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nickthetoony · 2 months

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I've been in a prolonged Star Wars mood recently which has coincided with me getting deep into Gundam so I've been comparing and contrasting their different approaches to similar ideas a lot, and I thought I might as well lay it all out in writing to get it out of my head.

I'm specifically comparing Star Wars to UC Gundam, starting with the original Gundam which for context began airing in 1978, after A New Hope but before Empire Strikes Back. You can see a bit of A New Hope's visual influence in some aspects of Gundam.

Both series prominently feature a laser sword of some description. "Lightsabers" in SW and "Beam Sabers" in Gundam. Other than the obvious difference of Beam Sabers being in scale with 18 meter tall mechs, there's also the difference in that the lightsaber is made out to be an elegant weapon, harkening back to a nostalgic imagining of knights and samurai, before the invention of less honorable firearms with future stories ascribing a deep cultural significance of the lightsaber to the people that made them.

The Gundam Beam Saber is in comparison a very utilitarian tool in a Mobile Suit's arsenal, usually carried right alongside rifles and bazookas. It still invokes a little bit of that knightly image, but the fact that it's usually used as a last resort weapon of desperation hampers the idea of it being a weapon of elegance or honorable combat. In a way they're more like real swords in that they're sidearms you only pull out in a battlefield when all your other options are unavailable.

Another superficial similarity they share is their masked villains, I don't think it's a stretch to assume that Char Aznable was inspired a little bit by Darth Vader. Of course, since Gundam was pre-Empire, when so much of Vader hadn't been established yet and his most notable trait was having a cool costume, the two ended up diverging into wildly different characters.

Char is a pretty young man who uses a mask to cover his identity and Vader is old and scarred and needs the mask to breathe. Vader is the main character's father and Char is completely unrelated to his main character until they meet face to face late in the show. In a way Char is kind of more similar to Kylo Ren being masked pretty boys with daddy issues though again their arcs end up wildly diverging. Kylo and Vader both end up "redeemed" but Char isn't really the kind of character who can or should be redeemed.

Somewhat related to the above, both Gundam and Star Wars have enemy factions who are meant to invoke Nazi Germany. Star Wars' invocation of German fascism (at least in the movies) is a lot more nebulous than Gundam's, communicating this analogy through visual reference to Nazi iconography while leaving the actions of the Empire more broadly as just general cartoon bad guy stuff.

The way Gundam compares the Principality of Zeon and the Nazis is a lot more specific and a lot more direct. The way the Zeon arms race plays out in the original is a direct parallel to the real-life Nazi wunderwaffen projects, where the Third Reich's internal friction and investments in ludicrous super weapons ended up costing them more than they gained, contributing to their eventual defeat. Gundam also takes place in our future (or atleast a future envisioned in 1978) so the real Nazis existed in this world and Hitler is brought up as a direct comparison to the original show's big bad.

(Writing this out, I had the thought that you could draw the same comparison between the Death Star and the wunderwaffen program, but idk if Star Wars itself has ever drawn that comparison.)

Another point of comparison is that both series heavily feature mystical, psychic powers inspired by the spiritualist movements of the day. The Force for Star Wars and Newtypes for Gundam. The Force is cribbing a lot aesthetically from eastern spiritualism while Gundam takes a lot more from the visual ideas of psychedelia.

The Force is far more concrete and straightforward than Newtype-ism. A magic energy field that can be used to perform great feats of power, and which has birthed two established sects of thought that are both treated as ancient. Force users are also clearly demarcated into Good and Evil camps, with specific powers and abilities locked behind a character's individual morality.

Newtypes in Gundam are very different from Sith or Jedi though. Rather than representing an ancient struggle of good vs evil, Newtypes represent a supposed evolution of the human soul, when humanity can communicate to each other psychically in an era where miscommunication is impossible. Supposedly.

Because whereas in Star Wars, the conflict of the Force is one of primordial good and evil, the conflict of the Newtype is one of heightened spiritualist ideas butting up against the mundane reality of different people operating under different and conflicting motivations. There aren't dark or light side Newtypes in the way that Force users are categorized, all of them share the core ability to bridge physical limitations to understand each other on a deep intimate level, but does that matter when their material conditions are inherently at odds? What happens when two people understand each other perfectly and they still have to fight and kill each other?

My last point of comparison is between the two "heroes" of both series. Luke Skywalker and Amuro Ray.

In a way, they're very similar characters. Both start out as young boys living relatively comfortable-if boring lives who are Called To Adventure and eventually awaken to their special powers to become great soldiers of their respective wars. Both are defined by the legacy of their fathers. Both are coming of age stories.

Where I find the comparison between them very interesting is the comparison of Luke at the end of his character arc (in The Last Jedi) and Amuro at the end of his (in Char's Counterattack). Luke in TLJ is a sad disillusioned old man who has failed in his attempt to rebuild the order that had been entrusted to him and who has stagnated into a miserable grandpa. For many longtime fans of the character this was a shock, and apparently for a lot of people felt like a disappointing betrayal. Because Luke was the Hero of The Rebellion, the Return of The Jedi. He was brave, and true, and more than just a normal man. So to see him so impotent felt wrong for many people.

I find it interesting that Amuro (subtler than Luke) also ends up in a similar spot, but in a way that feels far more appropriate to his character and to the tone of the narrative.

Because Amuro was not a hero. He was a child forced to become a soldier far younger than he should've been. Pressured by the dire, apocalyptic world surrounding him and the societal pressures of masculinity that hound him. Luke's inheritance from his father was a Lightsaber. A weapon of a great shining order which eventually was mutated by the Disney movies into a sort of Excalibur wielded only by the worthy virtuous heroes. Amuro's inheritance was the Gundam, the Devil's Machine, the first in a long line of military weapons, the image of which would haunt him for the rest of his tragically short life.

Amuro had at one point been a war hero, then a rebel fighting against the corrupt and self-interested Federation that had eagerly turned him into a human weapon. But his childhood of violence eventually left him no choice but to be subsumed into the military hierarchy he had at one point attempted to break free of. In terms of combat skill, Amuro was the best of the best by the end of his arc, but he had failed in every other regard. His Newtype abilities, once seen as a gateway to a future without misunderstandings, were now honed for violence. His final words ones of dumb confusion as he failed to understand the feelings of his enemy.

Luke gets the benefit of a Rey. The ability to once again become heroic and good and brave, to inhabit the comforting role of a gallant knight. And this step in his characterization is still met with confused hostility by most viewers. Amuro does not receive a similar luxury. He dies young and suddenly, with only the suggestion that his actions will eventually make things better, but it feels right with his character even for how unsatisfying it is.

Again, I don't know if I really have a coherent point with this post. Apologies if you've read this far and felt like I have wasted your time. For now, I think my main conclusion is that it's interesting to see how two different kinds of science fiction (heroic science-fantasy VS military sci-fi) approach similar ideas. I think the reason Luke's arc in TLJ fails for many is that the story of the original trilogy was fundamentally unfit to handle it. It's tacking on an unsatisfying tragedy onto a conventional, simple Hero's Journey rather than building on the foundation of societal critique the way Gundam does with Amuro.

Anyway. Bye.

#star wars #gundam #luke skywalker #amuro ray #meta analysis #comparison #spoilers for both series #long post #sorry for barfing a bunch of words at you

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onewingedangels · 3 years

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UNCHARTED 4: A THIEF’S END ↳ Sully and Nate

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withpurewhitewings · 4 years

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I’m watching the kissing booth 2 and I’m already so done with in, only 25 minutes in

Elle goes on for minutes about how hot some guy is, completely objectifying him in a video that he probably didn’t know he was in, and then turns around and gets upset about a girl walking into a room that her boyfriend happens to exist in at the same moment?

also her family can’t afford to send her to a college that costs more than UC Berkeley?? they live in a huge la house and go to a private high school wtf

ok this is gonna just be a running doc of what I don’t like/like about the movie

this whole movie (and the one before) is just about sexualizing teenage boys

alright we’ve got the token white gay couple

I can tell that this Rachel girl is gonna be a problem

ok the ddr dance sequence was kinda cool

It’s so obvious that MVP is Marco are you kidding

maybe if she stopped twirling around they’d do better

ok actually I don’t blame Rachel, lee is an asshole for this

haven’t they only been apart for like a month? he left before school started, it couldn’t have been that long

you’re not even 18 and you’re getting beer at a bar in the middle of the day?? what is happening SEX?!?? WHAT THE HELL

he flew you to Boston, spent the entire time with you, probably spent so much on you, and you’re jealous of his only girl friend? calm down, sorry that she’s more interesting than you

ugh just talk to your boyfriend, he’s reaching out to you!!! also did you just ditch your college interviews after someone gave you constructive criticism

welp he tripped so now she’ll have to partner with Marco and then she’ll get a crush on him and it’ll cause conflict 🙄

wow of course who could’ve called it

idk what’s up with these shows and the intercom system, just talk to them in person

Man Noah is so nice

Lee: “I took care of it with Elle.”

