#To make art or do proper writing

[sergle]

I'm thinking abt that pretty fall leaves embroidery pattern post and about how like... it is categorically a repost, it's a reupload. right? a thing that is generally disliked. but because it's credited, it's genuinely boosting the artist in question. and it could ALWAYS be like this. reposting content could ALWAYS be a symbiotic relationship, but because sourcing back to the original creator of something is so uncommon, it's just easier to ask people not to repost it at all. and people still don't understand the difference. or they'll go to the effort of cropping out usernames/signatures to repost something, which is More Effort than literally crediting the creator of something you liked enough to want to repost. Like. I literally don't actually care if my own shit gets reposted, you have to understand. I just don't want it STOLEN. But "do not repost" is easier to write on my art than "you can repost this, but don't alter the image/remove my signature, don't you dare write 'credit goes to the artist' because that is not credit, please link back to my original post or someplace that you can actually find me. please use an actual link/url instead of writing a non-clickable link of my username, because making it text instead of a clickable link cuts the number of people who will go to the effort of visiting my own page in Half." All those aggregate themed accounts, those fuckin annoying as hell instagrams and facebook groups that are like "body positive art we love wamen 💕 hashtag feminism" and then MASS-STEAL plus sized art created by women, if pages like these that always go and steal my older self-portraits and other works... If they just put a link to my prints of those pieces in the text of those posts, or, fuck, my commission info page? I would literally be living on the moon right now. I would have a house on the moon

#there is actually nothing morally wrong with running an account that just reuploads ppl's artwork or their jokes or their cosplays #if you just put a VISIBLE LINK in the description of your post with proper credit then it would be beneficial for everyone #because you can get your little clout or whatever it is you want by putting a bunch of same-category content on a page #but nobody's getting fucked over because if your post blows up then people just get FUNNELED to the source #because it's placed so plainly where everyone can see it #and yeah it's better to retweet or reblog but #on the rare occasion that I see my shit reuploaded on tumblr WHICH IS WEIRD BC I MAKE MY OWN POSTS HERE but anyway #someone making their own post where they upload my stuff. and it's always the floral self portraits so let's say it's a post with all those #if I scroll to the bottom and it says like. Artwork by Serglesinner on Twitter <-- clickable link [Sergle's Prints] <-- clickable link #to my etsy #I'm like oh okay and all the anger leaves my body and I'm like ah I see. and I toss the rock aside #like oh okay so you actually care that a person made these pieces. Instead of posting the caption ''women <3'' or smth #like you've GOTTA die if you do that. but if you just link back #or if you go to the effort of writing like a description with a BLURB? like it's a damn museum. like a light paragraph of info #about what the art is and who made it and their links #I am literally sucking you in a strange and peculiar manner. that is extremely helpful #and maybe other artists don't want this AT ALL and they'd rather people not reupload even if it is credited #but I feeeeeeeeel. like 99% of the time this would solve the issue #reposters could genuinely be helping ppl. sometimes the repost gets more traction than the real thing #as long as it credits the creator then that's an okay thing to happen! #that can land somebody a sale! a commission order! a new fan! A JOB #A JOB!!!!!!!!!! #sergle.txt #I didn't write this eloquently AT ALL what the fuck ever barkbarkbarkbark

[2hoothoots]

i was having a chuckle to myself last night about Gristol, and how his plans are basically:

Restore Ford Cruller's memory

Find Maligula

???

Profit

but then... of course they are, right? this is Gristol we're talking about. Fatherland Follies drives home again and again that he's still operating on a child's logic, a warped and reductive version of the world that he never bothered to grow out of. both of his memory vaults center on the images of his childhood, this idealized version of the past that he clings to no matter what. and that's still how he remembers Maligula, too - as this saviour figure, who rushes in to help him when he's in trouble.

[ID: Two slides from Gristol's memory vault, Glory to Grulovia! Left: Gristol clings to Maligula's back as she summons waves to sweep away his assailants. Right: Gristol and Maligula waving from a balcony as the people cheer. Gzar Theodore brandishes a dagger in the background.]

like so much else, Maligula represents a return to this idyllic childhood - to the peace and simplicity of his youth, when he was free from worries and responsibilities. in his mind, he doesn't need to make any further plans - once Maligula's back, everything will go back to normal. Maligula will make everything better.

