#adult life sucks at times

[blancheludis]

Absolutely no pressure as I'm sure you're busy and writing isn't something you can (should) force, but is a sequel to "too scared to dream" on ao3 still in the works? It's literally one of my favourite fics of all time and I'd DIE to see the aftermath of what happens 🥹 Love your writing <3

After getting your message I immediately felt the urge to write - and I did get some notes down, but work doesn't leave much time at the moment.

So, I want to write more for this story - it was supposed to be a longer piece but I compromised to get it written at all. Your kind words definitely pushed it up my priority list. But I can't promise whether I'll manage to write it soon.

Thank you so much. It's so nice to hear someone still likes my writing, even though I've been absent for what feels like ages!

I wish you all the best!

#my writing #i keep hoping my schedule clears up #adult life sucks at times

[sysig]

Let him dad her!! (Patreon)

#Doodles #Adventure Time #Fionna and Cake #Fionna Campbell #Simon Petrikov #I cannot BeLieve that they didn't hug at any point - illegal. One million years dungeon #She slapped him (deservedly) but they didn't hug by the end??? I had to fix it #Jerry is my favourite episode so that at least was an easy choice lol #If anywhere would be a good place to cross that line it would be to comfort her! I can't imagine he'd initiate tho haha #She's just seeking comfort so badly <3 I know she's at least legally considered an adult but she's still a kid! #And Simon just keeps adopting kids lol #He's a good dad :) Not a perfect one but y'know? He helps where he can #Sometimes all we need is a parent figure giving you a hug and saying ''You know what? You're right - this sucks. But I see you'' #Fionna's quite interesting 'cause like - she's meant to be a Finn but there are a lot of differences between her and quite a few Finns! #A lot of that is Because she lived in Simon's head for so long but I wonder - most Finns have decent support systems and she seems a little #Well not lacking Exactly but her fallbacks aren't as numerous - and she's not able to fulfill her life's purpose so she's just kinda wayward #Seeing that kind of Finn finally able to spread their wings but still have a lot of Finn trappings like naivety and impulsivity ♪ #She's interesting! I quite like her :D Plus it's cool to see her natural EQ when she calls out Simon later in this episode unknowingly haha #I stopped at episode eight for a while but year her line about ''Then you got on the bus right? :D'' and him refuting it #Hmmm ♪ It was certainly interesting - I'm glad they addressed it :) #Plus she's fun to draw haha ♫ Her bunny ears! And the jacket she took from Martin </3 She has a fun design #And as always Simon is fun to draw :) Especially piecemeal here haha - just his mouth or just his eyes ♪ Cute :)

[mortysmith]

I HATE RICKS BACKSTORY SO FUCKING MUCH

#IT SUCKS!!! IT SUCKS!!! IT SUCKS!!! #its soooo obviously just so hes easier to digest and woobify by both the writers and the fandom. its so obviously not planned ahead. ITS BAD #rick goes from being a sad character as in. heres this adult senior man whos only real close confidant is his 14y/o grandson #who he is regularly verbally abusive to because he needs that sense of control in his life after existing in a multiverse that has forced- #pop nihilism onto him as a survival strategy. THIS IS PATHETIC AND IT MAKES HIM A COMPELLING CHARACTER!!! #but then they take seadon 3s meme joke not serious backstory that is so obviously making fun of that trope and theyre like #lets make it canon. actually. wouldnt that be cool #to me its reminant of like when fandoms take a stupid mocking joke thats made in passing and misinterpret it as sincere #UUUGGGGGHHHHHHHH #AND FUCKING DIANE!!! IS COMPLETELT ROBBED OF ANY CHANCE TO BE A CHARACTER AND EXIST OR DO ANYTHING!!! #SHE ONLY EXISTS SO THE AUDIENCE CAN SYMPATHISE WITH RICK #thats the only reason for this backstory. so that rick is sad and you feel bad for him because his life sucks actually #hes recontextualized from a character who is ultimately his own biggest weakness into a character who just had a tough time. #dont you just feel so bad for him

[addaxus]

Encantober Day 18 ~ Tired 😴

I have to do these in advance and this I had already been working on, plus I love doing sleepy stuff. There’s so many of these days I’ve wanted to do but couldn’t squeeze in the time 😪

