#The way my heart stopped in my chest

[theinfinitedivides]

I, Carrion followed right by Eat Your Young. Icarus is the young and the carrion, the dinner cooking and the edges starting to burn this now turns into some kind of eucharist this is his body and blood. this makes no f*cking sense ik but the actual f*ck Andrew this is evil and cruel

#hozier #stopping at EYY so i can get some f*cking sleep but the irony took a knife and carved my heart out of my chest #also yes i did finally pry myself away from De Selby. didn't change the way i'm having a breakdown piece by piece

[shima-draws]

Rewatching a playthrough of FNAF Security Breach and yeah. Glamrock Freddy really IS the Dad Ever

#It really doesn’t help when Sean literally calls him dad from the get go either. LMAOOO #HE IS SO DAD!!!!!!! #Freddy finds a tiny human hiding inside his chest and decides yes. My kid now. #Freddy: Way to go superstar!! 😊 #Me: I love you #They really gave us the ‘AI breaking its programming to become more human than the humans around it’ trope huh #NO!! I’M WEAK TO THAT TROPE!! STOP MY HEART CAN’T TAKE IT #Robots: *Gain sentience and protect the things they care about* #Me: BFNSJFJDJ. NDKSKFKKF. AAAAAAAAAA I LOVE YOUUUUUU 😭😭😭 #FNAF #Shima speaks #FNAF Security Breach #FNAF SB #Five Nights at Freddy’s

[skitskatdacat63]

#absolutely horribly down bad abt this simple 5 second clip #fernando's tiktoks murder me in numerous different ways #SIRRRRRRR STOP DOING THIS TO ME #giggling kicking my feet twirling my hair holding my phone clasped to my chest 🤭🤭🤭 #the old man gives me heart palpitations #also lance sitting next to him or ????? #but i like how his tiktok is a mix of shitposting and then super god tier edits(ty jimmy) #f1 #formula 1 #fernando alonso #fa14

[sadpanda]

I’m jumping into traffic what IS THIS?????

#911 abc #buddie #911 spoilers #y’all should’ve felt the way my heart actually stopped beating in my chest

[radiantmists]

man especially having now read the flashbacks i think about how hard xie lian always tries and how many people have told him that he tries too hard, that he never should have bothered and that doing so made things worse, or even more commonly just hating on him for not fixing things or being arrogant or whatever they think his problem is. and some of those people are probably even coming from caring places!

but before hua cheng, had anyone ever sat next to him and said, you tried and that's good, it matters that you cared, you did your best. nobody could have done better than you.

how badly must xie lian have needed that?

#tgcf #tian guan ci fu #heaven official's blessing #the donghua is making me emotional #this arc made me emotional in the books but what can i say people crying in my ears makes it worse #GOD the way xie lian loses his temper for a /half a minute/ bc he's spent centuries in silence about this #got stabbed through the chest and buried alive to preserve lang qianqiu's heart #and now it's all destroyed #and then the second he realizes that he did something as mild as shout at the person responsible #he breaks down apologizing?? #and like. its funnier with the romance parts later but its the same thing #xie lian is still human he can't stop himself from feeling or reacting to things #but he can hate himself for it. he can apologize for ever mildly inconveniencing someone else with his humanity #i don't think he internalizes what hua cheng says here at all #but. at least someone SAID it #at least someone told him what he did mattered and what he intended was worth something #after all that time #and like. you wonder how he can be so cheerful all the time usually despite all the shit that happened to him #but it's because he thinks he deserves every bit of it!! #i feel for hua cheng on a spiritual level i would also move mountains for this poor man if i could

[chonideno]

everything is heartbreaking and that's how it is

#i am going through it. all of it at once #it's only heartbreaking because it was beautiful before and it's beautiful now but in a different way #i know i know i know it's just the human experience #but it doesn't make it easier!! love and loss and life eras and all of that bullshit #countless people have walked that path before and it's my only comfort #it won't stop me from living and loving and all of that #but wow. black hole in the chest. light like a lead pebble in the heart. just as warm #this post is about grief and family and also other stuff #not death!! weirdly enough. not yet #shut up mag

[howtosingit]

I’m gonna be honest, Carlos gently patting TK’s calf as he stands up from the couch has rendered me completely useless and I will literally never recover from it