Lee: -wants to do a couples costume with Elle and his girlfriend-

Elle YOUR BOYFRIEND CAN HAVE A GIRL FRIEND

Yeah Marco tell her, she can fuck off

Oh I get it Elle, you’re allowed to have a guy friend who’s attractive, but your boyfriend can’t have a girl friend who’s attractive. Totally understand.

also at this moment I am really hoping that Noah isn’t involved with Chloe. I’m rooting for your dude.

How many computers does this girl have

“I know all about that” oh Elle you like girls? didn’t know that

oh my god you didn’t even tell Rachel you asshole

God I feel so bad for Rachel

Ugh and he won’t even tell her that it’s his fault that Elle kept hanging around

Elle you’re not even attempting to talk to Noah wtf

I’m honestly not for this whole girl vs girl vs girl thing

could they have picked more boring costumes

shit I knew Noah would be in the audience of COURSE

it doesn’t seem like they’re hitting any of the buttons at all

Wow it’s like Noah is supporting his girlfriend in her interests and talents without not trusting her bc she’s doing it with a guy

But they had to kiss, of course, bc your boyfriend isn’t gonna be watching it, not even on a livestream or at a later time

I’m so sorry Rachel and Marco, y’all got fucked over for no reason

Idk if this movie wants me to feel bad for Lee and Elle but I dont

She’s just been carrying chloes earring this whole time

Hey rule 1, sometimes your bestie does some fucked up shit and you can’t always side with them

Why are they always in bars? He’s a freshman on college, he’s 18/19 wtf

“Don’t rearrange your life for someone, like choosing a college just bc it’s near them” are we talking about Noah or lee right now

And here comes the cockfight

ew they’re gonna make them kiss each other? this is honestly gross

you’re in high school good lord

it’s weird seeing people in airports without masks on imma be honest

that was a really weird reveal, didn’t he sign up to do the kissing booth? And he’s like panting bc he wants to bone this other guy so bad? Hes obviously distraught about something

Marco deserves better. Rachel deserves better.

Do they know how airports work? She didn’t go through security, she doesn’t have a boarding pass, what’s happening

Ok so thanksgiving is in November, but she still hasn’t finished her college essay??

Her college essay is just vague metaphors?

You can tell her school is rich bc their graduation gowns aren’t shiny polyester

She found out after/right before graduation? Enrollment decisions are made in early May

This timeline doesn’t make sense

thank you for including two girls kissing in the bloopers

#the kissing booth #the kissing booth 2

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redacted-metallum · 4 years

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Bats, ghost, mummy, nightmare, spells

Bats - I do sleep with a plushie!!! I have a penguin pillow pet that I almost literally can't sleep without! I also have a squishable plague doc but I don't hold him while I sleep because I don't want him to get Stanky

Ghost - the closest thing ive had to a supernatural encounter was the Thing In The Woods when I was going to UC Santa Cruz and I'm not convinced it wasn't just my turbo depressed brain effectively making me hallucinate and be paranoid but at the same time... there's Something in the redwood forests and it is OLD and DOESN'T LIKE WHITE PEOPLE

Mummy - idk if I believe in curses. I'm sure there's a certain amount of like. I wanna say truth? To certain cultures having myths/stories about them that boil down to "Don't drink the water from this area" and "for the love of our gods, don't piss off the people who know how to poison you".

Nightmare - oooh this is tough... I love horror movies... I guess my favorite "Halloween" movie would probably be like... Scream?? Idk what a Halloween movie traditionally IS.

Spells - im trans i wanna shapeshift

#answered

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drakenathan · 4 years

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☕️ Tomb Raider?

tbh i dont remember anything from the old/original games, so lets focus on the new trilogy: tr 2013 is so good, i like how they were really influenced by uncharted on the gameplay, so since i love uc ofc i would love that one. also i like one of those first moments where she kills that deer and she just lays down to mourn for some minutes its such a nice detail. and ofc that dude bros started calling that new lara a cry baby bc she was being HUMAN, who could imagine that. rottr is my least favorite but still fun. ik all the games have kinda the same story "oh here are the bad guys with guns but wait here are more bad guys but theyre supernatural also take this powerful treasure" it kinda sucks bc blease give me something different but ok, also its important to point out that the fact they completely forgot about sam still annoys me. anyway, rottr has pretty scenarios and skins i love how many skins it has. i love changing the character clothes sm like SO MUCH shsushsj and sottr is better than rottr, but gets behind tr 2013 bc again, repetitive story, but i love lara's character development and jonah sm so im like ok fun game. the movies, i only watched the first one with jolie and idk its what a movie from the 00s about "badass women" would be: tight clothes, explosions hshsmsgsh anyway i want a new game

Send me a ☕️ and a topic and I’ll talk about how I feel about it lol

#too much ik ahshsbjs #anonymous #answered

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lovemesomesurveys · 4 years

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What’s one thing you have never done? >> I’ve never gone on a cruise. <<< Me either. There’s a lot of things I haven’t done... like drive a car.

Why? Is this something you would try in the future if you had the chance? Part of me would like to be able to drive, but I’m also scared. Plus, there’s a lot that would go into it. It would be quite expensive between getting a car and the accessible parts needed. I also would need to find someone who could teach me how to drive with the accessible parts. It just hasn’t been a pressing issue for me, but like I said there is a part of me that would like to be able to drive myself so I can go wherever I need to go, whenever I want. What is one trend you wish you have been a part of? I don’t care much about trends.

Or do you think that following trends is stupid? Some are, ha. But honestly, do what you want. I’m not saying I never follow a trend, but it’s just not something I pay much attention to. I’m old.

Do you enjoy reading fanfictions? About who? Or do you write fanfictions, too? I don’t read any.

What is something you own that you wish was in your favorite color? Hmm. I have a lot of favorite colors, to be honest. I own a lot of things that are some of those colors.

^ What is your favorite color anyway? Pastels, rose gold, yellow, coral, mint green.

What grade will you be in next school year? Or have you graduated? If so, do you plan on going to college right away? If not, what do you plan to do then? I graduated UC 5 years ago.

Is there someone from your past that you wish you had dated? Yes; Ty.

Can you snap with both your hands? If not, which hand can you snap with? Yes.

On a scale of 1 to 10, how tolerant are you when it comes to gory movies? I can handle most, but some get carried away. For me, the worst is most definitely a particular scene in Midsommar. What internet browser do you use? Chrome.

What is your opinion on Ke$ha? Do you listen to her? Or do you think her songs are catchy but uses too much auto-tune? I haven’t heard anything from her in awhile, but I do like some of her songs.

^ Do you consider that talent at all? What, autotune? If a song is catchy and I vibe with it, I vibe with it. It can still be good. Autotune doesn’t help everyone, either. Look at Paris Hilton or Kim Kardashian lol. Some people just can’t sing. Autotune wouldn’t help me either. And actually, with Ke$ha in particular, I’ve heard her without autotune and she can sing.

Do you like cosplays? I’m not a cosplayer, but the amount of time and creativity some people put into their costumes is quite incredible. I’ve seen some really cool costumes.

If you were to participate in one, what/who would you dress up as?

Do you sometimes answer surveys with “Idk”/“Idr” because you’re too lazy? I sometimes really don’t know or remember, but there are times I don’t feel like getting into something or elaborating much.

Are you usually open to trying a new food that you aren’t familiar with? No. I’m very picky and not adventurous with trying new foods. I really just eat the same few things. Have you ever tYpEd tHiS wAy (Be honest!)? If so, tell me the first time you got into it: Nooo, I never liked that. It bugged me when other people did it.

Have you ever acted like a bitch and used PMS as an excuse? I did get quite moody and irritable during that time. I still do now and I don’t even that as an excuse anymore. I’m just a moody and irritable person.

Do you know someone who brushes their teeth in the shower all the time? It’s possible. I don’t know most people’s show and teeth brushing habits.

Have you ever tried doing that? Did you like it? Why or why not? No, it just seemed weird to me. I like to keep those things separate.

Do you like countdown surveys? Or are you like me who suck at them? I’ve done a few, but it’s quite rare. I’m not a big fan of those.