#encanto #encantober #bruno madrigal #encanto brainrot #encanto fanart #papa bruno au #dad bruno au #mirabel madrigal #la familia madrigal #also the triplet’s birthday was yesterday so I’m working up something for them #so much time yet none at all #adult life sucks

[sonknuxadow]

you know i do wonder how many sonic characters actually have living parents. like knuckles is the last of his kind so obviously his parents arent around anymore. both guys who could be considered shadows dads are 100 percent confirmed dead. sonic is canonically an orphan im pretty sure. and on the other side of the coin cream is like the only character in the game cast who has a living parent we actually see onscreen. but what about everyone else i dont think theres a straight answer for any other character. other than rouge's mom being mentioned a couple times i Guess but we dont even know anything about her or if shes still alive just that she existed at some point. are these kids constantly putting themselves in danger because they dont have parents around to stop them or because their parents just dont care

#like what about tails. im guessing he didnt have any sort of family he was attached to if he left to be with sonic so quickly #but that doesnt really mean he didnt have parents at all. maybe he had parents and they just sucked i dont know #what about amy. what if she had parents this whole time we just never see them. #what about blaze. considering shes a princess id assume she was born into that role #but i dont know if her parents are ever actually mentioned #maybe theyre dead and there was no one else to take on their role and thats why blaze has so much responsibility at such a young age? #silver . he was born in a wet cardboard box all alone i cant really imagine him hvaing parents sorry #considering charmy is 6 and living with vector. an adult whos obviously not his biological dad. #i feel like something probably happened to charmys parents #espio i dont really question as much #becuase it feels very common in the sonic universe for teenagers to have more freedom than would be expected in real life #or maybe its not that common and the teenagers we're actually following are just living the most fucked up lives ever. i dotn know #but either way. espio where are your parents buddy. are they still alive. vector where are YOUR parents are they still alive #i dont know if i actually want canon explanations for all this though #because its kinda fun not knowing every detail about every characters life and being able to speculate and insert your headcanons n stuff #to be clear im talking about game canon #i know stuff like archie sonic and the sonic movies and the 90s cartoons will sometimes give characters new family members #or talk about their family situation even if the games dont say anything about that sort of thing

[alukaforyou]

oh em gee the weather is getting warmer can i finally start wearing my spring-y sunglasses????

& on an unrelated note, recently i discovered Thee most delightful little thing, not to get too much into it 👉👈 but its related to one of my fave anime boys💗 and i've been soooo happeeeee like im suuuper glad i didnt kms b4 when i was depresso 🤪 b.c life is sooooo much better now and i cant imagine having missed out on this experience uwu 💕

#so cliche but it literally does get better lmfaoooo #honestly would not have believed it if u told me before when i was like.. hm 20-24 yrs old? legit wanted to d word but glad i didnt djjsnds #now i feel like i can get thru anything these anime bitches r gonna support me for lyfe #like tbh im still dealing w kinda ew stuff like adult things TAXES RETIREMENT RENT HEALTH INSURANCE and etc other bs thats rly sucking the #life out of me and stressing me out i hate doing adult tasks like fuckkk thattttt #but i havent cried in suchhh a long time like wow im doing great mentally #anyways i love my anime boys thats the point of this post #이 지랄같은 인생

[craycraybluejay]

yes i am an adult male who loves high school dramas this is because i literally never experienced normal coming of age drama like ever and am disconnected from the collective experience of having a relatable peer group forever hope that helps