...is what i thought, but then i remembered this line:

[Screenshot source. ID: Gristol, in Truman's body, bows on his hands and knees in front of the newly-awaked Maligula. The caption reads: "Yes, High Priestess! I am here to correct the mistakes made by my father!"]

and that's kind of interesting, right?

to be clear: this happens directly after Maligula sees Helmut-in-Gristol's-body, and recognises him. her line before this is:

"Little Gzesaravich! Have you come to pay for your father's sins?"

my first thought was that Gristol hadn't expected to still be in Truman's body by the time he managed to find Maligula, and this was him trying to placate her and buy some time until he could explain the situation. but watching the cutscene back, that's clearly not what's happening here. Gristol is answering as himself, and his response of throwing himself to his knees before her is, as far as i can tell, genuine.

so what is going on here?

in Fatherland Follies, there's this line in the ride narration that stuck out to me:

"Why didn't the Gzar help Maligula in her time of need? No one knows, but historians agree - it is Gzar Theodore's biggest failure."

other lines mention Gzar Theodore's "mistake", and it's wording Gristol himself echoes in the screencap above. evidently, he believes that his father abandoned Maligula, leaving her to her fate at the hands of the Psychonauts, and it was that mistake that lead to them being driven out of the country - that mistake which he seeks to correct. maybe he even feels like he has a debt to repay to her for his family turning their backs on her all those years ago.

the 'High Priestess' thing, though - that's kinda weird, and threw me for a loop the first time i played the game. it took me until my second playthrough to connect the dots, and remember how the room in the Lady Luctopus - Gristol's room - was full of Delugionist scribblings and symbols.

[Screenshot source. ID: left, the walls of the hidden backroom in Gristol's hotel suite, covered in scrawlings of eyeballs and Maligula's name. Right, the pinboard from the hidden backroom. On its surface are photographs and newspaper clippings connected by pieces of string.]

i mean, look at this stuff! he had a whole conspiracy board and everything!

we learn very little about the Delugionists and their beliefs as a whole during the game, but i think drawing the connection here suggests two important things. one: that Gristol was in deep with this stuff. i don't know how he linked up with them - maybe via old family connections, or just good old-fashioned digging (we know he's skilled at worming his way into peoples' good graces, after all) - but it seems likely that he's begun to internalise their ideas, maybe even warping his own memories of events. and two: the Delugionists themselves are, if you'll pardon the pun, pretty far off the deep end.

like... i understand why PN2 didn't go heavy on the "mass-murderer cult worship" aspect of things, in the end, but man this is such a tantalising glimpse into the wider mythos around Maligula. Gristol is proud and haughty and thinks himself above everyone else; the fact that his first reaction seeing Maligula is to throw himself to the ground at her feet says so much about the way he's come to see her. he's not just trying to bring back Maligula, his childhood bodyguard. he's trying to bring back Maligula, the High Priestess of the deluge, the semi-mythical figure whose supporters believe even death couldn't stop. he doesn't even flinch at the way she confronts him, and maybe it's because he's bought in so completely to this deified figurehead, this idea of Maligula; more a living force of nature than a person. and it all comes back to the same place: an abdication of responsibility, not just to the person who protected him when he was little but to this avatar of floods and destruction. Maligula will make everything better.

i'd write more about my thoughts on the Delugionists but that'd be taking a hard turn into speculation, and this is already kind of long and rambling so i'd better end it here. but what an unexpected and evocative line, right? it's some of the only stuff we have to go off of regarding the Delugionists as a whole, but i think it does such a good job of hinting at the wider story - at teasing another layer to the mythos surrounding Maligula, one whose ripples we see throughout the game but which never quite breaches the surface.

