#That would be so painful oof

[multicolour-ink]

Okay, okay. So imagine if a story similar to Sonic Prime happens and Mario ends up falling into a portal opened by a gem that is like the Paradox Prism from Sonic Prime and he ends up travelling to different realities and becomes allies with different versions of his friends and Luigi. It’d feel odd but he adapts kinda quickly and so do they.

OH. OOOOOHHHHHH!

@istadris I'm very sorry for throwing you in the spotlight, but this just reminded me of that AU you made up, about different universes where Mario and Luigi grew up without the other because of tragic circumstances? What if Mario came across the Mr.L who lost his Mario?! It just reminded me of Nine (the Tails who never met Sonic) and the parallels between them fit so well!

The absolute tragety when Mario meets this version of Luigi. He would be shaken, confused. He thinks this can't be real, how can this Luigi have lost his Mario? Mario is supposed to be there for Luigi, protect him - and now his own Luigi is lost in the Shatterverse...this is like a kick in the gut.

And Mario meets other versions: a Peach who is cold and bitter having lost her kingdom to Bowser, a Toad who's on the streets, barely able to make a meal, a Kong Kingdom enslaved by the Darklands.

Honestly I haven't managed to watch any of Sonic Prime so I'm going by what I already know so feel free for anyone to add to this ._.

#OOF the angst #the tragedy #mario having to carry the responsibility to put the universes back together #OOF so good #meeting the other version of his brother would be painful or heartwarming - depending #super mario #mario #luigi #princess peach #bowser #donkey kong #the super mario bros movie #super mario movie #mario and luigi #sonic prime #shatterverse #burningmusicfunnygiant #multicolour ink answers

[an-assortment-of-forks]

being disabled/chronically ill around coworkers is just constantly having to defend the fact that you have no plans on the weekend without going into your whole backstory and the deep lore of your specific illness.

#no its ok im cleaning this weekend #oh a new game came out so im playing that with my friends #oof no i didnt get enough sleep so il gonna relax #all of those are common ones from me lol. when the reality is just. no. i am in pain and it would make it worse if i didnt rest #and its not sad. ill fuck you up bro dont call it sad I'm having fun playing videogames and hanging w my cat #chronic illness #chronically ill #spoonie

[ladysqueakinpip]

not me lying wide awake at 5:30am on a sunday on my day off bc after almost a full year I finally FINALLY realized the implication of the end of remember them from the cyclops saga

#that song has one of the most powerful ending crescendo sequences ive heard in maybe all of musical theater #so it. always felt incomplete after ALL that buildup during the I AM THE INFAMOOOUS #only to just drop to SILENCE. no music. no fanfare. just ODYSSEUS! #he doesnt even really sing it he just sort of... shouts it #and then its followed by the faintest sound of ocean waves #its poseidon. listening. THATS why athena said DONT #poseidon heard that declaration and came back to get him later #😬 #i just looked up the lyrics for ruthlessness too and poseidon basically spells it out 😂 #ive only listened to that song once or twice tho and i guess i wasnt too focused on the words #anyway i relistened to the songs on friday and theyve been rotating in my mind like a 7/11 hotdog #the whole cyclops saga especially is just.... so so good #they truly dont make music about bashing peoples heads in like they used to #the first 3 songs of the saga especially... oof #how they blend one into the other back to back and end up making like a 10 minute narration of events #the whole thing is so bone chilling #it gets my heartrate up lol #PLUS the theme of pain and vengeance bring more pain #EVERY time polyphemus says 'what gives you a right to deal a pain so deep' #and when odysseus says 'what good would killing do when mercy is a skill more of the world could learn to use' #rocking back and forth sobbing crying #remember them the next time that you DARE choose not to spare! remember them... remember us... remember me! #cant wait for everyone to turn their back on this musical in 5 yrs #like they did with hamilto.n #hamilto.n never stopped being good actually #yall are just embarrassed about being weird fanatics over people who rly existed

[theygender]

I've been on progestin (nexplanon) for my endometriosis for about 9 months now and I haven't had a period since shortly after I started on it, but I seem to be starting one again and I'm kinda concerned bc I'm not sure why it would suddenly come back after going so long without one

I just realized tho. My gf has been on E for about two months now and her body seems to be reacting to it quicker than expected, so she already had her first hormone cycle just recently where she got all the PMS effects and etc. I know menstrual cycles can sync up between afab people who are around each other a lot and that has happened to me in the past... Has my menstrual cycle synced up with my gf's hormone cycle?? Like to the point that it even overrode my lack of period?? Is that a thing???

