#Pretend you never met me

[scrimple]

I can regulate my emotions just fine as long as I can cut myself :3

#bunny talks #988blr #988twt #styr0twt #styr0blr #i’m ok just venting #block don’t report #Playing a game called lets see how long it’ll take me to attempt suicide while I’m off my meds #Why is being self-destructive so bad for me anyways? #My self-harm only affects me physically #It doesn’t affect anyone else. Just me and my body #So Why do therapists want me to stop so badly? Hey at least I’m not killing myself! Shouldn’t you be happy for me? #Be happy for me just as happy as cutting makes me feel #I’m so happy #So happy so calm #‘it affects those who care about you’ just stop caring about me. I am not worth positive emotions #Pretend I don’t exist #Pretend I’ve died already #Pretend you never met me #I don’t deserve anyone’s kindness or care #I’m so sorry for convincing everyone that I’m a good person #Please believe me when I say I’m the worst #Please. I don’t want to hurt anyone else #This is all I have please just let me have this #I only post about it here so I can keep track of when I relapse please I swear I’m not attention seeking please don’t look at me #Don’t look at me don’t perceive me don’t please don’t #I am not here. I never was

[andorerso]

one thing I always loved about Rebelcaptain is the way they challenge each other, but also what they challenge each other about. Cassian challenges Jyn to stand up and fight back again, and Jyn challenges Cassian to question his orders and do what's right. but what's so great about this is that these are things they both already knew deep down. Cassian knew his orders were wrong, knew he’s done many awful things for the rebellion, but he's completely given himself over to being the obedient soldier who does as he's told. Jyn knew the fight was important and the Empire needed to be defeated, but she felt like she could no longer afford to care about it. so they both just… pushed those things down. out of sight, out of mind. until they meet each other.

their beliefs and convictions didn't do a 180 just for each other, it was already there, but they both helped each other wake up and see things clearly again. they were the push the other needed. and I really really like that.

#it's kinda like... jyn was never apathetic cassian was never obedient #but they tried to be they pretended to be #and it wasn't until they met that they stopped pretending and embraced it #smg smg two supernovas meeting each other #you feel me you feel me?? #shut up sissi #rebelcaptain #rogue one #does this make sense im kinda tipsy ahdfghgfdhfg

[mygwenchan]

OH FUCKING HELL NO ;A;

"I'm not dead yet" he says... While Nuth has flashbacks of a beaten up Nant... This can't be good 😨

#mom please come get me i'm scared #and phop darling #move to a different city #change your name #pretend you never met nuth #cause otherwise #this isn't going to end well for you 😥 #playboyy #playboyy the series #playboyy ep7 #gwen's watchlist

[feralandnormal]

yknow i swear if a guy said he was a gay bisexual there'd be zero fuckin discourse about it. but you put lesbian next to literally anything and suddenly its clearly transphobic and Must be picked apart and justified tooth and nail instead of just, going on with your day.

#never ever met a bi lesbian that said they identity that way because they love trans women #i dont think anyone who loves trans women would fucking say that #but like One Terf probably came up with it and we have to bend to there will and ideas i guess! #that one post where that dipshit made a completely unrelated Good point followed by 'i hate bi lesbians btw' annoyed the hell out of me #actual baby brain #lesbian or bisexual is not some sacred limited resource its a label to find community in. #but yeah gate keep the hell out of it brother im sure that's productive #yeah man pretend these words used to describe an ever changing and nebulous experience have specific strict meanings. #you go girl go create a box. i bet you think transfemme and transmasc are just the new cool way of saying your agab

[spacestationstorybook]

not to "discourse" but if you think that making a gay character bi is the same thing as making a straight character gay or bi block me. this is a terminally uncool thing to do. not only are straight people absolutely everywhere in fiction, it's not unreasonable to imagine that someone may not have devoted much thought to their sexuality and end up realizing they're bi or gay later in life. it's quite common and happens irl. but making a gay or lesbian character bi is just. SO disrespectful to irl gay people who've questioned their identities and done the work to figure out who they are And Aren't attracted to. as a lesbian who constantly has to hear arguments like "sexuality is fluid" and "everyone's a little bit bi" in attempts to convince me and other lesbians that we Must secretly want to date men, i have zero patience for shit like this. there are so so many fictional characters out there. it can't be that hard to find one who fits your type and isn't canonically gay.

