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sweetestlamb · 4 years

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Sometimes Goodbye’s a Second Chance

Summary: Gang-tae and Mun-yeong talk.

Author's note: Here it is the final chapter of Stronger, for those of you who were waiting I hope you enjoy this chapter and enjoyed this journey. The series was honestly one of my favorite despite its shortness, I enjoyed letting MY express her anger and frustration and letting GT address them instead of gaslighting and never apologizing directly. There’s so much more I could have written but I think this was the ending I wanted, I won’t say too much but thank you for joining me on this journey. My IOTNBO fics might start to dwindle as a I explore new shows and fandoms but this was my first and they will always have a special place in my heart. All my fics are like my babies. I think about them all the time and how I could continue, if I find time I will update one of my other stories. Stay tuned and thank your for your support!

With a poignant pause at the sliding door, Mun-yeong contemplates evading this conversation once more and closing Gang-tae out again, not out of any maliciousness or desire for revenge but simply because she's terrified.

She hadn't been knowingly bluffing when she told him to leave but the pain she'd felt when she'd come out to find him gone had been immediate- her heart had plummeted faster than even their moment at the beach. The very catalyst for all of this. But after pushing him away and taking time to figure out what she wanted, it had still been that broken man with the unforgettable eyes. He wasn't perfect and he was adept at striking her with dagger sharp words but he was just as astute at soothing her and bringing light into her eyes.

At the end of her soul searching, all signs pointed back to the one thing she had been running from.

Whilst running away from him and everything being with him entailed she'd realized her true feelings for him and they are deeper than want, desire, or like. Despite lacking it almost her whole life somehow this stunted man had awoken something in her heart that had been locked away for years.

"Come in." She hears herself beckon, stepping aside to let in a cautious Gang-tae who moves carefully as if he's scared to spook her. It's too late his mere presence is doing that.

He sits on the floor, placing a moderate distance between them but facing her head on. For once he's not running, not being a coward and honestly it unnerves her; his eyes are unwavering as he stares back at her.

Taking a deep steadying breath she collects her thoughts and considers this conversation they need to have, uncertainty making her stomach coil into knots.

"CanIstart?" Gang-tae stutters out in one breath, and she stills in shock before simply nodding, shaking hands clasped in her lap.

Now it's his turn for a deep breath. She can almost see his lungs expanding and collapsing through his chest.

He's nervous too.

That thought eases some of her jitters.

The sounds of nature permeate the silence that lingers between them, twin bird calls cutting through the air, she wonders if the lone bird found a companion and if the creature had been lonely before.

"While you were gone I got a chance to think too."

Quite an ominous start to this conversation and she vaguely wonders if he came all this way to break up with her, thinking it kinder to sever their bond face to face. She can't promise that she will remain pinned if that is his intention.

As a precaution she straightens up, preparing for the worst. Life has always been an unfair battle for her after all why should this be any different?

"I missed you everyday."

Oh.

Her heart, the traitor perks up instantly thundering away despite her brain trying to calm it with reminders of how much he's hurt her in the past, her reckless heart doesn't care growing wings and taking flight.

"Everything reminded me of you, the rain, books, bright colors, I couldn't even use a knife without thinking of you." A fond smile creeps onto his face and she feels an answering smirk threatening to spread on her own lips.

He's definitely not the repressed unflinching Gang-tae she'd meet so long ago. She will happily take some credit for that.

"Mun-yeong, I didn't mean any of those things I said on the beach. I know I can't take it back and I'll have to prove myself to you everyday, but I want the chance. I want you to give me another chance to show you that I can be better, I can be the man you need. Please."

It's so gravely different from the Gang-tae who sat across from her at the dining room table, expectant and entitled, no apologies in sight as he asked her to stay by his side despite leaving her side when she begged him not to.

She'd given him her worst, lashed out and hurt him purposely, she now understands this was petty and love shouldn't hurt but she deserved some comeuppance she'd been the bigger person with him several times and her only reward had been him throwing her aside like something expendable.

So she has no regrets but she can't deny the happiness that bubbles up.

Finally he understands. The weight on her shoulder lightens as she stares back before a wary smile spreads across her face.

She'd missed him so much.

"I missed you so much." It takes a minute to recognize that he spoke those words and her thoughts are not audible for all to hear.

She's not quite ready to be that vulnerable with him, yet.

But she preens at the words, letting the words wrap around her bruised heart like a bandage.

"I'm not ready to go back yet. I'm going to stay here, I promise I'll come back tomorrow though. I'll come back to you."

Not a concrete answer to his plea but the warmth that fills his eyes let's her know that he's received her message loud and clear: I'll give you another chance.