#probably gonna try to make an appointment with a gyno at planned parenthood just to be sure bc like #i mean the ultrasounds havent turned up cysts in the past but its probably not a bad idea to keep checking #(plus ive got some other questions to ask about uh maybe possibly perhaps having intersex traits? anyway) #but if the answer really just turns out to be 'your gfs hrt overpowered your own hrt' that would be so fucking funny #also painful tho :( bc oof ouch my organs #rambling #tmi #menstruation mention

[lorelune]

debating on whether to open commissions or work OT this week bc oof :((

#lore loops #porto's surgery + student loans + other expenses this month is :''^) painful! #it's been quite some time since i've done commissions? and i don't enjoy forcing myself to write #but also work is vile rn lol #i could make an extra hundred this week but i already experience psychic and emotional damage since it's so busy and hellish rn #idk!! #i'll sort it out but oof #Oof #diluc raginvindr would never allow this to happen

[theheadlessgroom]

@beatingheart-bride

Setting aside his knife and fork, Randall gently took her hand in his with a soft smile, saying, "I appreciate that-I...I don't want to pry if you don't want me to...but if you're willing to talk about it, I'm willing to listen."

On the one hand, he didn't want to bring down the mood again; they were enjoying a lovely dinner (or rather, he was; he felt a twinge of guilt, worried that her lack of an appetite was his fault), watching a great movie and about to begin working on the model kit, and he didn't want to completely ruin the evening...

...but at the same time, a part of him wanted to ask-not because he was nosy, but because he felt it might do Emily some good to talk about it. She seemed so very lonely, a fact that broke his heart, and that she had a lot on her mind as a result. He wanted to help to alleviate that loneliness, that heartache, if he could.

Without thinking about it, he brought her hand up to kiss her knuckle, an action that almost felt like a reflex when he did it. It felt as if he had done it a thousand times before...even if, surely, he hadn't. Realizing this, he blushed and let go of her hand, saying shyly, "Th-That was forward of me, I-I'm sorry."

#((exactly! it's gonna be such an intense wave of memories; both good and bad)) #((and all the associated feelings; it would be overwhelming for anybody!)) #((and so he's gonna appreciate emily being there; just as she's going to appreciate having him remember her)) #((and the love they shared once upon a time; and will share again!)) #((and as you said; the decision to turn randall isn't going to be an easy one for emily!)) #((he comes to the conclusion that he wants the change fairly quickly...but he'll have to convince her)) #((and that'll be a tough sell; because as much as she wants him to be there; to never lose him again)) #((she also doesn't want him damning his soul on her account; nor going through the pain that she did!)) #((he'll still manage to convince her but even so...oof!)) #outofhatboxes #beatingheart-bride #V:Dark Shadows

[unproduciblesmackdown]

enjoy some pencil drawings for once

screenshot study and what amounts to a conceptual illustration of a writing idea

#bravely Didn't try working on the ol wip last night; drawing program needed the laptop restarted anyways; dicked around thusly #like Yes i wanna draw my funny little guy who is the heart & brain's default lately (last several years) nice to do anyways #and naturally imo you can see the [been working on that animatic] influence. don't often manage to draw a thusly stylized winston #he would have the winstache here theoretically but no way was i trying to draw that in lol. nigh guaranteed erasing & v little space for it #for the erasing i mean. further disclosures for Interest: negligable / par for the course digital cleaning up includes getting rid of Some #stray marks like particularly annoying out of place specks. hard to do any of that & pick a stopping point though. yet i did... #more significant tweaks were moving winston's mouth up & one pupil iris Mark over both by like 5 pixels tops lol. still better =) #& then naturally the second pic's Colors are all added digitally. texture & that like shade gradient from top to bottom are courtesy of just #the lighting in the pics picking up paper texture / being itself uneven so there was more shadow further down.... #pic one only had lighting & contrast adjustments (slight increase on both)....i don't think any of this was very interesting lol but hey. #winston billions #corned beef #technically: #riawin #i don't know if i quite adequately indicated winston as upset in a frustrated kind of genre as well lol.... #but then i reacted afresh to The Pic as i was adding the colors like ah it conveys the intended emotion To Me...& i am the intended audience #could look like oh he's just like very elevatedly & transparently like ''ah jeeeez *Eye* messed up [pensive]'' lol but isnt meant to be so.. #hand on back of head not to be sheepish or chastened but rather an ''agh christ i wanged the back of my head'' kneejerk reaction lmao #for once in our lives the fun lil stars are the comic strip language of Oof Ouch Physical Pain indication #the other half of [reacting to what literally just happened / has arisen] being like And spilt my drink on my self #and b/c it's winston & it's his life there May be undercurrents of ''ah jeez. did *i* mess up here / so as to be at Ultimate Fault'' #that is the assumed interpretation of Anyone Else at him at any time. [Autistic Character Alert] babes.... #meanwhile. re: pic one's ref i took the screenshot for whole other fun casual reasons & eventually realized like oh hey fun bust profile. so #an exercise in Shading. which is sure smthing i'm a lot more practiced doing via pencil than digital means

