I think an underlooked part of what shaped jin’s mindset was how even back in Torna, he was considered “property”. He and Lora spent their whole lives avoiding the authorities of Torna because they believed would straight up execute Lora to get Jin back, and no one ever denies it. and this has seemingly been a fear since Lora was a child. Jin had to hide his face everywhere he went. Maybe Torna wouldn’t have been cruel enough to execute a child, especially since the king seemed decent(?) enough, if not a bit distant. But the fact it was even a fear at all for Lora since she was so young is just awful to think about.
According to his past self’s journals, Jin and his old driver fought in a war of independence for Torna, perhaps what made him a hero to begin with. and because he’s a war hero for deeds he doesn’t even remember, the kingdom considers him owned by them. Which is on the nose in two different ways ngl. Both in how the Blades are seen and a wider metaphor of soldiers/state. idk it’s just very sad to think about
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it’s actually insane to think about how fast getting the fuck away from anti ideology helped alleviate my pocd specifically. like, obviously it didn’t cure it, i still have intrusive thoughts of that nature from time to time, but constantly being vigilant that i was consuming fiction in the “wrong” way was so detrimental to me and unlearning the idea that reading or writing a damn fic was the same as actually abusing a child helped me out SO much when it comes to csa related intrusive thoughts. like, i’m no longer a panicking suicidal mess when i have them because i think i’m doomed to hurt a child, and that’s a good thing.
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I think at least part of the reason the fandom focuses on Riku so much is that the fandom is like 20 years old and the early '00s were rife with "must hate female character for getting in the way of the gay ship" attitudes (most fans grew past that). But I see a lot of echoes of that early attitude still in the fandom today, which I think contributes to both the Riku obsession and the Kairi hate.
"most fans grew past that"
I don't know if they necessarily grew past it so much as migrated to other fandoms with more active and/or "adult" content, though. Because I do still see it around elsewhere, such as the Fandom That I Refuse to Admit To that I mentioned in the tags on my last post (which, funny enough, caught my attention precisely because I noticed an overlap in KH fans with that particular fandom). And it happens with just as much vitriol as early 2000s KH fandom. Though I suppose it's also possible that it's all kids just repeating the same attitudes of fandoms past now that they're the same age those KH fans were, or most likely, a combination of the two
I'm unwilling to commit to a specific explanation precisely because this isn't an issue exclusive to the KH fandom or the early 2000s, it's a widespread thing that still affects fandoms. It's just weirdly prevalent with the KH fandom, and particularly in regards to Riku. But even if we go with your explanation... I mean, like I said, Axel/Lea gets mostly ignored now despite being the "Riku" of the KH2 era, and any Namine and Xion hate has mostly petered off, but for some reason the Riku > Sora + Kairi thing still remains. That's why I suspect there's probably more personal reasons involved (the "Riku is their childhood crush that they never got over" thing from my original tags) than anything else
And again, let's not forget my original example. I still get hit with the Riku favoritism when looking at content for Twisted Wonderland, a game set in an all-boys magic school that doesn't have any female characters in the main cast. It can't possibly have the attitudes you're talking about, yet I still see the occasional post erasing aspects of one of my favorite characters' personality to make him "just like Riku" because of a superficial physical resemblance. The Riku obsession sometimes bleeds over into other fandoms, that's how ubiquitous it is. So there must be something else there other than "must hate female character for getting in the way of the gay ship" because Riku fans will diminish characters in other fandoms in similar ways just for the crime of looking like Riku
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So, I actually really liked episode 5 despite finding it quite triggering. It was effective. After sitting with it for a while the thing I find the most viscerally upsetting about all of this is the number of people insistent on eschewing Louis and Claudia’s emotional interiority and agency in order to bend themselves into knots to justify the things Lestat has done to them.
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but could we meet by the first of july
Rating: T / PG-13
Campaign Setting: Eberron / Around Khovaire in Fifty Days
Summary:
'It's not as bad as it looks.'
'Really, cause it looks pretty bad.' Monty was a bit surprised she had even answered. Her soulmate had been quiet for quite some time now. 'My MOM even stopped me to ask if you were okay.'
A few beats go by. 'And did she also notice the hickeys all over your neck the other day?'
[lord I've been prayin', for somebody I've never seen]
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[content warning for various injury related scars]
i told myself I would never write a soulmate au, like i just never wanted to go there y’know, but the tried and true "you share the same markings on your skin as your soulmate" works perfectly with aberrant marks and I couldn't put it down. We've never exactly dwelled on how our aberrant character feels about being so, so I wanted to take a shot at it going in the angsty route. Eberron created a really complex yet so very marginalized group of people, and I wanted to dig a bit into how unfair the world is for them.
not as many pc & npc cameos in this one, I tried a different style that's more serious & vague than usual - but apparently I've decided demetrius is my comic relief
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Accents are always a difficult thing to manage in audiobook production but I seriously have to question the sense of the person who got a ‘full cast’ of American actors to narrate a novel set in England, especially since the main narrator has a perfectly English accent so it doesn’t match up.
Most of the cast aren’t too bad- the girls in particular are believable- but some of the younger voices sound like they’re dubbing a Japanese anime and one man in particular, supposed to be an Englishman (I think), unfortunately just reminds me of Kermit the Frog
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