#We’re sad tonight

[justalittlelogophile]

👀🤫 Silence 🤫👀

You used to hate it when I would go quiet

You'd get frustrated with me, your cheeks flushed, your eyes narrowed over your frames.

Telling me that I had this unwavering, silent, judging stare

Stating that I would “mock” you with my “proud”eyes

I was child.

Was it mockery that I had learned that you would not listen if I said anything, nor care about what I spoke?

Was it mockery?! That thenceforth I chose the preferable silence than conversing with you?

Or were you just so uncomfortable with the silence that you acted out because it was a resounding truth that was reflected in my eyes

Your words were hurting me

You were hurting me…

And I think you only got angry with me because deep inside…

You knew

The worst part?

You could see it in your daughter's eyes

~Po

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[monstrous-munch]

Ok I’m back with more thoughts…. I ended up writing way more than I thought I was going to haha also why is it every time I actually write some stuff for this blog is fae or fae adjacent ?? pfft

Tw: voyerism, dubcon ?? Like at the start ?? Idk just to be safe, vague mention of rejection by other humans, mentions of feeling isolated, yall get jiggy with a water elemental

Ok, but imagine living by yourself, out in the wilds, away from the village full of people you turned you away. Do you get lonely sometimes ? Sure, but it’s better than being around those who don’t want you.

Most often you’re fine with it. You enjoy your own company, and spend your days in a comfort of your own making. But sometimes that ache arises. The one that yearns so desperately for warmth. To be held by another. To no longer feel alone….. when this happens you take a trip to the hot springs.

Slipping into the warm water, you bask in the heat - letting it seep into your tense muscles and ease that aching in your chest. Faint ribbons of steam dance in the silver light as you relax fully. You’ve been coming here for many moons now, and each time you leave feeling content.

Hands creeping downward, you gently brush the skin of your chest, stomach, thighs….before dipping further. The water already feels so good, why not add to the satisfaction you feel before it’s time to leave ?

Eyes closed, you feel the the pleasure from your fingers, and the warmth of the water - the way it’s gentle volume seems to craddle you, move against your legs, gentle lap at your throat.

With a soft moan you lazily lift you eyelids, only to be startled by the form of a man waist deep at the other side of the pool. Well not really a man. Although it takes on a humanoid shape, the figure across from you is completely formed from the hot springs water. You’d heard of creatures like this. Ancient magic so strong it took on a life of its own; through water, air, earth or fire.

There world around the two of you totally stills, waiting for someone to break the silence. It’s the water elemental who speaks first. Well, he doesn’t really speak, the sound of a babbling stream emerges from him, though you understand as if he were speaking in your own tongue.

A garble of flustered apologies tumble out. He hadn’t meant to watch you… but he couldn’t really not, seeing as he was the hot springs. He should have revealed himself when you first came to the pool, but you were so beautiful, he felt unable to manifest as anything other than a puddle. And the way your tension eased as you lay within the water…the way you seemed so much happier when you left… he couldn’t stand to take that from you.

After hearing all his rambling, only one thing hummed in your mind.

“You’re the reason I don’t feel alone.”

Although the elemental had no need to breath, you swore you saw him gasp softly, eyes filled with yearning as the water around you gently swirled.

Standing, you made your way towards him; parting the spring slowly with your hips as you came to stand before the curious being. Lifting a hand, you gently pressed your fingers against him. Sliding them up his chest as the water tension kept you from sinking in. With only a moments hesitation, you tentatively pressed your lips to his, cradling the warmth of his cheek and raising to your toes to press closer. The crash of an ocean wave filled your ears, what could only be a groan from this watery creature, as he pulled you’re naked body further against him.

Soon sweet moans filled the night. The elemental held you close, his touch at times almost human - strong arms around you, his mouth pressed to you neck - but the sudden morphing of sensations, into the caress of water you had grown familiar with, reminded you what held you was much more than a man. A gentle current seemed to spread you legs wider as you were filled over and over. First by a tender caress, the tide against a river’s edge in the mauve hours of evening. Then, growing, swelling, till you felt like a rocky cliff meeting the crashing waves of a storm. Despite the rhythm of waves rushing forth, you still felt safe, the warm water holding you, soothing you as it always had - only now the whispers of steam carried with them sweet words of worship.

With a final cry you pleasure reached its peak. The waves around you lulled, encircling you in a soft embrace. The spring had always been something that helped ease your loneliness, now running your fingers over the water elementals tenderly smiling face, you felt a lightness in you chest like nothing you’d known before.