"You can go back before me, I'm sure Sang-tae is waiting for you. " She means it, she no longer views him as competition for Gang-tae's affection, he cares for them in different ways and she similarly cares for both brothers in different ways.

Love has various hues and nuances.

He huffs climbing to his feet before walking over to her and extending a hand, "Where would I go? You're here so I'm staying. Do you want to go for a walk?"

She was offered a multi-dollar deal when she was just 21 for her first best selling book and even that offer pales in comparison right now. He has fundamentally changed her mind about so many things, including the purpose of taking walks.

Grabbing hold of his large warm palm, she allows him to pull her up.

"Yes. I want to go with you."

They take a leisurely stroll around the area, avoiding puddles that flood the dirt paths. He brings her to the field where he plucked those wildflowers for her, choosing a single flower to carefully place in her hair.

She can't control the shy blush that burns on her cheeks as he whispers that she looks pretty. Under his watchful eyes, she feels like a work of art. During their walk his eyes never stray too far, as if he's scared she might disappear.

She squeezes his hands in reassurance.

When they wonder back to the guest house the skies are dark inky blue and the moon glows brightly, a beacon that guides their way.

A tray filled with drinks and snacks greets them, déjà vu making a surprise appearance.

"We can bring it in the room, my feet hurt I want to take a bath."

Gang-tae quickly moves to lift the tray at her words and she nods at him before entering the room and collecting her sleep clothes before wondering off to take a well needed bath.

Minutes later, she returns feeling freer and squeaky clean, the warm water doing wonders for her sore feet. Stubborn drops of water drip from her short mane soaking the collar of her satin white sleep dress, it brushes against her knees as she walks.

Sliding the door open she softly enters the room question on her tongue, "Do you want to have a drink? I think we both deserve one."

She wanders around the room unfolding her bedding and then finding a brush in her bag before sitting to detangle her hair. Humming softly to herself, a nameless tune.

Moments later she realized that Gang-tae never responded to her question, after a final downward stroke she peers at him over a barely covered shoulder.

"Hmm?.."

He is staring at her. Penetrating through her more like, his dark eyes sweeping from her face down to her body and then back up, marginally. Too low to reach her eyes, licking his own lips slowly before he realizes what he's doing.

A loud cough expels from his throat as he shifts looking away resolutely. Nervous twitches as he twists his hands in his lap.

But as if uncontrollable his eyes meander back to her, devouring her face. Now she knows for a fact he's staring at her lips. As if they are a four course meal.

Finding her lips dry she soaks them with a wet swipe before crawling cover to the tray, her dress drapes teasingly under her chest, material clinging to the soft mounds of her chest, she shivers at the breeze that caresses her naked chest, opting for nothing underneath the thin dress.

His gulp is deafening in the dead quiet of the room.

Ignoring him, she pours herself a drink careful not to splash any of the deep red liquid to on her dress.

Leaning back she swallows the saccharine beverage, savoring each drop as it slides down her throat.

"Don't you want some?"

His eyes are locked on her mouth and she pulls her bottom lip into her mouth to capture some stray liquid. He groans. She releases it empathetically.

She pours him a cup, handing it over to him.

His fingers brush against her hand and the static crackles between them at the first touch.

He grabs the cup and she begins to retract her hand but his grip is too quick and too firm.

He clamps down on her wrist, gentle but sure.

Eyes glittering in the hushed darkness he simply holds her.

Before he tugs, a single strong tug that sends her crashing into the wall that is his chest. She releases a puff of surprise that lands squarely on his neck. His arms wrap around her waist as she settles comfortably against him.

She takes a shuttering breath before gazing up at him, he'd been waiting for her eyes already locked on her face.

"What are you trying to do to me?" He groans out long and suffering, she accidentally squirms brushing into the growing hardness, rigid line pressing against her thigh.

"You were so controlled last time. I didn't do anything this time, why are you losing control?" She taunts him, not a big enough person not to mention his ironclad control and rejection the last time they'd been here.

"We're different now. I know what I want. I want you."

Oh how long had she waited to hear those words? It feels like coming home after a long journey.

She melts into his hold at his proclamation. Freely giving herself to him. Happy to be the one wanted this time.

Her want for him is always thrumming under her skin, its exhilarating to see his want so openly on his face as he surveys her body and hardens from simply looking at her. She feels powerful.

He swiftly grabs her shoulders as he throws her onto the mat, catching her wrists in this hands and peering down at her. Sweeping her off her feet, before he kisses the wine off her lips. She gets drunk on his flavor, lost in the swipes of their tongue and his hands pushing under her dress to clutch at naked skin.

