even if I didn’t always agree or took a slightly different interpretation of him (at the time. they were right about things I was not in full release! so). If you want to actually get into this though feel free to DM me, I’d be curious about your thoughts but I’m not going to deep dive into other people’s approaches to a character on main, certainly not by name.

#Just in general too. I’m a complainer in my heart about inanities but overall I’m not going to get into Big Beef here ever #I got an anon wayyy back when asking me to Comment On Some Stuff when 200 other people made thinkpieces on it #I like to whine but I’m trying reaaaaaally reaaaaaaaaally hard not to be a ‘fandom drama’ thinkpiece person. that will literally destroy my #enthusiasm for the game in a heartbeat #sometimes I see that sort of thing from ‘big’ DA blogs whose followers treat their word like it’s god and I Would Rather Die #Anyways. Sorry. That’s not directed at you obviously that’s just in general … NOT for me #just want to like. STATE FOR THE RECORD there and all that #Not that that’s what you were trying to do either with this—just elaborating the name blocking and such too. It feels rude otherwise.#but anyways as I was saying feel free to talk it out I’d be curious what you think!!

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lewdo · 2 years

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#i obviously need to post lando gifs too otherwise it would be rude #ok but why does bottom left feel like he’s staring into my soul #im so in love with him #my baby #lando in black is good lando in oversized black is even better #also can i just say shoutout to me for subbing to hilton and finding this video whilst bored out my brain trying to find something to watch #lando norris #ln #mclaren #f1 #formula 1 #my edits

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holyluvr · 11 months

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I’m not going to preface everything I type on my personal blog with, “In my personal and humble opinion” or “Not to be confused with how you view the world, but”. This is my blog that I’ve always used as an electric diary for myself, my life, my interests, etc. I don’t care if you disagree with me on something and want to bring it up or open a convo about it with me. That’s fine, but I’m just some guy. I’m not in any position of authority or responsibility. I respect the passion some of y’all have, but can you please keep in mind that I’m just some dude rather than using an attitude or bad-taste language that feels more appropriately applied to a cult leader, dictator, god, or anyone who has the ability to implement laws and influence the masses? ♡ Much appreciated.

#…#do u think my schizo stimulant ptsd posting is like…relevant & important? bc it’s not. rlly it’s not. no one cares.#<- & that’s normal. expected. bc I’m not an influencer/star/politician. I am just some guy.#I have Mac n cheese btw so oooh man I need to shower fast before it’s TOO cold (the fridge will have hardened it to one ☝🏻 block being real)#see? this is my diary blog. so I can put whatever I want anywhere on here without it affecting u & if it does negatively impact u? Unfollow #I’m not using a tone here other than broken up thoughts of the Mac n cheese and otherwise I’m being real with u #like 👍🏻 it’s ok to disagree or find aspects of me annoying bc why wouldn’t it be but what do u gain by being rude? I’m a STRANGER.#been getting anons recently that act like I’m controlling the world with my language or telling them how they MUST think(or else what?)#don’t mind plenty of what they’re actually saying and could reply but why would a stranger respond to crude language/tones?#if u aren’t sure how to go about this. a tip: would you say that in those words to a stranger irl in a public space around others?

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sun-marie · 2 months

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Out of the original four champions, Revali is the best character specifically because he doesn't think highly of Link and isn't convinced by a shiny relic saying he's special

#and I'm tired of pretending otherwise lmao #off the heels of the last reblog bc it crops up in multiple games and multiple fandoms #people act like a character disliking the main character is somehow an offending the player #when it's literally just. conflict. which is a good thing in a story #“Oh I can't stand Revali bc he hates Link and he's rude and arrogant” you mean bc he has agency and character flaws??#baffling take imo that I feel like I saw EVERYWHERE when the game first came out #to be clear I also love the other three champions and link and zelda #(the shiny relic isn't WRONG about Link)#but if Revali wasn't the way he is BotW would not be as engaging imo #marie speaks

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rutadales · 1 year

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giggling over the notes on my skeppy cage post saying "oh it shows how dark and twisted cdream is that he dehumanized skeppy to such a horrific degree" girl it was never that serious u sound so silly

#root talks #dreblr #it was NEVER serious be so so fr rn #me: lore is funny #ctommy loreheads: Actually never is the dsmp a comedy everything is serious and gritty all the time and the fact you would imply otherwise-#I could make that post today and everyone would listen but when I made it back then suddenly I don't understand the lore #wait girl why am i getting tilted rn at 5 am over a post that was over a year ago #It was my like #Second post in the fandom and suddenly a bunch of people were being very rude to me all at once bc i made a joke #lord forbid

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idiot-cheesehead-archenemy · 1 year

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HC that "Ghost Investigation Ward" is also a backronym in-universe

It went like this:

Their official title is nothing, because they don't officially exist. No government agent will acknowledge that they have any function beyond the regular duties of the FBI. Just like the Men In Black, they are only distinguished by the fact that they show up when paranormal phenomena are suspected to have happened and no convincing explanation is given for why the FBI would be involved.

Again like the MiB, people start calling these agents the Guys in White. The casual appellation is intentionally mocking them for taking themselves very seriously and yet apparently being incompetent at actually getting anything done.

As more ghost stuff starts happening, the Guys in White appear more often. Notably, they are also written about more often, especially in message boards, chatrooms, etc. This is when the short form GiW/GIW (there is a brief war over the formatting, with GIW eventually winning) becomes popular.

Formal publications/broadcasts also start talking about the GIW. Out of a desire to not sound like they're mocking the government agents, they preferentially use GIW, even when speaking. (It remains an initialism despite the length because "goo" and "gyoo" do not sound any less mocking and suffice it to say pronouncing it with a soft g is an obvious no-go.)

As knowledge of ghosts and the activity of the GIW spread, more people hear about the GIW, including many people who do not know what GIW stands for.

Due to their association with ghosts and the FBI, naturally people think of the GIW as some kind of ghost investigators. This coincidentally fits with two thirds of the initialism that they are now commonly referred to by. Thus, many assume GIW must stand for "ghost investigation ..." something. When they turn to the internet, and hear "guys in white," they assume it's a joke, and that the reason they can't find a better answer is just that the agency is very secretive.

Someone somewhere decides it must stand for "Ghost Investigation Ward." This is shared around and eventually used by a news writer who just took it at face value without looking for a source. That news article is then cited by Wikipedia. And the rest is history.

#danny phantom #hc #i hope this doesn't sound too rude or mean #i do think the ghost investigation ward thing is fun and makes a lot of sense #i just personally can't see it being the real original name #because i can't see the government using the term ward over agency/division/bureau/office/department/service #or some other word that already means a subdivision within a bureaucratic/legal entity or group of people #since wards are otherwise (as far as I can tell) always physical parts of something #and ward even already has a specific meaning in the context of government activities as an electoral subdivision #but also obviously it does sound fitting enough that a lot of people think it's canon #so it's only logical that the same phenomenon would happen in-universe too

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