#psychonauts #psychonauts 2 #bored waiting at the airport so you get more psychonauts meta from me #the delugionists have been on my mind recently (because i Might Just have an upcoming au lorepost about them and also cults are fun) #so tossing my thoughts up here because people seemed to like the last few times i did this #and also it's my blog and i like to talk :) #related vent i HATE drafting posts in the tumblr editor because if you hit crtl+z to try and undo a formatting change #it deletes like half the post you just typed out #(yes i did it again while i was writing this. yes i'm still salty. why do i even bother) #what else... this is just becoming a disconnected thoughts dump #but if you've seen my posts you knew what you were signing up for when you hit the button to expand the post tags #there's new art coming hopefully this weekend if i can get it finished! it's more mermaid au designs #i'm two and a half weeks late for mermay but it turns out starting a new job and moving house doesn't leave you with a ton of free time #but that's okay it's never too late for mermaids #omg and artfight's coming up next month too! geez #i gotta make refsheets for the fsau trio because i would LOVE to get art of them #and this year i don't have a thesis to crunch on so i might actually have time to participate #oh and then in august i'm having top surgery! will make a proper announcement post for it at some point #i say 'announcement'. it's just a life update but it's nice to share #i'm super excited about it :) #i might end up blogging the process and recovery but obviously it won't be going here lol. i'd put it on my main #idk if anyone would find it useful but when i first started looking into surgery i had like very little idea about the whole process #and it's only through joining a bunch of online support/discussion groups that i managed to find more info and resources #so hey it might be useful to share? we'll see #our flight doesn't land for another fifty minutes so now i'm just writing in the tags because i'm bored #alright i'll proofread this and then post it when i land and have signal again. peace out yall hope your pride month is going well

[electrical-communication]

You should draw more Elecman <33 He’s so gender and hot 💖💖💖

A man who is a beloved wife

#megaman classic #elecman #elec man #megaman #mega man #archie mega man #panel redraw #tw robogore #robogore tw #just in caseeee #my art :) #my asks #my requests #I should actually write out my gender hcs for him and the other rms someday.. #these are very wip but I’ve been in a art block so I decided to just post them anyway #toxtricity #I need to do an actual proper drawing of elec with his guitar #but drawing instruments sucks… and I’d wanna make it a unique design too #if youre meanies to him my s/o will kill you.. btw.. heed my warning..

[sourtoasterstrudel]

LOOK AT MY KIDS. I love these two so much, Lionel (sweater vest) has been with me for like 2 or 3 years now which is wild. He means the world to me so I’m really excited to show him off. Not to mention spork (werewolf), my little mud eating freak, though she’s only been around a couple of months. I was messing around with some new pens, trying out some new textures with colouring.

Most of what i plan to share about them will be more oriented on either their friendships or their town, Wormwood. Wormwood itself is a strange little Canadian ex-military town surrounded by forest. My idea for wormwood is for it to essentially be a mix of gravity falls and twin peaks, taking the light hearted strange creatures from gravity falls, and mixing it with the weird murder mystery aspect of twin peaks, as 19 people in wormwood all disappeared from their beds without a trace; Li was one of these people, but for some reason, 10 years later, he came back, though he wasn’t exactly in the same condition as when he left.

One of my favourite facts about wormfood that i really have no way of squeezing in there so i wanted to just mention it— there is physically no sun in wormwood. The sun just doesn’t seem to ever pass over wormwood or ever give it any sort of light. Luckily manmade lightsources have become all the rage in the past few centuries

#i dont know how much actual story I’ll write for it #soursart #like i have ideas and stuff but like i said i mostly want the focus to be on the weird shit that goes on in wormfood #and the weird kids that run around there #i do have ideas for a proper story but i dunno #i don’t think I’ll ever make it like— a comic #just a thing i talk about and share lore for on here #the proper title for it is Wormfood #which is one of the few things that hasn’t changed about it since i created these guys #ocs #oc #oc art #wormfood

[poisonouspastels]

#i figured this would be better suited for a separate post continuing from here #I've had people get angry at me for giving Steve a proper strongman build - thus making him fat and muscular in the process #ive gotten people mad at me for making him his direct colorpicked skin tone. got told I made him ''the wrong color'' for it #got called slurs #got told i need to just ''take a joke'' when im getting right fully angry at people telling me im wrong for making his AU design that way #been quite literally told our art looks ''ugly as hell'' when people ran out of bigoted arguments #its all just getting really hard and really tiring to keep doing what i love when everyone is vocal about hating it #and very few people are vocal about liking it #i do art for me dont get me wrong. and people have been supportive. #but i cant help but wonder if anyone would have even cared about the mega ref at all if it hadn't been surrounded by people full of hate #its just hard to stay motivated and put my all into something that's gotten so much backlash for stupid reasons you know #i've been putting so much love into my work surrounding this AU lately. my writing and my art. for over the past year now #i try not to ask anything in return other than for people to just pay attention to it at all. give it a reblog #but the one time we have something out of it become popular its because people are stupid and bigoted #i dont care about numbers this isnt about that. i just care about returning the passion i put into the world. #if anyone wants to send anything my way feel free. i could use it #sorry for venting

[aria0fgold]

