#It's oversharing hours

[rogueddie]

the horrifying realization that when I'm reading the most fucked up smutty trash you can find I make this exact face;

#It's oversharing hours

[michaelmilligan]

The post going around about accomodating anger issues is so fucking true. Like. Even in therapy context, the accomodation isn't always there! From my own experience in a place that was supposed to help people with mental health issues (and did at least an okay job with most):

1) There was this guy who came in after I'd been there for a few weeks. He had anger management issues. And he was thrown out after about a week because he showed - you guessed it - anger!

Okay, so what happened was that he apparently threw a bottle or something. But the thing is. He didn't throw it at anybody, he threw it at a door while being alone in a room. The problem? His roommate came in just when he threw it. (His roomie was fine, if shaken.)

Now I can understand that the roomie didn't want to sleep in the same room as the guy anymore. But they didn't even (as far as I know) try to accomodate the guy with the anger issues. The sensible thing imo would have been to give him a single room. There he could have safely let out his anger without someone randomly walking in (the staff should at least knock before going in, so he'd be warned). But this didn't happen. I guess that guy's insurance didn't cover a single room. 🙃 Even though there was at least one empty one at the time. 🙃

Mind you, the dude was already against therapy in general, complaining how after a week nothing had changed yet (which is an unreasonable expectation to have, yes, but he had it). Do you think he will ever try again? These people didn't even try to help him when he showed freaking SYMPTOMS of what he was THERE FOR.

I don't think he's going to seek help again.

2) Towards the end of my own stay, some bs happened that I won't go into rn. And I became angry. At the therapists, mostly, though it also generally became difficult to shed the anger. I tried going for walks and to the gym, but nothing helped.

The therapists seemed upset that I was so angry at them. (At least some of them.) But I just couldn't stop being so fucking angry, it definitely impacted the rest of my time there. I couldn't really get anything from the sessions anymore.

And the best thing? When I managed to control my anger long enough to actually, through gritted teeth, ask for help with it, they told me that I needed to handle it on my own.

Great, thanks! Because that worked so well! I mean I understand that there is no one way cure all for anger but like. A suggestion would have been nice. Any nudge would have been appreciated. But no, nothing. I still get angry thinking about them.

And it's not like it's gone away. Once those feelings were unlocked, it seems like they never really left. Sometimes I get so fucking angry I feel sick. For hours. With covid and all, at least that's happened mostly when I was at home. But now that everything is opened up again... Well. Let's see how long it takes before I explode into someone's face.

And let's be clear, I do not want to go back. Before, I was severely depressed, partly because I was repressing my own emotions so hard I barely noticed I had any. If you asked me how I was back then my only honest reply could have been 'tired' or 'thirsty' or 'hungry' because I just didn't realize/let myself feel anything else. I still have trouble identifying feelings a lot of the time. They mostly manifest as physical sensations for me.

But, damn. Living with this kind of rage not just inside you but with the possibility that it will break out any moment is. Not great. And I wish I'd been given some tools to deal with that. But apparently that's for me to figure out alone. 🙃

This is not me seeing advice, btw, just want to rant.

#It's oversharing hours #Personal #Sorry for the rant #Might delete later #But that post made me think of this and just *clenches fist* #They were also stupid about everyone's weight but that's a different story #I also feel like I've got way more insecurities now #Like sometimes I panic over really little things and it's stupid but I can't help it #Anyway #Rant over

[devotion-disorder]

has anyone ever had these. (its chocolate!!) i love pouring out like a handful of these and then eating it from my palms directly like im some sort of animal eating from the hands of my handler. anyways

#text #its oversharing hours #its also great for when youre craving a bit of sugar #cause you can eat just a tiny bit #also all japanese chocolate has the same taste

[sketchy-tour]

I just wanted to quickly say thank you guys!! Like... LIKE REALLY!!! THANK YALL SO MUCH!!!! The amount of constant love I receive for my work has been overwhelmingly wonderful to experience. I don't even know how to put it all into words. BUT IM GONNA TRY!