As they surrender to their bodily desires, clothes torn and swept away, hands roaming and stroking, joining together in passionate waves she feels his love as he thrusts into her breaking her apart only to haphazardly stuff her back together. Her skin tingles as he caresses her, fingers plucking at taut nipples and tongue exploring her wet treasures.

He breathes love into her skin as he fucks any doubts out of her mind with powerful thrusts that drive her up the bedding as she scratches and screams her pleasure. He hammers at her walls, drawing her back each time she tries to find a moment of reprieve.

She's so dazed by their frenzied coupling that she almost misses his frantic whispers.

"I love you. I love you Ko Mun-yeong. I love you."

She wraps her legs around his waist tightly, gripping at the hard length that slams into her with uncoordinated motion. Fast, faster, faster.

Her orgasm blinds her as she twists and bucks in his hold, his own release flooding her in creamy warmth before they collapse in tangled limbs.

She loves him too. She knows that now. One day, she'll share those feelings with him. But for now she'll give him a chance, give them a chance. It's what they both deserve.

#its okay to not be okay #its okay to not be okay fic #psycho but it's okay #moon gang tae #ko mun yeong #stronger #final chapter #thank you all #it's okay to not be okay #my babies #my muses

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artsyxloner · 3 years

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Not Just a Monster

Warning: severe Bullying, death, violence, very sad, eating disorder

[ So this Chapter is going to talk about some parts of Min Soo-Nico's past and leading up to what happened. I think you guys deserve some insight. Chapter 18 will return to normal. ]

17: Past Time Revealed

To be honest, the school was a place for kids just to be Terrorized and shrunken down to their little last fuck. I had walked out of the art class gripping my Sketchbook in hand.

I had bowed to my teacher Mrs. Choi before going. Just to be polite most kids weren't here. She smiled and waved me off, it was lunchtime and I had brought my Dosirak ( packed lunch) with me.

I had to stop by my homeroom to put away my sketchbook.

I decided not to eat at the canteen because it was too crowded. Plus I didn't like certain people that were there. So I eat outside it was much prettier not to be eating in.

Sitting down on a bench, I opened my container there was Tofu kimchi, white sticky rice. Taking my chopsticks I began to eat. It wasn't much because my mom has been limiting my portions.

She wants me to be like one of the skinny girls that didn't have to wear a large size skirt. Munching slowly, I heard a group of kids laughing Hysterically behind me.

Maybe they were laughing at something funny. Turning around to see what it was, there was nothing I got confused about? Where was it? But they continued to laugh.

The thing was they were staring at me laughing. But why? Their phones were out too. Like they were taking pictures or videos I didn't know for sure.

Calling to them I asked what was so funny. " what are you guys laughing at?" I yelled, they whispered to one other ignoring me. Soon they ran over to where I was.

" I think if you see this, you'll understand why we are." It was Kim Ji-Mun the new girl with the best visuals in our grade. " have a look." She turned the expensive phone towards me.

And what I saw next made me drop my chopsticks. My eyes were stuck on the screen I couldn't take my eyes off of it. " delete that!!" I begged to get up, trying to fix myself.

" Now why would I do that?" She scoffed, " no way, I think we'll be posting them?" I shook my head. " no you can!" I yelled my body started to shake. It was a picture of my skirt it had been brought up showing my underwear.

Students gathered around, seeing what the commotion was. I gulped, staring at the ground, " please, don't show anyone." I mumbled not able to take the embarrassment. If the others were to see I would the laughing stock of the whole school.

" wow this is embarrassing, fatty I just" she paused, " can't pass up this opportunity." She then took a photo of me either the flash on and posted the two pictures together to show the person with their skirt up was me.

There were some Notification alerts, everywhere, people looked up at their phones and busted out laughing. Show it to each other. My face was red hot, not knowing what to do I took off feeling my Chubby thighs jiggle as I did.

That was the day it all started.

....

I laid down on the ground, in one of the empty classrooms the teachers don't use. I was hugging myself breathing hard, they were all around me my body stiffened my eyes frantically looking up.

" awe, she looks so pitiful poor thing let's give her some food." Ji-Mun announced as the students came over. " this should cheer you up!" She implied as they dumped all of their lunch over me.

" come on eat it fatty!!" they all chanted, but I didn't even touch it. This seemed to make them angry because Ji-Mun came up to me grabbing a first full of my hair pulling my hair yanking my head back. " what did we fucking say?!"

She took some food trying to stuff it in my mouth. But I jerked around preventing her from doing it. I think she was having enough of my Resisting because she Signaled others to come.