Okay fine, I'll try to set my kofi up properly eeerrrrr....... head in hands how do you actually do this tho yall ppl strong cuz am slowly dying here

#aria rants #the desire to do everything for free cuz i just love making things for ppl vs the desire to just get enough to buy isat #vs the strong self-doubt that whatever i make isnt actually worth the money of which im perfectly fine with cuz i love #making things for free anyway but also there's isat and also how tf do these ppl manage comms anyway like the whole #setup of: here's the services im willing to do for this price! like how. im not built for this why did i do this #for one thing the only skill im confident with is writing. art aint. i dont even have a proper drawn piece to put in this thing #and also like oiouououoghghg maybe i should just wait. im built for waiting actually like i dont mind that too #i waited years till i could get omori btw cuz i couldnt get enough money during the first few sales it had #so i kept waiting for other sales cuz also i was like unsure of buying it at full price #isat youre next actually. as you can see im not built for money im built for the patience (its what happens when f2p on gacha games tbh)

[daz4i]

i should be more openly and unapologetically self shipping on main i should make aus and start commissioning art of us or smth.

#ok no i won't commission art I'm too cheap for that. the idea is nice tho #and. i likely won't actually write down any details of any au bc i don't like myself enough for that. but it might be nice to imagine #......now to figure out an au- #(also i should probably make a proper self insert at some point. i never really do that for shipping purposes hm)

[xiaeom]

i have the urge to make a vn

#i doubt that i can do the whole thing #just a demo -w- #i have no writing skills tho.. #but !!! i want to give making art/video games a proper try before i leave art for good and focus on my career

[chiropteracupola]

returning to one of my favorite pastimes, which is Being Sad About Archie Kennedy (and writing about that, and you can read that writing right here)

#em writes stuff #hornblower #horatio hornblower #archie kennedy #surprise of surprises this is actually what the tma au turned into in the end #scraped off the ghosts and the (pre-leitner) leitner and spun what was left out for another thousand words or so #and in the end I find that I like the result much better than I was liking the first version #hopefully I'll have the inspiration to do the same with the other two hornblower fics I've had to leave in the yeast jar lately #and I'm pleased with how the header worked out as well - it's been a while since I've had the energy to make it a proper art piece #hee hoo my childhood california-missions obsession is showing through a little in this one #it's not very often that I get to work on something that I have so many Loud Memories to use for inspiration #although with my typical disregard for using them correctly it is just Gently Applied Vibes for my own fun #enough with the rambling go read the fic why don't you #(I finished this a week ago and then just Forgot and left it in my drafts because I got so caught up in writing other stuff ahaha...)

[ssoupcup]

i need to do this when s3 ends as well. it feels like a pokemon evolution. when will she unlock her final form

#i really wish i had come up with this wsoup stuff earlier bc i actually could have done interesting stuff with it but alas. #i came up with it in december and the backstory?? that shit arrived in my head about 3 months ago #I realise now this is what I meant when I say I have everything planned out. its not s3 I have incredibly planned out. its the past/s2. #its not relevant now but like its just sitting in my head and I gotta convey it SOMEHOW #so im just making callbacks to it in lore to cover up the fact that i have NO IDEA WHAT IM DOING SOBS/half jokimg #ehh i have plans so itll be fine. for whom? i shan't say. #oh my god. i forgot the regulsr tags. #websmp #websoup #web smp #websmp lore #i am meaning to do a proper lore art piece soon. I dont stream or anytning so im just trying to figure out how to convey this lore in my #head without monologuing to a stream and its a STRUGGLE. which is why theres so many books ive gotta get it down somehow 😭😭 #if u have any ideas on how else to. PLEASE msg me i need help #also. speaking of writing. #I apologise in advcance. #for what I have done

[turner-strait]

oh hey i just saw one (1) person make (implied) pepstavo naughties on the bird app. yay.