#before anyone says 'well gay men self ship with women and lesbians self ship with men!' #that is a real life person deciding what they are and aren't comfortable doing in self ship. #i might never date a man irl but fictional men basically let me 'play pretend' with characters i love and find interesting #they act completely different from any real man i've ever met. #'so if your male f/os came to life one day you wouldn't want to date them?' well yeah i wouldn't lol. #also that literally can't happen so i'm not too worried. #selfship #safeship #nyx on comms

[azurdlywisterious]

The amount of songs that have dead money vibes to me that are emo rock songs i listened to in high school is a staggering amount

#FOR WHAT YOU DID TO ME AND WHAT ILL DO TO YOU YOU GET WHAT EVERYONE ELSE GETS YOU GET A LIFETIME!!!!! #EVER SINCE WE MET IVE GOT JUST ONE REGRET TO LIVE THROUGH AND I REGRET NEVER LETTING YOU GO!!! #AND WHEN I THINK IM RIGHT YOU STRIP AWAY MY PRIDE YOU CAST IT ALL ASIDE #IM LIVING DEAD DEAD DEAD ONLY ALIVE LIVE LIVE LIVE WHEN I PRETEND TEND TEND TEND THAT I HAVE DIED DIED DIED DIED #WHATS THE WORST THING I COULD SAY THINGS ARE BETTER IF I STAY SO LONG AND GOOD NIGHT SO LONG AND GOOD NIGHT #if you know all of these ur probably cool #fallout new vegas #dead money #left my <3 in the sierra madre

[sailor-aviator]

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#y'all my anxiety has me spiraling as of late because it just feels like my whole life is falling apart at this point #i got fired from my job a couple of months ago and i've been scrambling to try and find a new one #i work part time at a store i really love but it pays shit #and i've had all of these interviews and no one wants to hire me and i just feel unhireable at this point and it's hard not to despair #and on top of that i'm struggling with my self esteem again #i know i'm not ugly per se but i'm struggling with feeling confident in the way i look as a big girl #and all of my old insecurities are rearing their ugly heads and i want to cry just thinking about it #and i feel like such a failure right now even though i know that life has its ups and downs but my stupid brain just won't chill #and i don't really have any friends in the area because they all either moved away or didn't live here to begin with #and i'm tired of living at home because of my stupid student loans and not being able to afford to live on my own #i have one person i hang out with and we just met and i don't want to scare them off because they're a great friend and person #and i just feel like i'm never going to meet anybody who's going to love me the way i want to be loved because of my looks #also because it's me. and i feel like i'm so flawed as a person that no one will ever fall in love with me #and i've just been feeling really alone lately and i'm trying to do things to make me feel better but it's just so HARD right now #and i love writing because it gives me a chance to explore some of my feelings and it's something i genuinely love to do #and i'm sitting here waiting for the day things start to get better. and i know we all joke and i'm gonna sounds so dumb for saying this #but i feel like i was meant to be famous? or do something great idk and it's something everyone has always told me #and idk if my feelings of inadequacy are because of that or what but i'm scared that my life is going to mean nothing in the end #anyway this was a lot and you can pretend like you didn't read it. i just wanted to write some of my feelings down

[revedetendresse]

#The Pretender #otp: always with me during the most difficult moments of my life #thepretenderedit #It can't get more soft than Miss Parker hugging bunnies #Look at her smile #Sometimes you need to give a treat to your inner child and Jarod understands that more than anyone #When her father disappoints her Jarod is always here to comfort her one way or another #Be it a phone call or a gift #We also need to talk about Jarod's first line #Because it sounds like he guessed who she is meaning he heard about her like he never met her before #But it contradicts the scene of the sexuality experiment when we're supposed to believe it was their first meeting #Jarod would never forget her if he met her before so why ask? #It's either a plothole or a very well thought thing bc if MPJ met at that bunnies scene #They didn't exchange names so they didn't know who they were but it also means that they knew each other during the experiment #It would mean they pretended not to know each other #That they played every adult present and that Jarod's reaction to her isn't because she's a girl but bc he's seeing her for the second time #I like the idea of the two of them fooling everyone and basically screwing up the results of the experiment since they met before

[magentagalaxies]

having a moment about my gender rn and i'm just like ugggggh @ my brain do we have to. like can we just not