[hauntingblue]

Sengoku asking ace what is wrong. WHAT DO YOU THINK

#ace beating kids up for badmouthing his father.... oof... when did the disillusionment hit then.... #he fucks adults up too lmao #crying again #ace asking garp if it was a good thing to be born after asking if luffy is happy #you will know with time. and time is proving him right omg #my beautiful princess with a disorder 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #ACE WANTS TO LIVE BECAUSE PEOPLE LOVE HIM!!!! EVEN IF LOVING HIM CAUSES THEM PAIN IT IS WORTH IT FOR HIM!!!! #😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #THAT IS THE SPIRT MY BOY!!!!! YES!!!!!! #do NOT show me buggy at a moment like this!!! i am busy CRYING #if buggy wanted to save ace he would have magically been thrown into the execution ring two episodes ago but alas.... #shirohige down..... oof #marco too and the diamomd guy #its so over guys its so over #HE HAS BEEN HIT #is koby going to fighy luffy??? wth???? what does he want #luffy has bene resurrected again #and koby what the fuck do you think youre doing #talking tag #watching one piece #episode 477

[talloseye]

The roscinna angst in Cinna's worldstate is insane. He takes Roscoe on the mage quest and when he meets her in the future she is in such a blinding, unrecognizably frenzied rage that she nearly chokes the life out of him as soon as she's let out of the cell. She blames him for everything that happened after he went through the portal. He could've moved out of the way quicker. He could've been more prepared for the trap. She fully blames him for destroying the life she could've had (her greatest fear is insignificance). And then she tries to kill him. Iron Bull literally has to pull her off of him so that he doesn't get killed, and afterwards she's screaming her head off at him. She didn't talk to Cinna for the rest of the quest until the very end and only sacrificed herself for her own gain. She fucking hates him and makes it Very very well known. When he goes back to the present and sees her again it's quite uh...poignant...to say the least. He still has bruises around his neck after all

#not to mentionnn that roscoe would look significantly malnourished compared to how she used to #combined with that and the rage she would be fucking terrified #cinna didnt apologize to her immediately in the future bc he felt that it 'wasnt real' and therefore it doesnt matter but...oof #big mistake #he apologized to her after he was choked but by then the damage was done. mentally and physically #ugh #and then he has to go back to the present!!! looking so beat up and looking at roscoe again JUST after he saw her corpse being flung about #i should also add that all of this happened just as they started to develop a bit of a crush on each other #painful man. anyway #txt #cinna #roscoe #roscinna

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#ok. so the guy from school i visited emailed me today like: good news! we unanimously voted to extend u an offer here #so expect the formal offer in the next week. and im like uuuugh i wanna say yes so bad #bc in the us i would have more flexibility in the program than i would in the uk #and my options in the us r either to b a big fish in a small pond at this schoolor a little fish in a big pond at the other #bc this school is underfunded and a bit isolated out in the mountains but the staff r pretty great and big egos dont seem like a big issue #but if i go to the other school its like a big well funded school. the application was like 75 dollars. fuck u and really annoying #and i mean id have to live in new jersey. so in the city with city driving and prob a more high pressure school environment #and more of a chance of dealing with big egos. but like career wise im sure it would b good. assuming i don't mentally collapse #but i mean that doesnt seem as fun as spending 5 years out in the rocky mountains #like thry have fucking moose and bears! there were deer and turkeys in town! #and my dad just sent me a video of all the spring peepers singing back home and im like 😭 bc froggies and he was like i bet u could find #frogs out in [redacted city] and im like 😭 ur right. it just seems like the better choice for my poor overtaxed brain and the project is #so cool too. i want to get the cyano species as my computer background asap. and the guy is nice and apparently super supportive #and i could probably walk to hiking trails. god. i mean i have to say yes to that. i wanna say yes so bad. send me the formal offer bro #ill fucking take it before i even hear back from the other schools lol. ugh. i hate making choices #oof i am so excited to kno where im going and plan my departure. its gonna b such a pain moving tho i pray that my mum or dad can drive #with me bc otherwise the 20hr drive by myself might kill me. thats almost as bad as my initial move out here lol. the us is so big #ugh. again choices. is this the right choice? probably one of the biggest decisions of my life. the project feels so right. cyanobacteria #my algal group of choice. and hot springs. how tf do u say to no to that? i mean. id b doing that in new jersey too but with red algae #ugh. put me out of this misery lol. also as an aside. shout out to my fucking disaster brain for not being able to focus on a single thing #my boss in a meeting: so glad to have students and staff so excited to b working on this project!! me: lady i hate that im on this project #bc im just sitting in until they can get an actual student. i just do what im told but appreciate the enthusiasm lol #ay. im so tired. i wanna see the snow and mountains. and fix my head. and get outta the desert. and listen to frogs 🐸 😌 #unrelated