FAIR WARNING! I'm about to be really really sappy under the cut. So feel free to ignore that if you wish. But I got a lot of emotions I'm about to try to say.

Hi hello and hi. Um. Well, it's hard to explain how much this has meant to me. How much your kind words have sent waves of joy through my heart. How much every like has made me smile. How every reblog has made me feel a rush of pride. Every person who spammed me with likes when finding my blog, every person who talks in the tags when reblogging me, every person who shows up constantly in my notifs, every mutual who interacts with me even in the smallest of ways, every other artist I interacted with who has been kind to me.

All of it. Every single notif has made me smile in some way and I cannot thank you enough. I was so genuinely shy about sharing Dandy with Tumblr because I began drawing Dandy at a very turbulent time of my life. My WH art and oc had become a place of comfort for my mind and I had wanted to interact with the community for a long while but I'm skittish by nature so it took a LOT of mental prep for me to start posting this stuff here.

And the fact I have so much positivity in my notifs! I really needed that. Truly, I did. I still don't see myself as a big artist by any means, but I know I'm so lucky to have the bit of engagement I do from yall!

I feel like I'm rambling. Needless to say...it means the absolute world to me that the art that brings me joy is given such love by yall. Even if hyperfixations change, even if time marches us all in different directions, I'm thankful to have this. Right now. When I needed it.

#welcome home #welcome home oc #welcome home puppet show #dandy leon #my art #probably gonna schedule this so I don't post it at some ungodly hour again #so if you see this I may be asleep! #me desperately trying not to overshare while also trying desperately to make it clear how warm all this is making my heart and why #but all of this. It means so much to me #so so much #I really expected more people telling me I'm weird. Idk why #I just...did. And I really haven't been treated as such #And it makes me emotional realizing I can be silly and loud about the art that makes me happy #I just want to be happy. I want to see others happy. I want to have fun and be silly and it feels so wonderful to do that #and see yall having fun and being excited with me #I love it #thank you #just thank you

[stuckinapril]

I’m finally biting the bullet and contacting a therapist today after being ambivalent ab it for so long… this hellsite has its many disadvantages but one thing I can say is it has truly helped me be less scared of pursuing therapy. Silver lining etc etc

#And to be clear I have nothing against therapy. I’ve seen it do wonders for other people #I think the reason it’s a point of defeat (just a little) for me to be like ok. I need a therapist. Is bc I’m admitting to myself that I #need one to begin w. And I get it’s not healthy but I always liked to think I could handle anything by myself #That was even the whole point of this blog. It was supposed to serve as a conduit for these feelings #And I’m not saying I don’t have a support system. I do. I have many wonderful friends #But I struggle to be vulnerable at all tbh and whenever I am I’m guilty ab it bc #I understand so many people have busy lives & I feel like an emotional burden on them by venting #Despite them telling me that it’s totally fine. Obvi a therapist is literally paid to listen so no guilt there #And I think that’s what I need #I’m not like on the brink of a psychotic break or anything but it’s just little things. I think it’d be nice to sit in someone’s office for #One hour a week and just go. That did bother me actually. I am tired actually. I do feel that way actually. #Rather than just burying my feelings w school and a busy schedule #I don’t think therapy will make me any less of a workaholic anytime soon but it’ll at least allow me to slow down one hour a week #And also not bottle shit up so fuckin much #But ya all of this is to say I’m drafting the email to her RIGHT now . #Starting the day off strong by oversharing on tumblr dot com

[isbergillustration]

I feel like absolute garbage today so no new art (sorry to the peeps whose commissions i promised to do today) but here is an update on this thing. Amputated part of its waist which is good, glued its legs on back to front which is. Unfortunate.

#n3783457 #my art #combination bad headache and fucked up my meds so ive been been seconds from throwing up for two hours straight #bleh #going to lay down and see if not having a cat stomping on my stomach helps the nausea #been taking my meds again like a good person for like six days but the very physical anxiety symptom that used to drive me to alcoholism is #still here. anyway. that's two years worth of oversharing for the art account. good night. #someone put what i think is a homestuck tag on this already and i consider that an act of aggression #go back to misidentifying my original art as welcome to nightvale or magnus archives if you must but homestuck?