Have you ever had to perform a monologue before? Yes. I don’t what I was on during my first year at community college cause I took a couple acting classes for some odd reason. Something totally out of my element and comfort zone. I guess I hoped that it would help me out of my shell, but nope. Parts of it were fun, though. I definitely did better with script memorization than improv. That is really hard to do and definitely takes skill. Some people just have that comedic timing and genius and others, like me, do not. Another thing I hated was the first class I took (not the improv), the professor recorded our performances (the class was literally called acting for the camera or something like that) and then we’d watch everyone’s as a class to critique. Some were group/partner performances, but most were solo. Omg that was TORTURE. I hated seeing myself on camera as it was, I’m my own worst critic, but to have everyone else see it, too... what a nightmare.

Have you ever helped/taught someone older than you how to use email before? Yeah and other things regarding the internet.

Speaking of which, are you patient when it comes to instructing others? Uhh it depends.

Do you ever worry about people finding your layout annoying? I mean, I want them to be able to easily access the surveys. Otherwise, I choose the layout I like and don’t care if other people like it as long as they can get to the surveys. I had a layout once that some kind of issue like that and someone messaged me about it and I changed it.

What is the stupidest bandwagon you’ve ever jumped in to? Last summer beaded bracelets that you made yourself with different words on them and scrunchies became a thing and I for some reason briefly got into it. I bought a bead set that had a variety of bead types, colors, and letters and made several bracelets. I also ordered a few from Etsy and spent too much. Like I said, it was a very short phase. The bead set is just sitting on my shelf collecting dust and I haven’t even worn the bracelets in months. I do still wear the scrunchies, so that’s something.

Do you listen to Panic At The Disco? If so, how do you feel about Ryan and Jon leaving the band? I like some of their music (I was especially into their “A Fever You Can’t Sweat Out” album back in the day), but I didn’t keep up with the band members. I don’t recall hearing about that news.

Do you like kids? Why or why not? I mean, don’t not like them. I’m just not a kid person. I haven’t even been around kids in a long time and I don’t want any of my own. I can handle kids in small does, but they can be very overwhelming and exhausting. And annoying.

Do you not mind having dogtears on your books or do you prefer using bookmarks? If so, how many bookmarks do you have? I never dog ear books. That’s a crime! haha. But seriously. I just use bookmarks, even if it’s just a scrap of paper or something. I’ll find something cause I will not bend the pages.

What is your biggest pet peeve? One is eating sounds, which is the one I always mention when this question comes up. I certainly have others, but it’s easier to just say that and it is one of my big ones.

#personal #text #survey #surveys

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mnemehoshiko · 5 years

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I Really Should Just Invest In Naps + TMI: HEALTH STUFF (x-posted DW/PF)

I'm so tired. I really need to think of a better way of starting these beyond, "hi hello. i am tired. ONCE A FUCKING GAIN."

My parents came Thursday evening to help my brother move on Friday. He's moving apartments and i'm lowkey jealous because he has

TWO ROOMS!!!

A REAL BATHROOM!!

a fucking washer and dryer in unit

all utilities covered except for internet

for fucking 950/month. T___T

The only con is that he's farther from things compared to his, now, prior apartment. Also it's carpeted which is a downside for me (and probably him). But ughhhhh.

But he did most of the movie on his own before they showed up on Friday? So they didn't have a lot left to move.

Mama brought me pillows?? Which are Nice and Lovely and I like the Color but it was also just weird to go downstairs to let them in and have the exchange of

Me: SALAAM MOM

Mother: Salaam, I have your pillows. *thrusts garbage bag filled with pillows at moi*

Me:*blinks* (thinking....when....did I....ask....for pillows??? In retrospect, it was probably one of those things I like claimed when grandma posted stuff to the family WhatsApp group?? And I probably?? Forgot???) Mother: *squints* you just woke up didn't you. Me, who got dressed in like 3 minutes immediately after she called saying they were here: *takes pillows* =__= (I had Not Just Woken Up. I had woken up and then rolled over. VAST DIFFERENCE!! ....there is no difference.) (In my defense, my period has literally Just Started and I'm like Not Happy By This. T_T) They ask if I want to come to my brother's place to move stuff and I'm like, "i'll go on the second round." (also known as attempt to clean my apartment, haahhahaha) I help with the second round of stuff and we all pile into the mini-van to go my brother's place and it's NICE and I am Not Envious but I'm Not Not Envious. =___=

He has Actual Windows. T__T (my bedroom does not. my apartment...has A Lot of Flaws but It's Walking Distance From Many Things So I'm Paying for Convenience) (is this my current mantra? MAYBE.) Anyway, afterwards we go to Costco because like That Is What I Care About. And we Costco'd up. And had minor rage that a pack of 3, clinical strength "lady" deodorants were 12.99 vs 10.99 for 5 pack of "men" clinical deodorant. My brother concurred and has like also read up on the "pink tax" before and like if he ends up marrying a lady, I'M JUST LIKE??? CONGRATS?? WE HAVE TRAINED SOME SEMBLANCE OF A WOKE BLACK MALE. PLEASE DIRECT PRAISE TO MY MOTHER AND MY SISTERS. (no really, he can cook, clean, grocery shop, basically function as a decent human being and like LISTENS WHEN WOMEN TALK IN A THOUGHTFUL MANNER. He also is willing to openly weep during movies, so like congrats.) Anyway, then we went to Sprouts?? Which is like the Large Hippie Grocery Store in Durham and I uhhhh had never been there properly and now I understand why little brother sometimes grocery shops there. There were So Many Types of Almond Milk I Was In Heaven. (update: have discovered that Sprouts....instacarts to my area......as does Sur la Table. This Is Dangerous Information.) Then we went to the hardware store to acquire somethings for little bro's apartment and then we popped back to my place and my mother was like LET ME HELP YOU WITH THINGS. Me, aware my apartment is still disastrous: "That's....not....necessary." Narrator: The mother was undeterred. She did not have a conniption but she did go into Deep Maternal Worry Mode with Bonus Overbearing and Meddling Steamrolling. Internal Me: She means well. She means well. She feels guilty that she's not Around More Often Even Though I Made The Choice To Move Down South. Mother: are you okay? I know you have the anxiety and depression but has anything else happened?? You know?? You'd feel better if this place was cleaner. Me: *pained nods* Mother: Has anything else happened that you haven't told us??? I know you have the health things but anything else? Me: ...no??? (Beyond health and like my inability to like sleep properly, nothing else has happened but stress of my grad life. =_=_ Mother: LETS TAKE JUST 5 MINUTES AND TIDY THINGS UP A LITTLE

Me, who's hungry and still Has Not Eaten In Spite of It Being 5pm: mother Mother, with broom and dustpan and trashbag: COME ALONG. Internal Me: She means Well. At Least She Is Here And Alive. Appreciate The Time You Have With Her. She Means Well. *grits teeth* We clean. WE ALMOST THROW AWAY ONE OF MY ROTHYS BECAUSE SHE DOESN'T LOOK INSIDE BOXES BEFORE THROW SHIT OUT!!! And then we go to the restaurant for dinner....where the kitchen messes up my little brother's order and has chapati on the plate and he has a severe wheat allergy. So he takes Benadryl and my mother....goes into....deep worry mode Again. SHOULD WE LEAVE HIM AT HIS APARTMENT BY HIMSELF???? SHOULD WE TAKE HIM TO THEIR HOTEL??

my mother, once again, making plans without idk ASKING EITHER PARTY INVOLVED: MNEME, YOU SHOULD STAY AT HIS PLACE OVERNIGHT!! HE HAS A WASHER AND DRYER SO YOU CAN DO YOUR LAUNDRY THERE FOR FREE!!! me, a known cheap but is fucking exhausted and trying desperately to Not Snap At My Mother Because That Is Not Respectful But Also Looking Forward to Flopping on Her Fucking Couch and Maybe Even Getting A Waterbottle for my tummy: ....yes mother. =___= My dad upon seeing my mother and I exiting the apartment complex with my laundry: ???? Me, wordlessly pleading for salvation: o__o My mother, once we get to my brother's apartment: ....you know I probably should have asked before making this plan... My brother and I having Just Accepted Our Fate: *crickets* I give my brother the air mattress to blow up until he gets a Real Bed, (the place came unfurnished--which is the other reason I haven't moved because i'd need to like Get Furniture And At This Stage of My PhD, It's Just Not Worth It--so he has No Furniture At All). I sleep on the floor instead of telling my brother to just scoot over and let me ALSO SLEEP on the mattress which is a Queen-sized mattress. Nor does it occur to him to offer it to me. *stares into the void at my back* (In her defense, she did message us apologizing and I know she wasn't doing it maliciously and she's over zealous at times because she feels bad that like I'm a few hundred miles away. Alone. By myself. Single and thus don't have like anyone who's there for emotional support which like does suck but also I AM DOING... Not Amazing But Not As Bad As Undergrad? So...yeah.) I do all my laundry except for like One set that I do in the morning because my father is slow as molasses for Anything and I Know That While My Mother Wants To Leave Early they will not be here early and I have accepted this reality. Mother: WE'RE GOING TO BE THERE By 7:30 AT THE LATEST Narrator: They arrived around 10ish. We still managed to get to the farmers markets though? WHICH IS WHAT I WANTED HER TO EXPERIENCE. NC may not have Many Good Things but The Farmer Markets are So So Nice?? And big??? I have also realized if you wear a shirt that says "Ask me, I'm a scientist!" Shockingly, people read it and like ASK. Me, who slept in this shirt and threw a cardigan on because I was Too Lazy To Put On A Real Adult Shirt: ????? ! oooohhhhh... i do science. yes. yes, i do. Also got my brother to change his address because the voter registration folks were there and like IT'S EASIER TO DO IT THERE then like Figure Out Where To Go, so like We Did Our Civic Duty Today. *finger guns* Got some loaves of GF bread from the bread seller that sells Actual Edible GF bread. Sadly, they were out of raisin because it was 11am and like they open at 7am. T___T

