Lifeless corpus, Corvus carry me home
Questioning myself why?
I've lost hope I'll ever find a quiet place to die
I can't hide from the burden disease of mind
I can't find a quiet place to die
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"They said it's all in my head
Like that's not the fucking problem"
Alpha Wolf - The Mind Bends to a Will of Its Own
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AwardsWatch Podcast Ep. 228: 2024 Summer Box Office Draft
On episode 228 of the AwardsWatch podcast, it’s a full house as Editor-In-Chief Erik Anderson and Associate Editor Sophia Ciminello are joined by AwardsWatch contributors Jay Ledbetter, Josh Parham, Dan Bayer, Kevin Lee and new to the AW team, Karen Peterson, on her first pod with us. Executive Editor Ryan McQuade was unable to join today.
This episode we’re tackling the 2024 Summer Box Office…
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working at a summer camp makes me hate 90% of the adults in this world and brings back trauma I didn't remember having. like oh my god, they're horrible to these kids. like they forget they're little, they're babies.
I have a kid, she's in our state for the summer, she lives with her mom another state during the year. she's stressed, she's away from her person, she's at a camp where she doesn't know anyone, she's stressed out. she was labeled a problem child and a cry baby before I even got a chance to work with her (I'm not a special counselor or anything, I'm just good with kids, so I kinda get used like a miracle worker by everyone else, which is kinda annoying, but I don't complain cause the kids need me).
it's the 3rd day of the second week of the session, so she's been here over a week, everyday she's spent most of the day hysterical, getting yelled at, and being so anxious that she would go all day without eating. you would assume that the director and supervisor at the very elast would have done something about this????? right????? nope.
first day I worked with her, I came to the realization that they just kept yelling as this 7 year old, for being overwhelmed, never once gave her a single tool to help calm down, and actively made the problem worse.
you wanna know what I did that calmed her down and got her playing with the other kids and actually enjoying camp in less than five minutes? I was kind, I gave her a breathing exercise to do, I explained what she was feeling (she kept saying she didn't know why she was upset, why she was crying, etc. cause she was too young to understand what it felt like to be overwhelmed/overstimulated) and "magically" everything was fine. did this stop another counselor from reporting it to the director, no, for whatever my co-counselor said she was "misbehaving" and was "difficult" and than the director came in her and threatened her with consequences if she didn't "pull herself together" (reminder, this kid is 7, going through a custody issue with her parents, and has extreme anxiety that manifests physically in the form of nausea). this of course sent her from being conversational and calm back into hysterics (I have no other word for how bad this break downs are, they're like panic attacks on steroids).
said counselors were back out of the room and within five minutes, with those breathing exercises, she was calm again. in the span of a few hours, I got a kid who no one had heard speak outside of tears playing and laughing and telling stories about her mom and her home (things that would typically set her off). it's so rewarding watching her come out of her shell and love camp, but so heartbreaking she spent over a week miserable.
this isn't the only case of this here, it's been like this since the current supervisor and director got hired and I need them to quit, cause they're ruining this camp (that has been here for generations, literally) for all of us. so many of the staff want to quit, kids don't want to come, we get less and less junior counselors, and all of us are miserable.
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I think my main problem with minimalist architecture isn't even that I find it ugly and loveless (which is a separate thing I'll try not to go into) but that it just feels unfinished to me?
Like, I know this is a finished building but it just kinda looks like there's something missing and it irks me on a level that goes beyond if I think it's aesthetically pleasing because I can get that. Not personally but I can see why someone would be into the sleek and stylish cube look because of the "modern" appeal or whatever I can see how someone would explain their like of minimalism in architectural design.
But on a personal level it just feels to me like you started something and then you just. Stopped. Minimalist buildings to me feel like a work in progress that's just been abandoned and given up on. Like when I sketch something and then abandon that to sketch another idea I just had and that goes on and on and on and on so there's this abundance of unfinished sketches that have just been left to themselves but I tell myself that they're finished because "You can see what it's supposed to be. Mission accomplished." And they just make me a little sad to be honest because it looks like someone started something and then they just. left.
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