[barghest-land]

tw suicide thanks to everyone who reached out and helped with the info, i'm sorry i can't really respond to messages rn cuz i just don't have any resources for it if anyone ever needs it tho, this thing works no matter where you're from and calling them from overseas isn't even expensive. it's english mostly but it's possible to talk in spanish to them too, idk about other languages; they also have a department (?) specially for queer people: National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: +1-800-273-TALK (1-800-273-8255) i thought it might also help someone. a few things that were important to me: it's also a crisis line. no, u don't have to be suicidal to call, no, u don't have to stand-on-the-roof-ready-to-jump to call. they usually call back on the next day to check if everything is ok, but they can't call back overseas. u can always do that urself if u need to tho that's ok too. also ofc u don't have to share any personal info. in my case it's also good that i don't have to speak my native language cuz i don't want a call to be traced by some phrases.

stay safe

#anyway i hope they don't mind me calling them too often #it's a bit embarrassing to talk about it #but who am i to not overshare the new experience to the whole internet #even if it's calling to. places like that.. lmao #i absolutely love my survival instinct cuz everytime something like this happens i just call someone #idk what would happen if i didn't #also by saying it isn't expensive i mean for me it was less than 2 euros for an hour

[pep-rambles]

I MADE THE LUCIFER IS A SWIFTIE PLAYLIST!

1-18 Just songs I think he'd vibe to with no real personal context

19-20 Songs for Charlie

21-29 His fall/ Depression

30-62 Lilith leaving

63-98 RadioApple shenanigans

99-103 Finally standing up to Heaven and empowering Hell

This playlist will obviously change and grow. I'll be sure to reblog with the new numbers when it does

@sienaumber @lustrethings @spot-spots

@myrathesimp

#Lucifer is a Swiftie #hazbin hotel #radioapple #lucifer morningstar #taylor swift #TTPD IN 11 DAYS YO! #yes I know what and who WCS is actually about #but look me in the eye and tell me it isn't begging to be at least a little bit about religious trauma #I know that's what I use it for for myself #alright overshare hour is over everyone go home and enjoy this playlist I made about my stupid headcanon #also I feel like Getaway Car is more Lilith's PoV but I like it too much not to include #and he probably listen's to it and thinks of her #lucifer magne #hazbin hotel lucifer #hazbin lucifer #lucifer hazbin hotel #Spotify

[wetsocksinbed]

Gale, preparing to tell me his darkest secret: we have been travelling together for a while now

me, who only met him that morning:

#sir I met you two hours ago please #gale of waterdeep #we love an oversharer #bg3 #bg3 gale #Baldurs gate #Baldurs gate 3 #bg3 tav #tav #bg3 durge #durge #dark urge #dark urge bg3 #tav x gale #durge x gale #dark urge x gale

[nordidia]

do you think the turtles have any phobias or anything like that maybe stuff that grosses them out

well as a projector enjoyer i think ur fav turtle has ur phobias u wanna give them by law

as for me, i project my trypanophobia and fear of clowns onto raph LMAO

as for like... stuff beyond projection and like for waht i maybe think about from the show/movie,, i think they each have their own specific fear/things that freak them out, many things, as is normal. but nothing thats like severe enough to name specifically?

just like... normal discomfort around alot of specific things, each their own... i cant reallty think of any specific things

as for severe phobias, other than mikey being scared of paranormal stuff, donnie and beach balls, and raph and rabbits/puppets, im unsure if i headcanon anything specific like that outside of any like.. self-indulgence

#yeah yea i knnow "how can u have phobia of needles but have piercings and tattoos bla bla bla #BECAUSEEE ITS DUE TO MEDICAL TRAUMA . NO PIERCER HAS EVER HELD ME DOWN AND FORCED ME TO GET A SEPTUM #oversharing o'clock but its ok im comfortable talking abt it tbh #i actually took a needle for the first time in 10+ years in 2022 i am so proud of myself #conciously i mean. i used to have to be put under to do blood tests #but piercings and tattoos are way different. first of al the needle goes through instead of in / only pierce skin #idk #i can talk about this for hours actually #its a big part of my life #and its not like a normal amount of fear btw #i have blacked out and punched doctors and hid under tables and ran out of doctors offices screaming. and repressed almost all those memori #anwayy #asks!