Then we grabbed my dad, who went to the coffee shop....to work. It's been almost a full year since his open-heart surgery and he's back to being a Workaholic. =___=

Then we went to Lowes because he needed something and my parents FAILED TO COMMUNICATE PLANS and he was like...."oh I thought we were going to do it on the way back to MD??". Either way, I now have an adapter to make a three pronged plug into a two pronged one? So yay?

Then we took me, and my laundry, back to my place. My mother gave yet more instructions. I just smiled and nodded and reminded that she meant well.

And then ran back to the car because SHE WAS SO INSISTENT ON LIKE MOVING MY LAUNDRY BASKETS THAT SHE ALMOST LEFT HER MEDS BEHIND!! Me, ....this...is why....i said.... i could do it.......

But they are now back safely in MD, along with my brother because he has an orhto appointment. I was debating going back with them but I uh can't because I have a meeting with my PI on wednesday. And thus, I stay here. But I have a lot of article revisions and analyses to do so it sadly makes sense.

Maybe I'll try to go NY in Aug or mid-July?

IN FUN HEALTH THINGS, new game that I hate; "is this blood from my period or from my ass?" Spoiler: It's both~~~." Which now makes me regretting uh telling the gastro office that "no, I don't have symptoms so I don't think the steroid is necessary??" But in my defense, I DIDN'T HAVE SYMPTOMS ON WEDNESDAY WHEN THEY CALLED. Also they uh, usually are 3-6 months apart not 1.5 months...apart. So that was an unpleasant surprise which led to me pass out in bed when my parents left because ahhahahaha blood loss is v v exhausting and I forgot to pack my iron pills last night.

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So, my mother is coming down again in July to take me to my sigmoidscopy. In which, they'll see things. Or they won't. I hope they see something? Anything? I don't want UC but I WOULD LIKE TO KNOW

- why i've been constantly inflamed since 2015?

- i know what hemorrhoidal bleeding looks like and uhhhhh i'm sorry but I shouldn't be dropping Actual Clots Out Of My Ass

*lies down*

i just want to not be tired and my intestines to not hate me as much. =_=

Okay, I am Going To Actually Sleep After I Knock Back Some Licorice Tea for my throat. (it's....super sore for some reason which is Not Great since I have D&D tomorrow most likely.)

#mneme's adventures in adulting #mneme: a life #mneme's health #mneme's fam

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another-lost-cause-blog · 2 years

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A LETTER FOR MY PAST: started playing life is strange:true colors tonight.

I can’t even bring myself to start it. Idk why my mind is so stuck on the happy times of the past. I remember watching you dive into the first one, following the story through and true. I miss sharing those moments with you. today I got a face massage. During the massage I realized… they were doing the “T touch” from a show we shared together. I would be lying if I said I didn’t miss you. I do. I am also happy where I am. I miss you so much and a lot though. Everyday life things. Normal things. Driving passed your school on sunrise.

I was driving home… the sun hit my face as I looked in the mirror. It reminded me of how the sun would hit your face on the rare occasions when you would be driving (idk if you ever got your license but I hope you do, I know you’ll do great).

I hear our memories in songs, see them in movies and games and live with them in my head. I loved you so deeply girl. It’s crazy where life has taken us.

sometimes I feel like I was thrown away, not for anything better, not for something more exciting or flashy… just simply because I wasn’t wanted. I always thought our love was enough. In reality though I guess love isn’t ever truly enough. I’ve changed a lot. Sometimes I don’t understand who I am. I’m trying though.

I had an interview at the med center (UC) I’m pretty sure I’m going to get the job. I’m confident. I’m skilled. I’m qualified.

planning my future with another wonderful person. I am happy. I feel loved. And I think it’s still okay for me to admit that I miss you.

I will always be cheering you on from a distance. I love you. I miss you. I’m happy for you and for what’s coming for you. I think it will be very hard on you, it’s a battle and a hardship and I hope you don’t ever crack under the pressure. You have a long road ahead of you and it’s going to change your life permanently once it happens. I am sad it wasn’t with me and that life won’t be shared with me, and I’m positive I would have been a better partner for you than anyone else. I’m confident and cocky lol 😂 still… I hope you find someone who loves you and treats you as you deserve. Never settle for less than how I treated you at least. I wouldn’t say I was perfect for you, but you were perfect for me and I loved you with Purity.

anyways, life is indeed a Strange thing. Wishing you well even when you don’t know it. I love you… logging off. 🤙🏼

#love #hate #poetic #poetry #life #life is strange #i miss it #miss you

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kadywicker · 6 years

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inifnity war spoilers ahead please leave now if u dont wanna see em

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you had WARNING

anyway heres a rough outline of my thought process thru the movie from what i can remember

a dude walked in wearing a justice league shirt and it was the biggest power move of the evening

rip heimdall u truly were the hottest bitch in the mcu

i already saw the spoilers that loki died but im still in mourning. my chaotic twink son :( also him tearing up when thor was getting tortured was like, possibly, one of the worst things to happen to me this evening. and his “you will never be a god” and “we will see the sun rise again yet, brother” like i’d rather be dead.

wheres valkyrie you fucking bitches

i know marvel has been trying to make me care about pepper and tony for like.... the entirety of the mcu and in theory i enjoy it but in reality i just heavily do not care

walked into this w out watching dr strange bc i refuse to so seeing him was very unpleasant for me :/

the second that one fuckin... servant of thanos guy showed up that tony called squidward i just burst into fucking laughter bc oh my fucking god. he looks like one of the star wars prequels aliens. i didnt know how i was supposed to react to that??? what the fuck????? kin?

at least this time tony attempted to get peter away from the fight ig??? also like okay i kno its a running gag but did the russos have to make peter reference old movies like what 3 times in this movie and once in their last one like please..... Please. its done. its over!

look...... look. look! look. i have made MULTIPLE posts on this website about how ugly i think chris evans is. especially when hes got his weird short, spiky hair. ive made this very VERY clear. i thought i was clear on this, myself. but let me tell u the fuck what when steven grant rogers showed up covered in complete darkness and caught a spear that moves at the speed of light w no hesitation and then stepped out of the shadows i only had one thought: please raw me

also i still dont care about wanda and vision but did wandas accent get slightly less bad or is this just exposure

drax’s reaction to thor was um. Me. also it was this scene that made me realize that ppl saying that the russos reset thor to his previous characterization and that he was nothing like ragnarok thor i....????? hm???? idk i thought he was p in character from what we saw in ragnarok? like did u all expect him to be super light and happy go lucky immediately after his entire planet died and his brother died too like. what.... did u Want. hes still not as grimdark as dark world and he still has the ragnarok vibes but w added “Lifes a Fucking Nightmare So Im Going to Joke Until Someone Murders Me :)” which is just honest to god me, so

oh also in an above part when tony pulled out a flip phone to call steve the dude next to me loudly hissed “what? a fucking flip phone-?” and his wife shushed him. i wanted to lean over and inform him that it was the phone from civil war and if hed been paying ATTENTION he wouldve known that

things arent going to be in much order after this bc im tired and its all a big jumble in my adhd brain but thats okay. its been 6 years and i still couldnt tell u the entire plot of the avengers, so.

tbh the effects in this movie were really fucking gorgeous like.... all the different planets’ scenery was so goddamn beautiful. like idk how to spell it so im not gonna attempt but the planet that gamora died on was literally so fucking pretty i was stunned into a silence what the FUCK was that beautiful nonsense

not enough steve and bucky interaction bc marvels personally out to get me, a known gay

i cant believe buckys a fucking goat farmer like ohfa sdfhadof ?????? just let the man feed his goats in PEACE

didnt love the whole “thanos really loved gamora” bit but like it makes sense ig. if thats what he thought love was? altho that definitely doesnt mean she loves him or shouldve ever forgiven him bc uuuh Yikes. anyone w abusive parents knows that kind of possessive, overbearing love. and it might be some fucked up twisted form of it but it aint good.