#i need to go to bed soon bc i have a 10am class tomorrow but shoutout to the identity crisis i've been having since at least feb 6th #idk if identity crisis is even the right word. bc like one thing about me is that i have a very solid sense of self #like i know who i am and what i want and how i move through the world and what it feels like to be me #but in terms of how i label and explain that to others? that's where the identity crisis comes in #but no one else gets to experience me in first person POV so the descriptors i use and they ways i present myself are reality to them #and tbh? as i think about how some of the descriptors i use for myself don't accurately describe me some people are getting mad??? #which is so fucking bizarre bc like. what the fuck it's my gender why are YOU being offended??? #but it's also making me low key be like ''wait am i a bad person now????'' #even tho i don't believe morality works like that. idk it's just been an exhausting month and a half #if anyone wants to hear more in depth thoughts on all this i would love to vent about it #(but not rn bc i will be going to bed as soon as i get this all out) #but like what i will say now is even tho this past month and a half has been ROUGH (for several reasons especially gender) #and people might expect that me spending so much time with scott in february made it more exhausting #which is understandable we love scott but touring in general is tiring and also i am the most opinionated person i've ever met but so is he #and also like. if you've heard scott talk about gender it's very obvious we disagree on a lot of things and he doesn't shy away from that #but the thing is. i'd actually say spending so much time with scott (even when we talk about gender. even when we *argue* about gender) #was actually such a good thing for me throughout all of this bc even when we disagree on semantics of labels #scott actually sees me beyond that rather than reducing my identity to what i call myself #which is how a lot of well-meaning allys tend to treat me. like i'm just one thing. #so when i'm with scott i never really have to think about my gender #bc he doesn't treat me like i'm (insert whatever gender people treat me like). he just treats me like i'm jessamine #and i'm tired of having to explain myself into smaller pieces so people can pretend to get it #but i feel like there's no way not to do that in our society rn especially at my ''progressive'' liberal arts college

[not-your-lifeline]

like how he talks and laughs more often after romance. sometimes he even sounds like a whole different person.(more playful&honest than shy&reserved)

#My Time at Sandrock #MTaS #spoilers #screenshots #shitposting #Fang #the fact he still tries to pretend X said that after romance lol cute #'Not me! No!' #he sounds very dreamy and tranced in that second line with whisper/sigh like tone #btw his past is most likely about domestic violence so it's relatable for me as well #'it will never go away. but I'm happy I met you.' about trauma is very accurate and relatable line as PTSD patient

[yay-depression]

the repressed neurodivergent experience of thinking “no one will ever love me with all of my neurodivergency the way i love them with their neurotypical-ness.”

#me my whole life: got made fun of for exhibiting ND traits among other stuff #me in middle school: well if i simply pretend i am neurotypical people will stop disliking me for being ND #spoiler alert: i was not very good at faking neurotypical-ness #me now: very very good at faking being neurotypical to the point that i am perceived as having very few distinguishable traits #my family my entire life: you are weird (aka neurodivergent) stop being weird #my family my entire life: if i simply do the thing that my child hates maybe they will grow out of hating it #another spoiler alert: no the FUCK i did not #tldr my entire life i’ve essentially suppressed most of myself to make the people i love comfortable bc that’s what they wanted from me #and in response they routinely ignore some of my most important boundaries and still try to act like they’re helping me #my therapist keeps telling me that one day i’ll get a family even if it’s found family #because sometimes found family is the best kind of family #but no one i’ve met is willing to actually put up with who i am as a person and not abandon me #every non-familial person in my life anytime i’ve shared deeply personal things with them: nope no thank you goodbye #and the deeply personal things were always just like ‘i’m actually pretty insecure in friendships and i feel deeply lonely’ #it wasn’t even traumadumping bc they always seemed fine with that!! bonding over shared trauma was like a group activity #and then anytime i was like ‘hey could i maybe get some validate that y’all don’t hate me?’ everyone would be like #no. why would you need that we never said we hated you stop being over dramatic #my dad pulled that last one all the time!! except he added the ‘how could you even think i hate you when i’ve been nothing but good to you!’ #come to think of it my friends did a lot of that too actually #anyways i have a core belief that i’m actually just unloveable and people just tolerate me and it’s been confirmed repeatedly

[bean-spring]

waiting for s4 tomgreg so i can edit them to getaway car

#i'm a swiftie tomgreg first and human second #don't pretend it's such a mystery think about the place where you first met me #until i switched to the other side to the other si i i i de #cause us traitors never win #greg are you betraying your boyfriend or no please i need answers #tomgreg #succession #tom wambsgans #greg hirsch

[aroaessidhe]

2022 reads // twitter thread  

The Whispering Dark

supernatural YA

a  girl is accepted into a prestigious university that trains students to slip between parallel worlds

but previous students’ mysterious deaths start to make her think her fear of the dark is something more tangible