#it was self-naughties with some gus thoughts and it was really fucking cute #but literally whose butt do i have to fuck to get me some proper pep/stavo naughties #that's like properly tagged and searchable #''skonz you can literally make it yourself'' DO YOU KNOW ME FAM I AM TOO LAZY #mostly i'm just mad about all the ant/on and the lack of gus #like gus is RIGHT THE FUCK THERE #i don't hate it i just really dislike it - like how do i get rid of it CLEARLY blocking the ship tag is not enough lmao #anyway yeah. so one great 34 pep'vo artist whose art i absolutely loved #is apparently writing some sort of fake/st'ick rape comic and i'm just-- #like the (unrelated) vore shit i could scroll past but this? nah son bye. sad that your fat old men will now be just a memory 👋 #anyway it's like 2:30 in the morning I've had like suburban mom levels of wine and i'm mad :c #i just wanna vent :c #sonja whines

[artekai]

Lab partners ♥︎

#deni's art #deni's stuff #oc tag #oc: fross #oc: dailah #dailah x fross #horizon oc #horizon au #oc x oc #oc art #fross lives au #(every time i think about it it comes closer to becoming canonverse ngl :') ) #oh dailah i'm so sorry darling i'm sorry this is your first proper introduction to society you deserve so much better than this my beloved #but i've been going insane over these two over like the past week or so they're so cute omg they're perfect for each other you don't unders #i could write an essay on how this ship came to be and why they have a future together unlike frosskai but brain is fried rn lmao #so i will spare you the bulk of it for now hehe #don't get me wrong! frosskai still owns my heart. but just consider: bisexuals kiss <3 #btw fross was totally the one who pestered dailah about lab safety and then he didn't pull back his own hair smh #but what do i know? i'm not a scientist :') #also fross is a tsundere now because he has trust issues from what happened with kai. sorry i literally make the rules lol #he's also been touch starved since the breakup and everyone hates him so like. when dailah suddenly hugs him he just... bluescreens #right after this he's gonna whine about dailah touching him before removing her lab coat and gloves and cleaning up lol #and dailah is gonna be SO embarrassed because she didn't mean to cross fross's boundaries #she's still getting used to having a social life! :') #but... considering that she and her lab partner just rediscovered penicillin or smth idk idk anything about medicine #a celebration is in order right? she's just so happy i love her :') #besties. besties. fross and dailah UNDERSTAND each other. if they had been in each other's shoes... they are not so different after all #except fross has something dailah wants (knowledge) and dailah has something fross needs (passion) #besties. besties. you don't understand #sorry i'll stop being insane and all over the place now <3 enjoy the pretty couple <3

[einsatzzz]

The charming and outgoing fashionista, Ninomiya Kurumi! 🎀

#oc #original character #art #artists on tumblr #illustration #digital art #im still practicing hehe #but its fun #i wanna draw and talk abt my ocs more #also we changed her emoji from peach to ribbon #oniyanagi #ninomiya kurumi #also i followed that one post that had tips on what tags to use i hope im doing it right #the only tagging system i know here is writing an essay in the tags hahahaahah #also wanna make proper profiles for them but thats for when im satisfied with my art improvement #ngl its still wonky rn #also--- #im so talkative in the tags #einart

[leechandoki]

For Prompt #60, Bazz has hurt the reader's feelings.

YUS!! I AM WRITING MORE SHORT SELF-INSERT FICS HAHAHAHAHA

The urge to draw her has flooded my head for so long. I shall draw more of her >:) !!

#Wanted to give her more dread like hair but my hands were disagreeing with me >:( #When I do draw her again I will make a better attempt and give her dreads #bazz loz botw #botw bazz #my art #quick sketch #sketch #bazz breath of the wild #bazz x reader #HAHAHAHAHAHHA #I'll give her more proper clothes and design this was more a a sketch to get an idea for the short fic I'm writing

[andromeda-nova-writing]

Gonna try and rework a fic cause i like it but it needs some improvement. keep me company while I work. maybe ill answer questions and share things from the fic as i work

Also silly drawings are still open

https://drawme.share-on.me/urLTm8cAAs

#ive actually previewed this fic before #i may just make a proper outline of how it is and add what i need in to improve the outline before writing #i genuinely enjoyed the art that was sent out last time so dont be afraid #If you dont want me to post the drawing do let me know on the drawing if not i will be sharing them with everyone cause good art

[aria0fgold]

It's happening... I'm creating something for mahoyaku for reals now.

#aria rants #am gonna be participating in a caiowe week ehe #and doing some prompts as fics #oneshots theyre all oneshots THANK GOD!!! #am allocating all my time and ingraining it into my head that this week is caiowe week and nothing else #caiowe has infested my brain to the point of creation #chuckles im in danger #my ao3 account boutta have its 2nd fandom and ofc its mahoyaku #might also make art of em for some prompts as well #maaayyybeee not sure cuz im still considerably bad at it than i am with writing #and i cannot do a proper drawing in the span of one day