[bearotonin-international]

here are some sleepy bears that you’ve probably seen to hopefully help you relax

have a better night and ty for all the times you’ve lifted us up and made us smile 😊

thank you. the team is very appreciative 💙

#the team will attempt to sign of tumblr now #because it is now 5:05am and the team has work in less than 4 hours #that's going to be fun #the team is oversharing because the team is sleep-deprived #¯\ (ツ) /¯ #thank you for the bears and kind words #ask

[junglejim4322]

I never message first on grindr and I mean never but I recently messaged a trans girl on there because well she was hot and I sent her a cheeky joke because well I’m immature but I am jovial and humorous and she replied with “you’re so funny lol”. and it gave me 379262962 billion flashbacks to trying to talk to normie hot girls as a teenager and I immediately passed away and died. Never again. That you’re so funny took 10 years off my life

#prob my last post of the night let’s end off on a banger #just finished hours of work might as well overshare on tumbler

[soobinsonly1bf]

soobin mama awards 2023 is my roman empire

i think about him every day, it's not even a joke

(tbh i felt like cumming my pants when i saw this performance for the first time)

(....i still feel like cumming my pants every time i see it. i'm sorry, i just want him so goddamn bad)

#guys i dont think you understand how badly i want him #atp hes not a want HES A NEED #soobin hard hours #soobin hard thoughts #txt hard hours #txt hard thoughts #em's oversharing moment

[stuckinapril]

It’s a sunny day during winter… I am going to study outdoors at the library for hours I am going to devour the material I am going to hit the gym in the cutest fit w all my flash cards I am going to burgeon thrive flourish

#it’s a toss up WHICH library bc I’m going to be on campus at the med school here today #bc I have to get something done for my upcoming neurology internship #so I might just study there even tho I’ve never been and even tho it feels weird to study amongst actual med students lowkey #or I might j go to my local library which I luv #but it will be outdoors in a sunny spot and it will be at a library #milky pink manicure salted caramel rhode lip balm bare face w only mascara on ysl libre intense. and ofc curls out. #and my morning started off so good bc I danced to purr by kyle dion for a solid hour. and was on time w my vitamins. #she is the ceo of oversharing in the tags I fear #p

[cult-of-the-eye]

I have PTSD right and one of my symptoms is nightmares but not like in the usual way, it's more of a "let's see how many ways we can psychologically torture cult by playing out extremely detailed and vivid situations to put them in" way...which means I have dreamed about being entrusted a child to look after who was being hunted to death by crowds of baying people and also about someone being sliced like an accordion potato

#my mental illness loves me the same way my mum did :) #ptsd #nightmares #ptsd nightmares #oversharing on the internet hours

[primelinchen-the-second]

So anyways guess who just came back from an *checks watch* 8 hour hike

#On my old blog I once mentioned hiking with my father and how long it always takes #And how much I hated it as a kid #They thought I was exaggerating the numbers #I was not #We set out at 10:30 and now it's 7 #But to be fair we ate dinner at a restaurant #And the owner drove us back the last ~10 km #When we sat out a taxi driver pulled over asked where we are going and then proceeded to telk us we shouldn't walk that #Because it's 15 km to the tourist trap he thought we were going to #But we went 2km further and then up a mountain #Got amazing pictures out of it #But climbing the mountain took an hour. Getting down took longer #Now imagine I wasn't 20 but 7 (the age I was when I first took this route with my father) #I know this is oversharing but I exhausted and proud of myself and fucking sweaty #Can't believe we did this every second day #Luckily my father's knees are awful now so he can't do it every second day either