but whoever they casted as baby gamora was spot on?

when red skull lifted his hood i literally whispered “oh my god” and the lady next to me started laughing at me.

also while there was a good amount of fighting i rlly appreciated that it wasnt All Fighting and just there to show off that they had cool special effects. like.... it was mostly story and for someone who doesnt give a shit abt action sequences it was v relieving that i didnt have to parse through 2 and a half hours of watching someone do cool but impractical stunts

man idc abt wanda and dont like mcu natasha bc of the actress but when that chick was like “youll die alone” and natasha said “shes not alone” and then kicked ass i rlly just. hm. thats lesbian.

anyone else agree that when strange said mournfully that there was only one outcome and then said that giving up the time stone was the only way, its basically just telling us that this was all planned and it Will work out fine bc he knew that this was the one path that would lead to them winning. like..... im at least 99% sure thats whats going to happen, here.

steve and bucky may have said 2 sentences to each other but steve reaching out to grab a handful of buckys ashes w a stricken look was literally the worst moment of my entire life and i plan to sue marvel for emotional damages bc that was fucking terrible and i cannot BELIEVE they made me watch that idc if bucky comes back im fuckin pissed

also thats literally every team iron man member to realize that the accords were bullshit and if its 2018 and u still think the accords were right/a good thing i honestly do not know what to tell you

fuckin..... im lookin at captain marvels powers and shes cool and all but hows she gonna save all this........ now im even more curious abt what her movies gonna bring like ???? hello??????

also the only time the theater clapped or cheered was when steve showed up and literally same

i know all the dust ppl r coming back but alsof uc kin......... that was brutal

idk i dont have much 2 add im very sleepy but

i liked it a lot and im excited for the next movie. there were some things that i thought were in poor taste but like..... thats what i expect from every marvel movie, so. im pleasantly surprised by how good this was. idk why but during it it kinda like.... it had the same vibes as return of the king????? like i dont know Why but it has a very.... lotr movie feel to it. but w the staple marvel jokes. idk how to feel about that. i think its good? im not sure. get back to me in a few days after the movie highs worn off and if i still like it then its got my stamp of approval.

#james.txt #iw spoilers #infinity war spoilers #literally do not click on that read more if u dont want major spoilers

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dr-dr-olshakes · 6 years

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I got tagged by @no-giraffes as a whole get to know each other thing!

1. nickname: I don’t really have one? I used to have one in high school but those days have gone down in the West into shadows, so.

2. gender: woman 3. star sign: Scorpio although tbh I have no idea what that means and have only ever been told that I’m not what is expected of a Scorpio. 4. height: 5'6, or just there about 5. time: 11:20 6. birthday: October 30th, which is just about the best birthday you could ever have. Costumes party every year. 7. favorite bands: The Doors! I’m also pretty down with the Mountain Goats and the National. 8. favorite solo artists: Tallest Man on Earth is a big one, plus the ever incredible Hurray for the Riff Raff. Bob Dylan is an eternal fav. 9. song stuck in my head: “Just Hold on We’re Going Home” by Drake- not sure how it got there but it’s here to stay. 10. last movie i watched: Casino Royale. Which I love way more than I probably should. 11. last show i watched: Project Runway. Look, don’t judge. I’ve been going through a rough time and it’s a mindless show that turns my brain into a soothed mush. 12. when did i create my blog: Sophomore year of college? Maybe junior? Idk, the Doctor Who fandom called to me and then I found this hellsite. 13. what do i post: Gay supersoldiers and literary jokes, mostly. 14. last thing i googled: I needed a gif of Amy Santiago from Brooklyn Nine-Nine to send to my partner. 15. do i have any other blogs: I used to have one called Chican@ in the Royal We but I haven’t used it in years. 16. do i get asks: Nope. Like none. 17. why i chose my url: Dr- because I love Dr. Manhattan from Watchmen. OlShakes (Ol’Shakes) because it’s my nickname for Shakespeare. Hence, DrOlShakes 18. following: I do a major cull before every semester, so maybe only around 30-40? 19. followers: Honestly, I have no idea. 21. average hours of sleep: a solid 8. I take sleeping pills so it’s not like I have much choice. 22. lucky number: 47!!!!!!!! the cosmic number of the universe 23. instruments: nope 24. what am i wearing: grey oxfords, black cigarette pants, and a knit spider-man sweater. It’s my nerdy academic look. 26. dream job: If I’m dreaming “small,” a tenure-track job at a university in a major metropolis. If I’m dreaming real big, a tenure-track position at UC-Santa Barbara. 27. dream trip: my dream trip was, well, it was to go to Oaxaca with my best friend and platonic soulmate but she...passed away about a month ago...so that’s not ever going to happen. And I guess we won’t get to eat our way through Little Havana either...so, um, in light of all that fucking misery, I really, desperately want to go to Scotland with my partner. Although I also want to make our trips to Portland a tradition. 28. favorite food: pomegranates!!! alternatively, a really, really good bean and cheese burrito. I’m a woman of simple pleasures. 29. nationality: U.S. American 30. favorite song right now: hm. Shut Up Kiss Me by Angel Olsen

This was great!! I honestly enjoy these an absurd amount (but that’s just the narcissist in me). Anyone is free to participate but I’ll tag @transcendental-is-em @perpetual-panda @weezly14 @drgns8er whaddup!

#dis me

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morkjin · 7 years

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FUN FACTS TAG

Tagged by my Nelyn :> @got7-markjinson / @banuan2kin

Tagging: @cuddletuan, @iridescent--wings, @icarusjjp, @redgyeomie, @j1ny0ung, @jj-nyoung, @marktuantuantuan, @beomnyeong, @jaybleep, @jackseunie/@kinomoto

AND ANYONE ELSE WHO WANTS TO DO IT :DDD

HOW TALL ARE YOU? 5′6

WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR EYES? black like my soul 🖤

DO YOU WEAR GLASSES OR CONTACTS? glasses, but i don’t need to

DO YOU WEAR BRACES? no, wanted one when i was a kid. imagine how my teeth would look like now! probs better than jinyoungie’s

WHAT IS YOUR FASHION STYLE? airport park jinyoung, except without the hats

WHEN WERE YOU BORN? october 4th

HOW OLD ARE YOU? 23......

DO YOU HAVE ANY SIBLINGS? i have four: an older brother, two older sisters, and one younger one. since my brother and i are gay, our family has an ongoing joke that my parents got 5 daughters

WHAT SCHOOL/COLLEGE DO YOU GO TO? uc san diego

WHAT KIND OF STUDENT ARE YOU? not a very good one. i wait til the last minute.

WHAT ARE YOUR FAVOURITE SUBJECTS? wow okay. i love everything math. algebra, geometry, trigonometry, calculus, love love love em. i also enjoy biology and chemistry.

WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE MOVIES? i have a lot??? how about like... fav comedy or fav horror? mean girls / bridesmaids and babadook

WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE PAST TIMES? recently? gif making and reading fanfiction. also watching youtube videos. but if you asked me before i became a got7 stan, i would probably say tennis and running.

DO YOU HAVE ANY REGRETS? yes. doesn’t everyone? o.O

WHAT IS YOUR DREAMJOB? i’d like to work in the renewable energy industry

WOULD YOU LIKE TO GET MARRIED? probably. not anytime soon.

DO YOU WANT KIDS? HOW MANY? most likely. maybe 1 or 2. my nieces and nephews are little monsters.

HOW MANY COUNTRIES HAVE YOU VISITED? 3 so far. would like to visit a lot more though.

WHAT WAS YOUR SCARIEST DREAM? this one isn’t exactly scary, but it’s recurring. idk how many times i’ve had this dream, but it’s a lot. ever since i was like 6. basically, i’m always at one end of the street, and at the other end, there is a plane plummeting down from the red sky :| the plane is always falling, the sky is blue sometimes. idk what this dream means, but i’ve always had it.

DO YOU HAVE A BOYFRIEND OR GIRLFRIEND? yes. he’s a cutie, i love him. he got to see got7 bc he went to kcon in LA this year. i was so jealous :| he wasn’t supposed to go, he just got invited bc his cousin’s friend bailed on her.