#i JUST want to experience high school #without like. my whole shitty life thing having gone on #i want to go to high school and have stupid drama and sexuality crises and worries about grades #not... That #i never had that im never going to have that #can i get (one) permission to go a little crazy if i survive into a university #fuck everyone befriend and be-enemy everyone get all up in peoples stupid mind numbingly low stakes drama #i want that sweet golden experience where the worst thing ill ever fear is annoying my classmates #or accidentally spilling something on someone at a dance #i deserve it i deserve to have had a childhood and a young adulthood and a life #i deserve to have dealt with unserious issues to prepare me for bigger ones #rather than serious danger that leaves me permanently severed from normal people and life #and makes me incapable of reacting proportionally or finding it in me to care about less serious problems #like yes it sucks your mom is going to miss college graduation #but i thank my lucky stars that you are not dying or being abused or starved or beaten or exploited #i literally dont know how to take things seriously a lot of the time like im not able to even if i try #because to me the mildest real problem is someone purposefully isolating you and ruining your health #the MILDEST #i try to care ab simple stuff i really do i just CANT #and it sucks so much trying to be a good friend and kind feeling like i cant do enough #the loud thought 'i wish that hapoened to me/i wish i worried about that/i wish the people i love only had that as a problem' #i get so envious. like thank fucking god your parents divorced like normal adults when it should be over #thank fucking god that 'friend' cut you off when they were actively insulting you and betraying your trust #thank the fucking universe that shitty partner dumped you before you fkn hurt yourself over them #yk? #and its a 'mean/cold' way to think about it but i just dont have the capacity to think or feel the little picture #i can imagine my friends subjected to such horror even tho i dont want to

[a-tess-renaissance]

Life is hard

#me rn no joke #life is hard #being an adult sucks a lot of times #196 #r196 #r/196 #/r/196 #rule #delicious in dungeon #dungeon meshi #manga

[true-bluesargent]

there's something so fun about how i'm a uni student and i study history and whenever we go on any kind of trip we all turn into like. primary school children <3 like we had a trip to a museum today and we were all so excited! and we stopped into both the giftshops and bought silly giftshop junk and we talked to one of the actors who has to pretend to be a character from history and we played all the games on the video screens and we did the scavenger hunt activity that's supposed to be for little kids and we were all just so excited!!! and it was so fun. which is why you need to let fun and whimsy into your life because everything is just better and happier!

#adults should be allowed to just do fun 'childish' stuff without ridicule #because like if nobody on my course had been matching the energy my day would have sucked! #but we were all having such a fun time just being silly and touristy and childish #and it was wonderful #i love my degree so much sometimes #my course is such a good group of people too <3 #you just need whimsy in your life #whimsy

[sophiethewitch1]

in my hater era

#sophie speaks #tw vent #like. what. what??? #i do try not to upset anyone with trauma dumping or whatever but sometimes that bites me in the ass because people assume I'm not strugglin #struggling hugely #had one of my most violent meltdowns ever recently and it was after pushing myself to do something #and you know. thats on me #but saying like #im NOT trying?? #i dont want to start any problems but oh my GOD what do you think being sick constantly does to a person #what??? #trying to be a proper adult here but i am quite upset #idk how are you supposed to deal with shit like this #express this has upset you and that you are having a hard time #but then they dont believe you?? #trauma dump it is. hope you enjoy my psychiatrists notes #like im level 2 support needs autistic. i need a little fucking leeway or i genuinely try to kill myself #i KNOW its pathetic i KNOW its weak but my number one priority is keep myself alive #im so tired #ive been suicidal for like 7 years now #my life sucks so incredibly hard and I'm in constant pain and that just #it doesnt make me willing to deal with this shit #cripplepunk core lmao #cripple and im going to kill you #this is just geniunely upsetting #i feel like i need a good cry #i really am so tired #i feel like i just dont want to do this #why am i paying for this? why am i doing this? #if im not enjoying this why the fuck would i do it

[camptw1nk]

i miss. the vibes of the rpc a few years back

#things just felt more. community based #people interacted more w each other on the dash and it felt like people were really there to interact and not just for a follower count #its probably rose colored glasses in a lot of ways bc thats when i was most active so thats when it was most enjoyable but #idk there was just something ab the days where u could have 50 followers and always be interacting w most of them #these days ill get 200 followers and the same 5 mutuals interacting all the time #and like. huge shoutout to them they know who they are but those people make this site worth being on #its just. idk its tiring when a lot of time is spent yelling into the void that is the dash and getting nothing back #and to some extent timezones r to blame and also my lack of writing but its. its not just a lately thing #its been getting worse for years and i think this is really the first time ive ever been like. not active on tumblr? #like im here but a couple of years ago the idea of me having a main blog and barely ever logging in or writing was absurd #i would be online and writing 24/7 if not here then on discord and wire #bc people were always around to interact with and now its just like. oh weve all grown up and become adults and no one has time #for each other anymore and its very. thats life thats how it is but it sucks idk #maybe this is 2 some extent projection also bc thats how things r irl rn but thats just. tahts not important

[orcelito]

I think I cried harder today over my dad's jackets than I did at his deathbed. That was a miserable time of course, a memory that will likely be seared into my brain until I die, but I cried... I think a normal amount, all things considered. More than I ever usually do of course, but I typically don't cry At All. All this free crying is certainly surreal.