AND I MEAN LITERALLY 

#it's sometimes so hard to understand how much you long for this kind of intimacy in media when you've never really had it #but then you get it and you're like 'oh my god' and it kind of just sinks into your chest t and becomes this core thing in a way #and it's just this one small moment in an episode full of fantastic moments #and it wasn't even an acting choice meant to draw attention #it was the most natural thing in the world #but like... I can't stop watching it happen #this episode has done something to me that I can't explain #the repeated verbalization of love from these two #the way it was so clearly expressed without words too #the way they don't feel the need to define their love to others because it's THEIRS #but they also don't hesitate to share what the other means to them #THE WAY THAT LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT IS ACTUALLY BASICALLY CANON NOW #THE WAY THAT THIS MAN IS LITERALLY HIS WHOLE HEART #LIKE WHAT THE FUCK #ls spoilers #911 lone star #tarlos #this show was never supposed to do this to me #this is absolutely stupid

[holedyke]

of course the night i need to get to bed at a reasonable hour bc i have a early rise is ruined by my own brain working me up into a complete meltdown 😵‍💫 i am a prisoner to myselfffff

#i feel so so bad. tbh #tw for child abuse but i need to vent #i was watching a rlly good doc series on behavioral schools for teens which are pretty horrific and even though i never went through #anything like that. but just hearing the subjects from the doc talk about how they feel ruined after being destroyed like that as kids just #has me really emotional and i cant stop thinking about it bc i feel the same way i feel like ill never be who i could have or should have #been but what i went through just ruined me and ill never be okay i just feel fragile and mournful of myself i know nothing could have #saved me like its some big cosmic joke on me. and i never did anything to deserve that #no kid does amd yet it fucking happens and it happened to me witj zero repercussions which is almost what hurts the most #i just feel like a goddamn blubbering mess with a knawing black pit in my heart and i am never going to get to sleep at this point. #fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkk i just for once would like to feel okay about my past and my future like is this the me that ill always be? #broken and blubbering? fuck it feels awful. anyway. prob delete later but i just needed it off my chest #h

[nxctern]

There’s been something building up in my chest and mind for a while now

It’s an odd feeling

#idk what it is but it’s been hurting a lot these past months and it keeps growing #it feels both like a huge hole in me and something so so so so full of emotions about to burst at the same time #i cant cry at all either nothing comes out so im left with this buildup of things inside that eat me up and make me want to #try things i shouldnt do in an attempt to be able to release some pressure. idk what it is. idk why it’s been getting so bad lately its just #my chest keeps feeling tighter and tighter and in a way i’m just like ‘well i hope my heart stops soon’ #oh well it is what it is i’ll just see how many more weeks or months it can take i’ll keep u updated on when i have a full blown mental #breakdown where a year of negative emotions just come out 👍🏻 or maybe not depends on how it goes #oh i didnt mean to write so much heres a boring doodle from yesterday or a 2 days ago i think? #txt #was feelin blue for some reason #im hoping that the mental health will get the kind of bad where i make a lot of sad emo pieces in an attempt to not kms #those are my best works

[chemblrish]

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#ngl my mental health has been garbage lately #can the ex overachiever ever know peace? #im starting to think the answer is no #years of therapy and nothing has changed #this whole thing is so painful to me the only way i can bring it up irl is through jokes #i don't live in the us we don't have this gifted program stuff here #but i was so brilliant so excellent absolutely perfect #being mediocre now is like having my heart ripped out of my chest every single day #watching people do better than me has me on the verge of losing my mind #i know it has to sound whiny and ridiculous to people who never experienced this #but success was all i ever had #successful was all i ever was #and now i have nothing and i am no one #years of being used by teachers only to end up spat out by the education system #all this pain for nothing #my therapist used to say im quite literally grieving #how long is this supposed to last? #how long until i stop feeling so worthless and miserable? #im so sick of being like this but nothing ever changes #ill probably delete this later but i needed to vent first

[frida--y]

Go-Busters ep. 22 | Mission 22: The Beautiful Avatar, Escape!