PUT YOUR PHONE ON SHUFFLE, WITHOUT SKIPPING, POST THE 15 FIRST SONGS THAT PLAY

(lol all that’s in my phone currently is got7, jjp, red velvet, twice, bts, and seventeen lol

Blood Sweat & Tears - BTS

Oh Boy - Red Velvet

Stupid Cupid - Red Velvet

Hello (Yeoboseyo) - GOT7

Candy - Red Velvet

Spring Day - BTS

ROCK - SEVENTEEN

When I Grow Up - SEVENTEEN

A (TOYO Remix) - GOT7

First Love - BTS

#me #about me

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wisehowell · 7 years

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just a lot of questions

got tagged by @teatowelhowell to answer these 92 questions- that’s a lot, btw THE LAST 1. Drink: water 2. Phone Call: one of my best friends to rant about something 3. Text Message: hm oh on sc i was ranting about bts to another best friend 4. Song You Listened To: let’s open spotfiy... coming home by tuen/anki. oh that’s a good song. i don’t think anyone knows it exists, but 5. Time You Cried: heh like i remember i probably hit my toe against something HAVE YOU EVER 6. Dated Someone Twice: lol single life (my parents no let me anyway) 7. Been Cheated On: heh 8. Kissed Someone And Regretted It: heh 9. Lost Someone Special: my grandma :( also three best friends bc we went to different high schools and it was too hard to stay together 10. Been Depressed: uhm no i’m too confident it’s kinda insane but yea 11. Gotten Drunk and Thrown Up: yep, at age fifteen. (altho i’m like 19ish days away from sixteen) LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS 12. teal, green with a hint of blue. not aqua, which is blue with a hint of green. 13. silver (especially if it shimmers) 14. a rich blue IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU 15. Made New Friends: of course! i made about thirty, idk. but i love em all. some graduated high school tho so now i’m sad 16. Fallen Out of Love: what is love 17. Laughed Until You Cried: duhhh 18. Found Out Someone Was Talking About You: nah i’m that “smart, cute girl that’s too loud and follows every rule ever” according to my friends we got no drama 19. Met Someone Who Changed You: my four best friends 20. Found Out Who Your True Friends Are: mhm. for now. but college... 21. Kissed Someone On Your Facebook: do you mean ig or sc bc fb is dead 22. How Many of Your Facebook Friends Do You Know in Real Life: like i have fb no it’s for old people like my parents 23. Do You Have Any Pets: a hermit crab named digger! nickname- diggles 24. Do You Want To Change Your Name: well my name is annoying bc ‘phoebe’ is never in any gift shops and people (guy friends mostly) say it wrong on purpose or spell it wrong. people i’ve known for years spell my name wrong- pheobe. i’d change it to idk what something cool like olivia or kat. 25. What Did You Do For Your Last Birthday: that was a year ago jeez but i think i went to a waterpark 26. What Time Did You Wake Up: 7, altho today was a rarity usually it’s 8ish 27. What Were You Doing at Midnight Last Night: tumblr and anime and sc 28. Name Something You Cannot Wait For: taylor swift’s new album. yes i’m a swiftie. fight me. 29. When Was The Last Time You Saw Your Mother: last night i’m still in bed lol 30. What is One Thing You Wish You Could Change About Your Life: my mom having the job she wants instead of being a librarian. nothing about me tho i’m good. 31. What Are You Listening To Right Now: i paused my music for that other question but okay the same song as before 32. Have You Ever Talked To a Person Named Tom: i know a tommy? but his full name is thomas. 33. Something That Is Getting On Your Nerves: fffffa- i’m not saying 34. Most Visited Website: google 35. Elementary: idk what that is but im assuming you mean primary school? so my favourite memories of primary school was egg-rolling in the park, my first best friend, sandboxes, jumping pig game, the ditch, cleaning fruit baskets, horrible pizza,SITTING ON THE MOTHERFUCKIN BENCHES, the music trolley, the ditch, love tunnel, shirt signing, plimsolls, penguin bar jokes, bringing in an old shirt for art, lunchables, recorder lessons, the shoes from clarkes with the shitty toys in the heel, doughnut socks, the 3d shape bag,PGL/ Residential trips, stuck in the mud, turning the lights off in the toilet, biff and chip, being told we were to big for the play equipment in year 6. (I feel like that was the most british thing I’ve ever written and any americans probably have no fuckin clue what half of these things are)

OKAY BUT I’M KEEPING WHAT @teatowelhowell PUT BECAUSE as an american i have no idea what this says. like jumping pig game? lol is that like the frog jump game kids do? but pigs are frogs bc maybe there’s no frogs over there? altho i don’t think so. i know what a trolley is from british vlogs. but love tunnel? plimsolls? shoes with toys in the heels? biff and chip? huh? girl your language is confusing. as for my elementary it was pretty and i made a lot of friends but they all went to a diff high school & middle bc of boundaries so i only know like ten people from my elementary in high school. 36. High School: should i tell you? my mascot is shark 37. College/University: hm i wanna go to uc davis or uc something. 38. Hair Colour: brown with goldish highlights that are natural bc my dad used to be completely blond and i guess i got some of that 39. Long Hair or Short Hair: like medium 40. Do You Have A Crush On Someone: no bro just jensen ackles 41. What Do You Like About Yourself: i make friends with literally everyone i love it 42. Piercings: no bc i do year round soccer- for like ten years- so i never had time XD also i know why piercings are popular and how it all started with early us- natives- so idk it seems kinda uncivilized to stick a hole in a body part and put a stone in it. so when i’m done with soccer i don’t think i’ll pierce my ears bc it’s kinda weird to me 43. Blood Type: my parents don’t even know. whatever the most common one is, i’m sure 44. Nickname:(phoebe is pronounced FEEBEE) phoebs, phoebster, fo-e-be, phobe wan kenobi, anne (i give other people nicknames usally) 45. Relationship Status: go away 46. Zodiac Sign: leo. roar. 47. Pronouns: she/her 48. Favorite TV Show: Supernatural, Reign, Once Upon a Time, Sherlock, Arrow, Gravity Falls when it still lived 49. Tattoos: no 50. Right or Left Hand: right FIRST 51. Surgery: i had an extra tooth so i had to get that taken out before it grew in. but i also destroyed my elbow in kinder and had to get stitches? idk if that’s a surgery 52. Piercing: we went over my feelings on them 54. Sport: soccer! did flag football with my soccer team too for two years it was fun but all the guy teams beat us bc we weren’t really trying we were just laughing 55. Vacation: uhm my parents take me a lot of places so idr. uhmmm maybe yellowstone? 56. Pair of Trainers: trainers? uhm are those pants? a bra? oh lol i looked it up. they’re tennis shoes. my first pair were probably just nike. 57. Eating: wtf ? is this like the first time i remember eating? << wisehowell agrees with her. 58. Drinking: i’m not old enough to drink legally so 59. I’m About To: eat breakfast? 60. Listening To: uhm whattt i just said i paused the dang song so same oneee but here i’ll rec you a few artists: BANNERS, LIGHTS, and clairity. (those two are supposed to be caps) 61. Waiting For: school to kill me 62. Want: nothing just my friends 63. Get Married: sure 64. Career: that’s confusing YOUR TYPE 65. Hugs or Kisses: hugs 66. Lips or Eyes: eyes altho i have brown eyes and everyone hates brown eyes so idk man. but i’ve never been complimented on my eyes in my life so i feel rude if i say eyes bc as a lame eyed i know how cruel it is to judge by eye color 67. Shorter or Taller: i’m 5ft flat so everyone is taller than me 68. Older or Younger: idc 70. Nice Arms or Nice Stomach: no 71. Sensitive or Loud: idc 72. Hook Up or Relationship: relationship 73. Troublemaker or Hesitant: neither bro 74. Kissed a Stranger: no 75. Drank Hard Liquor: no I’M FIFTEEN usa has strict drinking laws okay like yea my uh fun friends get high and drunk but i’m a valedictorian i gotta keep my rep 76. Lost Glasses/Contact Lenses: i have glasses but i would never lose em 77. Turned Someone Down: when someone turns up i’ll let you know how it goes << I’M LAUGHING 78. Sex on First Date: again do i need to say my age 79. Broken Someone’s Heart: some guys had crushes on me and my friends told me that they told them like a year later so i guess i did 80. Had Your Heart Broken: no 81. Been Arrested: no, i luv rules 82. Cried When Someone Died: wth 83. Fallen For a Friend: nah my guy friends are too stupid to love DO YOU BELIEVE IN… 84. Yourself: yea 85. Miracles: no god isn’t real 86. Love at First Sight: uh we’ll see 87. Santa Claus: nooo not since i was four 88. Kiss on First Date: why not 89. Angels: no if god isn’t real why are his slaves (i’m kidding, i totally respect the religious community) OTHER… 90. Current Best Friend’s Name: i’ll give the first letters of the four. a, a, c, c. (i’m not kidding for whatever reason most of my close friends have a or c names like i had two old best friends with both a. and another with c) here i’ll tag one. @galaxy-searcher 91. Eye Colour: brown (boooooo) 92. Favourite Movie: idk i don’t pick favs but song of the sea is cute

uhm. i don’t want to tag people bc it’s 92 questions. do it if you want XD

#about me #personal #other #tdl?#idk maybe i'll bury it

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rumasaca · 7 years

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Question: Some headcanons on the difference in behavior from Amuro/Rei/Bourbon? Like, for example: Who is more Arrogant? Silly? Flirty? Loud? Sarcastic? Idk, what ever you can think off xD Because I have the feeling all his personas are so different from each other. And I love HC ❤ [I'm sorry, I will send this ask to 2 more people, I need more hc in my live and couldn't decide to who of you three I should send it too ;^; and I call him Amuro even when Rei is his true name, I'm so used to Amuro]

Ahahahaha awwww thank you for the ask anon

Also SORRY anon because I’m fairly certain you wanted headcanons of Rei in different specific situations that were probably meant to be mostly silly. I am not terribly good at being silly sometimes so instead I wrote a 800 word summary of my disorganized thoughts on how I interpret Rei and his different personas. I apologize for being a Mood Killer in this case and I hope you will accept this offering as an apology.