The jackets, though. I was put in charge of doing his laundry, because we don't want to pack up dirty clothes. I was expecting it to be unpleasant bc my dad's dirty clothes - gross. But really, it was much more unpleasant in that... those were his. It felt wrong to touch them. Felt wrong to treat his jackets as gross. Because they were just his jackets. They weren't even in the hamper. And then I was remembering him wearing them, and then I was crying. Again. And again. Weeping over these damn jackets.

Then I found a shirt on his bed that still smelled like him. It smelled like a Hug From Dad. And that set me off crying even harder.

In total, I think I cried like 6 times within 40 minutes. It took me that long to finish sorting the damn clothes bc I just. Was a wreck. Like, what are you supposed to do when you're living life like normal, vaguely hopeful bc you're taking steps to secure your own happiness, and then 4 days later you're sorting your dad's laundry because he fucking died. Suddenly. Without a goodbye.

And you have to worry about his lack of a will (even under an ideal situation, only 2 heirs and no conflicts between us, probate's a fucking Bitch), and arranging the funeral, and prepping his obituary, and picking out pictures, and writing a speech bc you want to talk at his funeral, of Course you want to talk at his funeral, but even just thinking about anecdotes you could share has you crying yet again.

I've cried more times in the past 3 days than likely the entirety of last YEAR. And that's WITH my cat, and uncle, and family friend dying. Those all hurt, my uncle most of all, & I was real fucked up over it. But this? This was my Dad. Likely the person I'd have named 2nd closest to me in my life, second only to my sister. He wasn't perfect, but he did so much for me throughout my entire life. All he wanted was to raise us to be happy and independent. And he accomplished it, we're getting by without him, but we still wanted several more decades with him. He was only 57. We should've gotten several more decades with him.

But here we are now. Playing investigators to his life, digging into all his shit, trying to find documents and take inventory of all his things, and learning Many things about him in the process. In his lockbox of sensitive documents, like his SSN and birth certificate and all that stuff, we found an old letter. About a decade old now, written in my hand. Right at the very top, we found that he'd kept the letter I wrote to him telling him frankly about my struggles and the things I wanted him to do better. He kept it. He tried to take it to heart. He looked at it again, sometime more recently than all the rest of the documents. That was on top.

His love for us is evident everywhere. The pictures he has hanging up all over the place, majority of them with us in them. The old fathers day cards placed on display in his bedroom bookshelf. The gifts we gave him, even stupid little knick knacks, placed around his apartment with pride. I wish we'd taken more videos of him. I don't want to forget the sound of his voice. I don't want to forget his smell either, the smell of a Hug From Dad, but I still tossed that shirt into the wash even though it felt like saying yet another goodbye.

It's the suddenness that hurts the most, I think. We were planning on having him help me finally get my license this year. My final words to him, the last thing he would've seen from me, were messages asking up on whether he'd called his car insurance company to make sure there wouldn't be problems. I should've called him more. I don't know if I'm going to learn from this.

I cut my 2 weeks off early to have time to grieve and to work on things for the funeral and settling the estate. The last thing I'd wanna do right now is selling fucking bubble tea in a job I already decided to leave. So here I am without a job, though with potentially two life insurance policy payouts to come. Inheriting half his 401k. Inheriting couches, knickknacks, keepsakes, paintings, art pieces, maybe even his guitar and other furniture if we can figure out what to do about space (I don't have room for this furniture, I don't know if I even have room for the couches, but God do I want to keep so much of this furniture). It has me even considering keeping one of his guns, just one. A tiny little revolver, it sits so comfortably in my hand. I don't even want to use it for anything. I just want to have it, keep it stored in a drawer with its ammo kept separate. I don't like guns, but this is a part of him. He loved collecting guns. He was about as responsible with them as someone can be, keeping them locked in a lockbox and impressing upon his children the importance of gun safety (I've known the basic gun safety rules ever since I was a little kid. Of course, of course, of course.) It reminds me of him. It's horrifically easy to have a gun in Indiana. I apparently don't even need a permit to carry anymore. (I have no intention to ever carry this in public.)