#go busters #sc #i love how sad i feel for enter.. #kobayashi does a good job for making you feel for the antagonists by giving them hints of humanity #like enter's clearly bad but.. just the way he's curious about whats hes doing n his reaction to escape being made is just so interesting #i cant wait to see where enter will end up?? #also !!!!!!!!!!!!!! #i forgor escape is in this... ive seen images of her but since i dont really watch sentai it just never made #it to my mind that i would see her in go busters #i love how clearly distant she is to the world while calling messiah papa n enter's relationship with messiah is fucking horrible #and just how her heart symbol is on her chest while enter;s is on his back #okay stop with the tags

[skitskatdacat63]

I literally can't stop thinking about this sequence of pictures, actually completely brainrotting me

#ever since i watched aus 2009 i cant stop scrolling back up in my gallery to stare at these #like pics that genuinely make me roll around on my bed and squeal #GAHHHHHH LIKE THE WAY SEB IS GRINNING UP AT AND HESITANTLY PLACING HIS HAND ON HIS CHEST #AND THEN JENSON NOTICES AND MY GOD THE WAY HES LOOKING AT HIM I CANT I CANT #THE WAY THEYRE SMILING AT ESCH OTHER IM GONNA LOSE IT #AND LOOK HOW HARD JENSE IS GRIPPING HIM GODDDDDDDD #like i really cant express in words how these make me feel its actually just *tv static noises* #i feel like im grinning so hard looking at these that im gonna explode #(also @grace if you see these: ive been reading solar flare lately and GOD YOURE SO RIGHT WHEN YOU REFERENCED IT) #(theres this part where mark says to jb that hes been looking up podium/press pics of them online) #(and that they look like theyre in love HE IS LITERALLY ME FRRRRRR LIKE IM GOING INSANE OVER IT) #(these pics brainrotted me before i started reading it but reading it has only made it 100x worse/better) #anyways i really really like 2009 sebson they're so endearing to me 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #ig its just smth about how theyre so affectionate with each other despite being each others rivals #like constantly patting/nudging/hugging each other IM GONNA CRYYYYY IM GONNA EXPLODEEEE #i put these pics in the comp i made if seb but like bcs of the magnitude to which they affect me i needed to make a posr for them #just imagine me wailing and losing my mind irl and in these tags sob sob sob #if i stay committed w watching races ill just keep on going to the end of the v8 era so dw my wailing can only get worse :D #every time i scroll up out of the tags to look at the pics again i feel my heart skipping a bit HDJFKGKGKGL #anyways unhinged wdym unhinged :) #f1 #formula 1 #sebastian vettel #jenson button #jb22 #sv5 #sebson #2009 australian gp

[enrapture]

just my thoughts this morning after some traumatic shit happened the other day. 💔❤️‍🩹

#personal #thoughts #click to read the whole thing #and no one ever see it’s from my pov #no one cares about or considers my feelings #no one respects me they just blame me they don’t understand me #it’s so exhausting and it hurts so much #no one feels the way I feel ever no reciprocation ever:( #does it ever get better? LMK! #gods like: nah you don’t need “safe people lol 🤡 #while my heart continues to rip out of her chest #I feel like I don’t belong anywhere and it fucking sucks so fucking much #I just want a friend man :( #I know in my heart I’m a great person with nothing but good intentions #but I’m met with all these ill intentioned people #I go through situations with and ugh I could go on but I’m stopping here

[gingerbreadmonsters]

if my main goal was to get into arguments about people who aren't real, and explain for the millionth time that reading comprehension and critical thinking are actually useful skills that you should know, you do realise that i just wouldn't bother with the whole writing thing, right?

#its so funny to me when anons come into my inbox ready to get in a fight #like..... you must realise that i have the home turf advantage here right? #an ask full of half-hearted roasts and unusual spelling is not going to convince me that i am wrong and evil #i like to spend my time on the internet doing things that are fun and that don't piss me off #so why exactly do you think i'm going to waste my time dunking on you when i don't agree with you? #if i don't like what you have to say the quite frankly i don't have to talk to you on my blog #in the same way that you owe me nothing - i actually owe YOU nothing as well #i am not entitled to your time and attention and you should not treat me as though i am #and in the same way - you are not entitled to my time or attention either #if you have something to say and your first thought is 'i have to be on anon bc i don't want anyone to know who i am'? #then know that i am laughing at you very hard #say it with your whole chest and own up to that being your opinion - or sit down and stop talking #actually i have a better idea - BLOCK ME and THEN go and do whatever else you were doing #i assume it's maths homework or a book report or something #we don't need to agree - and to be honest i don't really care what your hot takes are about people who don't exist #do enjoy your evening

[oatbugs]

i can feel every single nerve and organ and bone inside my body. an exercise in emptiness: what will the next thought in your head be?