Deaf MC

necromancy

#The Whispering Dark #aroaessidhe 2022 reads #do you want dark academia? spooky horror? mystery? parallel universe stuff? pick up literally any other book #this is just a creepy romance. none of that potentially interesting stuff. #there’s very little academia or like. going into the parallel worlds thing. it’s mostly about the weird relationship between them #i think it’s also just kind of…….boring? maybe not boring. I just never felt too interested in it #there was one of two bits that were kinda spooky and i was like oh? but thats it. #why is the love interest such a piece of shit. like he’s horrible to her and then suddenly he’s nice I guess? but then the entire time he’s #he’s lying about the fact that they know each other? #like i genuinely mistook him for the other dude she was hanging out with for a few chapters because suddenly they were just fine with each o #actually when she met nate i was like wait is HE the love interest. and the other guy is legit a creep. but no. #also he’s like obsessed with her #why are we pretending “I am deeply sickeningly alarmingly obsessed with you” is romantic. is this twilight. #‘what did i do why are you avoiding me’ YOU MURDERED SOMEONE IN FRONT OF HER? #wait also these was this bit where it was like “he pronounced wednesday a syllabul at a time. wed nes day” sdjjfgsdjgfsjd that doesn’t….. #anyway. the deaf MC was cool. #there’s the hint of things that could be really interesting on the edges. #but it’s just all about their weird toxic relationship. like barely any exploration of the parallel worlds. or academia. or the side charact #her ‘friends’ are only in plot relevant scenes #lol

[katiek101]

"I know that you're wrong for me Gonna wish we never met on the day I leave I brought you down to your knees 'Cause they say that misery loves company It's not your fault I ruin everything And it's not your fault I can't be what you need Baby, angels like you can't fly down hell with me I'm everything they said I would be

I'll put you down slow, love you goodbye Before you let go, just one more time Take off your clothes, pretend that it's fine A little more hurt won't kill you."

and THIS is only for Hawkfrost and Stormfur.

#“I'm everything they said I would be” #“gonna wish we never met on the day I leave” #“it's not your fault I ruin everything” #“take off your clothes - pretend that it's fine - a little more hurt won't kill you” #among other songs but this one always drags me into Hawkfrost's headspace #StormHawk #Hawkfrost #Stormfur #angels like you #warrior cats #FAB

[angstydiaz]

car seat headrest is so real i do wanna kick my dad in the shins

#coping lols #me trying to pretend i dont feel bad for him cause his dad was worse( never met him mans in jail) but arguably shouldnt that make you want #to not be a shit father ?? but cycles of trauma n all that but #trying to not be a third gen alcoholic lmao #car seat headrest #midwest emo

[nyxi-pixie]

the most important thing abt noah coming out is that the people going 'hehe how does our fav strAIGHT frat boy play that fucking gayass so well??😱😱' had to stfu😁👍

#its annoying when people do it abt anyone tbh #that was so fucking irritating lmfaoooo #me omw to remind the masses of hets and chronically online 12yr old queers whove never met a gay person irl that we're not a monolith🤩 #it doesnt escape my notice that yall say it more violently the second anyone so much as iMPLIES that they mighy not be straight #'speculating is bad' yes! but shockingly! yelling to the moon + back that them being not straight is impossible is not the best alternative #and perpetuates every dumbass stereotype #im so tired #also if you say hey maybe stop insisting theyre str8 for no reason every 5 seconds for a cheap joke abt the queer character they play #then everyone immediately is frothing at the mouth holding a chainsaw to ur throat #def not indirecting anyone w this😟 #i dont even remember who it was but someone was always putting those stupid noah straightest man in the world jokes on my dash #n i just used to stare at them like holy shit u guys are gonna be shocked when u encounter gay ppl outside of the internet. #my tags ran away from me again #but i hope u guys Hear Me on this shit bc this happens w every celebrity ever #and then ppl turn around and pretend the problem was ppl thinking they might be queer #instead of ppl refusing to believe theyre anything other than straight #anyway. #am a little late to posting abt him i know😔 have been so ia here recently but i saw it when it happened and am vv proud of him #<33 just to get a little of track at the end here #but yeah hes lovely and i wish people who were insisting he was straight would understand him as an examole that gay ppl arent all the same #but they wont cos they immediately turn to going 'omgggg our fav slayqueen i always knew hehehehe he just looks so fruitsalad' #heed my warnings i am a conduit of rage and violence and one day im going to use it on those ppl #oh fuck this was so many tags i am an unrestrained tag menace #a tennis if you will #aha like the game #anyway #byler #(<- it isnt but this is where i was seeing 'Straight Frat Boy Noah could never be gay' posts so.) #(not most of you tho<333 just a few) #right im going back to reading this 700k word fic from another fandom when will i return to tumblr?? who knows. not me