It's all a cycle. Business, grief, thoughts about my future. Round and round, like the most nauseating carousel in existence. I don't know how I'm still so functional. My skills with compartmentalization have been my lifesaver.

And im just thinking about the story my dad's best friend shared today. About a friend of theirs who lost her father. She reached out after hearing about my dad to share his words with her: "it's okay to grieve, but don't make his death your life".

He explicitly referenced himself in this, saying if he were to die suddenly that he wouldn't want us to define ourselves by it. Grief is expected, but he wants us to be able to move on. He's always wanted us to establish ourselves and make ourselves happy. He wouldn't want to be a weight holding us back from that.

So every time I start to feel guilty for thinking about having nicer furniture or using his life insurance payout to fund the rest of my college, I remind myself of that. Thinking about the material isn't a bad thing. I'm only human. And in the end, he'd Want me to be thinking about it. He never intended to die, certainly not without warning like this, so he would've only encouraged me being pragmatic about it all.

He only ever wanted us to be happy. So I need to do what I can to live up to that.

I love him. I miss him already.

#speculation nation #negative/ #this got really long on accident. but i think typing this out was really helpful for me. #getting the thoughts out. processing. the works. #nearly cried several times just from writing this. #...and honestly i might reference this again when i start seriously writing my eulogy. #things suck a Lot right now. and i really wish they were different. #feels like i picked a bad choice in a video game and am now seeing the Bad Ending or whatever #all i need to do is reload a previous save. it's all still there. perfectly preserved in my memories. #but... that's all gone. as suddenly and unfair as it is ive been thrust into a new chapter of my life so thoroughly. #it's not all bad though. he wasnt prepared for dying so it's been hell to prepare for him #we dont know if we'll even be able to get into his fucking iphone. stupid piece of shit. #but he had life insurance. he had a union job. and That comes with benefits #(something about a year's salary going to the family. aka half a year's salary to Me. and isnt That mind boggling.) #as much as it hurts im going to be realistic about it. im going to do what i need to finish my education. #and im going to use it as a springboard for finally becoming a 'proper adult'. #the kind who could own a nice kitchen fridge. one with an ice machine on the front of the door #and freezers in the drawers. #maybe then i could think about getting motorcyle lessons. not from my dad as i originally wanted #but i wanna keep the family biker spirit alive. i wanted it even before he died. and now i want it even more. #ive had so so many thoughts. it's only been 3 days. ive had to emotionally numb myself several times just to Get Through It. #everything is exacerbated. my mom wants to go to the funeral. we will have to fight her on this. my dad Hated her. #and i certainly dont fucking want her around either. not then. not when im talking about my dad. #(my dad. my Dad. i saw him die. i felt him cold. i do not regret it. it still hurts me.) #it's overwhelming. i loved him so fucking much. even with his flaws he was truly an amazing father. #i'll... shut up now. if you read this far. well. hug your loved ones a little tighter. you never know when youll lose them.

[professional-benaddict]

I- much like Peter want dada 🥺 (that’s barely a prompt but work’s burnt me out 😭 I hope you’re having a good day! Love the work as always ❤️❤️)

Peter’s been zoning out for the last 15 minutes. He and Tony are watching a movie one night, but Peter cannot remember anything that has happened. The stresses of work, the nagging voices of awful customers echo in his mind, the nasty look his boss gave him flashing over and over and so much more. But, at the centre of it all is a word in his mind… Dada.

Tony’s right there. They have done this a few times now, so Peter is nearly positive that Tony will go into caregiver mode if Peter asks him. But, he has to ask.

There is a huge brick wall in his way though. What if Tony doesn’t hear him? Will it be awkward? Maybe he will think he is just being dramatic? What if, what if, what if-…

“Hey.”