#im a little sad so we’re having fluff tonight haha #also if you don’t like all the water imagery too bad #pfft #as always if you see spelling mistakes….no you don’t #I can’t spell for shit guys so pls ignore it if you see that I goofed #monster fucker #monster lover #monster boyfriend #tetrophilia #monster boy #monster x human #monster x reader #monster x you #monster x gender neutral reader #tetro

[deklo]

watched bottoms with my sister and now i’m making her watch sharp objects :3 hehe

#technically sharp objects was her idea #but after she watched bottoms she was like nooo i don’t wanna watch something sad and intense #but it’s too late :) #we’ll probably only watch one ep anyways #also i have to go to sleep at a reasonable time tonight #because we’re planning on going to breakfast EARLY #to a restaurant that i always make fun of people lining up for so early!!! i’ve become my own worst enemy (i need to fix my sleep anyways)

[stig-ishness]

happy birth to me~

i am born today :3

#will update with the stig-related presents we’re pretending I don’t know about tonight once I open them :3 #not putting my actual age on here bc. internet safety or whatever but It My Birthday Haha #rook speaks #rook draws #top gear #the stig #stig art #it looks better on the post it which is very sad but I am in the car so my good picture ability is limited #it’s a sad rushed car doodle because i do not have the time right now TTWTT

[aheathen-conceivably]

Things better turn around for the family soon or else I'll....idk what I'll do, probably start crying again. Curse you and your wonderful writing! - LGL

Oh hello, LGL! It has been a while my darling. 💕

Let me just say I make no promises other than you maybe, probably, will definitely cry again. How distant in the future that may be? Well I cannot say 👀

#I’m in my cryptic era tonight #what can I say I love a vague spoiler #but y’all should know we’re on a roller coaster that never stays too sad for *too* long #and then it dips again whoops #thanks for joining me on the ride you are all strong you can do it I know you can 🫡 #and also thanks LGL love ya babe #Nonny reacts

[wipeawaythosetearsofbloodagain]

Today marks 13 months dating my sweet boyfriend!!

#im his girl :)) #i love you my sweet boyfriend #i miss him so much I can’t sleep with him tonight and I’m sad about it! #tomorrow we’re gonna color eggs for easter!!! #i miss youuu <3 #i love you!! #im his baby heheheh I love my handsome boy!

[muirneach]

yippee rangers tonight 😁

#sad i missed the nucks last night but yayy my guyd #*guys #and by tonight i mean rat nao #we’re so tying it up tonight. bye bye canes #sportsball

[teabookgremlin]

I WANNA BE HAPPT IM READY TO WALK INTO MY ROOM WITHOUT LOOKING FOR YOU GO IP TO THE TOP OF MY BUILDINF AND REMEMBER MY DOG WHEN I SEE THE FULL MOON

#really sad tonight #i miss justice and iris and king #something is hitting me really hard about not having a dog rn #i think it’s that this weekend we’re visiting our parent org and the last i was there was to drop off king #and also im planning on starting to clear his stuff out of my room #i haven’t been able to bring myself to do it yet #and i know all three of my pups are doing awesome #but one of them any of them should still me with me rn #also i’m stressed that the president of the puppy raising club will fuck me over for getting an 8 week old this summer #bc i’m living in a student apartment so dog stuff goes through the student accessibility services #and we’re not sure if they will ok an 8 week old but i don’t think they actually need to know the age of the dog #so we can simply not tell them that it’s a baby bc i doubt it’ll cause any big issues #and i have to pay a pet fee anyway for my apartment so like #but i’m concerned her rule following will somehow fuck it over for me #even tho she’s graduating before i’d even be getting the dog #and if she fucks it over and i have to wait even longer for a dog i’m gonna end up in a shit place mentally #bc rn im just taking time to recover from the hard time i’ve hard raising so far #but by this summer i think i’ll be ready and start hitting a point where not having a dog will be worse mentally than having one #anyway rant over #but yeah this bit of the song is hitting #bc yeah i walk into my room and see the dog kennel #and king should be in it #but he’s not bc he flunked out #and i just am constantly thinking about him or justice or iris #i just feel like shit rn #i also ate too many cadbury mini eggs so my stomach hurts #i think i’m mostly past the point of blaming myself for my dogs’ issues tho so #that’s progress

[noturmuse]

Man idk what they’re putting in these episodes but it’s definitely stronger than coke cuz I am beyond addicted I mean every episode is a masterpiece and I love the little changes they’ve been doing along the way it has made the show so special thus far

#I was sobbing throughout the whole thing tonight #the way they showed us bill & frank’s relationship was so thoughtful and beautiful #excellent writing honestly #at the same time it made me so sad because main plot aside #all the virus did was rob ppl of their lives #just like the pandemic did when it hit nearly 3 years ago #like we’re still dealing with its aftermath today #and I love how there are subtle hints or connections between the pandemic in the show and the one in real life #it’s genius #the last of us #thoughts

[justalittlelogophile]

🔳 🌥️ Ache 🌥️ 🔳

There’s an emptiness in the space of my arms tonight

Heavy with the weight of knowing I’ll never get to hold you the way I want to

The aching feeling carves into my gut, a painful reminder that will one day scar, but the memory of a wound will that never really heal

Every beat of my heart is a somber echoing drum, of the storm that is my feelings

This rain needs to fall, enable for the barren earth that is my heart to grow

But the liquid burns this parched ground just like my throat burns as I choke back these tears

You’re not here, you never will be

And yet my stubbornly faithful heart cries out

iloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyou

I love you.

It hurts. It doesn’t change anything.