[dreamlogic]

...

#shit chat #medical cw #meatsuit renno #finally worked up the guts to message the surgeon who did my hysterectomy like #hey i know it's normal to experience pain and stiffness for a while after this surgery like at least a couple months #but uuh. it's been 8 months and i still wake up feeling like shit most days? #pretty sure regular shooting pains where my right ovary used to be aren't normal almost a year after surgery? #like i could be wrong but i feel like i probably shouldn't need 1200mg of painkillers a day to manage constant throbbing abdominal aches #after i've hit the 'maximum recovery window' for this surgery uuh [checks calendar] ...nearly three times? #at least the fatigue has finally started to go away. i feel my vitality returning slowly but steadily #but i'm still not back to my pre-op activity or mobility levels cause OOF OUCH MY ABSOLUTE PELVIS #and i've been noticing an abnormal amount of abdominal bloating that doesn't seem to correlate with indigestion or other factors #and isn't fat from weight gain like i initially thought it was #idk maybe i'm paranoid but i read an article a while ago abt someone who had a 15lb cyst in that nobody noticed for over a year #bc they were AFAB & our pain is chronically underreported and not taken seriously when it is #like did y'all leave some forceps in my gut and now i'm growing a mass around it?? wtf???? #idk if i hope it's nothing so i don't have to deal with more medical bullshit or if i hope it's something to legitimize my experience #godddd it would be so satisfying if i got to tell my boss's boss who's been hounding me relentlessly about proformance and Managing Burnout #HEY JACKASS TURNS OUT I'M A VICTIM OF BOTCHED SURGERY AND YOU'RE A DICK FOR NOT GIVING ME ACCOMMODATIONS

[icterid-rubus]

My family went to florida and I’ve been dog and house sitting and hosting my brother for two weeks and taking my cat to the vet and finally my brother is gone and the cat is okay* and I have 24 hours until my doctor appointment and 48 until the family is back and I’m chugging beers sitting back trying to fit two weeks of relaxation into one evening and it’s not working but I’m tipsy and throwing my head back and wanting to make bad choices yeeeaaaaaah boooooooiiiii!!!!

#this was my chance to relax then my brother decided to come #which is fine but basically it means he works in the house and then I make him dinner or we go out to eat rinse and repeat for 14 days #he also Has To Eat Three Squates A Day or gets hangry and I’m more of a…one meal a day person #i feel so bloated and crappy so the beer isn’t sitting well but I want to relax and I don’t really drink anymore so #not excited for the dr tomorrow but whatever #*cat is as good as she can be. I’m coming to terms with the fact that she will not ever get better. she’s old and it might be cancer but #anything we do is just treating symptoms #she has a depressed immune system and is getting monthly chronic utis. i need ti be Frank with her quality of life #this is so much harder to confront than her amputation. i Leah’s thought she would just…get old and slow down gracefully #but she feels young. and in between the uti pain she seems normal. but so much of her life now is sleeping and crying in pain #she also has sores on her feet. vets not sure why but thinks it’s immune system related #aaaaa. i want to call my science teacher and talk to him #he gave me Chloe sophomore year but I think I’ll cry #oof I want to talk to anyone really but I don’t have those type of relationships. so I shall talk in tags and drink beer.

[ss-trashboat]

just finished today's bosj and if anyone needs me i will be on my floor face down crying i'm not fine

#trashy yells #wrasslin yells #aka akira did me in #i knew that match would be brutal but also i'm pain #he did so good tho #his first singles main event #yes i cried #twice actually #i'm so fucking proud of him i just wanna give him the biggest hug #and now bobert's chance of making the finals is up in the air #i'm stress #and sad #oof #wrestling fam

[nyanykamito]

More Afterall Drabble

because now RWBY is on hiatus until next time..