I screamed out, wanting help but knowing no one would come it was after school plus someone was outside blocking the door. I was then pulled up by one of the boys, " if she won't do as we say they she needs to get beaten!" Ji-Su walked over to the classroom room closet.

Coming back out with a thick wooden stick. " it didn't have to come to this Soo-Nico, do worry everyone will get a turn." She grinned evilly, rising the stick I closed my dark eyes waiting for the impact.

And it came down hard and fast, sucking in my breath as it made contact with my stomach, tears leaked from my eyes one after the other. I was hit in different places with My skin busted opened, and bloodstains in my clothes.

This wasn't even the worst of it.

....

I Ignored my family when they would ask about the bandages I had put on myself. I couldn't talk about it though. It would just cause more trouble for me.

I've lost a lot of weight since a couple of months ago. My mom was proud thinking I was working on myself to look better but no I wasn't. It's We're I haven't been eating it's gone so far to where I made myself puke up my food if I ate.

But I gained it all back and more, my mother noticed and even made side comments. I knew she was just wanted me to be like the other girls for once and feel good In my skin. But She didn't realize how much it hurt that she didn't see me for who I was.

She did it with good intentions but the outcome well not much.

I was tired and numb. I didn't want to deal with anything or anyone even my family. I stayed in my room not coming out. I went as far as to say I hated them and I wish they weren't here.

I hated everyone from that point.

....

I walked down the hallways of the school, I glared at everyone that looked at me. I had lost so much sleep that the eye-bags under my eyes were so huge and dark it was hard not to miss.

I had gone to my homeroom, sitting in the middle of the class, everyone was staring, I Knew they eventually talk about me they gave me little papers with messages that said.

worlds fattest pig

Let see your underwear again

Must suck to be poor

I would find them in my bag, them sticking out of my locker. Even one was written on the homeroom Board. You can guess which one it was.

Ji-Mun arrived, in-class noticing me she stood in front of the Podium. " as you know if there's a rumor going around that one of you has talked to Soo-Nico?" Everyone that was in the room got quiet.

She must have found out about the new girl that had come, I dumped into her. She was sitting in front of me. One was loud to talk to me.

" I better not catch you because if anyone and I mean anyone who talks to Soo-Nico is dead!" The bitch threatened right before the bell for school starts ringed.

....

I couldn't be myself anymore, all I wanted was to be a decent person but they screwed that up for me. I was fine before all this even I still didn't like my weight I was working on it.

It was late and I was waiting for my bus to take me home. I wore a thick coat because it was cold out, as the wind whipped at my red-fleshed cheeks.

My nose ran a little, I think I was getting sick. But I didn't care, at least if I got sick. I wouldn't have to go to school I think I'll wait here for the next bus that comes to make sure of it.

Taking out my phone I put one earphone in listening to my song Magic shop from BTS. My bias was namjoon, and my bias wreck was Taehyung, Bobbing my head to the music I heard a commotion on the other side of the street.

It was Ji-Mun and her gang, they were standing around someone that was sitting on the ground on their knees. Who was she tormenting now?

Getting up I checked before crossing the road, making my way over. I saw it was the new girl, I could hear her squeaky voice from here. " this will teach you not to talk to Soo-Nico again."

" no please I didn't know!!" She cried, but Ji-Mun just gave her an irritated look. Stepping on her hand I Hearing a crack the girl screamed out in pain as she dug her heel in further.

I couldn't take this anymore watching this girl tormented others just to have control, " why don't you-" before Ji-Mun could finish her sentence I punched her right in the face.

She fell to the ground, holding her bleeding nose, " what the fucking hell!" Her eyes glared recognizing me. " why don't you!" I suggested, knowing what she was going to say to the girl.

The next day my parents found out and told me I had to write an apology letter to Ji-Mun for almost breaking her nose. I was lucky enough they didn't press charges.

But What about the poor girl they were bullying? Did they have to apologize no! That's how the system works.

You get bullied they don't say anything, when they bully others, you try and Stan up from them but all you get in return trouble for doing so. Fuck them fuck everyone!

I told my parents to fuck off.

I didn't want anything to do with them at least that's what I thought.

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It's been two weeks since the incident and I haven't gone back to school since. I laid on my bed with the lights off. I wasn't feeling good. Soon my mom came to the door knocking on it.

" Please just go away!!" I yelled hitting the door with one of my pillows. " please just come with me to the airport to pick up your brother. He wants to see you." She spoke of Jin-Woo.

I haven't seen him in forever since he aboard in the states. He was the only one that I didn't hate, at the moment. Groaning I got up getting off the bed, as I did I felt faint.