Hmmm… To be honest, I think Amuro and Rei as personas are fairly similar to one another in terms of their speech patterns and everyday demeanor; it’s really difficult to maintain a persona completely different than your normal demeanor for long periods of time. With Amuro, he has to go to work most days with Azusa, and he’s keeping a constant eye on Conan and company, so he’d pick something that’s more on the affable side to seem less suspicious, but also something that’s difficult for him to slip up on.

Date calls him a gentleman, and I don’t think he’s acting in that case, so I’d probably conclude that Rei is like Amuro, but with a much harder slant to his character. One of the ways you can catch when Rei is acting is when he does something more characteristic of his true self as Amuro before realizing it and pulling back. The two examples I’m thinking of are his intro case and the rock star case: in the former, the part where he dodges the husband’s fist before stepping back and pretending he’s afraid of violence, and in the latter, the one part where he makes excellent deductions before just stepping back like “Well I’m still learning to be a detective!!”

Rei is determined, calculating, and probably fairly arrogant–I say “probably” because I peg the whole case with him and the FBI agents as exaggerated acting, not false in how he feels but definitely scaled up to prepare for Vermouth’s gig. He’s definitely confident in himself and his own abilities, and he’s willing to take great risks based on them. He does what he thinks is right, and sometimes that means taking judgments on whether the ends justify the means (see: again, the case right before he confronts Subaru).

Amuro, naturally then, is him more laidback and polite–he pretends to be opposed to violence, and he keeps his personality nontheatening and easy to overlook. He defers a lot to his supposed superiors (like Kogoro), too, and he generally follows the path of least resistance. I also doubt he’d ever talk badly about anyone who wasn’t Shuichi, haha. So, if you ask me, he’s most likely to be intentionally silly as Amuro. (See: calling Kogoro Mouri-sensei. I’m pretty sure Rei likes messing with Kogoro a little bit.)

Bourbon strikes me as an aspect of Rei’s personality that’s been magnified and intensified–Rei acts a lot like Bourbon when he thinks he’s around Shuichi, like the rock star case, in which he has no incentive to be acting like Bourbon specifically. Which leads me to think that the murderousness at Shuichi there is all Rei.

In general, Bourbon’s speech patterns also match Rei’s in my mind, but he adds in a lot of venom behind his delivery (affably evil, if you would). He’s trying to embody a manipulative, cunning villain who just happens to talk politely–and his personality as Rei is far from that, but not too far. Generally speaking, undercover agents need to understand the people they’re pretending to be, and Rei has to be the same way–so rather than shying away from Bad People And Things, I see him as more of a person who understands them and how they work, and Bourbon is mostly pretending to embrace that understanding. (Possibly because he’s had a past with them? Who knows what his relationship with Elena was all about?) And actually embracing it, in many ways. See: his original decision to hand Shuichi over to the BO to get into their inner circle.

That being said, most undercover agents also need something concrete to ground them, usually some sort of morality-related thing, and it’s usually religion, or their family, or something like that. He’s got none of that in any persona, the closest thing being his own sense of justice and determination to see the BO obliterated off the face of Japan. So perhaps that’s why he’s so prone to slippage and forgetting his real targets, as Shuichi puts it.

Honestly, I think Rei has a lot of honor too–he’s mad in movie 20 when Shuichi seems to be implying that he doesn’t trust Japan’s police, and he’s mad at the FBI for figuratively stepping on the PSB’s toes. A lot of his strongest motivations are extremely personal in nature. (Cough, cough, Akaaaaaaaaaaaai!!!)

ANYWAYS, I probably have more to say on this subject, but I can’t really think of anything right now, haha :’D That’s most of my thoughts about Rei! If we’re not talking about Gundam crossovers and parallels anyways because I could write entire essays on that. But this is kind of way too long as is. It’s basically my personal interpretation of Rei!

#the entire post is 903 words i'm out of here #this is too much i'm done #anonymous #asks #major arcana: the moon

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gloomstudy · 7 years

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11 questions tag!

tagged by @piiess, @hinatastudy, @armcnia, @eunoiastudy, @milkyjournals, and @gentlealienstudies. ahh so many people ;; thank you so much, you guys!!

all of my answers are under the cut!! :)

questions from piiess:

what is your most used social media besides tumblr? does youtube count? i’m on there pretty often.

favorite genre of music and song(s) recommendations from said genre? i’ve really been loving lo-fi music, and here are my recs!

the latest book you read? my aesthetics text book, lmao.

describe you clothing style. pretty much all neutral colors (grey, black, navy blue). also, comfort > everything else. lately, i’ve been wearing a loose t-shirt, a light jacket or hoodie, skinny jeans, and sneakers. very simple. :)

what is the weirdest dream you’ve had? i don’t remember what exactly happened, but i vividly remember that victor nikiforov from yoi was in it, and i felt oddly satisfied???

would you rather live in an apartment or a house? an apartment, as long as my neighbors aren’t too noisy.

your future goals. i hope to graduate successfully from college, become an audio engineer, and maybe compose/produce some original music! having a doggo to keep my company would be nice, too. :’)

coffee, tea, both or neither? tea~

all time favorite movie(s). here are my movie recs!

do you want to time-travel? if yes, where to? i’d love to go into the future to see what kinds of super cool technology exists. ^_^

dusk or dawn? dusk.

questions from hinatastudy:

what’s your favorite animal? giraffes!

do you read magazines? occasionally.

favorite youtubers? gloomgames, cloudyapples, bethany mota, ryan higa, jenn im, kina grannis, and a bunch of others!!

do you prefer writing in pen or pencil? pen.

pc or mac? / android/iphone?? pc and android!

do you prefer handwritten notes or typed out notes? handwritten when i’m studying, and typed when i’m in lecture.

favorite tv show? teen wolf!

favorite fictional character? kira yukimura from teen wolf. she deserved better!

if you could wake up and be fluent in another language what would it be? japanese.

do you like wearing hats? ehhh, not really, although i don’t mind wearing a beanie when the weather gets colder.

do you collect anything? if so, what? stationery, lol.

questions from armcnia:

best concert you’ve been to? seeing the san francisco symphony!

favorite dessert? ice cream. :’)

what do you like to cook/bake? i rarely cook/bake, oops ._.

what is the clumsiest thing you’ve done? tripping on myself, lmao.

proudest moment? getting into my dream school! ^_^

pineapple on pizza? HELL YEAH. (sorry to anyone who doesn’t like it.)

do you lose things easily? nope.

favorite word? mellifluous.

fictional character you relate to the most? kira yukimura from teen wolf.

what’s the best thing you own? uhhh...i honestly have no idea.

favorite time of year? transitioning from summer to fall, when the weather is not too hot and not too cold. :’)

questions from eunoiastudy:

what’s the object directly to your right? ikea 2018 catalog, which i haven’t flipped through yet.

what triggers the most nostalgia for you? drinking apple juice! i always feel like a little kid every time, hehe.

favorite fictional character? kira yukimura from teen wolf!

favorite color combo? lavender, ice blue, and blush pink! i also really like slate blue and light grey together, kinda like my mobile theme and desktop theme.

favorite place you’ve ever been? disneyland! i’ve only been there once, and i’d love to go again.

what is your dream school? i’m already at my dream school: uc berkeley, also known as cal. go bears! :D

if you could live anywhere in the universe, where would you choose? the andromeda galaxy seems pretty cool.

if you could travel to any point in time, where (when) would you go? the future to see what kinds of cool technology exists. ^_^

if you could immediately memorize all the contents of one book, which book would you choose? uhhh...idk, maybe some kind of encyclopedia, i guess?