Peter’s mind empties and he looks towards Tony on reflex. Light brown panicked eyes meet darker, softer ones.

“You okay? You’re so quiet.” Tony asks.

Peter moves his lips, but no word comes out. He tries again and again until he can hear his own voice.

“Dada…?”

“Oh. You wanna be Little?”

Peter nods so hard he feels his neck crack a little painfully, but he doesn’t care. Tony chuckles in that way that makes his eyes crinkle.

“Why didn’t you just say so?”

Peter launches himself into Tony’s arms and the older man catches him in a hug. He kisses his head and pats his back.

“You wanna be Dada’s boy, hm? You’re always Dada’s boy.”

Thank God for that, Peter thinks. And that is his last thought before his mind goes quiet. He is safe now, Daddy will do the rest.

#just a little smth i thought of hehe💗💗💗 #very much relatable😭😭✌🏻 adult life sucks!!!💗💗💗 #little only all the time!!! #little!peter #daddy!tony #starker #tony stark x peter parker #tony stark #peter parker #ask

[talentforlying]

every late november i am cursed with the knowledge that constantine hasn't done any sort of formal or informal holiday gathering since his sister died, and flat-out avoids people as soon as december starts so no one will invite him to anything bc he knows his seasonally bad mood will haunt whatever room he walks into. basically i'm saying this is your chance to ambush him while it's still november and harangue him into agreeing to attend your non-denominational ugly sweater parties or split a bottle of wine before he's cognizant enough to weasel out of it.

#( ooc. ) OUT OF CIGS. #seasonal depression but make it ✨trauma✨ #he actually becomes the Worst Person around the winter holidays and yeah. part of it is because he's a cynical dick #but also christmas with his father fucking Sucked & reclaiming that time as an adult with cheryl was indescribably precious to him #when he lost her and his niece refused to have anything to do with him afterwards he just. gave up #constantine staring longingly into people's windows like the guy from it's a wonderful life: nah i don't do christmas. not my thing #but really he is just lonely and a loser and secretly kind of a champion gift-giver so let him in please #blanket warning that if you get him to observe hanukkah with you he Will weight the dreidel and take all your fucking gelt #he has also been known to fuck off to ireland last minute and wander around pagan festivals so u know. options are open #( headcanons. ) I'M JUST LIKE THE BASTARDS I'VE HATED ALL ME LIFE. #yes i've been emo about him every time i've had the chance to log on today. what about it

[gmabasic]

why does it get so much worse when you turn 22 i need tumblr elders to tell me it gets better like they did 10 years ago cause they were right back then

#22 #it really sucks #i just wake up and cry every day that this is the rest of my life then i go to work and i come home exhausted and i cry at night #bc this is it for the next 40 years i guess #i can’t even fathom time that long #can an adult or someone in their mid to late 20s please tell me it gets better

[fortes-fortuna-iogurtum]

hey friends is it normal to just feel. numb. because I think that maybe it is not. but what would I know anyway.

#really tho it’s like I can barely feel anything anymore. idk if it’s stress?? depression?? #the enormous weight of adult life suddenly and unexpectedly crashing down on me with the weight of the entire planet?? #I used to feel so *much* all the time and now I feel like I can barely feel anything at all… #and everyone around me is living life so much and I’m just here feeling like I can barely keep up with conversations as they’re happening #I’m tired… I feel like God is a far away idea that I’m struggling to hold onto… I feel like my mind is a bent and jumbled mess #like I grabbed hold of it and tried to crush it into the shape I thought it should be and now all I’ve got is a broken frame #I /know/ who I am and what I believe. I /know/ what my life is. but I don’t feel anything. #the only time I feel anything is sometimes when we’re singing at church I just cry at the sense of glory of something I can’t touch #and sometimes I shake with fear at the thought that I’ve ruined everything that could’ve ever been good about me #I’m oversharing on the internet again but I just don’t know what to do. I’m so tired. I want to see something beautiful and feel #the weight and glory of it again. but I feel like I can’t. all I feel is numbness. #I feel like I could sleep for months but every time I wake up I never feel refreshed. and I’ve been having bad dreams too. #adulthood kinda does suck can I please go back to being 5 #gurt says stuff #personal