Steadying myself I went on and changed into a new pair of clothing. Opening the door. I was faced with my mom for the first time in a while. She had a worried look on her face yeah right?

" Are you feeling okay? you look, pale honey." But all I responded with was I'm fine. Sitting in the back seat my mom kept glancing at me asking questions.

Trying to start up a conversation, but I stayed quiet. " please god just leave me alone." I mumbled, but my dad heard, "your mother is trying to talk to you, stop being a little brat!"

He was turned in his seat facing me. " you haven't talked to use two weeks, when we get to the airport, you better be on your best behavior!"

Little did I know that would be the end of There's and my world.

Parking the car we got out and headed into the building. The places were crowded, with different types of people mostly Korean but there were some Foreigners.

Waiting nearby the gates, Jin-Woo should be landing anytime now. Sitting down I felt like I was going to throw up, I was sweating like crazy.

My mom noticed but didn't say anything afraid I'll fuss at her. I wondered where a restroom was in this place getting up I was stopped by my dad.

" where do you think you're going?"

I rolled my eyes, but he didn't see because his eyes were too focused on the magazine he was reading. " just to the restroom," finding out he shooed me away.

I had to ask some people where the restroom was. As doing so I passed a man, that was standing in one place, with some cotton balls up his nose. He was Turing his head side to side looking weird.

Getting away I finally found the restroom, standing in the stalls, I began to puke, rubbing my stomach as I did. I was sick I should have stayed home and waited for my brother.

After I was done, I wipe my mouth off with a sheet of toilet paper, I made sure that I was finished. Getting up I went over to the sink Turing it on splashing my face with cold water.

Looking up I was surprised at my reflection, my skin was ghostly pale, my eyes well they had strange veins in them, but I didn't think much of it probably just a symptom of this virus I have.

It wasn't long before I got more symptoms. My body got a cold rush feeling, as shivers went up to my spine. This is probably the flu, shaking my head I went on.

The weird man I noticed before was acting normal, maybe he's on meds? But he saw my eyes wide and hurried over to me. " you have the symptoms to right?!" He asked grabbing my arm shaking it.

"It is starting!!"

I look at him strangely jerking my arm away. " No, what are you talking about?" I backed away leaving the crazy man. Not knowing he was the first Infected.

As I went on it felt like the area was tipping, I staggered a bit trying to steady myself trying not to fall. My brain had that swelling feeling it seemed like I was being dragged into my head.

Not understanding what was happening I felt my body move but I wasn't the one moving it, I felt like I was stuck in my head and couldn't get out.

I then soon heard some gasps as something wet gushed out of my nose, It was blood and a lot of it. I looked into the window of the airport. That was right beside me.

And was horrified at what I saw was my reflection smiling back at me with pitch-black eyes. It waved slowly blood all over its mouth and neck.

Is that what I looked like to people right now? Because if I did I would be scared shitless. " you know you want to!" My reflection spoke to me. Grinning evilly. I felt my body backed away not believing what I was seeing.

What was this?

" what are you?" I breathed out scared. I covered my nose trying not to get blood everywhere. " I'm you but much worse." It giggled. Coming out of the window standing right in front of me.

" This was you're own doing Soo-Nico, 'tsk tsk' I'm not going to be enemy here." That is when I started to feel funny like I was losing my grasp on my mind it began to fade.

Then hearing inhuman sounds I began to dash towards people for no reason. Hearing them scream trying to get away, jumping over stuff pushing each other down.

It was all so quick and fast, that I didn't recognize the people standing before there was an older man, a woman, and a teenage boy. Their faces had a pure shock but I smiled creepily at them.

Then lunged for them.

Waking up my head hurt, slowly getting up, I looked around me seeing blood everywhere. My heart began to beat fast. Why was there so much blood? And why can't I remember a thing?

I almost screamed when I looked down. Not believe who was dead on the ground, I covered my mouth as tears immediately began to fall.

" No... No, God No!!!" I cried getting down on the blood-soaked floor seeing my family lay there lifeless. I grabbed my mom putting her head on my lap. " what I? –What happened? How—" I then remembered my creepy-looking reflection.

It was the last thing I saw before going Berserk. More eyes began to unfolded realizing I'm the one who killed them. And I didn't know why? My body shook not knowing what to do or who to call?

" I didn't mean to! I didn't– I wouldn't!! I'm sorry!" I screamed into my mother's shirt. Beating the floor with my fist, " I'm sorry for being mean to you!!"

I sucked in a couple of breaths, feeling my lips and chin quiver. As I sob from there on out, I had to live with the guilt of the death of my family never forgetting that moment.