Ruby started writing down what happened and whats been happening in a journal it was her way of acknowledging whats happened over the years. And also leaving behind a legacy, she acknowledges that its far from perfect but its still her life.

Some happy things happened, some sad things happened and she embraces both. Like when she met Weiss, when she nearly blew up on her first day at beacon. team rwby versus team jnpr during the food fight and how she finished the fight. The hours she spent creating tag team names; ice flower, ladybug, freezerburn. She even shared these ideas with Jaune and they started coming up with even more team attack names.

the binder she totally didn't steal from weiss and her collage of photos from beacon...

She wrote all of this down in a big book, even somethings that were more personal like her crushes. She met some brave huntresses and hunters along her journey, saved people and almost the world. But her biggest achievement...was going back home. Making it back home, being with her family again.. even creating one from the friends she'd made along the way.

Ruby also took sometime off and settled down for a bit, gods knows she deserved and needed it.

Yeea~ars later she's now looking down at her little people, she sees her and her sister all over again. All one of them was missing was a cape...she started to drape it around one of her little ones. Until she remembered what wearing the cape meant... Instead she hung her cape up and played with her little monsters thinking to herself.

"Mom ..can you see us? I wish you were still here if even for a moment. I know you'd love to meet them and tell them all those wonderful stories you told us. What I wouldn't give to be tucked in bed listening to one of your stories...just one more time"

#rwby drabble #rwby au #rwby volume 9 spoilers #rwby spoilers #rwby afterall #rwby ruby rose #ruby rose #rwby #i'm on a roll with these feels like oof #and its all thanks to pain and suffering from this vol #one thing i wish though is that this volume would have been longer #i kinda wanted ruby to be out of the picture a bit more #so we could really see her away from her team and maybe mooore of summer ay ay #i know budget and all that jazz is involved but one can dream and hope #i would have loved for ruby to have time to think and feel for herself #and maybe even remember more #but i guess thats what fandoms here for

[technoxenoholic]

update from the curse of the polycotton mockup: i think the inside of the (longer) right sleeve has given me a bit of a rash (it's snuggest at the elbow when i bend my arm, and there are red spots on the skin on the inside of my elbow)

if my body is trying to convince me to wear less polyester in sensitive sweaty areas, i wish it would stop, because i don't actually need to be convinced of that TnT please body it's just a mockup i'm not going to do this to you long-term i will be wearing nice cottons and linens and rayons and blends between those with as little polyester as physically possible

#stfu blue #sewing #reborking is prohibited #i'm also going to loosen the sleeve elbow since i have to change the fit of the sleeve again anyway and i might as well #why must sleeves be such a pain when you have gibbon arms #but yeah. i've taken great pains to get nice materials on sale to make my long-term wardrobe from #i want my clothes to last a long time because it's exhausting to have to replace them when i am Literally Making Them Myself #and i REALLY don't want to invest in nasty materials that i won't WANT to wear long-term #so even when i DO have to get polyester to afford things... i try to get nicer polyester #but this mockup fabric in particular just sucks complete ass. that's why i got it as mockup fabric after all #because it was cheap and shitty and i would not feel bad about drawing on it with pens to make changes #but oof. my poor skin sure does hate it #moral of the story is don't make shirts out of the broadcloth from fabricland if you are autistic i guess #not even if it's on ludicrous sale because the color is getting discontinued. rip

[patrice-bergerons]

You know that the school of thought that says queer narratives focused on [insert]-phobia are depressing, trite and relics of the past, and what we ought to celebrate as true marks of progress are narratives freed from such -phobias even where doing so runs foul of accurate descriptions of the place/time period?

It always, always rubbed me the wrong way and there is nothing like watching a good Russell T Davies drama to remind you that exploring joy and humour and the impact of homophobia are not mutually exclusive. You don't have to pretend it doesn't exist to have a good story that's not only about suffering. And while there may be a space for stories completely free from this conflict we deny ourselves so much depth if we demand it of every story or else label it outdated.

#im actually angry #in that that school of thought always rubbed me thr wrong way #but i thought maybe that was a me issue? in that I was behind the times #that i had failed to embrace myself fully when everyone else was #when i see stories and shows praised for how they totally ignore -phobia even in a time and place it 100% would have existed #i always think but all MY stories are about homophobia in one way or shape or form #it's this wound in me i can never heal it scars #and id feel it was a shortcoming almost #but then watching rtds work #that is so lively and real and fun #and is also built on a bedrock of systemic pain and trauma #oof #i only wish i can be half as subtle and good a writer as he is #and anyone who does subsribe to that school of thought? can go fuck themselves idec