#i feel like im going insane . went in the psych department w my friend again i decided to stop hating it for no reason except that its not #maths . why the fuck dont you study ? because the module name starts with a PS ? i need to love it without #feeling shame for myself . i feel like im gonna get into trouble with my university for prying open locked automatic doors at 1 AM but its #alright (that building is haunted anyway). its not about him but it is but it really isnt its about everything it means its about the way i #cant cry for myself the way i used to its the sadness and happiness and that im turning 20 soon and im going a little insane but im shocked #that i still have friends i love im shocked that i am loved im shocked that i dont feel disgusted thinking about him yet #(and ill look for a man to turn me into a hare just like you did when you did what you did) #when alt j 3ww said . f5 f6 f6 f5 f5 #i constantly feel like my chest is about to explode and i have no idea why its a physical pain its great and also horrible #id like to rip out my ribcage and put a bird and some flowers inside it id like to rip out my sternum and pierce the thoughts with it #4 43 AM i have an exam about brains i stared at a vintage photo of a brain pinned and labelled i learned the names and positions of sulci #im learning about magic (action potentials) and gates inside your brain and every day i learn how hard your body tries to keep you alive #(his lips turn sharp when he smiles) (choking on flowers and music and fear) (feel every feeling inside my throat feel metal at the back #of my head) (i miss your hard edges i miss your bone marrow) #hypothesis : perhaps if i put my lips on someone elses lips and i dont let go of them for a few hours ill be okay #needle (sharp like the spice in what i made you) shooting 5 mg of haldol straight into the hypothalamus . gave myself a concussion and #since that night my head has been blooming . the violin today felt like liquid gold . moderato - spiritoso - the bow turned my heart inside #out . id like to scream and i have no idea why but one day i will turn my vertebrae into a bouquet of flowers for you all. #yesterday my boy with the beautiful hair looked at me and held me tight enough that i heard his heartbeat (or maybe it was mine) #for a second or two and i wish i could lean on him for this except his heart has been crushed by the mathematician discerning eyes #for a while and a half . #dyed your hair red i dyed your hair brown youre on my bed and your hand touches my hand and every day i am amazed by the way your mind #turns my guts and my heart inside out #for a second or two and i wish i could lean on his bony shoulders for this except his lungs have filled with water #for a while and a half . dyed your hair red i dyed your hair brown youre on my bed i stare at the grace of her hands you are evidence #that angels and pomegranate seeds and create the economist of our dreams . game theory and good actions by any other name . #she makes the sound the sea makes knee deep in the north sea

[canongf-archive]

eddie playlist for you 🕊️ hehe

I dare you- the regrettes

crush- ethel cain

anthems for a seventeen year old girl- broken social scene

teenage dream- the plugs

baby- bishop briggs

queen of the night- hey violet

if i could- 1927

boys of summer- the ataris

💗 VENNNNN!!!!! 💗

i GASPED when i saw this message. and as soon as i pulled up 'i dare you' and listened to the first 30 seconds... i knew. i KNEW. i knew these were all going to be something special. they are all so good and so catchy but they also perfectly encapsulate the relationship VIBE!!! i am over the moon. i am a changed woman. i am listening to these songs on repeat and i will be for the foreseeable future. thank you thank you thank you!!! thank you for thinking of me and thank you for sending me this playlist and thank you for being you because ilysm!!!!!!!!!! 💗💗💗

#THIS IS TRULY THE BEST GIFT YOU COULD HAVE GIVEN ME #I AM GIVING YOU THE BIGGEST PUPPY DOG EYES #I AM BLOWING YOU KISSES ALL THE WAY FROM HERE #I AM PULLING MY HEART OUT OF MY CHEST AND AM GIVING IT TO YOU #ILYSM THANK YOU SOOO MUCH!!! #like now these are all on my eddie playlist but also my current faves playlist bc i can't stop listening #also when i got to the last one #i was like #'boys of summer... like the don henley song?' bc it's one of my fave don henley songs #AND THEN IT WAS A COVER #AN AMAZING COVER #I ASCENDED I WAS SO HAPPY #I'M STILL SOOO HAPPY #<33333 #futurewife #eddie.ask #otp: semi-charmed