what’s your favorite word? mellifluous.

would you rather erase your favorite book from the face of the earth, or erase your favorite movie from the face of the earth? oh gosh...i think i’d probably go with erasing my favorite book from the face of the earth since i don’t always have time to read for leisure anymore ;;

questions from milkyjournals:

what’s your favorite fruit? kiwi!

what’s your favorite stationery that you currently have? my tombow brush pens. :’)

what drink do you like to order at restaurants? depends on the restaurant, but since i usually go to chinese restaurants, i just like having the oolong tea that they give you for free, lol.

do you play any instruments? if so, which ones? yes! i play the piano, violin, viola, cello, erhu, acoustic guitar, recorder, and harmonica.

who’s your favorite music artist? ahhh i have too many, but i really like kina grannis!

what’s your favorite clothing item? my cal hoodie. it keeps me nice and warm. ^_^

do you have any pets? tell me about them! i don’t have any ;; but i used to have tropical fish, and they lasted for a pretty long time!

how was your day? it’s been pretty good so far! i started learning how to use Max MSP 7, and i’m having so much fun. i’m one step closer to becoming an audio engineer ahhh :D

favorite type of tea? if you’re a coffee person, favorite type of coffee? genmaicha (brown rice tea) and green tea are my top 2 favorites.

are you nostalgic? yeee sometimes.

what’s your favorite ice cream flavor? green tea!

questions from gentlealienstudies:

if you could learn any language which would you learn? aside from japanese, i’d love to learn korean!

if you could go back in time and change one thing what would you change? i wish hillary clinton or bernie sanders were our president...

do you believe in soulmates? ehhh kinda, but not really. whatever happens, happens, i guess.

favorite subject and why? music! it’s the one thing that i know i’m good at, and it’s my strongest subject. i’m also really passionate about it, so that’s why i study it in school! :)

describe your aesthetic? music, muted and neutral colors, the gentle pitter-patter of the rain falling on your window, cloudy skies, the occasional sunshine peeking out from the clouds, and a hint of fangirl. ^_^

what inspired you to get a studyblr? my lack of motivation in the middle of the spring 2017 semester, along with scrolling through other studyblrs, really sparked something in me, so i decided to start a studyblr, and i’m really glad that i did!!

night owl or morning bird? definitely a night owl.

what song have you had on repeat lately? “blood” - day6

do you have a bullet journal? yes!!

what do you listen to while studying? mostly lo-fi hip-hop and chill electronic.

favorite season and why? ahh i really love summer because there’s (usually) no school, but i also really like fall because the weather is not too hot and not too cold. also, my birthday is in the fall! :’)

asdfghjkl; i’m too lazy to come up with more questions lol. anyone is more than welcome to answer the same questions, though!! thank you again to these 6 lovely people for tagging me!! ^_^

#tagged #tag #about me #66 QUESTIONS OMG #i had to scroll through all of my likes just to find everyone who tagged me lmao #and i never got around to doing this until now oops #thank you again though!! :)

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liamwontmind · 7 years

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92 truths

Rules: Once you have been tagged you are supposed to write 92 truths about yourself. At the end, choose 25 people to tag! Thank you @zlpayne for tagging me

LAST… [1] drink: water  [2] phone call: UC Riverside [3] text message: My mom sending me a meme [4] song you listened to: Congratulations- Post Malone [5] time you cried: literally like 10 minutes ago on the toilet.

HAVE YOU EVER… [6] dated someone twice: yes. Lmao [7] been cheated on: yes ):  [8] kissed someone and regretted it: hmmm. Yes.  [9] lost someone special: multiples [10] been depressed: pretty sure me crying on the toilet answers this question.  [11] gotten drunk and thrown up: hell to the fuck no. I know how to handle my drinks

LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLOURS: [12] blue-green [13] wine red [14] rose gold

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU… [15] made new friends: yes [16] fallen out of love: yes [17] laughed until you cried: this whole day cause me and my mom are hilarious  [18] found out someone was talking about you: a whole group. Like damn. Yall know who you are.  [19] met someone who changed you: hmm. Idk [20] found out who your true friends are: i have like only 3 friends so. Yes  [21] kissed someone on your facebook list: nope [22] how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: most likely all of them. Idk whos even my FB friend [23] do you have any pets: 2 dogs. And 1 cat who hasn’t been home in like a month ):  [24] do you want to change your name: hell no [25] what did you do for your last birthday: went out for dinner and hanged out with family [26] what time did you wake up: today around 8 am to join my mom for doctor and picnic. But tbh lately at 12.  [27] what were you doing at midnight last night: either texting friends and playing a game on my phone. Or netflixing with my Ma.  [28] name something you cannot wait for: next week. Going to a writers covfefe.  [29] when was the last time you saw your mother: she literally walked in right when i was reading this.  [30] what is one thing you wish you could change about your life: i wish that i didn’t have PCOS.  [31] what are you listening to right now: only the best song ever Strip That Down™ by Liam Payne™ [32] have you ever talked to a person named tom: yes  [33] something that is getting on your nerves: People giving me shit for being a history major or for liking history. Let me enjoy what I want. Just because I enjoy learning about history doesn’t mean i support or excuse every bad thing that has happened. Also, NO, i dont want to be a fucking history teacher. [34] most visited website: Tumblr, my math class’s website, and my school email thing. [35] elementary: ugh i miss it. Back then when no drama existed. Omg that reminds me. I saw my elementary teacher at my cousins wedding last month. [36] high school: fuck HS. Im glad im out of that hell hole.  [37] college: lovin it currently. Great people. My counselor is absolutely amazing and i love and miss her. [38] hair colour: dark red. [39] long or short hair: medium??? Its long kinda? Its curly. [40] do you have a crush on someone: yeah. My brothers best friend. Whoops.  [41] what do you like about yourself?: im fucking funny. Like even when i dont try to be.  [42] piercings: just my ears [43]blood type: idk. I think it was O positive? Is that even a type? Red?  [44] nickname: Bee, ‘stupid lesbean’ (dont ask), chewbaca [45] relationship status: single with major babyfever LMAOOO [46] zodiac sign: the best one, Scorpio [47] pronouns: she/her [48] fav tv show: The Walking Dead, Breaking Bad, Orange Is The New Black, The Fosters, and literally anything that has to do with history or ghost.  [49] tattoos: i wish ):  [50] right or left handed: right

FIRST… [51] surgery: none [52] piercing: on my ears as a baby  [53] best friend: pre school [54] sport: my mom says ballet, but i quit it and didnt like it. So im assuming its baseball. [55] vacation: either to mexico to visit family. Or Camping. Which i cant wait for.  [56] pair of trainers: lmao idk  [57] eating: um. Okay so the q’s after this im assuming dont have to do with first. So currently nothing.  [58] drinking: currently nothing. [59] im about to: charge my phone and go to sleep. It is 2 am [60] listening to: my dads footsteps as he’s walking round the house getting ready for work.  [61] waiting for: me to have a baby [62] want: a fucking baby [63] get married: give me a fucking baby first [64] career: POTUS. Or anything having to do with government stuff. Idk.

YOUR TYPE… [65] hugs or kisses: hmm kisses. Even if mouths gross me out.  [66] lips or eyes: eyes [67] shorter or taller: taller [68] older or younger: older [69] romantic or spontaneous: both. Please [70] nice arms or nice stomach: arms [71] sensitive or loud: loud. Like me. [72] hook up or relationship: relationship [73] troublemaker or hesitant: troublemaker…. like me

HAVE YOU EVER… [74] kissed a stranger? no [75] drank hard liquor? Lmao yeah [76] lost glasses/contact lenses?: yes. I was just thinking bout this today.  [77] turned someone down: lmAo yes [78] sex on first date? Yes [79] broken someone’s heart? Yup. And im not sorry. [80] had your own heart broken? Yes [81] been arrested? Nope [82] cried when someone died? Um yeah? [83] fallen for a friend: LMAO YOU WOULDNT BELIEVE

DO YOU BELIEVE IN… [84] yourself? fUCK YAH [85] miracles? Yea kinda [86] love at first sight? Hell yah hopeless romantic here [87] santa claus? LMAOO once upon a time [88] kiss on the first date? Yup [89] angels?: yes. I saw one once. [90] current best friend’s name: Stacey, ugli, why you no text me back?  [91] eye colour: brown [92] favourite movies: Literally anything with my boyfriend Michael Peña. And anything disney. Also, This Is The End.

I tag: @tomlitsons @paynesenterprise @gigglynarry @childlikemperor @aradicalinterpretationofthetext @letpaynelive @rosyharry @lirrycollab @liampaynetbfh @cupcakelirry @luc0zade @sunnylesbian @soloharrles @stylespayne @stripthatdownmp3

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