But with this stubborn faithful heart of mine,

I still love you

~Po

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[octahyde]

Oh wow I just remembered this is my first Valentine’s Day single since 2017. Huh

#I’m not sad or anything it was a ridiculously amicable breakup and we’re closer now as friends than we were as SOs it’s just like. Huh! #Guess I’m not watching Saw IV tonight! #Vday didn’t matter much to us anyways bc his birthday is the 16 and mines the 26 lol #I had no idea you were such a baller.

[fractallogic]

Please join me in admiring the hilarious disparity between the number of books I’ve read so far this year vs. the number of PAGES I’ve read this year, courtesy of the 1000-page tome I finished this morning

And yeah the next three non-work books I have on deck are each about 700 pages (two fantasy and one contemporary hockey romance????? Wtf is she writing about for that long????????) (don’t worry I’m starting it tonight so I’ll be able to report back soon), so�� given my reading proclivities I should have set the page goal higher than the estimate given by the app. Lmfao. But still.

Anyway you should use StoryGraph if you want to use goodreads but don’t want to support Amazon and would rather support a black-owned, woman-owned independent app!! And if you want fun graphs about your reading! And thematic reading challenges! And you can import your goodreads data!

#I keep wanting to tell my mom about StoryGraph and. well. uh #with my stupid fake PMS yes I have cried about that tonight #THIS IS WHY I NEEDED THIS RESOLVED THIS IS WHY I HAVE BEEN ON BIRTH CONTROL SINCE I WAS 15 #I CANNOT FUNCTION FOR LITERALLY HALF THE MONTH #because I’m either in pain (although that’s newer) or deeply #incredibly sad (it is hard to be a functional student when your hormones make you suicidal when you’re PMSing) #(fortunately even now we’re just downgraded to general shitty sad feeling and insomnia and lack of interest) #(all I want to do is read books and eat ice cream and go to the gym) #WHY ARE THESE HORMONES CAUSING PROBLEMS AGAIN NOW. WTF. #I think I’m due for my annual doctor appointment anyway soon though so I’ll bring it up with her #anyway!!! StoryGraph is very cool!

[whenyoucallmelover]

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#i’ve seen a few ppl saying harry doesnt seem like himself/seems ill tonight #it’s making me want to write a ‘i need you here but we’re both on tour so i cant come take care of you’ fic… #with a lonely sad harry who just wants a hug and an upset anxious louis who just wants to go to harry #haha just kidding... unless?

[nicoscheer]

#welp folk this is it i guess it was an amazing tour filled with amazing moments and I’ll be forever grateful that I got to see them twice #but the emptiness of their calendar kinda describes the emptiness I’ll be feeling once I’ve fully realized that this is it for the next few #years but I’m glad the boys are getting their well deserved break and hopefully they’ll be back rather sooner than later #mr schwarz finally doesn't have to stay strong for the crew anymore. he can take his rest #feel like the general mood is that the band and co are glad they can rest now but also sad that the adventure is over #or so it seems wegen looking at their faces and posts from tonight and the last weeks #just like us we’re sad they are gone and the car left the car park but also happy for them to catch up on some z’s

[doomingthenarrative]

oh to be loved is to be changed. oh to love is to encourage change

oh to love is to fear how much someone will change; to love is to want so desperately to hold onto what once was; to love is to fear

#we’re being sad on main tonight<3 #saiph speaks

[pepprs]

i wish i’d kept pushing the point (<- vagueposting). im so tired i’m hitting a wall. but why is the answer to feeling bottomlessly lonely just to love myself and be loved by myself? isn’t that only more loneliness?

#purrs #i know being by myself is not aloneness. but like seriously are you actually serious that there is no one coming to save me? that I have to #walk around with this giant gaping wound forever and no one will be able yo close it? i need total nurturance and comfort badly and to have #any less than total is.. well i don’t want to say it’s as bad as having none at all because obviously it’s not true. but it’s still bad. it #makes it harder to ask for more when you already have some and have reached the limit of what you can ask for. i just feel bottomlessly #lonely. i know things will get better. but what i really need is a long hug and a good cry in someone’s arms. not isolating myself in a #cabin for a week (though i know i desperately need that too). like we’re human beings and we can do that for each other so why don’t we? why #can’t we fix each other? why can’t we be nurturing like that and fill the voids for people who have them. and i know it’s rich coming from m #me bc iam skittish like a horse around emotions and also that it’s pitifully expected from me bc i am reading too much into normal experien #nces most people have. but how am i supposed to just accept that i didn’t get the love i needed (even if im romanticizing m*therlove lmao) a #and then move on as if that’s fine? how can i just snap my fingers and be an autonomous adult when ive spent years accruing psychological #damage with the most limited kind of cushioning? when every second brings with it a potential jab to my River of Pain nerve? idk. #i was deeply violently depressed abt this stuff earlier this week but tonight im just quietly sad. i want the stability and certainty of #(unconditional) love. i want my whole future safe and warm and now or at least the ability to trust it will exist which is also called hope. #i don’t want to be alone and wretched anymore.